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[2014-06-18 02:55:08] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here>
[2014-06-21 01:56:06] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here?
[2014-06-21 02:51:06] <diabeticgonewild> hey is this Ben West?
[2014-06-21 02:51:22] <diabeticgonewild> I am working on programming the Ambulatory Glucose Profile in MATLAB
[2014-06-21 02:51:58] <diabeticgonewild> using CareLink CSV file exports (with CGM, pump, and glucose meter data uploads)
[2014-06-21 03:13:04] <diabeticgonewild> I can upload the code so far
[2014-06-21 03:13:08] <diabeticgonewild> that I have
[2014-06-21 03:13:22] <diabeticgonewild> thank you bewest1
[2014-06-21 03:13:37] <diabeticgonewild> and my data file (if you promise not to share)
[2014-06-21 03:13:56] <diabeticgonewild> it's only 500 lines, so far
[2014-06-21 03:14:00] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't worked on it a ton
[2014-06-21 03:17:34] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-06-21 03:17:39] <diabeticgonewild> how?
[2014-06-21 03:17:48] <diabeticgonewild> I know Java and C
[2014-06-21 03:17:52] <diabeticgonewild> and MATLAB
[2014-06-21 03:18:29] <diabeticgonewild> I have type 1, obviously, and a rare autoimmune disease that causes *autoimmune* autonomic neuropathy (not diabetes-related, but was originally thought to be)
[2014-06-21 03:18:53] <diabeticgonewild> so I am always kind of tired
[2014-06-21 03:19:01] <diabeticgonewild> I can learn python or Javascript
[2014-06-21 03:19:05] <diabeticgonewild> it's not hard to learn
[2014-06-21 03:22:03] <diabeticgonewild> how do you get direct data from the pump
[2014-06-21 03:22:29] <diabeticgonewild> btw, I am a senior EE student at Arizona State University (I had to transfer out of another university due to medical problems)
[2014-06-21 03:22:42] <diabeticgonewild> oh I see
[2014-06-21 03:22:44] <diabeticgonewild> using ComLink
[2014-06-21 03:22:49] <diabeticgonewild> serial connection
[2014-06-21 03:22:54] <diabeticgonewild> obviously makes it easier
[2014-06-21 03:32:42] <diabeticgonewild> but like
[2014-06-21 03:32:47] <diabeticgonewild> I have access to Lynda.com
[2014-06-21 03:33:01] <diabeticgonewild> so I can get video tuts of python and Javascript
[2014-06-21 03:33:05] <diabeticgonewild> with exercise files
[2014-06-21 03:33:27] <diabeticgonewild> so the CareLink USB stick.
[2014-06-21 03:33:57] <diabeticgonewild> this can technically be reprogrammed as a driver to an OTG capable Android phone, correct?
[2014-06-21 03:34:14] <diabeticgonewild> I need to buy a CareLink USB stick
[2014-06-21 03:34:24] <diabeticgonewild> I have a Contour Next USB meter
[2014-06-21 03:34:52] <diabeticgonewild> did you get the driver info via like CareLink Pro?
[2014-06-21 03:34:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 03:35:00] <diabeticgonewild> it connects via USB
[2014-06-21 03:35:05] <diabeticgonewild> and uploads
[2014-06-21 03:35:14] <diabeticgonewild> via CareLink personal
[2014-06-21 03:35:22] <diabeticgonewild> using the Java applet
[2014-06-21 03:35:32] <diabeticgonewild> I guess the starting point
[2014-06-21 03:35:40] <diabeticgonewild> is like figuring out the serial connection
[2014-06-21 03:36:48] <diabeticgonewild> I can do that
[2014-06-21 03:36:53] <diabeticgonewild> especially in MATLAB
[2014-06-21 03:37:46] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.mathworks.com/company/newsletters/articles/configuring-and-controlling-external-hardware-in-matlab.html
[2014-06-21 03:37:53] <diabeticgonewild> basically RS-232 devices
[2014-06-21 03:38:00] <diabeticgonewild> serial connections
[2014-06-21 03:38:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 03:39:27] <diabeticgonewild> transport, as in serial protocol
[2014-06-21 03:39:51] <diabeticgonewild> by making it proprietary?
[2014-06-21 03:39:53] <diabeticgonewild> I assume?
[2014-06-21 03:40:36] <diabeticgonewild> that's pretty wild
[2014-06-21 03:40:55] <diabeticgonewild> MATLAB is a prety clean interface, if you know it
[2014-06-21 03:41:15] <diabeticgonewild> where do you want me to upload "the start" of the AGP for CareLink CSV file
[2014-06-21 03:41:15] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-06-21 03:41:32] <diabeticgonewild> well insulin pumps need to be more precise
[2014-06-21 03:42:03] <diabeticgonewild> I also programmed one of the algorithms to the artificial pancreas project (years ago--in 2011) in MATLAB
[2014-06-21 03:42:13] <diabeticgonewild> using CareLink data
[2014-06-21 03:42:18] <diabeticgonewild> I have the files to that
[2014-06-21 03:42:28] <diabeticgonewild> if you want them
[2014-06-21 03:42:33] <diabeticgonewild> do you want it to be private
[2014-06-21 03:42:34] <diabeticgonewild> or public
[2014-06-21 03:42:35] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-06-21 03:42:37] <diabeticgonewild> either way
[2014-06-21 03:42:50] <diabeticgonewild> I need to remove the serial numbers off of the CareLink uploads
[2014-06-21 03:42:51] <diabeticgonewild> and my name
[2014-06-21 03:42:56] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-06-21 03:44:27] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-06-21 03:44:35] <diabeticgonewild> I am about to send an email
[2014-06-21 03:46:37] <diabeticgonewild> just a sec
[2014-06-21 03:46:49] <diabeticgonewild> gmail is having trouble with my attachments
[2014-06-21 03:46:59] <diabeticgonewild> I am sending the AGP your way first
[2014-06-21 03:50:04] <diabeticgonewild> I will try to make it public
[2014-06-21 03:50:12] <diabeticgonewild> give me like until monday
[2014-06-21 03:50:22] <diabeticgonewild> I have a bunch of stuff due Monday
[2014-06-21 03:50:26] <diabeticgonewild> due on Sunday
[2014-06-21 03:50:32] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, I am an online student now
[2014-06-21 03:50:38] <diabeticgonewild> finishing my EE degree online
[2014-06-21 03:50:47] <diabeticgonewild> because my former university gave me problems
[2014-06-21 03:51:05] <diabeticgonewild> even though I was a good student, and was offered a 6 month internship with Intel for 6 months
[2014-06-21 03:51:07] <diabeticgonewild> in EE
[2014-06-21 03:51:17] <diabeticgonewild> but I had to decline due to medical problems
[2014-06-21 03:51:22] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah I will try to upload it
[2014-06-21 03:51:27] <diabeticgonewild> you don't really need to credit me
[2014-06-21 03:52:34] <diabeticgonewild> awesome!
[2014-06-21 03:53:22] <diabeticgonewild> oh thanks
[2014-06-21 03:53:23] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-06-21 03:53:27] <diabeticgonewild> if you say so!
[2014-06-21 03:53:28] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-06-21 03:54:05] <diabeticgonewild> the AP project is not as clean of a code
[2014-06-21 03:54:12] <diabeticgonewild> I am better at programming now
[2014-06-21 03:54:33] <diabeticgonewild> so I would not suggest running it, unless I modify it some
[2014-06-21 03:54:56] <diabeticgonewild> like what I did was import the CSV file into excel
[2014-06-21 03:55:02] <diabeticgonewild> saved it as an XLS file
[2014-06-21 03:55:18] <diabeticgonewild> and imported it in to MATLAB using XLSREAD instead of CSVREAD
[2014-06-21 03:55:20] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-21 03:55:34] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have a ton of comments in the AP project files
[2014-06-21 03:55:35] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-21 03:55:46] <diabeticgonewild> the data structures might cause runtime errors
[2014-06-21 03:56:11] <diabeticgonewild> because I did not code the CareLink import in the cleanest way
[2014-06-21 03:56:26] <diabeticgonewild> because the CareLink upload is kind of dirty
[2014-06-21 03:56:32] <diabeticgonewild> CareLink is kind of messy
[2014-06-21 03:56:45] <diabeticgonewild> well my AGP (so far) is pretty clean
[2014-06-21 03:57:03] <diabeticgonewild> plenty of comments, but I need to clean it up and add units to all of the measurements
[2014-06-21 03:57:30] <diabeticgonewild> and follow a convention
[2014-06-21 03:57:36] <diabeticgonewild> but I am on a roll in MATLAB
[2014-06-21 03:58:10] <diabeticgonewild> from what?
[2014-06-21 03:58:13] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-21 03:58:14] <diabeticgonewild> nvm
[2014-06-21 03:58:26] <diabeticgonewild> like my programming style?
[2014-06-21 03:59:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 03:59:09] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-06-21 04:00:32] <diabeticgonewild> so what pump/CGM do you use?
[2014-06-21 04:00:40] <diabeticgonewild> I use all medtronic equipment
[2014-06-21 04:00:47] <diabeticgonewild> I know Dexcom is "better"
[2014-06-21 04:00:47] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-21 04:01:01] <diabeticgonewild> I get ??? exactly 6 hours post calibration
[2014-06-21 04:01:06] <diabeticgonewild> with the Dexcom devices
[2014-06-21 04:01:16] <diabeticgonewild> and I never get data reads after that
[2014-06-21 04:01:21] <diabeticgonewild> I use a 530G
[2014-06-21 04:01:27] <diabeticgonewild> the smaller one (551)
[2014-06-21 04:01:34] <diabeticgonewild> with Enlites
[2014-06-21 04:02:07] <diabeticgonewild> I could not use the Asante Snap
[2014-06-21 04:02:09] <diabeticgonewild> because
[2014-06-21 04:02:19] <diabeticgonewild> I am actually currently on Medicare
[2014-06-21 04:02:40] <diabeticgonewild> like I have a rare autoimmune disease that causes *autoimmune* autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-21 04:03:03] <diabeticgonewild> that is not diabetes-related (but it was originally thought to be--for 4 years)
[2014-06-21 04:03:19] <diabeticgonewild> the Enlites have a unique taping technique
[2014-06-21 04:03:20] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-21 04:04:02] <diabeticgonewild> I never peel off the wax backing to adhere the Enlite pad to my skin (which causes the transmitter to "flex" more)
[2014-06-21 04:04:09] <diabeticgonewild> and so it seems to work better
[2014-06-21 04:04:18] <diabeticgonewild> like it's a trial and error process
[2014-06-21 04:04:18] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-21 04:04:30] <diabeticgonewild> like I heard putting the sensors where you don't inject
[2014-06-21 04:04:32] <diabeticgonewild> is better
[2014-06-21 04:04:39] <diabeticgonewild> like in your legs
[2014-06-21 04:12:05] <diabeticgonewild> so to decode the Bayer Contour Next USB
[2014-06-21 04:12:19] <diabeticgonewild> obviously you would have to run a distro of Linux, right?
[2014-06-21 04:14:38] <diabeticgonewild> I guess my first step is learning Javascript and Python
[2014-06-21 04:16:38] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, but it's potentially reversible (and has proven itself to be)
[2014-06-21 04:16:48] <diabeticgonewild> I just finished chemo a month ago--as immunosuppression
[2014-06-21 04:16:52] <diabeticgonewild> sure, you can share it
[2014-06-21 04:17:37] <diabeticgonewild> the disease is called autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy...we think I had the disease when I was diagnosed with diabetes 20 years ago and it might have caused my type 1
[2014-06-21 04:17:55] <diabeticgonewild> at least theoretically (it cannot be proven)
[2014-06-21 04:18:23] <diabeticgonewild> like I have the antibodies for autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-06-21 04:27:45] <diabeticgonewild> you know there are reports that glucagon remains stable in the fridge for a week
[2014-06-21 04:28:09] <diabeticgonewild> when they had that big AP conference at the NIH like (I think?) in 2009
[2014-06-21 04:35:22] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: idk what kind of pump she is using
[2014-06-21 04:35:29] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-21 04:35:56] <diabeticgonewild> you can definitely buy pumps off of craigslist
[2014-06-21 04:36:01] <diabeticgonewild> for cheap
[2014-06-21 04:36:13] <diabeticgonewild> and use a second pump for glucagon
[2014-06-21 04:54:31] <diabeticgonewild> good morning
[2014-06-21 04:59:41] <diabeticgonewild> tired
[2014-06-21 04:59:42] <diabeticgonewild> BG is high
[2014-06-21 05:00:10] <diabeticgonewild> don't feel well
[2014-06-21 05:00:11] <diabeticgonewild> also
[2014-06-21 05:00:41] <diabeticgonewild> I just found out one of my diabetic friends who I went to camp with as a friend just died of gastroparesis
[2014-06-21 05:02:44] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 05:04:27] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-21 05:04:33] <diabeticgonewild> gastroparesis
[2014-06-21 05:06:33] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-21 05:06:39] <diabeticgonewild> it's autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-21 05:06:47] <diabeticgonewild> due to long-term diabetes
[2014-06-21 05:07:17] <diabeticgonewild> I have an *autoimmune* form of autonomic neuropathy (very rare--not diabetes related)
[2014-06-21 05:07:49] <diabeticgonewild> it sure it
[2014-06-21 05:07:51] <diabeticgonewild> it sure is
[2014-06-21 05:13:34] <diabeticgonewild> that is correct
[2014-06-21 05:13:37] <diabeticgonewild> same thing
[2014-06-21 05:13:51] <diabeticgonewild> it is a neuropathy
[2014-06-21 13:38:29] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-06-21 13:38:44] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: I posted the project to GitHub
[2014-06-21 13:39:21] <diabeticgonewild> https://github.com/diabeticgonewild/Artificial_Pancreas
[2014-06-21 13:39:30] <diabeticgonewild> I need to update the readme
[2014-06-21 13:39:42] <diabeticgonewild> and find a way to add the XLS file
[2014-06-21 13:40:03] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-06-21 13:40:34] <diabeticgonewild> oh that'a cool
[2014-06-21 13:41:38] <diabeticgonewild> do you think that the Medtronic pump and CGM can be reversed engineered to the point that it can be controlled on an android phone
[2014-06-21 13:41:52] <diabeticgonewild> yeah let me try to pull up the journal article that I used to program it
[2014-06-21 13:42:06] <diabeticgonewild> I mean in a year, or so, bewest
[2014-06-21 13:43:23] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it shouldn't be that hard
[2014-06-21 13:43:30] <diabeticgonewild> but the Dexcom doesn't work for me
[2014-06-21 13:43:48] <diabeticgonewild> after 6 hours with the initial calibration, it goes to straight ???
[2014-06-21 13:43:53] <diabeticgonewild> and that's it
[2014-06-21 13:43:54] <diabeticgonewild> with me
[2014-06-21 13:44:04] <diabeticgonewild> does it decode temp basals?
[2014-06-21 13:44:08] <diabeticgonewild> I heard that is an issue
[2014-06-21 13:44:39] <diabeticgonewild> well I guess you don't need that
[2014-06-21 13:44:42] <diabeticgonewild> technically
[2014-06-21 13:46:27] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-06-21 13:46:36] <diabeticgonewild> I have access to Lynda.com
[2014-06-21 13:46:55] <diabeticgonewild> so I can figure out Python, JavaScript, and Android app programmin
[2014-06-21 13:46:55] <diabeticgonewild> g
[2014-06-21 13:46:58] <diabeticgonewild> in video tut form
[2014-06-21 13:47:02] <diabeticgonewild> relatively easily
[2014-06-21 13:47:12] <diabeticgonewild> I can do the artificial pancreas part
[2014-06-21 13:47:22] <diabeticgonewild> but in whatever language it has to be in on Android
[2014-06-21 13:47:25] <diabeticgonewild> might be challenging
[2014-06-21 13:47:29] <diabeticgonewild> but I am sure I can do it
[2014-06-21 13:47:41] <diabeticgonewild> I was trained programming-wise to deal with data structures
[2014-06-21 13:47:50] <diabeticgonewild> btw, I am still looking for that article
[2014-06-21 13:48:28] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have it on my computer any longer
[2014-06-21 13:48:29] <diabeticgonewild> kk
[2014-06-21 13:48:36] <diabeticgonewild> I can figure it out either way
[2014-06-21 13:53:31] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-06-21 13:54:51] <diabeticgonewild> this isn't the actual article
[2014-06-21 13:54:55] <diabeticgonewild> but it's the same exact people
[2014-06-21 13:55:00] <diabeticgonewild> and the same exact formulas
[2014-06-21 13:55:01] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2769684/
[2014-06-21 13:55:27] <diabeticgonewild> and you have to cross-reference a bunch of other papers to find *all* of the formulas and equations needed to complete the artificial pancreas model
[2014-06-21 13:55:45] <diabeticgonewild> like it took me like 20 papers (of cross-referencing) to program that project
[2014-06-21 13:56:22] <diabeticgonewild> like math-wise
[2014-06-21 13:56:36] <diabeticgonewild> it's a bunch of calculus 1 and calculus 3
[2014-06-21 13:56:47] <diabeticgonewild> some linear algebra and some differential equations
[2014-06-21 13:57:07] <diabeticgonewild> and engineering wise it has some digital signal processing
[2014-06-21 13:57:24] <diabeticgonewild> but you don't really need to know that much, if you already have a strong background in math
[2014-06-21 13:57:39] <diabeticgonewild> because all in all it turns out working out, if you know one or the other
[2014-06-21 13:59:22] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-21 14:00:34] <diabeticgonewild> see this is pretty much all you need
[2014-06-21 14:00:35] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-21 14:00:37] <diabeticgonewild> http://etd.dtu.dk/thesis/248263/ep09_46_net.pdf
[2014-06-21 14:00:53] <diabeticgonewild> look starting at page 119
[2014-06-21 14:00:54] <diabeticgonewild> for codes
[2014-06-21 14:01:55] <diabeticgonewild> like in order to do this
[2014-06-21 14:02:03] <diabeticgonewild> you need all of Roman Hovorka's articles
[2014-06-21 14:02:40] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well it's not that updated
[2014-06-21 14:02:47] <diabeticgonewild> he seems to be analyzing the behavior
[2014-06-21 14:02:49] <diabeticgonewild> of the models
[2014-06-21 14:02:57] <diabeticgonewild> the problem with the AP project
[2014-06-21 14:03:06] <diabeticgonewild> is that the insulin dosing based on carbohydrates
[2014-06-21 14:03:13] <diabeticgonewild> and the *prediction* of blood glucose
[2014-06-21 14:03:15] <diabeticgonewild> based on that
[2014-06-21 14:03:23] <diabeticgonewild> there are not accurate models out yet
[2014-06-21 14:03:25] <diabeticgonewild> and basically
[2014-06-21 14:03:28] <diabeticgonewild> what they need to do it
[2014-06-21 14:03:29] <diabeticgonewild> is
[2014-06-21 14:03:40] <diabeticgonewild> get some people to eat various meals
[2014-06-21 14:03:46] <diabeticgonewild> of varying carbohydrates
[2014-06-21 14:03:52] <diabeticgonewild> with radioactive tracers
[2014-06-21 14:03:55] <diabeticgonewild> to develop models
[2014-06-21 14:03:58] <diabeticgonewild> for that
[2014-06-21 14:04:00] <diabeticgonewild> until then
[2014-06-21 14:04:11] <diabeticgonewild> a glucagon pump might be needed
[2014-06-21 14:04:29] <diabeticgonewild> and like years ago (2009?) the NIH did a consortium on the artificial pancreas
[2014-06-21 14:04:35] <diabeticgonewild> and like glucagon mixed
[2014-06-21 14:04:43] <diabeticgonewild> is supposed to last like a week in the fridge
[2014-06-21 14:04:48] <diabeticgonewild> like this is sketchy
[2014-06-21 14:05:02] <diabeticgonewild> but you could get a backup pump via CraigsList (if you don't have one)
[2014-06-21 14:05:13] <diabeticgonewild> and just conserve infusion sets (to a certain degree)
[2014-06-21 14:05:23] <diabeticgonewild> and get a generous prescription of glucagon
[2014-06-21 14:05:32] <diabeticgonewild> and just carry around two pumps
[2014-06-21 14:05:32] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-21 14:05:43] <diabeticgonewild> I can get a generous Rx for glucagon
[2014-06-21 14:05:44] <diabeticgonewild> probably
[2014-06-21 14:05:48] <diabeticgonewild> for mini-doses
[2014-06-21 14:05:53] <diabeticgonewild> I have heard of people doing that
[2014-06-21 14:05:54] <diabeticgonewild> because
[2014-06-21 14:06:01] <diabeticgonewild> I have severe gastroparesis
[2014-06-21 14:06:04] <diabeticgonewild> so when I am low
[2014-06-21 14:06:12] <diabeticgonewild> I end up going low for a very long time
[2014-06-21 14:06:22] <diabeticgonewild> because my stomach does not empty well
[2014-06-21 14:06:47] <diabeticgonewild> and anyways I have heard of people getting generous Rx for glucagon with gastroparesis
[2014-06-21 14:07:53] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:08:31] <diabeticgonewild> like with insulin (or a separate pump)
[2014-06-21 14:08:40] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-06-21 14:08:44] <diabeticgonewild> yeah this is sketchy
[2014-06-21 14:09:01] <diabeticgonewild> but you can definitely get a backup pump from like craigslist relatively cheap
[2014-06-21 14:09:23] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have ameloidosis
[2014-06-21 14:09:35] <diabeticgonewild> I have severe gastroparesis, not diabetes-related
[2014-06-21 14:09:46] <diabeticgonewild> ameloidosis causes autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-21 14:09:47] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-21 14:09:56] <diabeticgonewild> glucagon lasts a week in the fridge
[2014-06-21 14:10:00] <diabeticgonewild> according to the consortium
[2014-06-21 14:10:03] <diabeticgonewild> from the NIH
[2014-06-21 14:10:14] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:10:18] <diabeticgonewild> according to research
[2014-06-21 14:10:28] <diabeticgonewild> from the NIH consortium on the AP
[2014-06-21 14:10:28] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-21 14:10:30] <diabeticgonewild> it's a disease
[2014-06-21 14:10:47] <diabeticgonewild> anyways, I don't have amyloidosis (can't spell right now)
[2014-06-21 14:11:26] <diabeticgonewild> I have autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, which causes *autoimmune* autonomic neuropathy (which might have caused my type 1 diabetes--it showed up around the time I was showing signs of diabetes)
[2014-06-21 14:11:49] <diabeticgonewild> like I am about to get a second medtronic pump
[2014-06-21 14:12:14] <diabeticgonewild> possibly
[2014-06-21 14:14:36] <diabeticgonewild> I guess keeping it in the fridge might be worth it
[2014-06-21 14:14:42] <diabeticgonewild> FRIO might be good
[2014-06-21 14:14:52] <diabeticgonewild> but it's still self-expirimentation
[2014-06-21 14:15:13] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah, my pump goes out of warranty in August
[2014-06-21 14:15:18] <diabeticgonewild> and I can't get an Asante
[2014-06-21 14:15:30] <diabeticgonewild> because Medicare does not cover the glass cartridges
[2014-06-21 14:15:54] <diabeticgonewild> it doesn't cover insulin pens at all
[2014-06-21 14:16:05] <diabeticgonewild> Medicare doesn't work that way
[2014-06-21 14:16:10] <diabeticgonewild> they have all of these guidelines
[2014-06-21 14:16:21] <diabeticgonewild> and like it's very hard to get coverage
[2014-06-21 14:16:40] <diabeticgonewild> it can be really difficult
[2014-06-21 14:17:02] <diabeticgonewild> like getting omnipod on medicare is impossible unless you have a medicare advantage plan that allows you to
[2014-06-21 14:17:09] <diabeticgonewild> you can't get CGM on medicare either
[2014-06-21 14:17:16] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much never gets approved
[2014-06-21 14:17:17] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-21 14:17:33] <diabeticgonewild> I do have private secondary insurance
[2014-06-21 14:17:44] <diabeticgonewild> and I can get the Omnipod and the Snap and stuff
[2014-06-21 14:17:44] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-21 14:18:00] <diabeticgonewild> I might not be able to stay on the plan when I am 26
[2014-06-21 14:18:03] <diabeticgonewild> I am 25 right now
[2014-06-21 14:18:32] <diabeticgonewild> you have to go to an administrative law judge to override the appeal
[2014-06-21 14:18:37] <diabeticgonewild> and you have to wait months
[2014-06-21 14:18:41] <diabeticgonewild> in a couple of years
[2014-06-21 14:18:45] <diabeticgonewild> I am technically a senior
[2014-06-21 14:18:53] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have 50 hours left
[2014-06-21 14:19:08] <diabeticgonewild> and the first online class at ASU for EE will graduate Fall 2016
[2014-06-21 14:19:10] <diabeticgonewild> my former school
[2014-06-21 14:19:15] <diabeticgonewild> the University of Houston
[2014-06-21 14:19:25] <diabeticgonewild> basically messed around with me really badly
[2014-06-21 14:19:26] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-21 14:19:38] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-21 14:19:47] <diabeticgonewild> I am also trying to get healthier in the meantime
[2014-06-21 14:19:48] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-21 14:20:03] <diabeticgonewild> I just finished chemo (as imunosuppression) like a month ago
[2014-06-21 14:20:09] <diabeticgonewild> anyways my previous school
[2014-06-21 14:20:18] <diabeticgonewild> I had to take medical withdrawal for 4 semesters
[2014-06-21 14:20:23] <diabeticgonewild> over very serious medical issues
[2014-06-21 14:20:37] <diabeticgonewild> and like in a meeting a couple of years ago
[2014-06-21 14:20:43] <diabeticgonewild> in the college of engineering
[2014-06-21 14:20:47] <diabeticgonewild> they were talking about me
[2014-06-21 14:20:56] <diabeticgonewild> and how I had took medical withdrawal 4 times
[2014-06-21 14:21:27] <diabeticgonewild> and they were talking about giving me Fs instead of Ws (because the professors have that option) if I were to take medical withdrawal again
[2014-06-21 14:21:29] <diabeticgonewild> OR
[2014-06-21 14:21:50] <diabeticgonewild> not let me repeat classes (due to medical withdrawals only--not really academic reasons at all)
[2014-06-21 14:21:54] <diabeticgonewild> in other words
[2014-06-21 14:21:57] <diabeticgonewild> kill my GPA
[2014-06-21 14:22:03] <diabeticgonewild> or keep me from getting my degree
[2014-06-21 14:22:09] <diabeticgonewild> which could keep me from getting a job
[2014-06-21 14:22:17] <diabeticgonewild> so I decided to transfer out
[2014-06-21 14:22:25] <diabeticgonewild> and like when you go to disabilities at UH
[2014-06-21 14:22:38] <diabeticgonewild> they are like yeah engineering is the worst at giving accommodations
[2014-06-21 14:22:56] <diabeticgonewild> and like when I would ask my professors for accommodations
[2014-06-21 14:23:00] <diabeticgonewild> it was a huge problem
[2014-06-21 14:23:02] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-21 14:23:24] <diabeticgonewild> the professors are allowed to "line item veto" individual accommodations they don't agree with
[2014-06-21 14:23:34] <diabeticgonewild> so if they don't agree with an accommodation
[2014-06-21 14:23:53] <diabeticgonewild> you would have to go to the chair of the department (like in electrical engineering) and talk it over with them
[2014-06-21 14:23:59] <diabeticgonewild> and it was a huge hassle
[2014-06-21 14:24:01] <diabeticgonewild> well they aren't
[2014-06-21 14:24:08] <diabeticgonewild> that school is very beaurocratic
[2014-06-21 14:24:13] <diabeticgonewild> and they hide behind their rules
[2014-06-21 14:24:33] <diabeticgonewild> like I found out about the meeting where they talked about me from my academic advisor in EE
[2014-06-21 14:24:41] <diabeticgonewild> and like I was so angry when I found out
[2014-06-21 14:24:51] <diabeticgonewild> but I had to downplay it and act like it was no big deal
[2014-06-21 14:24:54] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah
[2014-06-21 14:25:13] <diabeticgonewild> there was an incident before that with the dean of undergraduates in the college of engineering
[2014-06-21 14:25:27] <diabeticgonewild> where I was *admitted* to the hospital during finals week
[2014-06-21 14:25:30] <diabeticgonewild> I asked for incompletes
[2014-06-21 14:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> he left it up to my professors
[2014-06-21 14:25:40] <diabeticgonewild> I went to disabilities
[2014-06-21 14:25:49] <diabeticgonewild> to try to get him to reconsider
[2014-06-21 14:25:57] <diabeticgonewild> and he retaliated and sent out this nasty email
[2014-06-21 14:26:02] <diabeticgonewild> and anyways
[2014-06-21 14:26:16] <diabeticgonewild> I missed my final due to being in the hospital due to low blood pressure
[2014-06-21 14:26:24] <diabeticgonewild> and because the final was 50% of my grade
[2014-06-21 14:26:28] <diabeticgonewild> the professor was like no
[2014-06-21 14:26:39] <diabeticgonewild> gave me an F in the class with no incomplete
[2014-06-21 14:26:42] <diabeticgonewild> and like I had Fs
[2014-06-21 14:26:54] <diabeticgonewild> and like he said I could take medical withdrawal
[2014-06-21 14:27:01] <diabeticgonewild> and I was put on engineering probation
[2014-06-21 14:27:04] <diabeticgonewild> and later
[2014-06-21 14:27:11] <diabeticgonewild> like 2 weeks later
[2014-06-21 14:27:23] <diabeticgonewild> I was offered an internship with Intel in Folsom CA for 6 months
[2014-06-21 14:27:25] <diabeticgonewild> had to decline
[2014-06-21 14:27:37] <diabeticgonewild> even told them that I had to withdraw
[2014-06-21 14:27:46] <diabeticgonewild> and they still wanted me
[2014-06-21 14:27:55] <diabeticgonewild> I will
[2014-06-21 14:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:29:18] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:29:19] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-06-21 14:29:25] <diabeticgonewild> but data structures are my specialty
[2014-06-21 14:29:37] <diabeticgonewild> so it's not a big deal
[2014-06-21 14:29:45] <diabeticgonewild> and I have always been good at math
[2014-06-21 14:29:57] <diabeticgonewild> I am better at software than hardware actually, and I am an EE student
[2014-06-21 14:31:00] <diabeticgonewild> but like UH is not worth the time of day, they deserve to be sued
[2014-06-21 14:31:06] <diabeticgonewild> but it's not worth the time of day
[2014-06-21 14:31:22] <diabeticgonewild> or getting my name on court documents that are published on the Internet
[2014-06-21 14:31:38] <diabeticgonewild> it's like wrestling with pigs
[2014-06-21 14:33:30] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways
[2014-06-21 14:33:35] <diabeticgonewild> TidePool seems cool
[2014-06-21 14:33:42] <diabeticgonewild> but they really have an uphill battle
[2014-06-21 14:34:52] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it seems like a very difficult job
[2014-06-21 14:35:06] <diabeticgonewild> like I even have mixed feelings about open source
[2014-06-21 14:35:17] <diabeticgonewild> with diabetes devices
[2014-06-21 14:35:19] <diabeticgonewild> anyways
[2014-06-21 14:35:22] <diabeticgonewild> like DiabetesMine
[2014-06-21 14:35:38] <diabeticgonewild> they are cool and stuff
[2014-06-21 14:35:42] <diabeticgonewild> but they flame about Medtronic
[2014-06-21 14:35:51] <diabeticgonewild> and they get things wrong a lot
[2014-06-21 14:36:02] <diabeticgonewild> about open-source, standards, platforms
[2014-06-21 14:36:20] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-21 14:36:25] <diabeticgonewild> open source is definitely cool
[2014-06-21 14:36:44] <diabeticgonewild> but it's not necessarily the answer to diabetes devices
[2014-06-21 14:36:54] <diabeticgonewild> I think IEEE 11073 is the best answer, IMO
[2014-06-21 14:36:56] <diabeticgonewild> they do bewest
[2014-06-21 14:37:04] <diabeticgonewild> I am not against open source
[2014-06-21 14:37:11] <diabeticgonewild> I just have mixed feelings about it
[2014-06-21 14:37:24] <diabeticgonewild> and you should be able to do what you want with your devices
[2014-06-21 14:37:41] <diabeticgonewild> but it will never be approved by the FDA to work that way
[2014-06-21 14:37:43] <diabeticgonewild> let's face it
[2014-06-21 14:37:52] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-06-21 14:38:03] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:38:46] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-21 14:39:11] <diabeticgonewild> definitely true
[2014-06-21 14:39:45] <diabeticgonewild> well they have the best software
[2014-06-21 14:39:48] <diabeticgonewild> always have
[2014-06-21 14:39:50] <diabeticgonewild> the hardware
[2014-06-21 14:39:52] <diabeticgonewild> not so much
[2014-06-21 14:40:27] <diabeticgonewild> like the software and how it interfaces is solid
[2014-06-21 14:40:28] <diabeticgonewild> it's just messy
[2014-06-21 14:40:40] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:40:48] <diabeticgonewild> it's a noisy pump, especially the 530G
[2014-06-21 14:41:12] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-21 14:41:16] <diabeticgonewild> that's software
[2014-06-21 14:41:20] <diabeticgonewild> not hardware though
[2014-06-21 14:41:26] <diabeticgonewild> even though they are integrated
[2014-06-21 14:41:44] <diabeticgonewild> yeah the buttons themselves
[2014-06-21 14:42:13] <diabeticgonewild> it's excessive
[2014-06-21 14:42:42] <diabeticgonewild> potentially
[2014-06-21 14:42:47] <diabeticgonewild> it's a different source of failure
[2014-06-21 14:43:50] <diabeticgonewild> like I know that CareLink sucks
[2014-06-21 14:43:59] <diabeticgonewild> but it's pretty solid once you decode everything
[2014-06-21 14:44:24] <diabeticgonewild> and run it through whatever program you write for data analysis
[2014-06-21 14:44:44] <diabeticgonewild> it's actually pretty nice
[2014-06-21 14:44:48] <diabeticgonewild> in that respect
[2014-06-21 14:45:21] <diabeticgonewild> like the data export is perfect
[2014-06-21 14:45:35] <diabeticgonewild> when you allocate everything properly
[2014-06-21 14:45:47] <diabeticgonewild> but the proper approach takes forever
[2014-06-21 14:46:58] <diabeticgonewild> anyways I am looking at TidePool
[2014-06-21 14:47:04] <diabeticgonewild> it looks very rudimentart
[2014-06-21 14:47:05] <diabeticgonewild> y
[2014-06-21 14:47:11] <diabeticgonewild> some of it
[2014-06-21 14:47:14] <diabeticgonewild> like the AGP
[2014-06-21 14:47:39] <diabeticgonewild> it looks like they hard-coded a bunch of stuff in the AGP
[2014-06-21 14:47:56] <diabeticgonewild> oh, nvm
[2014-06-21 14:48:50] <diabeticgonewild> but it has a lot of potential
[2014-06-21 14:48:57] <diabeticgonewild> it just looks like a very hard job
[2014-06-21 14:49:05] <diabeticgonewild> and it doesn't seem like an emerging market
[2014-06-21 14:49:13] <diabeticgonewild> what I really want for my devices
[2014-06-21 14:49:19] <diabeticgonewild> is a diabetes operating system
[2014-06-21 14:49:30] <diabeticgonewild> like a mobile OS for my diabetes devices
[2014-06-21 14:49:47] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, what about nightscout
[2014-06-21 14:49:48] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-06-21 14:50:28] <diabeticgonewild> I heard some people have been using things to pick up the dexcom transmitter signal directly to the phone
[2014-06-21 14:50:59] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:51:21] <diabeticgonewild> that's why I need to learn JS and Py
[2014-06-21 14:51:38] <diabeticgonewild> oh when you see that web page?
[2014-06-21 14:51:41] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-21 14:52:03] <diabeticgonewild> you reprogrammed the Windows driver from like the Dexcom Studio to work on Android
[2014-06-21 14:52:10] <diabeticgonewild> that's pretty much all it is
[2014-06-21 14:52:33] <diabeticgonewild> it's just a read function
[2014-06-21 14:52:53] <diabeticgonewild> for what, specifically?
[2014-06-21 14:53:14] <diabeticgonewild> not if you have access to the Dexcom Studio drivers
[2014-06-21 14:54:05] <diabeticgonewild> like IOB and FOB?
[2014-06-21 14:54:25] <diabeticgonewild> but like the issue is that there are no models for carbs
[2014-06-21 14:54:35] <diabeticgonewild> and glucose prediction based on that
[2014-06-21 14:54:44] <diabeticgonewild> hasn't happened yet
[2014-06-21 14:54:47] <diabeticgonewild> Roman Hovorka
[2014-06-21 14:55:04] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much all of the models that are used
[2014-06-21 14:55:05] <diabeticgonewild> are from him
[2014-06-21 14:55:07] <diabeticgonewild> and he says
[2014-06-21 14:55:19] <diabeticgonewild> that they need radioactive tracers in various meals
[2014-06-21 14:55:29] <diabeticgonewild> to predict glucose and make a model off of it
[2014-06-21 14:55:46] <diabeticgonewild> it's an approximation
[2014-06-21 14:55:58] <diabeticgonewild> correct, in clinic
[2014-06-21 14:56:02] <diabeticgonewild> using gamma rays
[2014-06-21 14:56:13] <diabeticgonewild> wow that alarm is annoying
[2014-06-21 14:56:30] <diabeticgonewild> nope
[2014-06-21 14:56:32] <diabeticgonewild> no 23 and me
[2014-06-21 14:56:44] <diabeticgonewild> it's like a $250,000 machine
[2014-06-21 14:57:09] <diabeticgonewild> but you have to ingest barium
[2014-06-21 14:57:18] <diabeticgonewild> and like wear gloves and stuff while eating the food
[2014-06-21 14:57:22] <diabeticgonewild> like radioactive oatmeal
[2014-06-21 14:57:27] <diabeticgonewild> or radioactive eggs
[2014-06-21 14:57:32] <diabeticgonewild> I've done it before
[2014-06-21 14:57:37] <diabeticgonewild> doesn't taste good
[2014-06-21 14:57:42] <diabeticgonewild> but I wouldn't say bad
[2014-06-21 14:57:49] <diabeticgonewild> correct
[2014-06-21 14:58:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 14:58:53] <diabeticgonewild> so like something else that can be done
[2014-06-21 14:59:01] <diabeticgonewild> is an AGP on top of Dexcom in the Cloud
[2014-06-21 14:59:05] <diabeticgonewild> and using statistics
[2014-06-21 14:59:09] <diabeticgonewild> to analyze the current data
[2014-06-21 14:59:14] <diabeticgonewild> to see the correlation
[2014-06-21 14:59:21] <diabeticgonewild> of blood glucose
[2014-06-21 14:59:44] <diabeticgonewild> like mean absolute difference for the past hour, past 2 hours, past 4 hours, past 6 hours
[2014-06-21 14:59:46] <diabeticgonewild> etc
[2014-06-21 15:00:04] <diabeticgonewild> based on the average BG of the AGP
[2014-06-21 15:01:10] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 15:01:19] <diabeticgonewild> so you need like some sort of firmware
[2014-06-21 15:01:28] <diabeticgonewild> I think the receiver needs to be ditched
[2014-06-21 15:01:38] <diabeticgonewild> radiation exposure is not good for anyone
[2014-06-21 15:01:56] <diabeticgonewild> like it's in the nuclear medicine part of a hospital
[2014-06-21 15:02:02] <diabeticgonewild> in the basements, typically
[2014-06-21 15:02:04] <diabeticgonewild> for good reason
[2014-06-21 15:02:09] <diabeticgonewild> correct bewest
[2014-06-21 15:03:12] <diabeticgonewild> what is tr1001
[2014-06-21 15:03:14] <diabeticgonewild> like a chip
[2014-06-21 15:03:15] <diabeticgonewild> on the
[2014-06-21 15:03:22] <diabeticgonewild> CareLink USB?
[2014-06-21 15:03:37] <diabeticgonewild> that just needs to be decoded for the pump hardware?
[2014-06-21 15:04:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 15:04:59] <diabeticgonewild> well the problem is
[2014-06-21 15:05:09] <diabeticgonewild> the block diagrams for the insulin pumps are not published
[2014-06-21 15:05:17] <diabeticgonewild> not even on FCC.gov
[2014-06-21 15:05:23] <diabeticgonewild> it's redacted information
[2014-06-21 15:05:42] <diabeticgonewild> this is about as technical as it gets
[2014-06-21 15:05:43] <diabeticgonewild> http://m.eet.com/media/1109827/C0560-Figure1.gif
[2014-06-21 15:06:04] <diabeticgonewild> I think
[2014-06-21 15:06:08] <diabeticgonewild> all you really need
[2014-06-21 15:06:28] <diabeticgonewild> is a RF to Bluetooth (whatever protocol) translator/module
[2014-06-21 15:06:38] <diabeticgonewild> that you carry on your person
[2014-06-21 15:06:56] <diabeticgonewild> decrypt the orignial RF information on the phone
[2014-06-21 15:07:03] <diabeticgonewild> takes too much power
[2014-06-21 15:07:05] <diabeticgonewild> and interference
[2014-06-21 15:07:10] <diabeticgonewild> it's analog
[2014-06-21 15:07:20] <diabeticgonewild> usually
[2014-06-21 15:07:32] <diabeticgonewild> Dexcom and MiniLink transmitters are analog
[2014-06-21 15:07:38] <diabeticgonewild> correct
[2014-06-21 15:07:42] <diabeticgonewild> but less power consumption
[2014-06-21 15:07:55] <diabeticgonewild> and the RF signal would not be modified going to the phone
[2014-06-21 15:08:05] <diabeticgonewild> it's just being transferred in Bluetooth protocols
[2014-06-21 15:08:13] <diabeticgonewild> you still have the original RF source
[2014-06-21 15:08:25] <diabeticgonewild> and if you amplified the RF signal
[2014-06-21 15:08:37] <diabeticgonewild> which you would need to with the MiniLink
[2014-06-21 15:08:42] <diabeticgonewild> it would cause a lot of interference
[2014-06-21 15:08:48] <diabeticgonewild> technically
[2014-06-21 15:08:50] <diabeticgonewild> you would have to
[2014-06-21 15:09:21] <diabeticgonewild> well, RF is analog
[2014-06-21 15:09:26] <diabeticgonewild> which can easily be decrypted
[2014-06-21 15:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> relatively
[2014-06-21 15:09:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 15:09:43] <diabeticgonewild> so either way, it will work
[2014-06-21 15:09:58] <diabeticgonewild> I have heard of bluetooth modules (depending on the protocol) going 150 meters
[2014-06-21 15:10:09] <diabeticgonewild> which will prevent a source of error
[2014-06-21 15:10:13] <diabeticgonewild> *failure
[2014-06-21 15:10:22] <diabeticgonewild> if you are going to go all out on this project
[2014-06-21 15:10:55] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-06-21 15:11:07] <diabeticgonewild> I think it costs over $3,000 to submit a 510(k)
[2014-06-21 15:11:23] <diabeticgonewild> which CareLink I think would be, as it would be classified as Class II
[2014-06-21 15:11:52] <diabeticgonewild> but it could be Class III, because it involves CGM (the same medical device category as ventilators and heart monitors)
[2014-06-21 15:12:24] <diabeticgonewild> that's intense
[2014-06-21 15:13:20] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-06-21 15:14:07] <diabeticgonewild> that's definitely cool
[2014-06-21 15:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> not bad
[2014-06-21 15:15:19] <diabeticgonewild> the problem with the embedded linux
[2014-06-21 15:15:21] <diabeticgonewild> is updates
[2014-06-21 15:15:28] <diabeticgonewild> unless you create software
[2014-06-21 15:15:35] <diabeticgonewild> specifically for the updates
[2014-06-21 15:15:50] <diabeticgonewild> well it would have to be error-free
[2014-06-21 15:15:59] <diabeticgonewild> cool
[2014-06-21 15:16:37] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, you could even use a Pelikan case for it
[2014-06-21 15:17:07] <diabeticgonewild> impressive
[2014-06-21 15:17:20] <diabeticgonewild> which devices were successful, all?
[2014-06-21 15:18:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I bet
[2014-06-21 15:18:43] <diabeticgonewild> you could probably just disable charging
[2014-06-21 15:18:50] <diabeticgonewild> using a microcontroller ported thorugh
[2014-06-21 15:18:54] <diabeticgonewild> the USB cord
[2014-06-21 15:18:56] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.adafruit.com/products/699
[2014-06-21 15:18:59] <diabeticgonewild> cool case
[2014-06-21 15:19:50] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's technically posible
[2014-06-21 15:20:07] <diabeticgonewild> just have a switch connection on that particular USB cable
[2014-06-21 15:20:30] <diabeticgonewild> https://learn.adafruit.com/laser-cut-enclosure-design
[2014-06-21 15:20:55] <diabeticgonewild> like I think a certain amount of power is required for charging
[2014-06-21 15:21:03] <diabeticgonewild> less for data transfer
[2014-06-21 15:21:12] <diabeticgonewild> 5 V for charging
[2014-06-21 15:21:17] <diabeticgonewild> obviously
[2014-06-21 15:21:37] <diabeticgonewild> less volts for data transfer
[2014-06-21 15:22:51] <diabeticgonewild> like certain pins on USB are for data transfer
[2014-06-21 15:22:56] <diabeticgonewild> some are for power
[2014-06-21 15:23:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 15:24:13] <diabeticgonewild> arduino is only really for interfacing with hardware
[2014-06-21 15:25:31] <diabeticgonewild> there has to be an easier way
[2014-06-21 15:25:46] <diabeticgonewild> than aeris M2M modules
[2014-06-21 15:25:51] <diabeticgonewild> it looks overly complicated
[2014-06-21 15:26:17] <diabeticgonewild> probably for a reason
[2014-06-21 15:27:57] <diabeticgonewild> http://efytimes.com/e1/127856/ublox-Launches-LowPower-Version-Of-G-MM-Module-For-Europe-And-Asia
[2014-06-21 15:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> why not just use meraki
[2014-06-21 15:28:31] <diabeticgonewild> with a open source software?
[2014-06-21 15:28:40] <diabeticgonewild> I know Cisco products are very expensive
[2014-06-21 15:28:41] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-21 15:28:47] <diabeticgonewild> think about it
[2014-06-21 15:28:51] <diabeticgonewild> you get some support
[2014-06-21 15:28:55] <diabeticgonewild> no manufacturing
[2014-06-21 15:28:57] <diabeticgonewild> and just coding
[2014-06-21 15:29:09] <diabeticgonewild> 4.0 LE is extremely long range
[2014-06-21 15:30:33] <diabeticgonewild> so it's proprietary
[2014-06-21 15:30:54] <diabeticgonewild> it's going to be from scartch no matter what
[2014-06-21 15:31:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah but remember it would be very solid
[2014-06-21 15:31:55] <diabeticgonewild> once deployed
[2014-06-21 15:32:17] <diabeticgonewild> imagine the amount of refining that a proprietary hardware setup would be
[2014-06-21 15:32:29] <diabeticgonewild> and the clunk factor
[2014-06-21 15:32:40] <diabeticgonewild> that's what I would stick with
[2014-06-21 15:33:09] <diabeticgonewild> that sounds intense
[2014-06-21 15:33:36] <diabeticgonewild> but like the clunk factor
[2014-06-21 15:33:37] <diabeticgonewild> I mean
[2014-06-21 15:33:42] <diabeticgonewild> when you put out a product
[2014-06-21 15:33:51] <diabeticgonewild> people are paying you for the support
[2014-06-21 15:34:09] <diabeticgonewild> software is easier to support than hardware
[2014-06-21 15:34:12] <diabeticgonewild> and is easier to fix
[2014-06-21 15:34:23] <diabeticgonewild> a meraki kit?
[2014-06-21 15:34:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 15:34:55] <diabeticgonewild> correct about that
[2014-06-21 15:35:42] <diabeticgonewild> I mean it has to be refined
[2014-06-21 15:35:59] <diabeticgonewild> and the goal is platform-independent (to a certain degree)
[2014-06-21 15:36:13] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-21 15:36:40] <diabeticgonewild> I mean it has a lot of sources of failure
[2014-06-21 15:37:08] <diabeticgonewild> I am just saying that Cisco provides an extremely solid product
[2014-06-21 15:37:22] <diabeticgonewild> that can be supported almost entirely through software development
[2014-06-21 15:37:28] <diabeticgonewild> has fewer sources of failure
[2014-06-21 15:37:36] <diabeticgonewild> much fewer sources of failure
[2014-06-21 15:37:46] <diabeticgonewild> uses familiar technology
[2014-06-21 15:37:53] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-06-21 15:37:54] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-21 15:37:58] <diabeticgonewild> it's generally solid
[2014-06-21 15:38:08] <diabeticgonewild> and can be fixed from the software end
[2014-06-21 15:38:19] <diabeticgonewild> plenty of reference material and support
[2014-06-21 15:38:54] <diabeticgonewild> that's true
[2014-06-21 15:39:19] <diabeticgonewild> but to carry around the phone you use daily
[2014-06-21 15:39:22] <diabeticgonewild> with Meraki
[2014-06-21 15:39:38] <diabeticgonewild> is just intuitive and logical
[2014-06-21 15:40:29] <diabeticgonewild> like an M2M mosulw
[2014-06-21 15:40:32] <diabeticgonewild> module
[2014-06-21 15:41:46] <diabeticgonewild> yeah'
[2014-06-21 15:41:57] <diabeticgonewild> but the problem is you would need an LED or something
[2014-06-21 15:42:04] <diabeticgonewild> or an auditory alarm
[2014-06-21 15:42:08] <diabeticgonewild> to your phone
[2014-06-21 15:42:12] <diabeticgonewild> if it stopped working
[2014-06-21 15:43:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's definitely cool
[2014-06-21 15:44:48] <diabeticgonewild> idk if ditching the phone would be the best idea
[2014-06-21 15:45:03] <diabeticgonewild> especially if you could use both iPhone and Android phones
[2014-06-21 15:45:11] <diabeticgonewild> and just use the existing service
[2014-06-21 15:45:33] <diabeticgonewild> well maybe with BT 4.0
[2014-06-21 15:46:28] <diabeticgonewild> not really
[2014-06-21 15:46:31] <diabeticgonewild> it's wireless
[2014-06-21 15:46:40] <diabeticgonewild> keep it in your pocket
[2014-06-21 15:46:50] <diabeticgonewild> it certainly can be charged using magnets
[2014-06-21 15:47:03] <diabeticgonewild> i bet
[2014-06-21 15:47:25] <diabeticgonewild> of course
[2014-06-21 15:48:48] <diabeticgonewild> I have been reading around
[2014-06-21 15:48:51] <diabeticgonewild> this is what I want
[2014-06-21 15:49:16] <diabeticgonewild> range of the chip (on high power, 2 AAA batteries) is approximately 150 m
[2014-06-21 15:49:16] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.digikey.com/catalog/en/partgroup/ble112-development-kit/40582
[2014-06-21 15:53:09] <diabeticgonewild> it would still require a custom case
[2014-06-21 15:53:17] <diabeticgonewild> but it is absolutely cord-free
[2014-06-21 15:53:22] <diabeticgonewild> does not require a bag
[2014-06-21 15:53:26] <diabeticgonewild> can be carried in a pocket
[2014-06-21 15:55:06] <diabeticgonewild> I guess it is riskier than the "cord" approach
[2014-06-21 15:55:11] <diabeticgonewild> but the mobile phone approach
[2014-06-21 15:55:16] <diabeticgonewild> with the OTG cables
[2014-06-21 15:55:21] <diabeticgonewild> seems to be working fine for now
[2014-06-21 15:55:24] <diabeticgonewild> if I were you
[2014-06-21 15:55:45] <diabeticgonewild> I would work on a nightscout kit
[2014-06-21 15:55:50] <diabeticgonewild> with a OTG cable
[2014-06-21 15:56:19] <diabeticgonewild> and a custom 3d-printed case to protect the Dexcom and the area around the OTG cable
[2014-06-21 15:56:26] <diabeticgonewild> to keep it from shifting
[2014-06-21 15:57:19] <diabeticgonewild> brb
[2014-06-21 15:58:09] <diabeticgonewild> back
[2014-06-21 15:58:28] <diabeticgonewild> well you just upload the device to the respective sortware and compare it to the cloud data
[2014-06-21 17:19:41] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: sorry I fell asleep
[2014-06-21 17:20:55] <diabeticgonewild> so what can I specifically do to help the project?
[2014-06-21 17:21:09] <diabeticgonewild> like what do you want me to focus on?
[2014-06-21 20:46:42] <diabeticgonewild> I want a blackphone
[2014-06-21 20:46:56] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.blackphone.ch/
[2014-06-21 21:30:53] <diabeticgonewild> really?
[2014-06-21 21:30:57] <diabeticgonewild> sounds awesome!
[2014-06-22 06:32:30] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here?
[2014-06-22 06:49:30] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-22 06:50:39] <diabeticgonewild> how are you Antoni?
[2014-06-22 14:12:42] <diabeticgonewild> I feel like death :(
[2014-06-22 14:12:51] <diabeticgonewild> I am pretty sure I have ketones
[2014-06-22 14:12:53] <diabeticgonewild> not fun
[2014-06-22 14:26:25] <diabeticgonewild> yeah pretty much
[2014-06-22 14:52:00] <diabeticgonewild> I am starting to feel a little bit better
[2014-06-22 15:16:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it sucks
[2014-06-22 15:16:47] <diabeticgonewild> I need to push fluids
[2014-06-22 15:18:01] <diabeticgonewild> how are you bewest?
[2014-06-22 15:18:47] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's happened to me
[2014-06-22 15:19:05] <diabeticgonewild> like it can be from like a neck strain
[2014-06-22 15:19:07] <diabeticgonewild> eventually
[2014-06-22 15:19:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that will do it
[2014-06-22 15:19:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it sucks
[2014-06-22 15:19:50] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-22 15:20:23] <diabeticgonewild> I have spent a lot of time on the couch due to my rare disease which causes low blood pressure in an upright position
[2014-06-22 15:20:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah my doctor suggested yoga
[2014-06-22 15:20:47] <diabeticgonewild> but like i have poor posture due to that
[2014-06-22 15:20:48] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-22 15:20:58] <diabeticgonewild> I was spending time at the desktop
[2014-06-22 15:21:11] <diabeticgonewild> due to sitting upright
[2014-06-22 15:21:27] <diabeticgonewild> and my neck got messed up
[2014-06-22 15:21:52] <diabeticgonewild> and like my left ring finger and my pinky went numb like in February
[2014-06-22 15:21:53] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-22 15:22:03] <diabeticgonewild> my ring finger is no longer numb
[2014-06-22 15:22:11] <diabeticgonewild> but my pinky is to a certain degree
[2014-06-22 15:22:18] <diabeticgonewild> still
[2014-06-22 15:22:42] <diabeticgonewild> and it makes typing super annoying like on Mac keyboards and stuff
[2014-06-22 15:22:51] <diabeticgonewild> because you have to press down on the keys harder
[2014-06-22 15:22:51] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-22 15:23:06] <diabeticgonewild> like it makes testing on that finger super uncomfortable
[2014-06-22 15:23:15] <diabeticgonewild> but yoga is awesome
[2014-06-22 15:23:33] <diabeticgonewild> but it's not my kind of thing, with all of the bending
[2014-06-22 15:23:45] <diabeticgonewild> it makes me dizzy due to my low blood pressure problem
[2014-06-22 15:23:57] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah you get my point
[2014-06-22 15:24:59] <diabeticgonewild> so what is acro yoga?
[2014-06-22 15:35:45] <diabeticgonewild> ty
[2014-06-22 15:38:19] <diabeticgonewild> looks cool
[2014-06-22 15:39:25] <diabeticgonewild> so I have an account on TuDiabetes
[2014-06-22 15:39:34] <diabeticgonewild> and an admin approached me for promotion
[2014-06-22 15:39:50] <diabeticgonewild> because they thought I was promiting a website
[2014-06-22 15:39:53] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-22 15:39:56] <diabeticgonewild> I wasn't
[2014-06-22 15:40:17] <diabeticgonewild> I was just suggesting Lynda.com for like video tutorials and stuff
[2014-06-22 15:40:28] <diabeticgonewild> and they asked me if that was my website
[2014-06-22 15:40:54] <diabeticgonewild> I felt like it was completely inappropriate and I felt violated
[2014-06-22 15:41:20] <diabeticgonewild> like this all happened via chat
[2014-06-22 15:42:11] <diabeticgonewild> and it's crazy because like you can go to Lynda.com and you can clearly tell it's not my website
[2014-06-22 15:42:38] <diabeticgonewild> so yeah I definitely feel both violated by them
[2014-06-22 15:42:56] <diabeticgonewild> and like disappointed by them
[2014-06-22 15:43:17] <diabeticgonewild> but they said that my suggestion was "fine"
[2014-06-22 15:44:09] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, it is their website, TuD, but I just felt like the way they confronted me was completely inappropriate
[2014-06-22 15:44:25] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't feel well
[2014-06-22 15:44:32] <diabeticgonewild> I am probably overreacting
[2014-06-22 15:45:03] <diabeticgonewild> TuD is moderated
[2014-06-22 15:45:03] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-22 15:45:18] <diabeticgonewild> I was talking to somebody *privately* via chat
[2014-06-22 15:45:46] <diabeticgonewild> and they said that I was promoting a website that was "mine" (Lynda.com)
[2014-06-22 15:46:18] <diabeticgonewild> like I suggested to the person to check out Lynda.com for tutorials
[2014-06-22 15:46:31] <diabeticgonewild> it was private, the conversation
[2014-06-22 15:47:08] <diabeticgonewild> maybe
[2014-06-22 15:47:17] <diabeticgonewild> but it was straight up weird
[2014-06-22 15:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's ridiculous
[2014-06-22 15:47:48] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-22 15:48:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I understand
[2014-06-22 15:48:36] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-22 15:48:47] <diabeticgonewild> it's all crazy
[2014-06-22 15:49:47] <diabeticgonewild> I just found it weird to be confronted by an admin the way that I was
[2014-06-22 15:50:08] <diabeticgonewild> they're crazy though
[2014-06-22 15:50:16] <diabeticgonewild> like control freaks
[2014-06-22 15:50:29] <diabeticgonewild> it has to be
[2014-06-22 15:50:58] <diabeticgonewild> it's not worth it
[2014-06-22 15:51:16] <diabeticgonewild> people constanly complain about their diabetes
[2014-06-22 15:51:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-22 15:51:39] <diabeticgonewild> they look at it as a drag
[2014-06-22 15:51:53] <diabeticgonewild> and I guess it is a drag
[2014-06-22 15:51:57] <diabeticgonewild> at times
[2014-06-22 15:52:29] <diabeticgonewild> but it's just a weird environment
[2014-06-22 15:52:40] <diabeticgonewild> there is definitely a lot of favoritism there
[2014-06-22 15:53:11] <diabeticgonewild> idk like I have autoimmune autonomic neuropathy that is not related to my diabetes
[2014-06-22 15:53:16] <diabeticgonewild> it's complicated
[2014-06-22 15:53:23] <diabeticgonewild> and makes things hard
[2014-06-22 15:53:33] <diabeticgonewild> I have lived with it since I was 5
[2014-06-22 15:53:48] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much
[2014-06-22 15:54:06] <diabeticgonewild> it is a pity party there
[2014-06-22 15:54:42] <diabeticgonewild> but I have a really complicated situation medically that makes things a whole lot more difficult. like I will never be a normal diabetic
[2014-06-22 15:55:17] <diabeticgonewild> like I completed chemo as immunosuppression like less than a month ago for my rare autoimmune disease
[2014-06-22 15:55:59] <diabeticgonewild> severe gastroparesis, digestive problems in general, tachycardia, low blood pressure problems when in an upright position
[2014-06-22 15:56:02] <diabeticgonewild> and more
[2014-06-22 15:56:34] <diabeticgonewild> that is not related to diabetes (but typically is--I just happen to have a rare autoimmune disease that caused it)
[2014-06-22 15:57:32] <diabeticgonewild> all in all, I was tested for a disease that I was never supposed to have
[2014-06-22 15:57:56] <diabeticgonewild> like usually the problems that I have are due to diabetes complications
[2014-06-22 15:58:18] <diabeticgonewild> and those problems were blamed as diabetes complications for like 4 years
[2014-06-22 15:58:22] <diabeticgonewild> as autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-22 15:58:31] <diabeticgonewild> but it got extreme even for diabetes
[2014-06-22 15:59:39] <diabeticgonewild> and I knew I had autonomic neuropathy that was there when I was diagnosed at age 5
[2014-06-22 16:00:14] <diabeticgonewild> and it just didn't make logical sense that it was diabetes-related
[2014-06-22 16:00:39] <diabeticgonewild> especially the way it progressed
[2014-06-22 16:01:00] <diabeticgonewild> and like the form of autonomic neuropathy I have
[2014-06-22 16:01:13] <diabeticgonewild> it theoretically could have caused my type 1 diabees
[2014-06-22 16:01:33] <diabeticgonewild> my doctors do actually believe that it really could have
[2014-06-22 16:01:45] <diabeticgonewild> but it is virtually impossible to prove
[2014-06-22 16:05:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-22 16:05:31] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-22 16:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> this is the disease that I have
[2014-06-22 16:06:36] <diabeticgonewild> it's an imperfet representation of the disease though
[2014-06-22 16:06:36] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.rarediseasesnetwork.org/ARDCRC/patients/learnmore/AAG/
[2014-06-22 16:07:09] <diabeticgonewild> well I go to school....online
[2014-06-22 16:07:29] <diabeticgonewild> because my former school that I transferred out of made it extremely difficult
[2014-06-22 16:07:48] <diabeticgonewild> basically, SneakyPhil
[2014-06-22 16:08:55] <diabeticgonewild> like it varies by the day
[2014-06-22 16:09:02] <diabeticgonewild> like I have good days and bad days
[2014-06-22 16:09:07] <diabeticgonewild> good weeks and bad weeks
[2014-06-22 16:09:17] <diabeticgonewild> like it's really hard to figure out a pattern
[2014-06-22 16:09:38] <diabeticgonewild> of how it all works
[2014-06-22 16:09:43] <diabeticgonewild> cutting out carbs helps
[2014-06-22 16:10:00] <diabeticgonewild> like this sounds ridiculous
[2014-06-22 16:10:04] <diabeticgonewild> but hang out on the couch
[2014-06-22 16:10:22] <diabeticgonewild> because like I have low blood pressure like in the upright position
[2014-06-22 16:10:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I can pretty much tell when I wake up whether my day is going to be good or not (like productive or not)
[2014-06-22 16:11:05] <diabeticgonewild> persist for awhile
[2014-06-22 16:11:10] <diabeticgonewild> like it's physically exhausting
[2014-06-22 16:11:25] <diabeticgonewild> like my body can't really regulate blood pressure well
[2014-06-22 16:11:44] <diabeticgonewild> and so my heart/body works like a lot harder than a normal person
[2014-06-22 16:11:53] <diabeticgonewild> I ingest a ton of salts and fluids
[2014-06-22 16:12:02] <diabeticgonewild> it doen't help a ton
[2014-06-22 16:12:05] <diabeticgonewild> but it does help
[2014-06-22 16:12:35] <diabeticgonewild> like I have gotten better
[2014-06-22 16:12:35] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-22 16:12:44] <diabeticgonewild> I used to go blind and get extremely dizzy
[2014-06-22 16:12:47] <diabeticgonewild> upon standing up
[2014-06-22 16:12:54] <diabeticgonewild> like completely lose my vision
[2014-06-22 16:12:57] <diabeticgonewild> due to a lack of blood flow
[2014-06-22 16:13:00] <diabeticgonewild> to my head
[2014-06-22 16:13:12] <diabeticgonewild> but that only rarely happens now
[2014-06-22 16:13:22] <diabeticgonewild> now my vision just fades sometimes when I stand up
[2014-06-22 16:13:30] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't say it's often
[2014-06-22 16:13:35] <diabeticgonewild> I do get lightheaded sometimes
[2014-06-22 16:17:27] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-06-22 16:18:00] <diabeticgonewild> well it's just the way it is
[2014-06-22 16:18:01] <diabeticgonewild> thank you
[2014-06-22 16:21:31] <diabeticgonewild> I drive and stuff
[2014-06-22 16:21:33] <diabeticgonewild> go shopping
[2014-06-22 16:21:45] <diabeticgonewild> but like I am isolated socially and stuff
[2014-06-22 16:21:58] <diabeticgonewild> like I only drive and go shopping and stuff when I feel well
[2014-06-22 16:22:12] <diabeticgonewild> and like a lot of my friends have moved on with their lives
[2014-06-22 16:22:12] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-22 16:22:14] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-22 16:22:25] <diabeticgonewild> I've always had that problem
[2014-06-22 16:22:33] <diabeticgonewild> since I was like 4 or 5
[2014-06-22 16:22:45] <diabeticgonewild> like the low blood pressure problem is the worst
[2014-06-22 16:23:02] <diabeticgonewild> but the gastroparesis and digestive issues are like almost as bad
[2014-06-22 16:23:16] <diabeticgonewild> like due to the nausea and vomiting it was causing
[2014-06-22 16:23:25] <diabeticgonewild> like I was losing my ability to eat
[2014-06-22 16:23:39] <diabeticgonewild> like one semester I had to take medical withdrawal
[2014-06-22 16:23:50] <diabeticgonewild> because I literally was vomiting everything I ate
[2014-06-22 16:24:09] <diabeticgonewild> and like I lost 35 pounds from the beginning of the semester until the end of the semester
[2014-06-22 16:24:28] <diabeticgonewild> and I had to get a gastric pacemaker to like reduce my nausea
[2014-06-22 16:24:36] <diabeticgonewild> and like it was either that or a feeding tube
[2014-06-22 16:24:46] <diabeticgonewild> and if the neurostimulator/pacemaker didn't work
[2014-06-22 16:25:02] <diabeticgonewild> I was to get a feeding tube like 3 months after the neurostimulator was placed
[2014-06-22 16:25:05] <diabeticgonewild> if I kept losing weight
[2014-06-22 16:27:07] <diabeticgonewild> too much
[2014-06-22 16:27:14] <diabeticgonewild> like I gained a lot of weight
[2014-06-22 16:27:21] <diabeticgonewild> like I am acually overweight now
[2014-06-22 16:27:28] <diabeticgonewild> I am 5'9
[2014-06-22 16:27:56] <diabeticgonewild> so I have definitely gotten better
[2014-06-22 16:27:58] <diabeticgonewild> in that respec
[2014-06-22 16:28:05] <diabeticgonewild> because I am a fatty now
[2014-06-22 16:28:21] <diabeticgonewild> my gi doctor doesn't want me to lose much weight though
[2014-06-22 16:28:30] <diabeticgonewild> of course
[2014-06-22 16:28:44] <diabeticgonewild> very easily
[2014-06-22 16:28:56] <diabeticgonewild> like I wear normal sized clothes
[2014-06-22 16:29:01] <diabeticgonewild> but like I feel fat
[2014-06-22 16:29:02] <diabeticgonewild> :/
[2014-06-22 16:29:10] <diabeticgonewild> and I do need to lose weight
[2014-06-22 16:29:20] <diabeticgonewild> but at least I can eat
[2014-06-22 16:29:54] <diabeticgonewild> the only reason why I have gained too much weight is because I literally lived on the couch for two years
[2014-06-22 16:30:11] <diabeticgonewild> like exercise drops blood pressure
[2014-06-22 16:30:15] <diabeticgonewild> so exercise is a challenge
[2014-06-22 16:30:23] <diabeticgonewild> gravity is not my friend
[2014-06-22 16:30:33] <diabeticgonewild> I can only really swim for cardio
[2014-06-22 16:30:46] <diabeticgonewild> I do life (some)
[2014-06-22 16:30:50] <diabeticgonewild> yeah for sure
[2014-06-22 16:31:05] <diabeticgonewild> LOL on the joke
[2014-06-22 16:31:10] <diabeticgonewild> recumbent bicycle
[2014-06-22 16:31:25] <diabeticgonewild> but swimming is much more efficient exercise-wise for me
[2014-06-22 16:31:39] <diabeticgonewild> treadmill is kind of complicated
[2014-06-22 16:31:42] <diabeticgonewild> rowing machine is good
[2014-06-22 16:32:13] <diabeticgonewild> like my body is always kind of sensitive to fluid shifts
[2014-06-22 16:32:27] <diabeticgonewild> and I tend to get *some* cramping on the treadmill
[2014-06-22 16:32:41] <diabeticgonewild> stairmaster is the absolute worst
[2014-06-22 16:32:56] <diabeticgonewild> because my body has to really work against gravity
[2014-06-22 16:33:06] <diabeticgonewild> like when I go up stairs
[2014-06-22 16:33:16] <diabeticgonewild> sometimes I get extremely dizzy
[2014-06-22 16:33:20] <diabeticgonewild> like in my own house
[2014-06-22 16:33:31] <diabeticgonewild> If I go up stairs
[2014-06-22 16:33:40] <diabeticgonewild> I get so dizzy I have to lie down and rest
[2014-06-22 16:33:52] <diabeticgonewild> so my body can recover
[2014-06-22 16:33:59] <diabeticgonewild> like after I go up stairs
[2014-06-22 16:34:08] <diabeticgonewild> I get very tachycardic usually
[2014-06-22 16:34:13] <diabeticgonewild> and short of breath
[2014-06-22 16:34:45] <diabeticgonewild> but it's not as bad
[2014-06-22 16:35:05] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have to lie down all the time after going up stairs
[2014-06-22 16:35:24] <diabeticgonewild> and like bending and picking up things definitely can mess up my blood pressure
[2014-06-22 16:36:18] <diabeticgonewild> but usually my body can recover some
[2014-06-22 16:36:26] <diabeticgonewild> it's not as bad as it used to be
[2014-06-22 16:41:22] <diabeticgonewild> hey Antoni!
[2014-06-22 16:41:29] <diabeticgonewild> family comes first
[2014-06-22 16:41:37] <diabeticgonewild> please don't apologize!
[2014-06-22 16:41:40] <diabeticgonewild> how are you doing?
[2014-06-22 16:43:20] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-22 16:43:22] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-22 16:49:28] <diabeticgonewild> better, but not feeling well
[2014-06-22 16:49:38] <diabeticgonewild> I have school work due in like 12 hours too
[2014-06-22 16:49:43] <diabeticgonewild> I procrastinated
[2014-06-22 16:50:11] <diabeticgonewild> it's all online
[2014-06-22 16:50:16] <diabeticgonewild> like the lectures and stuff
[2014-06-22 16:50:20] <diabeticgonewild> and the quiz
[2014-06-22 16:51:26] <diabeticgonewild> like 4 hours probably
[2014-06-22 16:51:31] <diabeticgonewild> it's digital logic design
[2014-06-22 16:52:13] <diabeticgonewild> like I have a bunch of labs to do too, that are all due in like 2 weeks
[2014-06-22 16:52:21] <diabeticgonewild> hey projector
[2014-06-22 16:53:14] <diabeticgonewild> yeah but I don't feel that well
[2014-06-22 16:53:27] <diabeticgonewild> I am just starting to watch the lectures
[2014-06-22 16:53:43] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have to like work out all of the guided practice problems
[2014-06-22 16:53:48] <diabeticgonewild> that will be on the quiz
[2014-06-22 20:14:10] <diabeticgonewild> 5-hour energy is what I am living off of
[2014-06-22 20:14:13] <diabeticgonewild> to finish my school work
[2014-06-22 20:38:57] <diabeticgonewild> 35 minutes worth of lectures left :P
[2014-06-22 23:24:56] <diabeticgonewild> finally finished my school work
[2014-06-22 23:27:47] <diabeticgonewild> and I feel terrible
[2014-06-22 23:27:54] <diabeticgonewild> and I am really down, mood-wise
[2014-06-22 23:28:05] <diabeticgonewild> after being low like all day, a few days ago
[2014-06-22 23:28:18] <diabeticgonewild> somehow that really threw everything off
[2014-06-23 01:17:18] <diabeticgonewild> I am so nauseated from gastroparesis, that I literally never want to eat again
[2014-06-23 01:17:34] <diabeticgonewild> The gastroparesis is not even from my diabetes
[2014-06-23 18:54:49] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here?
