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I've spent the last few months in the dark underbelly of the startup world. I | |
was brought in to be lead developer at a company that was getting ready to | |
redesign their website. They wanted something world class and amazing. It was | |
fun to work on something ambitious, and I felt respected and part of the team. | |
Because of this, for months I ignored the warning signs: the shady investors; | |
the fact that the half dozen partners couldn't agree on what they were even | |
building, so it took forever to make decisions about anything; their | |
unwillingness to pay for a designer for their world class website; their | |
unwillingness to pay for a decent logo; the lack of equity for early employees; | |
their bizarre employment scheme that had me billing my time to a company they | |
were consulting for while I did work for them. In spite of all of this, the CEO | |
was competent and mature, a domain expert and a skilled manager, and I thought | |
I could make a good product and be a part of a good company. | |
Well all that seediness has finally sprouted. They brought in a monstrous child | |
to manage me and my team, even though it was clear before they made him a | |
partner that he was unfit and didn't get along with the rest of us. In a few | |
weeks he has convinced the rest of the partners that I'm lazy and incompetent, | |
he has antagonized and disgruntled everyone in the office, has literally torn | |
apart the office, and now lives there with a random friend unrelated to the | |
company, sleeping on an air matress. And yet this behavior is tolerated for | |
some reason (he has commitment!), while I feel like I've become a pariah, and | |
am no longer trusted to get the job done. I've been shut out of decisions, and | |
now get random unexplained requests passed down to me. I can't get the once | |
trusted CEO on the phone, and when I do talk to him I no longer feel like I can | |
get a straight story out of him. | |
This is probably the darkest version of this story I can tell, there could be | |
other ones about how fun and exciting this has been, how much I've learned, and | |
the friends I've made, but the last few weeks have made me believe that this | |
dark version is also the most accurate account of the company. It seems I was | |
foolish to think I could stay here for a few years and build something | |
worthwhile in this context. | |
My instinct is to leave immediately, but I have a few reservations: first, I | |
would be abandoning the junior developer I've trained, who seems to worship me | |
far out of proportion to anything I deserve. I want his first professional | |
project to come out successfully, and I want to live up to whatever it is he | |
sees in me. Second, I have a "non-traditional" job history, and adding a failed | |
project to the top of my resume (or a conspicuous absense) would probably do | |
more harm to me than to some other developers. I have enough saved up that I | |
could live for a short few months if it took a little while to get a job, but | |
after this period of steady employment I don't want to go back to the marginal | |
freelancing I was doing before, and I'm worried whether I could actually do | |
better. | |
It's hard to explain how traumatizing and demoralizing this has been, and how | |
much I dread going back to the office every day. I just want to do useful work | |
and hone my craft. I don't want to play these bullshit games. |
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