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 to apologize
<Alaura> Apologize?
<Alaura> For what
<Nancy> o.o
<Alaura> I have strep throat and fell asleep, i dont know what im apologizing for
<NovaSquirrel> did fluffyfox not talk to you already? if so I'll let her deal with you instead
<NovaSquirrel> but you're in trouble for yesterday
<Alaura> i have no idea what happened....
<Alaura> I HAVE STREP FUCKING THROAT
<Alaura> WHAT DO PEOPLE EXPECT FROM A SICK PERSON
<Wolfess> I even fucking told her i had strep
<Wolfess> or
<Wolfess> wrong network
<Alaura> *
<Alaura> Bouncer
<Alaura> Anyway
<Alaura> I shouldn't be expected to take care of others than me above them.
<Umby> It's too late to apologize
<Umby> It's too laassaaaaaaate
<NovaSquirrel> sick wolfesses can still be expected not to tell squirrels that there is some mysterious reason their marriage is not going to happen, AND refuse to actually disclose what it is, immediately after the to-be wife goes to bed
<NovaSquirrel> so she's going to punish you later
<Umby> Saying "good luck" *was* a really bad move
<NovaSquirrel> yes
<NovaSquirrel> she doesn't feel like she can talk to you about heavy subjects anymore
<Alaura> Then leave me, who gives a fuck
<Alaura> I usually always get this treatment
<Alaura> I only said good luck, and you questioned it
<Umby> Well, by itself it's fine, bye you suffixes it with ellipsis so that's why it's bad
<Alaura> As said, Girls/boys, always leave me, its part of my life NovaSquirrel And i came to expect that
<Alaura> so
<Alaura> If she disowns me as a pet, so be it. its her choice.
<Alaura> But i came to expect this eventually.
<Umby> Alaura: you said "good luck..." with the ellipsis, directly stating that you don't think the relationship will last
<Alaura> Because Umby From my perspective, it won't, too many things are broken and need to be fixed first, And I already seen that before i got her as a pet, i saw it when i was her pet
<Alaura> "her > NovaSquirrel"
<Alaura> Some things wont ever change
<Umby> With all due respect that's an opinion that should have been kept quiet
<Alaura> Well you wanted to know why i questioned it
<Alaura> Well now you know, so have fun
* EmberTiger has quit (Ping timeout: 182 seconds)
<Umby> Okay? I'm saying you shouldn't have questioned it
<NovaSquirrel> yeah, she told me after about three hours of being panicky, wondering if there was something I wasn't being told about
<NovaSquirrel> she told me not to take anything you say seriously
<Alaura> Pretty much
<Alaura> Never take anything i say seriously
* Umby sighs
<Alaura> Cause i'm not a fucking serious person
<Umby> Mow you're just shifting the blame to NovaSquirrel for thinking you could be trusted
<Alaura> Why trust me after what happened 3 years ago
* Umby curls up on his fluffy feral bed
<Umby> Because you said you changed
<Alaura> I did, But a lot of stuff came up that haunted me recently, and its hurting me for the better.
* Nancy is very curious on what happened to cause this
<Alaura> I would rather hurt myself, Then anyone around me, and let everyone know why i act like this, and why Fluffyfox should've just told me no
<Alaura> Because it "always" happens this way
<Alaura> I have no one due to trust issues, and stuff.
<NovaSquirrel> she's intending on keeping you if further problems don't come up
<Alaura> So thats why i shun off everyone around me
<NovaSquirrel> *you unless
<NovaSquirrel> oh nope, I don't need the correction
<Umby> "unless further problems don't come up"
<NovaSquirrel> yeah no unless
<Alaura> Wanna know something funny Umby, that one day was when i realized i can't help anyone
<Alaura> When i pm'ed you and tried to help you.
<Alaura> It proves i can't help anyone i care for.
<Umby> It's not my fault I can't be helped by anyone and always have to just recover by myself
<Alaura> it isnt
<Alaura> its mine
<Umby> It's not your fault ether
<Alaura> I destroyed shit 3 years ago, And i know the past is the past, but what really changed me, the fact im a standalone complex that can't be helped?
<Alaura> Ill shut up now, Im just digging my hole deeper and deeper
<Alaura> NovaSquirrel, In all honesty, i am sorry, that i said those things, But i realized, You have someone, that cares and stuff, what do i have, nothing, just the fact im a weird idiot who can't be a normal person for even 1 second.
<NovaSquirrel> thank you, I just wanted an apology
<Umby> Guys, now you should whip
* Umby explodes before that phrase is finished
<Alaura> I would rather just be alone and stuff, Fluffyfox has a reason to be with you, and its more or less you do care, and you do have a heart, Im not a strong as you.
<Alaura> as*
<Alaura> See me as heavy weight then anything else
<Alaura> anyway, Lets just watch as fluffyfox comes on and yells at me, Just waiting really/
<Alaura> .*
<NovaSquirrel> I don't expect her to be on this early in the morning
<Alaura> she's been on previously
<Alaura> "this early"
<NovaSquirrel> she was reaaaally sleepy when she went to bed at like 1:20
<Umby> if I didn't have to be at school I'd be soooooooo asleep right now
<NovaSquirrel> ha me too
<NovaSquirrel> or if I didn't have school at 10:00
<Alaura> I can't fall asleep anymore
<Alaura> Strep has been keeping me up with pain