[2014-06-23 22:27:14] <diabeticgonewild> I heard a lot of good things about it
[2014-06-23 22:27:30] <diabeticgonewild> even for type 1s
[2014-06-23 22:27:33] <diabeticgonewild> I am type 1
[2014-06-23 22:28:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well I definitely can't take it
[2014-06-23 22:28:35] <diabeticgonewild> due to low blood pressure problems too
[2014-06-23 22:29:02] <diabeticgonewild> UTIs are worse
[2014-06-23 22:30:12] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-23 22:30:20] <diabeticgonewild> I don't think it directly causes kidney problems
[2014-06-23 22:31:02] <diabeticgonewild> probably
[2014-06-23 22:31:04] <diabeticgonewild> but I am no doctor
[2014-06-23 22:32:21] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well the damage I think is caused by advanced glucose end products (?)
[2014-06-23 22:32:43] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Advanced_glycation_end-product
[2014-06-23 22:33:13] <diabeticgonewild> The animal and human evidence is that significant amounts of dAGEs are absorbed, and that dAGEs contribute to the body's burden of AGE, and are associated with diseases such as atherosclerosis and kidney disease.
[2014-06-23 22:33:25] <diabeticgonewild> kidney disease *is* microvascular damage
[2014-06-23 22:33:48] <diabeticgonewild> his receptor, when binding AGEs, contributes to age- and diabetes-related chronic inflammatory diseases such as atherosclerosis, asthma, arthritis, myocardial infarction, nephropathy, retinopathy, periodontitis and neuropathy.[30] The pathogenesis of this process hypothesized to activation of the nuclear factor kappa B (NF-κB) following AGE binding. NF-κB controls several genes which are involved in inflammation
[2014-06-23 22:36:01] <diabeticgonewild> oh well I am slow
[2014-06-23 22:37:05] <diabeticgonewild> I got a cool diabetes-related DVD
[2014-06-23 22:37:18] <diabeticgonewild> I mean it's cool but it's kind of strange at the same time too
[2014-06-23 22:39:20] <diabeticgonewild> like it's legit...I got it cheaper off of a rental service though
[2014-06-23 22:39:21] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Diabetic-Alert-Dog-Training-DVD/dp/B00IHOT7Y6/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1403577456&sr=8-1&keywords=diabetes+alert+dog+dvd
[2014-06-23 22:41:42] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-23 22:41:49] <diabeticgonewild> It would be hard to train
[2014-06-23 22:42:01] <diabeticgonewild> I want to at least train my dog to alert
[2014-06-23 22:42:05] <diabeticgonewild> or try to
[2014-06-23 22:42:20] <diabeticgonewild> it is a huge committment to train a service dog
[2014-06-23 22:42:31] <diabeticgonewild> like the public access training is the difficult part
[2014-06-23 22:43:03] <diabeticgonewild> like I don't always feel my highs and lows
[2014-06-23 22:43:14] <diabeticgonewild> and like the CGM misses it sometimes
[2014-06-23 22:43:30] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have an extremely complicated medical situation
[2014-06-23 22:44:00] <diabeticgonewild> see this is like a public access test
[2014-06-23 22:44:01] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UajIMQaAAYI
[2014-06-23 22:44:03] <diabeticgonewild> it's cool
[2014-06-23 22:44:07] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-06-23 22:51:36] <diabeticgonewild> what is your textbook>
[2014-06-23 22:51:38] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-06-23 22:51:57] <diabeticgonewild> what are you studying?
[2014-06-23 22:53:14] <diabeticgonewild> :P
[2014-06-23 22:53:58] <diabeticgonewild> WTF
[2014-06-23 22:54:01] <diabeticgonewild> that's crazy
[2014-06-23 22:54:19] <diabeticgonewild> my parents are both accountanta
[2014-06-23 22:54:20] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-23 22:54:44] <diabeticgonewild> like can you use your school's library databases to access the WSJ?
[2014-06-23 22:54:48] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it's interesting
[2014-06-23 22:54:55] <diabeticgonewild> that person is from the bay area
[2014-06-23 22:55:11] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it takes like 12-18 monrhs of intense training
[2014-06-23 22:55:27] <diabeticgonewild> for like the dog to be ready for public access
[2014-06-23 22:55:28] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-23 22:55:57] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-23 22:56:26] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-23 22:57:03] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it's wild
[2014-06-23 22:57:57] <diabeticgonewild> they are usually trained only to like eat stuff their owners physically hand them
[2014-06-23 23:00:12] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it is
[2014-06-23 23:00:20] <diabeticgonewild> I got a video via a rental service
[2014-06-23 23:02:53] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.bowwowflix.com/detail.php?id=840&r=c&rid=28
[2014-06-23 23:03:56] <diabeticgonewild> Like here are reviewss
[2014-06-23 23:03:56] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Diabetic-Alert-Dog-Training-DVD/dp/B00IHOT7Y6/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1403577456&sr=8-1&keywords=diabetes+alert+dog+dvd
[2014-06-23 23:04:00] <diabeticgonewild> like it's legit
[2014-06-23 23:04:07] <diabeticgonewild> I can explain the process
[2014-06-23 23:04:11] <diabeticgonewild> it's really simple actually
[2014-06-23 23:04:21] <diabeticgonewild> the public access training is the difficult part
[2014-06-23 23:05:20] <diabeticgonewild> you reinforce the training
[2014-06-23 23:05:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-23 23:05:28] <diabeticgonewild> like to condition them
[2014-06-23 23:05:59] <diabeticgonewild> like you test and you take scent samples by swabbing your cheek with like *sterile* 2x2 gauze pads
[2014-06-23 23:06:08] <diabeticgonewild> at the same blood sugar level consistently
[2014-06-23 23:06:27] <diabeticgonewild> like a consistent low level
[2014-06-23 23:06:34] <diabeticgonewild> and you spit on the gauze too
[2014-06-23 23:06:44] <diabeticgonewild> and you put it in a zip lock bag
[2014-06-23 23:06:51] <diabeticgonewild> or a container that is airtight
[2014-06-23 23:06:54] <diabeticgonewild> write down the dta
[2014-06-23 23:06:56] <diabeticgonewild> date
[2014-06-23 23:07:05] <diabeticgonewild> put it in the freezer and it lasts for a month
[2014-06-23 23:07:17] <diabeticgonewild> and to get your dog to accossiate the food with the scent
[2014-06-23 23:07:24] <diabeticgonewild> you get like two paper bowls
[2014-06-23 23:07:37] <diabeticgonewild> the top one with holes in it (you put holes in it)
[2014-06-23 23:07:58] <diabeticgonewild> and you put the scent samples in the bottom bowl
[2014-06-23 23:08:02] <diabeticgonewild> and stack the two bowls
[2014-06-23 23:08:10] <diabeticgonewild> and put food in the top bowl
[2014-06-23 23:08:16] <diabeticgonewild> and you do that for six weeks
[2014-06-23 23:08:24] <diabeticgonewild> basically it's a step by step process
[2014-06-23 23:08:28] <diabeticgonewild> it's really intuitive though
[2014-06-23 23:08:35] <diabeticgonewild> the way the video is done
[2014-06-23 23:08:39] <diabeticgonewild> and to like reinforce the scent
[2014-06-23 23:08:49] <diabeticgonewild> you can do the paper bowl technique often
[2014-06-23 23:10:43] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah that vid is pretty cool
[2014-06-23 23:10:55] <diabeticgonewild> like I can go low for long periods of time and the CGM doesn't pick it up
[2014-06-23 23:11:11] <diabeticgonewild> it can pick up on the scents before the CGM even picks up a high/low
[2014-06-23 23:11:15] <diabeticgonewild> sometimes
[2014-06-23 23:11:26] <diabeticgonewild> like I have heard from people, up to an hour
[2014-06-23 23:11:57] <diabeticgonewild> but like the problem with those dogs is that you are basically saying "hi, I'm diabetic"
[2014-06-23 23:12:03] <diabeticgonewild> everywhere you go
[2014-06-23 23:13:12] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, you have to test a lot
[2014-06-23 23:13:17] <diabeticgonewild> and the dog has to be taken care of
[2014-06-23 23:13:29] <diabeticgonewild> like if it's not taken care of
[2014-06-23 23:13:34] <diabeticgonewild> it doesn't work properly
[2014-06-23 23:14:01] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well I still have (some) trouble with CGM
[2014-06-23 23:14:32] <diabeticgonewild> CGMs are good
[2014-06-23 23:14:59] <diabeticgonewild> haha
[2014-06-23 23:15:08] <diabeticgonewild> cats don't have the work ethic though
[2014-06-23 23:15:18] <diabeticgonewild> idk a diabetic alert dog is a wild concept
[2014-06-23 23:15:18] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-23 23:15:38] <diabeticgonewild> like I sleep like a rock and I sleep through all of my CGM alarms
[2014-06-23 23:16:01] <diabeticgonewild> I have been considering getting a mySentry
[2014-06-23 23:16:02] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-23 23:16:15] <diabeticgonewild> like it's a pump
[2014-06-23 23:16:23] <diabeticgonewild> 530G with Enlite
[2014-06-23 23:16:39] <diabeticgonewild> not a pump
[2014-06-23 23:17:13] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-23 23:17:41] <diabeticgonewild> like I can literally wake up the entire house with like *my* alarm clocks, while I sleep through the alarms
[2014-06-23 23:17:42] <diabeticgonewild> no joke
[2014-06-23 23:18:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-23 23:18:43] <diabeticgonewild> I bet I can wake up to nightscout
[2014-06-23 23:18:53] <diabeticgonewild> I need to work on programming stuff
[2014-06-23 23:19:12] <diabeticgonewild> like learning python and JavaScript
[2014-06-23 23:19:13] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-23 23:19:18] <diabeticgonewild> you like cats bewest?
[2014-06-23 23:19:32] <diabeticgonewild> haha
[2014-06-23 23:19:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah nightscout is awesome
[2014-06-23 23:19:58] <diabeticgonewild> I def need to work on programming stuff
[2014-06-23 23:20:03] <diabeticgonewild> I am sure I can help out
[2014-06-23 23:20:15] <diabeticgonewild> and I need to get healthier :/
[2014-06-23 23:20:28] <diabeticgonewild> saves time too
[2014-06-23 23:20:33] <diabeticgonewild> like you don't waste time
[2014-06-23 23:20:39] <diabeticgonewild> you are just looking at a watch
[2014-06-23 23:20:47] <diabeticgonewild> like you actually get to micromanage diabetes
[2014-06-23 23:21:03] <diabeticgonewild> it's definitely worth it
[2014-06-23 23:21:23] <diabeticgonewild> I don't think some of the parents of younger CWD are digging the "pencil case setup"
[2014-06-23 23:21:25] <diabeticgonewild> but I suggested
[2014-06-23 23:21:52] <diabeticgonewild> getting a mini USB to OTG adapter (with published dimensions)
[2014-06-23 23:22:08] <diabeticgonewild> and just getting a hard plastic 3d printed case to go around that and the dexcom
[2014-06-23 23:22:17] <diabeticgonewild> to protect the adapter from shifting forces
[2014-06-23 23:22:41] <diabeticgonewild> and the Dexcom
[2014-06-23 23:22:50] <diabeticgonewild> but I think many people are not digging that idea
[2014-06-23 23:22:54] <diabeticgonewild> because it's too technical
[2014-06-23 23:23:06] <diabeticgonewild> like you need to use free CAD software to use a service
[2014-06-23 23:23:08] <diabeticgonewild> to do that
[2014-06-23 23:23:50] <diabeticgonewild> but the pencil box setup could be ditched
[2014-06-23 23:23:53] <diabeticgonewild> with a custom case
[2014-06-23 23:24:45] <diabeticgonewild> like here's a 3d printing service
[2014-06-23 23:24:45] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.shapeways.com/
[2014-06-23 23:24:59] <diabeticgonewild> here's another one
[2014-06-23 23:25:06] <diabeticgonewild> somebody could make a lot of money
[2014-06-23 23:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> like selling a min USB to OTG adapter
[2014-06-23 23:25:38] <diabeticgonewild> with a case that fits both the Dexcom and the adapter
[2014-06-23 23:25:51] <diabeticgonewild> so that the "pencil case" can be ditched
[2014-06-23 23:27:30] <diabeticgonewild> I have a Dexcom G4 actually
[2014-06-23 23:27:33] <diabeticgonewild> but it doesn't work for me
[2014-06-23 23:29:00] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-23 23:29:13] <diabeticgonewild> after 6 hours after the first calibration on the Dexcom
[2014-06-23 23:29:14] <diabeticgonewild> like clockwork
[2014-06-23 23:29:22] <diabeticgonewild> my Dexcom goes to ???
[2014-06-23 23:29:35] <diabeticgonewild> like I get a 85-95% sensor failure rate
[2014-06-23 23:29:52] <diabeticgonewild> even with the 7+ I had that problem
[2014-06-23 23:29:54] <diabeticgonewild> but Shirl
[2014-06-23 23:30:03] <diabeticgonewild> it never like goes back to displaying numbers
[2014-06-23 23:30:10] <diabeticgonewild> unless I drink a glass of water
[2014-06-23 23:30:25] <diabeticgonewild> and then it displays numbers for like 2 hours at most
[2014-06-23 23:30:31] <diabeticgonewild> well I have digestive problems
[2014-06-23 23:30:40] <diabeticgonewild> only the Medtronic one works for me
[2014-06-23 23:30:40] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-23 23:30:44] <diabeticgonewild> I know what I am doing
[2014-06-23 23:30:51] <diabeticgonewild> I know how the calibration process works
[2014-06-23 23:30:53] <diabeticgonewild> I am an EE student
[2014-06-23 23:30:54] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-23 23:31:11] <diabeticgonewild> a 85-95% sensor failutre rate is unacceptable
[2014-06-23 23:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> even for calibration
[2014-06-23 23:31:24] <diabeticgonewild> issues
[2014-06-23 23:31:25] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-06-23 23:31:56] <diabeticgonewild> sorry
[2014-06-23 23:32:00] <diabeticgonewild> don't take it personally
[2014-06-23 23:32:07] <diabeticgonewild> well, I already drink a ton of water
[2014-06-23 23:32:10] <diabeticgonewild> like a ton
[2014-06-23 23:32:16] <diabeticgonewild> but I have severe gastroparesis
[2014-06-23 23:32:18] <diabeticgonewild> haha Shirl
[2014-06-23 23:32:30] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I believe it
[2014-06-23 23:32:45] <diabeticgonewild> like I have motility issues
[2014-06-23 23:32:50] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-06-23 23:32:59] <diabeticgonewild> but like I have a rare autoimmune disease
[2014-06-23 23:33:13] <diabeticgonewild> that caused my autoimmune autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-23 23:33:25] <diabeticgonewild> cluckj: never
[2014-06-23 23:33:44] <diabeticgonewild> that's good to hear
[2014-06-23 23:33:59] <diabeticgonewild> I have only heard of one other person with the type of ??? problem I had
[2014-06-23 23:35:07] <diabeticgonewild> like they just replaced sensors all of the time
[2014-06-23 23:35:14] <diabeticgonewild> looked at my Dexcom studio downloads
[2014-06-23 23:35:22] <diabeticgonewild> and like they didn't know what to say
[2014-06-23 23:35:42] <diabeticgonewild> I used to have a Freestyle Navigator. It was by far the most accurate
[2014-06-23 23:36:30] <diabeticgonewild> but it was poorly designed. it was made like out of the type of materials that you can buy on a $10 product at Walmart
[2014-06-23 23:36:56] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, Dexcom is cool
[2014-06-23 23:37:03] <diabeticgonewild> doesn't work for me though :(
[2014-06-23 23:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> it's cool
[2014-06-23 23:37:50] <diabeticgonewild> there's still Medtronic's (which I use)
[2014-06-23 23:37:56] <diabeticgonewild> but I had a sensor fail early today
[2014-06-23 23:38:06] <diabeticgonewild> 9 hours before the 6 day period
[2014-06-23 23:38:17] <diabeticgonewild> I still haven't inserted another sensor yet
[2014-06-23 23:38:18] <diabeticgonewild> I should
[2014-06-23 23:39:23] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I need to wear it more often
[2014-06-23 23:39:26] <diabeticgonewild> it's a safety thing
[2014-06-23 23:39:28] <diabeticgonewild> I usually do
[2014-06-23 23:39:33] <diabeticgonewild> but I am trying to get better
[2014-06-23 23:42:30] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-23 23:42:31] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-23 23:42:47] <diabeticgonewild> like I sleep thorugh CGM alarms
[2014-06-23 23:42:54] <diabeticgonewild> so I can benefit from threshold suspend
[2014-06-23 23:42:55] <diabeticgonewild> it's good for me
[2014-06-23 23:43:03] <diabeticgonewild> and just my situation in general
[2014-06-23 23:54:39] <diabeticgonewild> ttyl
[2014-06-23 23:58:37] <diabeticgonewild> I think diacat is awesome
[2014-06-24 00:06:58] <diabeticgonewild> dude my eyes are like always as dilated as big as that cats
[2014-06-24 00:07:04] <diabeticgonewild> no joke
[2014-06-24 00:09:37] <diabeticgonewild> action shot~
[2014-06-24 00:15:45] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-24 00:47:35] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-24 00:47:38] <diabeticgonewild> get some Limoncello
[2014-06-24 00:47:41] <diabeticgonewild> it's really good
[2014-06-24 00:47:48] <diabeticgonewild> chilled, after meals
[2014-06-24 01:26:41] <diabeticgonewild> haha that sucks
[2014-06-24 02:58:06] <diabeticgonewild> awesome!
[2014-06-24 02:58:14] <diabeticgonewild> I am tired of pulling all nighters
[2014-06-24 02:58:24] <diabeticgonewild> but I am going to have to soon
[2014-06-24 02:58:33] <diabeticgonewild> because I have a bunch of labs due
[2014-06-24 02:58:40] <diabeticgonewild> in like less than 2 weeks
[2014-06-24 02:58:52] <diabeticgonewild> like 8 digital circuits labs
[2014-06-24 02:59:22] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-24 02:59:28] <diabeticgonewild> are you at a library now?
[2014-06-24 03:00:07] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-24 03:00:09] <diabeticgonewild> nvm
[2014-06-24 03:01:04] <diabeticgonewild> what are you doing an all nighter for....work?
[2014-06-24 03:01:56] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-24 03:03:18] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-24 03:03:54] <diabeticgonewild> actually come to think of it
[2014-06-24 03:04:05] <diabeticgonewild> maybe I should start working on the labs
[2014-06-24 03:06:56] <diabeticgonewild> *pulls out circuit board*
[2014-06-24 03:09:12] <diabeticgonewild> *and USB oscilloscope*
[2014-06-24 03:10:57] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2014-06-24 03:11:13] <diabeticgonewild> Oh I am proud of myself
[2014-06-24 03:11:27] <diabeticgonewild> I only took 33 units according to my pump yesterday
[2014-06-24 03:11:34] <diabeticgonewild> I usually take like 50
[2014-06-24 03:11:47] <diabeticgonewild> because I wasn't able to eat all day
[2014-06-24 03:12:03] <diabeticgonewild> because I wasn't feeling well
[2014-06-24 03:22:39] <diabeticgonewild> sounds good
[2014-06-24 03:22:47] <diabeticgonewild> what kind of soup?
[2014-06-24 03:23:41] <diabeticgonewild> If I were to choose
[2014-06-24 03:23:46] <diabeticgonewild> it would be clam chowder
[2014-06-24 03:23:53] <diabeticgonewild> there is def some of that in my house
[2014-06-24 03:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-24 03:28:26] <diabeticgonewild> :P
[2014-06-24 03:30:35] <diabeticgonewild> haha
[2014-06-24 03:52:35] <diabeticgonewild> good morning Antoni
[2014-06-24 03:53:44] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-06-24 04:02:11] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I think there is similar whether in Seattle, compared to where you are
[2014-06-24 04:02:19] <diabeticgonewild> I am from Seattle
[2014-06-24 04:02:30] <diabeticgonewild> like it gets nice around this time of year
[2014-06-24 04:45:29] <diabeticgonewild> bleh I am very nauseated
[2014-06-24 04:45:36] <diabeticgonewild> never want to eat again
[2014-06-24 05:43:21] <diabeticgonewild> indeed
[2014-06-24 17:23:02] <diabeticgonewild> no diacat anymore! :(
[2014-06-24 18:05:13] <diabeticgonewild> \Why did you get a tatt?
[2014-06-24 18:06:38] <diabeticgonewild> idk they freak me out
[2014-06-24 18:06:45] <diabeticgonewild> like I don't mind needles
[2014-06-24 18:06:54] <diabeticgonewild> but like the chemicals for the ink
[2014-06-24 18:07:20] <diabeticgonewild> like there's all of these plastics in them
[2014-06-24 18:08:11] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, but it's risky
[2014-06-24 18:08:23] <diabeticgonewild> like the preservatives in insulin
[2014-06-24 18:08:27] <diabeticgonewild> like they are neurotoxic
[2014-06-24 18:08:32] <diabeticgonewild> m-cresol
[2014-06-24 18:08:37] <diabeticgonewild> meta=cresol
[2014-06-24 18:08:47] <diabeticgonewild> it's what  makes insulin stink
[2014-06-24 18:08:47] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-24 18:09:31] <diabeticgonewild> no, but I have heard that there are some plastics that are used that can be considered carcinogenic
[2014-06-24 18:09:52] <diabeticgonewild> but one of my diabetic friends
[2014-06-24 18:09:52] <diabeticgonewild> he
[2014-06-24 18:10:06] <diabeticgonewild> like tattooed himself using a BD syringe
[2014-06-24 18:10:10] <diabeticgonewild> filled with BIC ink
[2014-06-24 18:10:25] <diabeticgonewild> and like he tattooed his football numbers to his upper arms
[2014-06-24 18:10:26] <diabeticgonewild> in class
[2014-06-24 18:10:30] <diabeticgonewild> in high school
[2014-06-24 18:10:59] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.thelancet.com/journals/lanonc/article/PIIS1470-2045%2811%2970340-0/abstract
[2014-06-24 18:11:09] <diabeticgonewild> no tattoo ink is sterile either
[2014-06-24 18:11:17] <diabeticgonewild> they are just put in plastic bottles
[2014-06-24 18:11:31] <diabeticgonewild> I know it isn't directly associated with cancer
[2014-06-24 18:11:32] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-24 18:11:41] <diabeticgonewild> some of the chemicals used are carcinogenic
[2014-06-24 18:12:37] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-24 18:12:43] <diabeticgonewild> he was pretty crazy
[2014-06-24 18:12:45] <diabeticgonewild> but at the time
[2014-06-24 18:12:50] <diabeticgonewild> I thought it was awesome
[2014-06-24 18:12:54] <diabeticgonewild> and really bad
[2014-06-24 18:12:57] <diabeticgonewild> at the same time
[2014-06-24 18:13:07] <diabeticgonewild> I was like 15 years old at the time
[2014-06-24 18:13:10] <diabeticgonewild> at diabetes camp
[2014-06-24 18:14:13] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.bfr.bund.de/en/faqs_on_tattoo_inks-187895.html
[2014-06-24 18:15:31] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-24 18:15:36] <diabeticgonewild> I'm 'murcian
[2014-06-24 18:15:43] <diabeticgonewild> I just came across that
[2014-06-24 18:15:53] <diabeticgonewild> American
[2014-06-24 18:15:54] <diabeticgonewild> 25
[2014-06-24 18:16:28] <diabeticgonewild> originally from Seattle
[2014-06-24 18:16:31] <diabeticgonewild> I live in Texas now
[2014-06-24 18:16:47] <diabeticgonewild> like East Side
[2014-06-24 18:17:18] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I used to live on the plateau
[2014-06-24 18:17:30] <diabeticgonewild> it was called Redmond when I lived there
[2014-06-24 18:17:38] <diabeticgonewild> now I think it is called Sammamish
[2014-06-24 18:18:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I know
[2014-06-24 18:19:02] <diabeticgonewild> I don't ever go up there
[2014-06-24 18:19:03] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-24 18:19:15] <diabeticgonewild> when I go to Seattle (which is relatively often)
[2014-06-24 18:19:46] <diabeticgonewild> I can only visit family...or I get into "trouble"
[2014-06-24 18:20:00] <diabeticgonewild> you said like Bellevue
[2014-06-24 18:20:06] <diabeticgonewild> and I meant basically
[2014-06-24 18:20:20] <diabeticgonewild> but I lived in Redmond, which is what Sammamish was called at the time
[2014-06-24 18:21:17] <diabeticgonewild> I don't doubt it
[2014-06-24 18:21:26] <diabeticgonewild> I just get worried about those things
[2014-06-24 18:21:29] <diabeticgonewild> personally
[2014-06-24 18:21:36] <diabeticgonewild> like I have other medical problems
[2014-06-24 18:21:50] <diabeticgonewild> and I don't want to do anything that could compromise my situation
[2014-06-24 18:21:52] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-24 18:21:57] <diabeticgonewild> like a tattoo
[2014-06-24 18:22:01] <diabeticgonewild> that's your decision
[2014-06-24 18:22:12] <diabeticgonewild> I just worry about the chemicals in the ink
[2014-06-24 18:25:11] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-24 18:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> like I have a rare autoimmune disease that causes autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-24 18:25:43] <diabeticgonewild> but it's not due to my diabetes
[2014-06-24 18:25:45] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-24 18:26:04] <diabeticgonewild> the autonomic neuropathy was blamed on my diabetes for 4 years
[2014-06-24 18:26:28] <diabeticgonewild> just finished chemo as immunosuppression, and not doing that great right now
[2014-06-24 18:26:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, sorry about that
[2014-06-24 18:29:38] <diabeticgonewild> they do suck
[2014-06-24 18:29:38] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-24 18:29:46] <diabeticgonewild> the type of chemo I do
[2014-06-24 18:29:53] <diabeticgonewild> is carcinogenic
[2014-06-24 18:30:02] <diabeticgonewild> it's called cytoxan
[2014-06-24 18:32:28] <diabeticgonewild> the kind of immunosuppression is not worth it
[2014-06-24 18:32:38] <diabeticgonewild> I think in type 1s they use Rituximab
[2014-06-24 18:32:55] <diabeticgonewild> my doctor said that she wished she could get that for me, but insurance doesn't cover it
[2014-06-24 18:33:05] <diabeticgonewild> and 10% have very serious side effects
[2014-06-24 18:33:10] <diabeticgonewild> like very serious
[2014-06-24 18:33:16] <diabeticgonewild> I wash my hands all the time
[2014-06-24 18:33:27] <diabeticgonewild> and I never ever touch my face
[2014-06-24 18:33:32] <diabeticgonewild> I rarely go outside
[2014-06-24 18:35:03] <diabeticgonewild> yeah touching money is so dirty
[2014-06-24 18:35:16] <diabeticgonewild> I always worry about that
[2014-06-24 18:36:07] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not supposed to get a flu shot due to my medical situation
[2014-06-24 18:36:17] <diabeticgonewild> and like my twin brother got the flu and I freaked out
[2014-06-24 18:36:24] <diabeticgonewild> but I got an Rx for tamiflu
[2014-06-24 18:36:26] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-24 18:36:42] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-24 18:42:33] <diabeticgonewild> my gut hurts :/
[2014-06-24 18:47:31] <diabeticgonewild> That's terrible
[2014-06-24 18:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> I am so sorry to hear that
[2014-06-24 18:47:43] <diabeticgonewild> it must be extremely difficult
[2014-06-24 18:47:49] <diabeticgonewild> on everyone
[2014-06-24 18:48:32] <diabeticgonewild> how terrible
[2014-06-24 18:48:51] <diabeticgonewild> I'm really sorry to hear that
[2014-06-24 18:49:45] <diabeticgonewild> :(
[2014-06-24 18:49:48] <diabeticgonewild> how sad
[2014-06-24 18:51:48] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's just terrible
[2014-06-24 18:51:59] <diabeticgonewild> extremely sad
[2014-06-24 18:54:42] <diabeticgonewild> that's intense
[2014-06-24 18:57:39] <diabeticgonewild> wow
[2014-06-24 18:59:34] <diabeticgonewild> pretty crazy
[2014-06-24 18:59:34] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.engadget.com/2014/06/24/florida-man-hid-phone-jammer-in-suv/
[2014-06-24 19:00:37] <diabeticgonewild> ttyl
[2014-06-24 20:44:41] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: this is swhat we need for all aspects diabetes, including carb counting
[2014-06-24 20:44:43] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.technologyreview.com/review/528076/my-life-logged/
[2014-06-24 20:45:15] <diabeticgonewild> the equivalent of that, for all aspects diabetes
[2014-06-24 21:07:22] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-06-24 21:11:29] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-06-24 21:52:08] <diabeticgonewild> hey well it's hard
[2014-06-24 21:52:16] <diabeticgonewild> like look at my situation
[2014-06-24 21:52:28] <diabeticgonewild> if I didn't know that I had a freakishly rare disease
[2014-06-24 21:52:43] <diabeticgonewild> I would literally have the worst autonomic failure seen in a diabetic
[2014-06-24 21:52:55] <diabeticgonewild> because that is the only thing
[2014-06-24 21:52:59] <diabeticgonewild> that fit the profile
[2014-06-24 21:53:19] <diabeticgonewild> until I had a better diagnosis (and tested for the antibodies of autoimmune autonomic neuropathy)
[2014-06-24 21:53:36] <diabeticgonewild> I judge
[2014-06-24 21:53:40] <diabeticgonewild> and I shouldn't
[2014-06-24 21:56:45] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-24 22:13:09] <diabeticgonewild> I feel crappy
[2014-06-24 22:13:19] <diabeticgonewild> don't want to do anything besides listen to music
[2014-06-24 22:16:22] <diabeticgonewild> yes if you want to do well with diabetes
[2014-06-24 22:16:31] <diabeticgonewild> get one at a major academic medical center
[2014-06-24 22:16:58] <diabeticgonewild> for type 1 it's a must, even if they only write you prescriptions
[2014-06-24 22:17:27] <diabeticgonewild> H_Mc: who is Mike?
[2014-06-24 22:18:15] <diabeticgonewild> it's hard to say
[2014-06-24 22:18:21] <diabeticgonewild> you need to start intensive education
[2014-06-24 22:18:29] <diabeticgonewild> and go somewhere recognizd
[2014-06-24 22:18:36] <diabeticgonewild> 300 is really high
[2014-06-24 22:18:47] <diabeticgonewild> .flair
[2014-06-24 22:21:15] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-24 22:21:23] <diabeticgonewild> like this is the bread I eat
[2014-06-24 22:21:24] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.shop.greatlowcarb.com/
[2014-06-24 22:21:27] <diabeticgonewild> I'm type 1
[2014-06-24 22:21:38] <diabeticgonewild> the bagels don't raise my BG at all if I dose for it
[2014-06-24 22:22:05] <diabeticgonewild> a good book to look at while things are getting "under control" is Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution
[2014-06-24 22:22:21] <diabeticgonewild> Dr. Bernstein even eats those bagels
[2014-06-24 22:22:26] <diabeticgonewild> ????
[2014-06-24 22:22:49] <diabeticgonewild> :P
[2014-06-24 22:23:14] <diabeticgonewild> I can
[2014-06-24 22:23:18] <diabeticgonewild> low carb bagels
[2014-06-24 22:23:27] <diabeticgonewild> like even Dr. Bernstein eats the bagels from there
[2014-06-24 22:23:35] <diabeticgonewild> neither do I
[2014-06-24 22:23:51] <diabeticgonewild> I order "special bread" that I keep in the freezer
[2014-06-24 22:24:50] <diabeticgonewild> trust me
[2014-06-24 22:24:55] <diabeticgonewild> like for bread
[2014-06-24 22:25:03] <diabeticgonewild> that works really well if you have to have bread
[2014-06-24 22:25:16] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.diabetesdaily.com/voices/2013/03/low-carb-bread-options/
[2014-06-24 22:26:07] <diabeticgonewild> nvm check out this
[2014-06-24 22:26:08] <diabeticgonewild>   forum.lowcarber.org/showthread.php?t=459307
[2014-06-24 22:26:16] <diabeticgonewild> agreed H_Mc
[2014-06-24 22:46:59] <diabeticgonewild> time to put in a new Enlite sensor
[2014-06-24 22:53:18] <diabeticgonewild> you should
[2014-06-24 23:05:01] <diabeticgonewild> I think I am going to test my A1c tonight
[2014-06-24 23:05:15] <diabeticgonewild> I have one of those A1c meters laying around, with one test left
[2014-06-24 23:05:43] <diabeticgonewild> to see if my A1c is going down
[2014-06-24 23:07:40] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-06-24 23:12:32] <diabeticgonewild> that does suck
[2014-06-24 23:13:11] <diabeticgonewild> good night Bunnii
[2014-06-24 23:13:41] <diabeticgonewild> kk
[2014-06-24 23:13:43] <diabeticgonewild> goodnight
[2014-06-24 23:14:14] <diabeticgonewild> come on A1c
[2014-06-24 23:14:31] <diabeticgonewild> I just started the CGM a month ago
[2014-06-24 23:15:04] <diabeticgonewild> 2:00 left
[2014-06-24 23:18:06] <diabeticgonewild> 6.8 %
[2014-06-24 23:18:09] <diabeticgonewild> kind of bummed
[2014-06-24 23:18:32] <diabeticgonewild> because it was a 6.9 at my endo
[2014-06-24 23:20:29] <diabeticgonewild> like a month ago
[2014-06-24 23:20:36] <diabeticgonewild> almost exactly
[2014-06-24 23:20:46] <diabeticgonewild> the Bayer ones are pretty accurate
[2014-06-24 23:21:01] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.a1cnow.com/faq---about-a1cnow.html
[2014-06-24 23:23:59] <diabeticgonewild> correct
[2014-06-24 23:25:22] <diabeticgonewild> yeah basically
[2014-06-24 23:25:30] <diabeticgonewild> it's assumed to be
[2014-06-24 23:25:50] <diabeticgonewild> if my BG averages did not go down at all
[2014-06-24 23:26:27] <diabeticgonewild> I want to get something to eat
[2014-06-24 23:26:34] <diabeticgonewild> but I have a feeling I will get sick
[2014-06-24 23:26:36] <diabeticgonewild> from eating
[2014-06-24 23:26:51] <diabeticgonewild> gastroparesis
[2014-06-24 23:28:52] <diabeticgonewild> why?
[2014-06-24 23:28:55] <diabeticgonewild> vacay?
[2014-06-24 23:29:31] <diabeticgonewild> cool
[2014-06-24 23:30:45] <diabeticgonewild> cool
[2014-06-25 00:05:14] <diabeticgonewild> for whatt?
[2014-06-25 00:06:14] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-25 00:06:25] <diabeticgonewild> qwll you can just consult YouTube
[2014-06-25 00:06:45] <diabeticgonewild> it will probably be easier
[2014-06-25 00:07:01] <diabeticgonewild> idk where that came from
[2014-06-25 00:07:09] <diabeticgonewild> I guess i hit some keys on the kyboard
[2014-06-25 08:26:21] <diabeticgonewild> power went out briefly at my house
[2014-06-25 08:26:27] <diabeticgonewild> thanks to thunderstorms
[2014-06-25 08:42:24] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-25 08:42:37] <diabeticgonewild> well for me I feel better...
[2014-06-25 08:45:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-25 08:45:20] <diabeticgonewild> I am actually low
[2014-06-25 08:45:29] <diabeticgonewild> I think I am going to have a good day
[2014-06-25 08:45:42] <diabeticgonewild> I took some zofran for nausea and I feel so much better
[2014-06-25 08:45:53] <diabeticgonewild> like I have two different brands of generic
[2014-06-25 08:45:55] <diabeticgonewild> zofran
[2014-06-25 08:46:15] <diabeticgonewild> and I am sure that one works so much better than the other
[2014-06-25 08:46:19] <diabeticgonewild> like night and day
[2014-06-25 08:46:34] <diabeticgonewild> Symlin works good I heard
[2014-06-25 08:47:00] <diabeticgonewild> are you in the US Lornetc
[2014-06-25 08:47:23] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-25 08:47:38] <diabeticgonewild> well I hope that you can get U500 soon
[2014-06-25 08:47:53] <diabeticgonewild> I understand, I have a complicated medical situation myself
[2014-06-25 08:48:06] <diabeticgonewild> that's complicated
[2014-06-25 08:48:52] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that might not work
[2014-06-25 08:48:58] <diabeticgonewild> I have gastroparesis, for example
[2014-06-25 08:49:00] <diabeticgonewild> like also
[2014-06-25 08:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> it keeps glucagon from being secreted after meals
[2014-06-25 08:50:10] <diabeticgonewild> are you allergic to the preservative in insulin?
[2014-06-25 08:50:13] <diabeticgonewild> that can cause it
[2014-06-25 08:50:38] <diabeticgonewild> have you tried pigsulin?
[2014-06-25 08:50:48] <diabeticgonewild> like hypurin regular (aoluable)?
[2014-06-25 08:50:55] <diabeticgonewild> it's avaliable in canada
[2014-06-25 08:51:09] <diabeticgonewild> and works in pumps, because it has a phosphate buffer
[2014-06-25 08:51:24] <diabeticgonewild> I actually tried porcine insulin
[2014-06-25 08:51:28] <diabeticgonewild> like it does feel different
[2014-06-25 08:51:47] <diabeticgonewild> and like I can definitely feel my lows better on porcine insulin
[2014-06-25 08:51:47] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-06-25 08:52:35] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-25 08:52:52] <diabeticgonewild> about porcine insulin
[2014-06-25 08:52:56] <diabeticgonewild> it is controversial
[2014-06-25 08:53:01] <diabeticgonewild> but true, to a certain extent
[2014-06-25 08:53:03] <diabeticgonewild> http://iddt.org/about/gm-vs-animal-insulin
[2014-06-25 08:53:16] <diabeticgonewild> I definitely feel better on pigsulin
[2014-06-25 08:53:22] <diabeticgonewild> no question about that
[2014-06-25 08:53:36] <diabeticgonewild> and I do get better quality of sleep
[2014-06-25 08:53:50] <diabeticgonewild> and I can definitely feel my face flush when I take it
[2014-06-25 08:53:53] <diabeticgonewild> it feels good
[2014-06-25 08:55:05] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-25 08:55:09] <diabeticgonewild> if you read into it
[2014-06-25 08:55:22] <diabeticgonewild> there is definitely legitimacy to the argument
[2014-06-25 08:55:33] <diabeticgonewild> like I am not here to convince you
[2014-06-25 08:55:38] <diabeticgonewild> but if you read into it
[2014-06-25 08:55:44] <diabeticgonewild> you will find it interesting
[2014-06-25 08:55:50] <diabeticgonewild> probably
[2014-06-25 08:56:49] <diabeticgonewild> the cochrane review
[2014-06-25 08:56:52] <diabeticgonewild> says that
[2014-06-25 08:56:55] <diabeticgonewild> it's legitimate
[2014-06-25 08:57:27] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cochrane_Library
[2014-06-25 08:57:36] <diabeticgonewild> The Cochrane Library aims to make the results of well-conducted controlled trials readily available and is a key resource in evidence-based medicine.
[2014-06-25 08:57:41] <diabeticgonewild> believe what you want
[2014-06-25 08:58:02] <diabeticgonewild> I was dx in 94. I know it's different
[2014-06-25 08:58:51] <diabeticgonewild> like I have autoimmune autonomic neuropathy (not diabetes related), so I definitely have an idea how diabetes complications feel
[2014-06-25 08:59:12] <diabeticgonewild> because there is no proof that insulin analogs are superior in the first place
[2014-06-25 08:59:54] <diabeticgonewild> preference
[2014-06-25 09:00:00] <diabeticgonewild> there's a difference
[2014-06-25 09:00:44] <diabeticgonewild> yeah ok, do what you want
[2014-06-25 09:00:47] <diabeticgonewild> I will do what I want
[2014-06-25 09:01:12] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much
[2014-06-25 09:01:22] <diabeticgonewild> I don't even use non-analog insulin
[2014-06-25 09:01:38] <diabeticgonewild> so I don't know why this person is angry
[2014-06-25 09:01:38] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-25 09:01:43] <diabeticgonewild> insurance doesn't cover it
[2014-06-25 09:01:48] <diabeticgonewild> but I have tried it
[2014-06-25 09:02:02] <diabeticgonewild> and I prefer it
[2014-06-25 09:02:14] <diabeticgonewild> fine, but there is research on the subject
[2014-06-25 09:02:17] <diabeticgonewild> limited research
[2014-06-25 09:02:54] <diabeticgonewild> and there are people who have reported adverse effects to genetically engineered insulin when they were forced to switch to animal insulins
[2014-06-25 09:03:00] <diabeticgonewild> agreed
[2014-06-25 09:03:14] <diabeticgonewild> but you realize that the website was a patient support group
[2014-06-25 09:03:21] <diabeticgonewild> which you can expect to be dubious
[2014-06-25 09:04:07] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-25 09:04:21] <diabeticgonewild> what a sweetheart!
[2014-06-25 09:04:38] <diabeticgonewild> because she's so sweet!
[2014-06-25 09:05:47] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-25 09:08:14] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-06-25 09:08:21] <diabeticgonewild> look at this tattoo
[2014-06-25 09:08:27] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't get a tattoo
[2014-06-25 09:08:27] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.pinterest.com/pin/239394536415304789/
[2014-06-25 09:08:37] <diabeticgonewild> but it's coool
[2014-06-25 09:09:06] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-25 09:11:03] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-25 09:13:43] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have any tattoos
[2014-06-25 09:13:45] <diabeticgonewild> don't want one
[2014-06-25 09:13:55] <diabeticgonewild> but I thought the hello kitty tattoo was cute
[2014-06-25 09:15:01] <diabeticgonewild> thats cool Lornetc
[2014-06-25 10:33:03] <diabeticgonewild> have fun!
[2014-06-25 10:36:06] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-25 10:36:23] <diabeticgonewild> I was tested for like narcolepsy and other sleep disorders
[2014-06-25 10:36:27] <diabeticgonewild> it was no fun
[2014-06-25 11:48:08] <diabeticgonewild> yay my blood sugar is dropping
[2014-06-25 18:54:35] <diabeticgonewild> sounds good
[2014-06-25 21:12:24] <diabeticgonewild> hey greenconverse
[2014-06-25 21:12:32] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-06-25 21:16:16] <diabeticgonewild> :(
[2014-06-25 21:16:18] <diabeticgonewild> sleepy
[2014-06-25 21:16:30] <diabeticgonewild> just woke up from a nap that was relaxing
[2014-06-25 21:16:58] <diabeticgonewild> thag's no fun
[2014-06-25 21:17:00] <diabeticgonewild> eww
[2014-06-25 21:24:14] <diabeticgonewild> idk
[2014-06-25 21:24:16] <diabeticgonewild> not that hot today
[2014-06-25 21:24:18] <diabeticgonewild> it rained
[2014-06-25 21:24:55] <diabeticgonewild> its 75 here too
[2014-06-25 21:25:04] <diabeticgonewild> it was 90 today
[2014-06-25 21:25:15] <diabeticgonewild> that's really nice wather greenconverse
[2014-06-25 21:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> yes
[2014-06-25 21:25:31] <diabeticgonewild> Houston is very humid
[2014-06-25 21:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> has a reputation for that
[2014-06-25 21:26:18] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's intense
[2014-06-25 21:26:30] <diabeticgonewild> I actually lived in Dallas for 4 years
[2014-06-25 21:26:34] <diabeticgonewild> moved there from Seattle
[2014-06-25 21:26:41] <diabeticgonewild> in the summertime
[2014-06-25 21:27:02] <diabeticgonewild> like you just park the car close up, if you are not used to it, LOL
[2014-06-25 21:27:06] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-25 21:27:37] <diabeticgonewild> did you move there?
[2014-06-25 21:28:19] <diabeticgonewild> oh no~
[2014-06-25 21:28:29] <diabeticgonewild> that's terrible
[2014-06-25 21:28:41] <diabeticgonewild> how miserable and stressful
[2014-06-25 21:29:04] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-25 21:31:26] <diabeticgonewild> eww
[2014-06-25 21:31:37] <diabeticgonewild> you cannot have a car with no AC in Texas
[2014-06-25 21:31:46] <diabeticgonewild> like we know some people who moved from Seattle
[2014-06-25 21:32:04] <diabeticgonewild> sorry, I am sleepy
[2014-06-25 21:40:30] <diabeticgonewild> WTF
[2014-06-25 21:40:39] <diabeticgonewild> like take it up with the parent or kid
[2014-06-25 21:40:51] <diabeticgonewild> don't waste resources or be a jerk
[2014-06-25 21:41:21] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I hope that kid is OK
[2014-06-25 21:41:25] <diabeticgonewild> if not
[2014-06-25 21:41:36] <diabeticgonewild> that's ridiculous
[2014-06-25 21:41:56] <diabeticgonewild> the parents should be watching the kids
[2014-06-25 21:43:02] <diabeticgonewild> lame
[2014-06-25 21:43:12] <diabeticgonewild> either way, it doesn't need the cops
[2014-06-25 21:43:15] <diabeticgonewild> and that kid is mean
[2014-06-25 21:43:45] <diabeticgonewild> exactly
[2014-06-25 21:47:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-25 21:47:47] <diabeticgonewild> cops over like kid problems (no injuries) is silly
[2014-06-25 21:47:52] <diabeticgonewild> parents can take it up
[2014-06-25 21:47:57] <diabeticgonewild> it's a waste of resources
[2014-06-25 21:48:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it sounds like it
[2014-06-25 21:48:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah true
[2014-06-25 21:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> It sounds reasonable especially if you are happy with it
[2014-06-25 21:49:14] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-25 21:50:44] <diabeticgonewild> WTF
[2014-06-25 21:51:05] <diabeticgonewild> well, I understand, greenconverse , even though I am not a parent
[2014-06-25 21:51:19] <diabeticgonewild> but putting it on YouTube
[2014-06-25 21:51:26] <diabeticgonewild> that is bad
[2014-06-25 21:51:46] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-25 21:53:06] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-25 21:56:25] <diabeticgonewild> oh, well I guess it will be taken care of
[2014-06-25 21:56:29] <diabeticgonewild> one way or another
[2014-06-25 21:57:29] <diabeticgonewild> it does sound really bad
[2014-06-25 21:57:39] <diabeticgonewild> brb I forgot to pay my tuition (!!!0
[2014-06-25 22:02:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah my tuition is due at Arizona State University tonight
[2014-06-25 22:02:52] <diabeticgonewild> almost forgot
[2014-06-25 22:03:00] <diabeticgonewild> (I am an online student)
[2014-06-25 22:03:49] <diabeticgonewild> I was at another school, in a more traditional program
[2014-06-25 22:04:00] <diabeticgonewild> but the school gave me a really bad time
[2014-06-25 22:04:05] <diabeticgonewild> Electrical Engineering
[2014-06-25 22:04:13] <diabeticgonewild> I am senior technically
[2014-06-25 22:04:36] <diabeticgonewild> the program is 100% online and is ABET accredited (engineering accredidation board in the US)
[2014-06-25 22:04:44] <diabeticgonewild> I was offered a job at Starbucks
[2014-06-25 22:04:55] <diabeticgonewild> but I ended up at Best Buy
[2014-06-25 22:04:58] <diabeticgonewild> correct H_Mc
[2014-06-25 22:05:10] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it's awesome
[2014-06-25 22:05:35] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-25 22:06:06] <diabeticgonewild> Starbucks is awesome
[2014-06-25 22:14:42] <diabeticgonewild> back
[2014-06-25 22:14:53] <diabeticgonewild> like the reason why I went to online school
[2014-06-25 22:15:07] <diabeticgonewild> was because my school thought the amount of medical withdrawals was excessive
[2014-06-25 22:15:12] <diabeticgonewild> like the engineering college
[2014-06-25 22:15:23] <diabeticgonewild> they talked about me in a meeting
[2014-06-25 22:15:35] <diabeticgonewild> and they were talking about how I took medical withdrawal four times
[2014-06-25 22:15:52] <diabeticgonewild> and they said that they were considering giving me Fs instead of Ws if I were to take it again
[2014-06-25 22:15:53] <diabeticgonewild> or
[2014-06-25 22:16:10] <diabeticgonewild> not letting me repeat classes (due to medical withdrawals--non-academic reasons)
[2014-06-25 22:16:13] <diabeticgonewild> which in the end
[2014-06-25 22:16:20] <diabeticgonewild> could keep me from getting a job
[2014-06-25 22:16:23] <diabeticgonewild> or a degree
[2014-06-25 22:16:25] <diabeticgonewild> or both
[2014-06-25 22:17:50] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-25 22:32:16] <diabeticgonewild> ears are ringing
[2014-06-25 22:35:58] <diabeticgonewild> hey bewest !
[2014-06-25 22:36:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah true
[2014-06-25 22:36:55] <diabeticgonewild> to negotiate over what, benefits?
[2014-06-25 22:37:04] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, I have to get a job with good benefits
[2014-06-25 22:37:16] <diabeticgonewild> and like I am seeing a physical medicine and rehabilitation doctor
[2014-06-25 22:37:27] <diabeticgonewild> to help get accommodations for work
[2014-06-25 22:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> like at UH?
[2014-06-25 22:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-25 22:37:53] <diabeticgonewild> well they have a very bad reputation for like administrative issues
[2014-06-25 22:38:04] <diabeticgonewild> and like when you go to their center for students with disabilities
[2014-06-25 22:38:18] <diabeticgonewild> the director tells all of her engineering students
[2014-06-25 22:38:30] <diabeticgonewild> that the engineering college is the worst at accommodating
[2014-06-25 22:38:31] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-25 22:38:34] <diabeticgonewild> and when I was there
[2014-06-25 22:38:42] <diabeticgonewild> I had all sorts of accommodations on paper
[2014-06-25 22:38:48] <diabeticgonewild> and like that didn't mean anything
[2014-06-25 22:38:51] <diabeticgonewild> because the professors
[2014-06-25 22:39:05] <diabeticgonewild> would not give me the full amount of extra time that I was entitled to
[2014-06-25 22:39:12] <diabeticgonewild> or the extensions of due dats
[2014-06-25 22:39:24] <diabeticgonewild> like they were allowed to line-item veto individual accommodations
[2014-06-25 22:39:30] <diabeticgonewild> that they did not agree with
[2014-06-25 22:39:33] <diabeticgonewild> and they still are
[2014-06-25 22:39:42] <diabeticgonewild> but they changed the administrative guidelines
[2014-06-25 22:39:46] <diabeticgonewild> I don't know how it is legal
[2014-06-25 22:39:48] <diabeticgonewild> like now
[2014-06-25 22:40:03] <diabeticgonewild> they have to put in writing whatever accommodation they do not agree with
[2014-06-25 22:40:16] <diabeticgonewild> and the the student has to take it up with the department chair
[2014-06-25 22:40:23] <diabeticgonewild> it's a huge hassle
[2014-06-25 22:40:29] <diabeticgonewild> like the school was unreasonable
[2014-06-25 22:40:31] <diabeticgonewild> another thing is
[2014-06-25 22:40:35] <diabeticgonewild> like engineering is for me
[2014-06-25 22:41:03] <diabeticgonewild> because like I hate reading, due to like my eyes being messed up from autonomic neuropathy (you cannot tell if you met me though)
[2014-06-25 22:41:05] <diabeticgonewild> so it just works
[2014-06-25 22:42:28] <diabeticgonewild> like about the line-item veto of individual accommodations
[2014-06-25 22:42:40] <diabeticgonewild> see page 5 of this (section 5.5)
[2014-06-25 22:42:40] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.uh.edu/csd/pdf/accommodationspolicyposted.pdf
[2014-06-25 22:42:53] <diabeticgonewild> they let professors reject accommodations as an actual process
[2014-06-25 22:43:13] <diabeticgonewild> when students are to receive accommodations
[2014-06-25 22:43:50] <diabeticgonewild> like I cannot fix UH
[2014-06-25 22:43:52] <diabeticgonewild> and like in addition
[2014-06-25 22:43:57] <diabeticgonewild> due to state law, in Texas
[2014-06-25 22:44:22] <diabeticgonewild> I hit my *enrollment cap* due to *excessive undergraduate hours* due to taking *medical withdrawal*
[2014-06-25 22:44:29] <diabeticgonewild> and I was to be charged out of state tuition
[2014-06-25 22:45:02] <diabeticgonewild> I was going to file a complaint with the office of civil rights if the Provost at UH didn't grant my appeal
[2014-06-25 22:45:27] <diabeticgonewild> but after the engineering meeting incident, I decided it was definitely time to go, because nobody was going to work with me there
[2014-06-25 22:47:15] <diabeticgonewild> like you have no idea how stressful the situation got
[2014-06-25 22:48:26] <diabeticgonewild> my previous school basically probably discriminated against me, one way or another
[2014-06-25 22:48:38] <diabeticgonewild> over multiple incidents
[2014-06-25 22:48:56] <diabeticgonewild> and it got to a point, basically, where they had no intention whatsoever of working with me
[2014-06-25 22:49:41] <diabeticgonewild> and they were going to assign serious academic penalties over my medical problems (autoimmune autonomic neuropathy), that could leave me without a degree
[2014-06-25 22:49:45] <diabeticgonewild> and I decided to leave
[2014-06-25 22:50:31] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: at this point of time, I am not really capable of getting a job
[2014-06-25 22:50:38] <diabeticgonewild> I went to vocational rehabilitiation
[2014-06-25 22:50:42] <diabeticgonewild> and they closed my case for now
[2014-06-25 22:50:55] <diabeticgonewild> due to chemotherapy and all of my other medical issues
[2014-06-25 22:51:14] <diabeticgonewild> I am also not doing well right now, even though I finished chemo less than a month ago
[2014-06-25 22:53:09] <diabeticgonewild> it's very frustrating
[2014-06-25 22:53:17] <diabeticgonewild> but I have gotten a lot better
[2014-06-25 22:53:35] <diabeticgonewild> there is no way I could work a 15 hour week, without having health consequences
[2014-06-25 22:54:16] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have low blood pressure when standing up, and like my cardiologist told me to never get a job where I have to stand on my feet (for obvious reasons)
[2014-06-25 22:54:20] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-25 22:54:31] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to a physical medicine and rehabilitation doctor
[2014-06-25 22:54:37] <diabeticgonewild> so I can get accommodations eventually
[2014-06-25 22:54:45] <diabeticgonewild> so I can telecommute a couple days a week
[2014-06-25 22:55:03] <diabeticgonewild> which is not unreasonable
[2014-06-25 22:55:13] <diabeticgonewild> but I <3 EE and I worked too hard at it to give up on it
[2014-06-25 22:55:35] <diabeticgonewild> I worked way too hard on it to quit now
[2014-06-25 22:55:49] <diabeticgonewild> and while I go to school, I am trying to rehabilitate
[2014-06-25 22:55:56] <diabeticgonewild> like I did chemo and still took a class
[2014-06-25 22:56:18] <diabeticgonewild> and online, it's on my own time
[2014-06-25 22:56:37] <diabeticgonewild> UH wasn't going to work anyways, in my opinion
[2014-06-25 22:56:53] <diabeticgonewild> but I got treated like dirt by them
[2014-06-25 22:57:09] <diabeticgonewild> ASU has been purely amazing so far
[2014-06-25 22:57:20] <diabeticgonewild> and now I know I did nothing wrong
[2014-06-25 22:58:14] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: btw, I have to improve a lot more
[2014-06-25 22:58:21] <diabeticgonewild> it's not simply "getting my degree"
[2014-06-25 22:58:29] <diabeticgonewild> like when you are doing treatments like this:
[2014-06-25 22:58:36] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plasmapheresis
[2014-06-25 22:58:52] <diabeticgonewild> this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intravenous_immunoglobulin
[2014-06-25 22:59:09] <diabeticgonewild> and this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cyclophosphamide
[2014-06-25 22:59:49] <diabeticgonewild> between living with chronic nausea and vomiting, low blood pressure in a standing/upright position, and constant exhaustion, in addition to diabetes complicating the situation
[2014-06-25 23:00:01] <diabeticgonewild> a person is going to have a very hard time working
[2014-06-25 23:10:14] <diabeticgonewild> like I seriously cannot work at this point of time. When I applied for disability, I actually had a couple of failed work attempts, one where I had to quit (due to low blood pressure)
[2014-06-25 23:10:26] <diabeticgonewild> and another when I was terminated
[2014-06-25 23:10:52] <diabeticgonewild> it's a really devastating situation, at age 25
[2014-06-25 23:10:59] <diabeticgonewild> and yes, I can do things to make it better
[2014-06-25 23:11:02] <diabeticgonewild> like be more productive
[2014-06-25 23:11:06] <diabeticgonewild> like even right now
[2014-06-25 23:11:41] <diabeticgonewild> but I just get worn out from everything
[2014-06-25 23:11:49] <diabeticgonewild> and I am burnt out right now
[2014-06-25 23:13:55] <diabeticgonewild> I really worked hard back in the day
[2014-06-25 23:14:29] <diabeticgonewild> I went to school full time, worked as a computer repair tech for 15-20 hours per week, and in addition, juggled around multiple illnesses
[2014-06-25 23:14:32] <diabeticgonewild> but it progressed
[2014-06-25 23:14:44] <diabeticgonewild> and it took away that aspect of my life
[2014-06-25 23:14:48] <diabeticgonewild> that I am trying to regain
[2014-06-25 23:15:16] <diabeticgonewild> I truly wish I could work and go to school at the same time
[2014-06-25 23:15:24] <diabeticgonewild> and my twin brother is now engaged
[2014-06-25 23:15:54] <diabeticgonewild> and while I am not jealous, it makes me sad because that is a part of my life that I have not really been able to explore
[2014-06-25 23:16:05] <diabeticgonewild> because all I have been doing is working (in past life) or being sick (now)
[2014-06-25 23:24:15] <diabeticgonewild> I am done discussing this (one-way convo...fun). I just hope you realize that I really cannot work and hold a job at this period of time. School is very difficult and hard on me too, even though I don't devote much time to it.
[2014-06-25 23:33:24] <diabeticgonewild> well you needed to eat
[2014-06-25 23:33:27] <diabeticgonewild> you were low, right?
[2014-06-25 23:33:30] <diabeticgonewild> so it's fine
[2014-06-25 23:33:41] <diabeticgonewild> I don't mean to be moody or pissy
[2014-06-25 23:33:56] <diabeticgonewild> I just have a very complicated situation
[2014-06-25 23:34:03] <diabeticgonewild> and my disease is potentially reversible
[2014-06-25 23:34:08] <diabeticgonewild> but there is a lot going on medically
[2014-06-25 23:34:15] <diabeticgonewild> and I have to rehabilitate
[2014-06-25 23:34:20] <diabeticgonewild> and like school was making me sick
[2014-06-25 23:34:23] <diabeticgonewild> like the stress at UH
[2014-06-25 23:34:34] <diabeticgonewild> and like having to physically go to campus was exhausting
[2014-06-25 23:34:44] <diabeticgonewild> in addition to not properly getting accommodations
[2014-06-25 23:34:47] <diabeticgonewild> it wasn't working out
[2014-06-25 23:35:02] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways, I am using the time while I am in school to get better
[2014-06-25 23:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> so how are you doing bewest?
[2014-06-25 23:35:31] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-25 23:35:34] <diabeticgonewild> I will let you eat
[2014-06-25 23:35:35] <diabeticgonewild> I will chil
[2014-06-25 23:35:41] <diabeticgonewild> I am sorry for the long rant
[2014-06-25 23:42:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I bet
[2014-06-25 23:42:41] <diabeticgonewild> I just need to focus on getting better
[2014-06-25 23:42:53] <diabeticgonewild> the rest will fall into plac
[2014-06-25 23:42:53] <diabeticgonewild> e
[2014-06-25 23:43:18] <diabeticgonewild> I might try to go the Society of Women Engineers national convention
[2014-06-25 23:43:19] <diabeticgonewild> this fall
[2014-06-25 23:43:21] <diabeticgonewild> in LA
[2014-06-25 23:43:27] <diabeticgonewild> to get another internship offer
[2014-06-25 23:43:39] <diabeticgonewild> but I may or may not be able to do the internship
[2014-06-25 23:43:44] <diabeticgonewild> depends on my health
[2014-06-25 23:43:50] <diabeticgonewild> either way, it's really frustrating
[2014-06-25 23:44:03] <diabeticgonewild> btw, I need to work on JavaScript
[2014-06-25 23:44:09] <diabeticgonewild> and how can I help your project?
[2014-06-26 00:55:05] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to bed soon
[2014-06-26 02:23:48] <diabeticgonewild> OMG my stomach gurgled!
[2014-06-26 02:23:59] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't heard it gurgle in years!
[2014-06-26 02:24:44] <diabeticgonewild> ***does happy dance***
[2014-06-26 02:25:51] <diabeticgonewild> it's an amazing feeling
[2014-06-26 02:25:54] <diabeticgonewild> to feel it gurgle
[2014-06-26 02:26:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah for sure
[2014-06-26 02:26:37] <diabeticgonewild> you would if your stomach didn't work
[2014-06-26 02:26:47] <diabeticgonewild> and then it gurgle
[2014-06-26 02:26:48] <diabeticgonewild> d
[2014-06-26 02:26:57] <diabeticgonewild> and you knew it was working, mechanically
[2014-06-26 02:27:26] <diabeticgonewild> I have been taking vitamins, which I hope are helping
[2014-06-26 02:27:44] <diabeticgonewild> but my stomach only gurgles a few times a year
[2014-06-26 02:27:45] <diabeticgonewild> no joke
[2014-06-26 02:27:56] <diabeticgonewild> you have no idea how happy that just made me feel
[2014-06-26 02:27:59] <diabeticgonewild> like it made my day
[2014-06-26 02:28:02] <diabeticgonewild> it's sad
[2014-06-26 02:28:05] <diabeticgonewild> but true
[2014-06-26 02:33:17] <diabeticgonewild> like I have been taking a bunch of vitamins recently
[2014-06-26 02:33:40] <diabeticgonewild> like r-lipoic acid and benfotiamine (in combination with a B-complex vitamin)
[2014-06-26 02:33:48] <diabeticgonewild> has been proven to reduce neuropathies
[2014-06-26 02:34:17] <diabeticgonewild> but I am taking a bunch of stuff
[2014-06-26 02:34:22] <diabeticgonewild> in hopes of making it better
[2014-06-26 02:34:27] <diabeticgonewild> just the whole situation
[2014-06-26 02:35:05] <diabeticgonewild> but vitamins do help
[2014-06-26 02:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> like Animal Paks
[2014-06-26 02:35:18] <diabeticgonewild> I eat those and I feel good
[2014-06-26 02:35:22] <diabeticgonewild> but they taste gross
[2014-06-26 02:35:54] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.bodybuilding.com/store/univ/animalpak.html
[2014-06-26 02:37:02] <diabeticgonewild> anyways I guess you can say I am desperate...to feel better. I am sick of being sick.
[2014-06-26 02:46:53] <diabeticgonewild> so what have you been up to?
[2014-06-26 02:48:55] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that's cool
[2014-06-26 02:49:03] <diabeticgonewild> sorry about being so negative and critical
[2014-06-26 02:49:06] <diabeticgonewild> over the weekend
[2014-06-26 02:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> I can be judgmental
[2014-06-26 02:49:24] <diabeticgonewild> and not appreciate your hard work
[2014-06-26 02:49:29] <diabeticgonewild> most of all I want to say
[2014-06-26 02:49:30] <diabeticgonewild> thank you
[2014-06-26 02:49:39] <diabeticgonewild> for all of your work on these projects
[2014-06-26 03:07:29] <diabeticgonewild> yay
[2014-06-26 03:07:31] <diabeticgonewild> I'm back
[2014-06-26 03:10:04] <diabeticgonewild> has anyone seen this?
[2014-06-26 03:10:04] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.diapedia.org/
[2014-06-26 03:35:21] <diabeticgonewild> good night
[2014-06-26 03:39:03] <diabeticgonewild> good morning
[2014-06-26 03:54:38] <diabeticgonewild> I feel so terrible right now
[2014-06-26 03:54:45] <diabeticgonewild> I cannot deal with life
[2014-06-26 03:54:47] <diabeticgonewild> it sucks
[2014-06-26 04:00:32] <diabeticgonewild> I feel really crappy
[2014-06-26 04:00:35] <diabeticgonewild> physically
[2014-06-26 04:00:41] <diabeticgonewild> right now
[2014-06-26 04:00:49] <diabeticgonewild> I can't deal with this
[2014-06-26 04:04:55] <diabeticgonewild> like I have a neurologist appointment in like a week
[2014-06-26 04:05:32] <diabeticgonewild> and I know my doctor is probably going to do some really unpleasant treatment (even maybe chemo again)
[2014-06-26 04:05:51] <diabeticgonewild> and it's just going to be bad
[2014-06-26 04:05:52] <diabeticgonewild> also
[2014-06-26 04:06:08] <diabeticgonewild> I have to get my powerport in my chest flushed this morning
[2014-06-26 04:06:11] <diabeticgonewild> in like 5 hours
[2014-06-26 04:06:32] <diabeticgonewild> because I have no peripheral IV access whatsoever
[2014-06-26 04:06:37] <diabeticgonewild> that's why I have a port
[2014-06-26 04:15:49] <diabeticgonewild> maybe
[2014-06-26 04:15:51] <diabeticgonewild> possibly
[2014-06-26 04:16:02] <diabeticgonewild> like it got to a point
[2014-06-26 04:16:09] <diabeticgonewild> with my autoimmune disease
[2014-06-26 04:16:20] <diabeticgonewild> where I was losing my ability to eat
[2014-06-26 04:16:33] <diabeticgonewild> due to severe gastroparesis (not diabetes-related)
[2014-06-26 04:16:37] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-26 04:16:54] <diabeticgonewild> I had ro have surgery for a gastric neurostimulator
[2014-06-26 04:17:11] <diabeticgonewild> and if I didn't gain weight from that (but I did)
[2014-06-26 04:17:19] <diabeticgonewild> 3 months post surgery
[2014-06-26 04:17:26] <diabeticgonewild> I was to get a feeding tube
[2014-06-26 04:17:32] <diabeticgonewild> a j-tube
[2014-06-26 04:18:07] <diabeticgonewild> and for awhile I was in and out of the hospital for low blood pressure issues
[2014-06-26 04:18:10] <diabeticgonewild> in addition
[2014-06-26 04:18:23] <diabeticgonewild> I ended up in the ICU for like 4 days too
[2014-06-26 04:23:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah lol
[2014-06-26 04:23:33] <diabeticgonewild> ty
[2014-06-26 04:27:36] <diabeticgonewild> maybe
[2014-06-26 04:27:41] <diabeticgonewild> it's potentially reversible
[2014-06-26 04:27:48] <diabeticgonewild> but it's like freakishly rare
[2014-06-26 04:28:14] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.rarediseasesnetwork.org/ARDCRC/patients/learnmore/AAG/
[2014-06-26 04:28:52] <diabeticgonewild> this is the antibody that I have
[2014-06-26 04:28:53] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3764484/
[2014-06-26 04:28:58] <diabeticgonewild> elevated levels of
[2014-06-26 04:32:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it's pretty wild
[2014-06-26 04:32:21] <diabeticgonewild> and no fun
[2014-06-26 04:32:42] <diabeticgonewild> like school is the best thing going for me right now
[2014-06-26 05:01:23] <diabeticgonewild> ^ that's one of the last things I would want to read right now
[2014-06-26 13:50:46] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-26 13:51:22] <diabeticgonewild> it's hard to get preggo with D
[2014-06-26 13:52:20] <diabeticgonewild> I just got back from getting my port flushed
[2014-06-26 13:53:57] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-26 13:54:17] <diabeticgonewild> for me, getting preggo is going to be hard
[2014-06-26 13:54:24] <diabeticgonewild> not the fertility part
[2014-06-26 13:54:31] <diabeticgonewild> but just everything I have going on
[2014-06-26 13:57:51] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2014-06-26 13:59:07] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-26 13:59:09] <diabeticgonewild> awesome!!
[2014-06-26 14:00:27] <diabeticgonewild> gah bless mon
[2014-06-26 14:00:36] <diabeticgonewild> I mean
[2014-06-26 14:00:38] <diabeticgonewild> jah blesss
[2014-06-26 14:00:41] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-26 14:01:00] <diabeticgonewild> looks nice
[2014-06-26 14:01:11] <diabeticgonewild> that's not cool
[2014-06-26 14:01:21] <diabeticgonewild> he has eyeebrows
[2014-06-26 14:01:23] <diabeticgonewild> no he doesn't
[2014-06-26 14:01:34] <diabeticgonewild> you had cancer highasdick
[2014-06-26 14:03:06] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it looks better shaved
[2014-06-26 14:03:55] <diabeticgonewild> I need to show a pic of myself
[2014-06-26 14:04:07] <diabeticgonewild> unfortunately I have gained weight and I feel like a fatty
[2014-06-26 14:04:35] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-26 14:05:50] <diabeticgonewild> I need to find photos
[2014-06-26 14:05:59] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways I am working on a wiki right now
[2014-06-26 14:06:06] <diabeticgonewild> that I have been working on for a long time
[2014-06-26 14:06:11] <diabeticgonewild> it's boring actually
[2014-06-26 14:06:25] <diabeticgonewild> I am just finding the sources for the information that I qrote
[2014-06-26 14:06:28] <diabeticgonewild> wrote
[2014-06-26 14:08:47] <diabeticgonewild> I <3 hockey
[2014-06-26 14:08:55] <diabeticgonewild> go Canucks!
[2014-06-26 14:10:34] <diabeticgonewild> anyone have plans for this weekend>
[2014-06-26 14:10:40] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-06-26 14:12:27] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-26 14:12:38] <diabeticgonewild> but do you guys live nearby?
[2014-06-26 14:13:01] <diabeticgonewild> thats cool
[2014-06-26 14:32:28] <diabeticgonewild> I'm allergic to all tape
[2014-06-26 14:32:34] <diabeticgonewild> actually ConnorCG
[2014-06-26 14:32:44] <diabeticgonewild> I know somebody who went through that
[2014-06-26 14:34:24] <diabeticgonewild> let me try to find it
[2014-06-26 14:34:32] <diabeticgonewild> it's no longer indexed on the Internet
[2014-06-26 14:34:36] <diabeticgonewild> I can still find it though
[2014-06-26 14:39:58] <diabeticgonewild> I can't find it
[2014-06-26 17:42:33] <diabeticgonewild> there's a bunch of posts about diabetes in this "worst teacher ever" reddit
[2014-06-26 17:42:43] <diabeticgonewild> I had a teacher at a community college that was a total prick. He was the soccer coach and was "ivy league educated" and had this rule that no matter what, if anyone's personal device made noise during a test you had to leave the room and basically fail the test. Well this girl's insulin pump started beeping and he was just like "get out!". She ripped it out and was trying to explain what was going on and he would
[2014-06-26 17:42:53] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/2957co/who_was_the_worst_teacher_youve_ever_had/
[2014-06-26 17:43:41] <diabeticgonewild> out into tears running out of the classroom. Everyone was just in total shock because we all realized pretty much what was going on (low on batteries if I remember correctly). Anyway, he went out and talked to her and she came back in to finish the test, but man, did he look like a total asshole.
[2014-06-26 17:46:38] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-26 17:53:08] <diabeticgonewild> my heart is literally racing when I stand up, like 150+ beats per minute...stupid postural hypotension
[2014-06-26 17:53:59] <diabeticgonewild> it's very distressing
[2014-06-26 17:54:08] <diabeticgonewild> like I literally want to live on the couch
[2014-06-26 18:40:27] <diabeticgonewild> yeah H_Mc I knew when my ears started ringing last night that it was a bad sign
[2014-06-26 18:40:31] <diabeticgonewild> ike now
[2014-06-26 18:40:36] <diabeticgonewild> my disease is flaring up
[2014-06-26 18:41:01] <diabeticgonewild> and like I cannot get up out of the couch/chair/recliner and walk around the house without being short of breath
[2014-06-26 18:41:15] <diabeticgonewild> or "going blind" when I stand up
[2014-06-26 18:41:28] <diabeticgonewild> due to low blood pressure problems
[2014-06-26 18:41:45] <diabeticgonewild> and my heart rate goes up to like 140 beats per minute minimum
[2014-06-26 18:53:41] <diabeticgonewild> anyone doing anything fun?
