I believe accountability can be a challenge in a nonprofit, which only makes it all the more important. In this post, I am holding myself accountable. For the avoidance of doubt, nothing that follows has anything to do with my exit from the GNOME Foundation last August.
I owe a few folks some apologies from my time as Executive Director. I have apologized to most of them individually already, where I could. But I believe that public accountability is the antidote to public frustration and I hope this contributes, in a small way, to the GNOME community moving forward.
First off, I sincerely apologize to Jehan Pagès and Christian Hergert. I was curt with both of you last summer and neither of you deserved it. From July 23rd to August 29th I was dealing with significant sleep deprivation but that's no excuse for the way I spoke to either of you. I'm sorry.
Next, I apologize to the former Executive Directors and active community members who raised concerns to me. Holly, you warned me. Twice. Many other people tried to share their perspectives. I was too focused on the Foundation’s financial situation, and I did not take the time to fully understand what I was hearing from you all. I regret that.
To Sonny Piers: I am sorry. I had a long call with you last June. You told me your complicated story. You seemed hurt — but I didn't believe you. My understanding was incomplete and I did not approach the situation with the care it deserved.
I'm sorry I didn't do more to support you.
More than anyone, I want to apologize to Tobias Bernard. Tobias, I am sorry. You gave me many hours of your time, patience, and thoughtfulness. You shared your ideas openly and in good faith, and I didn't always meet that with the same level of openness.
In particular, when we discussed Sonny’s situation, I did not listen as carefully as I should have. I was too focused on my existing understanding, and I failed to engage with what you were trying to convey. You deserved better from me.
Sonny is lucky to have a friend like you.
This post reflects only my personal experiences and perspectives. It is not intended to make allegations or factual claims about the conduct of any individual or organization.