gladia-with-just-name.txt

[2.81-3.01] Hello,
[3.13-3.87] good morning.
[4.67-7.22] I'm sorry I didn't get to do this last night and send it to you already.
[8.93-29.75] and I'm a lawyer.
[98.64-100.99] Thanks for watching!
[103.33-105.59] The transformation that I have felt in the last like,
[106.41-107.37] since January,
[108.03-108.25] really,
[109.33-109.71] I guess yeah,
[109.73-110.49] it's about six months,
[110.81-111.05] like,
[112.21-112.53] I don't know,
[112.65-112.97] like it's,
[113.37-114.43] like I feel unlocked.
[115.09-117.85] Like I'm not scared to be seen in public anymore.
[118.39-120.19] And if there are times I do get overwhelmed,
[120.49-120.73] like,
[121.33-123.89] like that time I told you about in the car where I was like,
[123.93-124.57] what's going on?
[124.95-126.63] Why is my body freaking out?
[126.67-127.76] It was because I was going the wrong place.
[127.80-129.44] But I did all the things like close my eyes,
[129.62-130.36] took deep breaths,
[130.98-132.18] trying to go inward,
[132.24-132.42] like
[161.63-179.33] you know when I see things like that or like share those practices and things and share about you because I know that it's much needed and especially since like you come with it not just as a perspective of like you know because there's people out there that like want to heal and help people but it's also kind of about like I
[179.35-185.49] don't know maybe not always coming from the greatest intentions or like that.
[247.55-249.64] So if we needed to check back in with anything this evening,
[249.68-250.02] we could.
[253.25-253.33] So,
[254.60-256.68] and I'll try to pause between the questions,
[257.20-258.24] so that way you can see,
[258.70-258.86] like,
[258.90-260.40] the gap in the audio on the thing,
[260.46-261.50] so if you clip it or whatever,
[262.34-263.52] then it'll be easier.
[265.14-265.20] So,
[265.28-266.39] why did you want to work with me?
[267.05-267.91] What about me drew,
[268.31-269.61] what about me drew you to me?
[270.75-271.39] So I think for you,
[271.85-271.97] like,
[271.99-272.21] honestly,
[272.29-273.59] you just randomly popped up in my,
[273.67-273.89] like,
[274.67-275.49] suggested pages,
[275.53-278.02] because apparently we've had a lot of mutual friends in the past,
[278.10-278.26] but...
[280.87-297.30] and I think the first thing I started seeing about was like some of the polyvagal ladder stuff and I'd recognize that from when I did with my neurologist when I was going through a lot of brain therapy with my Lyme disease treatment because they used a little like electrical
[297.38-298.96] impulsing that clip on my ears
[301.43-321.80] and
[341.98-352.42] me
[359.40-364.32] like in addition to just fine tuning and practices and connecting to my body and things like that,
[365.13-371.51] but of like realizing like it's not always me and it's not my fault and that I'm not broken,
[371.71-377.79] like I'm not messed up in some way and that I just need to hold different perspectives.
[378.15-381.04] And yeah,
[381.18-384.20] so I think that's really what it is and like that.
[386.44-389.66] because there's other people I've looked at or things like that that,
[390.28-390.46] you know,
[390.70-393.50] they do hold that kind of extremist thing.
[393.72-395.30] And you're like,
[395.36-395.42] no,
[395.82-396.00] you know,
[396.08-396.14] if,
[396.30-399.42] if you can't really do anything and you kind of have to like fucking dissociate sometimes,
[399.48-399.66] like,
[400.20-400.36] you know,
[400.46-401.87] try to add some other practices in there,
[401.91-402.27] but like,
[402.47-405.21] it's okay because your body's just trying to protect you.
[405.25-406.19] And like coming from that,
[406.25-409.79] like in itself just helps me in those states,
[409.81-410.71] like find more comfort.
[410.81-413.05] Like even if I'm not like not able to do anything,
[413.09-413.93] just knowing that,
[414.99-416.31] like that I'm okay.
[423.51-434.46] SheaBlake
[436.98-451.57] It's kind of helped build my resources so that way when I am facing like challenges or certain situations That I almost like I mean I don't wanna say I get excited But like kinda like I get curious about oh,
[451.65-452.53] where is this coming from?
[452.85-453.79] What is in this darkness?
[453.85-454.81] What is in the shadows?
[455.33-466.03] What can I understand from this and like I love that I have more of a toolkit to do that now my sister and I We called it spiritual splunking
[495.44-503.07] I think in recognizing my sleeping and eating habits.
[505.47-531.52] even
[536.48-539.58] Thanks for watching!
[541.53-558.14] like zoning in more on the sensations I'm feeling and what they're actually relating to instead of what um like I thought they were um but yeah like recognizing like when I'm feeling off and like that halt thing the hunger angry lonely tired um
[558.60-567.58] like I think that like recognizing that and asking myself that and recognizing what my body does when those things are occurring um has been really helpful.
[573.25-574.67] I think I forgot to pause between the things,
[574.83-575.01] sorry.
[576.57-579.07] So what surprised you the most about working with me?
[582.89-585.83] I think just how light-hearted you can keep it.
[586.43-586.74] Like,
[587.54-589.66] you are the light in the caves in the darkness.
[590.44-597.48] And finding those ways to bring a little awe and curiosity and pleasure to it.
[599.64-599.88] And...
[600.53-600.79] I think,
[600.85-607.71] because for me I can kind of get stuck in a serious mode too and I've tried been working on being more playful and so I think that really like,
[609.74-616.20] like really like also drew me to you and it was like fun,
[616.70-616.88] you know,
[617.62-619.12] like doing this work became fun.
[623.21-624.91] What changes would improve your experience?
[625.43-628.30] What frustrations or anything that didn't work for you?
[630.20-630.70] I think for me,
[630.86-631.06] like,
[632.49-642.29] Maybe like the rhythm like you've heard to talk about like that with like the rhythm of some of the sessions like every other week sometimes Felt a bit much for me Just to like be live,
[642.69-643.91] but I also think like at that time.
[644.01-648.60] I was still working up to Feeling comfortable just around people no matter what scenario.
[648.70-661.00] I'm in because a lot of times I retreat but I Think like having some options like the recorded and then some of the live
[696.75-699.34] and
[721.50-721.56] on
[776.01-776.27] Um,
[778.33-780.45] I'm like already trying to think of how I've been describing it to people,
[780.87-784.75] because each time it's kind of been like catered to how to relate to them.
[785.91-786.07] Um,
[786.87-793.79] I guess I would say that it's a way to...
[795.99-806.06] like open yourself up in a like in safe parameters because you have like kind of like you create kind of this safe bubble.
[807.37-812.57] that people can understand themselves and then also learn about how it's happening in their body.
[812.95-815.49] Like what's happening behind the hormone cascades,
[815.53-816.91] what's happening behind the nervous system,
[816.95-818.63] what's happening behind your,
[819.09-819.31] you know,
[819.71-821.21] all of your organs doing things.
[822.03-830.12] And like that that often is the piece that's missing when people try to go through things because um...
[836.52-842.49] like
[861.89-867.00] you do it in such a way that really helps you find the beauty of your body,
[867.14-868.16] the beauty of your vessel,
[868.26-872.43] the beauty of some of your experiences,
[872.49-875.09] but also getting to still see the ugliness of them,
[875.15-875.39] you know?
[877.47-877.87] In itself,
[877.93-880.36] that has its own kind of awe.
[888.92-890.62] has
[906.66-919.91] like a
[921.43-921.99] lovebird.