[2014-06-26 18:54:13] <diabeticgonewild> I just realized I only ate like 2 slices of deli meat today...and I am still nauseated beyond belief :(
[2014-06-26 18:54:22] <diabeticgonewild> that was all I ate
[2014-06-26 19:09:03] <diabeticgonewild> meow
[2014-06-26 19:10:34] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-26 19:10:41] <diabeticgonewild> I told you my parents are both accountants
[2014-06-26 19:10:51] <diabeticgonewild> they said that the business textbooks are pretty dry
[2014-06-26 19:11:45] <diabeticgonewild> I feel too terrible to actually read a book right now
[2014-06-26 19:12:52] <diabeticgonewild> I could deal with an audio book though
[2014-06-26 19:15:48] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-26 19:16:08] <diabeticgonewild> well, I go to Arizona State University...online...it's not that prestigious either
[2014-06-26 19:16:20] <diabeticgonewild> but much better ranked in my major than my previous school
[2014-06-26 19:17:06] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-26 19:17:08] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-26 19:17:31] <diabeticgonewild> like my degree will say ASU at Tempe (main campus) and my transcript will look the same as an in-person student
[2014-06-26 19:17:41] <diabeticgonewild>  it works out nicely
[2014-06-26 19:19:31] <diabeticgonewild> like for textbooks
[2014-06-26 19:19:33] <diabeticgonewild> go to dealoz.com
[2014-06-26 19:19:37] <diabeticgonewild> it gets you the best deal
[2014-06-26 19:19:45] <diabeticgonewild> like put in the ISBN number of the book you need
[2014-06-26 19:20:57] <diabeticgonewild> I use coursesmart.com
[2014-06-26 19:21:07] <diabeticgonewild> because the texts are accessible
[2014-06-26 19:21:12] <diabeticgonewild> print accessible
[2014-06-26 19:21:16] <diabeticgonewild> like when I have to read
[2014-06-26 19:21:25] <diabeticgonewild> a lot
[2014-06-26 19:21:30] <diabeticgonewild> like more than a few paragraphs
[2014-06-26 19:21:37] <diabeticgonewild> I actually use a screen reader
[2014-06-26 19:21:45] <diabeticgonewild> if an e-text is not available
[2014-06-26 19:21:51] <diabeticgonewild> I scan the books, page by page
[2014-06-26 19:22:00] <diabeticgonewild> like I buy a paper copy of the book
[2014-06-26 19:22:05] <diabeticgonewild> go to Kinko's
[2014-06-26 19:22:14] <diabeticgonewild> get the binding of the book cut for like $1.00
[2014-06-26 19:22:21] <diabeticgonewild> and then I put the pages in a bag
[2014-06-26 19:22:27] <diabeticgonewild> and get my scanner
[2014-06-26 19:22:41] <diabeticgonewild> and scan it page by page into PDF
[2014-06-26 19:22:45] <diabeticgonewild> sometimes you have to
[2014-06-26 19:22:51] <diabeticgonewild> I <3 books, but I hate reading
[2014-06-26 19:23:20] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways like I put the PDF through my screenreader software, Kurzweil 3000
[2014-06-26 19:23:21] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-26 19:23:31] <diabeticgonewild> I was recommended to get bifocals
[2014-06-26 19:23:33] <diabeticgonewild> at age 23
[2014-06-26 19:23:34] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-06-26 19:23:41] <diabeticgonewild> like once you get bifocal lenses
[2014-06-26 19:23:45] <diabeticgonewild> you never get out of them
[2014-06-26 19:24:07] <diabeticgonewild> and my autoimmune disease causes some variability with respect to the fitting of bifocals
[2014-06-26 19:24:34] <diabeticgonewild> well, I have to read textbooks because sometimes examples on exams or material is not always covered in engineering
[2014-06-26 19:24:50] <diabeticgonewild> like bifocals are powered lenses
[2014-06-26 19:24:54] <diabeticgonewild> and like once you get in them
[2014-06-26 19:24:57] <diabeticgonewild> you never get out of them
[2014-06-26 19:25:04] <diabeticgonewild> because your eyes don't adjust to them
[2014-06-26 19:25:12] <diabeticgonewild> if it's technical, usually yes
[2014-06-26 19:25:14] <diabeticgonewild> it requires detail
[2014-06-26 19:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> in engineering
[2014-06-26 19:25:39] <diabeticgonewild> it's highly detailed
[2014-06-26 19:26:12] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways
[2014-06-26 19:26:40] <diabeticgonewild> if I cannot get an accessible e-book version (amazon is not accessible) I have to scan it
[2014-06-26 19:26:47] <diabeticgonewild> I know, engineers are very conceited
[2014-06-26 19:26:51] <diabeticgonewild> myself included
[2014-06-26 19:26:57] <diabeticgonewild> but I am just a student
[2014-06-26 19:27:04] <diabeticgonewild> engineering students are conceited
[2014-06-26 19:27:31] <diabeticgonewild> but I am not really that proud of myself
[2014-06-26 19:27:44] <diabeticgonewild> like I have been in undergrad since fall 2007
[2014-06-26 19:27:51] <diabeticgonewild> had to take a couple of years off
[2014-06-26 19:28:08] <diabeticgonewild> and like had to take very small course loads
[2014-06-26 19:28:26] <diabeticgonewild> and I got healthier for awhile
[2014-06-26 19:28:33] <diabeticgonewild> but my disease has been going to hell lately
[2014-06-26 19:29:39] <diabeticgonewild> well I don't read...much
[2014-06-26 19:29:50] <diabeticgonewild> they don't communicate that's for sure
[2014-06-26 19:29:52] <diabeticgonewild> actually
[2014-06-26 19:30:01] <diabeticgonewild> I had to take a class called FSE 100
[2014-06-26 19:30:05] <diabeticgonewild> for my ASU course work
[2014-06-26 19:30:11] <diabeticgonewild> and we had to do a team project
[2014-06-26 19:30:26] <diabeticgonewild> like make musical instruments from scratch, under a whole bunch of constraints
[2014-06-26 19:30:41] <diabeticgonewild> and play the ASU fight song
[2014-06-26 19:30:49] <diabeticgonewild> and edit the song
[2014-06-26 19:30:56] <diabeticgonewild> and we had to write a long paper
[2014-06-26 19:31:16] <diabeticgonewild> and like all I did for like 3 hours was correct grammar errors of my other 3 team mates
[2014-06-26 19:32:30] <diabeticgonewild> yeah you were probably the only ones who passed
[2014-06-26 19:33:09] <diabeticgonewild> we has a class like that at UH (with MATLAB, Unix, and Excel) and like it has like a 30-70% fail rate
[2014-06-26 19:33:25] <diabeticgonewild> it screws over a lot of capable people
[2014-06-26 19:33:28] <diabeticgonewild> it isn't taught well
[2014-06-26 19:33:31] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-26 19:33:41] <diabeticgonewild> that's crazy
[2014-06-26 19:35:13] <diabeticgonewild> that's crazy
[2014-06-26 19:35:21] <diabeticgonewild> well I do know Unix...relatively well
[2014-06-26 19:35:32] <diabeticgonewild> between that class, work, and just personal experience
[2014-06-26 19:35:39] <diabeticgonewild> but like this was a good semester of that class
[2014-06-26 19:35:49] <diabeticgonewild> I got the second highest grade on the final...an 83
[2014-06-26 19:35:50] <diabeticgonewild> https://web.archive.org/web/20100112115520/http://www.egr.uh.edu/courses/ECE/ECE1331/finalgrades.html
[2014-06-26 19:36:27] <diabeticgonewild> there was only one solid A assigned out of 144 students
[2014-06-26 19:36:33] <diabeticgonewild> and 5 A- grades
[2014-06-26 19:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> this was a bad semester
[2014-06-26 19:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> https://web.archive.org/web/20090912103455/http://www.egr.uh.edu/courses/ECE/ECE1331/finalgrades.html
[2014-06-26 19:37:50] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-06-26 19:38:04] <diabeticgonewild> I actually wrote one of the models for the artificial pancreas project in MATLAB
[2014-06-26 19:38:30] <diabeticgonewild> it's here
[2014-06-26 19:38:30] <diabeticgonewild> https://github.com/diabeticgonewild/Artificial_Pancreas
[2014-06-26 19:38:44] <diabeticgonewild> I did it in 2011, mostly as a spring break project
[2014-06-26 19:38:48] <diabeticgonewild> just to see if I could do it
[2014-06-26 19:39:13] <diabeticgonewild> it's not the cleanest code
[2014-06-26 19:39:14] <diabeticgonewild> but it works
[2014-06-26 19:42:18] <diabeticgonewild> like you just run the CSV file (with pump, CGM, and meter data), in XLS form, in MATLAB and it processes dosages
[2014-06-26 19:48:55] <diabeticgonewild> but CareLink has probably changed since then
[2014-06-26 19:49:07] <diabeticgonewild> and plus, I figured out a much cleaner way to deal with the data
[2014-06-26 19:49:22] <diabeticgonewild> so if I were to use the same model
[2014-06-26 19:49:27] <diabeticgonewild> I would want to reprogram it
[2014-06-26 19:50:28] <diabeticgonewild> like lines 1-12 of this ( https://github.com/diabeticgonewild/Ambulatory_Glucose_Profile/blob/master/main.m )  is the much cleaner way of dealing with the CSV file
[2014-06-26 19:50:53] <diabeticgonewild> but the code has some errors that I need to fix
[2014-06-26 19:50:56] <diabeticgonewild> like for some reason
[2014-06-26 19:51:24] <diabeticgonewild> some of the glucose values are converted to NaN, so there is some sort of data type mismatch with the variables, in terms of syntax, that I have to fix
[2014-06-26 20:00:55] <diabeticgonewild> I know this is gross but I think the skin on the back of my feet is starting to crack
[2014-06-26 20:01:08] <diabeticgonewild> It's time to get some mink oil
[2014-06-26 20:10:13] <diabeticgonewild> fun...not
[2014-06-26 20:45:16] <diabeticgonewild> H_Mc congrats!!!!
[2014-06-26 20:45:20] <diabeticgonewild> what is your major, btw?
[2014-06-26 20:53:21] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-06-26 20:53:27] <diabeticgonewild> hopefully you will get to go home soon
[2014-06-26 20:53:30] <diabeticgonewild> for your sake
[2014-06-26 22:43:38] <diabeticgonewild> you need ketone sticks Bunnii ?
[2014-06-26 22:45:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-26 22:45:16] <diabeticgonewild> you want Bayer's Keto-Diastix
[2014-06-26 22:45:24] <diabeticgonewild> they have both the ketone pad
[2014-06-26 22:45:26] <diabeticgonewild> and the glucose pad
[2014-06-26 22:45:28] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-26 22:45:32] <diabeticgonewild> the cheap brand name ones
[2014-06-26 22:45:36] <diabeticgonewild> if you are female
[2014-06-26 22:45:37] <diabeticgonewild> TMI
[2014-06-26 22:45:49] <diabeticgonewild> but the sticks are shorter
[2014-06-26 22:45:53] <diabeticgonewild> and with the brand name ones
[2014-06-26 22:45:58] <diabeticgonewild> I mean the store brand
[2014-06-26 22:46:02] <diabeticgonewild> they're too short
[2014-06-26 22:46:07] <diabeticgonewild> and you get piss on your fingers
[2014-06-26 22:46:21] <diabeticgonewild> look up at CVS or Walgreens online to find a local pharmacy that does have them
[2014-06-26 22:46:32] <diabeticgonewild> put in your zip code
[2014-06-26 22:46:59] <diabeticgonewild> like I probably have ketones too (all I was able to eat today was two slices of deli meat) due to non-diabetic gastroparesis
[2014-06-26 22:47:10] <diabeticgonewild> H_Mc 25.F/Texas
[2014-06-26 22:47:16] <diabeticgonewild> A/S/L
[2014-06-26 22:47:17] <diabeticgonewild> lol
[2014-06-26 22:47:24] <diabeticgonewild> because your body is burning fat
[2014-06-26 22:47:29] <diabeticgonewild> sorry I will stay on topic
[2014-06-26 22:48:01] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that's cool
[2014-06-26 22:48:09] <diabeticgonewild> you know there are blood ketone meters
[2014-06-26 22:48:12] <diabeticgonewild> but they are more expensive
[2014-06-26 22:48:24] <diabeticgonewild> but you get the strips from Canada and they are significantly cheaper
[2014-06-26 22:48:39] <diabeticgonewild> I used to get ketones in HS due to dehydration from marching band practice
[2014-06-26 22:48:44] <diabeticgonewild> like moderate ketones
[2014-06-26 22:48:48] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool Bunnii
[2014-06-26 22:49:24] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-26 22:49:55] <diabeticgonewild> Canadian blood ketone strips
[2014-06-26 22:49:56] <diabeticgonewild>  I was so angry when I heard this. You have no idea. I asked her "who was at the meeting" and she didn't reply. I decided to act like it was "no big deal" and this advisor tried to help me, even though she was powerless. I drove home absolutely furious beyond belief. I had already considered transferring out of this school due to the hardships I encountered, especially after the semester when the school refused to
[2014-06-26 22:49:58] <diabeticgonewild> shjit
[2014-06-26 22:49:59] <diabeticgonewild> sorry
[2014-06-26 22:50:09] <diabeticgonewild> http://diabetesshop.ca/prodlist.php?category=selectp&pid=503&pnend=UHJlY2lzaW9uIFh0cmGZIEtldG9uZSBUZXN0IFN0cmlwcyAoOCdzKQ==
[2014-06-26 22:50:10] <diabeticgonewild> don't ask
[2014-06-26 22:50:44] <diabeticgonewild> 'murican blood ketone strips
[2014-06-26 22:50:45] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_1?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=blood%20ketone%20strips&sprefix=blood+ketone+s%2Caps&rh=i%3Aaps%2Ck%3Ablood%20ketone%20strips&ajr=2
[2014-06-26 22:50:47] <diabeticgonewild> see you tommorrow
[2014-06-26 22:51:03] <diabeticgonewild> me?
[2014-06-26 22:51:05] <diabeticgonewild> I interrupted?
[2014-06-26 22:51:07] <diabeticgonewild> I'm sorry
[2014-06-26 22:51:18] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-26 22:51:55] <diabeticgonewild> LOL yes
[2014-06-26 22:52:05] <diabeticgonewild> but I am sure you can "envision it" if you are a dude
[2014-06-26 22:52:14] <diabeticgonewild> I have a twin brother, so I kind of know how guys are
[2014-06-26 22:52:46] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-26 22:52:48] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-26 22:53:26] <diabeticgonewild> you are clarkson guy's wife?
[2014-06-26 22:54:13] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-06-26 22:54:14] <diabeticgonewild> beetus love
[2014-06-26 22:54:28] <diabeticgonewild> I went to diabetes camp for like 10 summers
[2014-06-26 22:54:31] <diabeticgonewild> Oh, that's cool
[2014-06-26 22:54:38] <diabeticgonewild> sorry I didn't read your whole flair
[2014-06-26 22:55:18] <diabeticgonewild> you guys are cute...together
[2014-06-26 22:55:25] <diabeticgonewild> you know what I mean
[2014-06-26 22:55:25] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-06-26 22:58:12] <diabeticgonewild> LOL awesome!
[2014-06-26 22:58:23] <diabeticgonewild> You guys are really cute together! :)
[2014-06-26 23:00:21] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-26 23:03:54] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool cluckj
[2014-06-26 23:04:03] <diabeticgonewild> I need to get a new pair of glasses in a few months
[2014-06-26 23:04:08] <diabeticgonewild> they are almost two years old
[2014-06-26 23:06:19] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that sucks
[2014-06-26 23:06:24] <diabeticgonewild> get a new opthamologist
[2014-06-26 23:06:26] <diabeticgonewild> he's ignorant
[2014-06-26 23:06:39] <diabeticgonewild> and like if your insurance doesn't cover it, appeal it
[2014-06-26 23:06:48] <diabeticgonewild> you can find a bunch of journal articles on the topic
[2014-06-26 23:06:54] <diabeticgonewild> and justify your case
[2014-06-26 23:07:42] <diabeticgonewild> well, if they don't work
[2014-06-26 23:07:45] <diabeticgonewild> then you need to replace them
[2014-06-26 23:07:49] <diabeticgonewild> straight up
[2014-06-26 23:07:52] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-26 23:08:04] <diabeticgonewild> well my doctor just asks where my BG is at before the eye exam
[2014-06-26 23:08:19] <diabeticgonewild> I also have to see a neuro-opthamologist in addition to a regular opthamologist
[2014-06-26 23:08:21] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-26 23:08:37] <diabeticgonewild> because of my medical situation (not diabetes-related)
[2014-06-26 23:08:47] <diabeticgonewild> but like my opthamologist is awesome
[2014-06-26 23:08:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I understand
[2014-06-26 23:09:22] <diabeticgonewild> that really blows cluckj
[2014-06-26 23:09:34] <diabeticgonewild> and I am sure you felt extremely terrible too
[2014-06-26 23:09:38] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-26 23:09:49] <diabeticgonewild> and you shelled out money
[2014-06-26 23:10:03] <diabeticgonewild> for an incorrect prescription
[2014-06-26 23:10:36] <diabeticgonewild> you should definitely have this book, even though you are newly Dx
[2014-06-26 23:10:38] <diabeticgonewild> it's essential
[2014-06-26 23:10:38] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Diabetic-Eye-Disease-Paul-Chous/dp/0966818474/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1403838616&sr=1-1&keywords=diabetic+eye+disease
[2014-06-26 23:10:47] <diabeticgonewild> it's by a diabetic optometrist
[2014-06-26 23:10:52] <diabeticgonewild> the author is type 1
[2014-06-26 23:10:57] <diabeticgonewild> for like decades
[2014-06-26 23:11:26] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah, my rare autoimmune disease, has this unusual feature
[2014-06-26 23:11:32] <diabeticgonewild> that is unique to the disease
[2014-06-26 23:11:43] <diabeticgonewild> where when light is shined in my eye
[2014-06-26 23:11:49] <diabeticgonewild> my eyes prematurely dilate
[2014-06-26 23:11:54] <diabeticgonewild> like redilate
[2014-06-26 23:12:02] <diabeticgonewild> even when the light is still being shined on them
[2014-06-26 23:12:21] <diabeticgonewild> but it can only be seen when the light is being shone in a dark room
[2014-06-26 23:12:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, and my pupils are like always huge
[2014-06-26 23:12:37] <diabeticgonewild> and they get larger when I am not feeling well
[2014-06-26 23:12:38] <diabeticgonewild> neurological
[2014-06-26 23:12:54] <diabeticgonewild> autoimmune autonomic neuropathy (aka autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy)
[2014-06-26 23:12:59] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-26 23:13:06] <diabeticgonewild> my eyes don't track properly
[2014-06-26 23:13:15] <diabeticgonewild> like when they tell you to like follow their finger
[2014-06-26 23:13:18] <diabeticgonewild> and not move your head
[2014-06-26 23:13:26] <diabeticgonewild> my eyes don't properly accommodate
[2014-06-26 23:13:36] <diabeticgonewild> and so I was recommended bifocals
[2014-06-26 23:13:38] <diabeticgonewild> but I never got them
[2014-06-26 23:13:47] <diabeticgonewild> and I have to see a neuro-opthamologist too
[2014-06-26 23:13:47] <diabeticgonewild> also
[2014-06-26 23:13:53] <diabeticgonewild> my opthamologist is the bomb
[2014-06-26 23:14:00] <diabeticgonewild> because he knows my pupils get huge
[2014-06-26 23:14:05] <diabeticgonewild> he only dilates them with one drop
[2014-06-26 23:14:08] <diabeticgonewild> and he does it himself
[2014-06-26 23:14:14] <diabeticgonewild> and doesn't let the nurses do it
[2014-06-26 23:14:51] <diabeticgonewild> this is like 90% my work
[2014-06-26 23:14:53] <diabeticgonewild> check out the image
[2014-06-26 23:14:54] <diabeticgonewild> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wikipedia_talk:Articles_for_creation/Autoimmune_autonomic_ganglionopathy
[2014-06-26 23:17:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, like I have cat eyes
[2014-06-26 23:17:25] <diabeticgonewild> because my pupils are huge
[2014-06-26 23:23:14] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-06-26 23:30:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I can tell that
[2014-06-26 23:30:20] <diabeticgonewild> but what's the command???
[2014-06-26 23:30:25] <diabeticgonewild> I'm just curious
[2014-06-26 23:32:03] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-26 23:32:05] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-26 23:55:12] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-06-26 23:55:22] <diabeticgonewild> but GSM networks are typically cheaper than CDMA
[2014-06-26 23:55:29] <diabeticgonewild> I would go with like T-Mobile
[2014-06-26 23:55:32] <diabeticgonewild> personally
[2014-06-26 23:55:35] <diabeticgonewild> as an EE student
[2014-06-26 23:56:30] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't use them as a carrier for regular phone service though
[2014-06-26 23:58:29] <diabeticgonewild> that's not that bad
[2014-06-26 23:58:32] <diabeticgonewild> for what it's worth
[2014-06-27 00:00:19] <diabeticgonewild> t-mo is like $10 for a GB of 4G LTE data
[2014-06-27 00:00:22] <diabeticgonewild> personally
[2014-06-27 00:00:26] <diabeticgonewild> I would go to Walmart.com
[2014-06-27 00:00:33] <diabeticgonewild> and look for some cheap-o prepaid card
[2014-06-27 00:00:45] <diabeticgonewild> and then cross reference the company that provided the service
[2014-06-27 00:01:02] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.t-mobile.com/cell-phone-plans/mobile-internet.html#tab-navigation
[2014-06-27 00:01:55] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.walmart.com/ip/Tmobile-10-Wireless-Airtime-Card/15443354
[2014-06-27 00:02:26] <diabeticgonewild> nvm that's not a good card
[2014-06-27 00:22:15] <diabeticgonewild> I found a prepaid service, no expiration, 0.06 cents/MB, with 4G service
[2014-06-27 00:22:21] <diabeticgonewild> runs on T-Mobile's networks
[2014-06-27 00:22:24] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.lycamobile.us/en/national-plans#Pay_as_you_go
[2014-06-27 00:22:30] <diabeticgonewild> see the image in Gray
[2014-06-27 00:22:36] <diabeticgonewild> at the bottom of the page
[2014-06-27 00:24:55] <diabeticgonewild> this one's (potentially) better
[2014-06-27 00:25:01] <diabeticgonewild> it's on AT&T's network
[2014-06-27 00:25:12] <diabeticgonewild> 1 GB of data, expires after 1 year
[2014-06-27 00:25:15] <diabeticgonewild> for $100
[2014-06-27 00:25:24] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.h2owirelessnow.com/mainControl.php?page=planMin
[2014-06-27 00:25:31] <diabeticgonewild> bewest did you see those?
[2014-06-27 00:26:03] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: ???
[2014-06-27 01:28:31] <diabeticgonewild> yah
[2014-06-27 01:42:52] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-27 01:46:16] <diabeticgonewild> I just took my resting heart rate, sitting up
[2014-06-27 01:46:23] <diabeticgonewild> it was like 132 beats per minute
[2014-06-27 01:46:35] <diabeticgonewild> and it was resting
[2014-06-27 01:50:46] <diabeticgonewild> I know the next month or so, at least is going to be pure hell
[2014-06-27 01:50:53] <diabeticgonewild> I can just tell where things are going
[2014-06-27 01:51:00] <diabeticgonewild> and I don't know what to say
[2014-06-27 01:51:03] <diabeticgonewild> or what to feel
[2014-06-27 01:55:01] <diabeticgonewild> heart rate, lying down = 126 beats per minute
[2014-06-27 01:55:03] <diabeticgonewild> I am so screwed
[2014-06-27 02:14:36] <diabeticgonewild> I am experiencing shortness of breath and chest pain
[2014-06-27 02:14:43] <diabeticgonewild> there's no way I am doing the ER tonight
[2014-06-27 02:21:39] <diabeticgonewild> yeah?
[2014-06-27 02:21:59] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, I wouldn't have to wait in the ER, that's for sure
[2014-06-27 02:22:11] <diabeticgonewild> well, you just try to sit in a comfortable position
[2014-06-27 02:22:15] <diabeticgonewild> like propped up on pillows
[2014-06-27 02:22:18] <diabeticgonewild> or in a recliner
[2014-06-27 02:22:24] <diabeticgonewild> where you can breathe easier
[2014-06-27 02:22:31] <diabeticgonewild> it's very distressful
[2014-06-27 02:22:38] <diabeticgonewild> no kidding
[2014-06-27 02:22:44] <diabeticgonewild> and I am having chest pain
[2014-06-27 02:22:54] <diabeticgonewild> there is no way I am going to the ER though
[2014-06-27 02:23:03] <diabeticgonewild> like it is like on the left side of my heart
[2014-06-27 02:23:09] <diabeticgonewild> and then it goes to the right side of my heart
[2014-06-27 02:23:22] <diabeticgonewild> all I ate today was two slices of deli meat
[2014-06-27 02:23:24] <diabeticgonewild> due to nausea
[2014-06-27 02:23:37] <diabeticgonewild> to top it off
[2014-06-27 02:24:23] <diabeticgonewild> like if I go to triage
[2014-06-27 02:24:35] <diabeticgonewild> like you know where the nurses like assess the situation
[2014-06-27 02:24:47] <diabeticgonewild> they willt take my BP right away
[2014-06-27 02:24:55] <diabeticgonewild> and then they will be like WTF
[2014-06-27 02:25:04] <diabeticgonewild> and like send an announcement for an EKG
[2014-06-27 02:25:08] <diabeticgonewild> and then
[2014-06-27 02:25:11] <diabeticgonewild> interpret it
[2014-06-27 02:25:14] <diabeticgonewild> and get me a room
[2014-06-27 02:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, low blood pressure problems will always get you admitted
[2014-06-27 02:25:46] <diabeticgonewild> why is that bewest?
[2014-06-27 02:26:13] <diabeticgonewild> like for the low blood pressure problem...it's like heart monitor and like IV fluids. They really cannot do much for you
[2014-06-27 02:26:31] <diabeticgonewild> and like they put you on either the cardiology service or the neurology service
[2014-06-27 02:26:46] <diabeticgonewild> for what, illness or DKA type incidents?
[2014-06-27 02:26:59] <diabeticgonewild> that is true bewest
[2014-06-27 02:27:11] <diabeticgonewild> it does take like a day to get discharged
[2014-06-27 02:27:15] <diabeticgonewild> especially on a weekend
[2014-06-27 02:27:40] <diabeticgonewild> weekends are s-l-o-w
[2014-06-27 02:27:46] <diabeticgonewild> if I do end up getting admitted
[2014-06-27 02:27:58] <diabeticgonewild> like if I cannot resolve these problems in the next few days
[2014-06-27 02:28:03] <diabeticgonewild> which it doesn't look to promising
[2014-06-27 02:28:12] <diabeticgonewild> I hope I get admitted under the neurology service
[2014-06-27 02:28:26] <diabeticgonewild> the neuro building floors are quiet and chill
[2014-06-27 02:28:34] <diabeticgonewild> if you get admitted for cardiology
[2014-06-27 02:28:37] <diabeticgonewild> it's like main building
[2014-06-27 02:28:41] <diabeticgonewild> and it's not as clean
[2014-06-27 02:28:46] <diabeticgonewild> and the doors are slamming constantly
[2014-06-27 02:28:57] <diabeticgonewild> yeo
[2014-06-27 02:28:59] <diabeticgonewild> I don't
[2014-06-27 02:29:06] <diabeticgonewild> well if I do that
[2014-06-27 02:29:12] <diabeticgonewild> I call my cardiologist office first
[2014-06-27 02:29:17] <diabeticgonewild> and they will take care of that for me
[2014-06-27 02:29:30] <diabeticgonewild> but like if I called them right now, they would be like ER
[2014-06-27 02:29:35] <diabeticgonewild> so there's no way I am doing that
[2014-06-27 02:29:47] <diabeticgonewild> I'm really tired of being sick
[2014-06-27 02:30:37] <diabeticgonewild> like I have gained (too much weight---but obviously I am about to lose a bunch) and I take more insulin than I want
[2014-06-27 02:30:39] <diabeticgonewild> anyways
[2014-06-27 02:30:45] <diabeticgonewild> I didn't really eat anything today
[2014-06-27 02:30:52] <diabeticgonewild> I mean yesterday
[2014-06-27 02:30:55] <diabeticgonewild> TDD = 36 units
[2014-06-27 02:31:30] <diabeticgonewild> like this disease is pure evil
[2014-06-27 02:33:12] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-27 02:33:13] <diabeticgonewild> well
[2014-06-27 02:33:24] <diabeticgonewild> I am talking about the other disease I have
[2014-06-27 02:33:36] <diabeticgonewild> diabetes is like evil
[2014-06-27 02:33:37] <diabeticgonewild> no joke
[2014-06-27 02:34:03] <diabeticgonewild> like this is awful
[2014-06-27 02:34:16] <diabeticgonewild> but I think of diabetes complications as like "rotting away"
[2014-06-27 02:34:27] <diabeticgonewild> yeah my autonomic neuropathy is an autoimmune disease
[2014-06-27 02:34:35] <diabeticgonewild> it's not caused by my diabetes
[2014-06-27 02:34:36] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-27 02:34:54] <diabeticgonewild> my autonomic neuropathy theoretically could have caused my diabetes
[2014-06-27 02:35:02] <diabeticgonewild> according to my neurologist and endocrinologist
[2014-06-27 02:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have a gastric pacemaker
[2014-06-27 02:35:18] <diabeticgonewild> chronic diarrhea
[2014-06-27 02:35:23] <diabeticgonewild> alterating with constipation
[2014-06-27 02:35:34] <diabeticgonewild> sometimes I have diarrhea even when I am constipated
[2014-06-27 02:35:41] <diabeticgonewild> I don't know how that is possible, but it is
[2014-06-27 02:36:18] <diabeticgonewild> according to my doctor
[2014-06-27 02:37:10] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 02:37:30] <diabeticgonewild> I was losing my ability to eat from the disease
[2014-06-27 02:37:44] <diabeticgonewild> and like I lost 35 pounds from the start of the semester to the end of the semester
[2014-06-27 02:37:54] <diabeticgonewild> and like my doctor had me get a gastric pacemaker
[2014-06-27 02:37:56] <diabeticgonewild> if that didn't work
[2014-06-27 02:38:01] <diabeticgonewild> after 3 months
[2014-06-27 02:38:07] <diabeticgonewild> and I did not gain or maintain weight
[2014-06-27 02:38:11] <diabeticgonewild> I was to get a feeding tube
[2014-06-27 02:38:23] <diabeticgonewild> but I have been doing well with gastroparesis, except the past few weeks
[2014-06-27 02:38:28] <diabeticgonewild> this was in like 2010
[2014-06-27 02:38:30] <diabeticgonewild> Spring 2010
[2014-06-27 02:38:46] <diabeticgonewild> it was
[2014-06-27 02:38:47] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.medtronic.com/patients/gastroparesis/device/our-gastroparesis-product/enterra-neurostimulator/
[2014-06-27 02:38:49] <diabeticgonewild> this is the device
[2014-06-27 02:39:19] <diabeticgonewild> it was approved by the FDA on compassionate grounds, as a humanitarian use device
[2014-06-27 02:39:22] <diabeticgonewild> and because of that
[2014-06-27 02:39:32] <diabeticgonewild> less than 4000 people in the US can get it each year
[2014-06-27 02:39:47] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.fda.gov/ForIndustry/DevelopingProductsforRareDiseasesConditions/DesignatingHumanitarianUseDevicesHUDS/default.htm
[2014-06-27 02:41:10] <diabeticgonewild> if you want to read about how UH (my old school) screwed me over, as an engineering student
[2014-06-27 02:41:14] <diabeticgonewild> I went on a tirade tonight
[2014-06-27 02:41:32] <diabeticgonewild> because people were saying diabetes complications are treatable
[2014-06-27 02:41:43] <diabeticgonewild> and autonomic neuropathy, is not, when it is due to diabetes
[2014-06-27 02:41:53] <diabeticgonewild> it's a very long post
[2014-06-27 02:41:56] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't care
[2014-06-27 02:42:02] <diabeticgonewild> my school deserves to be flamed at
[2014-06-27 02:42:02] <diabeticgonewild> http://forums.childrenwithdiabetes.com/showthread.php?76160-A-Very-Inspiring-Blog-For-Type-1-People&p=864679#post864679
[2014-06-27 02:42:17] <diabeticgonewild> that and the post right below it
[2014-06-27 02:42:42] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: you will clearly see why I never want to return back to that school
[2014-06-27 02:43:51] <diabeticgonewild> I might be an idiot for flaming
[2014-06-27 02:43:58] <diabeticgonewild> but I did not disclose geographical information
[2014-06-27 02:44:15] <diabeticgonewild> I am still very resentful towards the situation brought on by my school
[2014-06-27 02:45:14] <diabeticgonewild> my doctors, multiple ones, told me to get a lawyer
[2014-06-27 02:45:22] <diabeticgonewild> but all in all, it's just wrestling with pigs
[2014-06-27 02:45:52] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-06-27 02:46:10] <diabeticgonewild> but it's nor worth having your name on a document for "US District Court"
[2014-06-27 02:46:29] <diabeticgonewild> not if your illnesses are disclosed
[2014-06-27 02:46:40] <diabeticgonewild> it wasn't going to happen at UH
[2014-06-27 02:47:26] <diabeticgonewild> and like even the director at Center for Students with Disabilities says to her engineering students "that engineering is the worst at accommodating"
[2014-06-27 02:47:37] <diabeticgonewild> which just shows she has no control over the situation
[2014-06-27 02:47:50] <diabeticgonewild> nevertheless, it's completely unprofessional to say that to a student
[2014-06-27 02:48:58] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-06-27 02:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't need the stress
[2014-06-27 02:49:31] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to a school that is extremely compassionate towards me
[2014-06-27 02:49:39] <diabeticgonewild> and actually cares about my success
[2014-06-27 02:50:00] <diabeticgonewild> the whole thread though is a bunch of flaming
[2014-06-27 02:50:07] <diabeticgonewild> but I wrote a ridiculously long post
[2014-06-27 02:51:00] <diabeticgonewild> I met with them at the society of women engineers conference
[2014-06-27 02:51:08] <diabeticgonewild> like they give you a card with a URL with a code
[2014-06-27 02:51:12] <diabeticgonewild> and I was going to apply there
[2014-06-27 02:51:14] <diabeticgonewild> in 2011
[2014-06-27 02:51:19] <diabeticgonewild> when I was not as sick
[2014-06-27 02:51:37] <diabeticgonewild> and they opened a data programming job that I was eligible for in 2012
[2014-06-27 02:51:47] <diabeticgonewild> but I couldn't apply because I was so sick
[2014-06-27 02:52:45] <diabeticgonewild> but in 2011 medtronic had not posted the openings
[2014-06-27 02:52:49] <diabeticgonewild> and like they are secretive
[2014-06-27 02:52:53] <diabeticgonewild> like they have a screening process
[2014-06-27 02:52:58] <diabeticgonewild> where you meet with them and talk to them
[2014-06-27 02:53:07] <diabeticgonewild> before they even consider giving you the access card
[2014-06-27 02:53:09] <diabeticgonewild> but they were cool
[2014-06-27 02:59:39] <diabeticgonewild> I would love to work for Medtronci though
[2014-06-27 02:59:44] <diabeticgonewild> but IDK about LA
[2014-06-27 03:00:00] <diabeticgonewild> the bay area would be a more promising place for me, especially with my medical situation
[2014-06-27 03:00:04] <diabeticgonewild> because of Stanford
[2014-06-27 03:00:20] <diabeticgonewild> and there are doctors there who are diplomates in autonomic disorders
[2014-06-27 03:00:41] <diabeticgonewild> and there is a neurogastroenterologist there that my current GI doctor used to work with frequently
[2014-06-27 03:00:45] <diabeticgonewild> at Stanford
[2014-06-27 03:01:29] <diabeticgonewild> and I think Medtronic might move all of it's diabetes division to San Antonio
[2014-06-27 03:01:36] <diabeticgonewild> and that won't work with my medical situation
[2014-06-27 03:02:12] <diabeticgonewild> like I am basically going to have to live in a very populated major city on the west coast or east coast, if I don't continue living in Houston
[2014-06-27 03:02:20] <diabeticgonewild> when I do become employed
[2014-06-27 03:02:29] <diabeticgonewild> like even San Diego is not a viable option
[2014-06-27 03:02:31] <diabeticgonewild> it's like
[2014-06-27 03:02:45] <diabeticgonewild> Seattle, the bay area, or LA
[2014-06-27 03:02:55] <diabeticgonewild> on the east coast
[2014-06-27 03:03:04] <diabeticgonewild> it's either Boston or NYC
[2014-06-27 03:03:48] <diabeticgonewild> I might be able to pull off like a select part of Arizona or a select part of Florida due to the fact that there are Mayo Clinic satellites there
[2014-06-27 03:04:00] <diabeticgonewild> but those are literally my only options
[2014-06-27 03:04:04] <diabeticgonewild> I cannot live in the boonies
[2014-06-27 03:04:13] <diabeticgonewild> or in cities that are not heavily populated
[2014-06-27 03:04:37] <diabeticgonewild> or states for that matter (including all states that border Texas) that are not heavily populated
[2014-06-27 03:04:47] <diabeticgonewild> because my treatment options decrease significantly
[2014-06-27 03:04:55] <diabeticgonewild> and the available doctors are not there
[2014-06-27 03:09:19] <diabeticgonewild> I can pull of LA
[2014-06-27 03:09:26] <diabeticgonewild> you sing?
[2014-06-27 03:09:33] <diabeticgonewild> that's definitely cool
[2014-06-27 03:09:52] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-06-27 03:10:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 03:10:24] <diabeticgonewild> I bet, but it's still cool
[2014-06-27 03:10:42] <diabeticgonewild> no way!
[2014-06-27 03:10:50] <diabeticgonewild> I worked on a project
[2014-06-27 03:10:54] <diabeticgonewild> for intro to engineering
[2014-06-27 03:10:55] <diabeticgonewild> as a team
[2014-06-27 03:10:57] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-27 03:11:16] <diabeticgonewild> we had to play either the ASU fight song, Alma Mater, or Ode to Joy
[2014-06-27 03:11:20] <diabeticgonewild> using instruments from scratch
[2014-06-27 03:11:21] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-27 03:11:27] <diabeticgonewild> we had to have one wind
[2014-06-27 03:11:29] <diabeticgonewild> one string
[2014-06-27 03:11:33] <diabeticgonewild> one percussion
[2014-06-27 03:11:41] <diabeticgonewild> with a bunch of other constraints
[2014-06-27 03:11:49] <diabeticgonewild> I actually deleted the vid off of YouTube
[2014-06-27 03:11:53] <diabeticgonewild> but I can upload it again
[2014-06-27 03:11:56] <diabeticgonewild> it's definitely cool
[2014-06-27 03:13:31] <diabeticgonewild> what?
[2014-06-27 03:13:36] <diabeticgonewild> that's crazy
[2014-06-27 03:14:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 03:14:12] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-27 03:14:26] <diabeticgonewild> I get very lightheaded when I sign, or play saxophone
[2014-06-27 03:14:35] <diabeticgonewild> I don't play saxophone anymore
[2014-06-27 03:14:40] <diabeticgonewild> oh, going up stairs is awful
[2014-06-27 03:14:47] <diabeticgonewild> because my body has to work against gravity
[2014-06-27 03:14:57] <diabeticgonewild> I literally have to lie down after going up a set of stairs
[2014-06-27 03:15:13] <diabeticgonewild> because I get so tachycardic and dizzy, that I have to let my body recover
[2014-06-27 03:15:30] <diabeticgonewild> sometimes for a few minutes
[2014-06-27 03:15:35] <diabeticgonewild> sometimes for only like 30 seconds
[2014-06-27 03:15:37] <diabeticgonewild> it depends
[2014-06-27 03:16:11] <diabeticgonewild> absolutely
[2014-06-27 03:16:28] <diabeticgonewild> either way, all of this stuff is a threat to my wellbeing
[2014-06-27 03:16:29] <diabeticgonewild> and even for you
[2014-06-27 03:16:40] <diabeticgonewild> increased activity can make things worse
[2014-06-27 03:17:54] <diabeticgonewild> I guess it's just a day in the life
[2014-06-27 03:17:57] <diabeticgonewild> when it's all said and done
[2014-06-27 03:19:23] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-27 03:19:27] <diabeticgonewild> when are you going to bed?
[2014-06-27 03:19:35] <diabeticgonewild> try all of what?
[2014-06-27 03:19:46] <diabeticgonewild> I know, obviously
[2014-06-27 03:19:50] <diabeticgonewild> I'm from Seattle
[2014-06-27 03:19:57] <diabeticgonewild> yeah :)
[2014-06-27 03:20:23] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-27 03:20:29] <diabeticgonewild> LOL, I'm a west coast girl
[2014-06-27 03:20:37] <diabeticgonewild> both of my parents are from Seattle too
[2014-06-27 03:20:52] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that would be very nice of you
[2014-06-27 03:21:01] <diabeticgonewild> sounds intense
[2014-06-27 03:21:38] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that can involve a lot of abstract programming
[2014-06-27 03:21:55] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-27 03:22:07] <diabeticgonewild> programming is fun :)
[2014-06-27 03:22:28] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-27 03:22:50] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-06-27 03:23:02] <diabeticgonewild> I can do it like for 16 hours straight, probably even locked up in a closet
[2014-06-27 03:23:06] <diabeticgonewild> my brain is wired for it
[2014-06-27 03:23:10] <diabeticgonewild> I bet yours is too
[2014-06-27 03:23:14] <diabeticgonewild> it can get intense
[2014-06-27 03:23:18] <diabeticgonewild> and it gets to a point
[2014-06-27 03:23:24] <diabeticgonewild> where you even dream about your programs
[2014-06-27 03:24:02] <diabeticgonewild> like idk, I had a code of like 5 lines that I was stuck on for like 5 hours
[2014-06-27 03:24:04] <diabeticgonewild> really, what is it
[2014-06-27 03:24:09] <diabeticgonewild> for like *23 hours
[2014-06-27 03:24:14] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-27 03:24:23] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-27 03:24:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, but you get in the mode
[2014-06-27 03:24:39] <diabeticgonewild> it's a mindset
[2014-06-27 03:24:53] <diabeticgonewild> which is an awesome feeling
[2014-06-27 03:24:57] <diabeticgonewild> it's like winning a game
[2014-06-27 03:25:12] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 03:25:52] <diabeticgonewild> like your perception of color is affected by sleep
[2014-06-27 03:25:58] <diabeticgonewild> and the world in general
[2014-06-27 03:26:17] <diabeticgonewild> is affected by sleep
[2014-06-27 03:26:26] <diabeticgonewild> that's wild
[2014-06-27 03:27:25] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well your brain is programmed to perform computations at a certain rate
[2014-06-27 03:27:25] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-27 03:27:34] <diabeticgonewild> idk, if it was intense enough, the programming
[2014-06-27 03:27:40] <diabeticgonewild> a single night of sleep
[2014-06-27 03:27:46] <diabeticgonewild> I could figure it out
[2014-06-27 03:28:16] <diabeticgonewild> but I haven't programmed for years upon years upon years
[2014-06-27 03:28:31] <diabeticgonewild> mostly, I have picked up various projects that interest me here and there
[2014-06-27 03:28:32] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2014-06-27 03:28:57] <diabeticgonewild> actually, I used to use pseudo code to deconvolute circuits
[2014-06-27 03:29:15] <diabeticgonewild> like I would develop an algorithm to solve the problems
[2014-06-27 03:29:26] <diabeticgonewild> no, but I can learn it quickly
[2014-06-27 03:29:31] <diabeticgonewild> I have the foundational knowledge
[2014-06-27 03:29:32] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-27 03:29:38] <diabeticgonewild> I know digital logic design well
[2014-06-27 03:29:49] <diabeticgonewild> I just need to get familiar with VHDL and verilog
[2014-06-27 03:29:50] <diabeticgonewild> that's it
[2014-06-27 03:29:59] <diabeticgonewild> I have a bunch of textbooks over stuff like that
[2014-06-27 03:30:48] <diabeticgonewild> you get used to it
[2014-06-27 03:30:53] <diabeticgonewild> like it's all about abstraction
[2014-06-27 03:31:24] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abstraction
[2014-06-27 03:31:28] <diabeticgonewild> you can do it
[2014-06-27 03:31:35] <diabeticgonewild> believe me
[2014-06-27 03:31:39] <diabeticgonewild> if you stare at it long enough
[2014-06-27 03:31:42] <diabeticgonewild> you can do it
[2014-06-27 03:32:22] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-27 03:32:28] <diabeticgonewild> if you can synthesize
[2014-06-27 03:32:32] <diabeticgonewild> you can definitely deconvolute
[2014-06-27 03:32:39] <diabeticgonewild> that's very cool
[2014-06-27 03:33:03] <diabeticgonewild> like about VHDL
[2014-06-27 03:33:06] <diabeticgonewild> I have this book
[2014-06-27 03:33:11] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Digital-Electronics-Practical-Approach-Edition/dp/0132543036/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1403854370&sr=8-1&keywords=Digital+Electronics%3A+A+Practical+Approach+with+VHDL
[2014-06-27 03:33:13] <diabeticgonewild> digital copy
[2014-06-27 03:33:18] <diabeticgonewild> if you want to access it, you can
[2014-06-27 03:33:22] <diabeticgonewild> it's via coursesmart.com
[2014-06-27 03:33:35] <diabeticgonewild> I don't use amazon for my digital purchases actually
[2014-06-27 03:33:58] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-27 03:34:03] <diabeticgonewild> well math is a strong point for me
[2014-06-27 03:34:06] <diabeticgonewild> but like
[2014-06-27 03:34:20] <diabeticgonewild> want to see a cool cheat sheet I made, in pseudocode for circuits?
[2014-06-27 03:34:24] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-06-27 03:34:31] <diabeticgonewild> extremely awesome
[2014-06-27 03:34:48] <diabeticgonewild> I was actually talking to some friends about like decoding the signal, years ago
[2014-06-27 03:34:53] <diabeticgonewild> like summer 2011
[2014-06-27 03:35:16] <diabeticgonewild> so it's like assembly language
[2014-06-27 03:35:19] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 03:35:43] <diabeticgonewild> well that makes sense
[2014-06-27 03:35:58] <diabeticgonewild> because the technology is proprietary
[2014-06-27 03:36:05] <diabeticgonewild> and like Medtronic is filthy rich
[2014-06-27 03:36:20] <diabeticgonewild> and like it's hard to get approval for like proprietary protocols
[2014-06-27 03:36:23] <diabeticgonewild> they're lazy
[2014-06-27 03:36:54] <diabeticgonewild> like my cousin (by marriage) is an EE, and he is working on a device that is similar to an insulin pump
[2014-06-27 03:37:05] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-27 03:37:17] <diabeticgonewild> they want to use non-proprietary technologies
[2014-06-27 03:37:25] <diabeticgonewild> like I gave him a block diagram to like insulin pumps
[2014-06-27 03:37:29] <diabeticgonewild> and they actually used the info
[2014-06-27 03:37:31] <diabeticgonewild> in addition
[2014-06-27 03:37:48] <diabeticgonewild> I retrieved a bunch of FCC IDs for various diabetes devices
[2014-06-27 03:37:54] <diabeticgonewild> and provided links to the information
[2014-06-27 03:37:56] <diabeticgonewild> and he used it
[2014-06-27 03:38:01] <diabeticgonewild> and like the device
[2014-06-27 03:38:07] <diabeticgonewild> it's a really secret product
[2014-06-27 03:38:19] <diabeticgonewild> but it involves warable technology for like activity monitors and stuff
[2014-06-27 03:38:22] <diabeticgonewild> but like
[2014-06-27 03:38:27] <diabeticgonewild> it's the same class as an insulin pump
[2014-06-27 03:38:33] <diabeticgonewild> and they expect approval in Europe
[2014-06-27 03:38:44] <diabeticgonewild> 3 years after starting the project
[2014-06-27 03:38:54] <diabeticgonewild> and in the US 5 years after starting the project
[2014-06-27 03:39:00] <diabeticgonewild> due to regulatory problems with the FDA
[2014-06-27 03:39:04] <diabeticgonewild> which is interesting
[2014-06-27 03:39:07] <diabeticgonewild> and I mean
[2014-06-27 03:39:08] <diabeticgonewild> clearly
[2014-06-27 03:39:27] <diabeticgonewild> device reps and manufacturers in the diabetes market lie about device approval dates
[2014-06-27 03:39:39] <diabeticgonewild> because they have a timeline
[2014-06-27 03:39:51] <diabeticgonewild> because time lost in the approval process is = money lost
[2014-06-27 03:40:01] <diabeticgonewild> good morning Antoni
[2014-06-27 03:43:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that would be difficult
[2014-06-27 03:43:35] <diabeticgonewild> it's class III
[2014-06-27 03:43:46] <diabeticgonewild> because it is associated with continuous glucose monitoring
[2014-06-27 03:43:52] <diabeticgonewild> like the mySentry is class III
[2014-06-27 03:44:42] <diabeticgonewild> it requires a PMA
[2014-06-27 03:46:00] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 03:46:08] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-27 03:46:14] <diabeticgonewild> but it's an uphill battle
[2014-06-27 03:46:19] <diabeticgonewild> like the regulations
[2014-06-27 03:46:21] <diabeticgonewild> like one time
[2014-06-27 03:46:27] <diabeticgonewild> I spent like 60 hours reading them
[2014-06-27 03:46:46] <diabeticgonewild> to see if I could get a Freestyle Navigator II shipped to me
[2014-06-27 03:46:58] <diabeticgonewild> and there was no legal way of doing it
[2014-06-27 03:47:12] <diabeticgonewild> that would not risk seizure
[2014-06-27 03:47:16] <diabeticgonewild> and detention
[2014-06-27 03:47:31] <diabeticgonewild> even though it is manufacutered in Alameda, CA
[2014-06-27 03:47:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that is true
[2014-06-27 03:47:41] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-27 03:47:46] <diabeticgonewild> they don't catch everything
[2014-06-27 03:47:49] <diabeticgonewild> that's true
[2014-06-27 03:47:57] <diabeticgonewild> I ordered some medicine before no RX
[2014-06-27 03:48:03] <diabeticgonewild> that is not available in the US
[2014-06-27 03:48:06] <diabeticgonewild> let me emphasive that
[2014-06-27 03:48:14] <diabeticgonewild> but it's not controlled substances
[2014-06-27 03:48:17] <diabeticgonewild> I would never do that
[2014-06-27 03:48:20] <diabeticgonewild> but like
[2014-06-27 03:48:23] <diabeticgonewild> the problem is
[2014-06-27 03:48:36] <diabeticgonewild> it's not like customs does not log everything that goes in and out of the US
[2014-06-27 03:48:44] <diabeticgonewild> so like if you got a job with the government
[2014-06-27 03:48:53] <diabeticgonewild> you could fail to get a security clearance
[2014-06-27 03:48:58] <diabeticgonewild> like I am sure everything is logged
[2014-06-27 03:49:07] <diabeticgonewild> they are not that dumb not to log things
[2014-06-27 03:49:15] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-06-27 03:49:35] <diabeticgonewild> but it's still an opportunity that is lost
[2014-06-27 03:49:54] <diabeticgonewild> like working for NASA would be cool
[2014-06-27 03:49:58] <diabeticgonewild> but that's not a stable job
[2014-06-27 03:50:02] <diabeticgonewild> so I'm like no way
[2014-06-27 03:50:28] <diabeticgonewild> probably not
[2014-06-27 03:51:01] <diabeticgonewild> like the navigator was extremely precise
[2014-06-27 03:51:03] <diabeticgonewild> and accurate
[2014-06-27 03:51:04] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-27 03:51:13] <diabeticgonewild> one out of 30 strips of the Freestyle strips
[2014-06-27 03:51:18] <diabeticgonewild> would like be inaccurate
[2014-06-27 03:51:27] <diabeticgonewild> and it would read 50 mg/dL higher than it should
[2014-06-27 03:51:44] <diabeticgonewild> and I could tell with the freestyle navigator that this was the case
[2014-06-27 03:51:45] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-27 03:51:54] <diabeticgonewild> after 6 weeks of the freestyle navigator
[2014-06-27 03:52:03] <diabeticgonewild> my A1c went down from a 7.2 to a 5.6
[2014-06-27 03:52:08] <diabeticgonewild> pretty incredible
[2014-06-27 03:52:22] <diabeticgonewild> and I would have BG averages of like 86 with a standard deviation of 5
[2014-06-27 03:52:27] <diabeticgonewild> it was unbelievable
[2014-06-27 03:52:33] <diabeticgonewild> and it was years ahead of it's time
[2014-06-27 03:52:41] <diabeticgonewild> like it used wired enzyme technology
[2014-06-27 03:52:48] <diabeticgonewild> and I belive that's what made the difference
[2014-06-27 03:53:02] <diabeticgonewild> obviously it measures in mg/dL
[2014-06-27 03:53:09] <diabeticgonewild> I mean mmol/L from here
[2014-06-27 03:53:10] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.myfreestyle-webshop.nl/freestyle-navigator-II
[2014-06-27 03:53:27] <diabeticgonewild> I mean it was unbelievable
[2014-06-27 03:53:29] <diabeticgonewild> telcate?
[2014-06-27 03:53:59] <diabeticgonewild> with the drivers?
[2014-06-27 03:54:06] <diabeticgonewild> I have took signal analysis
[2014-06-27 03:54:07] <diabeticgonewild> actually
[2014-06-27 03:54:21] <diabeticgonewild> I intend on doing DSP as my subspecialization in EE at ASU
[2014-06-27 03:54:29] <diabeticgonewild> I intended on doing that awhile back
[2014-06-27 03:55:29] <diabeticgonewild> like this guy who got the Freestyle Navigator from France
[2014-06-27 03:55:30] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-27 03:55:41] <diabeticgonewild> his shipment got stopped at customs
[2014-06-27 03:55:58] <diabeticgonewild> like they can nail you on FCC regulations, even if the device has the CE mark
[2014-06-27 03:55:59] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-27 03:56:15] <diabeticgonewild> I have to look at tuD to see what he specifically said again
[2014-06-27 03:56:29] <diabeticgonewild> but like he had to convince them that it was the same device approved in the US
[2014-06-27 03:56:31] <diabeticgonewild> basically
[2014-06-27 03:56:52] <diabeticgonewild> like the freestyle navigator II does not have an FCC ID
[2014-06-27 03:56:52] <diabeticgonewild> correct
[2014-06-27 03:56:54] <diabeticgonewild> at customs
[2014-06-27 03:57:14] <diabeticgonewild> and like if you do not get a meter that reads in mg/dL
[2014-06-27 03:57:23] <diabeticgonewild> they can call the device misbranded
[2014-06-27 03:57:26] <diabeticgonewild> and detain it
[2014-06-27 03:57:27] <diabeticgonewild> from you
[2014-06-27 03:57:35] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 03:57:42] <diabeticgonewild> that's why I was going to try Israel
[2014-06-27 03:57:48] <diabeticgonewild> and use a mail forwarding service
[2014-06-27 03:57:49] <diabeticgonewild> http://freestylenavigator.co.il/geffen/MQ
[2014-06-27 03:57:56] <diabeticgonewild> In Germany
[2014-06-27 03:58:26] <diabeticgonewild> you can get ahold of either the mmol/L or the mg/dL version, but it requires an Rx from a German doctor
[2014-06-27 03:58:36] <diabeticgonewild> like a european carelink USB?
[2014-06-27 03:58:52] <diabeticgonewild> with the different frequency?
[2014-06-27 03:59:53] <diabeticgonewild> because the frequency of the Medtronic pumps/MiniLink/Bayer Meter/USB device are differnent in Europe than in the US
[2014-06-27 04:00:03] <diabeticgonewild> the frequency is the same in North America
[2014-06-27 04:00:11] <diabeticgonewild> in both the US and Canada
[2014-06-27 04:00:13] <diabeticgonewild> my BG is low
[2014-06-27 04:00:30] <diabeticgonewild> and my heart just skipped a beat (premature ventricular contraction)
[2014-06-27 04:00:35] <diabeticgonewild> and my brain is not working
[2014-06-27 04:01:32] <diabeticgonewild> brb
[2014-06-27 04:04:19] <diabeticgonewild> fun. I experienced exteme vetigo while going down the stairs and extreme lightheadedness
[2014-06-27 04:04:29] <diabeticgonewild> now my heart is just racing and I am confused
[2014-06-27 04:05:23] <diabeticgonewild> anyways, I would get the Freestyle Navigator II from the distributor in Israel (Geffen Medical) and give them the adress for mail forwarding in Israel
[2014-06-27 04:05:29] <diabeticgonewild> which doesn't look too suspicious
[2014-06-27 04:05:44] <diabeticgonewild> because it reads in mg/dL
[2014-06-27 04:05:53] <diabeticgonewild> and all they require is a doctor's note from anywhere
[2014-06-27 04:06:08] <diabeticgonewild> even the Russians get their diabetes supplies from Geffen
[2014-06-27 04:06:38] <diabeticgonewild> and just order the sensors from the Netherlands
[2014-06-27 04:06:46] <diabeticgonewild> but I decided that this was all too risky
[2014-06-27 04:06:52] <diabeticgonewild> and relatively expensive
[2014-06-27 04:07:06] <diabeticgonewild> like when you call Geffen
[2014-06-27 04:07:12] <diabeticgonewild> they say "Shalom" and stuff
[2014-06-27 04:07:15] <diabeticgonewild> but all of them speak English
[2014-06-27 04:07:33] <diabeticgonewild> and they will call you back wiht sombody who does foreign stuff
[2014-06-27 04:07:48] <diabeticgonewild> like you just call them and tell them "I only speak English"
[2014-06-27 04:07:53] <diabeticgonewild> well you better get to bed
[2014-06-27 04:08:03] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:08:15] <diabeticgonewild> I am in a bad state physically, so that's why I am up
[2014-06-27 04:08:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:08:20] <diabeticgonewild> you need to focus on that
[2014-06-27 04:08:35] <diabeticgonewild> keep your priorities in perspective
[2014-06-27 04:08:42] <diabeticgonewild> don't lose sight of your priorities
[2014-06-27 04:08:51] <diabeticgonewild> and carefully consider then
[2014-06-27 04:08:54] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-27 04:08:58] <diabeticgonewild> Antoni, yes
[2014-06-27 04:09:04] <diabeticgonewild> if the meter is in mmol/L
[2014-06-27 04:09:19] <diabeticgonewild> the customs officer will detain and confiscate it, due to misbranding
[2014-06-27 04:09:45] <diabeticgonewild> anyways, here is the email from Geffen
[2014-06-27 04:10:01] <diabeticgonewild> it costs $100 less to get the sensors from the Netherlands
[2014-06-27 04:10:01] <diabeticgonewild> Hello Monica!     Thank you for contacting us.     As far as I understood you are interested in purchasing FreeStyle Navigator II.     We are selling this continuous meter in Israel.  Please let me know if you are planning to come here.  In order to purchase it we need a letter from your HCP that recommends it to you.     The cost of FreeStyle Navigator Kit is 2350$, one box of Sensors is 650$.     I am not sure I
[2014-06-27 04:10:29] <diabeticgonewild> Please do not hesitate to write me and ask everything you need to know.     If it is more convenient for you to speak on phone,  please write me which time zone you are in and what is a time convenient for you to talk.     Best regards  Lena
[2014-06-27 04:10:47] <diabeticgonewild> anyways I should let you go to bed bewest
[2014-06-27 04:11:15] <diabeticgonewild> like let you go to sleep
[2014-06-27 04:11:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:11:20] <diabeticgonewild> I can't justify that
[2014-06-27 04:11:23] <diabeticgonewild> too risky
[2014-06-27 04:11:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:11:41] <diabeticgonewild> extremely precise though
[2014-06-27 04:11:52] <diabeticgonewild> I could easily get an A1c of a non-diabetic
[2014-06-27 04:11:54] <diabeticgonewild> but too risky
[2014-06-27 04:12:00] <diabeticgonewild> I cannot convince myself to do it
[2014-06-27 04:12:04] <diabeticgonewild> with all of the risk involved
[2014-06-27 04:12:49] <diabeticgonewild> just joined
[2014-06-27 04:13:04] <diabeticgonewild> wixel for reproducing the signal for long-ranges?
[2014-06-27 04:13:08] <diabeticgonewild> or like decoding the signal
[2014-06-27 04:13:13] <diabeticgonewild> and using better algorithms
[2014-06-27 04:13:37] <diabeticgonewild> it says that the page is not currently available
[2014-06-27 04:13:46] <diabeticgonewild> those kinds of formulas and stuff are all over IEEE
[2014-06-27 04:13:52] <diabeticgonewild> I have full access to IEEE
[2014-06-27 04:14:13] <diabeticgonewild> and like you are supposed to calibrate every 6 hours, like clockwork, according to IEEE reports
[2014-06-27 04:14:13] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-06-27 04:14:30] <diabeticgonewild> ok will do
[2014-06-27 04:14:36] <diabeticgonewild> but remember I don't use the Dexcom
[2014-06-27 04:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> no, constant ??? after 6 hours post calibration
[2014-06-27 04:15:15] <diabeticgonewild> with a 85-90% sensor failure rate due to that reason
[2014-06-27 04:15:49] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not good at losing stuff
[2014-06-27 04:15:56] <diabeticgonewild> that's why the AP project needs to go down
[2014-06-27 04:16:07] <diabeticgonewild> but you still have to test every 6 hours
[2014-06-27 04:16:28] <diabeticgonewild> and there are no models for meals and glucose prediction
[2014-06-27 04:16:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:16:45] <diabeticgonewild> Roman Hovorka's work is what everyone is using
[2014-06-27 04:16:51] <diabeticgonewild> all of his models, essentially
[2014-06-27 04:16:57] <diabeticgonewild> but what about the DIYPS
[2014-06-27 04:17:35] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, they have models for insulin absorption
[2014-06-27 04:17:39] <diabeticgonewild> not for food absorption
[2014-06-27 04:17:53] <diabeticgonewild> and the prediction of glucose based on meals
[2014-06-27 04:18:03] <diabeticgonewild> there is hepatic release
[2014-06-27 04:18:10] <diabeticgonewild> kidney glucose clearance
[2014-06-27 04:18:16] <diabeticgonewild> and stuff included in those models
[2014-06-27 04:18:26] <diabeticgonewild> a bunch of foods need to be tested
[2014-06-27 04:18:31] <diabeticgonewild> like hetrogenous meals
[2014-06-27 04:18:36] <diabeticgonewild> with radioactive isotopes
[2014-06-27 04:18:46] <diabeticgonewild> using like gamma radiation
[2014-06-27 04:18:55] <diabeticgonewild> and like also based on glucose levels
[2014-06-27 04:19:08] <diabeticgonewild> because high blood glucose decreases gastric emptying rate
[2014-06-27 04:19:16] <diabeticgonewild> low glucose increases it
[2014-06-27 04:19:34] <diabeticgonewild> oh yeah, I could calculate any person's basic basal based on weight with the sliding mode control I used
[2014-06-27 04:19:39] <diabeticgonewild> like in Matlab
[2014-06-27 04:19:44] <diabeticgonewild> let me find Hovorka's page
[2014-06-27 04:19:47] <diabeticgonewild> he's at Cambridge
[2014-06-27 04:19:57] <diabeticgonewild> well my idea was
[2014-06-27 04:20:02] <diabeticgonewild> for like packaged food
[2014-06-27 04:20:10] <diabeticgonewild> using RF chips initially
[2014-06-27 04:20:16] <diabeticgonewild> in the kitchen for prepacked food
[2014-06-27 04:20:26] <diabeticgonewild> with a scale for weighing the food
[2014-06-27 04:20:30] <diabeticgonewild> using the RF to link the chip
[2014-06-27 04:20:40] <diabeticgonewild> certainly
[2014-06-27 04:20:58] <diabeticgonewild> that figures out the nutrition info strictly based on weight
[2014-06-27 04:21:00] <diabeticgonewild> after cooking
[2014-06-27 04:21:12] <diabeticgonewild> like using NFC chips in the plates
[2014-06-27 04:21:23] <diabeticgonewild> that the food is to be served on
[2014-06-27 04:21:27] <diabeticgonewild> the plates are weighed
[2014-06-27 04:21:39] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, the ingredients are known through the RF chips
[2014-06-27 04:21:50] <diabeticgonewild> and like every bite you take
[2014-06-27 04:22:11] <diabeticgonewild> anyways I cannot explain it well because I really do not feel well
[2014-06-27 04:22:12] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:22:18] <diabeticgonewild> using a diabetes operating system
[2014-06-27 04:22:21] <diabeticgonewild> though the phone
[2014-06-27 04:22:25] <diabeticgonewild> like in tandem
[2014-06-27 04:22:32] <diabeticgonewild> with the native OS for the phone operations
[2014-06-27 04:22:41] <diabeticgonewild> if it's prepackaged
[2014-06-27 04:22:56] <diabeticgonewild> like the RF chip information is communicated to the plate
[2014-06-27 04:23:07] <diabeticgonewild> if it's not
[2014-06-27 04:23:12] <diabeticgonewild> you use the RF chips
[2014-06-27 04:23:20] <diabeticgonewild> use a weighing device that automatically
[2014-06-27 04:23:32] <diabeticgonewild> retrieves the nutritional data and weight
[2014-06-27 04:23:43] <diabeticgonewild> and then you cook your stuff
[2014-06-27 04:23:51] <diabeticgonewild> and it saves the info
[2014-06-27 04:23:58] <diabeticgonewild> using the diabetes operating system
[2014-06-27 04:24:13] <diabeticgonewild> and when you put it on the plate with NFC/RF communication capabilities
[2014-06-27 04:24:32] <diabeticgonewild> it calculates what you eat
[2014-06-27 04:24:33] <diabeticgonewild> but idk
[2014-06-27 04:24:37] <diabeticgonewild> i haven't perfected it
[2014-06-27 04:24:50] <diabeticgonewild> there is something at Engadget that I came across that is intriguing
[2014-06-27 04:24:58] <diabeticgonewild> but this idea I have had since like 2011
[2014-06-27 04:25:35] <diabeticgonewild> this is just step 1 of the idea, without the RF chips
[2014-06-27 04:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.engadget.com/2014/06/03/drop-kitchen-scale/
[2014-06-27 04:25:39] <diabeticgonewild> RFID chips
[2014-06-27 04:25:47] <diabeticgonewild> and the "dumbing down" of the process
[2014-06-27 04:26:16] <diabeticgonewild> what I mean by dumbing down, is the ability not to have to thnk
[2014-06-27 04:26:28] <diabeticgonewild> about the nutritional information
[2014-06-27 04:26:30] <diabeticgonewild> I agree
[2014-06-27 04:26:55] <diabeticgonewild> certainly
[2014-06-27 04:26:57] <diabeticgonewild> Walmart uses it
[2014-06-27 04:27:04] <diabeticgonewild> NFC has a lot of potential too
[2014-06-27 04:27:13] <diabeticgonewild> especially with mobile devices
[2014-06-27 04:27:27] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-06-27 04:28:15] <diabeticgonewild> but you see how all of this can be linked through like scales (or bowls that measure weight), plates with scales
[2014-06-27 04:28:26] <diabeticgonewild> and like RF or NFC, with a dedicated OS
[2014-06-27 04:28:41] <diabeticgonewild> and the process could be completely dumbed down
[2014-06-27 04:29:16] <diabeticgonewild> that's what (honestly) needs to happen next
[2014-06-27 04:29:23] <diabeticgonewild> it reduces error from all standpoints
[2014-06-27 04:29:26] <diabeticgonewild> even a snack on the go
[2014-06-27 04:29:37] <diabeticgonewild> like put it in a ziploc bag with an RF chip
[2014-06-27 04:29:51] <diabeticgonewild> certainly
[2014-06-27 04:30:03] <diabeticgonewild> it needs to be embeded in the plate
[2014-06-27 04:30:07] <diabeticgonewild> I thought about the table
[2014-06-27 04:30:10] <diabeticgonewild> but why?
[2014-06-27 04:30:13] <diabeticgonewild> what for?
[2014-06-27 04:30:15] <diabeticgonewild> that's bulky
[2014-06-27 04:30:23] <diabeticgonewild> and it doesn't work with all tables
[2014-06-27 04:30:49] <diabeticgonewild> like things are scaling down to the point where a "smart plate" and "smart bowl" can be manufactured
[2014-06-27 04:30:52] <diabeticgonewild> 3d print designs
[2014-06-27 04:30:58] <diabeticgonewild> give that option
[2014-06-27 04:31:25] <diabeticgonewild> it would
[2014-06-27 04:31:29] <diabeticgonewild> and you can retrieve entries
[2014-06-27 04:31:37] <diabeticgonewild> and correlate the BG rise/fall
[2014-06-27 04:31:40] <diabeticgonewild> with like
[2014-06-27 04:31:49] <diabeticgonewild> inital BG level, time of day, etc
[2014-06-27 04:31:56] <diabeticgonewild> with like an indexing function, obviously
[2014-06-27 04:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:32:14] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 04:32:19] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-27 04:32:28] <diabeticgonewild> it's kind of obvious now, isn't it
[2014-06-27 04:32:37] <diabeticgonewild> or enter the diabetes market
[2014-06-27 04:32:41] <diabeticgonewild> like the scale people
[2014-06-27 04:32:57] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-06-27 04:33:04] <diabeticgonewild> well yeah, well it would start there
[2014-06-27 04:33:08] <diabeticgonewild> it's more profitable there
[2014-06-27 04:33:27] <diabeticgonewild> and once it becomes affordable
[2014-06-27 04:33:36] <diabeticgonewild> distribute it to the mass population
[2014-06-27 04:33:42] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, diabetes is
[2014-06-27 04:33:59] <diabeticgonewild> like remember, only the rich can afford expensive technologies
[2014-06-27 04:34:07] <diabeticgonewild> that's universal design bewest
[2014-06-27 04:34:09] <diabeticgonewild> that's true
[2014-06-27 04:34:26] <diabeticgonewild> but like diabetes might be the way to go down that pipeline
[2014-06-27 04:34:28] <diabeticgonewild> but idk
[2014-06-27 04:34:32] <diabeticgonewild> I don't do business
[2014-06-27 04:35:27] <diabeticgonewild> ok, I will email you later
[2014-06-27 04:35:32] <diabeticgonewild> like in an hour or so
[2014-06-27 04:35:34] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-06-27 04:35:40] <diabeticgonewild> I would do it right now
[2014-06-27 04:35:52] <diabeticgonewild> but my brain is not in the right place, although i am better
[2014-06-27 04:35:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I will
[2014-06-27 04:47:22] <diabeticgonewild> I'm about to send an email
[2014-06-27 05:05:34] <diabeticgonewild> Roman Hovorka's page
[2014-06-27 05:05:35] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.mrl.ims.cam.ac.uk/staff/PI/Hovroka/
[2014-06-27 05:05:53] <diabeticgonewild> Absorption patterns of meals containing complex carbohydrates in type 1 diabetes
[2014-06-27 05:07:49] <diabeticgonewild> I have a copy of it
[2014-06-27 05:08:28] <diabeticgonewild> it's pure gold
[2014-06-27 06:54:55] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-06-27 11:58:22] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: are you awake?
[2014-06-27 12:04:53] <diabeticgonewild> LOL!
