tldr: I'm a woman and go by she/her pronouns. My name is Astrid!
So there's something I have hid from the internet for over 2 years. I'm trans, I am a woman, and my name is Astrid. I didn't hide it because I thought most people would hate me for it, I hid it because I was scared people would have pre-conceived notions about me and not really understand. Through this, I fragmented the internet with my deadname more and more, and it is something I am actively mopping up now, but now is the time to fix it for a few reasons:
- I cannot pretend to be a guy in some circles anymore: I didn't realise how much of a mental toll it had on me until recently when I woke up and realised I needed to come out. I have came out to many people already, and everyone I have came out to has been amazing. I am so thankful to be in the tech circle and have amazing friends who I know will make sure everything is going to be okay.
- It's doing a disservice to me and all you: I feel like I could not go to events before now for a long time because if I dressed too feminine people would obviously clock I was trans, but I felt terrible pretending to be a guy. This changes everything. Not being out was causing me to be more isolated than ever.
- I owe it to myself: I owe it to myself to not have to do super dysphoric things anymore. I am me.
Obviously, I cannot live my life like this. This sucks. I have been doing many things to make my life simpler:
- I started HRT: I have been on HRT for a while now now, and I can safely say it has changed my life and how I see my body! I feel so much better with a body that better reflects me and the ability to wear clothes that reflect me. I am proud of who I am becoming, and I couldn't say that before I started HRT.
- I've been fully out where I live: Since I moved to where I am now, I have been fully out.
- I started coming out to people: Everyone I have came out to so far has been genuinely amazing! Thanks to everyone I have came out to so far, I don't wish to name names for privacy and safety reasons, but you are all awesome!
A few things are going to happen:
- My GitHub has the handle IAmJSD and my Twitter has the handle just_some_dev, and some pseudo-user is taking the old handles place. I will do my upmost to preserve redirects on GitHub and try and script mirroring packages.
- If you use any Go packages of mine, I will eventually push a major release to these. This will break the module URL and you will need to change it. This will NOT affect anything on my companies GitHub user or the Hop Go SDK which is on their organization.
- My portfolio site will become astrid.place and my deadname portfolio site (<deadname>.me) will permanantly redirect.
- Any emails from me will come from astrid@gealer.email. My deadname will become an alias so mail will not be dropped.
- My PGP keys will change. I am NOT going to revoke my previous PGP keys. The new PGP key is accessible at https://astrid.place/public_key.
- My Git configuration will change to use this new PGP key and my correct name/email.
- I will be happier. :)
This is something I have wanted to do for 2 years and thanks in advance to most people who I'm sure will be amazing. I super appriciate you and I am the same human just in a more correct body.
I am sure some people will hate me over this, and that's fine, don't let the door hit you on the way out. I cannot pretend to be someone I'm not anymore. I'm not interested in the politics of being trans more than I just want the ability to live a happy life.
Thank you internet, and have a great day <3
-Astrid
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