[2014-06-27 12:15:46] <diabeticgonewild> hey I am going to PM you bewest
[2014-06-27 15:16:13] <diabeticgonewild> went to the doctor
[2014-06-27 15:16:20] <diabeticgonewild> had a resting heart rate of like 126
[2014-06-27 15:22:00] <diabeticgonewild> dosman711: yeah, it's just my autoimmune dysautonomia (autonomic neuropathy not related to diabetes)
[2014-06-27 15:22:10] <diabeticgonewild> thank you for asking
[2014-06-27 15:22:32] <diabeticgonewild> like I see my neurologist July 8 and I know I am going to be put on some awful treatment....but that's life
[2014-06-27 15:25:21] <diabeticgonewild> I have to :)
[2014-06-27 15:28:53] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-27 18:32:01] <diabeticgonewild> *so tired*
[2014-06-27 18:37:26] <diabeticgonewild> yumm...strawberry ensure
[2014-06-27 18:40:38] <diabeticgonewild> this
[2014-06-27 18:40:41] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.google.com/patents/US20140081236?dq=artificial+pancreas+cambridge&hl=en&sa=X&ei=dtStU7OOD8SLqAax5IKIBg&ved=0CBwQ6AEwAA
[2014-06-27 18:41:11] <diabeticgonewild> and the articles cited below are all you really need to program the arrtificial pancreas project legitimatey
[2014-06-27 18:41:22] <diabeticgonewild> as long as the devices become open source
[2014-06-27 18:41:26] <diabeticgonewild> and you want closed loop
[2014-06-27 18:41:39] <diabeticgonewild> because althogh the average BGs are slightly higher
[2014-06-27 18:41:50] <diabeticgonewild> you vomited?
[2014-06-27 18:41:52] <diabeticgonewild> WTF?
[2014-06-27 18:41:57] <diabeticgonewild> I'm the one to vomit!
[2014-06-27 18:42:05] <diabeticgonewild> I'm sorry gewest
[2014-06-27 18:42:06] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-06-27 18:42:25] <diabeticgonewild> anyways, with closed loop
[2014-06-27 18:42:38] <diabeticgonewild> there is a three fold decrease in hypoglycemia
[2014-06-27 18:42:42] <diabeticgonewild> that's probably sweet
[2014-06-27 18:42:45] <diabeticgonewild> like sick views
[2014-06-27 18:43:01] <diabeticgonewild> what service are you going to use?
[2014-06-27 18:43:24] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that's awesome!
[2014-06-27 18:43:29] <diabeticgonewild> congrats!
[2014-06-27 18:43:53] <diabeticgonewild> you must have had an exciting day
[2014-06-27 18:44:20] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-27 18:44:38] <diabeticgonewild> intense
[2014-06-27 18:45:49] <diabeticgonewild> so what are you going to do tonight?
[2014-06-27 18:45:49] <diabeticgonewild> chill?
[2014-06-27 18:45:51] <diabeticgonewild> work?
[2014-06-27 18:48:11] <diabeticgonewild> I actually did not sleep at all last night
[2014-06-27 18:48:16] <diabeticgonewild> which is really good for me
[2014-06-27 18:48:29] <diabeticgonewild> because
[2014-06-27 18:48:34] <diabeticgonewild> I sleep a lot :/
[2014-06-27 18:54:52] <diabeticgonewild> I guess this irc channel is going to sleep....
[2014-06-27 18:57:11] <diabeticgonewild> dude Jerry the bear
[2014-06-27 18:57:19] <diabeticgonewild> is like a $300 bear
[2014-06-27 18:57:29] <diabeticgonewild> and like that's what that reddit link is about
[2014-06-27 18:57:58] <diabeticgonewild> it has bad reviews too
[2014-06-27 18:58:01] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool!
[2014-06-27 18:58:13] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.jerrythebear.com/
[2014-06-27 18:58:58] <diabeticgonewild> send those kids to diabetes camp instead
[2014-06-27 18:58:59] <diabeticgonewild> seriously
[2014-06-27 18:59:17] <diabeticgonewild> I started going to diabetes camp, overnight, at age 6
[2014-06-27 19:00:11] <diabeticgonewild> I went for like 10 summers, at camp sweeney
[2014-06-27 19:00:14] <diabeticgonewild> it was amazing
[2014-06-27 19:00:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 19:00:47] <diabeticgonewild> and it doesn't work well
[2014-06-27 19:01:07] <diabeticgonewild> send those kids to diabetes camp. They will be way better adjusted
[2014-06-27 19:01:15] <diabeticgonewild> meeting kids like them their age
[2014-06-27 19:01:27] <diabeticgonewild> who are lively
[2014-06-27 19:02:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I just checked
[2014-06-27 19:02:26] <diabeticgonewild> it's $300
[2014-06-27 19:02:36] <diabeticgonewild> I wasn't making it up, LOL
[2014-06-27 19:02:49] <diabeticgonewild> sendng those kids to camp = problem solved
[2014-06-27 19:02:50] <diabeticgonewild> but then agian
[2014-06-27 19:02:53] <diabeticgonewild> I am not a parent
[2014-06-27 19:03:04] <diabeticgonewild> but that was the best thing my parents did for my diabetes
[2014-06-27 19:05:48] <diabeticgonewild> I am thinking about buying some alcohol
[2014-06-27 19:05:56] <diabeticgonewild> like some Cayman Jack Margaritas
[2014-06-27 19:06:11] <diabeticgonewild> but I know it's not a good idea, either
[2014-06-27 19:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> but I am tempted
[2014-06-27 19:07:14] <diabeticgonewild> how in the world did inhaled insulin get approved
[2014-06-27 19:07:21] <diabeticgonewild> there is no way that it can be accurately dosed
[2014-06-27 19:07:31] <diabeticgonewild> because it is being passed through mucous membranes
[2014-06-27 19:07:43] <diabeticgonewild> and the absorption will vary dramatically each time
[2014-06-27 19:07:52] <diabeticgonewild> Lornetc: what project?
[2014-06-27 19:08:33] <diabeticgonewild> oh, the plastic bong with Exubera?
[2014-06-27 19:08:45] <diabeticgonewild> it was supposed to be a blockbuster drug
[2014-06-27 19:09:05] <diabeticgonewild> that's what they are in the business of doing
[2014-06-27 19:09:10] <diabeticgonewild> that's just how pharma works
[2014-06-27 19:09:19] <diabeticgonewild> but that's too bad Lornetc
[2014-06-27 19:09:25] <diabeticgonewild> because everyone loses regardless
[2014-06-27 19:10:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I am actually getting a rush of euphoria right now
[2014-06-27 19:10:47] <diabeticgonewild> because the ensure that I drank is kicking in
[2014-06-27 19:10:56] <diabeticgonewild> and that's all I have had to "eat" todat
[2014-06-27 19:11:09] <diabeticgonewild> and yesterday, all I had was two slices of deli meat
[2014-06-27 19:12:12] <diabeticgonewild> Ensure, ftw
[2014-06-27 19:13:02] <diabeticgonewild> if youre type 2
[2014-06-27 19:14:00] <diabeticgonewild> it's only approved for type 2
[2014-06-27 19:14:52] <diabeticgonewild> nevermind
[2014-06-27 19:14:55] <diabeticgonewild> it is approved for type 1
[2014-06-27 19:15:00] <diabeticgonewild> CBS news got it wrong
[2014-06-27 19:15:08] <diabeticgonewild> but liek it's not accurate
[2014-06-27 19:15:08] <diabeticgonewild> at all
[2014-06-27 19:15:16] <diabeticgonewild> compared to syringes or injections
[2014-06-27 19:15:33] <diabeticgonewild> because you are passing the substance through orfices and mucous membranes
[2014-06-27 19:15:39] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.fda.gov/NewsEvents/Newsroom/PressAnnouncements/ucm403122.htm
[2014-06-27 19:16:03] <diabeticgonewild> I think I will wait at least 5 years before I try it out
[2014-06-27 19:16:25] <diabeticgonewild> like even when humalog came out, my doctor didn't want me on it immediately
[2014-06-27 19:16:41] <diabeticgonewild> Lornetc: true
[2014-06-27 19:17:17] <diabeticgonewild> At week 24, treatment with basal insulin and mealtime Afrezza provided a mean reduction in HbA1c (hemoglobin A1c or glycosylated hemoglobin, a measure of blood sugar control) that met the pre-specified non-inferiority margin of 0.4 percent.
[2014-06-27 19:17:31] <diabeticgonewild> I am by far more excited aabout the artificial pancreas
[2014-06-27 19:17:42] <diabeticgonewild> rather than introducing more variability
[2014-06-27 19:17:49] <diabeticgonewild> with absorption issues
[2014-06-27 19:18:06] <diabeticgonewild> I think I will save it for extreme highs
[2014-06-27 19:18:35] <diabeticgonewild> Lornetc: I am not excited about gene therapy. I have a rare autoimmune disease that theoretically could have caused my diabetes
[2014-06-27 19:18:53] <diabeticgonewild> and I might be one of the last people to benefit from such a treatment
[2014-06-27 19:19:24] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-27 19:19:41] <diabeticgonewild> well this drug will probably cost like $750 per month
[2014-06-27 19:19:46] <diabeticgonewild> even for type 1a
[2014-06-27 19:19:48] <diabeticgonewild> 1s
[2014-06-27 19:20:57] <diabeticgonewild> I am by far more excited about the artificial pancreas project, aren't you bewest ?
[2014-06-27 19:21:16] <diabeticgonewild> or do you just like to see more treatments, in general
[2014-06-27 19:21:17] <diabeticgonewild> >
[2014-06-27 19:21:20] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-06-27 19:21:54] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well it's promising regardless
[2014-06-27 19:21:57] <diabeticgonewild> I can program well
[2014-06-27 19:21:58] <diabeticgonewild> also
[2014-06-27 19:22:24] <diabeticgonewild> well what about my wild idea/product proposal last night
[2014-06-27 19:22:30] <diabeticgonewild> that's why open-source
[2014-06-27 19:23:04] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 19:23:07] <diabeticgonewild> well like Symlin isn't an option for me
[2014-06-27 19:23:28] <diabeticgonewild> actually, in like CareLink
[2014-06-27 19:23:44] <diabeticgonewild> I got the Bayer Contour USB Link to work
[2014-06-27 19:24:09] <diabeticgonewild> but it didn't get my pump's information (I do not think that the 530G is compatible with CareLink)
[2014-06-27 19:24:23] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 19:24:47] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2014-06-27 19:25:02] <diabeticgonewild> I did some programming in MATLAB with it
[2014-06-27 19:25:04] <diabeticgonewild> and it is a pain
[2014-06-27 19:25:30] <diabeticgonewild> back in the day, when I had that pump
[2014-06-27 19:25:35] <diabeticgonewild> that pump, the 2020, was good to me
[2014-06-27 19:25:38] <diabeticgonewild> it never failed
[2014-06-27 19:25:44] <diabeticgonewild> I call it old faithful
[2014-06-27 19:25:54] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-27 19:25:59] <diabeticgonewild> Dexcom doesn't work for me either
[2014-06-27 19:26:07] <diabeticgonewild> I am from Seattle
[2014-06-27 19:26:18] <diabeticgonewild> but I live in Texas
[2014-06-27 19:26:34] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't mind living in Vancouver
[2014-06-27 19:26:36] <diabeticgonewild> that really sucks
[2014-06-27 19:26:58] <diabeticgonewild> but I could never get a student visa or even permanent residence
[2014-06-27 19:27:03] <diabeticgonewild> due to all of my medical problems
[2014-06-27 19:27:12] <diabeticgonewild> IR??
[2014-06-27 19:27:15] <diabeticgonewild> insulin ration?
[2014-06-27 19:27:25] <diabeticgonewild> oh that sucks
[2014-06-27 19:27:27] <diabeticgonewild> bigtime
[2014-06-27 19:27:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-27 19:27:56] <diabeticgonewild> I understand
[2014-06-27 19:28:07] <diabeticgonewild> I would never want to get off of my pump either
[2014-06-27 19:28:11] <diabeticgonewild> that's ridiculous
[2014-06-27 19:28:30] <diabeticgonewild> like when I go up to Seattle to visit family
[2014-06-27 19:28:33] <diabeticgonewild> like all we do is visit family
[2014-06-27 19:28:55] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have to take a huge gigantic backpack of supplies with me everywhere in case something happens
[2014-06-27 19:28:56] <diabeticgonewild> that blows
[2014-06-27 19:29:13] <diabeticgonewild> it must make your BGs hard to manage
[2014-06-27 19:29:54] <diabeticgonewild> but idk, I would kill to be a grad student at UBC
[2014-06-27 19:30:09] <diabeticgonewild> I know it's a dream that's not going to happen
[2014-06-27 19:30:29] <diabeticgonewild> I could go without a pump, although I cannot imagine doing that anymore
[2014-06-27 19:30:31] <diabeticgonewild> that really sucks
[2014-06-27 19:31:15] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: why not let me help decode the signals
[2014-06-27 19:31:28] <diabeticgonewild> and have me program the models for the artificial pancreas project
[2014-06-27 19:31:40] <diabeticgonewild> I've done it before, but not with an updated algorithm
[2014-06-27 19:32:13] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, what do I need, comlink?
[2014-06-27 19:32:49] <diabeticgonewild> somebody actually tried using Comlink in MATLAB, btw
[2014-06-27 19:32:51] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.mathworks.com/matlabcentral/answers/24030-how-to-incorporate-c-file-in-matlab
[2014-06-27 19:33:32] <diabeticgonewild> so like everyone taking classes at ASU this summer
[2014-06-27 19:33:37] <diabeticgonewild> is done with their classes for this term
[2014-06-27 19:33:44] <diabeticgonewild> except for our class
[2014-06-27 19:33:56] <diabeticgonewild> that goes on for *2 more weeks*
[2014-06-27 19:35:39] <diabeticgonewild> anyways I am actually bored
[2014-06-27 19:35:47] <diabeticgonewild> I need to do something
[2014-06-27 19:37:09] <diabeticgonewild> well, I guess I am excited about having an ultra rapid acting form of insulin
[2014-06-27 19:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> because I have to overtreat my lows due to severe gastroparesis, and my blood sugars soar
[2014-06-27 19:37:44] <diabeticgonewild> so I guess it has benefit
[2014-06-27 19:38:03] <diabeticgonewild> but I am not going to be the first to try it, that's for sure
[2014-06-27 19:39:14] <diabeticgonewild> I don't mean to be debbie downer
[2014-06-27 19:39:27] <diabeticgonewild> I just don't put much faith in new pharmaceuticals
[2014-06-27 19:42:50] <diabeticgonewild> actually I take that back, I really want Ersatta to be approved by the FDA, which is made by Cebix
[2014-06-27 19:43:12] <diabeticgonewild> because I have autonomic neuropathy and I know how terrible it is
[2014-06-27 19:43:20] <diabeticgonewild> and how much I want to prevent it
[2014-06-27 19:43:33] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.cebix.com/
[2014-06-27 19:43:43] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't wish autonomic neuropathy on anyone
[2014-06-27 19:45:58] <diabeticgonewild>  r b ioavailability c ompared to subcutaneous i nsulin : The relative b ioavailability of Afrezza is ~ 20 - 30% that of subcutaneous insulin. The a pplicant acc ounted for the lower bioavailability i n pivotal trials using a dose conversion algorithm (i.e., 10 units of Afrezza for 4 units of subcutaneous insulin ).
[2014-06-27 19:56:24] <diabeticgonewild> actually, I have changed my mind about Afrezza, after looking at the fraphs
[2014-06-27 19:56:27] <diabeticgonewild> graphs
[2014-06-27 19:56:40] <diabeticgonewild> at least when I am high I can treat the highs aggressively
[2014-06-27 19:56:43] <diabeticgonewild> which I need to do
[2014-06-27 19:56:50] <diabeticgonewild> with autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-27 20:09:06] <diabeticgonewild> my mom, my brother, his fiancee and her family just came home
[2014-06-27 20:09:10] <diabeticgonewild> I will be back later
[2014-06-27 20:26:42] <diabeticgonewild> back
[2014-06-27 20:27:01] <diabeticgonewild> like I have a fleece jacket on and it's like 85 and I am still cold
[2014-06-27 20:27:34] <diabeticgonewild> and like I took the garbage bins back in and I didn't realize how weak I actually was
[2014-06-27 20:28:01] <diabeticgonewild> yay
[2014-06-27 20:30:09] <diabeticgonewild> me too
[2014-06-27 20:30:18] <diabeticgonewild> I like the feeling of warmth
[2014-06-27 20:34:33] <diabeticgonewild> that really sucks
[2014-06-27 20:34:40] <diabeticgonewild> ewww!
[2014-06-27 20:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> greenconverse: I was actuallty in a half=awake, half-asleep state until I read that!
[2014-06-27 20:35:15] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks!
[2014-06-27 20:35:54] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't been hungry all day
[2014-06-27 20:35:57] <diabeticgonewild> I had one ensure
[2014-06-27 20:36:05] <diabeticgonewild> and I am physically weak
[2014-06-27 20:36:10] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-27 20:36:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I used to eat the same things over and over agian
[2014-06-27 20:36:42] <diabeticgonewild> but that his starting to change gradually
[2014-06-27 20:36:59] <diabeticgonewild> things are going in a bad direction to me
[2014-06-27 20:37:03] <diabeticgonewild> *for me
[2014-06-27 20:37:05] <diabeticgonewild> sorry
[2014-06-27 20:37:09] <diabeticgonewild> I am really out of it
[2014-06-27 20:39:09] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's exactly what I do
[2014-06-27 20:39:19] <diabeticgonewild> unless I am nauseated
[2014-06-27 21:12:53] <diabeticgonewild> awesome!
[2014-06-27 21:13:40] <diabeticgonewild> ouch
[2014-06-27 21:13:51] <diabeticgonewild> my body is screaming, "please shoot me"
[2014-06-27 21:13:53] <diabeticgonewild> like usual
[2014-06-27 21:14:39] <diabeticgonewild> I took some strong nausea medicine so I will eventually be like knocked out like a box of rocks
[2014-06-27 21:14:52] <diabeticgonewild> like what sucks about spraining your foot
[2014-06-27 21:15:01] <diabeticgonewild> is the initial overwhelming feeling of nausea
[2014-06-27 21:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> that's the worst
[2014-06-27 21:49:02] <diabeticgonewild> I feel a ton better, for whatever reason. But I still feel crappy. I am going to try to find something to eat...
[2014-06-27 22:02:42] <diabeticgonewild> like guys, my situation is so distressing. I can *barely* eat, my heart rate is like 120+, and like I cannot concentrate at all, and to top it off I have a neurologist appointment in a week, and I am going to get some awful treatment for this disease.it's really depressing
[2014-06-27 22:02:50] <diabeticgonewild> and now my gut really hurts
[2014-06-27 22:03:02] <diabeticgonewild> what's up wiht everyone's love for cats?
[2014-06-27 22:03:06] <diabeticgonewild> (I'm a dog person)
[2014-06-27 22:03:27] <diabeticgonewild> chill?
[2014-06-27 22:03:31] <diabeticgonewild> thank you funslug
[2014-06-27 22:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, LOL
[2014-06-27 22:07:24] <diabeticgonewild> neither do I
[2014-06-27 22:07:45] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I can understand that though
[2014-06-27 22:07:59] <diabeticgonewild> dogs are cool
[2014-06-27 22:08:03] <diabeticgonewild> I like them
[2014-06-27 22:14:27] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-06-27 22:14:31] <diabeticgonewild> it's nice to be able to eat
[2014-06-27 22:14:33] <diabeticgonewild> I agree
[2014-06-28 14:49:02] <diabeticgonewild> slept like a box of rocks last night, for 17 hours...just woke up and feel better
[2014-06-28 23:06:19] <diabeticgonewild> hey guys
[2014-06-28 23:09:19] <diabeticgonewild> does anyone want to read the New York Times article on Afrezza (it's not available without a subscription)?
[2014-06-28 23:10:30] <diabeticgonewild> I have access to the New York Times article, because I have a print related disability that affects my ability to read non-accessible text (non-digitized text), through a subscription service for people with print related disabilities
[2014-06-28 23:10:47] <diabeticgonewild> I get access to a bunch of newspapers and magazines
[2014-06-28 23:11:08] <diabeticgonewild> and like almost 300,000 books, through a digital subscription library
[2014-06-28 23:11:33] <diabeticgonewild> all because of autonomic neuropathy I have access to it
[2014-06-28 23:12:16] <diabeticgonewild> anyways, I am about to copy/paste the article on afrezza from the new york times
[2014-06-28 23:12:28] <diabeticgonewild> ******New York Times Article on Afrezza***
[2014-06-28 23:12:49] <diabeticgonewild> F.D.A. Approves New Inhaled Insulin for Diabetes.
[2014-06-28 23:13:05] <diabeticgonewild> By ANDREW POLLACK. The Food and Drug Administration on Friday approved a form of insulin that is inhaled rather than injected, providing a new option for millions of Americans with diabetes.
[2014-06-28 23:13:18] <diabeticgonewild> The approval of the drug, Afrezza, is a milestone in a long and expensive journey for its developer, MannKind Corporation, and for its chief executive, Alfred E. Mann, an 88-year-old billionaire who spent a big part of his fortune sustaining the company through various setbacks..
[2014-06-28 23:13:31] <diabeticgonewild> 'Today's F.D.A. action validates the years of clinical research and commitment that powered the development of this unique therapy,' Mr. Mann said in a statement Friday.
[2014-06-28 23:13:40] <diabeticgonewild> But MannKind still faces the challenge of selling the drug, which was approved for adults with either Type 1 or Type 2 diabetes.
[2014-06-28 23:13:54] <diabeticgonewild> An earlier inhaled insulin, Pfizer's Exubera, flopped miserably and was withdrawn from the market. MannKind also has not signed up a larger pharmaceutical company to help market Afrezza, even though it has said for years that it was in discussions with potential partners.
[2014-06-28 23:14:04] <diabeticgonewild> The approval 'is obviously going to help that process,' Matthew J. Pfeffer, the company's chief financial officer, said in an interview on Friday, adding that Afrezza would not be available to patients until a partner was ready.
[2014-06-28 23:14:12] <diabeticgonewild> He also said Afrezza would have a better chance of success than Exubera because 'it's a very different product, very much a next-generation product. The inhaler for Afrezza is about the size of a referee's whistle while Exubera's was the size of a tennis ball can.
[2014-06-28 23:14:21] <diabeticgonewild> Taking a puff of Afrezza at the beginning of a meal could be less painful and more convenient for many patients than an injection. But some doctors worry about the long-term safety of delivering insulin through the lungs.
[2014-06-28 23:14:36] <diabeticgonewild> Shirl: It's not available on the NYT website
[2014-06-28 23:15:13] <diabeticgonewild> NVM it is
[2014-06-28 23:15:14] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.nytimes.com/2014/06/28/business/afrezza-a-new-inhaled-insulin-is-approved-by-fda.html?_r=0
[2014-06-28 23:18:12] <diabeticgonewild> I hope this helps, and sorry Shirl
[2014-06-28 23:28:14] <diabeticgonewild> sorry greenconverse
[2014-06-28 23:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> I am kind of on a reading binge right now
[2014-06-28 23:28:33] <diabeticgonewild> Shirl: you use digestive enzymes?
[2014-06-28 23:29:09] <diabeticgonewild> I actually don't "read" much. When I have to read a lot (more than a few paragraphs) I rely on a screenreader
[2014-06-28 23:30:03] <diabeticgonewild> because my eyes don't accommodate properly, even at age 25 (I was recommended bifocals at age 23, but they're a huge investment as you never will be able to get out of powered lenses once you start using them)
[2014-06-28 23:31:02] <diabeticgonewild> actually, I found out the software I am using is being upgraded so I *might* have to pay like $300 to upgrade it, depending on my purchase date, which was less than a year ago
[2014-06-28 23:32:11] <diabeticgonewild> like they redesigned the website and I could tell they were going to upgrade, after doing a thorough Internet search, it was confirmed
[2014-06-28 23:32:13] <diabeticgonewild> that's intense Shirl
[2014-06-28 23:32:32] <diabeticgonewild> I have severe gastroparesis and other diabetes issues (but not diabetes-related)
[2014-06-28 23:32:34] <diabeticgonewild> it sure does
[2014-06-28 23:32:48] <diabeticgonewild> I meant digestive issues
[2014-06-28 23:32:50] <diabeticgonewild> not diabetes issue
[2014-06-28 23:33:50] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that sucks
[2014-06-28 23:33:52] <diabeticgonewild> that's intense too
[2014-06-28 23:34:03] <diabeticgonewild> but I guess you did not have much of a choice :(
[2014-06-28 23:35:30] <diabeticgonewild> reglan sucks
[2014-06-28 23:35:34] <diabeticgonewild> it makes me mean and irritable
[2014-06-28 23:35:38] <diabeticgonewild> like domperidone
[2014-06-28 23:35:43] <diabeticgonewild> although in Japan
[2014-06-28 23:35:50] <diabeticgonewild> there are drugs like Itopride
[2014-06-28 23:35:54] <diabeticgonewild> that do not have the side effects
[2014-06-28 23:36:17] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Itopride
[2014-06-28 23:36:29] <diabeticgonewild> there are also orally dissolving tablet forms of domperidone
[2014-06-28 23:36:32] <diabeticgonewild> available in Europe
[2014-06-28 23:36:44] <diabeticgonewild> that you can get from a pharmacy (online)
[2014-06-28 23:36:53] <diabeticgonewild> US customs does not confiscate it
[2014-06-28 23:37:05] <diabeticgonewild> it's called Motilium Instant
[2014-06-28 23:37:11] <diabeticgonewild> it's available OTC in the EU
[2014-06-28 23:41:21] <diabeticgonewild> it is only intended for short-term use
[2014-06-28 23:41:27] <diabeticgonewild> it has a black box warning
[2014-06-28 23:41:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-28 23:41:36] <diabeticgonewild> you order it from an EU country
[2014-06-28 23:41:41] <diabeticgonewild> and it goes through customs
[2014-06-28 23:41:51] <diabeticgonewild> but like only rarely does customs seize it
[2014-06-28 23:42:06] <diabeticgonewild> even though they have orders to seize it
[2014-06-28 23:43:19] <diabeticgonewild> for constipation?
[2014-06-28 23:43:48] <diabeticgonewild> that's terrible
[2014-06-28 23:44:01] <diabeticgonewild> I had like diarrhea all afternoon, tmi, but true
[2014-06-28 23:44:38] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's better than constipation, imo
[2014-06-28 23:45:50] <diabeticgonewild> not fun
[2014-06-28 23:46:45] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I bet
[2014-06-28 23:46:53] <diabeticgonewild> and that's of course very unhealthy
[2014-06-28 23:47:07] <diabeticgonewild> must be potent, like insulin, but different
[2014-06-28 23:47:27] <diabeticgonewild> dang
[2014-06-28 23:48:09] <diabeticgonewild> that's intense
[2014-06-28 23:48:11] <diabeticgonewild> terrible
[2014-06-28 23:48:46] <diabeticgonewild> must have been extremely miserable
[2014-06-28 23:49:58] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it was probably the right decision to make
[2014-06-28 23:50:02] <diabeticgonewild> hard decision to make though
[2014-06-28 23:50:16] <diabeticgonewild> though you can't look back at the decision with regrets
[2014-06-28 23:50:30] <diabeticgonewild> that's terrible
[2014-06-28 23:50:38] <diabeticgonewild> I kind of know how that is like
[2014-06-28 23:50:43] <diabeticgonewild> due to severe gastroparesis
[2014-06-28 23:50:51] <diabeticgonewild> I was vomiting everything
[2014-06-28 23:51:04] <diabeticgonewild> lost like 35 pounds before getting a gastric pacemaker
[2014-06-28 23:51:09] <diabeticgonewild> which turned my life around
[2014-06-28 23:52:23] <diabeticgonewild> dang!
[2014-06-28 23:52:36] <diabeticgonewild> idk I have mixed feelings about inhaled insulin
[2014-06-28 23:52:36] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-06-28 23:52:48] <diabeticgonewild> it has been proven to decrease lung functioning
[2014-06-28 23:52:48] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-06-28 23:52:59] <diabeticgonewild> like the absorption is spotty at best
[2014-06-28 23:53:00] <diabeticgonewild> because
[2014-06-28 23:53:17] <diabeticgonewild> it is passing through various orifices of your body and mucous membranes
[2014-06-28 23:53:27] <diabeticgonewild> yes, but limited
[2014-06-28 23:53:40] <diabeticgonewild> there was a dosing chart
[2014-06-28 23:53:44] <diabeticgonewild> I have to find it
[2014-06-28 23:55:02] <diabeticgonewild> like I know the dosing is weird after 8 units
[2014-06-28 23:55:10] <diabeticgonewild> have to use two different colored cartridges
[2014-06-28 23:55:14] <diabeticgonewild> I can't find it right now
[2014-06-28 23:55:22] <diabeticgonewild> I quit smoking pot
[2014-06-28 23:55:26] <diabeticgonewild> even after chemo
[2014-06-28 23:55:43] <diabeticgonewild> *after doing chemo (as immunosuppresion)
[2014-06-28 23:55:45] <diabeticgonewild> same here Shirl
[2014-06-28 23:55:52] <diabeticgonewild> I never did it to get high
[2014-06-28 23:56:10] <diabeticgonewild> I was even prescribed synthetic THC pills (marinol)
[2014-06-28 23:56:20] <diabeticgonewild> it causes a lot less harm than opiates
[2014-06-28 23:56:26] <diabeticgonewild> that's good to hear Shirl
[2014-06-28 23:57:28] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-29 00:01:24] <diabeticgonewild> kk
[2014-06-29 00:04:12] <diabeticgonewild> glowsticks: about dosing, see page 18 (on the respective PDF reader) for the chart
[2014-06-29 00:04:17] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.fda.gov/downloads/AdvisoryCommittees/CommitteesMeetingMaterials/Drugs/EndocrinologicandMetabolicDrugsAdvisoryCommittee/UCM390864.pdf
[2014-06-29 00:04:27] <diabeticgonewild> takes forever to load, by the way
[2014-06-29 00:07:42] <diabeticgonewild> brb talking to grandma
[2014-06-29 00:35:33] <diabeticgonewild> back from talking with grandma
[2014-06-29 00:40:11] <diabeticgonewild> sweet!
[2014-06-29 00:47:57] <diabeticgonewild> night
[2014-06-29 00:49:38] <diabeticgonewild> I love when publishers/book distributors put restrictions on their books
[2014-06-29 00:49:51] <diabeticgonewild> I can only print like 10 pages at a time
[2014-06-29 00:50:13] <diabeticgonewild> which I need to do in order to get it into a screenreader program that I use
[2014-06-29 00:50:19] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool greenconverse
[2014-06-29 00:51:32] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-29 00:51:37] <diabeticgonewild> I had like 1 ensure
[2014-06-29 00:51:42] <diabeticgonewild> and like 1 meal today
[2014-06-29 00:51:54] <diabeticgonewild> and I am full
[2014-06-29 00:51:57] <diabeticgonewild> stupid gastroparesis
[2014-06-29 00:53:35] <diabeticgonewild> have you tried Symlin?
[2014-06-29 00:54:52] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 00:56:43] <diabeticgonewild> I like limoncello
[2014-06-29 00:57:42] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-06-29 00:58:48] <diabeticgonewild> that's definitely cool
[2014-06-29 00:58:59] <diabeticgonewild> I am doing a monotonous task
[2014-06-29 00:59:09] <diabeticgonewild> so drinking wouldn't be too bad of an idea
[2014-06-29 01:00:56] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-06-29 01:10:04] <diabeticgonewild> drunk!
[2014-06-29 01:11:28] <diabeticgonewild> oh that sounds intense
[2014-06-29 01:38:33] <diabeticgonewild> I am on the search for a good JavaScript
[2014-06-29 01:38:36] <diabeticgonewild> and a good Python
[2014-06-29 01:38:39] <diabeticgonewild> textbook
[2014-06-29 01:38:51] <diabeticgonewild> I already have to buy like 2 differential equations books
[2014-06-29 01:38:54] <diabeticgonewild> just to be safe
[2014-06-29 01:38:58] <diabeticgonewild> for my upcoming class
[2014-06-29 01:39:41] <diabeticgonewild> this
[2014-06-29 01:39:42] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0130400971/ref=gno_cart_title_1?ie=UTF8&psc=1&smid=ATVPDKIKX0DER
[2014-06-29 01:39:45] <diabeticgonewild> and this
[2014-06-29 01:39:54] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0470447516/ref=gno_cart_title_0?ie=UTF8&psc=1&smid=ATVPDKIKX0DER
[2014-06-29 01:40:15] <diabeticgonewild> I have technically took a watered down DiffEq class though
[2014-06-29 02:13:38] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: I uploaded that thing that I said I would upload
[2014-06-29 02:14:18] <diabeticgonewild> also, have you seen this book before?
[2014-06-29 02:14:22] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/1597499579/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_S_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I70PTR8DSUIKR
[2014-06-29 02:23:45] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-29 02:30:54] <diabeticgonewild> probably laughing at us 'muricans
[2014-06-29 02:30:58] <diabeticgonewild> or thinking
[2014-06-29 02:31:07] <diabeticgonewild> "I'm glad I'm not 'murican"
[2014-06-29 02:33:09] <diabeticgonewild> yeah true
[2014-06-29 02:33:23] <diabeticgonewild> i'm on Medicare and I have private secondary insurance
[2014-06-29 02:33:37] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, Ambien is good if you need sleep
[2014-06-29 02:33:45] <diabeticgonewild> but it's sure a dangerous drug, no offense
[2014-06-29 02:33:56] <diabeticgonewild> like my doctor had me see a sleep psychologist
[2014-06-29 02:34:00] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't needed it since
[2014-06-29 02:34:08] <diabeticgonewild> I've been lucky I guess
[2014-06-29 02:34:15] <diabeticgonewild> wow
[2014-06-29 02:34:22] <diabeticgonewild> I am pretty sure one time
[2014-06-29 02:34:29] <diabeticgonewild> I had some left over in my system
[2014-06-29 02:34:35] <diabeticgonewild> and I caused a minor fender bender
[2014-06-29 02:34:37] <diabeticgonewild> no injuries
[2014-06-29 02:34:42] <diabeticgonewild> no!!!
[2014-06-29 02:34:47] <diabeticgonewild> all you want to do is sleep!
[2014-06-29 02:34:56] <diabeticgonewild> like I just got tested for narcolepsy
[2014-06-29 02:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> because I have dysautonomia (which is common to have with narco)
[2014-06-29 02:35:22] <diabeticgonewild> wow greenconverse
[2014-06-29 02:35:25] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-29 02:35:37] <diabeticgonewild> but it's none of my business what you take
[2014-06-29 02:35:38] <diabeticgonewild> all in all
[2014-06-29 02:35:44] <diabeticgonewild> it's between you and your doctor
[2014-06-29 02:35:51] <diabeticgonewild> I wasn't trying to be a jerk
[2014-06-29 02:36:07] <diabeticgonewild> but I am just saying, it's a risky drug, but sometimes it has to be used
[2014-06-29 02:38:11] <diabeticgonewild> you have to sleep
[2014-06-29 02:38:20] <diabeticgonewild> like no sleep can cause like depression, permanently
[2014-06-29 02:38:31] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I know greenconverse
[2014-06-29 02:39:27] <diabeticgonewild> oh that's bad
[2014-06-29 02:39:40] <diabeticgonewild> I watched a true life episode where somebody had that on MTV
[2014-06-29 02:39:48] <diabeticgonewild> but I know it wasn't the best representation
[2014-06-29 02:39:55] <diabeticgonewild> it must be really hard with kids and stuff
[2014-06-29 02:41:29] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: so if I need to learn python, should I work on data structures and algorithms?
[2014-06-29 02:41:37] <diabeticgonewild> it's available on MTV.com
[2014-06-29 02:41:41] <diabeticgonewild> true life episodes
[2014-06-29 02:41:49] <diabeticgonewild> it's called like "I can't sleep"
[2014-06-29 02:42:18] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.mtv.com/shows/truelife/true-life-i-cant-sleep/1637355/playlist/#id=1637355
[2014-06-29 02:42:20] <diabeticgonewild> that's the show
[2014-06-29 02:44:21] <diabeticgonewild> the second person they introduce has DSPD
[2014-06-29 02:44:30] <diabeticgonewild> she's like in HS and is failing her classes
[2014-06-29 02:44:40] <diabeticgonewild> though the representation of those people is not perfect
[2014-06-29 02:52:00] <diabeticgonewild> sorry I missed the stuff below
[2014-06-29 02:52:04] <diabeticgonewild> autoscroll didn't work
[2014-06-29 02:52:21] <diabeticgonewild> trazodone sucks
[2014-06-29 02:52:25] <diabeticgonewild> throw out pills you don't use
[2014-06-29 02:52:34] <diabeticgonewild> it's bad to keep unused pills around
[2014-06-29 02:52:44] <diabeticgonewild> even though i mean...it's trazodone
[2014-06-29 02:56:40] <diabeticgonewild> that blows
[2014-06-29 02:57:03] <diabeticgonewild> I had hardcore insomnia when my rare autoimmune disease got extremely out of control
[2014-06-29 02:57:06] <diabeticgonewild> it was so terrible
[2014-06-29 02:58:25] <diabeticgonewild> that's wild
[2014-06-29 02:58:27] <diabeticgonewild> and terrible
[2014-06-29 02:58:48] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well you can't blame her, either
[2014-06-29 02:58:55] <diabeticgonewild> I get tired of medicine myself
[2014-06-29 02:59:45] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 03:00:53] <diabeticgonewild> that really sucks
[2014-06-29 03:01:04] <diabeticgonewild> the only reason why I am awake is due to Vyvanse
[2014-06-29 03:02:07] <diabeticgonewild> It's kind of ridiculous
[2014-06-29 03:02:13] <diabeticgonewild> much more powerful than caffiene
[2014-06-29 03:03:12] <diabeticgonewild> like I drink a ton
[2014-06-29 03:04:57] <diabeticgonewild> especially diet coke
[2014-06-29 03:05:00] <diabeticgonewild> but i like coffee too
[2014-06-29 03:06:45] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-29 03:11:45] <diabeticgonewild> damn
[2014-06-29 03:11:49] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-29 03:12:01] <diabeticgonewild> should have kicked in by now
[2014-06-29 03:14:10] <diabeticgonewild> same, but I have severe gastroparesis
[2014-06-29 03:14:29] <diabeticgonewild> I just ordered two books
[2014-06-29 03:14:59] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0470447516/ref=oh_details_o00_s01_i00?ie=UTF8&psc=1
[2014-06-29 03:15:17] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0130400971/ref=oh_details_o00_s00_i00?ie=UTF8&psc=1
[2014-06-29 03:19:02] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-06-29 03:19:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I think the class starts this week
[2014-06-29 03:19:33] <diabeticgonewild> I mean on Monday
[2014-06-29 03:19:38] <diabeticgonewild> if not, it's next monday
[2014-06-29 03:20:01] <diabeticgonewild> oh shit, it's this monday
[2014-06-29 03:20:08] <diabeticgonewild> the class has already opened up
[2014-06-29 03:20:36] <diabeticgonewild> time for an all-nighter (I have a bunch of labs due and some stuff due tomorrow)
[2014-06-29 03:20:47] <diabeticgonewild> I'm doing an all-nighter tonight
[2014-06-29 03:20:51] <diabeticgonewild> why not greenconverse
[2014-06-29 03:21:57] <diabeticgonewild> that blows, bigtime
[2014-06-29 03:22:37] <diabeticgonewild> it really sucks
[2014-06-29 03:23:10] <diabeticgonewild> my former uni screwed me
[2014-06-29 03:23:32] <diabeticgonewild> and I had to transfer out
[2014-06-29 03:23:37] <diabeticgonewild> lost like 20 credits in the process
[2014-06-29 03:23:50] <diabeticgonewild> but my situation is different than yours
[2014-06-29 03:23:54] <diabeticgonewild> much different
[2014-06-29 03:24:29] <diabeticgonewild> that really blow
[2014-06-29 03:24:29] <diabeticgonewild> a
[2014-06-29 03:24:48] <diabeticgonewild> do you have a bachelors?
[2014-06-29 03:25:07] <diabeticgonewild> cause if you have DSPD you might be able to get voc rehab to pay
[2014-06-29 03:25:16] <diabeticgonewild> for the rest of your bachelors
[2014-06-29 03:25:26] <diabeticgonewild> like your textbooks and gas and like parking pass
[2014-06-29 03:25:27] <diabeticgonewild> too
[2014-06-29 03:26:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well voc rehab may be an option
[2014-06-29 03:26:29] <diabeticgonewild> and you may be able to convince them for a bachelors
[2014-06-29 03:26:33] <diabeticgonewild> and for them to pay
[2014-06-29 03:26:34] <diabeticgonewild> because
[2014-06-29 03:26:44] <diabeticgonewild> you can't do shift work due to DSPD
[2014-06-29 03:27:01] <diabeticgonewild> but they will force you to do a FASFA but who cares
[2014-06-29 03:27:19] <diabeticgonewild> but they will pay once they see that FASFA won't pay first
[2014-06-29 03:27:21] <diabeticgonewild> exactly
[2014-06-29 03:28:04] <diabeticgonewild>  but to do it you have to be wanting a job
[2014-06-29 03:28:23] <diabeticgonewild> like you form an individual plan for an employment with them
[2014-06-29 03:28:24] <diabeticgonewild> and it is firm
[2014-06-29 03:28:33] <diabeticgonewild> and they will pay for things to get you employed
[2014-06-29 03:28:39] <diabeticgonewild> no it's really good
[2014-06-29 03:28:53] <diabeticgonewild> like read up about it its only good
[2014-06-29 03:28:56] <diabeticgonewild> like in Texas
[2014-06-29 03:29:00] <diabeticgonewild> I know somebody with type 1
[2014-06-29 03:29:13] <diabeticgonewild> whose undergrad was paid for completely by voc rehab
[2014-06-29 03:29:22] <diabeticgonewild> and like it had nothing to do with family income
[2014-06-29 03:29:31] <diabeticgonewild> like they pay for education regardless of income
[2014-06-29 03:29:36] <diabeticgonewild> individual plan for employment
[2014-06-29 03:29:45] <diabeticgonewild> like you can say work from home
[2014-06-29 03:29:49] <diabeticgonewild> as your goal for employment
[2014-06-29 03:29:51] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.acdl.com/New%20Logo%20Guides/CAP3%20New%20Logo.pdf
[2014-06-29 03:30:10] <diabeticgonewild> make sure to keep this link
[2014-06-29 03:30:19] <diabeticgonewild> but be sure to read up on vocational rehab
[2014-06-29 03:30:22] <diabeticgonewild> you have nothing to lose
[2014-06-29 03:30:25] <diabeticgonewild> and they do help
[2014-06-29 03:30:26] <diabeticgonewild> trust me
[2014-06-29 03:30:44] <diabeticgonewild> even extremely difficult cases
[2014-06-29 03:32:01] <diabeticgonewild> like this is the link to check out
[2014-06-29 03:32:13] <diabeticgonewild> under "client assistance program guides"
[2014-06-29 03:32:14] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.acdl.com/selfguides.html
[2014-06-29 03:32:19] <diabeticgonewild> I won't mention it anymore
[2014-06-29 03:32:23] <diabeticgonewild> but know it's there for you
[2014-06-29 03:32:27] <diabeticgonewild> and people are there for you
[2014-06-29 03:32:58] <diabeticgonewild> I don't either
[2014-06-29 03:33:07] <diabeticgonewild> but it's the best site in terms of reference
[2014-06-29 03:33:22] <diabeticgonewild> it's federal law, the vocational rehab program, but it's delegated through your state
[2014-06-29 03:33:52] <diabeticgonewild> you have the same rights, regardless of the state you are in
[2014-06-29 03:36:24] <diabeticgonewild> you can get them to do those kinds of evaluations, too, for career choices, paid by them, fyi
[2014-06-29 03:36:29] <diabeticgonewild> i'm not trying to be pushy
[2014-06-29 03:36:40] <diabeticgonewild> i'm just saying they do a lot
[2014-06-29 03:36:51] <diabeticgonewild> but what's important is what makes you happ
[2014-06-29 03:36:51] <diabeticgonewild> y
[2014-06-29 03:38:11] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-06-29 03:38:14] <diabeticgonewild> you must love learning!
[2014-06-29 03:47:10] <diabeticgonewild> that would certainly be good
[2014-06-29 03:53:36] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-06-29 04:01:20] <diabeticgonewild> that's great to hear
[2014-06-29 04:01:36] <diabeticgonewild> i'm chilling to REM - Man on the Moon
[2014-06-29 04:02:16] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-06-29 04:03:28] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-29 04:03:33] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-06-29 04:06:48] <diabeticgonewild> good night!
[2014-06-29 04:13:31] <diabeticgonewild> kind of freaking out
[2014-06-29 04:13:44] <diabeticgonewild> 65% of my grade is due in like the next 2 weeks
[2014-06-29 04:14:23] <diabeticgonewild> actually 1.5 weeks
[2014-06-29 04:26:59] <diabeticgonewild> plus starting DiffEq
[2014-06-29 04:31:19] <diabeticgonewild> bg is 70
[2014-06-29 04:31:22] <diabeticgonewild> don't want to eat
[2014-06-29 04:39:45] <diabeticgonewild> Antoni
[2014-06-29 04:39:48] <diabeticgonewild> not if you are me
[2014-06-29 04:40:04] <diabeticgonewild> I have like 7 labs to complete because I have been procrastinating
[2014-06-29 04:40:06] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-29 04:40:31] <diabeticgonewild> I only ate one (small) meal yesterday, with one Ensure (a nutritional supplement drink, meant for meal replacement)
[2014-06-29 04:40:38] <diabeticgonewild> and I have no energy
[2014-06-29 04:40:43] <diabeticgonewild> but like I have ADHD
[2014-06-29 04:40:52] <diabeticgonewild> and I am back to taking like amphetamine pills
[2014-06-29 04:40:57] <diabeticgonewild> so that will definitely help
[2014-06-29 04:41:00] <diabeticgonewild> study drugs work
[2014-06-29 04:42:52] <diabeticgonewild> like I am sick constantly like 24/7
[2014-06-29 04:42:55] <diabeticgonewild> my heart races
[2014-06-29 04:42:59] <diabeticgonewild> too nauseated to eat
[2014-06-29 04:43:02] <diabeticgonewild> and weak
[2014-06-29 04:45:32] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 04:45:35] <diabeticgonewild> I'm 'murican
[2014-06-29 04:45:56] <diabeticgonewild> I can't quit school. I have tried too hard to give up. Everyone is cheering me on, even my doctors
[2014-06-29 04:46:59] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-29 04:47:06] <diabeticgonewild> but it is my future and health
[2014-06-29 04:47:11] <diabeticgonewild> not necessarily
[2014-06-29 04:47:23] <diabeticgonewild> my disease has responded to treatments
[2014-06-29 04:47:33] <diabeticgonewild> it's just gotten worse recently
[2014-06-29 04:47:39] <diabeticgonewild> for no reason at all
[2014-06-29 04:47:55] <diabeticgonewild> Antoni that is true that there are too many people going to college in the US
[2014-06-29 04:48:03] <diabeticgonewild> but I get good grades
[2014-06-29 04:48:23] <diabeticgonewild> had an internship offer in electrical engineering with Intel in California for 6 months
[2014-06-29 04:48:30] <diabeticgonewild> that I had to decline due to my health
[2014-06-29 04:48:41] <diabeticgonewild> they saw talent in me
[2014-06-29 04:50:13] <diabeticgonewild> even the jerk at my former uni who was a dean in the college of engineering said my academic record was "strong"
[2014-06-29 05:00:23] <diabeticgonewild> it has to
[2014-06-29 05:00:31] <diabeticgonewild> well I am on disability right now
[2014-06-29 05:00:40] <diabeticgonewild> through the federal government
[2014-06-29 05:01:10] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-29 05:01:22] <diabeticgonewild> for *autoimmune* autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-29 05:01:26] <diabeticgonewild> not related to my diabetes
[2014-06-29 05:02:47] <diabeticgonewild> are you aussie worley ?
[2014-06-29 05:02:52] <diabeticgonewild> cause that sounds aussie
[2014-06-29 05:03:22] <diabeticgonewild> I was 70 like I think 20 min ago
[2014-06-29 05:03:25] <diabeticgonewild> suspended my pump
[2014-06-29 05:03:32] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I'm 'murican too
[2014-06-29 05:03:59] <diabeticgonewild> Houston
[2014-06-29 05:04:29] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's cool
[2014-06-29 05:07:28] <diabeticgonewild> electrical engineering
[2014-06-29 05:07:32] <diabeticgonewild> BSE in EE
[2014-06-29 05:07:41] <diabeticgonewild> technically a senior
[2014-06-29 05:08:30] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 05:08:31] <diabeticgonewild> girl
[2014-06-29 05:08:35] <diabeticgonewild> 25
[2014-06-29 05:11:15] <diabeticgonewild> age
[2014-06-29 05:14:34] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-29 05:14:42] <diabeticgonewild> do you have hypoglycemia awareness?
[2014-06-29 05:15:17] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-06-29 05:45:34] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-06-29 13:00:56] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-06-29 13:21:35] <diabeticgonewild> what's OKC>
[2014-06-29 13:21:36] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-06-29 13:25:35] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-29 13:26:38] <diabeticgonewild> yeah my BG is 57
[2014-06-29 13:26:41] <diabeticgonewild> don't want to eat
[2014-06-29 13:26:44] <diabeticgonewild> gastroparesis sucks
[2014-06-29 13:28:04] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-06-29 13:28:13] <diabeticgonewild> I absolutely have no desire whatsoever for any food
[2014-06-29 13:28:17] <diabeticgonewild> not even like Ensures
[2014-06-29 13:28:18] <diabeticgonewild> I won't
[2014-06-29 13:28:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I've been there
[2014-06-29 13:30:06] <diabeticgonewild> fyi (and tmi) I had severe diarrhea all yesterday afternoon
[2014-06-29 13:30:11] <diabeticgonewild> I probably have ketones too
[2014-06-29 13:30:20] <diabeticgonewild> have not ate much in the past week, for that matter
[2014-06-29 13:30:27] <diabeticgonewild> I am kind of screwed
[2014-06-29 13:30:33] <diabeticgonewild> I see my neurologist in like a week
[2014-06-29 13:30:48] <diabeticgonewild> who treats these problems (not diabetes-related problems) actually
[2014-06-29 13:31:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I bet
[2014-06-29 13:45:04] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 13:45:11] <diabeticgonewild> well my nausea is retching
[2014-06-29 13:45:19] <diabeticgonewild> to the point where you never want to eat again
[2014-06-29 13:48:36] <diabeticgonewild> like I sound like a bitch but
[2014-06-29 13:48:45] <diabeticgonewild> I want to puke right now
[2014-06-29 13:53:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 13:54:56] <diabeticgonewild> ty
[2014-06-29 13:56:25] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it probably will
[2014-06-29 13:56:40] <diabeticgonewild> but I just finished chemo as immunosuppression and things went south
[2014-06-29 13:56:49] <diabeticgonewild> so i'll see in a week what's next
[2014-06-29 13:57:17] <diabeticgonewild> like in 2012 I spent 7 weeks in the hospital and 4 days in the ICU
[2014-06-29 13:57:23] <diabeticgonewild> due to this disease
[2014-06-29 13:58:33] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-29 13:58:40] <diabeticgonewild> but I did get better for awhile
[2014-06-29 13:58:43] <diabeticgonewild> like 6 months
[2014-06-29 13:58:55] <diabeticgonewild> I mean significantly better
[2014-06-29 13:58:59] <diabeticgonewild> like could stand up
[2014-06-29 13:59:00] <diabeticgonewild> go places
[2014-06-29 13:59:03] <diabeticgonewild> and walk around
[2014-06-29 13:59:09] <diabeticgonewild> eat like a normal person
[2014-06-29 13:59:14] <diabeticgonewild> now it's like forget it
[2014-06-29 13:59:37] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I hope
[2014-06-29 13:59:59] <diabeticgonewild> one of my doctors on Friday was like "hopefully they can do something for you so you can get better"
[2014-06-29 14:00:16] <diabeticgonewild> I had like a resting heart rate of like 126, but that's not too terrible
[2014-06-29 14:00:19] <diabeticgonewild> I mean that's bad
[2014-06-29 14:00:26] <diabeticgonewild> but I have def had much worse
[2014-06-29 14:01:12] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have orthostatic hypotension
[2014-06-29 14:01:15] <diabeticgonewild> and to compensate
[2014-06-29 14:01:23] <diabeticgonewild> my body works harder
[2014-06-29 14:01:28] <diabeticgonewild> and makes my heart beat faster
[2014-06-29 14:01:34] <diabeticgonewild> in order to raise blood pressure
[2014-06-29 14:03:01] <diabeticgonewild> you do?
[2014-06-29 14:03:07] <diabeticgonewild> do you have autonomic neuropathy?
[2014-06-29 14:09:59] <diabeticgonewild> nice highasdick
[2014-06-29 14:10:07] <diabeticgonewild> Bunnii bad stuff
[2014-06-29 14:10:25] <diabeticgonewild> I have autoimmune autonomic neuropathy, aka autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-06-29 14:12:02] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-29 14:12:12] <diabeticgonewild> like all thorugh my digestive system
[2014-06-29 14:12:15] <diabeticgonewild> motility issues
[2014-06-29 14:14:05] <diabeticgonewild> no i have been around here for a week or so
[2014-06-29 14:17:18] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-29 14:17:25] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks you got banned
[2014-06-29 14:17:48] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 14:17:58] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-06-29 14:21:14] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not going to publicly disclose my issues, but I feel free to share with Bunnii
[2014-06-29 14:21:34] <diabeticgonewild> like the issues upstairs, I mean
[2014-06-29 14:21:39] <diabeticgonewild> they come with the medical problems
[2014-06-29 14:22:29] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool Bunnii
[2014-06-29 14:24:38] <diabeticgonewild> you have an ED Bunnii?
[2014-06-29 14:24:39] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-06-29 14:24:43] <diabeticgonewild> I don't
[2014-06-29 14:24:51] <diabeticgonewild> it has to be stressful
[2014-06-29 14:25:23] <diabeticgonewild> all I know is you get sick and you embrace it
[2014-06-29 14:25:25] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-06-29 14:25:33] <diabeticgonewild> you're not living life or feeling things
[2014-06-29 14:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> or dealing with things
[2014-06-29 14:25:44] <diabeticgonewild> that's all I know though
[2014-06-29 14:25:48] <diabeticgonewild> exactly Bunnii
[2014-06-29 14:27:28] <diabeticgonewild> well, it's not going to work
[2014-06-29 14:29:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it needs to end
[2014-06-29 14:29:10] <diabeticgonewild> and you need to cut out the drinking
[2014-06-29 14:30:18] <diabeticgonewild> you should
[2014-06-29 14:30:21] <diabeticgonewild> stick to it
[2014-06-29 14:32:26] <diabeticgonewild> WTF your doctor dropped you?
[2014-06-29 14:32:28] <diabeticgonewild> that's crazy
[2014-06-29 14:33:39] <diabeticgonewild> your doctor is a loser
[2014-06-29 14:33:55] <diabeticgonewild> I have been very suicidal and my doctor has been sympathetic towards me
[2014-06-29 14:34:03] <diabeticgonewild> and was geninely concerned
[2014-06-29 14:34:04] <diabeticgonewild> many times
[2014-06-29 14:34:09] <diabeticgonewild> I don't mean to be so dark
[2014-06-29 14:34:14] <diabeticgonewild> but with all of my medical problems
[2014-06-29 14:34:18] <diabeticgonewild> not being believed
[2014-06-29 14:34:33] <diabeticgonewild> and like just everything
[2014-06-29 14:34:37] <diabeticgonewild> he stuck by my side
[2014-06-29 14:34:44] <diabeticgonewild> and he has always been there for me
[2014-06-29 14:34:52] <diabeticgonewild> even though he hasn't always agreed with me
[2014-06-29 14:35:03] <diabeticgonewild> I don't mean to be so dark
[2014-06-29 14:35:13] <diabeticgonewild> but your doctor should be ashamed of him/her self
[2014-06-29 14:36:44] <diabeticgonewild> then why the fuck are you drinking?
[2014-06-29 14:36:47] <diabeticgonewild> seriously dude
[2014-06-29 14:36:51] <diabeticgonewild> it doesn't fix anything
[2014-06-29 14:36:54] <diabeticgonewild> and you know it
[2014-06-29 14:36:58] <diabeticgonewild> it wastes time too
[2014-06-29 14:37:04] <diabeticgonewild> it's the ruin of man
[2014-06-29 14:37:58] <diabeticgonewild> I guess it's probably addiction
[2014-06-29 14:38:02] <diabeticgonewild> but shit you got to stop
[2014-06-29 14:40:22] <diabeticgonewild> I was being a dickhead?
[2014-06-29 14:40:28] <diabeticgonewild> me?
[2014-06-29 14:40:40] <diabeticgonewild> sorry?
[2014-06-29 14:40:46] <diabeticgonewild> ok, but I am sorry
[2014-06-29 14:40:50] <diabeticgonewild> I am being judgemental
[2014-06-29 14:41:52] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well it only gets worse highasdick
[2014-06-29 14:44:10] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it is
[2014-06-29 14:44:18] <diabeticgonewild> dude you lost sight of all of your priorities
[2014-06-29 14:44:19] <diabeticgonewild> face it
[2014-06-29 14:44:27] <diabeticgonewild> and that's an extremely bad position to be in
[2014-06-29 14:46:37] <diabeticgonewild> it won't fix anything....and you know it
[2014-06-29 14:55:43] <diabeticgonewild> then do it
[2014-06-29 14:55:47] <diabeticgonewild> I feel really sick
[2014-06-29 14:55:51] <diabeticgonewild> I need to lie down
[2014-06-29 14:57:10] <diabeticgonewild> thanks
[2014-06-29 15:47:33] <diabeticgonewild> Time for some Ensure
[2014-06-29 15:47:39] <diabeticgonewild> too nauseated to eat solid food
[2014-06-29 15:47:42] <diabeticgonewild> depressing
[2014-06-29 15:57:02] <diabeticgonewild> I just downed an Ensure
[2014-06-29 15:57:12] <diabeticgonewild> I hate not getting proper nutrition
[2014-06-29 15:57:18] <diabeticgonewild> Ensures are not good enough
[2014-06-29 15:58:13] <diabeticgonewild> you know what's depressing?
[2014-06-29 15:58:26] <diabeticgonewild> reading about kids with the exact same disease that I have
[2014-06-29 15:58:43] <diabeticgonewild> and seeing that they are basically going through the same things as me
[2014-06-29 15:58:52] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/alibroshar/
[2014-06-29 16:13:53] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that connection sucks
[2014-06-29 16:35:07] <diabeticgonewild> why?
[2014-06-29 16:36:13] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-29 16:36:21] <diabeticgonewild> I'm sorry to hear that
[2014-06-29 16:37:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 16:39:53] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-29 16:40:09] <diabeticgonewild> its considered addicting
[2014-06-29 17:23:41] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-06-29 18:55:01] <diabeticgonewild> Damn
[2014-06-29 18:55:14] <diabeticgonewild> DiffEq course is posted online
[2014-06-29 18:57:48] <diabeticgonewild> I like to forget that I am 25 :/
[2014-06-29 19:00:16] <diabeticgonewild> I wish I was younger
[2014-06-29 19:00:38] <diabeticgonewild> I burned my youth
[2014-06-29 19:00:49] <diabeticgonewild> I mean I don't mean to be like depressing
[2014-06-29 19:00:51] <diabeticgonewild> but I did
[2014-06-29 19:01:11] <diabeticgonewild> that's all I did was work, from when I was 18 on
[2014-06-29 19:01:14] <diabeticgonewild> worked really hard
[2014-06-29 19:01:26] <diabeticgonewild> and now my medical problems dictate my situation
[2014-06-29 19:01:30] <diabeticgonewild> but that's just the way it is
[2014-06-29 19:02:34] <diabeticgonewild> like going to school fullt-time and working part time
[2014-06-29 19:02:45] <diabeticgonewild> while juggling around severe autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-29 19:02:47] <diabeticgonewild> and doing engineering
[2014-06-29 19:03:04] <diabeticgonewild> and type 1 diabete
[2014-06-29 19:03:05] <diabeticgonewild> s
[2014-06-29 19:03:19] <diabeticgonewild> = no life outside work/school, at best
[2014-06-29 19:03:42] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well remember that this is engineering
[2014-06-29 19:03:50] <diabeticgonewild> I had severe autonomic neuropathy
[2014-06-29 19:03:59] <diabeticgonewild> like orthostatic intolerance
[2014-06-29 19:04:04] <diabeticgonewild> and like severe gastroparesis
[2014-06-29 19:04:06] <diabeticgonewild> and type 1
[2014-06-29 19:04:18] <diabeticgonewild> it made things extremely difficult
[2014-06-29 19:04:34] <diabeticgonewild> if I was in a typical person with a type 1 body
[2014-06-29 19:04:37] <diabeticgonewild> I would have done fine
[2014-06-29 19:04:42] <diabeticgonewild> because all I did was work
[2014-06-29 19:04:56] <diabeticgonewild> and I didn't have like 1,000,000 things wrong with me
[2014-06-29 19:05:01] <diabeticgonewild> like I was nauseated 24/7
[2014-06-29 19:05:33] <diabeticgonewild> H_Mc it's a game changer
[2014-06-29 19:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> I guess, but don't think that it's the same
[2014-06-29 19:06:31] <diabeticgonewild> I worked my ass off and got sicker and sicker
[2014-06-29 19:06:35] <diabeticgonewild> and now I am paying the price
[2014-06-29 19:06:42] <diabeticgonewild> and I want my degree more than ever now
[2014-06-29 19:06:48] <diabeticgonewild> it's a really extreme situation
[2014-06-29 19:08:04] <diabeticgonewild> like I finished chemo as immunosuppression less than a month ago, and I am still not doing well
[2014-06-29 19:08:15] <diabeticgonewild> don't tell me, "welcome to life"
[2014-06-29 19:08:19] <diabeticgonewild> because it's not living at all
[2014-06-29 19:10:44] <diabeticgonewild> I do deserve sympathy
[2014-06-29 19:10:47] <diabeticgonewild> free passes no
[2014-06-29 19:11:00] <diabeticgonewild> I have to earn my way to the things I need to achieve in life
[2014-06-29 19:31:56] <diabeticgonewild> agreed
[2014-06-29 19:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> well it's dineertime
[2014-06-29 19:32:02] <diabeticgonewild> ttyl
[2014-06-30 02:45:31] <diabeticgonewild> Finally done with school work....for tonight
[2014-06-30 02:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> hey how are you greenconverse?
[2014-06-30 02:47:05] <diabeticgonewild> I am feeling better, for what it's worth, and I am grateful for that
[2014-06-30 02:47:19] <diabeticgonewild> but I am disappointed that I got a 90 on my quiz :/
[2014-06-30 02:47:30] <diabeticgonewild> but I am being a loser
[2014-06-30 02:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> I have not been working hard enough
[2014-06-30 02:47:38] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways
[2014-06-30 02:47:45] <diabeticgonewild> we get a "cheat sheet" on the exam
[2014-06-30 02:48:02] <diabeticgonewild> and I found out from reddit that some people use Adobe Illustrator to create theirs
[2014-06-30 02:48:07] <diabeticgonewild> that's what I am going to do
[2014-06-30 02:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-30 02:49:14] <diabeticgonewild> this was on reddit
[2014-06-30 02:49:18] <diabeticgonewild> but the file is too large
[2014-06-30 02:49:20] <diabeticgonewild> but blurred
[2014-06-30 02:49:22] <diabeticgonewild> http://imgur.com/a/yT1AU
[2014-06-30 02:51:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I am watching tuts on it
[2014-06-30 02:51:55] <diabeticgonewild> exam is in 1.5 weeks
[2014-06-30 02:52:08] <diabeticgonewild> crib sheets take up to 48 hours to create, even by hand
[2014-06-30 02:52:19] <diabeticgonewild> like even if it is one sheet of paper (two sides filled)
[2014-06-30 03:15:52] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-06-30 03:16:03] <diabeticgonewild> happy birthday to your brother!!!
[2014-06-30 03:16:50] <diabeticgonewild> :(
[2014-06-30 03:17:52] <diabeticgonewild> oh I haven't slept in 36 hours, LOL
[2014-06-30 03:17:56] <diabeticgonewild> but I feel pretty good
[2014-06-30 03:18:03] <diabeticgonewild> you should get to sleep
[2014-06-30 03:18:09] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-06-30 03:18:11] <diabeticgonewild> it's healthy
[2014-06-30 03:18:37] <diabeticgonewild> btw, bewest, I uploaded that thing that I said I would upload
[2014-06-30 03:18:57] <diabeticgonewild> but I got to test it to make sure that it correctly uploaded
[2014-06-30 03:19:00] <diabeticgonewild> why?
[2014-06-30 03:19:10] <diabeticgonewild> I am almost never on FB
[2014-06-30 03:19:18] <diabeticgonewild> only to keep in touch with certain people
[2014-06-30 03:19:41] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-30 03:19:57] <diabeticgonewild> well my dad's side of the family can be kind of strange, although they are nice people
[2014-06-30 03:20:02] <diabeticgonewild> I feel like complaining about life
[2014-06-30 03:20:07] <diabeticgonewild> on Facebook
[2014-06-30 03:20:13] <diabeticgonewild> but one way or another they can find out
[2014-06-30 03:20:16] <diabeticgonewild> so I usually don't
[2014-06-30 03:20:23] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't friend my family, ever
[2014-06-30 03:20:29] <diabeticgonewild> even though that's totally evil
[2014-06-30 03:20:34] <diabeticgonewild> not even my twin brother
[2014-06-30 03:20:39] <diabeticgonewild> true greenconverse
[2014-06-30 03:20:49] <diabeticgonewild> but I am a very resevered, private person
[2014-06-30 03:20:57] <diabeticgonewild> although being on a computer is slightly different
[2014-06-30 03:21:39] <diabeticgonewild> it depends
[2014-06-30 03:21:50] <diabeticgonewild> you pretty much have the right to talk about whatever you want
[2014-06-30 03:21:50] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-06-30 03:21:54] <diabeticgonewild> whatever makes you happy
[2014-06-30 03:23:06] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, but you miss out too
[2014-06-30 03:23:11] <diabeticgonewild> but it's however you look at it
[2014-06-30 03:23:20] <diabeticgonewild> I don't let things hurt people
[2014-06-30 03:23:32] <diabeticgonewild> people said all sorts of things terrible about my medical situation
[2014-06-30 03:23:44] <diabeticgonewild> and all of the sudden it changed once it was autoimmune in origin
[2014-06-30 03:23:47] <diabeticgonewild> I'm just saying
[2014-06-30 03:23:52] <diabeticgonewild> pain is a temporary thing
[2014-06-30 03:23:54] <diabeticgonewild> to some degree
[2014-06-30 03:28:24] <diabeticgonewild> my cheat sheet for my final exam is going to be in like 4 point font
[2014-06-30 03:28:47] <diabeticgonewild> going to print it on a color laser printer at kinko's when I am done, so it can be read
[2014-06-30 03:29:00] <diabeticgonewild> (it isn't as readable on an inkjet)
[2014-06-30 03:30:17] <diabeticgonewild> good morning Antoni!
[2014-06-30 03:30:20] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-06-30 03:32:35] <diabeticgonewild> that's always a good start to the day
[2014-06-30 03:32:41] <diabeticgonewild> certainly by my standards :)
[2014-06-30 03:37:49] <diabeticgonewild> Ugh I am having trouble reading...my eyes are acting up...stupid autoimmune disease
[2014-06-30 03:37:56] <diabeticgonewild> but I am actually not that sick right now
[2014-06-30 03:42:15] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, me too, unfortunately :P
[2014-06-30 03:42:16] <diabeticgonewild> haha
[2014-06-30 03:45:02] <diabeticgonewild> it does
[2014-06-30 03:45:07] <diabeticgonewild> I have deactivated twice
[2014-06-30 03:45:13] <diabeticgonewild> greenconverse
[2014-06-30 03:45:20] <diabeticgonewild> you have to go to the activity log
[2014-06-30 03:45:23] <diabeticgonewild> and delete everything
[2014-06-30 03:45:30] <diabeticgonewild> and unfriend everyone one by one
[2014-06-30 03:45:37] <diabeticgonewild> to clear your records
[2014-06-30 04:21:14] <diabeticgonewild> :(
[2014-06-30 04:23:51] <diabeticgonewild> I have to condense like 600 textbook pages down to a single sheet of paper (front and back)
[2014-06-30 04:23:58] <diabeticgonewild> <3 engineering
[2014-06-30 04:25:07] <diabeticgonewild> you need all of it
[2014-06-30 04:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> let me upload a copy of a practice exam I found
[2014-06-30 04:26:12] <diabeticgonewild> I am technically a senior though
[2014-06-30 04:26:21] <diabeticgonewild> but it was a junior level class at my former school
[2014-06-30 04:26:29] <diabeticgonewild> I had to transfer out due to medical problems
[2014-06-30 04:26:35] <diabeticgonewild> and like potential discrimiation issues
[2014-06-30 04:26:40] <diabeticgonewild> it wasn't working out there
[2014-06-30 04:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> and my differential equations class started today
[2014-06-30 04:29:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's cool
[2014-06-30 04:29:21] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-06-30 04:34:52] <diabeticgonewild> I need to see my neurologist so badly
[2014-06-30 04:35:01] <diabeticgonewild> like I was just sitting up in a chair right now
[2014-06-30 04:35:16] <diabeticgonewild> and my blood pressure is so low due to orthostatic hypotension
[2014-06-30 04:35:41] <diabeticgonewild> that my heart was racing is extremely fast and I was experienceing both dizziness and vertigo
[2014-06-30 04:35:44] <diabeticgonewild> and still am
[2014-06-30 04:36:32] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-06-30 04:36:33] <diabeticgonewild> why?
[2014-06-30 04:37:27] <diabeticgonewild> I wish
[2014-06-30 04:37:35] <diabeticgonewild> I just finished chemo for this disease
[2014-06-30 04:37:38] <diabeticgonewild> and it's getting worse
[2014-06-30 04:37:43] <diabeticgonewild> and it's making me depressed
[2014-06-30 04:38:46] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-30 04:38:54] <diabeticgonewild> well I am not a cancer patient, so I am lucky
[2014-06-30 04:39:03] <diabeticgonewild> but that was very thoughtful and kind of you
[2014-06-30 04:43:16] <diabeticgonewild> wow I can't even do simple math right now
[2014-06-30 04:43:25] <diabeticgonewild> that's how out of control my blood pressure issue is
[2014-06-30 04:47:58] <diabeticgonewild> I can totally see an ER trip in the near future, if I am unlucky
[2014-06-30 04:49:05] <diabeticgonewild> that sounds good
[2014-06-30 04:49:09] <diabeticgonewild> I wish I could
[2014-06-30 04:49:18] <diabeticgonewild> I can barely get up without nearly passing out
[2014-06-30 04:49:22] <diabeticgonewild> I go blind when I stand up
[2014-06-30 04:50:04] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, same here
[2014-06-30 04:50:09] <diabeticgonewild> I gained a bunch of weight
[2014-06-30 04:50:14] <diabeticgonewild> due to losing muscle mass
[2014-06-30 04:50:19] <diabeticgonewild> and sitting on the couch
[2014-06-30 04:50:23] <diabeticgonewild> due to this disease
[2014-06-30 04:50:34] <diabeticgonewild> I would do anything to have an active, healthy lifestyle
[2014-06-30 04:54:05] <diabeticgonewild> if you say so
[2014-06-30 04:54:17] <diabeticgonewild> if you want to be nauseated all the time like me
[2014-06-30 04:54:22] <diabeticgonewild> and have to worry about flare ups
[2014-06-30 04:54:36] <diabeticgonewild> to the point where you wonder if you are going down the path of a feeding tube
[2014-06-30 04:55:57] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-06-30 04:56:00] <diabeticgonewild> I have no decency
[2014-06-30 04:56:02] <diabeticgonewild> sorry
[2014-06-30 04:57:42] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, and I am being a loser about it...and I do know it
[2014-06-30 04:57:45] <diabeticgonewild> and I am sorry
[2014-06-30 04:57:48] <diabeticgonewild> I need to change
[2014-06-30 04:58:04] <diabeticgonewild> and I am sorry to hear that you need to lose weight
[2014-06-30 05:00:15] <diabeticgonewild> because I am grieving right now
[2014-06-30 05:00:25] <diabeticgonewild> that I *might* be losing my ability to eat
[2014-06-30 05:00:27] <diabeticgonewild> but in the end
[2014-06-30 05:00:30] <diabeticgonewild> I am being an loser
[2014-06-30 05:00:40] <diabeticgonewild> because I am comparing situations inappropraitely
[2014-06-30 05:00:51] <diabeticgonewild> when I should be empathetic towards your situation
[2014-06-30 05:03:12] <diabeticgonewild> I am sorry greenconverse
[2014-06-30 05:03:16] <diabeticgonewild> I am sorry
[2014-06-30 05:03:27] <diabeticgonewild> but I am not in the right position right now to be empathetic
[2014-06-30 05:03:30] <diabeticgonewild> I should be empathetic
[2014-06-30 05:03:34] <diabeticgonewild> and I want to be
[2014-06-30 05:03:38] <diabeticgonewild> and I need to shut up
[2014-06-30 05:03:41] <diabeticgonewild> but I am just saying
[2014-06-30 05:03:49] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I need to chill
[2014-06-30 05:03:53] <diabeticgonewild> I am being a loser
[2014-06-30 05:04:06] <diabeticgonewild> no, I am just really unhappy
[2014-06-30 05:04:11] <diabeticgonewild> and I am being unfair to greenconverse
[2014-06-30 05:04:21] <diabeticgonewild> and I am being inconsiderate, at the very very least
[2014-06-30 05:04:29] <diabeticgonewild> because
[2014-06-30 05:04:32] <diabeticgonewild> it is compulsive
[2014-06-30 05:04:36] <diabeticgonewild> carbohydrate addiction
[2014-06-30 05:05:28] <diabeticgonewild> I'm sorry
[2014-06-30 05:06:03] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well it was inappropriate, at the very least, and I'm sorry
[2014-06-30 06:14:07] <diabeticgonewild> thanks
[2014-06-30 06:14:32] <diabeticgonewild> was working on school work
[2014-06-30 06:17:10] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-30 06:17:15] <diabeticgonewild> I am gathering information
[2014-06-30 06:17:37] <diabeticgonewild> it will probably take 60 hours total to make it work really well
[2014-06-30 06:17:42] <diabeticgonewild> but I am not feeling well
[2014-06-30 06:17:48] <diabeticgonewild> or I would continue to work
[2014-06-30 10:23:20] <diabeticgonewild> The Supreme Court ruled in favor of letting Hobby Lobby not let their employess have contraception
[2014-06-30 10:23:26] <diabeticgonewild> completely outrageous
[2014-06-30 10:24:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-06-30 10:28:10] <diabeticgonewild> if employers had their way
[2014-06-30 10:28:23] <diabeticgonewild> I would never have a job because I'm so disabled
[2014-06-30 10:30:02] <diabeticgonewild> same
[2014-06-30 10:41:14] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2014-06-30 10:41:21] <diabeticgonewild> what about like stem cells
[2014-06-30 10:41:34] <diabeticgonewild> I don't believe that will be a cure for us anyways
[2014-06-30 10:41:37] <diabeticgonewild> but still
[2014-06-30 10:42:11] <diabeticgonewild> prety much
[2014-06-30 10:42:21] <diabeticgonewild> I am from the godless northwest anyways
[2014-06-30 10:42:25] <diabeticgonewild> but they can do it too
[2014-06-30 10:42:32] <diabeticgonewild> it's an excuse not to pay for something
[2014-06-30 10:42:36] <diabeticgonewild> but babies do cost more
[2014-06-30 10:42:38] <diabeticgonewild> :P
[2014-06-30 10:45:17] <diabeticgonewild> LOL cluckj
[2014-06-30 10:45:31] <diabeticgonewild> it's pretty crazy
[2014-06-30 10:45:38] <diabeticgonewild> they may have religious preference
[2014-06-30 10:45:58] <diabeticgonewild> but who cares
[2014-06-30 10:46:03] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-06-30 10:46:11] <diabeticgonewild> no offense to religious people
[2014-06-30 10:46:28] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have a problem with religious people at all
[2014-06-30 10:49:56] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't dare
[2014-06-30 10:50:05] <diabeticgonewild> it's strictly that person's business
[2014-06-30 10:50:49] <diabeticgonewild> if somebody says that to me
[2014-06-30 10:50:53] <diabeticgonewild> I just say thanks
[2014-06-30 10:51:11] <diabeticgonewild> its a kind gesture even if it doesn't mean anything to me
[2014-06-30 10:52:23] <diabeticgonewild> no you don't
[2014-06-30 10:52:38] <diabeticgonewild> and that's unfair but it's life
[2014-06-30 10:52:57] <diabeticgonewild> you don't have to be directly part of it, although it puts you in an extremely awkward position
[2014-06-30 10:52:59] <diabeticgonewild> even threatening
[2014-06-30 10:53:10] <diabeticgonewild> depending on your beliefs
[2014-06-30 10:55:21] <diabeticgonewild> On April 1, 2014, Mother Jones stated that Hobby Lobby's employee retirement plan has more than $73M invested in mutual funds, some of which invest in manufacturers of contraception, including some forms which are specifically named in the complaint, even though there exist several boutique mutual funds that specifically screen companies that are not in line with their client's religious beliefs.
[2014-06-30 10:55:31] <diabeticgonewild> quite a double standard
[2014-06-30 10:57:37] <diabeticgonewild> Supporters of the contraception requirement say a decision for Hobby Lobby could weaken health, safety, and civil rights laws.
[2014-06-30 10:57:55] <diabeticgonewild>  Fifteen states filed a brief arguing that businesses would be able to deny coverage for transfusions, stem cell treatments, and psychiatric care
[2014-06-30 10:58:01] <diabeticgonewild> What's next transfusions?
[2014-06-30 10:58:06] <diabeticgonewild> I NEED transfusions
[2014-06-30 10:58:14] <diabeticgonewild> like I get plasmapheresis
[2014-06-30 10:58:28] <diabeticgonewild> and intravenous immunoglobulin for a rare autoimmune disease
[2014-06-30 10:58:30] <diabeticgonewild> screw them
[2014-06-30 10:58:42] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2014-06-30 10:58:42] <diabeticgonewild> it's outrageous
[2014-06-30 11:04:52] <diabeticgonewild> no blood transfusions
[2014-06-30 11:05:01] <diabeticgonewild> it's much more costly
[2014-06-30 11:05:10] <diabeticgonewild> much more obvious objection
[2014-06-30 11:06:58] <diabeticgonewild> exactly
[2014-06-30 11:07:03] <diabeticgonewild> there is a moral argument
[2014-06-30 11:07:08] <diabeticgonewild> for some people
[2014-06-30 11:07:31] <diabeticgonewild> and the only other treatment that does not involve transfusions
[2014-06-30 11:07:39] <diabeticgonewild> is carcinogenic chemotherapy
[2014-06-30 11:07:43] <diabeticgonewild> that's my only other option
[2014-06-30 11:07:45] <diabeticgonewild> that's it
[2014-06-30 11:08:03] <diabeticgonewild> with serious side effects
[2014-06-30 11:10:08] <diabeticgonewild> nothing like $30,000 every 3 weeks for intravenous immunoglobulin
[2014-06-30 11:10:24] <diabeticgonewild> which I receive indefinitely when I get it
[2014-06-30 11:10:43] <diabeticgonewild> +1
[2014-06-30 11:10:55] <diabeticgonewild> I'm just saying
[2014-06-30 11:11:03] <diabeticgonewild> the cost is insane
[2014-06-30 11:18:24] <diabeticgonewild> well how much does a baby cost....
[2014-06-30 11:18:47] <diabeticgonewild> exactly
[2014-06-30 11:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> yeah they are fucking garbage
[2014-06-30 11:28:37] <diabeticgonewild> they can really put my life at risk
[2014-06-30 11:28:40] <diabeticgonewild> assholes
[2014-06-30 11:30:02] <diabeticgonewild> they should be ashamed of themselves
[2014-06-30 11:30:15] <diabeticgonewild> but in the end it is a enormous abuse of power
[2014-06-30 11:30:38] <diabeticgonewild> of religious indoctrination of people that have very little to do with those individuals in charge
[2014-06-30 11:39:53] <diabeticgonewild> it's a lot more than tha
[2014-06-30 11:39:53] <diabeticgonewild> t
[2014-06-30 11:40:12] <diabeticgonewild> why are a few people allowed to impose their beliefs on me
[2014-06-30 11:40:17] <diabeticgonewild> and a whole bunch of other people
[2014-06-30 11:40:26] <diabeticgonewild> and it has nothing to do with sex
[2014-06-30 11:40:37] <diabeticgonewild> it's between you and your doctor if you need birth control
[2014-06-30 11:41:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah men can do it all they want
[2014-06-30 11:43:54] <diabeticgonewild> my blood sugar feels low
[2014-06-30 11:43:59] <diabeticgonewild> but I am just sleepy
[2014-06-30 11:44:20] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah I feel like the American people have pretty much been betrayed
[2014-06-30 11:44:38] <diabeticgonewild> like all politicians should wear like Nascar jackets so we know their sponsors
[2014-06-30 11:44:40] <diabeticgonewild> seriously
[2014-06-30 17:50:42] <diabeticgonewild> tired of feeling like death
[2014-06-30 17:50:48] <diabeticgonewild> what is everyone up to?
[2014-06-30 18:05:03] <diabeticgonewild> that's a good idea
[2014-06-30 18:14:37] <diabeticgonewild> I want to do something but I am literally too sick
[2014-06-30 18:14:49] <diabeticgonewild> to get up off the couch
[2014-06-30 18:15:17] <diabeticgonewild> well not that sick
[2014-06-30 18:15:25] <diabeticgonewild> but like I will feel terrible
[2014-06-30 18:20:15] <diabeticgonewild> it's fine
[2014-06-30 18:20:24] <diabeticgonewild> nobody can do anything about it anyways
[2014-06-30 18:20:39] <diabeticgonewild> I just know that my neurologist appt is going to deliver bad news
[2014-06-30 18:21:17] <diabeticgonewild> and I am not really productive
[2014-06-30 18:21:18] <diabeticgonewild> it sucks
[2014-06-30 18:27:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah true
[2014-06-30 18:30:15] <diabeticgonewild> that's a start
[2014-06-30 18:30:17] <diabeticgonewild> that counts
[2014-06-30 18:30:25] <diabeticgonewild> good for you
[2014-06-30 18:32:05] <diabeticgonewild> like I am tired of not doing anything
[2014-06-30 18:32:07] <diabeticgonewild> not being productive
[2014-06-30 18:32:12] <diabeticgonewild> it's driving me insane
[2014-06-30 18:33:39] <diabeticgonewild> on disability/Medicare
[2014-06-30 18:33:43] <diabeticgonewild> student at ASU-online
[2014-06-30 18:33:55] <diabeticgonewild> but I have been feeling to crappy to work at it right now
[2014-06-30 18:34:48] <diabeticgonewild> like reading this blog of a person with my disease is depressing
[2014-06-30 18:34:48] <diabeticgonewild> http://halftheenergy.blogspot.com/
[2014-06-30 18:35:08] <diabeticgonewild> if I have to do plasmapheresis again I don't know what I will do...maybe go insane
[2014-06-30 18:37:30] <diabeticgonewild> plasma exchanges
[2014-06-30 18:37:44] <diabeticgonewild> like it removes blood from your body like a dialysis machine
[2014-06-30 18:37:53] <diabeticgonewild> and like it is passed through a centrifuge
[2014-06-30 18:38:00] <diabeticgonewild> and like your blood plasma is removed
[2014-06-30 18:38:08] <diabeticgonewild> and replaced by a plasma substitute
[2014-06-30 18:38:18] <diabeticgonewild> to remove circulating antibodies
[2014-06-30 18:38:43] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwAs7uUZJVE
[2014-06-30 18:41:29] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2014-06-30 18:41:41] <diabeticgonewild> 'i don't know what I am going to do
[2014-06-30 18:41:59] <diabeticgonewild> like I want to sabotage myself if I have to do it again
[2014-06-30 18:42:06] <diabeticgonewild> but then again that does no good
[2014-06-30 18:42:10] <diabeticgonewild> and doesn't fix the problem
[2014-06-30 18:43:14] <diabeticgonewild> thanks
[2014-06-30 18:43:26] <diabeticgonewild> I just know it is going to be bad...that's a certain thing
[2014-06-30 18:43:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah because I have no IV access
[2014-06-30 18:43:51] <diabeticgonewild> I get one in the neck
[2014-06-30 18:44:03] <diabeticgonewild> like endovascular surgery like puts a central line in
[2014-06-30 18:44:20] <diabeticgonewild> like afterwards you're like hold shit they did that to me?
[2014-06-30 18:45:00] <diabeticgonewild> and you cant take showers with it
[2014-06-30 18:45:05] <diabeticgonewild> cant get the line wet at all
[2014-06-30 18:45:09] <diabeticgonewild> because you risk sepsis
[2014-06-30 18:45:19] <diabeticgonewild> I have been in sepsis due to a line nfection
[2014-06-30 18:45:21] <diabeticgonewild> not fun
[2014-06-30 18:46:04] <diabeticgonewild> like this person is extremely sick
[2014-06-30 18:46:06] <diabeticgonewild> but like it hurt
[2014-06-30 18:46:09] <diabeticgonewild> you can tell
[2014-06-30 18:46:09] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REDM8btNZDM
[2014-06-30 18:46:22] <diabeticgonewild> it is awful, yep
[2014-06-30 18:46:46] <diabeticgonewild> like I am not remotely as sick as her
[2014-06-30 18:47:08] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't been in the hospital (except for an ER visit due to chemo related nausea) in over a year
[2014-06-30 18:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> she is, very
[2014-06-30 18:47:44] <diabeticgonewild> she has like mitochondrial disorder
[2014-06-30 18:47:48] <diabeticgonewild> which is really bad
[2014-06-30 18:47:57] <diabeticgonewild> and it caused her rare autoimmune disease
[2014-06-30 18:49:53] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-06-30 18:51:08] <diabeticgonewild> see why I get down
[2014-06-30 18:51:16] <diabeticgonewild> like I choose to be that way
[2014-06-30 18:51:23] <diabeticgonewild> but you really can't help it
[2014-06-30 18:51:29] <diabeticgonewild> it's extremely demoralizing
[2014-06-30 18:53:19] <diabeticgonewild> not really
[2014-06-30 18:53:26] <diabeticgonewild> it's a prison within itself
[2014-06-30 19:01:37] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I guess the good thing about going to the neurologist is getting some prescriptions I desperately need
[2014-06-30 19:01:53] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways
[2014-06-30 19:01:58] <diabeticgonewild> I am getting in the shower
[2014-06-30 19:02:01] <diabeticgonewild> I will ttyl
[2014-06-30 19:36:59] <diabeticgonewild> I have a headache thanks to low blood pressure and I am out of Fiorinal (the headaches went away for a long time and I never bothered to get a refill).....le sigh
[2014-06-30 19:39:57] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-06-30 19:45:22] <diabeticgonewild> it won't be good then
[2014-06-30 20:55:52] <diabeticgonewild> ok I have a messed up story
[2014-06-30 20:55:55] <diabeticgonewild> just now happened
[2014-06-30 20:56:08] <diabeticgonewild> my brother's computer has been shutting off randomly
[2014-06-30 20:56:18] <diabeticgonewild> because the motherboard is bad
[2014-06-30 20:56:32] <diabeticgonewild> and when he connected the graphics card
[2014-06-30 20:56:34] <diabeticgonewild> somehow
[2014-06-30 20:56:47] <diabeticgonewild> one of my very old verio iq test strips
[2014-06-30 20:56:55] <diabeticgonewild> was connected at the connection base
[2014-06-30 20:57:03] <diabeticgonewild> of the graphics card connection
[2014-06-30 20:57:10] <diabeticgonewild> and shorted out the mother board
[2014-06-30 20:57:23] <diabeticgonewild> because the verio iq test strips are conductors
[2014-06-30 20:57:31] <diabeticgonewild> either way it's a dielectric
[2014-06-30 20:57:42] <diabeticgonewild> I didn't tell him that it was a test strip
[2014-06-30 20:57:47] <diabeticgonewild> he would be very mad at me
[2014-06-30 20:58:42] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-06-30 21:00:22] <diabeticgonewild> let's not go there
[2014-06-30 21:00:35] <diabeticgonewild> I'm already in a really bad position now due to my medical issues
[2014-06-30 21:00:46] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to have to have some really bad treatments
[2014-06-30 21:00:49] <diabeticgonewild> anyways
[2014-06-30 21:00:55] <diabeticgonewild> I am trying to watch anime
[2014-06-30 21:03:33] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-06-30 21:03:37] <diabeticgonewild> anyone watch anime?
[2014-06-30 21:03:44] <diabeticgonewild> I'm watching dubbed stuff
[2014-06-30 21:32:45] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool Aeiensus
[2014-06-30 21:32:52] <diabeticgonewild> I use Funimation.com
[2014-06-30 21:33:29] <diabeticgonewild> tht's good
[2014-06-30 21:33:34] <diabeticgonewild> I just prefer dubbed
[2014-06-30 21:34:37] <diabeticgonewild> yrah
[2014-06-30 21:35:26] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2014-06-30 21:35:36] <diabeticgonewild> sorry if I am not chatting too much
[2014-06-30 21:35:50] <diabeticgonewild> I have a headache and I have been closing ym etes
[2014-06-30 21:35:59] <diabeticgonewild> crunchy roll is really good
[2014-07-01 04:31:09] <diabeticgonewild> good morning
[2014-07-01 04:32:09] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's cool
[2014-07-01 04:33:29] <diabeticgonewild> man I am sleepy
[2014-07-01 04:35:15] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I am thinking about it
[2014-07-01 04:35:21] <diabeticgonewild> already slept like a rock
[2014-07-01 04:37:17] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-07-01 12:14:07] <diabeticgonewild> I just woke uo
[2014-07-01 12:14:10] <diabeticgonewild> up
[2014-07-01 12:24:41] <diabeticgonewild> I am starting to wake up, courtesy of amphetamine pills
[2014-07-01 12:24:52] <diabeticgonewild> yay ADHD and excessive sleepiness
[2014-07-01 12:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-07-01 12:25:40] <diabeticgonewild> I rarely drink
[2014-07-01 12:27:29] <diabeticgonewild> that's what counts (In a good way)
[2014-07-01 12:29:59] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-07-01 12:34:52] <diabeticgonewild> I like Vyvanse, but I don't think I live it
[2014-07-01 12:34:56] <diabeticgonewild> it's*love
[2014-07-01 12:35:15] <diabeticgonewild> I mean it's a love/hate relationship
[2014-07-01 12:35:26] <diabeticgonewild> but it certainly helps me function
[2014-07-01 12:36:39] <diabeticgonewild> drinking can be fun
[2014-07-01 12:37:00] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't really have any business drinking with all of the medical problems I have
[2014-07-01 12:38:08] <diabeticgonewild> very true lexiconic
[2014-07-01 12:40:41] <diabeticgonewild> glowsticks: drinking?
[2014-07-01 12:41:07] <diabeticgonewild> the only way I can predict BGs while drinking is by drinking vodka straight
[2014-07-01 12:41:51] <diabeticgonewild> or like sugar free jello shots
[2014-07-01 12:42:02] <diabeticgonewild> like on my 21st birthday
[2014-07-01 12:42:21] <diabeticgonewild> I was already vomiting everything due to severe gastroparesis
[2014-07-01 12:42:29] <diabeticgonewild> and like I had 4 drinks
[2014-07-01 12:42:49] <diabeticgonewild> puked the most I have ever puked in a short time period in my life
[2014-07-01 12:43:04] <diabeticgonewild> accidentally ripped out my pump site when I went to bed
[2014-07-01 12:43:11] <diabeticgonewild> but too drunk to replace it
[2014-07-01 12:43:20] <diabeticgonewild> was only like 250 in the morning
[2014-07-01 12:44:09] <diabeticgonewild> like if I party hard (extemely rare)
[2014-07-01 12:44:12] <diabeticgonewild> I don't risk it
[2014-07-01 12:44:22] <diabeticgonewild> I just disconnect from my pump when I go to bed
[2014-07-01 12:45:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's understandable
[2014-07-01 12:46:36] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-07-01 12:48:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-01 12:48:52] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-07-01 12:49:08] <diabeticgonewild> I think, at least in my opinion, that it's a step up from McDonald's
[2014-07-01 12:49:17] <diabeticgonewild> check out these jello shots
[2014-07-01 12:49:18] <diabeticgonewild> https://web.archive.org/web/20130306060246/http://jelly-shot-test-kitchen.blogspot.com/p/recipes.html
[2014-07-01 12:49:23] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't have them
[2014-07-01 12:50:14] <diabeticgonewild> but I am tempted
[2014-07-01 12:50:15] <diabeticgonewild> when I am low
[2014-07-01 12:50:22] <diabeticgonewild> I like gelatin candy
[2014-07-01 12:50:22] <diabeticgonewild> because
[2014-07-01 12:50:28] <diabeticgonewild> it's concentrated
[2014-07-01 12:50:48] <diabeticgonewild> but I have been having better luck recently with juice and stuff with my gastroparesis
[2014-07-01 12:53:27] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Jelly-Shot-Test-Kitchen-Cocktails-One/dp/0762440546
[2014-07-01 14:01:45] <diabeticgonewild> that's extremely high
[2014-07-01 14:01:55] <diabeticgonewild> cheifs29: do you have a glucose sensor?
[2014-07-01 14:06:36] <diabeticgonewild> a CGM solves that problem, if you respond to the alarms
[2014-07-01 14:06:38] <diabeticgonewild> it really does
[2014-07-01 14:06:48] <diabeticgonewild> if you feel dehydrated, salt helps
[2014-07-01 14:07:00] <diabeticgonewild> (I have severe gastroparesis and orthostatic hypotension)
[2014-07-01 14:07:10] <diabeticgonewild> a powerade zero or a propel zero would be ideal
[2014-07-01 14:09:47] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-07-01 14:11:14] <diabeticgonewild> salt is good if you are/feel dehydrated
[2014-07-01 14:11:27] <diabeticgonewild> (I have severe gastroparesis and orthostatic hypotension)
[2014-07-01 14:11:37] <diabeticgonewild> powerade zero or propel zero are good choices
[2014-07-01 14:11:47] <diabeticgonewild> but broths (and typically soups) are good choices too
[2014-07-01 14:12:57] <diabeticgonewild> nuts probably are not if you are not feeling well
[2014-07-01 14:13:34] <diabeticgonewild> stay away from things that are high in fiber (fruits, vegetables) and fat (fat needs to be emulsified in the stomach, delaying digestion) if you are not feeling well
[2014-07-01 14:16:03] <diabeticgonewild> that can happen
[2014-07-01 14:16:05] <diabeticgonewild> get soup
[2014-07-01 14:16:14] <diabeticgonewild> it's typically a safe food
[2014-07-01 14:16:34] <diabeticgonewild> you won't regret it
[2014-07-01 14:18:06] <diabeticgonewild> well just ask for like some water
[2014-07-01 14:18:09] <diabeticgonewild> or even like a seltzer
[2014-07-01 14:18:14] <diabeticgonewild> like diet canada dry
[2014-07-01 14:19:24] <diabeticgonewild> you will be fine
[2014-07-01 14:19:27] <diabeticgonewild> you are going home, right?
[2014-07-01 14:19:35] <diabeticgonewild> you can have someone pick them up for you
[2014-07-01 14:19:40] <diabeticgonewild> while you are at the airport
[2014-07-01 14:19:46] <diabeticgonewild> so you have them when you get home
[2014-07-01 14:21:11] <diabeticgonewild> what software?
[2014-07-01 14:22:19] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that's cool
[2014-07-01 14:24:05] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-07-01 14:24:10] <diabeticgonewild> do you program dosman711?
[2014-07-01 14:26:27] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's cool
[2014-07-01 14:26:32] <diabeticgonewild> I don't do much OOP
[2014-07-01 14:26:39] <diabeticgonewild> I deal strictly with data structure
[2014-07-01 14:26:49] <diabeticgonewild> I am much more of a MATLAB and C person
[2014-07-01 14:27:24] <diabeticgonewild> my github
[2014-07-01 14:27:26] <diabeticgonewild> https://github.com/diabeticgonewild
[2014-07-01 14:29:42] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-07-01 14:31:50] <diabeticgonewild> LOL, thank you :)
[2014-07-01 14:32:26] <diabeticgonewild> just make ISOs of them and put them oh a HFF
[2014-07-01 14:32:31] <diabeticgonewild> HDD
[2014-07-01 14:35:02] <diabeticgonewild> probably not
[2014-07-01 14:35:07] <diabeticgonewild> Solaris is sooooo outdated
[2014-07-01 14:37:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-01 14:38:42] <diabeticgonewild> there are a bunch of new technologies
[2014-07-01 14:38:44] <diabeticgonewild> I know some
[2014-07-01 14:38:55] <diabeticgonewild> former repair tech at best buy/geek swuad
[2014-07-01 14:40:01] <diabeticgonewild> let me show you one with the latest technologies for audio transmission with bluetooth
[2014-07-01 14:40:27] <diabeticgonewild> it's not the most attractive look, but it will give you an idea of what specifically to look for in terms of specs
[2014-07-01 14:40:48] <diabeticgonewild> it has really solid reviews
[2014-07-01 14:42:09] <diabeticgonewild> Soundcast melody
[2014-07-01 14:42:09] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.bestbuy.com/site/soundcast-melody-portable-bluetooth-speaker-receiver-white/1573019.p?id=1219056465926&skuId=1573019&st=soundcast%20melody&cp=1&lp=1
[2014-07-01 14:42:21] <diabeticgonewild>  AAC/aptX lossless quality codecs  Ensure optimal Bluetooth audio performance.
[2014-07-01 14:42:26] <diabeticgonewild> that is what you want
[2014-07-01 14:42:34] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Soundcast-Melody-Wireless-Bluetooth-Resistant/dp/B00E7XURWM/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1404240073&sr=8-1&keywords=soundcast+melody#productDetails
[2014-07-01 14:42:46] <diabeticgonewild> awesome! dosman711
[2014-07-01 14:43:20] <diabeticgonewild> glowsticks
[2014-07-01 14:43:24] <diabeticgonewild> there are cheaper ones
[2014-07-01 14:43:31] <diabeticgonewild> battery is very important
[2014-07-01 14:45:06] <diabeticgonewild> this
[2014-07-01 14:45:07] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Portable-Wireless-Bluetooth-Speaker-Hands-Free/dp/B00H3IBEGG/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1404240293&sr=8-2&keywords=aac%2Faptx+wireless+speakers
[2014-07-01 14:45:29] <diabeticgonewild> has AAC/aptx and is cheap
[2014-07-01 14:45:58] <diabeticgonewild> with 8 hours battery and bluetooth 4.0
[2014-07-01 14:48:06] <diabeticgonewild> here's what I initially searched for (there are a bunch of cheap AAC/aptx speakers that are bluetooth and cheap) http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=aac%2Faptx%20wireless%20speakers
[2014-07-01 14:52:16] <diabeticgonewild> well like the logitech one has a better battery
[2014-07-01 14:52:26] <diabeticgonewild> but nprobably not as good sound due to the encoding
[2014-07-01 14:52:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I never use my airplay speaker
[2014-07-01 14:53:40] <diabeticgonewild> well, the cheap ones are probably not loud enough for outdoors, honestly
[2014-07-01 14:53:52] <diabeticgonewild> even the Bose bluetooth speakers are likely not
[2014-07-01 14:53:55] <diabeticgonewild> same with Beats
[2014-07-01 14:54:17] <diabeticgonewild> if you want to shower and have sound
[2014-07-01 14:54:22] <diabeticgonewild> I know a triathlete
[2014-07-01 14:54:29] <diabeticgonewild> who uses a waterproof ipod nano
[2014-07-01 14:54:34] <diabeticgonewild> with waterproof headphones
[2014-07-01 14:54:56] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Waterfi-Waterproof-Apple-Shuffle-Headphones/dp/B009J0INTM/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1404240887&sr=8-1&keywords=waterproof+ipod+nano
[2014-07-01 14:55:04] <diabeticgonewild> that's likely a better option
[2014-07-01 14:55:06] <diabeticgonewild> for showers
[2014-07-01 14:55:10] <diabeticgonewild> with sound quality and stuff
[2014-07-01 14:55:25] <diabeticgonewild> and if you are a swimmer (like me) it's probably worth it financially
[2014-07-01 14:56:16] <diabeticgonewild> greenconverse: better choice financially
[2014-07-01 14:56:46] <diabeticgonewild> clarksonguy04: agreed. I never use my airplay speakers (essentially the sme thing)
[2014-07-01 15:04:03] <diabeticgonewild> I am waiting for my blood pressure medicine to kick in
[2014-07-01 15:04:10] <diabeticgonewild> so I can concentrate on my engineering labs
[2014-07-01 15:10:24] <diabeticgonewild> greenconverse: this is what my dad got (extremely expensive) http://scanpan.eu/
[2014-07-01 15:10:48] <diabeticgonewild> SCANPAN A/S is a world leader manufacturers of PFOA-free non-stick products and manufactures Danish cookware high quality.
[2014-07-01 15:10:55] <diabeticgonewild> it's available at Sur la Table
[2014-07-01 15:11:17] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.surlatable.com/search/search.jsp?N=4294967064&Ntt=scanpan
[2014-07-01 15:11:48] <diabeticgonewild> my dad was a really good cook too (he passed away suddenly 1.5 years ago)
[2014-07-01 16:05:35] <diabeticgonewild> sigh...blood pressure medicine has not kicked in....very tachycardic
[2014-07-01 16:05:53] <diabeticgonewild> going to the art supply store regardless (have to work on a cheat sheet)
[2014-07-01 16:06:08] <diabeticgonewild> I need like erasable pencils and like erasable highlighters
[2014-07-01 16:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> because everything has to fit on one sheet (both sides allowed) of paper
[2014-07-01 16:08:17] <diabeticgonewild> I want to make one like this
[2014-07-01 16:08:18] <diabeticgonewild> http://imgur.com/a/yT1AU
[2014-07-01 16:08:24] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't think I have the time
[2014-07-01 16:08:32] <diabeticgonewild> (it is blurred because the file is so big)
[2014-07-01 16:08:40] <diabeticgonewild> it was created in Adobe illustrator
[2014-07-01 16:08:59] <diabeticgonewild> If I do that, I will also have to use a color laser printer to print it off
[2014-07-01 16:09:09] <diabeticgonewild> because inkjet does not print off small text precisely
[2014-07-01 16:10:00] <diabeticgonewild> .w 77204
[2014-07-01 16:31:37] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-07-01 16:31:58] <diabeticgonewild> there's a tattoo shop in Seattle in Wallingford that is called "Slave to the Needle"
[2014-07-01 16:32:04] <diabeticgonewild> I think that's an awesome name
[2014-07-01 16:33:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I heard it's pretty good
[2014-07-01 16:35:12] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-01 16:36:09] <diabeticgonewild> maybe
[2014-07-01 16:36:17] <diabeticgonewild> not safely with my health problems though
[2014-07-01 16:40:14] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much
[2014-07-01 16:40:41] <diabeticgonewild> finally my blood pressure medicine is kicking in
[2014-07-01 16:40:48] <diabeticgonewild> so I am not like dying to lie down
[2014-07-01 16:46:37] <diabeticgonewild> I'm going to do some school work
[2014-07-01 16:46:39] <diabeticgonewild> I'll ttyl
[2014-07-01 19:41:18] <diabeticgonewild> feel beyond crappy
[2014-07-01 19:41:31] <diabeticgonewild> but I just got my textbook in the mail
[2014-07-01 19:41:35] <diabeticgonewild> now I have to scan it
[2014-07-01 19:41:37] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Applied-Differential-Equations-3rd-Edition/dp/0130400971/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1404257980&sr=8-1&keywords=applied+differential+equations
[2014-07-01 20:41:13] <diabeticgonewild> blood pressure medicine doesn't help. feel physically terrible and cannot get up without feeling like I am going to pass out
[2014-07-01 21:01:08] <diabeticgonewild> can't get anything done
[2014-07-01 21:01:10] <diabeticgonewild> it sucks
[2014-07-01 23:20:55] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-01 23:20:57] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here?
[2014-07-01 23:22:09] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's cool
[2014-07-01 23:26:26] <diabeticgonewild> cute cat
[2014-07-01 23:26:38] <diabeticgonewild> I like orange cats
[2014-07-01 23:28:09] <diabeticgonewild> so I was looking at how to read RF signals in MATLAB
[2014-07-01 23:28:25] <diabeticgonewild> and it looks like you would have to deconvolute the signals to interpret them
[2014-07-01 23:28:27] <diabeticgonewild> pretty complicated
[2014-07-01 23:28:34] <diabeticgonewild> I bet H_Mc
[2014-07-01 23:50:06] <diabeticgonewild> what are you guys up to?
[2014-07-01 23:52:38] <diabeticgonewild> what's the thing you have to demodulate?
[2014-07-01 23:52:44] <diabeticgonewild> let me take a look
[2014-07-01 23:55:16] <diabeticgonewild> oh yeah, I remember this
[2014-07-01 23:55:50] <diabeticgonewild> I know that s-parameters are like the most widely used measurement of RF components
[2014-07-01 23:56:01] <diabeticgonewild> idk  if this applies, but it looks to be potentially useful
[2014-07-01 23:56:05] <diabeticgonewild> but I have to look into it more
[2014-07-01 23:56:21] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.bethesignal.com/bogatin/sparameters-for-si-p-843.html
[2014-07-01 23:57:19] <diabeticgonewild> One way to ease the pressure is with a fl exible, highly integrated measurement solution such as the Agilent N5242A PNA-X microwave network analyzer. With its advanced architecture, the PNA-X not only delivers excellent performance and accuracy, but it also can be confi gured for a variety of measurements beyond the traditional scattering parameters (S-parameters) associated with network analyzers. Built-in elemen
[2014-07-01 23:57:41] <diabeticgonewild> confi gured for a variety of measurements beyond the traditional scattering parameters (S-parameters) associated with network analyzers. Built-in elements such as a second signal source and frequency combiner enable accurate, informative characterization of nonlinear behavior in RF and microwave devices, particularly amplifi ers, mixers and frequency converters
[2014-07-01 23:57:54] <diabeticgonewild> http://cp.literature.agilent.com/litweb/pdf/5989-7188EN.pdf
[2014-07-01 23:58:25] <diabeticgonewild> another option is using the ComLink in combination with a web-based SCADA (in the cloud) with MATLAB
[2014-07-01 23:58:35] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't know the limitations on that, in theory
[2014-07-01 23:58:43] <diabeticgonewild> I just started looking into that
[2014-07-01 23:58:57] <diabeticgonewild> SCADA to crack it via computer, through automation
[2014-07-01 23:59:10] <diabeticgonewild> because the ComLink technically is a microcontroller
[2014-07-01 23:59:17] <diabeticgonewild> so it could theoretically work
[2014-07-02 00:00:43] <diabeticgonewild> congrats AlexHunter0
[2014-07-02 00:00:46] <diabeticgonewild> !!!!!!
[2014-07-02 00:02:33] <diabeticgonewild> take it easy
[2014-07-02 00:02:42] <diabeticgonewild> it's probably your first night heavily drinking
[2014-07-02 00:02:44] <diabeticgonewild> start off slow
[2014-07-02 00:02:47] <diabeticgonewild> but have fun!
[2014-07-02 00:05:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, you will have a blast!
[2014-07-02 00:05:38] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: S-parameters refer to RF "voltage out versus voltage in" in the most basic sense. S-parameters come in a matrix, with the number of rows and columns equal to the number of ports. For the S-parameter subscripts "ij", j is the port that is excited (the input port), and "i" is the output port. Thus S11 refers to the ratio of signal that reflects from port one for a signal incident on port one.
[2014-07-02 00:06:51] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: S-parameters describe the response of an N-port network to voltage signals at each port. The first number in the subscript refers to the responding port, while the second number refers to the incident port. Thus S21 means the response at port 2 due to a signal at port 1.
[2014-07-02 00:07:02] <diabeticgonewild> I think we are looking at S-parameter stuff
[2014-07-02 00:07:31] <diabeticgonewild> but deconvoluting the signal isn't a problem
[2014-07-02 00:07:54] <diabeticgonewild> not only will you get, I think an actual "circuit model" from the "black box" (unknowns from the circuit"
[2014-07-02 00:08:13] <diabeticgonewild> you can also learn the key operations based on the output (and input) signals
[2014-07-02 00:08:53] <diabeticgonewild> this is what I am looking at
[2014-07-02 00:08:53] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.microwaves101.com/encyclopedia/sparameters.cfm
[2014-07-02 00:10:14] <diabeticgonewild> but I am not 100% sure about all of this. I have to do more reading and look more at that github page.
[2014-07-02 00:17:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, the github stuff looks like S-parameter stuff
[2014-07-02 00:21:01] <diabeticgonewild> this pretty much sums up serial connections, RF, and S-parameters
[2014-07-02 00:21:08] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=1&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=0CB8QFjAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.tek.com%2Fdl%2F55W-28839-0%2520%2520DesignCon%25202013_SparameterCascade.pdf&ei=h4izU5T9CoekqAbM7IG4Ag&usg=AFQjCNGg6tkNi5nPcJnPiT4NktuuloretQ&sig2=0t3VGDEL30bfiTmfFenIjg&bvm=bv.70138588,d.b2k
[2014-07-02 00:21:20] <diabeticgonewild> what you gathered, bewest, was S-parameter data
[2014-07-02 00:25:41] <diabeticgonewild> so bewest , if we were to like create a circuit model for the ComLink, do you think we could figure out the commands to control a pump?
[2014-07-02 00:27:10] <diabeticgonewild> same Rf frequency?
[2014-07-02 00:27:21] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-07-02 00:27:52] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, I know this is a really complex issue
[2014-07-02 00:28:16] <diabeticgonewild> but between having drivers and like interpretations of the signals, which will create circuit models
[2014-07-02 00:28:38] <diabeticgonewild> at least do you think it would be theoretically possible (I know this is a loaded question, but I am just curious,
[2014-07-02 00:31:24] <diabeticgonewild> I think either way the signal has to be deconvoluted, in order to be able to control it via like a smartphone
[2014-07-02 00:31:30] <diabeticgonewild> ditching the ComLink
[2014-07-02 00:31:41] <diabeticgonewild> but there has to be an easier way
[2014-07-02 00:34:47] <diabeticgonewild> what do you meaan
[2014-07-02 00:34:55] <diabeticgonewild> COmLink sends the signal?
[2014-07-02 00:35:17] <diabeticgonewild> I mean the phone could do that, if it does baseband freqencies
[2014-07-02 00:36:15] <diabeticgonewild> this is of interest, although it involves only RF signals
[2014-07-02 00:36:16] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.kerrywong.com/2012/08/27/reverse-engineering-the-syma-s107g-ir-protocol/
[2014-07-02 00:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> it looks like it's just a matter of sending a bunch of RF signals to the pump, and seeing what the pump does :/
[2014-07-02 00:38:15] <diabeticgonewild> but it looks like S-parameters might be necessary to do that
[2014-07-02 00:46:48] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much all the same concept
[2014-07-02 00:46:48] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.rtl-sdr.com/using-rtl-sdr-ti-chronos-rf-wristwatch-copy-garage-door-opener/
[2014-07-02 00:52:10] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: this may be a solution, given we know the bit rate of communication
[2014-07-02 00:52:13] <diabeticgonewild> just use brute force
[2014-07-02 00:52:19] <diabeticgonewild> although it costs like $300
[2014-07-02 00:52:20] <diabeticgonewild> https://greatscottgadgets.com/hackrf/
[2014-07-02 00:52:27] <diabeticgonewild> does not include an antenna
[2014-07-02 01:00:01] <diabeticgonewild> oh bewest, I have one of those stupid Medtronic pump remotes
[2014-07-02 01:05:31] <diabeticgonewild> so you could use brute force
[2014-07-02 01:05:36] <diabeticgonewild> to figure out what does what
[2014-07-02 01:05:40] <diabeticgonewild> in terms of commands
[2014-07-02 01:05:44] <diabeticgonewild> with the default dev kit
[2014-07-02 01:06:46] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I think it would
[2014-07-02 01:06:56] <diabeticgonewild> unless for some reason it is encrypted
[2014-07-02 01:07:22] <diabeticgonewild> it would be highly unlikely if it was encrypted anyways
[2014-07-02 01:07:53] <diabeticgonewild> I can program an updated version of the Cambridge University's AP project (Hovorka's work) if you get the commands sown
[2014-07-02 01:07:55] <diabeticgonewild> *down
[2014-07-02 01:08:32] <diabeticgonewild> the patent with everything needed is like bookmarked on another computer
[2014-07-02 01:08:40] <diabeticgonewild> actually the downloads may be on this computer
[2014-07-02 01:09:25] <diabeticgonewild> why not?
[2014-07-02 01:09:29] <diabeticgonewild> it has everything
[2014-07-02 01:10:08] <diabeticgonewild> Abbott has the patent too
[2014-07-02 01:10:11] <diabeticgonewild> it's good stuff
[2014-07-02 01:10:20] <diabeticgonewild> and it cross references a bunch of other stuff
[2014-07-02 01:10:30] <diabeticgonewild> like it is the AP from Cambridge
[2014-07-02 01:10:38] <diabeticgonewild> like everything you would need to know about it
[2014-07-02 01:11:42] <diabeticgonewild> like I will upload all of the documents I got so far for it on Dropbox
[2014-07-02 01:11:57] <diabeticgonewild> but when you are ready I will be ready to program data structures and stuff
[2014-07-02 01:12:00] <diabeticgonewild> and potentially AP stuff
[2014-07-02 01:15:23] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: so what's left to do on the project, in terms of getting pump and CGM information?
[2014-07-02 01:15:54] <diabeticgonewild> refining and developer's kit?
[2014-07-02 01:34:48] <diabeticgonewild> OK, I just don't understand what I can do to help out
[2014-07-02 01:34:58] <diabeticgonewild> that's particularly what I want to do
[2014-07-02 01:40:19] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-02 01:40:50] <diabeticgonewild> I need to get some good books on JavaScript and like python
[2014-07-02 01:41:36] <diabeticgonewild> I was looking at this
[2014-07-02 01:41:37] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/1118290275/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_S_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I3LKCYDWU2R9HU
[2014-07-02 01:41:51] <diabeticgonewild> this
[2014-07-02 01:41:52] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/076378060X/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_S_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=IWX9HOTP9ATYB
[2014-07-02 01:42:07] <diabeticgonewild> and this
[2014-07-02 01:42:07] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/178216216X/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_nS_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I1EMKBQIHWP1IQ
[2014-07-02 01:42:16] <diabeticgonewild> but right now I am tied up in school
[2014-07-02 01:42:23] <diabeticgonewild> have been either sick or doing school work
[2014-07-02 01:42:34] <diabeticgonewild> and I am going on a trip starting July 10
[2014-07-02 01:43:47] <diabeticgonewild> like I am probably going to do an all-nighter now that I am feeling better
[2014-07-02 01:43:49] <diabeticgonewild> and work on labs
[2014-07-02 01:44:05] <diabeticgonewild> because my heart has slowed down a little bit and I can concentrate
[2014-07-02 01:47:10] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-07-02 01:47:23] <diabeticgonewild> actually I think I have access to the O'Reilly books for free
[2014-07-02 01:47:28] <diabeticgonewild> through bookshare.org
[2014-07-02 01:47:56] <diabeticgonewild> anyways because my health problems affect my eyes
[2014-07-02 01:48:01] <diabeticgonewild> I get access to that library
[2014-07-02 01:48:12] <diabeticgonewild> I think I will check bookshare out before I splurge
[2014-07-02 01:56:23] <diabeticgonewild> Real World Instrumentation with Python
[2014-07-02 01:56:24] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.bookshare.org/browse/book/396055?returnPath=L3NlYXJjaD9tb2R1bGVOYW1lPXB1YmxpYyZzZWFyY2g9U2VhcmNoJm9mZnNldD0wJmxpbWl0PTI1JnNvcnRPcmRlcj1SRUxFVkFOQ0UmYXV0aG9yRmlsdGVyPUFMTCZrZXl3b3JkPVB5dGhvbg%3D%3D
[2014-07-02 01:58:34] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.bookshare.org/browse/book/204250?returnPath=L3NlYXJjaD9tb2R1bGVOYW1lPXB1YmxpYyZzZWFyY2g9U2VhcmNoJmtleXdvcmQ9cHl0aG9uIGNvb2tib29r
[2014-07-02 01:59:04] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.bookshare.org/browse/book/837196?returnPath=L3NlYXJjaD9tb2R1bGVOYW1lPXB1YmxpYyZzZWFyY2g9U2VhcmNoJmtleXdvcmQ9cHl0aG9uIHBvY2tldCByZWZlcmVuY2U%3D
[2014-07-02 01:59:11] <diabeticgonewild> I get them all for free
[2014-07-02 01:59:16] <diabeticgonewild> ;)
[2014-07-02 01:59:57] <diabeticgonewild> hey greenconverse
[2014-07-02 02:00:00] <diabeticgonewild> how was the game?
[2014-07-02 02:00:51] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-07-02 02:00:56] <diabeticgonewild> well how was the movie?
[2014-07-02 02:03:22] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-07-02 02:05:15] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-02 02:08:38] <diabeticgonewild> I am procrastinating on a bunch of labs I have to do....because I don't feel well
[2014-07-02 02:08:51] <diabeticgonewild> I feel terrible and it's just an excuse, but still
[2014-07-02 02:11:24] <diabeticgonewild> wow that's good
[2014-07-02 02:11:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah these are labs on a breadboard
[2014-07-02 02:12:06] <diabeticgonewild> andthe I/O is through this
[2014-07-02 02:12:07] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.digilentinc.com/Products/Detail.cfm?NavPath=2,842,1018&Prod=ANALOG-DISCOVERY&CFID=5351261&CFTOKEN=876142e0c8a6225c-98C8E1EA-5056-0201-020189B7D75B9557
[2014-07-02 02:12:17] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have like 5 labs to do
[2014-07-02 02:12:23] <diabeticgonewild> because I procrastimated
[2014-07-02 02:17:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I bet
[2014-07-02 02:21:48] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's good
[2014-07-02 02:21:55] <diabeticgonewild> I wish I could do that
[2014-07-02 02:30:40] <diabeticgonewild> good morning Antoni
[2014-07-02 02:34:14] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks!
[2014-07-02 02:34:34] <diabeticgonewild> I want to eat like Reese's Peanut Butter cups
[2014-07-02 02:34:38] <diabeticgonewild> I know that's gross
[2014-07-02 02:35:10] <diabeticgonewild> there's none in the house (obviously)
[2014-07-02 02:37:20] <diabeticgonewild> crazy
[2014-07-02 02:37:26] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah, weird food cravings
[2014-07-02 02:37:38] <diabeticgonewild> like right now, I could eat a few of them, I think
[2014-07-02 02:37:51] <diabeticgonewild> but I lost like 10 lbs this past week due to nausea
[2014-07-02 02:43:46] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-07-02 02:43:51] <diabeticgonewild> how exciting!
[2014-07-02 02:47:55] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-07-02 02:50:06] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's not a fun thing to have to do
[2014-07-02 02:50:13] <diabeticgonewild> but it's not a big deal, either
[2014-07-02 02:59:17] <diabeticgonewild> how exciting!!!!
[2014-07-02 03:02:44] <diabeticgonewild> LOL awesome!!
[2014-07-02 03:12:27] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I think because I have been feeling so crappy lately that I have become extremely depressed
[2014-07-02 03:12:31] <diabeticgonewild> like extremely
[2014-07-02 03:13:32] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-02 03:14:29] <diabeticgonewild> my doctor doesn't want to change anything because it's probably my disease causing the problems
[2014-07-02 03:14:37] <diabeticgonewild> and it's just introducing variables
[2014-07-02 03:14:43] <diabeticgonewild> that could make things worse
[2014-07-02 03:14:59] <diabeticgonewild> he was like "hopefully they can do something for you so you can get better"
[2014-07-02 03:15:01] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-02 03:15:15] <diabeticgonewild> no comments on what I have been thinking about
[2014-07-02 03:15:18] <diabeticgonewild> for awhile now
[2014-07-02 03:15:30] <diabeticgonewild> but like I just need to focus on completing this class
[2014-07-02 03:20:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah Reese's Peanut Butter Cups
[2014-07-02 03:24:14] <diabeticgonewild> sounds good
[2014-07-02 03:27:15] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-07-02 03:28:43] <diabeticgonewild> sounds like fun
[2014-07-02 03:34:53] <diabeticgonewild> good night
[2014-07-02 03:43:41] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-07-02 03:43:48] <diabeticgonewild> i get that problem sometimes
[2014-07-02 03:43:50] <diabeticgonewild> downers help
[2014-07-02 03:45:38] <diabeticgonewild> basically that is correct
[2014-07-02 03:45:44] <diabeticgonewild> and like it hinders sleep too
[2014-07-02 03:48:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah downers do help
[2014-07-02 03:49:19] <diabeticgonewild> I have to be careful what I expose myself to...been really kind of suicidal lately...it's terrible
[2014-07-02 03:49:24] <diabeticgonewild> I hate to admit that too
[2014-07-02 03:49:37] <diabeticgonewild> like I don't want to actually hurt myself
[2014-07-02 03:49:54] <diabeticgonewild> but another problem is that like it's Texas, and you can get a gun anywhere
[2014-07-02 03:50:04] <diabeticgonewild> like there's a gun place like 0.5 miles from my house
[2014-07-02 03:50:08] <diabeticgonewild> I don't think I could do it
[2014-07-02 03:50:12] <diabeticgonewild> and I do have hop
[2014-07-02 03:50:13] <diabeticgonewild> e
[2014-07-02 03:50:19] <diabeticgonewild> but I'm just saying
[2014-07-02 03:50:36] <diabeticgonewild> I don't even trust myself at times because I feel so terrible physically
[2014-07-02 03:50:40] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I believe it
[2014-07-02 03:50:45] <diabeticgonewild> I hate admitting it though
[2014-07-02 03:52:25] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-07-02 03:53:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-02 03:53:41] <diabeticgonewild> I understand that
[2014-07-02 03:55:57] <diabeticgonewild> I think about my mom (who lost her husband..my dad suddenly...around 1.5 years ago) when I think about it
[2014-07-02 03:56:01] <diabeticgonewild> I can't do that to her
[2014-07-02 03:57:32] <diabeticgonewild> thanks Antoni
[2014-07-02 03:57:48] <diabeticgonewild> true, that's the way it's supposed to be
[2014-07-02 03:58:49] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't
[2014-07-02 03:59:02] <diabeticgonewild> I nearly died from severe DKA thanks to a mental health hospitalization
[2014-07-02 03:59:05] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not joking
[2014-07-02 03:59:16] <diabeticgonewild> they took me off my pump and screwed up my insulin dosages
[2014-07-02 03:59:45] <diabeticgonewild> I was vomiting all over the place and my BGs were like off the charts and they still kept me there
[2014-07-02 03:59:58] <diabeticgonewild> this was a unit that was a part of an actual medical hospital too
[2014-07-02 04:00:21] <diabeticgonewild> I asked them to call the emergency response team and they blew me off and didn't
[2014-07-02 04:00:24] <diabeticgonewild> so I called 911
[2014-07-02 04:00:35] <diabeticgonewild> they hung up the phone while I was talking to 911
[2014-07-02 04:00:51] <diabeticgonewild> I should have kicked them but I was too sick to think on that high of a level
[2014-07-02 04:01:01] <diabeticgonewild> was also vomiting all over the place like on the floor and stuff
[2014-07-02 04:01:16] <diabeticgonewild> and like I just like lied down on the couch
[2014-07-02 04:01:23] <diabeticgonewild> then like vomited on the floor
[2014-07-02 04:01:42] <diabeticgonewild> and like one of the techs like cleaned off the vomit on the floor wiht like a towel
[2014-07-02 04:01:47] <diabeticgonewild> and threw it on my face
[2014-07-02 04:02:02] <diabeticgonewild> and like the last things I remember was like yelling for my dad
[2014-07-02 04:02:12] <diabeticgonewild> and like thinking I was going to die in vain
[2014-07-02 04:02:20] <diabeticgonewild> and like I don't remember anything after that
[2014-07-02 04:02:32] <diabeticgonewild> and like I remember vaguely being in the ICU
[2014-07-02 04:02:35] <diabeticgonewild> very vaguely
[2014-07-02 04:02:46] <diabeticgonewild> they had me on oxygen and like they had a central line in me
[2014-07-02 04:02:54] <diabeticgonewild> and like I was like "wow, I am alive"
[2014-07-02 04:03:08] <diabeticgonewild> and like I realized "oh, shit I am in DKA"
[2014-07-02 04:03:19] <diabeticgonewild> and then I remembered what happened
[2014-07-02 04:03:27] <diabeticgonewild> and I was thinkign "how am I alive"
[2014-07-02 04:03:54] <diabeticgonewild> and I was kind of fading in and out of consciousness the whole time when I was in the ICU
[2014-07-02 04:04:04] <diabeticgonewild> like my pH upon arrival was like 7.03
[2014-07-02 04:04:18] <diabeticgonewild> so yeah, I don't trust those dickheads
[2014-07-02 04:04:26] <diabeticgonewild> no they stopped giving me insulin
[2014-07-02 04:04:39] <diabeticgonewild> because I wasn't eating
[2014-07-02 04:04:46] <diabeticgonewild> they prescribed me Cymbslta
[2014-07-02 04:04:55] <diabeticgonewild> which makes my gastroparesis worse and makes me vomit
[2014-07-02 04:04:56] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-07-02 04:05:06] <diabeticgonewild> I stopped eating altogether when I was in that unit
[2014-07-02 04:05:33] <diabeticgonewild> no it's an antidepressent used that is sometimes also used for neuropathy, just FYI
[2014-07-02 04:05:42] <diabeticgonewild> but nausea is a serious problem with it
[2014-07-02 04:05:58] <diabeticgonewild> they would like yell at me and like try to like put food in my mouth
[2014-07-02 04:06:14] <diabeticgonewild> I should have thrown the fucking tray at them and told them to fuck off
[2014-07-02 04:06:26] <diabeticgonewild> like I am so nice
[2014-07-02 04:06:29] <diabeticgonewild> but they deserve it
[2014-07-02 04:06:32] <diabeticgonewild> seriously
[2014-07-02 04:06:39] <diabeticgonewild> like putting somebody in severe DKA
[2014-07-02 04:06:46] <diabeticgonewild> and like blowing off medical problems
[2014-07-02 04:06:58] <diabeticgonewild> when they can tell that somebody is in distress physically
[2014-07-02 04:07:02] <diabeticgonewild> is completely irresponsible
[2014-07-02 04:07:07] <diabeticgonewild> and this was severe DKA
[2014-07-02 04:07:12] <diabeticgonewild> it wasn't mild DKA
[2014-07-02 04:07:16] <diabeticgonewild> they really screwed up
[2014-07-02 04:07:30] <diabeticgonewild> like 4 days in the ICU...I really could have died
[2014-07-02 04:07:43] <diabeticgonewild> I will never trust anyone except endo for my care
[2014-07-02 04:08:04] <diabeticgonewild> and btw, I didn't have all of these like mental health problems before I had like these autonomic problems
[2014-07-02 04:08:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well these people had like RNs and had lisences and stuff
[2014-07-02 04:08:47] <diabeticgonewild> they were completely irresponsible and they deserved to lose their licenses
[2014-07-02 04:09:06] <diabeticgonewild> idk, there are a lot of people (that I have come across) via internet searches
[2014-07-02 04:09:14] <diabeticgonewild> with my disease and just mental health problems
[2014-07-02 04:09:20] <diabeticgonewild> they seem to come hand in hand
[2014-07-02 04:09:26] <diabeticgonewild> like it's impossible to trace
[2014-07-02 04:09:46] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's understandable
[2014-07-02 04:10:58] <diabeticgonewild> here's a journal of somebody with my disease who was diagnosed with it as a kid
[2014-07-02 04:11:01] <diabeticgonewild> and is now in college
[2014-07-02 04:11:13] <diabeticgonewild> has gone through a lot of the same stuff as me, one way or another
[2014-07-02 04:11:19] <diabeticgonewild> at least she is graceful about it
[2014-07-02 04:11:21] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/alibroshar/journal/index/1/0/desc
[2014-07-02 04:11:26] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I bitch too much
[2014-07-02 04:12:30] <diabeticgonewild> I also found somebody like yesterday who is moving to Texas for school, who is wheelchair dependent, uses IV fluids on a daily basis, and like has a service dog, due to this disease
[2014-07-02 04:13:04] <diabeticgonewild> here's her blog:
[2014-07-02 04:13:04] <diabeticgonewild> http://rachelhusband.blogspot.com/
[2014-07-02 04:13:35] <diabeticgonewild> and then there's somebody with like Type 1 and my disease (he has a service dog too) along with epilepsy and three other autoimmune diseases
[2014-07-02 04:14:15] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.nashvillepaw.com/latest_topics/2013/07/17/nashvillian-raises-support-for-service-dog.652847
[2014-07-02 04:14:27] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah it's a really bad disease
[2014-07-02 04:14:39] <diabeticgonewild> that dude in the last link has some really serious problems
[2014-07-02 04:15:23] <diabeticgonewild> but I wasn't thinking about a service dog because of those people, I just think I could benefit with all of my medical problems
[2014-07-02 04:17:06] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah the severe DKA incident happened like almost 2 years ago (exactly), and like it took almost 1.5 years for my brain to recover
[2014-07-02 04:17:29] <diabeticgonewild> there was this constant hissing noise (like white noise sound) in my brain that finally went away
[2014-07-02 04:17:38] <diabeticgonewild> and for some reason I can concentrate better
[2014-07-02 04:20:19] <diabeticgonewild> like that DKA incident
[2014-07-02 04:21:33] <diabeticgonewild> the nurse practitioner had the nerve to say that they were putting me in the "step-down" unit (like not on a regular floor but a step down from the ICU)...but I got thrown in the ICU even though that unit didn't want me there
[2014-07-02 04:21:37] <diabeticgonewild> they were really dumb
[2014-07-02 04:21:56] <diabeticgonewild> it's not like I wasn't breathing deep (Kussmall respirations) from like advanced DKA
[2014-07-02 04:22:05] <diabeticgonewild> and I blacked out around 4-5 in the morning
[2014-07-02 04:22:19] <diabeticgonewild> and they threw me in the ICU at like 3 PM that day
[2014-07-02 04:22:29] <diabeticgonewild> so they really screwed around with me
[2014-07-02 04:22:34] <diabeticgonewild> it was more than mistreatment
[2014-07-02 04:22:37] <diabeticgonewild> it was torture
[2014-07-02 04:22:40] <diabeticgonewild> straight up
[2014-07-02 04:23:10] <diabeticgonewild> greenconverse: that's cool
[2014-07-02 04:23:24] <diabeticgonewild> also, I am not trying to influence you badly if you need to be hospitalized
[2014-07-02 04:23:30] <diabeticgonewild> I am just saying, don't trust them
[2014-07-02 04:24:01] <diabeticgonewild> and BTW, I didn't do anything wrong to "lose my pump". They took it away from me upon being admitted to the psych unit, even though I was on the Omnipod
[2014-07-02 04:24:10] <diabeticgonewild> and I did not have direct access to the controller
[2014-07-02 04:24:14] <diabeticgonewild> so yeah, F- tem
[2014-07-02 04:24:17] <diabeticgonewild> F- them
[2014-07-02 04:24:22] <diabeticgonewild> I could have died easily
[2014-07-02 04:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I hope it stays that way for you
[2014-07-02 04:25:41] <diabeticgonewild> my endocrine nurse practitioner basically said after that incident to my family "I hate that unit!:
[2014-07-02 04:26:33] <diabeticgonewild> they were really dumb
[2014-07-02 04:26:46] <diabeticgonewild> obviously I don't belong in the psych unit if they cannot properly give insulin
[2014-07-02 04:27:03] <diabeticgonewild> and I refuse to go back there
[2014-07-02 04:27:14] <diabeticgonewild> and yes, I am being a jerk, but I nearly died
[2014-07-02 04:28:30] <diabeticgonewild> I swear if a doctor tries to throw me in to a unit like that
[2014-07-02 04:29:02] <diabeticgonewild> I will tell them that I will sue you and the hospital you are affiliated with, because last time I was in one of those units, I nearly died due to medical neglect
[2014-07-02 04:29:28] <diabeticgonewild> like the month after the DKA incident was pure hell
[2014-07-02 04:29:31] <diabeticgonewild> I was like gone
[2014-07-02 04:29:46] <diabeticgonewild> and like my whole body felt like it had been beat by a 2 x 4
[2014-07-02 04:32:59] <diabeticgonewild> like I refuse to go back to a unit that completely blows off medical problems and medical concerns
[2014-07-02 04:33:06] <diabeticgonewild> or any place similar to it
[2014-07-02 04:33:15] <diabeticgonewild> or comparable
[2014-07-02 04:35:49] <diabeticgonewild> I even think my psychiatrist would understand. But he's very smart, even for a doctor. He definitely has more sense than those people running that psych unit (including the doctors).
[2014-07-02 04:36:17] <diabeticgonewild> seriously, I think I might even feel safer in jail (I don't break the law intentionally, though) than in there
[2014-07-02 04:36:23] <diabeticgonewild> but whatever
[2014-07-02 04:36:25] <diabeticgonewild> you get my point
[2014-07-02 04:41:48] <diabeticgonewild> good night
[2014-07-02 04:44:04] <diabeticgonewild> same greenconverse
[2014-07-02 04:46:37] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that sucks bigtime
[2014-07-02 04:48:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-02 04:49:01] <diabeticgonewild> :) Antoni
[2014-07-02 04:57:36] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-07-02 10:54:08] <diabeticgonewild> I am like dying from low blood pressure
[2014-07-02 10:54:13] <diabeticgonewild> I am supposed to be cleaning right now
[2014-07-02 10:54:26] <diabeticgonewild> but like I get short of breath just walking around the house
[2014-07-02 10:54:39] <diabeticgonewild> and I took like double the amount of medicine that I am supposed to take
[2014-07-02 10:55:13] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I don't want to take it
[2014-07-02 10:55:20] <diabeticgonewild> I am very tachycardic
[2014-07-02 10:55:24] <diabeticgonewild> just took 20 mg midodrine
[2014-07-02 10:55:30] <diabeticgonewild> and I have some in my system
[2014-07-02 10:56:56] <diabeticgonewild> I will....standing up
[2014-07-02 10:57:03] <diabeticgonewild> that's the problem....mostly...while standing up
[2014-07-02 10:57:13] <diabeticgonewild> even though it affects me while sitting or lying down
[2014-07-02 10:58:51] <diabeticgonewild> 89/62 standing up
[2014-07-02 10:58:56] <diabeticgonewild> pulse of 176
[2014-07-02 11:00:55] <diabeticgonewild> the high hr is due to my blood pressure being low
[2014-07-02 11:01:02] <diabeticgonewild> it's a compensatory mechanism
[2014-07-02 11:02:01] <diabeticgonewild> like more normal
[2014-07-02 11:05:36] <diabeticgonewild> like 30 minutues ago but I havesevere gastroparesis
[2014-07-02 11:07:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well a double dose will help some
[2014-07-02 11:07:10] <diabeticgonewild> not a ton
[2014-07-02 11:07:14] <diabeticgonewild> but it will make a difference
[2014-07-02 11:10:59] <diabeticgonewild> I think it's starting to kick in....my scalp is getting more tingly
[2014-07-02 19:23:52] <diabeticgonewild> kyng: you need to do an oral glucose tolarence test, ordered by your doctor
[2014-07-02 19:24:38] <diabeticgonewild> kyng: also HbA1c testing, fasting glucose, c-peptide levels, and islet cell antibody tests are potentially useful towards diagnosis
[2014-07-02 19:24:57] <diabeticgonewild> kyng: most importantly, you need a oral glucose tolerence test
[2014-07-02 19:26:09] <diabeticgonewild> like unquenchable thirst
[2014-07-02 19:26:29] <diabeticgonewild> and like having to go to the bathroom every 15 minutes (if you are type 1)
[2014-07-02 19:27:04] <diabeticgonewild> kyng: the urination is more of a sign than thirst
[2014-07-02 19:27:10] <diabeticgonewild> both of them are prominent
[2014-07-02 19:27:18] <diabeticgonewild> but the urination is more of a giveaway
[2014-07-02 19:27:33] <diabeticgonewild> in terms of problems leading to diagnosis
[2014-07-02 19:27:36] <diabeticgonewild> kyng: yes
[2014-07-02 19:28:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well I don't usually have vision problems related to my diabetes, and I have been type 1 for 20 years
[2014-07-02 19:28:48] <diabeticgonewild> so take it for what it's worth
[2014-07-02 19:31:29] <diabeticgonewild> it's an instant feedback in the meantime
[2014-07-02 19:31:49] <diabeticgonewild> kyng: it's only worth it if you "need to know" before your appointment, for whatever reason
[2014-07-02 19:31:56] <diabeticgonewild> like being scared or extremely worried
[2014-07-02 19:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> see page 2
[2014-07-02 19:32:00] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.ccwjc.com/Forms/Diabetes/Patient%20Education/Hyper-Hypo%20Glycemia%20%E2%80%93%20English.pdf
[2014-07-02 19:32:06] <diabeticgonewild> then get a cheap-o meter
[2014-07-02 19:32:22] <diabeticgonewild> make sure to wash your hands before testing
[2014-07-02 19:33:01] <diabeticgonewild> I would wait for the doctor too
[2014-07-02 19:33:13] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: that is true
[2014-07-02 19:33:19] <diabeticgonewild> they will just think you are paranoid
[2014-07-02 19:33:32] <diabeticgonewild> I would only do it if you are like debating going to the ER or not
[2014-07-02 19:33:37] <diabeticgonewild> personally
[2014-07-02 19:34:41] <diabeticgonewild> like I have a rare disease and like when I was speculating that it could have been another autoimmune disease (other than the one I already suspected) they thought I was crazy
[2014-07-02 19:34:54] <diabeticgonewild> like I came across a rare disease and I thought I might have it
[2014-07-02 19:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> and like it was so rare that I thought it may be something else like another rare disease
[2014-07-02 19:35:33] <diabeticgonewild> but you do need an oral glucose tolerence test, at the minimum
[2014-07-02 19:36:20] <diabeticgonewild> fasting blood glucose (included in the oral glucose tolerence test), HbA1c, c-peptide levels, and islet cell antibodies are also potentially useful
[2014-07-02 19:36:26] <diabeticgonewild> if you want to leave no stone uncovered
[2014-07-02 19:36:27] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-07-02 19:36:36] <diabeticgonewild> oral glucose tolerence test will not miss diabetes
[2014-07-02 19:36:48] <diabeticgonewild> because it is a "stress test" for diabetes in a lot of ways
[2014-07-02 19:36:55] <diabeticgonewild> like before I was diagnosed
[2014-07-02 19:37:07] <diabeticgonewild> my doctors "tested for diabetes" using a urine dipstick
[2014-07-02 19:37:12] <diabeticgonewild> instead of a blood test
[2014-07-02 19:37:15] <diabeticgonewild> because I was like 5
[2014-07-02 19:37:21] <diabeticgonewild> and it missed diabetes TWICE
[2014-07-02 19:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> and I was diagnosed when I was in DKA
[2014-07-02 19:37:58] <diabeticgonewild> so do not let them test your urine *TO DIAGNOSE DIABETES*
[2014-07-02 19:38:31] <diabeticgonewild> I was not saying that
[2014-07-02 19:38:34] <diabeticgonewild> he cannot diagnose diabetes
[2014-07-02 19:38:37] <diabeticgonewild> only a doctor can
[2014-07-02 19:38:56] <diabeticgonewild> exactly
[2014-07-02 19:39:11] <diabeticgonewild> but I am just saying that an oral glucose tolerence test is what you likely need
[2014-07-02 19:39:26] <diabeticgonewild> 8% of the US population has diabetes, I believe
[2014-07-02 19:39:30] <diabeticgonewild> type 1 is in the minority
[2014-07-02 19:39:56] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-07-02 19:40:31] <diabeticgonewild> true, and we cannot help you much, other than personal experience
[2014-07-02 19:40:58] <diabeticgonewild> but I can confirm that TrialNet uses oral glucose tolerence tests to diagnose people already at high risk of type 1
[2014-07-02 19:41:28] <diabeticgonewild> I suspect due to the fact that it catches it earlier than like fasting glucose, because it is a dynamic threshold test
[2014-07-02 19:41:38] <diabeticgonewild> but anyways, it's between you and your doctor
[2014-07-02 19:41:40] <diabeticgonewild> all of this
[2014-07-02 19:41:45] <diabeticgonewild> that's true
[2014-07-02 19:42:00] <diabeticgonewild> I am just concerned because some doctors are just dumb
[2014-07-02 19:42:29] <diabeticgonewild> like a pediatric urologist and pediatrician missed it, by using urine glucose tests
[2014-07-02 19:42:55] <diabeticgonewild> when I was showing signs
[2014-07-02 19:43:00] <diabeticgonewild> but that was 20 years ago
[2014-07-02 19:43:04] <diabeticgonewild> it needs to be blood
[2014-07-02 19:43:07] <diabeticgonewild> has to be
[2014-07-02 19:43:33] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-07-02 19:43:45] <diabeticgonewild> but Kyng: I wouldn't worry
[2014-07-02 19:43:47] <diabeticgonewild> time will tell
[2014-07-02 19:43:48] <diabeticgonewild> it sucks
[2014-07-02 19:43:54] <diabeticgonewild> but you will get through this
[2014-07-02 19:45:29] <diabeticgonewild> kyng: it doesn't matter at this point of time
[2014-07-02 19:45:39] <diabeticgonewild> you don't need to do unsubstantiated testing
[2014-07-02 19:45:43] <diabeticgonewild> it will just drive you insane
[2014-07-02 19:45:53] <diabeticgonewild> plus, my rare autoimmune disease causes dry mouth
[2014-07-02 19:46:00] <diabeticgonewild> and dry mouth can cause excessive thirst
[2014-07-02 19:46:18] <diabeticgonewild> like it literally triggers a signal to make you want to drink "more water"
[2014-07-02 19:46:21] <diabeticgonewild> it's really annoying
[2014-07-02 19:46:48] <diabeticgonewild> I'm just saying it could be something else
[2014-07-02 19:47:00] <diabeticgonewild> but don't be doing experiments to see if it is/isn't diabetes
[2014-07-02 19:47:05] <diabeticgonewild> you will drive yourself insane
[2014-07-02 19:48:00] <diabeticgonewild> the oral glucose tolerance test is probably the most sensitive test, and it has a very high likelihood of picking up diabetes
[2014-07-02 19:48:02] <diabeticgonewild> don't worry about it
[2014-07-02 19:48:07] <diabeticgonewild> you have the information from us
[2014-07-02 19:48:09] <diabeticgonewild> that you need
[2014-07-02 19:48:10] <diabeticgonewild> take care
[2014-07-02 19:48:12] <diabeticgonewild> don't stress
[2014-07-02 19:48:15] <diabeticgonewild> it will be fine
[2014-07-02 19:48:27] <diabeticgonewild> you're welcome
[2014-07-02 20:03:08] <diabeticgonewild> I am so happy....all of my school materials have come through the mail. I did not get the book that my school uses because it sucks.
[2014-07-02 20:03:17] <diabeticgonewild> it's for differential equations
[2014-07-02 20:03:22] <diabeticgonewild> the class started today
[2014-07-02 20:10:29] <diabeticgonewild> because the material is relatively the same
[2014-07-02 20:10:40] <diabeticgonewild> and the books are comprehensive
[2014-07-02 20:11:02] <diabeticgonewild> and all of the material basically has to be the same across programs because this is an ABET-accredited engineering program
[2014-07-02 20:11:16] <diabeticgonewild> so all-in-all the material is generally the same if you want to become an engineer
[2014-07-02 20:12:35] <diabeticgonewild> clarksonguy04: I have took a watered-down version of DiffEq, which was not as comprehensive as this class
[2014-07-02 20:12:43] <diabeticgonewild> but I am very familiar with the material
[2014-07-02 20:13:05] <diabeticgonewild> this is why I decided not to purchase the "recommended" book http://www.amazon.com/Elementary-Differential-Equations-Boundary-Problems/dp/0470458313/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1404346188&sr=8-1&keywords=boyce+differential+equations
[2014-07-02 20:16:33] <diabeticgonewild> it just says "Textbook"
[2014-07-02 20:16:37] <diabeticgonewild> it doesn't say required
[2014-07-02 20:16:46] <diabeticgonewild> and like we don't have to do problems out of that book
[2014-07-02 20:16:51] <diabeticgonewild> we use like WeBWork
[2014-07-02 20:17:00] <diabeticgonewild> which is created through some mathematical society
[2014-07-02 20:17:09] <diabeticgonewild> the book is only for reference
[2014-07-02 20:17:14] <diabeticgonewild> hey greenconverse
[2014-07-02 20:17:17] <diabeticgonewild> how are you doing?
[2014-07-02 20:18:48] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks that you are tired
[2014-07-02 20:21:27] <diabeticgonewild> that sounds stressful to wake up to
[2014-07-02 20:21:29] <diabeticgonewild> also that sucks
[2014-07-02 20:22:45] <diabeticgonewild> be back soon....dinner
[2014-07-02 20:22:45] <diabeticgonewild> ttyl
[2014-07-03 00:36:09] <diabeticgonewild> I went to diabetes camp as a kid too
[2014-07-03 00:36:15] <diabeticgonewild> Camp Sweeney for 10 summers
[2014-07-03 00:41:56] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome
[2014-07-03 00:42:41] <diabeticgonewild> I got sent home my last summer due to medical problems. It left me devestated
[2014-07-03 00:47:59] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-07-03 00:48:31] <diabeticgonewild> soy is an endocrine disruptor
[2014-07-03 00:48:35] <diabeticgonewild> I like hippie foods
[2014-07-03 00:48:40] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't do soy
[2014-07-03 00:52:43] <diabeticgonewild> ok I will chill
[2014-07-03 00:52:56] <diabeticgonewild> I am just saying that it's not something I would go for
[2014-07-03 01:26:49] <diabeticgonewild> Monica
[2014-07-03 01:28:27] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-07-03 01:28:30] <diabeticgonewild> !!!!
[2014-07-03 01:28:42] <diabeticgonewild> sorry I was looking at a math textbook for engineering
[2014-07-03 01:28:47] <diabeticgonewild> let me look for a pic
[2014-07-03 01:29:18] <diabeticgonewild> I don't think I have a pic on this computer
[2014-07-03 01:29:21] <diabeticgonewild> I will show you one soon
[2014-07-03 01:29:28] <diabeticgonewild> I don't even have pics of myself on FB
[2014-07-03 01:30:13] <diabeticgonewild> strawberry blonde hair
[2014-07-03 01:30:14] <diabeticgonewild> green eyes
[2014-07-03 01:30:17] <diabeticgonewild> fair skinned
[2014-07-03 01:30:23] <diabeticgonewild> 5'9"
[2014-07-03 01:30:27] <diabeticgonewild> medium build
[2014-07-03 01:30:34] <diabeticgonewild> but with a large body frame
[2014-07-03 01:30:58] <diabeticgonewild> wavy hair
[2014-07-03 01:31:01] <diabeticgonewild> natural highlight
[2014-07-03 01:31:01] <diabeticgonewild> s
[2014-07-03 01:32:01] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-07-03 01:32:05] <diabeticgonewild> I have a twin brother
[2014-07-03 01:32:12] <diabeticgonewild> but we don't look anything alike
[2014-07-03 01:32:21] <diabeticgonewild> so yeah, I kind of hang out with guys
[2014-07-03 01:32:39] <diabeticgonewild> and I can be like "one of the guys" even though I am female
[2014-07-03 01:32:49] <diabeticgonewild> I am feminine obviously
[2014-07-03 01:32:53] <diabeticgonewild> but you know what I mean
[2014-07-03 01:35:12] <diabeticgonewild> :) that's awesome!
[2014-07-03 01:35:19] <diabeticgonewild> yeah my twin is my BFF
[2014-07-03 01:37:52] <diabeticgonewild> Ben
[2014-07-03 01:38:44] <diabeticgonewild> no, he has none
[2014-07-03 01:38:54] <diabeticgonewild> he's lucky
[2014-07-03 01:39:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-03 01:39:56] <diabeticgonewild> I'm 49 minutes older than him
[2014-07-03 01:39:59] <diabeticgonewild> he's engaged
[2014-07-03 01:40:01] <diabeticgonewild> too
[2014-07-03 01:46:45] <diabeticgonewild> yeah his fiancee is like 6'0"
[2014-07-03 01:46:48] <diabeticgonewild> i'm kind of jealous
[2014-07-03 01:46:55] <diabeticgonewild> I am jealous of people taller than me
[2014-07-03 01:46:59] <diabeticgonewild> which is kind of weird
[2014-07-03 01:47:02] <diabeticgonewild> 6'2"
[2014-07-03 01:47:24] <diabeticgonewild> 5'9"
[2014-07-03 01:47:59] <diabeticgonewild> wow
[2014-07-03 01:48:02] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool though
[2014-07-03 01:49:04] <diabeticgonewild> wow
[2014-07-03 01:49:06] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-07-03 01:49:17] <diabeticgonewild> you guys are like normal heights
[2014-07-03 01:49:22] <diabeticgonewild> slightly lower than average
[2014-07-03 01:49:25] <diabeticgonewild> but good proportions
[2014-07-03 01:49:30] <diabeticgonewild> especially for partners
[2014-07-03 01:51:35] <diabeticgonewild> sorry if I am not exciting...I am doing an all nighter...gotta catch up on school work
[2014-07-03 01:51:48] <diabeticgonewild> been feeling terrible and that is what is keeping me behind
[2014-07-03 01:59:11] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that's good
[2014-07-03 02:03:38] <diabeticgonewild> well it's a good thing and a bad thing
[2014-07-03 03:18:38] <diabeticgonewild> I have a love/hate relationship with all-nighters
[2014-07-03 03:18:45] <diabeticgonewild> I have experienced some epic ones
[2014-07-03 03:18:46] <diabeticgonewild> though
[2014-07-03 03:35:17] <diabeticgonewild> I have made like 10 pages of cheat sheet material now
[2014-07-03 03:35:19] <diabeticgonewild> so far
[2014-07-03 03:35:35] <diabeticgonewild> that I have to synthesize into one page (front and back)
[2014-07-03 03:44:12] <diabeticgonewild> I need to take a break :P
[2014-07-03 04:14:51] <diabeticgonewild> good morning Antoni
[2014-07-03 04:50:29] <diabeticgonewild> good!
[2014-07-03 04:50:30] <diabeticgonewild> you?
[2014-07-03 04:50:36] <diabeticgonewild> I am doing an all-nighter
[2014-07-03 05:13:49] <diabeticgonewild> :)!!!!
[2014-07-03 05:38:52] <diabeticgonewild> :(
[2014-07-03 05:38:58] <diabeticgonewild> but :)!!!!
[2014-07-03 06:12:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-03 06:12:46] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to Florida
[2014-07-03 06:13:01] <diabeticgonewild> Pensacola, Florida, on July 11th
[2014-07-03 19:25:37] <diabeticgonewild> I am so sick
[2014-07-03 19:25:50] <diabeticgonewild> my mom and my siblings were even like WTF at dinner
[2014-07-03 21:22:39] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-03 21:28:39] <diabeticgonewild> sick
[2014-07-03 21:28:51] <diabeticgonewild> like my mom never gets worried about me
[2014-07-03 21:28:59] <diabeticgonewild> and like at dinner, she was like WTF
[2014-07-03 21:29:06] <diabeticgonewild> cause she could tell I was really sick
[2014-07-03 21:29:15] <diabeticgonewild> anyways, I have a ton of schoolwork to do
[2014-07-03 21:29:29] <diabeticgonewild> MATLAB project, 48 math problems, 6 labs, and a quiz
[2014-07-03 21:29:32] <diabeticgonewild> in the next 3 days
[2014-07-03 21:29:41] <diabeticgonewild> like dizzy
[2014-07-03 21:29:44] <diabeticgonewild> orthostatic
[2014-07-03 21:29:48] <diabeticgonewild> heart palpitating
[2014-07-03 21:29:51] <diabeticgonewild> weak
[2014-07-03 21:29:58] <diabeticgonewild> nauseated
[2014-07-03 21:31:20] <diabeticgonewild> ok I will shut up
[2014-07-03 21:33:31] <diabeticgonewild> thats cool
[2014-07-03 21:35:10] <diabeticgonewild> I just want you to enjoy your diner
[2014-07-03 21:35:11] <diabeticgonewild> dinner
[2014-07-03 21:37:37] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-03 22:36:11] <diabeticgonewild> my homework is taking forever
[2014-07-03 22:36:19] <diabeticgonewild> I'm only on problem number 2
[2014-07-03 22:36:28] <diabeticgonewild> I wish
[2014-07-03 22:36:37] <diabeticgonewild> I have too much on the line this week
[2014-07-03 22:36:40] <diabeticgonewild> make or break week
[2014-07-03 22:36:52] <diabeticgonewild> and like there is overlap
[2014-07-03 22:37:09] <diabeticgonewild> like one class is starting and one class is ending, so it's a double load this week
[2014-07-03 22:37:28] <diabeticgonewild> jey bunnii
[2014-07-03 22:37:55] <diabeticgonewild> sorry like my vision is messed up for some reason
[2014-07-03 22:38:03] <diabeticgonewild> I can barely read the computer screen
[2014-07-03 22:40:54] <diabeticgonewild> it's probably the rare disease that I have
[2014-07-03 22:40:58] <diabeticgonewild> that is causing the problem
[2014-07-03 22:43:47] <diabeticgonewild> I wish
[2014-07-03 22:43:59] <diabeticgonewild> all I am going to be doing is wokring all weekend
[2014-07-03 22:44:02] <diabeticgonewild> it's hell weekend for me
[2014-07-03 22:44:56] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-07-03 22:53:08] <diabeticgonewild> alright I am on number 3 of my homework
[2014-07-03 22:53:12] <diabeticgonewild> I want to sleep
[2014-07-03 22:53:13] <diabeticgonewild> sigh
[2014-07-03 22:55:44] <diabeticgonewild> no way
[2014-07-03 22:56:13] <diabeticgonewild> I have seven labs due, 1 MATLAB assignment, 1 quiz, and like 48 math hw problems due on Sunday
[2014-07-03 22:56:16] <diabeticgonewild> at midnight
[2014-07-03 22:56:29] <diabeticgonewild> I have to work even if I'm really sick
[2014-07-03 22:56:34] <diabeticgonewild> and getting sicker from working
[2014-07-03 22:56:39] <diabeticgonewild> it's not a choice
[2014-07-03 22:56:42] <diabeticgonewild> too much on the line
[2014-07-03 23:15:59] <diabeticgonewild> One time
[2014-07-03 23:16:07] <diabeticgonewild> I studied for 60 hours straight
[2014-07-03 23:16:11] <diabeticgonewild> virtually no breaks
[2014-07-03 23:16:18] <diabeticgonewild> and I went in and took the exam
[2014-07-03 23:16:20] <diabeticgonewild> got a 91
[2014-07-03 23:16:26] <diabeticgonewild> didn't know shit before studying
[2014-07-03 23:20:44] <diabeticgonewild> like I am really sick
[2014-07-03 23:20:56] <diabeticgonewild> like my body is going to pay a serious price
[2014-07-03 23:21:00] <diabeticgonewild> and it would have before
[2014-07-03 23:21:08] <diabeticgonewild> but I decided to procrastinate
[2014-07-03 23:21:15] <diabeticgonewild> CHILL OUT
[2014-07-03 23:23:27] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I'm fucking 25
[2014-07-03 23:23:29] <diabeticgonewild> thank you
[2014-07-03 23:25:33] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-07-04 00:28:38] <diabeticgonewild> I just looked in the mirror. MY pupils are absolutely gigantic. Like I don't think they could dilate much more.
[2014-07-04 01:07:39] <diabeticgonewild> I don't think I can sleep
[2014-07-04 01:07:43] <diabeticgonewild> I am too stressed out
[2014-07-04 01:08:25] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-04 01:09:42] <diabeticgonewild> ty
[2014-07-04 01:11:41] <diabeticgonewild> it didn't
[2014-07-04 06:03:37] <diabeticgonewild> anyone up?
[2014-07-04 06:03:45] <diabeticgonewild> I'm goint to bed soon
[2014-07-04 06:03:52] <diabeticgonewild> I did an all-nighter
[2014-07-04 06:11:26] <diabeticgonewild> that's good :)
[2014-07-04 06:13:14] <diabeticgonewild> I need to go to sleep
[2014-07-04 06:13:17] <diabeticgonewild> I will ttyl
[2014-07-05 08:28:23] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-05 15:50:20] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-05 15:55:24] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-07-05 15:55:31] <diabeticgonewild> I'm taking a break from hell weekend
[2014-07-05 15:56:05] <diabeticgonewild> Like I shouldn't be taking any breaks....I have a bunch of stuff due
[2014-07-05 15:56:40] <diabeticgonewild> 40 differential equations questions, a quiz, a test, a MATLAB assignment, and another lab to due
[2014-07-05 15:56:47] <diabeticgonewild> all due tomorrow at midnight
[2014-07-05 15:56:50] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-07-05 17:33:51] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-05 17:35:03] <diabeticgonewild> OMG this lab is fucking long
[2014-07-05 17:35:11] <diabeticgonewild> I have been working on it for 6 hours
[2014-07-05 17:35:15] <diabeticgonewild> some of them take like 8
[2014-07-05 17:38:41] <diabeticgonewild> I really don't care about the money
[2014-07-05 17:38:52] <diabeticgonewild> the harder it is the more I want it
[2014-07-05 19:27:51] <diabeticgonewild> I got to go take a test, ttyl
[2014-07-08 20:23:49] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-08 20:39:09] <diabeticgonewild> I received really bad news from my neurologist today
[2014-07-08 20:39:25] <diabeticgonewild> and I should be studying for my final exam on Friday, along with 2 labs
[2014-07-08 20:39:57] <diabeticgonewild> I went to my neurologist today and I failed basic muscular strength tests that I should have passed with my disease and I have passed in the past
[2014-07-08 20:39:57] <diabeticgonewild> now
[2014-07-08 20:40:03] <diabeticgonewild> they think I have CIDP
[2014-07-08 20:40:43] <diabeticgonewild> I know I am screwed...I really do
[2014-07-08 20:41:02] <diabeticgonewild> like I have experienced muscular weakness, cramping, and muscle pain in the past, along with tingling
[2014-07-08 20:41:15] <diabeticgonewild> and it was diagnosed as psychosomatic and I knew that it wasn't
[2014-07-08 20:41:30] <diabeticgonewild> and I just know that there is something seriously wrong with me
[2014-07-08 20:41:41] <diabeticgonewild> whatever it is, I will find out
[2014-07-08 20:43:38] <diabeticgonewild> I guess
[2014-07-08 20:43:42] <diabeticgonewild> I am really screwed
[2014-07-08 20:43:47] <diabeticgonewild> I dropped one of my classes today
[2014-07-08 20:45:18] <diabeticgonewild> I might not finish this class
[2014-07-08 20:45:27] <diabeticgonewild> that has like a final exaam and and 2 labs left
[2014-07-08 20:45:34] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to do an all-nighter
[2014-07-08 20:45:38] <diabeticgonewild> but I am really not in the mood
[2014-07-08 20:46:09] <diabeticgonewild> issue
[2014-07-08 20:46:10] <diabeticgonewild> s
[2014-07-08 20:46:27] <diabeticgonewild> I am behind, but everything I am turning in is on time
[2014-07-08 20:46:31] <diabeticgonewild> or have to turn in
[2014-07-08 21:17:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah...I need a new life...I hate being diagnosed with new diseases...or the prospect of that matter
[2014-07-08 21:22:02] <diabeticgonewild> I guess. I really don't want to though
[2014-07-08 21:22:28] <diabeticgonewild> I told my professors in an email yesterday that I intended on finishing this term no matter what
[2014-07-08 21:22:33] <diabeticgonewild> things changed over a day's time
[2014-07-08 21:22:55] <diabeticgonewild> and idk if I want to put myself though hell over the next few days to complete this course
[2014-07-08 21:23:06] <diabeticgonewild> I literally didn't sleep all weekend
[2014-07-08 21:23:37] <diabeticgonewild> in order to complete 7 labs, 50 differential equations questions, a MATLAB assignment, a test, and a quiz
[2014-07-08 21:23:47] <diabeticgonewild> that were due Sunday night
[2014-07-08 21:24:50] <diabeticgonewild> no I can't drop it
[2014-07-08 21:24:54] <diabeticgonewild> I am in the last week
[2014-07-08 21:25:15] <diabeticgonewild> I dropped another course and I am going to get an 80% refund on that
[2014-07-08 21:25:24] <diabeticgonewild> because that term just started
[2014-07-08 21:25:33] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I will ask for an extension
[2014-07-08 21:26:12] <diabeticgonewild> I just really don't want to
[2014-07-08 21:26:13] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-07-08 21:27:34] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, that's basically what it is....I failed the basic neurological exam, with respect to muscle strength
[2014-07-08 21:27:57] <diabeticgonewild> and I just know I am screwed. I know I have had muscle weakness problems for awhile
[2014-07-08 21:28:35] <diabeticgonewild> even my neurologist was like WTF when she did the tests
[2014-07-08 21:41:34] <diabeticgonewild> Bunnii, it was like a standard neurological exam done in a neurologist's office during an appointment
[2014-07-08 21:41:59] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2MBiS1kc_0
[2014-07-08 21:42:19] <diabeticgonewild> Bunnii, that's the neurological examination. I failed the muscular strength tests.
[2014-07-08 21:42:44] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I will write them a note. I am going to do an all-nighter and I will let them know I am trying my best
[2014-07-08 21:43:12] <diabeticgonewild> Bunnii let me find the point in the video regular to the parts I failed
[2014-07-08 21:43:17] <diabeticgonewild> *relative
[2014-07-08 21:43:26] <diabeticgonewild> Bunnii, I will
[2014-07-08 21:43:37] <diabeticgonewild> I studied for 60 hours straight
[2014-07-08 21:43:47] <diabeticgonewild> no sleep at all last weekend
[2014-07-08 21:43:53] <diabeticgonewild> first all-nighter was Friday
[2014-07-08 21:44:01] <diabeticgonewild> proceeded to work all Saturday
[2014-07-08 21:44:10] <diabeticgonewild> second all-nighter was Saturday night
[2014-07-08 21:44:33] <diabeticgonewild> proceeded to work all Sunday, and turned everything in before the due date
[2014-07-08 21:45:31] <diabeticgonewild> I failed the set of stuff starting at 9:41 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2MBiS1kc_0
[2014-07-08 21:45:36] <diabeticgonewild> not all of it though
[2014-07-08 21:45:39] <diabeticgonewild> but a lot of it
[2014-07-08 21:47:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it's 9:41-13:05
[2014-07-08 21:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> my doctor did it differently though
[2014-07-08 21:47:55] <diabeticgonewild> she had me lift up my thighs on the edge of the table and "not let her push my legs down"
[2014-07-08 21:48:00] <diabeticgonewild> but I failed that one
[2014-07-08 21:48:39] <diabeticgonewild> I was also supposed to put my arms in front of me bent at a right angle
[2014-07-08 21:48:55] <diabeticgonewild> and not let her push/pull my forearm
[2014-07-08 21:49:00] <diabeticgonewild> but I failed both of those tests
[2014-07-08 21:49:07] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks Bunnii
[2014-07-08 21:50:01] <diabeticgonewild> yeah hopefully it is only like a back injury or something
[2014-07-08 21:50:06] <diabeticgonewild> my neck has been bothering me
[2014-07-08 21:50:32] <diabeticgonewild> but like i thought it was from sitting up too long after laying down for like 2 years
[2014-07-08 21:50:33] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-07-08 21:50:51] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have numbness in my left hand on my pinky and ring finger
[2014-07-08 21:51:06] <diabeticgonewild> also I have been getting neuropathy style numbness and tinglin
[2014-07-08 21:51:06] <diabeticgonewild> h
[2014-07-08 21:51:16] <diabeticgonewild> autoimmune dysautonomia caused me to live on the couch
[2014-07-08 21:51:20] <diabeticgonewild> due to low blood pressure issues
[2014-07-08 21:51:34] <diabeticgonewild> also I have been experiencing muscle weakness and cramping
[2014-07-08 21:51:55] <diabeticgonewild> would a back injury cause muscle weakness and cramping
[2014-07-08 21:51:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-08 21:52:08] <diabeticgonewild> it's a rare disease called autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-07-08 21:52:44] <diabeticgonewild> I can't get MRIs
[2014-07-08 21:52:52] <diabeticgonewild> I have neurostimulators and a PowerPort
[2014-07-08 21:53:55] <diabeticgonewild> what about generalized muscle weakness and cramping?
[2014-07-08 21:54:04] <diabeticgonewild> what about like the stinging from neuropathy?
[2014-07-08 21:54:35] <diabeticgonewild> I know, it's crazy
[2014-07-08 21:55:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, well I am in Houston
[2014-07-08 21:55:58] <diabeticgonewild> Chicago is a really special city to me
[2014-07-08 21:56:27] <diabeticgonewild> I went to a Society of Women Engineers national conference and got offered a 6 month internship with Intel
[2014-07-08 21:56:30] <diabeticgonewild> in California
[2014-07-08 21:56:39] <diabeticgonewild> *conference there
[2014-07-08 21:57:31] <diabeticgonewild> :)!
[2014-07-08 21:57:59] <diabeticgonewild> me too!
[2014-07-08 21:58:16] <diabeticgonewild> I had a blast while I was there, even though I was really sick when I went
[2014-07-08 21:58:32] <diabeticgonewild> OK, I will
[2014-07-08 21:58:35] <diabeticgonewild> :)!
[2014-07-08 21:58:42] <diabeticgonewild> that would be awesome
[2014-07-08 21:59:57] <diabeticgonewild> yeah for sure, it's a huge city
[2014-07-08 22:04:12] <diabeticgonewild> LOL I bet
[2014-07-08 22:04:45] <diabeticgonewild> like what?
[2014-07-08 22:04:49] <diabeticgonewild> OMG awesome!
[2014-07-08 22:05:44] <diabeticgonewild> eww
[2014-07-08 22:06:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I don't think I have a back injury, I looked up low back pain fact sheet on the NIH
[2014-07-08 22:06:08] <diabeticgonewild> :)!
[2014-07-08 22:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> and I am getting chills down my spine, which is a bad sign of an autoimmune disease
[2014-07-08 22:06:27] <diabeticgonewild> :)!
[2014-07-08 22:07:02] <diabeticgonewild> I mean the weakness and stuff is pretty symmetrical
[2014-07-08 22:07:10] <diabeticgonewild> and it's overall, not just like one set
[2014-07-08 22:07:14] <diabeticgonewild> like it's my legs and arms
[2014-07-08 22:08:09] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-07-08 22:09:21] <diabeticgonewild> wow awesome!
[2014-07-08 22:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> they're amazing!
[2014-07-08 22:11:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I bet
[2014-07-08 22:14:10] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-07-08 22:14:29] <diabeticgonewild> ok I am pretty sure it is not due to back pain, even though I am not a doctor
[2014-07-08 22:14:41] <diabeticgonewild> like I do have pain in my neck
[2014-07-08 22:14:44] <diabeticgonewild> which can be CIDP
[2014-07-08 22:14:48] <diabeticgonewild> but check out this
[2014-07-08 22:14:49] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.patient.co.uk/doctor/cervical-disc-protrusion-and-lesions
[2014-07-08 22:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> Look at this chart
[2014-07-08 22:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> Neurological features associated with cervical radiculopathy
[2014-07-08 22:15:06] <diabeticgonewild> and at C8
[2014-07-08 22:15:19] <diabeticgonewild> it's not consistent with what I am going though
[2014-07-08 22:15:26] <diabeticgonewild> only the ring and the pinky finger numbness is consistent
[2014-07-08 22:16:26] <diabeticgonewild> none of my middle
[2014-07-08 22:16:51] <diabeticgonewild> this actually happened to me when I first started showing obvious signs of autoimmune dysautonomia when I was 18
[2014-07-08 22:16:58] <diabeticgonewild> exact same hand, ring and pinky finger
[2014-07-08 22:17:10] <diabeticgonewild> and it mysteriously went away
[2014-07-08 22:17:28] <diabeticgonewild> I know of 2 other people with my disease that had similar signs right before they were diagnosed
[2014-07-08 22:18:07] <diabeticgonewild> #1 http://www.dysautonomiainternational.org/page.php?ID=120
[2014-07-08 22:19:01] <diabeticgonewild> she did have numbness
[2014-07-08 22:19:05] <diabeticgonewild> also this guy did too
[2014-07-08 22:19:06] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.utsouthwestern.edu/education/medical-school/departments/neurology/news-and-events/news/steven-vernino-aag-baseball-player-hope-diagnosis.html
[2014-07-08 22:19:17] <diabeticgonewild> you did Sloth_Cavalry?
[2014-07-08 22:19:50] <diabeticgonewild> One morning in December of 2009, Ray Peters woke up with two numb toes and pain across his back. But the former professional baseball player was not too concerned because after years of taking the pitcher’s mound in the minor leagues and for a brief stint in the majors, Peters had often suffered from back and shoulder pain. Now 63 years old, Peters chalked it up to his baseball years.
[2014-07-08 22:20:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-08 22:20:12] <diabeticgonewild> but it's suspicious
[2014-07-08 22:20:34] <diabeticgonewild> like the exact same thing happened before my dysautonomia got absolutely out of control
[2014-07-08 22:20:43] <diabeticgonewild> and I had paralysis episodes
[2014-07-08 22:20:47] <diabeticgonewild> neither am I Sloth_Cavalry
[2014-07-08 22:20:56] <diabeticgonewild> I guess it is useless speculating
[2014-07-08 22:28:46] <diabeticgonewild> there's no way it is a back injury, because the weakness is in both my arms and legs, and my muscles randomly twitch
[2014-07-08 22:28:59] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah, I need to work on getting an extension
[2014-07-08 22:34:24] <diabeticgonewild> I go to Arizona State University Online
[2014-07-08 22:34:27] <diabeticgonewild> in electrical engineering
[2014-07-08 22:34:32] <diabeticgonewild> I have accommodations
[2014-07-08 22:34:46] <diabeticgonewild> I told them why I needed accommodations for the final exam
[2014-07-08 22:34:55] <diabeticgonewild> but I didn't mention my medical problems before
[2014-07-08 22:34:56] <diabeticgonewild> at all
[2014-07-08 22:35:06] <diabeticgonewild> I just gave them my accommodation letter
[2014-07-08 22:35:14] <diabeticgonewild> actually that was sent by DRC
[2014-07-08 22:35:15] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-07-08 22:35:18] <diabeticgonewild> I should have
[2014-07-08 22:35:38] <diabeticgonewild> I told them that I was seeing my neurologist this week and I am not doing a good job at dealing with life issues
[2014-07-08 22:35:48] <diabeticgonewild> I also told them that I expect the appointment to go bad
[2014-07-08 22:36:07] <diabeticgonewild> but I don't think that the appointment could have gone any worse
[2014-07-08 22:38:23] <diabeticgonewild> like I failed these tests, specifically
[2014-07-08 22:38:27] <diabeticgonewild> that I can recall
[2014-07-08 22:38:38] <diabeticgonewild> Elbow flexion (with forearm supinated)
[2014-07-08 22:38:50] <diabeticgonewild> Elbow extension
[2014-07-08 22:39:02] <diabeticgonewild> Arm abduction at shoulder
[2014-07-08 22:39:19] <diabeticgonewild> Knee extension
[2014-07-08 22:39:43] <diabeticgonewild> Knee flexion
[2014-07-08 22:40:02] <diabeticgonewild> Leg abduction
[2014-07-08 22:40:10] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.neuroexam.com/neuroexam/content.php?p=29
[2014-07-08 22:41:26] <diabeticgonewild> actually not leg abduction, I failed hip flexion
[2014-07-08 22:41:40] <diabeticgonewild> like I am looking at YouTube videos to confirm what I failed
[2014-07-08 22:42:14] <diabeticgonewild> like I definitely failed more than a few
[2014-07-08 22:44:41] <diabeticgonewild> I mean I am
[2014-07-08 22:44:50] <diabeticgonewild> but I was examined like 3 months ago by my neurologist
[2014-07-08 22:44:51] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-07-08 22:45:06] <diabeticgonewild> She said I was strong and I was scoring 5/5 on the tests
[2014-07-08 22:45:16] <diabeticgonewild> and now I have a bunch of weakness now
[2014-07-08 22:45:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-08 22:45:21] <diabeticgonewild> it's crazy
[2014-07-08 22:49:27] <diabeticgonewild> ty Bunnii
[2014-07-08 23:25:55] <diabeticgonewild> nice!
[2014-07-13 22:21:34] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-13 22:21:38] <diabeticgonewild> I finshed my class
[2014-07-13 22:23:25] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I definitely need some counseling
[2014-07-13 22:23:57] <diabeticgonewild> I found out that I might have chronic inflammatory demyeliniating polyneuropathy
[2014-07-13 22:24:19] <diabeticgonewild> and because I am losing my fine motor skills, I couldn't even finsh an exam with double time
[2014-07-13 22:24:44] <diabeticgonewild> and bombed an exam, but I still managed to get an A
[2014-07-13 22:24:47] <diabeticgonewild> ".1"
[2014-07-13 22:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> I am absolutely devastated
[2014-07-13 22:26:33] <diabeticgonewild> actually there is an inflammatory neuropathy caused by the inhalation of pig's brains
[2014-07-13 22:26:39] <diabeticgonewild> it is a prion disease
[2014-07-13 22:26:46] <diabeticgonewild> it was discovered in the 2000s
[2014-07-13 22:27:36] <diabeticgonewild> an observant medical transcriber who translated documents from Spanish to English came across 2 identical cases and notified people
[2014-07-13 22:27:37] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-07-13 22:28:01] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I don't have the pig brains disease
[2014-07-13 22:28:05] <diabeticgonewild> but probably CIDP
[2014-07-13 22:28:51] <diabeticgonewild> I was "diagnosed" with "conversion disorder" 7 years ago, but it was probably Guillain Barre Syndrome
[2014-07-13 22:29:07] <diabeticgonewild> espescially if I really do have this disease
[2014-07-13 22:39:33] <diabeticgonewild> I don't think I could be more depressed. Extremely exhauusted, legs cramping up, and neuropathy pain constantly
[2014-07-13 22:39:39] <diabeticgonewild> probably due to CIDP
[2014-07-13 22:41:25] <diabeticgonewild> damn
[2014-07-13 23:07:23] <diabeticgonewild> IDK about that, being able to walk/write/type/click is more important, and I have trouble with that
[2014-07-13 23:07:30] <diabeticgonewild> that's extremely irritating
[2014-07-13 23:07:33] <diabeticgonewild> losing that ability
[2014-07-13 23:09:50] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-07-13 23:10:09] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-07-16 21:14:01] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-07-16 21:14:18] <diabeticgonewild> I'm on vacay
[2014-07-16 21:15:37] <diabeticgonewild> it's really pretty here
[2014-07-16 21:16:15] <diabeticgonewild> pensacola, Fl
[2014-07-16 21:17:54] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much
[2014-07-16 21:18:11] <diabeticgonewild> it doesn't feel good with my craming/spasming muscles
[2014-07-16 21:18:17] <diabeticgonewild> *cramping
[2014-07-16 21:18:24] <diabeticgonewild> I have trouble typing too
[2014-07-16 21:20:26] <diabeticgonewild> I am resting
[2014-07-16 21:20:39] <diabeticgonewild> watching TV with my mom in a hotel
[2014-07-16 21:20:51] <diabeticgonewild> I actually bombed an exam because O can't write
[2014-07-16 21:21:06] <diabeticgonewild> but I still managed to get an A in the class
[2014-07-16 21:21:30] <diabeticgonewild> but could hace got an A+
[2014-07-16 21:21:39] <diabeticgonewild> never worked so hard in my life
[2014-07-16 21:21:49] <diabeticgonewild> ir been so exhausted
[2014-07-16 21:23:59] <diabeticgonewild> I could have used the A+ though because I am going to get a B in a class
[2014-07-16 21:24:28] <diabeticgonewild> well it does at ASU
[2014-07-16 21:24:32] <diabeticgonewild> ASU is cool
[2014-07-16 21:25:01] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-07-16 21:27:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah well I bombed an exam with double time
[2014-07-16 21:27:34] <diabeticgonewild> with double the amount of time as everyone else
[2014-07-16 21:27:58] <diabeticgonewild> becasue I couldn't finish because I couldn't write properly
[2014-07-16 21:28:23] <diabeticgonewild> and there were a bunch of tables/diagrams/circuit schematics
[2014-07-16 21:28:28] <diabeticgonewild> I really could not write
[2014-07-16 21:33:40] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-07-20 21:01:39] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-01 22:12:09] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-01 22:25:44] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-08-01 22:31:49] <diabeticgonewild> I hope this medicine stops my leg cramps
[2014-08-01 22:32:06] <diabeticgonewild> It's making me feel "more than uneasy" if you know what I mean
[2014-08-03 20:17:30] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-11 20:41:23] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-11 20:46:30] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-08-11 21:29:24] <diabeticgonewild> bewest
[2014-08-11 21:29:32] <diabeticgonewild> I stepped away from the computer
[2014-08-11 21:29:46] <diabeticgonewild> I was drinking like tonic water because I have muscle cramps
[2014-08-11 21:30:10] <diabeticgonewild> like my doctor thinks I have chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-11 21:30:12] <diabeticgonewild> CIDP
[2014-08-11 21:30:28] <diabeticgonewild> in addition to my other rare disease
[2014-08-11 21:31:25] <diabeticgonewild> you should enjoy it
[2014-08-11 21:31:36] <diabeticgonewild> severe gastroparesis sucks (mine is not diabetes-related)
[2014-08-11 21:35:28] <diabeticgonewild> I guess.
[2014-08-11 21:35:42] <diabeticgonewild> My blood sugar is low but I would say more.
[2014-08-11 21:37:11] <diabeticgonewild> 54
[2014-08-11 21:37:15] <diabeticgonewild> Gummy bear time
[2014-08-11 21:39:27] <diabeticgonewild> sweet!
[2014-08-11 21:41:30] <diabeticgonewild> obviously you knew I was looking for concentrated sources of sugar
[2014-08-11 21:41:34] <diabeticgonewild> ;)
[2014-08-11 21:43:03] <diabeticgonewild> cool!
[2014-08-11 21:44:21] <diabeticgonewild> sweet!
[2014-08-11 21:44:27] <diabeticgonewild> I will consider it
[2014-08-11 21:46:37] <diabeticgonewild> this is a nice "touch"...I found out recently that the antibody test for the very rare autoimmune disease that I have is now being included on a panel for autoimmune encephalopathies by the mayo clinic laboratories
[2014-08-11 21:46:49] <diabeticgonewild> and I have experienced problems like that in the past
[2014-08-11 21:46:54] <diabeticgonewild> it's a really messed up story
[2014-08-11 21:47:09] <diabeticgonewild> the test was released 6/30 of this year
[2014-08-11 21:47:58] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-08-11 21:48:03] <diabeticgonewild> before everything went to hell
[2014-08-11 21:48:18] <diabeticgonewild> like first
[2014-08-11 21:48:28] <diabeticgonewild> I suspected I had autoimmune autonomic neuropathy
[2014-08-11 21:48:53] <diabeticgonewild> which my endocrine doctor did blood work and sent to the the Mayo Clinic Laboratories
[2014-08-11 21:48:56] <diabeticgonewild> then
[2014-08-11 21:49:00] <diabeticgonewild> 3 weeks later
[2014-08-11 21:49:12] <diabeticgonewild> I got suspicious and thought I had limbic encephalitis
[2014-08-11 21:49:21] <diabeticgonewild> but it was a second wild card that I had to play
[2014-08-11 21:49:27] <diabeticgonewild> and I was insecure about it
[2014-08-11 21:49:36] <diabeticgonewild> so I was like
[2014-08-11 21:49:36] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.mayomedicallaboratories.com/test-catalog/Overview/61510
[2014-08-11 21:49:57] <diabeticgonewild> the antibody I tested positive for is in that test (became avaiable 6/30)
[2014-08-11 21:49:58] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-08-11 21:50:38] <diabeticgonewild> I wrote a draft out to try to explain WTF was going on in support of limic encephalitis, and I printed out a couple of journal articles
[2014-08-11 21:50:43] <diabeticgonewild> gave it to my twin brother
[2014-08-11 21:51:02] <diabeticgonewild> and I told him if anything bad happened to me, to turn over that information
[2014-08-11 21:51:16] <diabeticgonewild> so basically 2012 was a very bad year for me
[2014-08-11 21:51:18] <diabeticgonewild> and like
[2014-08-11 21:51:27] <diabeticgonewild> now it's like Deja Vu
[2014-08-11 21:51:32] <diabeticgonewild> to top it off
[2014-08-11 21:51:33] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-08-11 21:51:54] <diabeticgonewild> my neurologist thinks I have chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-11 21:51:55] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-08-11 21:52:26] <diabeticgonewild> I am looking at a stem cell transplant in Chicago, which I might be a candidate
[2014-08-11 21:52:45] <diabeticgonewild> I have to turn over like a year's worth of records from my neurologist with all EMGs and other tests
[2014-08-11 21:55:01] <diabeticgonewild> my medical records?
[2014-08-11 21:59:38] <diabeticgonewild> This is essentially who I am turning over records to (they also do stem cell transplants for newly diagnosed type 1s) http://www.stemcell-immunotherapy.com/
[2014-08-11 22:10:23] <diabeticgonewild> they are also doing stem cell transplants in Seattle (my hometown) and Denver, but IDK for my diseases
[2014-08-11 22:25:30] <diabeticgonewild> it's really depressing and scary
[2014-08-11 22:26:10] <diabeticgonewild> this is what I would have to go through
[2014-08-11 22:26:10] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=18-HW1A_18g
[2014-08-11 22:26:21] <diabeticgonewild> btw, same disease that I am suspected to have
[2014-08-11 22:28:56] <diabeticgonewild> it does
[2014-08-11 22:29:30] <diabeticgonewild> btw bewest, I might have autoimmune encephalitis too
[2014-08-11 22:29:44] <diabeticgonewild> *that is potentially reversible
[2014-08-11 22:30:11] <diabeticgonewild> do you live in htown worleygirl?
[2014-08-11 22:30:14] <diabeticgonewild> we have a storm here
[2014-08-11 22:31:08] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-08-11 22:31:32] <diabeticgonewild> it rained really hard here, we had like flash flood warnings
[2014-08-14 01:59:02] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-14 20:42:25] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-14 20:43:03] <diabeticgonewild> aww ROBOKITTY
[2014-08-14 20:43:43] <diabeticgonewild> meow :)
[2014-08-14 20:44:18] <diabeticgonewild> hey how are you bewest?
[2014-08-14 20:45:10] <diabeticgonewild> alright, I guess
[2014-08-14 20:45:14] <diabeticgonewild> as good as I can be
[2014-08-14 20:45:21] <diabeticgonewild> I am in a better mood
[2014-08-14 20:45:33] <diabeticgonewild> my doctor still thinks I have CIDP
[2014-08-14 20:45:43] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-08-14 20:46:02] <diabeticgonewild> looking at possibly a stem cell transplant in my future :/
[2014-08-14 20:46:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah?
[2014-08-14 20:46:53] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-14 20:47:31] <diabeticgonewild> I am technically ineligible for research as I have type 1, but I might be eligible on a compassionate basis
[2014-08-14 20:47:47] <diabeticgonewild> I have to turn over a year worth of medical records from my neurologist
[2014-08-14 20:47:50] <diabeticgonewild> basically, yeah
[2014-08-14 20:48:24] <diabeticgonewild> Patient Handbook
[2014-08-14 20:48:29] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.stemcell-immunotherapy.com/pdfs/handbook.doc
[2014-08-14 20:48:57] <diabeticgonewild> I hope I am eligible
[2014-08-14 20:49:07] <diabeticgonewild> I really do, even though it is disheartening
[2014-08-14 20:49:36] <diabeticgonewild> Transplant Roadmap
[2014-08-14 20:49:51] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.stemcell-immunotherapy.com/research_transplant.html
[2014-08-14 20:52:07] <diabeticgonewild> basically
[2014-08-14 20:52:07] <diabeticgonewild> idk
[2014-08-14 20:52:09] <diabeticgonewild> actually
[2014-08-14 20:52:42] <diabeticgonewild> Hematopoietic stem cell—A stem cell that gives rise to all red and white blood cells and platelets.
[2014-08-14 20:52:45] <diabeticgonewild> from the NIH
[2014-08-14 20:54:48] <diabeticgonewild> and platelets
[2014-08-14 20:54:51] <diabeticgonewild> correct
[2014-08-14 20:55:02] <diabeticgonewild> but they have to like suppress the bone marrow
[2014-08-14 20:57:28] <diabeticgonewild> idk, be miserable (jk)
[2014-08-14 20:57:41] <diabeticgonewild> I am trying to keep my options open
[2014-08-14 20:57:42] <diabeticgonewild> actually
[2014-08-14 20:58:07] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-08-14 21:03:11] <diabeticgonewild> school starts up in a week, which is depressing
[2014-08-14 21:03:21] <diabeticgonewild> I love school though
[2014-08-14 21:03:27] <diabeticgonewild> it's just I feel damaged
[2014-08-14 21:03:37] <diabeticgonewild> and insecure about my medical problems
[2014-08-14 21:06:16] <diabeticgonewild> Oh, and I am getting a t:slim and a dexcom
[2014-08-14 21:08:52] <diabeticgonewild> what pump worleygirl?
[2014-08-14 21:09:15] <diabeticgonewild> oh that's cool
[2014-08-14 21:09:22] <diabeticgonewild> I am switching from them though
[2014-08-14 21:12:15] <diabeticgonewild> there is no possible way for me to get the 530G and I would be downgrading if I stayed with them
[2014-08-24 19:20:11] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-24 19:20:39] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-24 19:20:50] <diabeticgonewild> probably going to do an all-nighter tonight, to work on my incomplete
[2014-08-24 19:21:06] <diabeticgonewild> and I have IVIg (Intravenous Immunoglobulin) treatment tomorrow
[2014-08-24 19:21:24] <diabeticgonewild> and I got accepted for a hematopoietic stem cell transplant evaluation in Seattle
[2014-08-24 19:21:27] <diabeticgonewild> how are you guys?
[2014-08-24 19:22:18] <diabeticgonewild> :(
[2014-08-24 19:22:47] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks. We are having chicken for dinner.
[2014-08-24 19:22:52] <diabeticgonewild> Chinese food is good!
[2014-08-24 19:23:10] <diabeticgonewild> dude, I went to the dentist, and I need a root canal on a tooth that was already "fixed"
[2014-08-24 19:23:15] <diabeticgonewild> doing it like Wednesday
[2014-08-24 19:23:37] <diabeticgonewild> I don't feel your pain, but I kind of do
[2014-08-24 19:24:31] <diabeticgonewild> damn!
[2014-08-24 19:24:48] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks, can you get another referral?
[2014-08-24 19:24:58] <diabeticgonewild> don't joke about that
[2014-08-24 19:25:03] <diabeticgonewild> please
[2014-08-24 19:25:07] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-08-24 19:25:08] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-08-24 19:25:11] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-24 19:25:20] <diabeticgonewild> I just get worked up. I have reasons to worry.
[2014-08-24 19:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> They are concerned about the type 1 diabetes being an issue for the stem cell transplant
[2014-08-24 19:25:37] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.seattlecca.org/clinical-trials/transplant-2260.cfm
[2014-08-24 19:26:00] <diabeticgonewild> I have like autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, in addition to chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-24 19:26:53] <diabeticgonewild> this is the vidoe of one who got it done in Chicago for a disease I have http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=18-HW1A_18g
[2014-08-24 19:27:57] <diabeticgonewild> it's either Chicago or Seattle
[2014-08-24 19:29:38] <diabeticgonewild> sounds good
[2014-08-24 19:33:40] <diabeticgonewild> congrats!
[2014-08-24 19:36:15] <diabeticgonewild> nice!
[2014-08-24 19:37:58] <diabeticgonewild> I will be on later...dinner time
[2014-08-24 19:50:47] <diabeticgonewild> back
[2014-08-24 19:51:30] <diabeticgonewild> MAc
[2014-08-24 19:51:31] <diabeticgonewild> Mac
[2014-08-24 19:51:39] <diabeticgonewild> I use both though
[2014-08-24 19:51:50] <diabeticgonewild> why?
[2014-08-24 19:52:52] <diabeticgonewild> cool
[2014-08-24 19:58:15] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I don't eat much
[2014-08-24 19:58:27] <diabeticgonewild> just like some chicken and some watermelon
[2014-08-24 19:58:46] <diabeticgonewild> I have IVIg (intravenous immunoglobulin) tomorrow
[2014-08-24 19:58:47] <diabeticgonewild> all day
[2014-08-24 20:01:09] <diabeticgonewild> for my two rare autoimmune diseases
[2014-08-24 20:01:12] <diabeticgonewild> not excited
[2014-08-24 20:01:23] <diabeticgonewild> but I really do need it
[2014-08-24 20:03:15] <diabeticgonewild> I hope so
[2014-08-24 20:03:27] <diabeticgonewild> I really need a transplant
[2014-08-24 20:03:50] <diabeticgonewild> I have neuropathic pain and muscle weakness, in addition to severe autonomic dysfunction as the result of autoimmune disease
[2014-08-24 20:03:56] <diabeticgonewild> not metabolic causes
[2014-08-24 20:04:10] <diabeticgonewild> and so my quality of life is diminishing
[2014-08-24 20:04:46] <diabeticgonewild> CIDP causes progressive muscle weakness
[2014-08-24 20:05:16] <diabeticgonewild> but this is what I am in for (scroll to the bottom of the page to view the patient handbook) http://www.stemcell-immunotherapy.com/research_transplant.html
[2014-08-24 20:05:24] <diabeticgonewild> but in Seattle, of course
[2014-08-24 20:06:36] <diabeticgonewild> like each one of the IVIg treatments, which I receive every month, costs $65,000
[2014-08-24 20:06:36] <diabeticgonewild> no joke
[2014-08-24 20:06:58] <diabeticgonewild> outpatient IVIg tomorrow = $65,000
[2014-08-24 20:07:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-24 20:07:37] <diabeticgonewild> because I have rare autoimmune diseases
[2014-08-24 20:07:47] <diabeticgonewild> it's approved as an orphan drug for CIDP though
[2014-08-24 20:08:00] <diabeticgonewild> the Gammumex brand of human immunoglobulin
[2014-08-24 20:08:03] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-24 20:08:08] <diabeticgonewild> I can't complain
[2014-08-24 20:08:21] <diabeticgonewild> I get 60 grams of it, or 600 mL
[2014-08-24 20:08:39] <diabeticgonewild> and it costs at least $1,000 per gram
[2014-08-24 20:09:45] <diabeticgonewild> It's called Gamunex, sorry
[2014-08-25 22:29:16] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-25 22:31:41] <diabeticgonewild> I'm getting a new pump!
[2014-08-25 22:31:45] <diabeticgonewild> and cgm!
[2014-08-25 22:32:02] <diabeticgonewild> how are you bewest ?
[2014-08-25 22:32:45] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-08-25 22:32:50] <diabeticgonewild> you got a Dexcom?
[2014-08-25 22:33:05] <diabeticgonewild> I am getting a Dexcom and a Tandem T:Slim
[2014-08-25 22:33:21] <diabeticgonewild> because Medicare doesn't cover the Medtronic 530G
[2014-08-25 22:33:33] <diabeticgonewild> The navigator is the best
[2014-08-25 22:33:44] <diabeticgonewild> because I get mysterious ??? with the Dexcom
[2014-08-25 22:33:47] <diabeticgonewild> hopefully not this time
[2014-08-25 22:33:52] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have a choice though
[2014-08-25 22:34:13] <diabeticgonewild> because I don't wake up to the Medtronic alarms
[2014-08-25 22:34:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-25 22:34:43] <diabeticgonewild> well I need it
[2014-08-25 22:34:53] <diabeticgonewild> I have 2 other diseases that cause neuropathy
[2014-08-25 22:34:55] <diabeticgonewild> I need it
[2014-08-25 22:35:04] <diabeticgonewild> the nightscout alarms through your phone, right?
[2014-08-25 22:35:38] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-08-25 22:36:14] <diabeticgonewild> haha
[2014-08-25 22:36:51] <diabeticgonewild> he'll get over it
[2014-08-25 22:37:36] <diabeticgonewild> very useful
[2014-08-25 22:37:52] <diabeticgonewild> basically you are doing correction boluses through basal
[2014-08-25 22:38:21] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, you do basal through bolus too
[2014-08-25 22:38:23] <diabeticgonewild> on the AP
[2014-08-25 22:38:41] <diabeticgonewild> exactly
[2014-08-25 22:38:53] <diabeticgonewild> you understand that concept
[2014-08-25 22:38:59] <diabeticgonewild> to experiment?
[2014-08-25 22:39:08] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-25 22:39:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, LOL
[2014-08-25 22:39:25] <diabeticgonewild> I would kill you if you did that to me! ;)
[2014-08-25 22:40:02] <diabeticgonewild> wow!
[2014-08-25 22:40:16] <diabeticgonewild> sounds like you have been on a big adventure
[2014-08-25 22:42:12] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-25 22:42:14] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-25 22:42:50] <diabeticgonewild> I bet, but my problem is that I don't wake up to alarms, and I need them
[2014-08-25 22:43:00] <diabeticgonewild> so the Dexcom Share will probably be useful for me
[2014-08-25 22:43:06] <diabeticgonewild> the MySentry is a no-go
[2014-08-25 22:43:28] <diabeticgonewild> can it alarm from a phone?
[2014-08-25 22:43:30] <diabeticgonewild> technically?
[2014-08-25 22:43:38] <diabeticgonewild> I have a netbook I can use
[2014-08-25 22:43:53] <diabeticgonewild> no biggie
[2014-08-25 22:43:56] <diabeticgonewild> on android right?
[2014-08-25 22:44:02] <diabeticgonewild> or can you use iPhone, too
[2014-08-25 22:44:34] <diabeticgonewild> I think the phone can be left on
[2014-08-25 22:44:41] <diabeticgonewild> obviously the uploading part would nto work
[2014-08-25 22:44:44] <diabeticgonewild> with iphone
[2014-08-25 22:45:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I have a good case for it
[2014-08-25 22:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> I heard it alarm
[2014-08-25 22:47:39] <diabeticgonewild> that works well
[2014-08-25 22:48:55] <diabeticgonewild> well, my endo appointment is on Thursday
[2014-08-25 22:49:06] <diabeticgonewild> so I will be getting the Dexcom paperwork done then
[2014-08-25 22:49:13] <diabeticgonewild> and I have a backup receiver already
[2014-08-25 22:50:14] <diabeticgonewild> so you want to hear my potentially good news?
[2014-08-25 22:50:25] <diabeticgonewild> (at least for me?)
[2014-08-25 22:51:21] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-08-25 22:51:49] <diabeticgonewild> I am going up to Seattle in about a month for evaluation for a stem cell transplant
[2014-08-25 22:52:28] <diabeticgonewild> for this study http://www.seattlecca.org/clinical-trials/transplant-2260.cfm
[2014-08-25 22:54:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I have to see some doctor in Seattle
[2014-08-25 22:54:09] <diabeticgonewild> Oct. 8th
[2014-08-25 22:54:16] <diabeticgonewild> the appointment lasts like 2-3 hours
[2014-08-25 22:54:21] <diabeticgonewild> nope, LOL
[2014-08-25 22:54:41] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.seattlecca.org/doctor/george-e-georges.cfm
[2014-08-25 22:54:57] <diabeticgonewild> so we shall see
[2014-08-25 22:55:30] <diabeticgonewild> they know I have type 1 also
[2014-08-25 22:55:39] <diabeticgonewild> they have not said no to me so that's good news
[2014-08-25 22:55:59] <diabeticgonewild> my neurologist in Houston talked to Seattle and she referred me and vouched for me
[2014-08-25 22:56:11] <diabeticgonewild> they are concerned about the diabetes though
[2014-08-25 22:56:32] <diabeticgonewild> my neuro turned over all of my medical records to Seattle
[2014-08-25 22:56:54] <diabeticgonewild> this would be what I am in for
[2014-08-25 22:56:54] <diabeticgonewild> http://clinicaltrials.gov/show/NCT00716066
[2014-08-25 22:57:38] <diabeticgonewild> Exclusion Criteria: Patients whose life expectancy is limited by illness other than their neurological condition
[2014-08-25 22:58:01] <diabeticgonewild> :( but technically I don't have any D complications
[2014-08-25 22:58:14] <diabeticgonewild> but they're giving me a chance
[2014-08-25 22:58:22] <diabeticgonewild> they think I am a good candidate, so far
[2014-08-25 22:59:59] <diabeticgonewild> or they wouldn't tell me to come to Seattle
[2014-08-25 23:00:11] <diabeticgonewild> and so I have heard online from other people
[2014-08-25 23:01:35] <diabeticgonewild> so it's promising
[2014-08-25 23:01:41] <diabeticgonewild> I am getting sleepy
[2014-08-25 23:03:18] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-08-25 23:03:27] <diabeticgonewild> but it's the doctors who decide it, not me
[2014-08-25 23:04:50] <diabeticgonewild> I have reasons to be scared though, it's my future
[2014-08-25 23:09:41] <diabeticgonewild> I'm going to bed
[2014-08-25 23:09:45] <diabeticgonewild> I'll ttyl
[2014-08-25 23:09:53] <diabeticgonewild> good night
[2014-08-26 10:01:08] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-26 20:48:38] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-26 20:49:09] <diabeticgonewild> how are you highasdick
[2014-08-26 20:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-08-26 20:49:36] <diabeticgonewild> I'm really hanging in there
[2014-08-26 20:49:45] <diabeticgonewild> I have a linear algebra incomplete
[2014-08-26 20:49:48] <diabeticgonewild> to finish
[2014-08-26 20:49:51] <diabeticgonewild> and I have no energy
[2014-08-26 20:49:52] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-08-26 20:50:02] <diabeticgonewild> I just got diagnosed with another rare autoimmune disease
[2014-08-26 20:50:07] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-08-26 20:50:09] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-08-26 20:50:21] <diabeticgonewild> chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-26 20:50:42] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.socialstyrelsen.se/rarediseases/cidp
[2014-08-26 20:50:45] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-08-26 20:50:50] <diabeticgonewild> peripheral nerves
[2014-08-26 20:52:25] <diabeticgonewild> like falling over
[2014-08-26 20:52:27] <diabeticgonewild> muscle weakness
[2014-08-26 20:52:32] <diabeticgonewild> neuropathic pain
[2014-08-26 20:52:34] <diabeticgonewild> cramping
[2014-08-26 20:52:38] <diabeticgonewild> and it's progressive
[2014-08-26 20:53:01] <diabeticgonewild> but I might be getting a stem cell transplant to put it into remission
[2014-08-26 20:53:20] <diabeticgonewild> like I go to Seattle for an appointment on Oct. 8th for an evaluation
[2014-08-26 20:54:28] <diabeticgonewild> thank you so much!
[2014-08-26 20:55:51] <diabeticgonewild> it's cool
[2014-08-26 20:55:54] <diabeticgonewild> you are supportive
[2014-08-26 20:55:54] <diabeticgonewild> and
[2014-08-26 20:55:59] <diabeticgonewild> you don't know me in real-life
[2014-08-26 20:56:05] <diabeticgonewild> so don't feel bad about it
[2014-08-26 20:56:23] <diabeticgonewild> there's no reason to feel bad about it
[2014-08-26 20:56:46] <diabeticgonewild> LOL you are awesome highasdick !
[2014-08-26 20:56:55] <diabeticgonewild> are you on the west or east coast?
[2014-08-26 20:56:58] <diabeticgonewild> I live in Texas
[2014-08-26 20:57:03] <diabeticgonewild> but originally from Seattle
[2014-08-26 20:57:31] <diabeticgonewild> that's a nice place to live
[2014-08-26 20:57:38] <diabeticgonewild> I was in Pensacola 5 weeks ago!
[2014-08-26 20:57:42] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool!
[2014-08-26 20:58:24] <diabeticgonewild> oh, not so exciting :(
[2014-08-26 20:58:45] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-26 20:58:50] <diabeticgonewild> a bunch of amusement parks too
[2014-08-26 20:58:53] <diabeticgonewild> and it's warm
[2014-08-26 20:59:02] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-08-26 20:59:31] <diabeticgonewild> that's true
[2014-08-26 21:00:07] <diabeticgonewild> LOL that's cool
[2014-08-26 21:00:13] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-26 21:00:22] <diabeticgonewild> I don't drink though, because of my medical problems
[2014-08-26 21:01:09] <diabeticgonewild> it's not a bad thing
[2014-08-26 21:01:15] <diabeticgonewild> I'm 25
[2014-08-26 21:01:48] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have type 1, autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-26 21:02:06] <diabeticgonewild> the last two, yes
[2014-08-26 21:02:09] <diabeticgonewild> one is very rare
[2014-08-26 21:02:13] <diabeticgonewild> type 1 for 20 years
[2014-08-26 21:02:38] <diabeticgonewild> nope
[2014-08-26 21:02:57] <diabeticgonewild> none, just have rare autoimmune diseases that look like "diabetes complications"
[2014-08-26 21:03:14] <diabeticgonewild> the CIDP does not look that much like a diabetes complication though
[2014-08-26 21:03:16] <diabeticgonewild> when is it?
[2014-08-26 21:03:18] <diabeticgonewild> and where?
[2014-08-26 21:03:33] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that would be awesome
[2014-08-26 21:04:02] <diabeticgonewild> I can only travel so far
[2014-08-26 21:04:05] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-08-26 21:04:18] <diabeticgonewild> I can only drive when I am "feeling well"
[2014-08-26 21:04:19] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-08-26 21:04:22] <diabeticgonewild> !
[2014-08-26 21:05:36] <diabeticgonewild> like 12 hours
[2014-08-26 21:05:37] <diabeticgonewild> I think
[2014-08-26 21:05:41] <diabeticgonewild> I live in Houston
[2014-08-26 21:08:34] <diabeticgonewild> that would be awesome
[2014-08-26 21:08:35] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-08-26 21:08:39] <diabeticgonewild> sorry I was distracted
[2014-08-26 21:10:22] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-08-26 21:10:23] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-26 21:11:46] <diabeticgonewild> oh that sucks
[2014-08-26 21:11:53] <diabeticgonewild> LOL that's awesome!
[2014-08-26 21:11:59] <diabeticgonewild> are you in school highasdick?
[2014-08-26 21:12:28] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-26 21:12:42] <diabeticgonewild> I'm taking two classes this semester, but it's technically "one at a time" for me
[2014-08-26 21:13:10] <diabeticgonewild> Arizona State University - Online, electrical engineering (ABET-accredited), senior
[2014-08-26 21:13:22] <diabeticgonewild> but it's goint to be awhile before I graduate
[2014-08-26 21:13:42] <diabeticgonewild> my other school that I went to before that probably discriminated against me, badly
[2014-08-26 21:13:51] <diabeticgonewild> there was no sensitivity towards my issues
[2014-08-26 21:13:55] <diabeticgonewild> BSE in EE
[2014-08-26 21:14:36] <diabeticgonewild> it's cool
[2014-08-26 21:15:12] <diabeticgonewild> because it looks irresponsible
[2014-08-26 21:15:42] <diabeticgonewild> you should lay off the booze
[2014-08-26 21:15:46] <diabeticgonewild> I can't tell you what to do
[2014-08-26 21:15:51] <diabeticgonewild> but it's def not good for you
[2014-08-26 21:16:13] <diabeticgonewild> just remember that
[2014-08-26 21:16:14] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-08-26 21:17:14] <diabeticgonewild> that only makes your problems worse, by drinking
[2014-08-26 21:20:07] <diabeticgonewild> thanks
[2014-08-26 21:20:19] <diabeticgonewild> I try to keep it together but it's hard
[2014-08-26 21:20:38] <diabeticgonewild> I have struggled with those issues (not drinking, specifically--pill popping)
[2014-08-26 21:20:58] <diabeticgonewild> but I take my medicine as prescribed and it's not a big deal anymore
[2014-08-26 21:21:08] <diabeticgonewild> like vyvanse
[2014-08-26 21:21:11] <diabeticgonewild> I have ADHD
[2014-08-26 21:22:30] <diabeticgonewild> I would pop them to get through school work because I was extremely behind
[2014-08-26 21:22:33] <diabeticgonewild> due to my medical problems
[2014-08-26 21:22:36] <diabeticgonewild> it's an excuse
[2014-08-26 21:22:39] <diabeticgonewild> a lame excuse
[2014-08-26 21:22:45] <diabeticgonewild> and it only makes my problems worse
[2014-08-26 21:22:47] <diabeticgonewild> by doing that
[2014-08-26 21:23:04] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I bet
[2014-08-26 21:23:13] <diabeticgonewild> what for?
[2014-08-26 21:23:19] <diabeticgonewild> you will lose your freedom?
[2014-08-26 21:23:26] <diabeticgonewild> you will lose your freedom
[2014-08-26 21:23:36] <diabeticgonewild> get arrested
[2014-08-26 21:23:41] <diabeticgonewild> lose your quality of life
[2014-08-26 21:23:47] <diabeticgonewild> over drugs and substance abuse
[2014-08-26 21:24:35] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not perfect, but I will tell you what, once I realized I could lose my freedom, I knew I had a problem.
[2014-08-26 21:24:58] <diabeticgonewild> and it's not worth it, no matter how depressed you are
[2014-08-26 21:25:03] <diabeticgonewild> it only makes the problems worse
[2014-08-26 21:25:14] <diabeticgonewild> I have severe depression, and it's not an excuse
[2014-08-26 21:25:44] <diabeticgonewild> like it isn't even funny how depressed I get
[2014-08-26 21:25:48] <diabeticgonewild> like really suicidal
[2014-08-26 21:26:05] <diabeticgonewild> and that was before I was popping pills too
[2014-08-26 21:26:19] <diabeticgonewild> I just know that doing stuff you aren't supposed to be doing makes the problems worse
[2014-08-26 21:26:27] <diabeticgonewild> and you need to cut it out highasdick
[2014-08-26 21:26:36] <diabeticgonewild> but only you can find your way
[2014-08-26 21:26:41] <diabeticgonewild> you have to want the help
[2014-08-26 21:28:19] <diabeticgonewild> not if you are drinking and messing around
[2014-08-26 21:28:47] <diabeticgonewild> ok, well you still have to take responsibility
[2014-08-26 21:32:25] <diabeticgonewild> it's a hard drug
[2014-08-26 21:44:44] <diabeticgonewild> what kind of lab results are we talking about?
[2014-08-26 21:45:04] <diabeticgonewild> or is it any of my business?
[2014-08-26 21:47:17] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-08-26 21:47:31] <diabeticgonewild> well, I live with my parents so they end up seeing that stuff all the time
[2014-08-26 21:47:39] <diabeticgonewild> and I have rare autoimmune diseases too
[2014-08-26 21:47:52] <diabeticgonewild> so I go in for all of these freakish treatments and they end up finding out
[2014-08-26 21:48:31] <diabeticgonewild> Oh, well welcome to the club.
[2014-08-26 21:50:00] <diabeticgonewild> Well, I have been at war with my parents before, at age 18
[2014-08-26 21:50:26] <diabeticgonewild> basically, I had Guillain-Barre Syndrome, that was misdiagnosed as "conversion disorder" (psychosomatic paralysis)
[2014-08-26 21:51:16] <diabeticgonewild> and I argued with my parents for 6 months straight, got kicked out of the house, had to take medical withdrawal from school, almost lost a generous scholarship, and almost lost healh insurance
[2014-08-26 21:51:27] <diabeticgonewild> we argued over every moment of contact for 6 months straight
[2014-08-26 21:51:50] <diabeticgonewild> before I was diagnosed with severe gastroparesis (autonomic nervous system problems--not related to diabetes)
[2014-08-26 21:52:18] <diabeticgonewild> it likely doesn't make you feel better, but things will get better
[2014-08-26 21:53:31] <diabeticgonewild> In the past couple of years, I have been diagnosed with autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy. I was recently diagnosed with chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy.
[2014-08-26 21:53:44] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, KITTYWhaleFriend, don't let things get you down
[2014-08-26 21:53:50] <diabeticgonewild> your parents do care about you
[2014-08-26 21:53:56] <diabeticgonewild> just not in the way you want them to
[2014-08-26 21:54:17] <diabeticgonewild> probably H_Mc
[2014-08-26 21:55:04] <diabeticgonewild> but just remember, things get better
[2014-08-26 22:00:02] <diabeticgonewild> for awhile
[2014-08-26 22:00:22] <diabeticgonewild> it's like the song "hotel california"..."you can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave"
[2014-08-26 22:00:44] <diabeticgonewild> as in you can come and go as far away as you like, but you can never really completely cut off ties with them
[2014-08-26 22:05:01] <diabeticgonewild> welcome to the club
[2014-08-26 22:05:04] <diabeticgonewild> it gets better
[2014-08-26 22:05:09] <diabeticgonewild> don't worry
[2014-08-26 22:05:13] <diabeticgonewild> how old are you?
[2014-08-26 22:05:39] <diabeticgonewild> wow, well idk what to say about that
[2014-08-26 22:05:44] <diabeticgonewild> but I wouldn't worry too much
[2014-08-26 22:11:11] <diabeticgonewild> 25
[2014-08-26 22:11:24] <diabeticgonewild> sorry I was distracted
[2014-08-26 22:13:26] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah, even my mom is pretty supportive of a hematopoietic stem cell transplant for my autoimmune diseases
[2014-08-26 22:17:39] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.seattlecca.org/clinical-trials/transplant-2260.cfm
[2014-08-26 22:29:42] <diabeticgonewild> http://mashable.com/2014/08/20/als-ice-bucket-challenge-haters/#:eyJzIjoiZiIsImkiOiJfemptYzRhMzFlZGZ0cmUzeiJ9
[2014-08-26 22:30:01] <diabeticgonewild> I have one for diabetes...glucose gel challenge
[2014-08-26 22:30:15] <diabeticgonewild> eat as much Insta-Glucose as fast as possible
[2014-08-26 22:31:50] <diabeticgonewild> glucose gel challenge is a good one
[2014-08-26 22:32:08] <diabeticgonewild> I'm getting a t:slim
[2014-08-26 22:32:37] <diabeticgonewild> it's a good way to raise awareness
[2014-08-26 22:32:41] <diabeticgonewild> about low blood sugar
[2014-08-26 22:32:44] <diabeticgonewild> emergencies
[2014-08-26 22:32:46] <diabeticgonewild> for type 1
[2014-08-26 22:35:15] <diabeticgonewild> LOL 24 grams of glucose?!
[2014-08-26 22:35:22] <diabeticgonewild> I'd do it when I'm low
[2014-08-26 22:35:25] <diabeticgonewild> I go low everyday
[2014-08-26 22:36:05] <diabeticgonewild> glucose gel challenge
[2014-08-26 22:36:09] <diabeticgonewild> as diabetes fundraiser
[2014-08-26 22:36:40] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-26 22:36:44] <diabeticgonewild> but it doesn't go viral
[2014-08-26 22:38:46] <diabeticgonewild> congrats!
[2014-08-26 22:39:15] <diabeticgonewild> that's hardcore naomi__
[2014-08-26 22:40:40] <diabeticgonewild> do you have orthostatic problems
[2014-08-26 22:40:44] <diabeticgonewild> like orthostatic hypotension
[2014-08-26 22:40:55] <diabeticgonewild> or postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome POTS?
[2014-08-26 22:40:58] <diabeticgonewild> that can cause that
[2014-08-26 22:41:05] <diabeticgonewild> getting dehydrated can do that
[2014-08-26 22:42:26] <diabeticgonewild> no problem
[2014-08-26 22:42:27] <diabeticgonewild> you're welcome
[2014-08-26 22:43:17] <diabeticgonewild> look into POTS it can cause nausea and vomiting
[2014-08-26 22:43:34] <diabeticgonewild> also dysautonomia (autonomic nervous system problems)
[2014-08-26 22:44:35] <diabeticgonewild> could be diuretic problems too
[2014-08-26 22:44:42] <diabeticgonewild> but you need to get to the doctor
[2014-08-26 22:44:52] <diabeticgonewild> and get it figured out
[2014-08-26 22:45:57] <diabeticgonewild> that will do it
[2014-08-26 22:47:27] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-08-26 22:50:05] <diabeticgonewild> good luck with the blood test!
[2014-08-26 22:51:35] <diabeticgonewild> well, I like programming, I am an electrical engineering student at Arizona State University - Online (currently a senior), and I have type 1 diabetes (for 20 years), autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-26 22:51:39] <diabeticgonewild> and I'm 25
[2014-08-26 22:51:42] <diabeticgonewild> and I have a twin brother
[2014-08-26 22:52:51] <diabeticgonewild> one's rare and one is very rare
[2014-08-26 22:53:08] <diabeticgonewild> and I am a potential candidate for a hematopoietic stem cell transplant
[2014-08-26 22:53:17] <diabeticgonewild> welll http://www.seattlecca.org/clinical-trials/transplant-2260.cfm
[2014-08-26 22:53:25] <diabeticgonewild> well they are both neuropathies
[2014-08-26 22:53:51] <diabeticgonewild> which diabetes can cause, but mine were not caused by my diabetes (I just happen to have two rare autoimmune diseases)
[2014-08-26 22:54:06] <diabeticgonewild> they cause my autonomic nervous system to not work properly
[2014-08-26 22:54:32] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I live with chronic nausea and vomiting (due to gastroparesis)
[2014-08-26 22:55:28] <diabeticgonewild> I live with progressive muscle weakness and neuropathic pain (shocking feelings) and cramping
[2014-08-26 22:56:08] <diabeticgonewild> and I get plasmapheresis (plasma exchange) and chemotherapy (as immunosuppression)
[2014-08-26 22:56:27] <diabeticgonewild> but currently I am receiving intravenous immunoglobulin (once a mont) and oral immunosuppression
[2014-08-26 22:56:32] <diabeticgonewild> it's hard but I get through it
[2014-08-26 22:56:36] <diabeticgonewild> one day at a time
[2014-08-26 22:57:30] <diabeticgonewild> like do you get shocking pain?
[2014-08-26 22:57:39] <diabeticgonewild> like stinging?
[2014-08-26 22:58:07] <diabeticgonewild> like bee stings or something
[2014-08-26 22:58:09] <diabeticgonewild> like several of them
[2014-08-26 22:58:36] <diabeticgonewild> or a fireant bite you?
[2014-08-26 22:58:39] <diabeticgonewild> bug sting?
[2014-08-26 22:59:26] <diabeticgonewild> I think my blood sugar is low, brb
[2014-08-26 23:01:03] <diabeticgonewild> 64
[2014-08-26 23:01:31] <diabeticgonewild> by the way, this lancing device is awesome!
[2014-08-26 23:01:31] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.mygenteel.com/
[2014-08-26 23:01:34] <diabeticgonewild> but expensive
[2014-08-26 23:01:42] <diabeticgonewild> worth every penny as it has a 5 year warranty
[2014-08-26 23:03:58] <diabeticgonewild> hey greenconverse
[2014-08-26 23:04:01] <diabeticgonewild> how are you doing
[2014-08-26 23:04:02] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-08-26 23:04:33] <diabeticgonewild> wow!
[2014-08-26 23:10:35] <diabeticgonewild> I'm becoming my parents' ABC kid in terms of diagnoses
[2014-08-27 00:17:34] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-27 00:17:53] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-08-27 00:19:44] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-08-27 00:20:04] <diabeticgonewild> I'm scared about having to do PT for my autoimmune neuropathy, that causes progressive muscle weakness
[2014-08-27 00:20:16] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-08-27 01:04:30] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-27 01:05:23] <diabeticgonewild> goodnight
[2014-08-27 17:11:13] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-27 17:18:05] <diabeticgonewild> what?
[2014-08-27 17:18:20] <diabeticgonewild> OMG how cute!
[2014-08-27 17:18:34] <diabeticgonewild> I think so!
[2014-08-27 17:18:52] <diabeticgonewild> that cat looks pretty
[2014-08-27 17:19:07] <diabeticgonewild> when I was in Italy on vacay when I was like 15
[2014-08-27 17:19:09] <diabeticgonewild> this cat
[2014-08-27 17:19:17] <diabeticgonewild> that was like a feral cat
[2014-08-27 17:19:37] <diabeticgonewild> like jumps from the dumpster
[2014-08-27 17:19:40] <diabeticgonewild> and pounces on my foot
[2014-08-27 17:19:50] <diabeticgonewild> but I was wearing tennis shoes so I was ok
[2014-08-27 17:20:48] <diabeticgonewild> I have my endo tomorrow
[2014-08-27 17:20:52] <diabeticgonewild> my A1c was bad though
[2014-08-27 17:20:57] <diabeticgonewild> cause I had my blood drawn
[2014-08-27 17:21:15] <diabeticgonewild> but that was because I was stressed about the new rare autoimmune disease I have
[2014-08-27 17:21:26] <diabeticgonewild> I just haven't been handling it well
[2014-08-27 17:24:04] <diabeticgonewild> 7.7
[2014-08-27 17:24:14] <diabeticgonewild> the one before was a 6.9
[2014-08-27 17:24:34] <diabeticgonewild> 7.7?
[2014-08-27 17:24:35] <diabeticgonewild> not really
[2014-08-27 17:24:52] <diabeticgonewild> true, it's like 171
[2014-08-27 17:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> my neurologist is never happy about my A1cs
[2014-08-27 17:25:24] <diabeticgonewild> even if it was 6.9
[2014-08-27 17:25:38] <diabeticgonewild> she got excited when she thought it was a 6.2
[2014-08-27 17:25:54] <diabeticgonewild> I've been above 8 many times
[2014-08-27 17:26:00] <diabeticgonewild> but that's because I have been stressed to oblivion
[2014-08-27 17:26:09] <diabeticgonewild> between school, work, and life
[2014-08-27 17:26:15] <diabeticgonewild> oh and just being sick all of the time
[2014-08-27 17:26:43] <diabeticgonewild> but yeah I blew it all of being depressed BryanTheLion
[2014-08-27 17:26:53] <diabeticgonewild> *over being depressed
[2014-08-27 17:27:15] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-08-27 17:29:25] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-08-27 17:29:35] <diabeticgonewild> 14.9 at diagnosis
[2014-08-27 17:29:42] <diabeticgonewild> but like it blows
[2014-08-27 17:29:51] <diabeticgonewild> all over CIDP
[2014-08-27 17:29:54] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much
[2014-08-27 17:30:00] <diabeticgonewild> true bewest1
[2014-08-27 17:31:14] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's what it feels like when you are running when your BG is like 600
[2014-08-27 17:31:27] <diabeticgonewild> like your legs are bricks
[2014-08-27 17:32:59] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks lexiconic
[2014-08-27 17:33:20] <diabeticgonewild> mine went up over being upset from being diagnosed with another rare autoimmune neuropathy
[2014-08-27 17:33:31] <diabeticgonewild> another rare disease, basically
[2014-08-27 17:34:24] <diabeticgonewild> oh man, I need to study linear algebra
[2014-08-27 17:34:34] <diabeticgonewild> I have an incomplete I have been procrastinating on
[2014-08-27 17:34:54] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to need tutoring online on InstaEDU, also
[2014-08-27 17:38:13] <diabeticgonewild> bewest1 , if I get into the study and I am approved by insurance for a stem cell transplant, this is what I am in for
[2014-08-27 17:38:43] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/rachelcarter/journal/index/6/0/desc
[2014-08-27 17:38:57] <diabeticgonewild> like that's someone who did it in Seattle
[2014-08-27 17:39:06] <diabeticgonewild> I don't know if I want to do it
[2014-08-27 17:39:19] <diabeticgonewild> because it's so risky, but idk if I have a choice
[2014-08-27 17:39:30] <diabeticgonewild> also it will affect fertility :(
[2014-08-27 17:39:39] <diabeticgonewild> So I might have to like bank eggs, TMI
[2014-08-27 17:40:37] <diabeticgonewild> 7.x?
[2014-08-27 17:41:03] <diabeticgonewild> I have autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy and chroninic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-27 17:41:46] <diabeticgonewild> bewest1 yeah I won't find another doctor who has encountered the rare disease
[2014-08-27 17:42:00] <diabeticgonewild> the really rare disease I have
[2014-08-27 17:42:58] <diabeticgonewild> like the ganglionopathy causes severe gastroparesis (chronic nausea and vomiting), chronic diarrhea, urge incontinence, orthostatic hypotension (low blood pressure when standing up), and tachycardia
[2014-08-27 17:43:00] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-08-27 17:43:13] <diabeticgonewild> TMI, I know
[2014-08-27 17:43:27] <diabeticgonewild> it's cool, it's just the way it is
[2014-08-27 17:43:58] <diabeticgonewild> the CIDP causes progressive muslce weakness, neuropathic type pain, and muscle cramps, in addition it can affect my autonomic nervous system
[2014-08-27 17:44:19] <diabeticgonewild> oh and numbness
[2014-08-27 17:44:22] <diabeticgonewild> I forgot about that
[2014-08-27 17:44:39] <diabeticgonewild> basically it can put somebody in a wheelchair eventually
[2014-08-27 17:44:52] <diabeticgonewild> and causes falls (I have already fell from it)
[2014-08-27 17:44:57] <diabeticgonewild> and may require walking aids
[2014-08-27 17:44:58] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-08-27 17:45:08] <diabeticgonewild> the ganglionopathy is potentially reversible though
[2014-08-27 17:45:19] <diabeticgonewild> that's an ion channel disease
[2014-08-27 17:46:13] <diabeticgonewild> they thought the ganglionopathy was diabetes related, and it was called "diabetic autonomic neuropathy" for 4 years before I was like I don't think it's diabetes-related because I had some of these problems at diagnosis
[2014-08-27 17:46:21] <diabeticgonewild> and I thought it was autoimmune
[2014-08-27 17:46:27] <diabeticgonewild> because I was googling in the ER
[2014-08-27 17:46:36] <diabeticgonewild> and came across the name of this disease
[2014-08-27 17:47:03] <diabeticgonewild> and I was subsequently tested for the antibody implicated in the ganglionopathy, and therefore I have the diseases
[2014-08-27 17:47:06] <diabeticgonewild> *disease
[2014-08-27 17:47:21] <diabeticgonewild> EMG?
[2014-08-27 17:47:21] <diabeticgonewild> yes
[2014-08-27 17:47:24] <diabeticgonewild> but not recently
[2014-08-27 17:47:34] <diabeticgonewild> not to confirm CIDP
[2014-08-27 17:47:58] <diabeticgonewild> EMG uses evoked potentials (voltages) so I am sure that is what you are talking about
[2014-08-27 17:48:27] <diabeticgonewild> like my last EMG was 2.5 years ago and it was normal
[2014-08-27 17:50:29] <diabeticgonewild> it doesn't bother me
[2014-08-27 17:50:30] <diabeticgonewild> at all
[2014-08-27 17:50:34] <diabeticgonewild> do you have neuropathy?
[2014-08-27 17:51:20] <diabeticgonewild> ouch!
[2014-08-27 17:51:24] <diabeticgonewild> :(
[2014-08-27 17:51:32] <diabeticgonewild> you need to keep seeing doctors
[2014-08-27 17:51:51] <diabeticgonewild> until it gets solved
[2014-08-27 17:54:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-27 17:54:58] <diabeticgonewild> how did it go?
[2014-08-27 17:56:59] <diabeticgonewild> that's cook
[2014-08-27 17:57:02] <diabeticgonewild> cool
[2014-08-27 18:12:01] <diabeticgonewild> man i need to work on linear algebra, but i am sleepy
[2014-08-27 18:13:39] <diabeticgonewild> I am waiting for the amphetamine pill to kick in
[2014-08-27 18:16:00] <diabeticgonewild> LOL pretty much lexiconic
[2014-08-27 18:16:37] <diabeticgonewild> yum...haven't had pork in a long time...
[2014-08-27 18:22:13] <diabeticgonewild> I think my medicine is starting to kick in
[2014-08-27 18:22:15] <diabeticgonewild> yay ADHD
[2014-08-27 18:22:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it's kicking in
[2014-08-27 18:22:56] <diabeticgonewild> now I actually want to study
[2014-08-27 18:29:28] <diabeticgonewild> man it's dead in here
[2014-08-27 18:56:41] <diabeticgonewild> My psychiatrist just asked a few questions and pretty much handed out pills
[2014-08-27 18:56:57] <diabeticgonewild> basically, you get a psychiatrist who speicalizes in ADHD
[2014-08-27 18:57:02] <diabeticgonewild> like there are ADHD orgs
[2014-08-27 18:57:05] <diabeticgonewild> like I live in Texas
[2014-08-27 18:57:23] <diabeticgonewild> here's one that my doctor talks at
[2014-08-27 18:57:24] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.adda-sr.org/
[2014-08-27 18:57:35] <diabeticgonewild> also check out ADDitude magazine
[2014-08-27 18:57:53] <diabeticgonewild> and other ADHD organizations to find a doctor
[2014-08-27 18:58:14] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have a good questionnaire for ADHD
[2014-08-27 18:58:20] <diabeticgonewild> but try getting a couple of books on it
[2014-08-27 18:58:26] <diabeticgonewild> like Delivered from Distraction
[2014-08-27 18:59:01] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/Delivered-Distraction-Getting-Attention-Disorder/dp/0345442318/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1409180350&sr=1-1&keywords=delivered+from+distraction
[2014-08-27 18:59:57] <diabeticgonewild> does that help lexiconic ?
[2014-08-27 19:00:36] <diabeticgonewild> you're welcome
[2014-08-27 19:02:19] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-08-27 19:02:21] <diabeticgonewild> you wouldn't know
[2014-08-27 19:02:34] <diabeticgonewild> there are ADHD coaches too, but idk how many are legit
[2014-08-27 19:02:39] <diabeticgonewild> there are books on ADHD coaching too
[2014-08-27 19:02:52] <diabeticgonewild> this one is very legit, but extremely expensive
[2014-08-27 19:02:53] <diabeticgonewild> http://marlacummins.com/
[2014-08-27 19:03:12] <diabeticgonewild> let me get the ADHD coaching books, with tips
[2014-08-27 19:03:19] <diabeticgonewild> here are her "top secret documents"
[2014-08-27 19:03:23] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.google.com/search?q=filetype%3Apdf+site%3Ahttp%3A%2F%2Fmarlacummins.com%2F&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&client=firefox-a&channel=sb
[2014-08-27 19:03:35] <diabeticgonewild> click on the google link
[2014-08-27 19:04:33] <diabeticgonewild> you're welcome!
[2014-08-27 19:04:33] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/0984795235/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_S_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I3BXKUIFGJC11O
[2014-08-27 19:04:47] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/1572245654/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_nS_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I3AO23C1YOX8Q2
[2014-08-27 19:05:01] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/0307456390/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pd_nS_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I1BTMOAKCXJSOF
[2014-08-27 19:05:19] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/1592335128/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pd_nS_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I1A3BJ2LODVOPF
[2014-08-27 19:05:36] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/1589793269/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pd_nS_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I34JQXWUJYAW75
[2014-08-27 19:05:52] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/1583913580/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_nS_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I1OKN4C430Q8SS
[2014-08-27 19:05:56] <diabeticgonewild> I know, I am distracted!
[2014-08-27 19:06:11] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.amazon.com/dp/1886941963/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pd_S_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=2OYKR43UGE0YB&coliid=I3GNFYA13EWRHZ
[2014-08-27 19:06:15] <diabeticgonewild> :P That sucks!
[2014-08-27 19:06:19] <diabeticgonewild> I need to work on school
[2014-08-27 19:06:26] <diabeticgonewild> linear algebra! :O
[2014-08-27 19:07:37] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-08-27 19:07:43] <diabeticgonewild> but not bad
[2014-08-27 19:07:51] <diabeticgonewild> oh! :(
[2014-08-27 19:08:11] <diabeticgonewild> lexiconic, these are the "good documents" from the adhd coach
[2014-08-27 19:08:11] <diabeticgonewild> http://marlacummins.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/01/ADHDTreatmentGuide.pdf
[2014-08-27 19:08:19] <diabeticgonewild> http://marlacummins.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/01/Over50Tools.pdf
[2014-08-27 19:09:11] <diabeticgonewild> how exciting, on your thesis!
[2014-08-27 19:09:20] <diabeticgonewild> I need to work on school, or no degree
[2014-08-27 19:09:24] <diabeticgonewild> I really need to get to work
[2014-08-27 19:09:51] <diabeticgonewild> also lexiconic, addforums.com is pretty good, except that the website is not that updated
[2014-08-27 19:10:19] <diabeticgonewild> lino problem :)!
[2014-08-27 19:10:30] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to work on linear algebra, I will be on later
[2014-08-27 19:10:35] <diabeticgonewild> :)!
[2014-08-27 22:38:35] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-27 22:38:43] <diabeticgonewild> there is a lot of people on here
[2014-08-27 22:42:12] <diabeticgonewild> no, LOL
[2014-08-27 22:42:45] <diabeticgonewild> good night Bunii
[2014-08-27 22:42:50] <diabeticgonewild> Bunnii
[2014-08-27 22:50:51] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-27 22:51:02] <diabeticgonewild> I am thinking about becoming a Braille transcriber
[2014-08-27 22:53:24] <diabeticgonewild> yes!
[2014-08-27 22:53:28] <diabeticgonewild> and they all volunteer
[2014-08-27 22:53:32] <diabeticgonewild> a desperate demand
[2014-08-27 22:53:42] <diabeticgonewild> and the US government pays for your training
[2014-08-27 22:54:25] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, even though I have neuropathy
[2014-08-27 22:54:31] <diabeticgonewild> I can use enlarged Braille dots
[2014-08-27 22:54:32] <diabeticgonewild> https://nfb.org/braille-transcribing
[2014-08-27 22:54:37] <diabeticgonewild> I have autoimmune neuropathy
[2014-08-27 22:56:10] <diabeticgonewild> thank you so much!
[2014-08-27 22:59:45] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-08-27 22:59:46] <diabeticgonewild> I don't
[2014-08-27 22:59:52] <diabeticgonewild> but I have multiple disabilities
[2014-08-27 23:00:00] <diabeticgonewild> and Braille fascinates me
[2014-08-27 23:00:01] <diabeticgonewild> it's a code
[2014-08-27 23:00:10] <diabeticgonewild> and I have volunteered for Bookshare.org
[2014-08-27 23:00:28] <diabeticgonewild> for people who cannot read standard, inaccessible print
[2014-08-27 23:03:26] <diabeticgonewild> well, I have a vision impairment (does not affect my sight--my eyes don't track properly due to autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy--aka neuropathy)
[2014-08-27 23:04:16] <diabeticgonewild> Due to autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, I have severe gastroparesis (chronic nausea and vomiting), chronic diarrhea, urge incontinence, orthostatic hypotension (low blood pressure while standing up), tachycardia, and inappropriate sweating
[2014-08-27 23:04:57] <diabeticgonewild> Due to chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy, I have progressive muscle weakness, some numbness, neuropathic pain, and muscle cramps
[2014-08-27 23:05:05] <diabeticgonewild> and I also have ADHD and really bad depression
[2014-08-27 23:06:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's just me
[2014-08-27 23:06:26] <diabeticgonewild> it's the way I am
[2014-08-27 23:06:55] <diabeticgonewild> the autoimmune diseases (the type 1 diabetes and the autoimmune neuropathies) are all **potentially** linked by the anti-peripherin antibody
[2014-08-27 23:06:57] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-08-27 23:07:28] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.google.com/patents/WO2011082416A2?cl=en&dq=anti+peripherin+antibody&hl=en&sa=X&ei=-Zz-U5XdIIiBygTzwYCgCQ&ved=0CB0Q6AEwAA
[2014-08-27 23:40:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-27 23:43:02] <diabeticgonewild> nothing much
[2014-08-27 23:43:12] <diabeticgonewild> just trying to finish up an incomplete in linear algebra
[2014-08-27 23:43:18] <diabeticgonewild> having a hard time convincing myself to do it
[2014-08-27 23:44:08] <diabeticgonewild> and in case you didn't know, I have a second rare autoimmune disease
[2014-08-27 23:44:20] <diabeticgonewild> and my doctor is supportive of  a hematopoietic stem cell transplant
[2014-08-27 23:44:32] <diabeticgonewild> and it's probably going to happen in Seattle
[2014-08-27 23:44:41] <diabeticgonewild> I will be up there Oct. 8th for an appointment
[2014-08-27 23:45:46] <diabeticgonewild> damn, I shouldn't have mentioned that
[2014-08-27 23:45:52] <diabeticgonewild> I'm so sorry greenconverse
[2014-08-27 23:46:02] <diabeticgonewild> my dad passed away suddenly 1.5 years ago
[2014-08-27 23:46:02] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-08-27 23:46:10] <diabeticgonewild> it still sucks, regardless
[2014-08-27 23:46:17] <diabeticgonewild> she will feel his prescense
[2014-08-27 23:46:19] <diabeticgonewild> all of the time
[2014-08-27 23:46:20] <diabeticgonewild> trust me
[2014-08-27 23:46:29] <diabeticgonewild> I feel my dad's presence everywhere
[2014-08-27 23:46:30] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-08-27 23:46:33] <diabeticgonewild> it's devastating
[2014-08-27 23:46:38] <diabeticgonewild> and I am really sorry to hear that
[2014-08-27 23:46:39] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-08-27 23:47:35] <diabeticgonewild> but still, it sucks
[2014-08-27 23:49:01] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it happens
[2014-08-27 23:49:17] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not religious, but I prayed like crazy the night before the morning my dad died
[2014-08-27 23:49:19] <diabeticgonewild> it was weird
[2014-08-27 23:49:57] <diabeticgonewild> oh that sucks
[2014-08-27 23:49:59] <diabeticgonewild> when I was a kid
[2014-08-27 23:50:07] <diabeticgonewild> I skated on roller blades like crazy
[2014-08-27 23:52:16] <diabeticgonewild> probably
[2014-08-27 23:52:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, for sure
[2014-08-28 13:09:43] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-28 13:09:52] <diabeticgonewild> going to the endo in t-15 minugs
[2014-08-28 13:09:59] <diabeticgonewild> *minutes
[2014-08-28 13:12:53] <diabeticgonewild> thanks
[2014-08-28 13:13:00] <diabeticgonewild> she deals with a lot of transplants
[2014-08-28 13:13:27] <diabeticgonewild> I was AFAIK because I realized I wasn't connected to my pump
[2014-08-28 22:11:05] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-28 22:32:47] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-28 22:32:52] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-08-28 22:33:27] <diabeticgonewild> good
[2014-08-28 22:33:36] <diabeticgonewild> just had some kava...i'm relaxed
[2014-08-28 22:33:51] <diabeticgonewild> going to take some magnesium which willmake me more relaxed
[2014-08-28 22:34:34] <diabeticgonewild> going to work hardcore tomorrow
[2014-08-28 22:35:25] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, have you tried kava
[2014-08-28 22:36:13] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-28 22:37:30] <diabeticgonewild> it's good
[2014-08-28 22:37:46] <diabeticgonewild> it's a muscle relaxant...i like muscle relaxants because I get cramps
[2014-08-28 22:41:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I bought some from Hawaii
[2014-08-28 22:41:53] <diabeticgonewild> I've also been in a really bad mood since I got diagnosed with this other disease
[2014-08-28 22:41:58] <diabeticgonewild> like extremely depressed
[2014-08-28 22:42:08] <diabeticgonewild> so getting relaxed in this way isn't bad for me
[2014-08-28 22:43:49] <diabeticgonewild> have you tried kava bewest?
[2014-08-28 22:44:50] <diabeticgonewild> like I got it off of here
[2014-08-28 22:44:57] <diabeticgonewild> there are great reviews on it
[2014-08-28 22:45:19] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.gourmethawaiiankava.com/
[2014-08-28 22:45:39] <diabeticgonewild> reviews http://www.kavaforums.com/forum/forums/gourmet-hawaiian-kava-product-reviews.71/
[2014-08-28 22:46:30] <diabeticgonewild> I got the Mahakea one
[2014-08-28 22:51:32] <diabeticgonewild> the endo went good though
[2014-08-28 23:04:49] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-08-28 23:04:52] <diabeticgonewild> just a little sleepy
[2014-08-28 23:04:58] <diabeticgonewild> it numbs the back of my throat
[2014-08-28 23:05:39] <diabeticgonewild> the micronized version removes the kava chemicals that cause the nausea
[2014-08-28 23:05:44] <diabeticgonewild> FYI
[2014-08-28 23:06:06] <diabeticgonewild> micronized versions http://www.gourmethawaiiankava.com/3.html
[2014-08-28 23:07:20] <diabeticgonewild> I almost feel at peace with myself, and that is hard to accomplish with everything I have going on medically
[2014-08-28 23:08:27] <diabeticgonewild> I didn't make grog. I used the micronized version for convenience
[2014-08-28 23:16:11] <diabeticgonewild> I am not going to be able to stay up much longer...
[2014-08-28 23:35:42] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-08-28 23:35:49] <diabeticgonewild> thank you bewest
[2014-08-28 23:36:04] <diabeticgonewild> I will be on tomorrow but I am going to work on finishing my incomplete
[2014-08-28 23:36:08] <diabeticgonewild> good night!
[2014-08-30 13:15:24] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-30 13:16:17] <diabeticgonewild> bewest
[2014-08-30 13:16:37] <diabeticgonewild> I have an updated license to vBulletin, along with a full license to CometChat
[2014-08-30 13:16:50] <diabeticgonewild> that I am willing to donate to the nightscout website
[2014-08-30 13:17:17] <diabeticgonewild> I was going to use it for another website, but I abandoned the project
[2014-08-30 13:20:40] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-08-30 13:22:10] <diabeticgonewild> that's crazy!
[2014-08-30 13:23:10] <diabeticgonewild> and too bad
[2014-08-30 13:26:43] <diabeticgonewild> yummy
[2014-08-30 13:52:00] <diabeticgonewild> is bewest here?
[2014-08-30 13:54:03] <diabeticgonewild> you got my message?
[2014-08-30 13:54:09] <diabeticgonewild> PM?
[2014-08-30 22:17:30] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-08-30 22:18:30] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-08-30 22:18:57] <diabeticgonewild> good
[2014-08-30 22:19:04] <diabeticgonewild> been procrastinating on linear algebra
[2014-08-30 22:19:07] <diabeticgonewild> I'm doing an all-nighter
[2014-08-30 22:19:12] <diabeticgonewild> starting at midnight
[2014-08-30 22:19:22] <diabeticgonewild> gonna beast this monstor
[2014-08-30 22:19:24] <diabeticgonewild> monster
[2014-08-30 22:41:34] <diabeticgonewild> of course :)
[2014-08-30 22:48:09] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-08-30 22:58:35] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I've been chilling
[2014-08-30 23:27:42] <diabeticgonewild> I'm going to Seattle in October
[2014-08-30 23:28:12] <diabeticgonewild> for a hematopoietic stem cell transplant evaluation (for my rare autoimmune diseases)
[2014-08-30 23:28:33] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.seattlecca.org/clinical-trials/transplant-2260.cfm
[2014-08-30 23:28:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-08-30 23:29:02] <diabeticgonewild> I'll be up there Oct. 8th
[2014-08-30 23:29:12] <diabeticgonewild> but I will be visiting family in between the appointment
[2014-08-30 23:29:14] <diabeticgonewild> :) !
[2014-08-30 23:29:18] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-08-30 23:29:46] <diabeticgonewild> I hope so too
[2014-08-30 23:31:57] <diabeticgonewild> I know...someday
[2014-08-30 23:32:03] <diabeticgonewild> that's really awesome though
[2014-08-30 23:32:57] <diabeticgonewild> you know I have a new disease, right?
[2014-08-30 23:33:06] <diabeticgonewild> chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-08-30 23:33:13] <diabeticgonewild> I am not as devastated as I was before
[2014-08-30 23:34:59] <diabeticgonewild> it's life I guess, but life is still good
[2014-08-30 23:35:04] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-08-30 23:39:05] <diabeticgonewild> !!!!!
[2014-08-30 23:39:12] <diabeticgonewild> how exciting!
[2014-08-30 23:53:30] <diabeticgonewild> I love the feeling of getting paralyzed...not
[2014-08-30 23:54:38] <diabeticgonewild> WTF
[2014-08-30 23:55:46] <diabeticgonewild> don't want to deal with things
[2014-08-30 23:56:05] <diabeticgonewild> just like I don't want to deal with my muscles getting weak right now, but I am stuck with it
[2014-08-31 00:02:34] <diabeticgonewild> yay just felt some neuropathic pain
[2014-08-31 00:04:47] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-08-31 00:18:31] <diabeticgonewild> what?
[2014-08-31 00:19:04] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-08-31 00:20:25] <diabeticgonewild> I only like extra sharp cheese and feta
[2014-08-31 00:23:19] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-31 00:23:27] <diabeticgonewild> gonna start my all nighter in 40 minutes
[2014-08-31 00:23:30] <diabeticgonewild> for linear algebra
[2014-08-31 00:24:30] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-08-31 00:27:06] <diabeticgonewild> no H_Mc
[2014-08-31 00:27:11] <diabeticgonewild> I have like half a semester to do
[2014-08-31 00:27:22] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to do extreme studying
[2014-08-31 00:31:17] <diabeticgonewild> no I said I was starting it at 12 pm
[2014-08-31 00:31:19] <diabeticgonewild> chill out
[2014-08-31 00:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> I have this under control
[2014-08-31 00:31:30] <diabeticgonewild> I am a responsible student, believe me
[2014-08-31 00:31:55] <diabeticgonewild> I am
[2014-08-31 00:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> 4.0+ GPA
[2014-08-31 00:32:08] <diabeticgonewild> in electrical engineering
[2014-08-31 00:33:25] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-08-31 00:33:29] <diabeticgonewild> well I have it under control
[2014-08-31 00:33:34] <diabeticgonewild> I am just procrastinating
[2014-08-31 00:33:41] <diabeticgonewild> and I convinced myself to get to work
[2014-08-31 00:33:51] <diabeticgonewild> I already wrote out a study plan with timelines
[2014-08-31 00:34:55] <diabeticgonewild> sometimes I get so behind because of my medical problems, that I have to study for 60 hours, nonstop
[2014-08-31 00:35:04] <diabeticgonewild> but I am not that sick or behind right now
[2014-08-31 00:36:35] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-09-01 12:56:21] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-01 13:00:25] <diabeticgonewild> I'm tired of diabetes
[2014-09-01 13:00:34] <diabeticgonewild> not of diabetes complaints
[2014-09-01 13:00:41] <diabeticgonewild> just having to deal with it
[2014-09-01 13:01:41] <diabeticgonewild> unfortunately I wouldn't get too excited about that
[2014-09-01 13:01:51] <diabeticgonewild> 20 years...maybe
[2014-09-01 13:01:59] <diabeticgonewild> but I would count on 25
[2014-09-01 13:02:34] <diabeticgonewild> BioMEMs will probably be the answer
[2014-09-01 13:03:32] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-09-01 13:19:34] <diabeticgonewild> damn I just felt some neuropathic pain (not diabetes-related, damn rare disease)
[2014-09-01 19:21:04] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-01 19:21:17] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-09-01 19:21:50] <diabeticgonewild> same. I'm very tired. I have a lot of school work to do
[2014-09-01 19:22:10] <diabeticgonewild> having a demyelinating disease makes me tired, too
[2014-09-01 19:22:48] <diabeticgonewild> especially engineering
[2014-09-01 19:23:00] <diabeticgonewild> it's like twice the amount of work as any other class
[2014-09-01 19:23:08] <diabeticgonewild> except for hard sciences
[2014-09-01 19:23:16] <diabeticgonewild> which are about the same
[2014-09-01 19:23:18] <diabeticgonewild> maybe less
[2014-09-01 19:24:07] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-09-01 19:24:11] <diabeticgonewild> they have jobs and lives
[2014-09-01 19:24:23] <diabeticgonewild> nah
[2014-09-01 19:24:28] <diabeticgonewild> I don't judge like that
[2014-09-01 19:26:04] <diabeticgonewild> I know. Well it's your choosing
[2014-09-01 19:26:17] <diabeticgonewild> and it really doesn't matter
[2014-09-01 19:26:19] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-09-01 19:27:08] <diabeticgonewild> I don't like reading
[2014-09-01 19:27:14] <diabeticgonewild> so the arts would not be good for me
[2014-09-01 19:27:15] <diabeticgonewild> and music
[2014-09-01 19:27:34] <diabeticgonewild> like it's initmate for me so I don't like performing in front of people
[2014-09-01 19:27:46] <diabeticgonewild> and art, is OK, but I am not dexterous at all
[2014-09-01 19:28:19] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-09-01 19:28:29] <diabeticgonewild> I hate reading
[2014-09-01 19:28:45] <diabeticgonewild> actually I use a screenreader for like textbooks and magazines and newspapers
[2014-09-01 19:28:52] <diabeticgonewild> because my eyes don't track well
[2014-09-01 19:28:59] <diabeticgonewild> it's called Kurzweil 3000
[2014-09-01 19:29:09] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-09-01 19:29:19] <diabeticgonewild> my depression was extreme even a week ago
[2014-09-01 19:29:23] <diabeticgonewild> but I am doing better now
[2014-09-01 19:31:01] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-09-01 19:31:08] <diabeticgonewild> I am OCD too, but not bad
[2014-09-01 19:31:20] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't fight it to hard
[2014-09-01 19:31:26] <diabeticgonewild> but I know it is a constant battle
[2014-09-01 19:31:56] <diabeticgonewild> because you are working against those disease
[2014-09-01 19:31:56] <diabeticgonewild> s
[2014-09-01 19:32:41] <diabeticgonewild> that's right
[2014-09-01 19:35:53] <diabeticgonewild> exactly
[2014-09-01 19:40:48] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-09-01 19:40:49] <diabeticgonewild> it happens
[2014-09-01 19:40:52] <diabeticgonewild> I got to go
[2014-09-01 19:40:54] <diabeticgonewild> dinnertime
[2014-09-01 20:59:50] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-01 21:01:32] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-09-01 21:03:47] <diabeticgonewild> I might have to bank eggs if I have a stem cell transplant (SCT)
[2014-09-01 21:04:09] <diabeticgonewild> I am not that religious, but its against my religious beliefs
[2014-09-01 21:04:23] <diabeticgonewild> I would have to, because of the chemo, if I want my own kids
[2014-09-01 21:04:37] <diabeticgonewild> BEAM-ATG chemo causes infertility, it's almost guaranteed
[2014-09-01 21:04:58] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.seattlecca.org/clinical-trials/transplant-2260.cfm
[2014-09-01 21:05:01] <diabeticgonewild> costs a lot of money
[2014-09-01 21:05:07] <diabeticgonewild> like $15,000
[2014-09-01 21:05:15] <diabeticgonewild> if insurance doesn't cover it
[2014-09-01 21:05:18] <diabeticgonewild> also I am catholic
[2014-09-01 21:05:25] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I believe in god
[2014-09-01 21:05:28] <diabeticgonewild> but like that's it
[2014-09-01 21:05:39] <diabeticgonewild> I used to be athiest, for like 11 years
[2014-09-01 21:05:41] <diabeticgonewild> banking of eggs
[2014-09-01 21:05:57] <diabeticgonewild> but I am not that religious
[2014-09-01 21:06:06] <diabeticgonewild> just believe in god, that's pretty much it
[2014-09-01 21:06:08] <diabeticgonewild> of course yeah
[2014-09-01 21:06:25] <diabeticgonewild> but autoimmune diseases, except RA is in my family
[2014-09-01 21:06:28] <diabeticgonewild> on both sides
[2014-09-01 21:07:03] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not too worried about my family getting the ADs
[2014-09-01 21:07:03] <diabeticgonewild> but
[2014-09-01 21:07:06] <diabeticgonewild> it's a risk
[2014-09-01 21:07:57] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-09-01 21:08:11] <diabeticgonewild> I remember you saying that
[2014-09-01 21:08:16] <diabeticgonewild> that's absolutely terrible
[2014-09-01 21:08:28] <diabeticgonewild> but I want to bank eggs
[2014-09-01 21:08:41] <diabeticgonewild> because I don't want to look back with regret
[2014-09-01 21:08:50] <diabeticgonewild> that's horrible
[2014-09-01 21:08:52] <diabeticgonewild> and terrible
[2014-09-01 21:09:42] <diabeticgonewild> this is where I would probably get it done because my GI doctor happens to be there and I am a patient there http://www.mdanderson.org/patient-and-cancer-information/care-centers-and-clinics/care-centers/gynecologic-oncology/oncofertility-clinic/index.html
[2014-09-01 21:09:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that really sucks greenconverse
[2014-09-01 21:09:55] <diabeticgonewild> how devastating
[2014-09-01 21:10:09] <diabeticgonewild> dang!
[2014-09-01 21:29:47] <diabeticgonewild> I had Whataburger.....eww....but good
[2014-09-01 21:32:42] <diabeticgonewild> it is good
[2014-09-01 21:34:07] <diabeticgonewild> yummy
[2014-09-01 21:36:00] <diabeticgonewild> what?
[2014-09-01 21:36:07] <diabeticgonewild> white castle renamed their sliders?
[2014-09-01 21:36:20] <diabeticgonewild> I used to get them in the freezer section at Kroger
[2014-09-01 21:37:16] <diabeticgonewild> o
[2014-09-01 21:38:03] <diabeticgonewild> greenconverse , did you know you can see my great grandmother's house in Sleepless in Seattle?
[2014-09-01 21:44:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, in the party scene at the yellow house, it's the house across the street from it
[2014-09-01 21:45:11] <diabeticgonewild> I have never seen the movie
[2014-09-01 21:45:19] <diabeticgonewild> my mom and grandma told me
[2014-09-01 21:46:05] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-09-01 21:51:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah that's an awesome box
[2014-09-01 21:57:43] <diabeticgonewild> I took like 15 units of humalog for whataburger....gross
[2014-09-01 21:57:47] <diabeticgonewild> but good
[2014-09-01 21:58:42] <diabeticgonewild> awaxa, do you follow the bernstein diet?
[2014-09-01 21:58:55] <diabeticgonewild> I did for like six weeks, got an A1c of 5.6
[2014-09-01 22:01:34] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-09-01 22:01:40] <diabeticgonewild> well, I did for awhile
[2014-09-01 22:01:54] <diabeticgonewild> 6 carbs for breakfast, 12 for lunch, 12 for dinner
[2014-09-01 22:02:04] <diabeticgonewild> I am reluctant
[2014-09-01 22:02:13] <diabeticgonewild> as it's another variable
[2014-09-01 22:02:29] <diabeticgonewild> and if my lung function gets compromised, a lot of things get compromised
[2014-09-01 22:02:37] <diabeticgonewild> it works though
[2014-09-01 22:03:06] <diabeticgonewild> but he does do low-carb break because it is covered by the insulin adequately to the point blood sugar is unaffected
[2014-09-01 22:03:12] <diabeticgonewild> he gets it from here
[2014-09-01 22:03:34] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.shop.greatlowcarb.com/
[2014-09-01 22:03:47] <diabeticgonewild> my neuro says to cut out carbs
[2014-09-01 22:03:50] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much completely
[2014-09-01 22:03:55] <diabeticgonewild> *neurologist
[2014-09-01 22:04:51] <diabeticgonewild> that's not him bewest
[2014-09-01 22:05:37] <diabeticgonewild> Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution, is a book about a type 1 who reversed his complications with hear normal control, limiting carbs...he was an industrial engineer by career and became a doctor
[2014-09-01 22:06:12] <diabeticgonewild> like, I followed his diet when I knew I was screwed with gastroparesis
[2014-09-01 22:06:28] <diabeticgonewild> he has a whole chapter dedicated to dealing with diabetic gastroparesis
[2014-09-01 22:06:30] <diabeticgonewild> it really helped
[2014-09-01 22:06:41] <diabeticgonewild> even though mine isn't diabetes-related
[2014-09-01 22:08:30] <diabeticgonewild> eww
[2014-09-01 22:10:26] <diabeticgonewild> nah
[2014-09-01 22:11:23] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't be able to do linear algebra without chegg (homework help) and coursehero.com
[2014-09-01 22:11:46] <diabeticgonewild> everyone does
[2014-09-01 22:12:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, all of the questions to WeBWork are posted online
[2014-09-01 22:12:30] <diabeticgonewild> at those places
[2014-09-01 22:12:35] <diabeticgonewild> and worked out
[2014-09-01 22:12:44] <diabeticgonewild> except my problems have different number
[2014-09-01 22:12:54] <diabeticgonewild> honestly, because I have to do a proctered exam
[2014-09-01 22:13:10] <diabeticgonewild> and because the test questions are repeats of the homework
[2014-09-01 22:13:29] <diabeticgonewild> I'm just going to put the questions and store them in my calculator, and have them all worked out
[2014-09-01 22:13:38] <diabeticgonewild> We're only allowed a ti-84 though
[2014-09-01 22:13:52] <diabeticgonewild> there's just too much to memorize/work on in a short period of time
[2014-09-01 22:14:00] <diabeticgonewild> so I'm just going to do that, for sanity sake
[2014-09-01 22:14:19] <diabeticgonewild> you can't blame me
[2014-09-01 22:14:21] <diabeticgonewild> it's hard
[2014-09-01 22:14:48] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-09-01 22:27:51] <diabeticgonewild> can't convince myself to work on linear algebra
[2014-09-01 22:27:54] <diabeticgonewild> French is cool
[2014-09-01 22:28:20] <diabeticgonewild> I think extreme fatigue is eating away at my work ethic
[2014-09-01 22:28:31] <diabeticgonewild> I will
[2014-09-01 22:28:44] <diabeticgonewild> just need to take a break
[2014-09-01 22:42:03] <diabeticgonewild> bye guys...gonna work
[2014-09-02 02:24:33] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-02 02:25:09] <diabeticgonewild> I'm waiting for an online tutoring session, which will start in 30 minutes
[2014-09-02 02:25:16] <diabeticgonewild> I usually use InstaEDU
[2014-09-02 02:25:35] <diabeticgonewild> but this time, I used a British-based service called Bigfoot Tutors
[2014-09-02 02:25:48] <diabeticgonewild> so I will see how it goes
[2014-09-02 02:25:58] <diabeticgonewild> I'm waiting on some mail too
[2014-09-02 02:26:01] <diabeticgonewild> special mail
[2014-09-02 02:26:08] <diabeticgonewild> Linear Algebra
[2014-09-02 02:26:19] <diabeticgonewild> for what?
[2014-09-02 02:26:45] <diabeticgonewild> for me, it's documents for a schedule for a doctor's appointment with a stem cell transplant booklet
[2014-09-02 02:27:14] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-09-02 02:27:24] <diabeticgonewild> but mine is for autoimmune diseases (rare ones)
[2014-09-02 02:27:50] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-09-02 02:28:02] <diabeticgonewild> oh diabetes?
[2014-09-02 02:28:02] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-09-02 02:28:19] <diabeticgonewild> I have type 1, for 20 years
[2014-09-02 02:28:51] <diabeticgonewild> that's a lot
[2014-09-02 02:28:59] <diabeticgonewild> I only take like 6 units per meal
[2014-09-02 02:30:06] <diabeticgonewild> that's not good
[2014-09-02 02:30:08] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that helps
[2014-09-02 02:31:26] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-09-02 02:32:04] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-09-02 02:33:07] <diabeticgonewild> for sure
[2014-09-02 02:33:07] <diabeticgonewild> and salty
[2014-09-02 15:36:44] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-03 02:51:42] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-03 19:43:10] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-03 19:51:18] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-03 19:55:32] <diabeticgonewild> not that good
[2014-09-03 19:55:34] <diabeticgonewild> feel crappy
[2014-09-03 19:55:40] <diabeticgonewild> have a lot of school work to do
[2014-09-03 20:03:37] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-09-03 20:04:14] <diabeticgonewild> gonna get something to eat...then back to work
[2014-09-03 20:04:15] <diabeticgonewild> ttyl
[2014-09-04 23:25:45] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-05 00:10:42] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-05 00:12:12] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-05 00:12:16] <diabeticgonewild> absolutely devastated
[2014-09-05 00:12:22] <diabeticgonewild> the stem cell transplant might not happen
[2014-09-05 01:11:41] <diabeticgonewild> bewest
[2014-09-05 01:12:18] <diabeticgonewild> I got a phone call today saying that my rare disease is not part of the standard diseases that they treat in this trial
[2014-09-05 01:12:34] <diabeticgonewild> and so it's up for review by the neurologists
[2014-09-05 01:12:49] <diabeticgonewild> and because I have coexisting CIDP and type 1 diabetes, that might be a problem too
[2014-09-05 01:12:50] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.socialstyrelsen.se/rarediseases/cidp
[2014-09-05 01:14:44] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-09-05 01:14:50] <diabeticgonewild> I made reservations
[2014-09-05 01:14:59] <diabeticgonewild> and had an appointment in writing
[2014-09-05 01:15:05] <diabeticgonewild> and now it may get deferred
[2014-09-05 01:15:59] <diabeticgonewild> or I may get excluded from the study'
[2014-09-05 01:16:22] <diabeticgonewild> which is the worst-case scenario
[2014-09-05 01:16:45] <diabeticgonewild> because the transplant coordinator emailed the doctor, which she should have done before
[2014-09-05 01:18:10] <diabeticgonewild> and that doctor was on vacation for 3 WEEKS
[2014-09-05 01:19:30] <diabeticgonewild> it's really unfair
[2014-09-05 01:19:33] <diabeticgonewild> like I cried
[2014-09-05 01:19:46] <diabeticgonewild> because I really want to get better
[2014-09-05 01:20:03] <diabeticgonewild> I didn't know because I thought I got the "all clear" by them, bewest
[2014-09-05 01:20:16] <diabeticgonewild> they didn't even know that they had my medical records there
[2014-09-05 01:20:22] <diabeticgonewild> and somebody reviewed them
[2014-09-05 01:20:26] <diabeticgonewild> so I am really upset
[2014-09-05 01:20:29] <diabeticgonewild> but I didn't freak out
[2014-09-05 01:20:33] <diabeticgonewild> I stayed calm
[2014-09-05 01:20:38] <diabeticgonewild> and my mom was calm about it
[2014-09-05 01:21:53] <diabeticgonewild> it's really unfair, and one hand doesn't know where the other one is
[2014-09-05 01:21:57] <diabeticgonewild> it's systematic failure
[2014-09-05 01:23:46] <diabeticgonewild> like a doctor wrote orders to get records
[2014-09-05 01:23:50] <diabeticgonewild> and my doctor sent them over
[2014-09-05 01:23:57] <diabeticgonewild> and they don't even know who reviewed them
[2014-09-05 01:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> so it's messed up
[2014-09-05 01:32:04] <diabeticgonewild> they really dropped the ball
5 01:19:46] <diabeticgonewild> because I really want to get better
[2014-09-06 00:19:53] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-06 00:43:19] <diabeticgonewild> hey how are you?
[2014-09-06 00:43:27] <diabeticgonewild> I have online tutoring in like an hour
[2014-09-06 00:43:30] <diabeticgonewild> for linear algebra
[2014-09-06 00:44:01] <diabeticgonewild> ;)
[2014-09-06 00:44:04] <diabeticgonewild> :P
[2014-09-06 00:44:06] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-09-06 00:44:30] <diabeticgonewild> uh oh
[2014-09-06 00:44:41] <diabeticgonewild> probably with BBQ sauce...that's a killer
[2014-09-06 00:45:22] <diabeticgonewild> oh, LOL
[2014-09-06 00:45:30] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-09-06 00:45:33] <diabeticgonewild> I was like 131
[2014-09-06 00:48:35] <diabeticgonewild> man, watching videos on peripheral neuropathy is depressing
[2014-09-06 00:48:45] <diabeticgonewild> mine isn't diabetes-related though...i mean my neuropathy
[2014-09-18 23:28:15] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-19 01:23:03] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-19 01:26:21] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-09-19 01:26:24] <diabeticgonewild> I'm half-drunk
[2014-09-19 01:31:21] <diabeticgonewild> ???
[2014-09-22 16:44:51] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-22 16:49:52] <diabeticgonewild> alright
[2014-09-22 16:49:53] <diabeticgonewild> you?
[2014-09-22 16:50:04] <diabeticgonewild> I just finished my IVIg treatment at the hospital
[2014-09-22 16:50:07] <diabeticgonewild> just got home
[2014-09-22 16:55:53] <diabeticgonewild> pretty good
[2014-09-22 16:55:56] <diabeticgonewild> you?
[2014-09-22 16:56:07] <diabeticgonewild> I got a Dexcom and a t:slim
[2014-09-22 16:56:25] <diabeticgonewild> I have a little bit of a headache but that can be expected with IVIg
[2014-09-22 16:57:18] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-09-22 16:57:19] <diabeticgonewild> ewww
[2014-09-22 16:57:33] <diabeticgonewild> tandem has a nice app for data analysis
[2014-09-22 16:57:40] <diabeticgonewild> except it isn't open source
[2014-09-22 16:58:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have been having a lot of lows too since getting the t:slim
[2014-09-22 16:58:33] <diabeticgonewild> why not?
[2014-09-22 16:58:42] <diabeticgonewild> it looks a lot less ghetto then my medtronic pump
[2014-09-22 16:58:55] <diabeticgonewild> I like Asante, but it's not an option, same with omnipod
[2014-09-22 16:59:25] <diabeticgonewild> oh, well I try to get something that at least looks professional
[2014-09-22 16:59:35] <diabeticgonewild> not necessarily
[2014-09-22 16:59:39] <diabeticgonewild> I ditched the scroll function
[2014-09-22 17:00:22] <diabeticgonewild> I can do some of it without looking
[2014-09-22 17:02:27] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-09-22 17:02:34] <diabeticgonewild> idk, I want to look professional
[2014-09-22 17:02:49] <diabeticgonewild> like my bro said this pump looks less ghetto than my medtronic pump
[2014-09-22 17:02:55] <diabeticgonewild> why?
[2014-09-22 17:04:51] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-09-22 17:05:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-09-22 17:05:24] <diabeticgonewild> that's understandable
[2014-09-22 17:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-09-22 17:06:28] <diabeticgonewild> well the device has to work properly
[2014-09-22 17:07:36] <diabeticgonewild> not really
[2014-09-22 17:07:40] <diabeticgonewild> if the design is not refined
[2014-09-22 17:07:42] <diabeticgonewild> it's not worth it
[2014-09-22 17:07:48] <diabeticgonewild> in terms of function
[2014-09-22 17:07:54] <diabeticgonewild> look at the Freestyle Navigator
[2014-09-22 17:08:05] <diabeticgonewild> best CGM out there in terms of accuracy
[2014-09-22 17:08:17] <diabeticgonewild> but it looks like something you would buy at walmart for 10 bucks
[2014-09-22 17:09:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, this time around it's working for me
[2014-09-22 17:09:31] <diabeticgonewild> but the CGM now just shut off as it is on its 7th day
[2014-09-22 17:09:53] <diabeticgonewild> that's what I am going to do
[2014-09-22 17:11:00] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-09-22 17:11:08] <diabeticgonewild> I might learn some javascript soon
[2014-09-22 17:11:19] <diabeticgonewild> because my hard class doesn't start for a few weeks
[2014-09-22 17:11:31] <diabeticgonewild> work on the AP stuff, based on that patent app
[2014-09-22 17:11:42] <diabeticgonewild> I got a B in linear algebra, which is OK
[2014-09-22 17:11:47] <diabeticgonewild> I finally finished my incomplete
[2014-09-22 17:14:37] <diabeticgonewild> anyways I am going to go out for awhile
[2014-09-22 17:14:43] <diabeticgonewild> I might....might get a massage
[2014-09-22 17:14:45] <diabeticgonewild> I'll ttyl
[2014-09-26 21:29:47] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-27 13:49:44] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-27 14:08:36] <diabeticgonewild> hey highasdick
[2014-09-27 19:00:50] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-09-27 19:08:58] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-09-27 23:47:54] <diabeticgonewild> I got NightScout working! I am so excited!!!!!
[2014-09-28 00:00:20] <diabeticgonewild> Anyone here?
[2014-09-28 00:00:24] <diabeticgonewild> it makes me sad :(
[2014-11-30 17:36:23] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-11-30 17:36:49] <diabeticgonewild> how are you? this is monica_
[2014-11-30 17:37:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-11-30 17:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> that's good.
[2014-11-30 17:37:50] <diabeticgonewild> very cool
[2014-11-30 17:38:01] <diabeticgonewild> pretty good. I am at my grandma's house in Seattle
[2014-11-30 17:38:35] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, this was the one I originally used, until i used IRCcloud.
[2014-11-30 17:38:42] <diabeticgonewild> then I switched to monica_
[2014-11-30 17:38:46] <diabeticgonewild> I just deleted my account
[2014-11-30 17:39:22] <diabeticgonewild> I am trying to save up some money for a Freestyle Libre, and that's one of the reasons why I deleted the account
[2014-11-30 17:39:34] <diabeticgonewild> also I am too busy to be using IRCcloud
[2014-11-30 17:39:55] <diabeticgonewild> I have a final on Dec. 5th
[2014-11-30 17:40:13] <diabeticgonewild> plus a differential equations course to take over the holiday break
[2014-11-30 17:40:20] <diabeticgonewild> so i get on track to graduate soon.
[2014-11-30 17:40:42] <diabeticgonewild> 25, but I have 3 autoimmune diseases, so school is taking me forever
[2014-11-30 17:40:54] <diabeticgonewild> due to being sick
[2014-11-30 17:41:22] <diabeticgonewild> thank you :D
[2014-11-30 17:41:47] <diabeticgonewild> what have you been up to?
[2014-11-30 17:43:00] <diabeticgonewild> that's really cool!
[2014-11-30 17:43:13] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's awesome
[2014-11-30 17:43:26] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-11-30 17:43:47] <diabeticgonewild> wow, you like books?
[2014-11-30 17:43:53] <diabeticgonewild> that's really cool!
[2014-11-30 17:44:32] <diabeticgonewild> Reading isn't my thing. Like my eyes don't converge well on images due to one of my rare autoimmune diseases, so I use like screen readers and stuff to read long stuff.
[2014-11-30 17:45:02] <diabeticgonewild> Went to Seattle for (American) Thanksgiving, and then the day after celebrated my grandma's 90th birthday
[2014-11-30 17:45:34] <diabeticgonewild> for sure. my grandma is a sweetheart
[2014-11-30 17:45:42] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2014-11-30 17:46:23] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that would be awesome!
[2014-11-30 17:46:30] <diabeticgonewild> I have a friend name majed, btw
[2014-11-30 17:46:33] <diabeticgonewild> kind of similar name
[2014-11-30 17:47:19] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, he's a cool guy
[2014-11-30 17:47:29] <diabeticgonewild> yeah it means like mighty or something in arabic
[2014-11-30 17:47:37] <diabeticgonewild> idk
[2014-11-30 17:47:44] <diabeticgonewild> but I asked him one time
[2014-11-30 17:47:48] <diabeticgonewild> :D
[2014-11-30 17:48:46] <diabeticgonewild> I'm going to be cutting out carbs soon. I got low carb flours and stuff
[2014-11-30 17:49:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah and like walnut flour too
[2014-11-30 17:49:40] <diabeticgonewild> I think it's lower carb than almond flour
[2014-11-30 17:51:51] <diabeticgonewild> I'm going to go on a walk, I'll ttyl
[2014-12-08 21:29:12] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-12-08 21:34:28] <diabeticgonewild> does anyone chat on here anymore?
[2014-12-08 21:35:06] <diabeticgonewild> idk, I just don't see as much activity
[2014-12-08 21:35:17] <diabeticgonewild> for what it's worth, I haven't been online for awhile
[2014-12-08 21:35:30] <diabeticgonewild> I just got an A+ in a physics III class, so I am relieved
[2014-12-08 21:36:23] <diabeticgonewild> thank you!
[2014-12-08 21:36:31] <diabeticgonewild> That's intense H_Mc
[2014-12-08 22:25:22] <diabeticgonewild> you are chilling?
[2014-12-08 22:32:58] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2014-12-08 23:15:35] <diabeticgonewild> type 1 20 years now, as of last week
[2014-12-08 23:15:56] <diabeticgonewild> has she tried low-carbing, Dr. Bernstein style?
[2014-12-08 23:17:50] <diabeticgonewild> oh, well I can't really help out with that. the exercise part I can't help out much with either. I have a couple of rare autoimmune diseases that keep me from exercising.
[2014-12-08 23:18:11] <diabeticgonewild> does she have retinopathy?
[2014-12-08 23:18:35] <diabeticgonewild> that's good
[2014-12-08 23:19:15] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, usually it's just once a year
[2014-12-08 23:20:44] <diabeticgonewild> I guess, plus you are developing (like your brain and growth and stuff)
[2014-12-08 23:22:20] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-12-08 23:27:07] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO!
[2014-12-08 23:47:30] <diabeticgonewild> idk if I want to start working on programming a new model of the artificial pancreas project into MATLAB (which can be ported into C++ from MATLAB)
[2014-12-08 23:47:53] <diabeticgonewild> this is the article I am looking at right now
[2014-12-08 23:47:55] <diabeticgonewild> Stochastic Virtual Population of Subjects With
[2014-12-08 23:47:55] <diabeticgonewild> Type 1 Diabetes for the Assessment of Closed-Loop
[2014-12-08 23:47:55] <diabeticgonewild> Glucose Controllers
[2014-12-08 23:48:21] <diabeticgonewild> but idk....differential equations hw or crazy programming project, who gives?
[2014-12-09 00:38:57] <diabeticgonewild> I just got mad
[2014-12-09 00:39:36] <diabeticgonewild> somebody told me to do a hematopoietic stem cell transplant because I have chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy and I want/need to get an electrical engineering internship
[2014-12-09 00:39:54] <diabeticgonewild> the problem is, my application for that will be thrown in the trash due to type 1 diabetes.
[2014-12-09 00:40:36] <diabeticgonewild> so I just have to make due
[2014-12-09 00:40:59] <diabeticgonewild> I was on Facebook and I was asking in the CIDP groups how to get treatment if I have an internship that is outside of the city I am in
[2014-12-09 13:21:52] <diabeticgonewild> I found a diy low-carb bake mix
[2014-12-09 13:21:55] <diabeticgonewild> going to try it out
[2014-12-09 13:22:42] <diabeticgonewild> it has high reviews, but the page itself looks spammy. http://low-carb-news.blogspot.com/2014/03/splendid-gluten-free-bake-mix-3.html
[2014-12-09 16:15:23] <diabeticgonewild> don't worry something like that has happened to me
[2014-12-09 16:15:36] <diabeticgonewild> my social life is like 0, thanks to isolating chronic illnesses
[2014-12-09 19:51:12] <diabeticgonewild> mmmm gluten-free margerita pizza for dinner, topped with whataburger honey bbq sauce....
[2014-12-10 22:31:05] <diabeticgonewild> I think IEEE has some journal articles for detecting sensor failures
[2014-12-10 22:31:10] <diabeticgonewild> I think....
[2014-12-10 22:32:15] <diabeticgonewild> yeah....honestly, I want to help out but I am tied up between school, my medical problems, and trying to find an internship (!) (somehow)
[2014-12-10 22:32:44] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't been able to do anything with the nightscout stuff
[2014-12-10 22:32:58] <diabeticgonewild> no I'm making a plan so that I can be employable in approximately 8 months
[2014-12-10 22:33:11] <diabeticgonewild> then I am going to start applying like crazy...probably to places like Intel
[2014-12-10 22:33:20] <diabeticgonewild> my neurologist and mom likely won't approve
[2014-12-10 22:33:29] <diabeticgonewild> and remember I am receiving disability...
[2014-12-10 22:33:59] <diabeticgonewild> but I am getting a professional degree, and not having an internship with a 3.9 GPA, or like research experience, is going to raise eyebrows
[2014-12-10 22:34:11] <diabeticgonewild> when I apply for a full-time job, that is
[2014-12-10 22:34:40] <diabeticgonewild> and like I have options to go on a signals and controls path or a circuits path in EE
[2014-12-10 22:35:03] <diabeticgonewild> like I like signals and controls, but it's just not as exciting as some place like Intel
[2014-12-10 22:35:38] <diabeticgonewild> and I can already do signals and controls...it's just math and programming, really
[2014-12-10 22:38:15] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, for what it's worth, I am considering programming a new model of the artificial pancreas project, if that interests you
[2014-12-10 22:38:31] <diabeticgonewild> but I have a differential equations course (actually easy) to do over the break
[2014-12-10 22:39:13] <diabeticgonewild> the paper that I have been referencing is this (Stochastic Virtual Population of Subjects With
[2014-12-10 22:39:13] <diabeticgonewild> Type 1 Diabetes for the Assessment of Closed-Loop
[2014-12-10 22:39:13] <diabeticgonewild> Glucose Controllers) but like I have to have access to almost all of the other papers referenced
[2014-12-10 22:40:07] <diabeticgonewild> Here it is. Any publication regarding the artificial pancreas project, with Roman Hovorka in it is solid. http://ieeexplore.ieee.org/xpl/articleDetails.jsp?arnumber=6557450
[2014-12-10 22:48:03] <diabeticgonewild> hotels usually provide chapstick...And welcome to the club. My rare disease causes my mucous membranes to dry out...yay
[2014-12-10 22:53:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have programmed a model for it before
[2014-12-10 22:53:54] <diabeticgonewild> https://github.com/diabeticgonewild
[2014-12-10 22:54:40] <diabeticgonewild> I did it in 2011 when I was a sophomore at uni
[2014-12-10 22:57:09] <diabeticgonewild> that works, clarksonguy04
[2014-12-10 22:58:29] <diabeticgonewild> RKITTYWhaleAlly, the problem is though...the only pump that potentially could take a model like that at this time is the pre-mid-2011 (?) Medtronic Paradigm pumps
[2014-12-10 22:59:44] <diabeticgonewild> I have 2nd backup Tandem t:slim (for doing "dirty work"), that I have to somehow reprogram an operating system onto and a driver for a bluetooth chip on, using assembly language
[2014-12-10 23:00:46] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't took an assembly language course yet, and I while I know C/C++ (programming languages), I don't know how to do heavy computations in it, iteratively, so I have to use MATLAB and port it to C++ from MATLAB
[2014-12-10 23:01:46] <diabeticgonewild> there's a bunch of calculus 1, 2, and 3, differential equations, some linear algebra, and a lot of probability and statistics, in the model
[2014-12-10 23:25:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, pretty much
[2014-12-10 23:26:13] <diabeticgonewild> I love cross-referencing "classic" math books, that use the same notation as this particular artificial pancreas model, just to figure out what to do.
[2014-12-10 23:28:15] <diabeticgonewild> like look at page 6 on section 4.3 .... http://lagrange.math.siu.edu/Olive/ch4.pdf (doesn't that look like fun!) (honestly I need to get ASU libraries to make a copy of the book where it came from, but for now, programming it will work)
[2014-12-10 23:46:38] <diabeticgonewild> I have a really bad headache that just suddenly started...to take Fiorinal (a barbiturate) or not....I don't want to go to sleep yet
[2014-12-10 23:53:11] <diabeticgonewild> I just took the barbiturate. I will be getting out of it soon...and sleepy
[2014-12-11 00:01:52] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I feel it...my head feels heavy
[2014-12-11 00:07:02] <diabeticgonewild> my headache is going away...I just feel weird...kind of loopy...trip report (!)...LOL
[2014-12-11 02:00:35] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here?
[2014-12-11 08:31:27] <diabeticgonewild> thank you mejjad
[2014-12-11 08:31:32] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-12-11 08:31:57] <diabeticgonewild> that's intense!
[2014-12-11 08:32:36] <diabeticgonewild> really?
[2014-12-19 00:29:57] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-12-19 00:45:51] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here?
[2014-12-19 16:31:53] <diabeticgonewild> anyone here
[2014-12-19 16:33:03] <diabeticgonewild> I feel like killing myself. I have like the worst headache ever, gut pain, and like neuropathic pain that is so bad that it makes my legs and arms jerk after the shocking sensation.
[2014-12-19 16:33:38] <diabeticgonewild> The worst part about it is that I have access to barbiturates, in quantities that I could easily OD on.
[2014-12-19 16:35:00] <diabeticgonewild> like I hate the fucking rare diseases that I have. They caused all of this. Not my diabetes.
[2014-12-19 16:35:23] <diabeticgonewild> it's for headaches
[2014-12-19 16:35:28] <diabeticgonewild> fiorinal
[2014-12-19 16:37:02] <diabeticgonewild> i havent ate due to feeling like shit
[2014-12-19 16:38:11] <diabeticgonewild> I fucking hate going in for immunomodulatory treatment, getting sick from it... it has to stop
[2014-12-19 16:42:42] <diabeticgonewild> i'm tired of feeling like shit all of the time. Goodbye, world,
[2014-12-19 16:44:19] <diabeticgonewild> FauxReal, get a fucking life.
[2014-12-19 16:44:58] <diabeticgonewild> I fucking have like 100+ fiorinal like 10 feet away from me and I feel like complete shit and worthless.
[2014-12-19 16:46:14] <diabeticgonewild> You don't live in my fucking body, in my life, so you really have nothing to show for.
[2014-12-19 16:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not going to the ER. I ended up in a psych hospitalization, which turned into severe DKA due to their negligence, and then I ended up in the ICU for 4 days.
[2014-12-19 16:47:11] <diabeticgonewild> blood pH on admission to the ICU 7.03
[2014-12-19 16:47:32] <diabeticgonewild> they sell them at pharmacies
[2014-12-19 16:49:47] <diabeticgonewild> fine whatever, i'm leaving the IRC. I am not going to the ER. I am going to try to keep this under control.
[2014-12-20 00:00:57] <diabeticgonewild> Alright, I feel slightly less depressed, so I guess that is a good thing.
[2014-12-20 00:17:19] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, kind of, but you don't really want to talk to me
[2014-12-20 00:17:33] <diabeticgonewild> I have been like suicidal and stuff, although I am less suicidal now
[2014-12-20 00:18:22] <diabeticgonewild> I have access to barbiturate medicine, enough to overdose on, for headaches, that I am trying to get rid of
[2014-12-20 00:20:02] <diabeticgonewild> because I know I will do something bad with it
[2014-12-20 00:21:10] <diabeticgonewild> not always
[2014-12-20 00:22:02] <diabeticgonewild> no, really bad tension headaches from intravenous immunoglobulin, because I have chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy and autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-12-20 00:22:44] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-20 00:23:11] <diabeticgonewild> like I pretty much have been suicidal since age 14, and I attempted it at 17, and I am 25 now
[2014-12-20 00:25:05] <diabeticgonewild> like right now my muscles in my arm are cramping up and I am getting a headache again.
[2014-12-20 00:25:12] <diabeticgonewild> It's like this day after day
[2014-12-20 00:50:44] <diabeticgonewild> I just took my medicine, or a dose of it, I mean
[2014-12-20 00:51:02] <diabeticgonewild> I hate headaches
[2014-12-20 00:51:27] <diabeticgonewild> I just don't want to die, from ODing on it from being suicidal
[2014-12-20 01:09:25] <diabeticgonewild> maybe by your books
[2014-12-20 01:10:49] <diabeticgonewild> I know that. I don't even know why you are mentioning this.
[2014-12-20 19:54:07] <diabeticgonewild> whatever
[2014-12-20 21:44:05] <diabeticgonewild> damn headaches from intravenous immunoglobulin...they suck!
[2014-12-20 21:49:57] <diabeticgonewild> I took some medicine for it
[2014-12-20 21:50:08] <diabeticgonewild> having trouble keeping my eyes open now
[2014-12-20 21:50:22] <diabeticgonewild> it's called fiorinal
[2014-12-20 21:50:28] <diabeticgonewild> thanks
[2014-12-20 21:51:04] <diabeticgonewild> this intravenous immunoglobulin treatment killed me this time
[2014-12-20 21:51:24] <diabeticgonewild> what do you mean?
[2014-12-20 21:51:32] <diabeticgonewild> I'm American
[2014-12-20 21:52:18] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks wmubroncoo
[2014-12-21 02:06:12] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-12-21 02:38:16] <diabeticgonewild> I want to sleep, but I slept all day
[2014-12-21 03:02:06] <diabeticgonewild> My gut hurts too. I don't think I would be in as bad of a mood or feeling as terrible if I didn't have a bad reaction to intravenous immunoglobulin on Wednesday.
[2014-12-21 03:31:39] <diabeticgonewild> I think my headache is coming back...damnit!
[2014-12-21 03:36:52] <diabeticgonewild> I just took 2 Fiorinal...hopefully my headache will go away
[2014-12-21 03:40:58] <diabeticgonewild> I am already starting to feel the medicine kick in...even with severe gastroparesis....yay sedation
[2014-12-21 22:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-12-21 22:49:16] <diabeticgonewild> I guess nobody is here.
[2014-12-21 22:49:44] <diabeticgonewild> On a good note, I am less suicidal than I was a couple of days ago, and I can actually enjoy things a little bit.
[2014-12-21 22:55:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I agree
[2014-12-21 22:55:17] <diabeticgonewild> how are you H_Mc
[2014-12-21 23:20:46] <diabeticgonewild> sounds good
[2014-12-21 23:22:28] <diabeticgonewild> I want Whataburger, but I'm not going to drive
[2014-12-21 23:31:06] <diabeticgonewild> do you have gut problems H_Mc?
[2014-12-21 23:32:02] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that sucks
[2014-12-21 23:32:22] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, make sure to stay away from carbonated beverages too
[2014-12-21 23:32:35] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I bet that sucks
[2014-12-21 23:35:17] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BwU2N03jFcI
[2014-12-22 00:24:55] <diabeticgonewild> On a good note, I got some really good sleep yesterday, so my neuropathic pain has been a lot more tolerable
[2014-12-22 01:18:51] <diabeticgonewild> I guess it's pretty dead here tonight
[2014-12-22 01:24:30] <diabeticgonewild> I'm getting a headache again...This sucks...
[2014-12-23 16:35:26] <diabeticgonewild> hey
[2014-12-23 16:42:43] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-12-23 16:51:57] <diabeticgonewild> Feeling crappy. I have headaches that I had to take medicine for. Like barbiturates. Not fun.
[2014-12-23 17:03:46] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, that's good.
[2014-12-23 17:04:03] <diabeticgonewild> I spent like 11 am to 3:30 pm in bed because of them
[2014-12-23 17:04:26] <diabeticgonewild> I still have to get XMAS presents for my mom too, but I can't drive around under the influence of barbs.
[2014-12-23 17:12:09] <diabeticgonewild> I believe it.
[2014-12-23 17:12:20] <diabeticgonewild> I still need to get a present for my twin bro too
[2014-12-23 17:12:32] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not going to Best Buy
[2014-12-23 17:12:48] <diabeticgonewild> I'm going to get my mom something at Sur la Table
[2014-12-23 17:13:34] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-12-23 21:53:10] <diabeticgonewild> I had to go to urgent care to get antibiotics because I have a cold and I am taking immunosuppressants
[2014-12-23 22:23:37] <diabeticgonewild> he thought it was bacterial...but the thing is I am taking immunosuppressants
[2014-12-23 22:24:17] <diabeticgonewild> and I am receiving intravenous immunoglobulin (received it 6 days ago) so like I could really get sick. Plus the holidays are pretty much here and I had to take care of it.
[2014-12-23 22:25:27] <diabeticgonewild> Like I had to go see the doctor. Plus my lymph nodes were throbbing all day and I started coughing, sneezing, and I have a runny nose
[2014-12-23 22:36:23] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2014-12-23 22:36:31] <diabeticgonewild> like also my lymph nodes are throbbing
[2014-12-23 23:19:06] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-12-23 23:26:53] <diabeticgonewild> nah, I dated a type 1...at diabetes camp
[2014-12-23 23:27:06] <diabeticgonewild> I do know two type 1s who are married and have kids together
[2014-12-23 23:28:46] <diabeticgonewild> lame
[2014-12-23 23:30:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have a feeling it's going to be a crappy holiday season for me
[2014-12-23 23:31:14] <diabeticgonewild> that blows
[2014-12-23 23:31:25] <diabeticgonewild> that's not healthy dude
[2014-12-23 23:31:44] <diabeticgonewild> excuses, excuses
[2014-12-23 23:32:01] <diabeticgonewild> man, I have been popping headache medicine which is bad for me and I am trying to stop
[2014-12-23 23:32:06] <diabeticgonewild> it's like barbiturates
[2014-12-23 23:32:14] <diabeticgonewild> and I get suicidal too
[2014-12-23 23:32:22] <diabeticgonewild> so it's really dangerous for me to be around
[2014-12-23 23:32:36] <diabeticgonewild> like Fiorinal or Fioricet?
[2014-12-23 23:33:15] <diabeticgonewild> like today, this morning, I didn't go to sleep after popping *one* fiorinal
[2014-12-23 23:33:27] <diabeticgonewild> and like I got all giddy and euphoric
[2014-12-23 23:33:30] <diabeticgonewild> basically high
[2014-12-23 23:33:33] <diabeticgonewild> it was weird
[2014-12-23 23:33:43] <diabeticgonewild> and I had to lie down and close my eyes to calm down
[2014-12-23 23:33:57] <diabeticgonewild> but i get tension headaches
[2014-12-23 23:34:05] <diabeticgonewild> I have a high pain tolerance too
[2014-12-23 23:34:35] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that's not good
[2014-12-23 23:35:18] <diabeticgonewild> yeah like I am getting a headache right now...I shouldn't be looking at the computer
[2014-12-23 23:35:37] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-12-23 23:37:06] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-24 00:50:59] <diabeticgonewild> My lymph nodes are still throbbing
[2014-12-24 03:17:32] <diabeticgonewild> I am tired of wanting to kill myself
[2014-12-25 00:19:20] <diabeticgonewild> Anyone here?
[2014-12-25 00:22:12] <diabeticgonewild> I got an iPhone 6 Plus
[2014-12-25 01:01:43] <diabeticgonewild> I still have to wrap presents
[2014-12-25 01:01:59] <diabeticgonewild> Merry Christmas by the way
[2014-12-25 02:26:55] <diabeticgonewild> Still wrapping presents
[2014-12-25 02:42:56] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 02:43:21] <diabeticgonewild> How are you?
[2014-12-25 02:44:43] <diabeticgonewild> I just finished wrapping presents
[2014-12-25 02:55:13] <diabeticgonewild>  That's good. I hate the holidays. I know I am being horrible but I get depressed this time of year usually.
[2014-12-25 02:58:40] <diabeticgonewild> Like it gets to be unbearable and I don't have control over my situation.
[2014-12-25 02:59:28] <diabeticgonewild> Like trying to relax right now.
[2014-12-25 03:00:23] <diabeticgonewild> Like I have been suicidal for a couple of weeks now due to feeling terrible. I have 2 rare autoimmune neuropathies in addition to type 1 diabetes.
[2014-12-25 03:00:49] <diabeticgonewild> I have to go to school online due to my medical problems.
[2014-12-25 03:01:03] <diabeticgonewild> And it's really hard to just function
[2014-12-25 03:01:53] <diabeticgonewild> Also I have access to barbiturates and idk if I want to tell my doctor or not if I am tempted to overdose on it
[2014-12-25 03:03:20] <diabeticgonewild> I also can't admit myself to inpatient treatment because I almost died due to neglect because the staff took me off my pump and they didn't give me insulin
[2014-12-25 03:03:45] <diabeticgonewild> I ended up in the ICU for 4 days and almost died
[2014-12-25 03:11:45] <diabeticgonewild> Getting a headache again...idk if I want to take medicine for it or not
[2014-12-25 03:14:51] <diabeticgonewild> Just took Advil migraine and 1 Fiorinal. I will probably be getting sleepy soon.
[2014-12-25 03:53:13] <diabeticgonewild> It's fine. No worries.
[2014-12-25 03:53:29] <diabeticgonewild> At times yes.
[2014-12-25 03:54:21] <diabeticgonewild> I am definitely ambivalent about it but it still is a hasty decision. After all life is really the best thing we have going for us.
[2014-12-25 03:55:06] <diabeticgonewild> I ended up taking 2 Fiorinal so I may be out of it.
[2014-12-25 03:55:22] <diabeticgonewild> Thanks.
[2014-12-25 03:55:26] <diabeticgonewild> 25
[2014-12-25 03:55:58] <diabeticgonewild> No codeine but it has butalbital
[2014-12-25 03:56:33] <diabeticgonewild> It's fine. No worries. Thank you for listening.
[2014-12-25 03:57:29] <diabeticgonewild> It should be exciting but it's not. Like I had to decline an internship offer. I struggle to go to school and things are just difficult.
[2014-12-25 03:57:48] <diabeticgonewild> Over my physical health
[2014-12-25 03:57:57] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, why not?
[2014-12-25 03:58:43] <diabeticgonewild> Possibly. If you think you are you should talk about it
[2014-12-25 03:59:02] <diabeticgonewild> Idk but I do use FB
[2014-12-25 03:59:56] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah. Do you have any friends?
[2014-12-25 04:00:27] <diabeticgonewild> Sorry if I am being insensitive. My medicine makes me under the influence
[2014-12-25 04:01:51] <diabeticgonewild> There are always reddit meet ups and stuff
[2014-12-25 04:02:43] <diabeticgonewild> I live in Texas
[2014-12-25 04:02:59] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I live with my parents
[2014-12-25 04:03:49] <diabeticgonewild> I'm also on disability which sucks. I want to move on with my life.
[2014-12-25 04:04:09] <diabeticgonewild> They are proud of me but they worry about me
[2014-12-25 04:05:02] <diabeticgonewild> Move on with my life. Get a full time job. Work on some side projects with respect to electrical engineering
[2014-12-25 04:05:32] <diabeticgonewild> Like idk I have my health but I am still a burden to them.
[2014-12-25 04:05:59] <diabeticgonewild> I am sure they don't feel that way to them
[2014-12-25 04:06:05] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 04:06:45] <diabeticgonewild> I was going to school at the university of Houston but I transferred out due to them being unreasonable
[2014-12-25 04:07:00] <diabeticgonewild> I go to Arizona state university online
[2014-12-25 04:07:27] <diabeticgonewild> My projects are at github.com/diabeticgonewild
[2014-12-25 04:08:15] <diabeticgonewild> Like there were likely discrimination issues at my former uni
[2014-12-25 04:08:17] <diabeticgonewild> No
[2014-12-25 04:08:53] <diabeticgonewild> I have only took basic circuits classes like digital and analog circuits
[2014-12-25 04:09:16] <diabeticgonewild> I am a senior though
[2014-12-25 04:10:16] <diabeticgonewild> Due to my rare autoimmune disease, I was forced to take medical withdrawal 4 times
[2014-12-25 04:10:54] <diabeticgonewild> They were talking about giving me fs instead of ws if I withdrew again
[2014-12-25 04:11:12] <diabeticgonewild> Also accommodation issues were always there
[2014-12-25 04:11:28] <diabeticgonewild> My professors were not understanding at all
[2014-12-25 04:11:50] <diabeticgonewild> No autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-12-25 04:13:21] <diabeticgonewild> Like it was thought that my autonomic neuropathy was diabetes related but I have a rare autoimmune disease instead
[2014-12-25 04:14:32] <diabeticgonewild> Yep. It was blamed on diabetes for 4 years.
[2014-12-25 04:15:57] <diabeticgonewild> I enjoy it and I am fascinated with technology and I want to contribute to those fields
[2014-12-25 04:16:22] <diabeticgonewild> It was an acquired love
[2014-12-25 04:16:33] <diabeticgonewild> Either circuits or controls
[2014-12-25 04:16:38] <diabeticgonewild> Idk
[2014-12-25 04:16:45] <diabeticgonewild> Hard to decide
[2014-12-25 04:16:55] <diabeticgonewild> Pretty much
[2014-12-25 04:17:42] <diabeticgonewild> But like I got a D+ in my first EE class and then I got my act together and I love it
[2014-12-25 04:18:04] <diabeticgonewild> I thought about changing majors but my dad told me not to
[2014-12-25 04:18:14] <diabeticgonewild> And I just stayed with it
[2014-12-25 04:18:41] <diabeticgonewild> Like mechanical or something
[2014-12-25 04:19:18] <diabeticgonewild> Like at my former school there were a bunch of unreasonable weed out classes
[2014-12-25 04:19:56] <diabeticgonewild> Like the one I got a D+ in 70% of the class had to drop or retake the class
[2014-12-25 04:20:24] <diabeticgonewild> Another class has a 40-60% drop/fail rate
[2014-12-25 04:20:54] <diabeticgonewild> And another has like a 40-40% drop/fail rate
[2014-12-25 04:21:26] <diabeticgonewild> Like it was unreasonable even for STEM
[2014-12-25 04:22:06] <diabeticgonewild> They don't care about the students success at my former uni
[2014-12-25 04:22:16] <diabeticgonewild> I bet it's Berkeley
[2014-12-25 04:22:48] <diabeticgonewild> UCLA is extremely competitive
[2014-12-25 04:22:55] <diabeticgonewild> That's cool
[2014-12-25 04:23:28] <diabeticgonewild> I was offered a 6 month internship with Intel in Folsom, CA
[2014-12-25 04:24:07] <diabeticgonewild> I had to decline though. And I subsequently ended up in the hospital for 7 weeks thereafter
[2014-12-25 04:24:29] <diabeticgonewild> So I couldn't have took it even if I wanted to
[2014-12-25 04:26:22] <diabeticgonewild> But yeah are you still EE?
[2014-12-25 04:27:02] <diabeticgonewild> Oh, well you got to do what you got to do. I am glad to hear it worked out
[2014-12-25 04:28:50] <diabeticgonewild> Mostly because it's a crazy screen name. I won't deny it
[2014-12-25 04:29:13] <diabeticgonewild> Yep
[2014-12-25 04:30:03] <diabeticgonewild> So have you done any programming with nightscout?
[2014-12-25 04:30:24] <diabeticgonewild> Or #WeAreNotWaiting?
[2014-12-25 04:31:00] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.nightscout.info
[2014-12-25 04:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> It is. I would be more involved with it if I could. I just feel terrible all the time.
[2014-12-25 04:32:22] <diabeticgonewild> well I hope your issues are being properly addressed
[2014-12-25 04:32:52] <diabeticgonewild> Like either through your primary care doctor or a psychiatrist
[2014-12-25 04:33:02] <diabeticgonewild> But that's your business
[2014-12-25 04:33:25] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/2q9gp3/should_i_admit_to_my_psychiatrist_about_wanting/
[2014-12-25 04:33:40] <diabeticgonewild> That's my post
[2014-12-25 04:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 04:35:32] <diabeticgonewild> There's probably some interesting posts from me in general
[2014-12-25 04:37:05] <diabeticgonewild> It gets to a point where you suffer so much that it feels like it's the only choice you have
[2014-12-25 04:37:14] <diabeticgonewild> I've been there
[2014-12-25 04:38:11] <diabeticgonewild> http://youtu.be/D1QoyTmeAYw
[2014-12-25 04:38:32] <diabeticgonewild> Like idk eHarmony maybe?
[2014-12-25 04:38:55] <diabeticgonewild> It's a really good TED
[2014-12-25 04:39:08] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks
[2014-12-25 04:39:19] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 04:41:06] <diabeticgonewild> Well I thought it was good. I understand it a lot better
[2014-12-25 04:41:16] <diabeticgonewild> Like why I get that way
[2014-12-25 04:42:01] <diabeticgonewild> But I have pretty much been suicidal one way or another since I was 14
[2014-12-25 04:42:39] <diabeticgonewild> You get that way too?
[2014-12-25 04:43:39] <diabeticgonewild> Like it was when all of my medical problems caused me to feel crappy all the time
[2014-12-25 04:43:46] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks
[2014-12-25 04:44:45] <diabeticgonewild> It literally started the first day of high school for me, and I just know I was feeling terrible physically
[2014-12-25 04:45:38] <diabeticgonewild> I have access to barbiturates in quantities 7.5x the lethal dose with my monthly prescription
[2014-12-25 04:46:09] <diabeticgonewild> Tension headaches
[2014-12-25 04:46:50] <diabeticgonewild> Honestly I try to focus on other things. I am going to try eHarmony again.
[2014-12-25 04:47:42] <diabeticgonewild> Like idk I prioritize my needs. School is just more important to me than a relationship. Same with my health.
[2014-12-25 04:48:20] <diabeticgonewild> I really do not want to introduce somebody into my life when I am so unhappy
[2014-12-25 04:48:59] <diabeticgonewild> Like I have to be able to live my life for myself and nobody else
[2014-12-25 04:49:06] <diabeticgonewild> It's my life
[2014-12-25 04:49:38] <diabeticgonewild> And while I would love to be in a relationship it deters the focus off of my problems
[2014-12-25 04:50:01] <diabeticgonewild> And bettering myself for my sake
[2014-12-25 04:50:24] <diabeticgonewild> But like I am not an extremely social person
[2014-12-25 04:51:00] <diabeticgonewild> So I wouldn't take it as advice or anything. It's just my particular circumstance
[2014-12-25 04:53:52] <diabeticgonewild> Do you have an iPhone? There is a great app called talk life.
[2014-12-25 04:55:15] <diabeticgonewild> Like its a social network where you can post mental health issues, even anonymously
[2014-12-25 04:55:26] <diabeticgonewild> For support
[2014-12-25 04:55:52] <diabeticgonewild> Why not?
[2014-12-25 04:57:37] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I kind of know how that is like. I feel like killing myself a lot but it lets me know that it's not ok and people care about me
[2014-12-25 04:59:19] <diabeticgonewild> They do because they develop feelings and express them
[2014-12-25 04:59:40] <diabeticgonewild> It doesn't have to be obviously expressed
[2014-12-25 05:01:56] <diabeticgonewild> See like I should be happy to be spending the holidays with my family and I am just struggling not to harm myself
[2014-12-25 05:03:28] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 05:04:29] <diabeticgonewild> It's not really a choice. I have OCD and it makes things worse like wanting to kill myself
[2014-12-25 05:05:35] <diabeticgonewild> Well thanks. I wouldn't have these problems i"f I didn't have a ton of medical problems.
[2014-12-25 05:05:46] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, type 1
[2014-12-25 05:08:33] <diabeticgonewild> Music. Programming. School.
[2014-12-25 05:08:46] <diabeticgonewild> Oh and diet coke
[2014-12-25 05:10:36] <diabeticgonewild> Anything except bluegrass and country
[2014-12-25 05:11:55] <diabeticgonewild> Dance and electronica haha
[2014-12-25 05:13:21] <diabeticgonewild> No, never
[2014-12-25 05:13:36] <diabeticgonewild> Too old for that
[2014-12-25 05:14:13] <diabeticgonewild> I'm getting sleepy just fyi
[2014-12-25 05:15:13] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 05:15:32] <diabeticgonewild> I might accidentally fall asleep
[2014-12-25 05:15:46] <diabeticgonewild> I heard it's awesome but no
[2014-12-25 05:15:54] <diabeticgonewild> It's too risky
[2014-12-25 05:16:09] <diabeticgonewild> I don't want to damage my brain honestly
[2014-12-25 05:16:46] <diabeticgonewild> Possibly yeah
[2014-12-25 05:19:12] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah Kik me
[2014-12-25 05:19:22] <diabeticgonewild> diabeticgonewild:
[2014-12-25 05:19:33] <diabeticgonewild> It's like snapchat
[2014-12-25 05:19:43] <diabeticgonewild> I also have what's app
[2014-12-25 10:10:57] <diabeticgonewild> Damnit I have to go to church in 20 minutes and I feel terrible physically
[2014-12-25 10:11:22] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah neither do I
[2014-12-25 10:11:49] <diabeticgonewild> It's something I have to do with the fan
[2014-12-25 10:11:52] <diabeticgonewild> Fan
[2014-12-25 10:11:55] <diabeticgonewild> Fam
[2014-12-25 10:20:45] <diabeticgonewild> 25
[2014-12-25 10:21:29] <diabeticgonewild> My mom said I didn't have to go to church. I'm tachycardic and nauseated
[2014-12-25 10:21:36] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 10:21:46] <diabeticgonewild> Autonomic problems suck
[2014-12-25 10:22:34] <diabeticgonewild> I have a rare autoimmune disease that caused it
[2014-12-25 10:23:09] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks
[2014-12-25 10:23:21] <diabeticgonewild> That's good
[2014-12-25 10:23:55] <diabeticgonewild> That blows
[2014-12-25 10:24:48] <diabeticgonewild> There is only one commercial lab in the US that tests for my disease
[2014-12-25 10:25:02] <diabeticgonewild> That's cool and reasonable
[2014-12-25 10:25:39] <diabeticgonewild> Autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-12-25 10:27:11] <diabeticgonewild> Cool
[2014-12-25 10:36:19] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-25 10:36:39] <diabeticgonewild> I just took a bunch of medicine
[2014-12-25 10:37:13] <diabeticgonewild> I will probably fall asleep soon.
[2014-12-25 13:28:31] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah we just got done opening presents
[2014-12-25 13:30:36] <diabeticgonewild> Merry Christmas, bewest !
[2014-12-25 13:33:39] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah but I am lying in bed. I am tachycardic from low blood pressure and my gut pain is really painful. But I like being around my family
[2014-12-25 13:42:00] <diabeticgonewild> Oh well. It comes and goes
[2014-12-25 18:09:44] <diabeticgonewild> Christmas dinner is about to start and I am nauseated :( but I am still glad to be around my family
[2014-12-25 18:11:50] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: there has been talk about accessibility on nightscout but android accessibility is a joke
[2014-12-25 18:12:14] <diabeticgonewild> iOS and windows (jaws) would be the best bets
[2014-12-25 18:15:36] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: for what it's worth the t:slim pump can be made accessible http://youtu.be/P3OOqSAGnvs
[2014-12-25 19:18:25] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah so my post on suicide watch on reddit, some guy harassed me and it got deleted pretty quickly.
[2014-12-25 19:19:55] <diabeticgonewild> So what's everyone doing?
[2014-12-25 19:35:12] <diabeticgonewild> Wtf
[2014-12-25 19:37:05] <diabeticgonewild> Like he said an fu would have been more appropriate because I can't just check myself into inpatient when they  fuck up my insulin, don't reepond to diabetes emergencies, and blow off my other medical problems which involve rare diseases
[2014-12-25 19:38:00] <diabeticgonewild> Like he told me to check myself in initially and I can't
[2014-12-25 19:38:37] <diabeticgonewild> I ended up in the ICU for 4 days due to their negligence
[2014-12-25 19:39:01] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/2q9gp3/should_i_admit_to_my_psychiatrist_about_wanting/
[2014-12-25 19:39:15] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-12-25 19:40:48] <diabeticgonewild> I don't blame you
[2014-12-25 19:42:35] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah my situation sucks. I can never feel safe in a place like that
[2014-12-25 19:45:10] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I believe it.
[2014-12-25 19:46:09] <diabeticgonewild> The most traumatic part of my experience was knowing that i was probably going to die in vain because they refused to get me help
[2014-12-25 19:50:41] <diabeticgonewild> I was surprised to find myself in the ICU
[2014-12-25 19:56:34] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah that's good
[2014-12-25 19:57:04] <diabeticgonewild> I am starting to get sedated...I took headache medicine
[2014-12-25 19:59:10] <diabeticgonewild> I should probably lie down in bed but I literally slept all day.
[2014-12-25 20:01:56] <diabeticgonewild> I am extremely tired of feeling crappy all the time, but such is my life
[2014-12-25 20:04:36] <diabeticgonewild> Anyone doing anything interesting?
[2014-12-25 20:05:07] <diabeticgonewild> I want to eat. I want stuffing.😜
[2014-12-25 20:06:49] <diabeticgonewild> I need to lie down. It's really kicking in.
[2014-12-25 21:42:35] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks RKiTTYWhaleAlly
[2014-12-25 23:10:23] <diabeticgonewild> Time to watch The Interview
[2014-12-25 23:22:25] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-12-25 23:22:32] <diabeticgonewild> it's on Google Play/YouTube
[2014-12-25 23:22:40] <diabeticgonewild> at least in America, but I think Canada too
[2014-12-25 23:23:01] <diabeticgonewild> I'm glad Sony fought back
[2014-12-25 23:24:21] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2014/12/24/the-interview-canada-release_n_6377760.html
[2014-12-25 23:24:47] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.reddit.com/r/videos/comments/2qds9z/the_interview_full_movie_in_hd_free/
[2014-12-25 23:25:20] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I swear piracy would not be as bad if the copyright laws were not so outdated
[2014-12-25 23:26:10] <diabeticgonewild> that's what VPNs are for
[2014-12-25 23:26:33] <diabeticgonewild> Update 3:44p.m. PST: "The Interview" is now also available in Canada.
[2014-12-25 23:26:39] <diabeticgonewild> http://googleblog.blogspot.com/2014/12/the-interview-now-available-on-google.html
[2014-12-25 23:27:30] <diabeticgonewild> what to you mean?
[2014-12-25 23:27:37] <diabeticgonewild> I use OpenVPN
[2014-12-25 23:29:03] <diabeticgonewild> oh well I use it on the computer via a special router...using the service StrongVPN
[2014-12-25 23:29:32] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-25 23:32:57] <diabeticgonewild> this movie is hilarious
[2014-12-25 23:33:10] <diabeticgonewild> like connects directly to the VPN
[2014-12-25 23:33:46] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I know that's a problem
[2014-12-25 23:35:11] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-12-25 23:36:39] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-12-25 23:52:06] <diabeticgonewild> At least I am enjoying something. I am still very depressed though
[2014-12-25 23:53:26] <diabeticgonewild> Lol
[2014-12-25 23:53:40] <diabeticgonewild> You like cats a lot?
[2014-12-25 23:58:38] <diabeticgonewild> Time to take some advil migraine so i can hopefully avoid popping barbs/Fiorinal
[2014-12-26 00:04:39] <diabeticgonewild> Lol
[2014-12-26 00:05:01] <diabeticgonewild> I have 2 dogs
[2014-12-26 04:16:54] <diabeticgonewild> Hey
[2014-12-26 04:17:08] <diabeticgonewild> How are you?
[2014-12-26 04:18:22] <diabeticgonewild> Thank you. Happy holidays to you!
[2014-12-26 04:18:33] <diabeticgonewild> You woke me up, haha
[2014-12-26 04:20:28] <diabeticgonewild> Not that great but better than yesterday.
[2014-12-26 04:20:55] <diabeticgonewild> It's good that you woke me up because I didn't take my medicine last night.
[2014-12-26 04:21:36] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah an iPhone 6 plus! I bought it Christmas Eve but my mom is paying for some of it.
[2014-12-26 04:22:26] <diabeticgonewild> I am using IRCcloud and I am chatting through my iPhone
[2014-12-26 04:22:36] <diabeticgonewild> Did you get anything?
[2014-12-26 04:24:34] <diabeticgonewild> lol
[2014-12-26 04:25:11] <diabeticgonewild> I wasn't feeling well on XMas so I got out of going to church with the family
[2014-12-26 04:25:18] <diabeticgonewild> Oh that sucks
[2014-12-26 04:26:06] <diabeticgonewild> I still haven't went through my stocking that Santa Claus filled LOL
[2014-12-26 04:27:58] <diabeticgonewild> Idk, candy and scratch out lottery cards
[2014-12-26 04:29:22] <diabeticgonewild> I need to take my medicine brb
[2014-12-26 04:32:28] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-12-26 04:32:41] <diabeticgonewild> Do you have diabetes?
[2014-12-26 04:32:59] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks
[2014-12-26 04:33:23] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-26 04:34:06] <diabeticgonewild> If you have it, Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution may be the way to go
[2014-12-26 04:36:31] <diabeticgonewild> No
[2014-12-26 04:36:51] <diabeticgonewild> I was diagnosed at age 5. You can do it.
[2014-12-26 04:37:13] <diabeticgonewild> diabetes can be controlled
[2014-12-26 04:37:37] <diabeticgonewild> It's just a different lifestyle more than anything
[2014-12-26 04:38:37] <diabeticgonewild> I have a ton of health issues too and I can deal with it
[2014-12-26 04:38:58] <diabeticgonewild> Like if you have it you need to meet some people with it
[2014-12-26 04:41:40] <diabeticgonewild> Living is still better than doing something like killing yourself. A lot of people have diabetes.
[2014-12-26 04:43:10] <diabeticgonewild> It's something to keep into perspective. Anyways I can't convince you but diabetes is very livable
[2014-12-26 04:46:09] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways I have been watching The Interview
[2014-12-26 04:46:44] <diabeticgonewild> It's hilarious but I have only watched like 30 minutes of it
[2014-12-26 04:48:54] <diabeticgonewild> Really?
[2014-12-26 04:59:30] <diabeticgonewild> Damnit I forgot to take my antibiotic brb
[2014-12-26 05:21:11] <diabeticgonewild> Good night
[2014-12-26 05:29:41] <diabeticgonewild> Nothing like feeling worthless
[2014-12-26 05:30:01] <diabeticgonewild> Mental health problems suck
[2014-12-26 06:19:05] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah my cold is nasty
[2014-12-26 06:51:59] <diabeticgonewild> Anyone up? It's Boxing Day in the Commonwealth nations
[2014-12-26 07:44:22] <diabeticgonewild> Good morning antoni
[2014-12-26 08:05:21] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks worleygurl
[2014-12-26 08:05:25] <diabeticgonewild> C
[2014-12-26 08:08:09] <diabeticgonewild> I have a cold and my BGs have been high
[2014-12-26 08:37:51] <diabeticgonewild> Hey how are you?
[2014-12-26 08:54:48] <diabeticgonewild> That's good to heat
[2014-12-26 08:54:58] <diabeticgonewild> *hear
[2014-12-26 21:38:07] <diabeticgonewild> Barenaked Ladies is Canadian
[2014-12-26 21:39:21] <diabeticgonewild> Actually I heard one of their songs Christmas Eve in the Apple Store and it made me happy cause that song is always played on Camp Sweeney's radio station
[2014-12-26 21:39:31] <diabeticgonewild> Aka diabetes camp
[2014-12-27 00:05:02] <diabeticgonewild> Nothing like waking up from a terrible nightmare and wanting to kill yourself because you feel worthless
[2014-12-27 00:20:53] <diabeticgonewild> That's cool
[2014-12-27 00:25:31] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-27 00:27:06] <diabeticgonewild> I really need to go to inpatient treatment for being suicidal but I can't and it's a scary position to be in
[2014-12-27 00:27:41] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah do you program RKiTTYWhaleAlly
[2014-12-27 00:35:16] <diabeticgonewild> I know Java
[2014-12-27 00:36:06] <diabeticgonewild> And C/C++ and Fortran and MATLAB
[2014-12-27 00:37:52] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't ate since breakfast. It's time for me to eat. I suck at self care when I get depressed
[2014-12-27 00:41:39] <diabeticgonewild> It's for like electrical engineering work, particularly electromagnetics
[2014-12-27 00:52:55] <diabeticgonewild> I'm tired of being depressed
[2014-12-27 00:55:29] <diabeticgonewild> I should be happy I mean I got an iPhone 6 plus for Christmas
[2014-12-27 00:58:01] <diabeticgonewild> When I attempted suicide at age 17, I got a huge scholarship to the University of Houston like a few days before I did it and it didn't matter.
[2014-12-27 01:04:24] <diabeticgonewild> And I have a headache and I don't want to take barbiturates for it
[2014-12-27 01:04:47] <diabeticgonewild> I just took Advil migraine though
[2014-12-27 01:10:56] <diabeticgonewild> It is, and it's very tragic
[2014-12-27 01:11:46] <diabeticgonewild> Part of the problem is not being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel
[2014-12-27 01:12:06] <diabeticgonewild> http://youtu.be/D1QoyTmeAYw
[2014-12-27 01:13:04] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways my quality of life has only became worse so it's hard to deal with on top of my depression
[2014-12-27 01:14:28] <diabeticgonewild> I am feeling slightly better now though. My abdomen hurts though.
[2014-12-27 01:15:46] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it sucks. Like the world is collapsing on you.
[2014-12-27 01:16:50] <diabeticgonewild> I hate being this way. It's just really hard for me to do the things I want to do.
[2014-12-27 01:17:04] <diabeticgonewild> I have a ton of medical problems
[2014-12-27 01:23:19] <diabeticgonewild> I'm about to take a shower. Maybe I will feel better but it might give me a headache due to the vasodilation from the heat of it.
[2014-12-27 01:26:25] <diabeticgonewild> LOL you are so nice RKiTTYWhaleAlly
[2014-12-27 01:35:34] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah but it's ok
[2014-12-27 01:36:31] <diabeticgonewild> There's not a lot that can be done for me.
[2014-12-27 01:36:58] <diabeticgonewild> Perhaps cleaning my room will make me feel better.
[2014-12-27 01:57:54] <diabeticgonewild> Just ordered accessories for my iPhone
[2014-12-27 01:58:17] <diabeticgonewild> I am feeling better though... Time to clean and do laundry
[2014-12-27 02:10:48] <diabeticgonewild> I got an iglaze armour for iPhone 6 plus, satin gold and ivisor glass for iPhone 6 plus
[2014-12-27 02:44:21] <diabeticgonewild> I feel so much better
[2014-12-27 02:44:26] <diabeticgonewild> I don't even know why
[2014-12-27 03:00:31] <diabeticgonewild> Good night
[2014-12-27 03:12:34] <diabeticgonewild> 282
[2014-12-27 03:13:01] <diabeticgonewild> My cold is causing high BGs
[2014-12-27 03:13:34] <diabeticgonewild> Temp basal of 200% for 24 hours
[2014-12-27 03:19:17] <diabeticgonewild> Still high...it's frustrating
[2014-12-27 03:27:57] <diabeticgonewild> And my ear hurts...story of my life
[2014-12-27 03:30:56] <diabeticgonewild> Time to do more laundry
[2014-12-27 10:13:45] <diabeticgonewild> 379
[2014-12-27 10:14:25] <diabeticgonewild> Disconnected my pump in the middle of the night due to being low
[2014-12-27 10:14:49] <diabeticgonewild> I feel like crap
[2014-12-27 14:57:18] <diabeticgonewild> Like after being on a pump for 11 years it's like what for
[2014-12-27 14:57:41] <diabeticgonewild> Same here
[2014-12-27 14:58:25] <diabeticgonewild> I get resistant to long acting insulin after like a month of use
[2014-12-27 14:59:37] <diabeticgonewild> Like I start off at like 30 units of lantus and then I will be at 50 at the end of the month
[2014-12-27 17:53:33] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-12-27 17:53:46] <diabeticgonewild> The wifi sucks in my house.
[2014-12-27 17:53:59] <diabeticgonewild> I used to work at geek squad
[2014-12-27 17:54:09] <diabeticgonewild> I know how it's like
[2014-12-27 18:01:13] <diabeticgonewild> Dang
[2014-12-27 19:05:36] <diabeticgonewild> That's cool.
[2014-12-27 19:06:48] <diabeticgonewild> O insulin, why do I loathe thee
[2014-12-27 19:09:14] <diabeticgonewild> Like 20 songs streamed
[2014-12-27 19:10:57] <diabeticgonewild> I would say 1 day of data
[2014-12-27 19:11:07] <diabeticgonewild> For FB alone
[2014-12-27 19:11:42] <diabeticgonewild> I mean the customer could google that...they are just dumb
[2014-12-27 19:18:51] <diabeticgonewild> Whataburger :P
[2014-12-27 19:20:15] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I have my basal rate set at 200% and I am like 200 still
[2014-12-27 19:20:41] <diabeticgonewild> 11.0 mmol/L
[2014-12-27 19:21:31] <diabeticgonewild> 217
[2014-12-27 19:22:53] <diabeticgonewild> the Internet is sucking in my house again. I need to get the wifi fixed
[2014-12-27 19:25:43] <diabeticgonewild> That's actually an annoying song
[2014-12-27 19:26:35] <diabeticgonewild> I agree on that
[2014-12-27 19:31:00] <diabeticgonewild> Welcome to the club worleygurl
[2014-12-27 19:32:04] <diabeticgonewild> That's good
[2014-12-27 19:33:11] <diabeticgonewild> I have an infection...that's why I'm high
[2014-12-27 19:33:51] <diabeticgonewild> 270
[2014-12-27 19:37:33] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I have a cold and I have antibiotics because I am on immunosuppression. My temp basal is also at 200%
[2014-12-27 19:44:07] <diabeticgonewild> They think it's bacterial
[2014-12-27 19:44:57] <diabeticgonewild> Yep
[2014-12-27 19:45:32] <diabeticgonewild> My lymph nodes were like throbbing a few days ago...remember?
[2014-12-27 19:46:00] <diabeticgonewild> Frankly when I party I just disconnect my pump
[2014-12-27 19:46:12] <diabeticgonewild> But I never party anymore
[2014-12-27 19:46:57] <diabeticgonewild> So it's not like the animas pump...it's only 2x my regular basal
[2014-12-27 19:47:07] <diabeticgonewild> I have a tandem t:slim
[2014-12-27 19:48:01] <diabeticgonewild> 200%+ would be 3x
[2014-12-27 19:48:26] <diabeticgonewild> We are talking about rates not additive percentages
[2014-12-27 19:49:23] <diabeticgonewild> I am not a mathematician but I am an EE student so I know enough to get by
[2014-12-27 20:11:34] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I have the house to myself tonight...my mom is out to a movie
[2014-12-27 20:12:04] <diabeticgonewild> I'm 25 and I still live with my mom.
[2014-12-27 20:12:10] <diabeticgonewild> :P
[2014-12-27 20:13:02] <diabeticgonewild> But there is nothing that I can really do about that...I am pretty much too sick to work/keep a job right now
[2014-12-27 20:13:16] <diabeticgonewild> I am trying to finish up my degree
[2014-12-27 20:13:28] <diabeticgonewild> So I can move on with my life
[2014-12-27 20:15:39] <diabeticgonewild> Electrical engineering. I am doing it online at Arizona state university online. It's abet accredited so I can work as an engineer in the us
[2014-12-27 20:16:16] <diabeticgonewild> The school I was going to before basically screwed me over.. I mean the engineering school did.
[2014-12-27 20:16:29] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah for sure.
[2014-12-27 20:17:04] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, but I am going to try to get an internship
[2014-12-27 20:17:28] <diabeticgonewild> I had to decline one with Intel in Folsom ca for 6 months due to my health
[2014-12-27 20:18:12] <diabeticgonewild> My mom and doctor won't approve though because I am receiving disability benefits
[2014-12-27 20:18:38] <diabeticgonewild> 25
[2014-12-27 20:18:58] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-12-27 20:19:36] <diabeticgonewild> Like I have two rare autoimmune neuropathies in addition to type 1 diabetes
[2014-12-27 20:20:21] <diabeticgonewild> My neurologist is pretty sure I can work though in the future
[2014-12-27 20:20:43] <diabeticgonewild> My mom isn't cutting into my check though
[2014-12-27 20:21:32] <diabeticgonewild> Like I have autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-12-27 20:21:41] <diabeticgonewild> Health insurance
[2014-12-27 20:22:09] <diabeticgonewild> Like once I turn 26 I get to stay on her health insurance
[2014-12-27 20:22:20] <diabeticgonewild> As long as I have Medicare
[2014-12-27 20:22:30] <diabeticgonewild> And it covers my cgm
[2014-12-27 20:22:36] <diabeticgonewild> Medicare doesn't
[2014-12-27 20:23:48] <diabeticgonewild> Well I worked, went to school, got good grades, and juggled around multiple chronic illnesses
[2014-12-27 20:24:10] <diabeticgonewild> It was worth working because I became entitled to that benefit
[2014-12-27 20:24:22] <diabeticgonewild> Even though it was hard as hell
[2014-12-27 20:25:40] <diabeticgonewild> It sucks FICA taxes I mean
[2014-12-27 20:26:50] <diabeticgonewild> Like I also had to prove that I was unable to work before age 22 too
[2014-12-27 20:27:20] <diabeticgonewild> Like I hate it too. I want to move on with my life.
[2014-12-27 20:30:20] <diabeticgonewild> Wtf that sucks
[2014-12-27 20:30:41] <diabeticgonewild> Both of my parents are accounts
[2014-12-27 20:31:00] <diabeticgonewild> Well my dad was a CPA
[2014-12-27 20:31:04] <diabeticgonewild> That blows
[2014-12-27 20:31:22] <diabeticgonewild> My dad passed away suddenly a couple of years ago
[2014-12-27 20:32:18] <diabeticgonewild> It's fine there's nothing I can do to bring him back
[2014-12-27 20:33:27] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks
[2014-12-27 20:33:41] <diabeticgonewild> My parents were married for 29 years
[2014-12-27 20:34:19] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah man I would probably be weirded out if I didn't hear back from my mom
[2014-12-27 20:35:43] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks man
[2014-12-27 20:36:44] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah you know how it is with family
[2014-12-27 20:47:25] <diabeticgonewild> My twin brother is now home
[2014-12-27 20:49:12] <diabeticgonewild> I think it's time to take a shower
[2014-12-27 20:49:18] <diabeticgonewild> Yay
[2014-12-27 20:54:07] <diabeticgonewild> True
[2014-12-27 20:54:45] <diabeticgonewild> I can't really take showers due to having low blood pressure while standing up
[2014-12-27 20:55:02] <diabeticgonewild> So the bath water is running right now
[2014-12-27 20:55:14] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-27 20:56:52] <diabeticgonewild> Lol
[2014-12-27 20:58:17] <diabeticgonewild> That's cool
[2014-12-27 20:58:20] <diabeticgonewild> Ttyl
[2014-12-27 21:15:13] <diabeticgonewild> Just got out of the shower...it felt good
[2014-12-27 21:25:51] <diabeticgonewild> 148
[2014-12-27 21:26:02] <diabeticgonewild> Finally
[2014-12-27 23:25:13] <diabeticgonewild> 57
[2014-12-28 00:10:45] <diabeticgonewild> I guess everyone is having an exciting Saturday night
[2014-12-28 00:27:40] <diabeticgonewild> I'm finally feeling good for once
[2014-12-28 00:49:49] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I guess I'm lucky
[2014-12-28 00:52:15] <diabeticgonewild> ☺️
[2014-12-28 01:14:41] <diabeticgonewild> Going to meditate soon. 😀
[2014-12-28 01:15:17] <diabeticgonewild> Mahamudra for the Modern World
[2014-12-28 01:15:17] <diabeticgonewild> By Reginald Ray
[2014-12-28 02:06:21] <diabeticgonewild> Damnit tension headache is coming back. No good meditation tonight.
[2014-12-28 02:29:51] <diabeticgonewild> I know I suck but I am too out of it to watch and pay attention to the video. My medicine is kicking in hardcore
[2014-12-28 02:30:50] <diabeticgonewild> I took headache and nausea medicine
[2014-12-28 02:31:15] <diabeticgonewild> It's hitting me hard
[2014-12-28 02:59:20] <diabeticgonewild> Can't fall asleep fml
[2014-12-28 03:00:48] <diabeticgonewild> RKiTTYWhaleAlly: that video is mesmerizing
[2014-12-28 03:02:34] <diabeticgonewild> Ewww clarksonguy04
[2014-12-28 03:18:19] <diabeticgonewild> 44
[2014-12-28 03:18:36] <diabeticgonewild> That's why I can't sleep
[2014-12-28 03:19:39] <diabeticgonewild> Nothing like being under the influence of sedatives with low blood sugar
[2014-12-28 03:27:29] <diabeticgonewild> 42
[2014-12-28 03:27:37] <diabeticgonewild> Fml
[2014-12-28 03:31:27] <diabeticgonewild> I did
[2014-12-28 03:31:42] <diabeticgonewild> Like 45 grams
[2014-12-28 03:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> I have severe gastroparesis so that affects absorption
[2014-12-28 03:33:11] <diabeticgonewild> Fwiw it's not diabetes related
[2014-12-28 03:39:17] <diabeticgonewild> Lol I guess...it's not really a good thing as there are only case reports and cohorts in the medical literature about autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-12-28 03:40:10] <diabeticgonewild> Yep
[2014-12-28 03:41:34] <diabeticgonewild> It finally got a Wikipedia page a couple of months ago
[2014-12-28 03:42:29] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Autoimmune_autonomic_ganglionopathy
[2014-12-28 03:44:51] <diabeticgonewild> I worked on it for awhile but it got deleted. I need to add some stuff.
[2014-12-28 04:14:40] <diabeticgonewild> I guess no sleep for me tonight
[2014-12-28 06:08:47] <diabeticgonewild> Starting to get depressed again, FML
[2014-12-28 06:09:48] <diabeticgonewild> Maybe I should try programming a new model of the artificial pancreas project, would you like that bewest ?
[2014-12-28 06:48:05] <diabeticgonewild> I need to go straight C++ for the sake of success. It's going to be hard. I haven't done hardcore programming in a couple of years and that makes me so sad. My life has changed so much due to my medical problems. It's devastating
[2014-12-28 07:07:38] <diabeticgonewild> http://youtu.be/a6Gf68TBCK4
[2014-12-28 18:07:51] <diabeticgonewild> I've had like 10 grams of carbs today
[2014-12-28 18:10:01] <diabeticgonewild> I slept all day, it's pathetic
[2014-12-28 19:16:47] <diabeticgonewild> damnit, I hate having bowel issues due to autonomic neuropathy, FML
[2014-12-28 19:16:52] <diabeticgonewild> TMI, I know
[2014-12-28 19:22:22] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it's crappy weather here too in Texas
[2014-12-28 19:22:32] <diabeticgonewild> Dreary Seattle like weather
[2014-12-28 19:54:02] <diabeticgonewild> I'm from Seattle, RKittyWhaleAlly
[2014-12-28 19:54:11] <diabeticgonewild> I don't live there though
[2014-12-28 19:54:20] <diabeticgonewild> diabot, weather houston
[2014-12-28 19:56:10] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-12-28 20:25:02] <diabeticgonewild> I have 2 autoimmune neuropathies, for what it's worth
[2014-12-28 20:25:12] <diabeticgonewild> they think one of them caused my type 1 diabetes
[2014-12-28 20:26:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-12-28 20:26:45] <diabeticgonewild> I get intravenous immunoglobulin every 4 weeks 0.6 g/kg and CellCept 1500 mg/day
[2014-12-28 20:27:23] <diabeticgonewild> correct
[2014-12-28 20:27:48] <diabeticgonewild> progressive muscle weakness
[2014-12-28 20:27:55] <diabeticgonewild> neuropathic pain
[2014-12-28 20:28:06] <diabeticgonewild> loss of reflexes
[2014-12-28 20:28:08] <diabeticgonewild> and sensory stuff
[2014-12-28 20:28:21] <diabeticgonewild> and it can sometimes affect autonomic function too
[2014-12-28 20:28:34] <diabeticgonewild> but I have autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy (neuropathy, basically)
[2014-12-28 20:29:12] <diabeticgonewild> like I tested positive for the antiboides for autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-12-28 20:29:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's peripheral
[2014-12-28 20:29:22] <diabeticgonewild> they run along the spinal cord
[2014-12-28 20:29:29] <diabeticgonewild> but they are not part of the CNS
[2014-12-28 20:29:38] <diabeticgonewild> like bell's palsy?
[2014-12-28 20:30:30] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks.
[2014-12-28 20:30:34] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-12-28 20:30:47] <diabeticgonewild> I had AAG probably prior to being diagnosed at age 5
[2014-12-28 20:30:55] <diabeticgonewild> it manifested as bladder problems
[2014-12-28 20:30:59] <diabeticgonewild> and progressed
[2014-12-28 20:31:08] <diabeticgonewild> like by age 14, I am pretty sure I had gastroparesis
[2014-12-28 20:31:18] <diabeticgonewild> autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-12-28 20:31:38] <diabeticgonewild> like at 18 I had postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome
[2014-12-28 20:31:41] <diabeticgonewild> and like at age 21
[2014-12-28 20:32:05] <diabeticgonewild> I had unmanageable orthostatic hypotension that progressed to the point I was being hospitalized every couple of weeks.
[2014-12-28 20:32:27] <diabeticgonewild> Like over the summer, at age 25, I was diagnosed with CIDP
[2014-12-28 20:32:32] <diabeticgonewild> I'm 25
[2014-12-28 20:32:59] <diabeticgonewild> I was diagnosed with "conversion disorder" at age 18, which my doctors believe now was Guillain-Barre Syndrome
[2014-12-28 20:33:04] <diabeticgonewild> no
[2014-12-28 20:33:09] <diabeticgonewild> the symptoms are correct
[2014-12-28 20:33:15] <diabeticgonewild> basically, when you stand up
[2014-12-28 20:33:33] <diabeticgonewild> your nerves in your legs get signals to constrict the blood vessels, and that regulates blood pressure
[2014-12-28 20:33:44] <diabeticgonewild> when you have orthostatic problems, this doesn't happen as well
[2014-12-28 20:34:09] <diabeticgonewild> postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome is basically a more indolent form of autonomic neuropathy
[2014-12-28 20:34:15] <diabeticgonewild> correct Seeker
[2014-12-28 20:35:13] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I was diagnosed initially with diabetic autonomic neuropathy, but it got too extreme for that, even though there technically are not limits to diabetic autonomic neuropathy
[2014-12-28 20:35:35] <diabeticgonewild> like at age 18 I was diagnosed with diabetic autonomic neuropathy, even though it was the AAG
[2014-12-28 20:35:52] <diabeticgonewild> I didn't have any other complications due to diabetes, and I still don't
[2014-12-28 20:36:05] <diabeticgonewild> I had been in and out of the hospital
[2014-12-28 20:36:19] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have Medicare and private insurance through my mom (which I can keep)
[2014-12-28 20:36:32] <diabeticgonewild> have you tried Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution?
[2014-12-28 20:37:02] <diabeticgonewild> WTF worleygurl
[2014-12-28 20:37:14] <diabeticgonewild> I was working on becoming a transcriber for the blind
[2014-12-28 20:37:19] <diabeticgonewild> you should take off work
[2014-12-28 20:38:27] <diabeticgonewild> ttyl
[2014-12-28 20:40:00] <diabeticgonewild> for low carb bake mixes, this site looks spammy, but it's legit http://low-carb-news.blogspot.com/2014/03/splendid-gluten-free-bake-mix-3.html
[2014-12-28 20:42:55] <diabeticgonewild> here are some other bake mixes
[2014-12-28 20:43:01] <diabeticgonewild> http://barboslowcarbkitchen.proboards.com/thread/937
[2014-12-28 20:43:07] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/low-carb-recipe-help-suggestions/768175-fantastic-flour-mix.html
[2014-12-28 20:43:16] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/memorial-kevinpa-his-best-recipes/835700-carbquik-there-recipe.html
[2014-12-28 20:43:21] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/low-carb-recipe-help-suggestions/700280-how-do-i-make-copycat-bisquik-out-kevinpas-flour-recipes.html
[2014-12-28 20:43:26] <diabeticgonewild> That's it.
[2014-12-28 20:43:32] <diabeticgonewild> I feel bad for worleygurl
[2014-12-28 20:43:52] <diabeticgonewild> Going blind is awful. I had a professor who went blind suddenly due to diabetic retinopathy
[2014-12-28 21:00:03] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have to, I am on a pump and I am on medicare
[2014-12-28 21:00:16] <diabeticgonewild> if I don't see my doctor every 90 days = no pump supplies
[2014-12-28 21:04:51] <diabeticgonewild> my eyes don't work properly. I have to see a neuro-opthamologist and they can't really do much for me. Like it's like my eyes don't converge on images.
[2014-12-28 21:07:32] <diabeticgonewild> pretty much can't focus
[2014-12-28 21:07:59] <diabeticgonewild> like they recommended bifocals, and then they were like "just kidding" because I would never get out of them, and I would need them for life
[2014-12-28 21:10:37] <diabeticgonewild> so yeah, I could benefit from bifocals, but not really, because I would never get out of them
[2014-12-28 21:13:23] <diabeticgonewild> it costs like $600 more for the lenses
[2014-12-28 21:13:31] <diabeticgonewild> and it makes the muscles of my eyes weaker
[2014-12-29 01:02:24] <diabeticgonewild> I guess it's time for a shower. I also feel terrible for no reason at all.
[2014-12-29 01:25:09] <diabeticgonewild> I love how my friends have moved on with their lives and I am like dysfunctional
[2014-12-29 01:44:00] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah my cgm trend arrow is going up.
[2014-12-29 01:44:14] <diabeticgonewild> I am also anxious for no reason at all.
[2014-12-29 01:44:37] <diabeticgonewild> And I am feeling really depressed.
[2014-12-29 01:51:46] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-12-29 01:51:50] <diabeticgonewild> are you on vacation?
[2014-12-29 01:52:44] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-12-29 01:53:03] <diabeticgonewild> I feel worthless though. I'm 25, and I have a ton of medical problems, and I can't even implement my plans.
[2014-12-29 01:53:16] <diabeticgonewild> I also struggle to go to school online, so I can finish my degree and work.
[2014-12-29 01:54:09] <diabeticgonewild> I guess but that's not really the problem.
[2014-12-29 01:54:24] <diabeticgonewild> I am just devastated by not being able to do the things I want/need to do
[2014-12-29 01:54:27] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-29 01:54:34] <diabeticgonewild> I have depression and stuff
[2014-12-29 01:55:11] <diabeticgonewild> I don't know, either
[2014-12-29 01:55:34] <diabeticgonewild> Like, I was suicidal from age 14 like every day, and attempted suicide at age 17
[2014-12-29 01:55:45] <diabeticgonewild> and I have been struggling on and off with suicidal thoughts
[2014-12-29 01:56:01] <diabeticgonewild> also although I am not tempted to do so now, I have access to barbiturates
[2014-12-29 01:56:21] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-29 01:56:49] <diabeticgonewild> idk, I got screwed
[2014-12-29 01:57:07] <diabeticgonewild> I saw like the worst doctor on the planet at age 16
[2014-12-29 01:57:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-29 01:57:30] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, you were lucky
[2014-12-29 01:57:35] <diabeticgonewild> probably
[2014-12-29 01:57:48] <diabeticgonewild> I had a doctor who saw 60 patients in an afternoon
[2014-12-29 01:57:53] <diabeticgonewild> like a psychiatrist
[2014-12-29 01:57:54] <diabeticgonewild> like
[2014-12-29 01:58:04] <diabeticgonewild> you don't even have to make an appointment with her
[2014-12-29 01:58:07] <diabeticgonewild> you just walk in
[2014-12-29 01:58:12] <diabeticgonewild> and sign your name
[2014-12-29 01:58:15] <diabeticgonewild> and take a number
[2014-12-29 01:58:22] <diabeticgonewild> and her "numbering system" went up to 30
[2014-12-29 01:58:26] <diabeticgonewild> and one time in her office
[2014-12-29 01:58:58] <diabeticgonewild> The nurse who brought you to her office called out the whole "numbering system" twice while I was there
[2014-12-29 01:59:04] <diabeticgonewild> so she saw at least 60 patients
[2014-12-29 01:59:23] <diabeticgonewild> and she took payments (like free lunches) from pharma companies
[2014-12-29 01:59:39] <diabeticgonewild> and like her office was so overfilled that people would be waiting out in the hallway
[2014-12-29 02:00:10] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.vitals.com/doctors/Dr_Eileen_Starbranch/reviews
[2014-12-29 02:00:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, so I told my mom that it was BS
[2014-12-29 02:00:44] <diabeticgonewild> and she got me to a different doctor
[2014-12-29 02:00:48] <diabeticgonewild> are you like in Asia
[2014-12-29 02:00:58] <diabeticgonewild> and I attempted suicide shortly thereafter
[2014-12-29 02:01:15] <diabeticgonewild> where? (may I ask?)
[2014-12-29 02:01:33] <diabeticgonewild> no, it was waiting for the meds to kick in and I was already depressed as hell
[2014-12-29 02:01:36] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-12-29 02:01:40] <diabeticgonewild> got it
[2014-12-29 02:01:58] <diabeticgonewild> pretty consistent reviews
[2014-12-29 02:01:58] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.ratemds.com/doctor-ratings/9221/Dr-Eileen%2BK.-Starbranch-HOUSTON-TX.html
[2014-12-29 02:02:18] <diabeticgonewild> she Rxed me crap that caused like bowel incontinence and she discontinued it
[2014-12-29 02:02:19] <diabeticgonewild> and then
[2014-12-29 02:02:55] <diabeticgonewild> she's like "oh well you responded good to that!" and I knew there was some issue with that med but I had been on so many that I didn't remember what the issue was
[2014-12-29 02:03:02] <diabeticgonewild> and she Rxed it to me again
[2014-12-29 02:03:10] <diabeticgonewild> like you see her for 5 minutes tops
[2014-12-29 02:03:13] <diabeticgonewild> like do the math
[2014-12-29 02:03:19] <diabeticgonewild> 60 patients in an afternoon
[2014-12-29 02:03:24] <diabeticgonewild> doctors work 10 hours/da
[2014-12-29 02:03:25] <diabeticgonewild> y
[2014-12-29 02:03:42] <diabeticgonewild> she only sees patients in the afternoons, so half the day is already gone
[2014-12-29 02:04:30] <diabeticgonewild> mine is like 15 minutes, but he knows what he is doing. i just have a ton of medical problems
[2014-12-29 02:04:41] <diabeticgonewild> and it's really hard to deal with
[2014-12-29 02:05:05] <diabeticgonewild> honestly, I don't think I would be as fucked up if I never encountered that doctor.
[2014-12-29 02:06:01] <diabeticgonewild> it's fine. it's just the way it is. At least my doctor knows what he is doing.
[2014-12-29 02:06:37] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, I totally lost respect for psychiatry as a field after seeing the first doctor that I saw, who I saw for like a year.
[2014-12-29 02:07:53] <diabeticgonewild> so I mean, I have never been on the right foot
[2014-12-29 02:08:02] <diabeticgonewild> but like I never really did anything wrong either
[2014-12-29 02:10:12] <diabeticgonewild> This pretty much sums it up (by the way, I have been to a Social Security office)
[2014-12-29 02:10:13] <diabeticgonewild> Her office is like a welfare clinic. Saw her staff at 800 am to fill out forms and told to return at 2pm to see the doctor. She didnt even arrive until after 330pm. Saw her for 10 minutes and could never get her staff to answer the phone. Will not be returning!
[2014-12-29 02:10:25] <diabeticgonewild> I am in university, online
[2014-12-29 02:10:33] <diabeticgonewild> I was at the University of Houston
[2014-12-29 02:10:45] <diabeticgonewild> but I was forced to take medical withdrawal four times
[2014-12-29 02:11:33] <diabeticgonewild> and like the electrical engineering department thought that it was "out of control" (I found this out from my advisor) and they were talking about giving me Fs instead of Ws if I withdrew again for medical reasons, because they have that option at this school
[2014-12-29 02:11:46] <diabeticgonewild> 4 semesters, of medical withdrawal
[2014-12-29 02:13:43] <diabeticgonewild> like 9 hospital trips due to undiagnosed autonomic neuropathy (severe gastroparesis), losing my ability to eat due to severe gastroparesis and losing 35 pounds and needing surgery for a gastric pacemaker, asking for incompletes after BEING *ADMITTED* TO THE HOSPITAL DURING FINAL EXAMS due to orthostatic hypotension and instead being given Fs for missing my
[2014-12-29 02:13:43] <diabeticgonewild> finals and being forced to take medical withdrawal, and then going in to sepsis from switching immunomodulatory treatments in the middle of the semester from a central venous catheter contaminant
[2014-12-29 02:14:27] <diabeticgonewild> and they had a past history of not giving me accommodations in general, so I transferred out to a school that is more understanding
[2014-12-29 02:15:25] <diabeticgonewild> a very bad past history
[2014-12-29 02:15:50] <diabeticgonewild> like when I went to the disabilities office, the director would complain in the yearly meeting that "engineering is the worst"
[2014-12-29 02:15:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that is a bed of roses
[2014-12-29 02:16:02] <diabeticgonewild> my medical problems though have gotten worse
[2014-12-29 02:16:06] <diabeticgonewild> ASU is so much nicer
[2014-12-29 02:16:11] <diabeticgonewild> Arizona State University
[2014-12-29 02:16:16] <diabeticgonewild> like so much nicer
[2014-12-29 02:16:59] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-29 02:17:20] <diabeticgonewild> for getting accommodations, and she "didn't have any trouble with any other college"
[2014-12-29 02:17:26] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2014-12-29 02:17:45] <diabeticgonewild> Like ASU, the online degree, it looks the same as if I took it in person, and it's ABET-accredited
[2014-12-29 02:19:20] <diabeticgonewild> like idk how they could do that to me, looking back. They were so unreasonable
[2014-12-29 02:20:56] <diabeticgonewild> Like my psychologist, who has a role in academia, said she would never recommend the University of Houston's engineering school to a student with a disability
[2014-12-29 02:21:00] <diabeticgonewild> can you imagine that?
[2014-12-29 02:22:43] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I am angry, but it's insane
[2014-12-29 02:23:33] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2014-12-29 02:23:41] <diabeticgonewild> very cool
[2014-12-29 02:23:45] <diabeticgonewild> proctoru.com
[2014-12-29 02:23:53] <diabeticgonewild> online proctored exams
[2014-12-29 02:25:19] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-12-29 02:25:38] <diabeticgonewild> no, 100% online
[2014-12-29 02:25:54] <diabeticgonewild> like we have lab kits and stuff
[2014-12-29 02:26:34] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-dr_Z80qWU
[2014-12-29 02:26:49] <diabeticgonewild> like I put in like 3-4, but I am sick. It's only part-time for me
[2014-12-29 02:27:00] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, there are 6 terms per year (two per semester)
[2014-12-29 02:27:44] <diabeticgonewild> so it's like 7.5-8 weeks depending on the course
[2014-12-29 02:28:13] <diabeticgonewild> it's not self-paced
[2014-12-29 02:29:56] <diabeticgonewild> ttyl thank you
[2014-12-29 02:31:06] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-12-29 02:52:44] <diabeticgonewild> hey how are you?
[2014-12-29 02:53:15] <diabeticgonewild> pretty good, just depressed as usual
[2014-12-29 02:53:18] <diabeticgonewild> and dysfunctional
[2014-12-29 02:53:40] <diabeticgonewild> what's wrong?
[2014-12-29 02:54:27] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that sucks
[2014-12-29 02:54:34] <diabeticgonewild> you should do something to relax
[2014-12-29 02:55:22] <diabeticgonewild> that's too bad
[2014-12-29 02:55:27] <diabeticgonewild> It must hurt too
[2014-12-29 02:56:14] <diabeticgonewild> true
[2014-12-29 02:56:39] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, you wouldn't...it's kind of judgemental and inconsiderate
[2014-12-29 02:58:13] <diabeticgonewild> definitely
[2014-12-29 02:58:31] <diabeticgonewild> how would another american know anyways, it's kind of subjective?
[2014-12-29 02:59:17] <diabeticgonewild> anyways it's not worth letting that stuff get to you
[2014-12-29 02:59:19] <diabeticgonewild> I bet
[2014-12-29 03:00:21] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-29 03:01:32] <diabeticgonewild> I beleive that, but I am white, I have the "passing privilege"
[2014-12-29 03:01:34] <diabeticgonewild> no offense
[2014-12-29 03:01:42] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't completely understand
[2014-12-29 03:02:13] <diabeticgonewild> it's certainly not fair to you
[2014-12-29 03:02:19] <diabeticgonewild> or anyone in your race
[2014-12-29 03:02:22] <diabeticgonewild> which is sad
[2014-12-29 03:02:25] <diabeticgonewild> and awful too
[2014-12-29 03:02:30] <diabeticgonewild> but idk what to say
[2014-12-29 03:02:33] <diabeticgonewild> and you are welcome
[2014-12-29 03:03:38] <diabeticgonewild> sure they are
[2014-12-29 03:03:44] <diabeticgonewild> I got stressed out earlier
[2014-12-29 03:03:49] <diabeticgonewild> over what my school did to me
[2014-12-29 03:04:10] <diabeticgonewild> I was talking about it on IRC, but it's not worth reiterating...
[2014-12-29 03:07:17] <diabeticgonewild> basically, I have two rare autoimmune neuropathies, in addition to type 1 diabetes. I was forced to take medical withdrawal 4 times from the University of Houston. I meet with my advisor before school starts and she tells me that they had a "meeting last week" and
[2014-12-29 03:07:52] <diabeticgonewild> they were talking about how I took medical withdrawal four times, and that they were going to give me Fs instead of Ws if I withdrew again for medical reasons
[2014-12-29 03:08:18] <diabeticgonewild> they had a bad track record of not giving me disability accommodations
[2014-12-29 03:08:21] <diabeticgonewild> so I transferred out
[2014-12-29 03:08:30] <diabeticgonewild> to Arizona State University Online
[2014-12-29 03:08:53] <diabeticgonewild> I'm going to copy and paste something, and it sounds angry but I'm not anymore
[2014-12-29 03:09:05] <diabeticgonewild> like the electrical engineering department was planning on doing that to me
[2014-12-29 03:09:28] <diabeticgonewild> these were the reasons for the medical withdrawals
[2014-12-29 03:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> 1:11 AM <diabeticgonewild> 4 semesters, of medical withdrawal
[2014-12-29 03:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> 1:13 AM <diabeticgonewild> like 9 hospital trips due to undiagnosed autonomic neuropathy (severe gastroparesis), losing my ability to eat due to severe gastroparesis and losing 35 pounds and needing surgery for a gastric pacemaker, asking for incompletes after BEING *ADMITTED* TO THE HOSPITAL DURING FINAL EXAMS due to orthostatic hypotension and instead
[2014-12-29 03:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> being given Fs for missing my
[2014-12-29 03:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> 1:13 AM <diabeticgonewild> finals and being forced to take medical withdrawal, and then going in to sepsis from switching immunomodulatory treatments in the middle of the semester from a central venous catheter contaminant
[2014-12-29 03:10:10] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, so I transferred out and my new school (ASU) is amazing and it's a bed of roses compared to my former university
[2014-12-29 03:12:56] <diabeticgonewild> 100% online, bachelors of science of engineering in electrical engineering
[2014-12-29 03:13:09] <diabeticgonewild> ABET-accredited, so I can work as an engineer in the US
[2014-12-29 03:13:19] <diabeticgonewild> and the degree looks the same as if I did it in-person
[2014-12-29 03:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it is. We have like lab kits and we have our exams (sometimes) proctored online, over the Internet
[2014-12-29 03:15:15] <diabeticgonewild> and the professors are amazing and approachable
[2014-12-29 03:15:52] <diabeticgonewild> people all over the world take classes there, it works out well
[2014-12-29 03:16:01] <diabeticgonewild> the professors are very understanding, even of my situation
[2014-12-29 03:16:57] <diabeticgonewild> I was lucky. The option opened up right as I got the bad news from my advisor. Thank you.
[2014-12-29 03:20:01] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's 2:18 here
[2014-12-29 03:20:37] <diabeticgonewild> I have ADHD and I took my Vyvanse (amphetamine pill) around 3 PM (because I slept all day cause I wasn't feeling well) so I will be up for awhile
[2014-12-29 03:20:46] <diabeticgonewild> I know that's not healthy but that's why I am up
[2014-12-29 03:23:04] <diabeticgonewild> LOL kk
[2014-12-29 03:28:38] <diabeticgonewild> idk, something good that isn't in America?
[2014-12-29 04:03:52] <diabeticgonewild> I am here
[2014-12-29 04:04:39] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2014-12-29 04:05:02] <diabeticgonewild> I will regret it too. I have chronic pain, due to neuropathy (not diabetes-related)
[2014-12-29 04:07:20] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I will.
[2014-12-29 06:29:58] <diabeticgonewild> good morning antoni
[2014-12-29 06:30:05] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2014-12-29 06:31:55] <diabeticgonewild> good, I'm just chilling. I'm feeling better every day it seems...slightly
[2014-12-29 06:41:38] <diabeticgonewild> I just jinxed myself...I am getting a headache
[2014-12-29 06:42:44] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I do. I'm on antibiotics...but I also get tension headaches a lot
[2014-12-29 06:45:33] <diabeticgonewild> I took ibuprofen
[2014-12-29 06:45:59] <diabeticgonewild> I have like Fiorinal too, it's pretty much banned thorughout western Europe, just FYI
[2014-12-29 06:46:04] <diabeticgonewild> it's like barbiturate medicine
[2014-12-29 06:46:14] <diabeticgonewild> which I am trying to avoid taking
[2014-12-29 06:48:19] <diabeticgonewild> You're lucky! :-) I have orthostatic hypotension which causes the headaches.
[2014-12-29 06:51:49] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's no fun
[2014-12-29 06:53:40] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I would try to keep the A1c as low as possible, after all, my neuropathy was initially blamed on my diabetes
[2014-12-29 06:53:42] <diabeticgonewild> no, none
[2014-12-29 06:53:43] <diabeticgonewild> well
[2014-12-29 06:53:54] <diabeticgonewild> actually my mom is having a small party at our house
[2014-12-29 06:54:32] <diabeticgonewild> how about you?
[2014-12-29 06:55:48] <diabeticgonewild> LOL that's cool!
[2014-12-29 06:57:51] <diabeticgonewild> LOL, yeah, that's true
[2014-12-29 06:58:55] <diabeticgonewild> My headache is getting worse...I'm trying to hold off on taking the bad medicine
[2014-12-29 06:59:52] <diabeticgonewild> eventually, yes
[2014-12-29 07:01:28] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I feel better lying down...it's blood pressure related
[2014-12-29 07:08:44] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's good
[2014-12-29 07:09:07] <diabeticgonewild> my mom is waking up...I'm gonna be like "I don't feel good" as the excuse for staying up all night although it's not true
[2014-12-29 07:09:09] <diabeticgonewild> I'm bad
[2014-12-29 07:29:44] <diabeticgonewild> because I felt better, and I took my ADHD medicine late, like at 3 PM
[2014-12-29 07:29:48] <diabeticgonewild> so I stayed up later
[2014-12-29 07:29:54] <diabeticgonewild> like it's an amphetamine pill
[2014-12-29 07:30:08] <diabeticgonewild> I know, it's messed up. I have like a pharmacy at my house.
[2014-12-29 08:18:57] <diabeticgonewild> LOL antoni
[2014-12-29 08:18:58] <diabeticgonewild> !
[2014-12-29 08:21:45] <diabeticgonewild> diabetes meds?
[2014-12-29 08:23:42] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-12-29 08:23:54] <diabeticgonewild> I have like Express Scripts and it takes like 2 weeks to get the medicine
[2014-12-29 08:23:57] <diabeticgonewild> I hate them.
[2014-12-29 08:25:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2014-12-29 08:25:54] <diabeticgonewild> I am switching to CVS/Caremark next year
[2014-12-29 08:26:33] <diabeticgonewild> I am lucky. As long as I have a stockpile of supplies, I won't need to use Lantus as a type 1. I have a backup Tandem t:slim pump
[2014-12-29 08:26:51] <diabeticgonewild> CVS/Caremark allows you to pick up 90 day prescriptions at the local CVS
[2014-12-29 08:28:06] <diabeticgonewild> yeah your employer has your prescription benefit different
[2014-12-29 08:28:16] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I have to use Express Scripts...this year
[2014-12-29 08:28:55] <diabeticgonewild> Do you have an iPhone worleygurl ?
[2014-12-29 08:29:17] <diabeticgonewild> http://knfbreader.com/
[2014-12-29 08:30:29] <diabeticgonewild> I would totally send you a gift card and pay for it for you
[2014-12-29 08:31:37] <diabeticgonewild> Do you have an Android phone?
[2014-12-29 08:32:27] <diabeticgonewild> For the visually impaired, Apple puts out the most solid stuff, particularly with iOS
[2014-12-29 08:32:37] <diabeticgonewild> http://applevis.com/
[2014-12-29 08:32:44] <diabeticgonewild> it's a very informative site
[2014-12-29 08:33:55] <diabeticgonewild> VoiceOver on iOS is very solid. There are free apps with tutorials on it, particularly geared for the visually impaired.
[2014-12-29 08:34:44] <diabeticgonewild> keep that in mind, Unfortunately you are going to have to.
[2014-12-29 08:35:23] <diabeticgonewild> what pump do you have, just for my information
[2014-12-29 08:35:47] <diabeticgonewild> also, I am part of the nightscout developers group, and we talked about making the Nightscout accessible
[2014-12-29 08:35:54] <diabeticgonewild> we just need a person for input on it
[2014-12-29 08:36:29] <diabeticgonewild> if you have the t:slim, that can even be made accessible using tactile overlays
[2014-12-29 08:38:41] <diabeticgonewild> OK, I will keep that in mind so it can be figured out ASAP
[2014-12-29 08:39:06] <diabeticgonewild> brb, 2 mins
[2014-12-29 08:42:57] <diabeticgonewild> sorry I had to move cars
[2014-12-29 08:43:21] <diabeticgonewild> First off, there is an article from the National Federation of the Blind on what to do if you are losing your sight
[2014-12-29 08:43:23] <diabeticgonewild> Tylenol
[2014-12-29 08:45:08] <diabeticgonewild> This is a must read, worleygurl
[2014-12-29 08:45:08] <diabeticgonewild> https://nfb.org/images/nfb/publications/books/books1/ifblind.htm
[2014-12-29 08:45:26] <diabeticgonewild> if you need a screen reader, for Windows, there is Windows-Eyes
[2014-12-29 08:46:15] <diabeticgonewild> librarians can certify that you are legally blind, so you can get the services you need
[2014-12-29 08:46:22] <diabeticgonewild> like vocational rehabilitation
[2014-12-29 08:46:25] <diabeticgonewild> ok, got it
[2014-12-29 08:46:51] <diabeticgonewild> you need training, through vocational rehab
[2014-12-29 08:47:14] <diabeticgonewild> I can help on the assistive technology part, I was working on becoming a transcriber for the blind and I also use a screenreader
[2014-12-29 08:47:24] <diabeticgonewild> you need to go to you nearest local library
[2014-12-29 08:47:33] <diabeticgonewild> see the librarian, and have them test your sight
[2014-12-29 08:47:56] <diabeticgonewild> they can certify if you are blind, so you can get the proper training through vocational rehab and services through the lighthouse for the blind
[2014-12-29 08:48:06] <diabeticgonewild> also I would call your local lighthouse for the blind
[2014-12-29 08:48:07] <diabeticgonewild> too
[2014-12-29 08:48:40] <diabeticgonewild> you also need to see BOTH a optician and an opthamologist as part of the rehabilitative process
[2014-12-29 08:50:00] <diabeticgonewild> OK please read this article worleygurl , I urge you to. I read this yesterday https://nfb.org/images/nfb/publications/vod/vsum9913.htm
[2014-12-29 08:50:12] <diabeticgonewild> * I read this weeks ago
[2014-12-29 08:50:27] <diabeticgonewild> Who can formally certify you as "legally blind?" Any Doctor of Medicine (MD), of Osteopathy (DO), any Optometrist, Registered Nurses, professional staff of hospitals, agencies, and institutions (social workers, rehabilitation teachers and counselors); and where such professionals are not available, members of organizations such as the National Federation of
[2014-12-29 08:50:27] <diabeticgonewild> the Blind (NFB), or even professional librarians. With such certification, you can contact your state's department of blind services and initiate action. (NOTE: Different states have different names for this agency.)
[2014-12-29 08:51:49] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: as for the CGM stuff, I will get onto nightscout development team to make it an initiative. But I know about accessibility and I will make it a personal objective to get it accessible. I have contacts that can help.
[2014-12-29 08:59:43] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: for starters, have you set your pump for touch/EZ bolus?
[2014-12-29 09:01:26] <diabeticgonewild> You know, like the function that allows you to bolus instantly if you press a single button.
[2014-12-29 09:01:36] <diabeticgonewild> let me look at the Ping user manual.
[2014-12-29 09:02:10] <diabeticgonewild> I found a blog of somebody using the Animas Ping and who is visually impaired
[2014-12-29 09:02:12] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.got-blogger.com/blooddropsbrailledots/?p=31
[2014-12-29 09:03:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I would set it up, just to have it. Even if you use your Ping meter for everything.
[2014-12-29 09:10:34] <diabeticgonewild> There is, here is the NFB listserv for diabetes on the Animas Ping pump...all of the hits from Google
[2014-12-29 09:10:34] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.google.com/search?q=%22animas+ping%22+site%3Anfbnet.org%2Fpipermail%2Fdiabetes-talk_nfbnet.org%2F&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
[2014-12-29 09:10:44] <diabeticgonewild> (the first link)
[2014-12-29 09:11:17] <diabeticgonewild> I am writing on the NightScout Developers Google discussion group for accessibility for the blind
[2014-12-29 09:11:24] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2014-12-29 09:12:14] <diabeticgonewild> no offense, but that's what happened to my engineering professor
[2014-12-29 09:12:17] <diabeticgonewild> she woke up blind
[2014-12-29 09:12:26] <diabeticgonewild> no, you won't
[2014-12-29 09:12:33] <diabeticgonewild> but you need to get services
[2014-12-29 09:13:25] <diabeticgonewild> Also, your phone is your friend. Android accessibility is a joke, just FYI
[2014-12-29 09:13:30] <diabeticgonewild> if you didn't know that
[2014-12-29 09:14:33] <diabeticgonewild> If you go to the dark side, and go to Apple with an iPhone, I will happily send you a digital gift card for the KNFB reader
[2014-12-29 09:14:49] <diabeticgonewild> and I also have a RiVO Keyboard for VoiceOver/iOS that I can mail you
[2014-12-29 09:16:09] <diabeticgonewild> Actually, I have an iPhone 4S I can mail to you.
[2014-12-29 09:16:28] <diabeticgonewild> I used to work in Geek Squad, so it's all up-to-date
[2014-12-29 09:16:34] <diabeticgonewild> I would even overnight it to you
[2014-12-29 09:18:47] <diabeticgonewild> I know I am being intense worleygurl , but if you are interested, I will give you my contact information, so you know who I am and where I live and stuff
[2014-12-29 09:18:51] <diabeticgonewild> I don't want to be creepy
[2014-12-29 09:20:06] <diabeticgonewild> Haha
[2014-12-29 09:20:59] <diabeticgonewild> but please consider the offer. Honestly, I would love to give that stuff away. :) . I was in the process of becoming a braille transcriber.
[2014-12-29 09:22:09] <diabeticgonewild> I have Bookshare
[2014-12-29 09:22:38] <diabeticgonewild> You know where to get the NLS application for the books, and for further access to Bookshare.org and LearningAlly.org
[2014-12-29 09:22:41] <diabeticgonewild> do you?
[2014-12-29 09:22:50] <diabeticgonewild> because I can get that link for you in an instant.
[2014-12-29 09:24:06] <diabeticgonewild> Here is the application. You do this single application, for the National Library Services, and then it works as certification for Bookshare.org, and LearningAlly.org
[2014-12-29 09:24:07] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.loc.gov/nls/pdf/application.pdf
[2014-12-29 09:25:25] <diabeticgonewild> oh, you're awesome!
[2014-12-29 09:25:30] <diabeticgonewild> :D
[2014-12-29 09:31:18] <diabeticgonewild> alright, here's what I am going to write the NightScout Developer's group
[2014-12-29 09:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> Team,
[2014-12-29 09:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> I have been active in diabetes groups in my free time, and over the past couple of days, somebody I know is losing her sight from diabetes. She has lost sight completely in her left eye, and she uses a Dexcom, Animas Ping Pump, and the OneTouch Ping meter. She was diagnosed with severe retinopathy in October, and it progressed to this state.
[2014-12-29 09:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> While she knows where to go to receive services and rehabilitate her situation, she needs a solid way of accessing her CGM in order to maintain independence. She knows that NightScout is the only guaranteed and solid way of accessing her data.
[2014-12-29 09:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> In previous posts, Scott mentioned that we needed a person to test out the platform. In addition, he said the platform would have to likely be separately developed. I agree with this in order to allow the blind to properly analyze the trend and graphical data outputted by the CGM.
[2014-12-29 09:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> I am willing to take full responsibility for the development of this. I know that the prompt implementation of this is an obligation for me, and this individual must rely on NightScout for independence and proper diabetes care, despite having personal significant medical issues.
[2014-12-29 09:31:23] <diabeticgonewild> Although I do not have a visual impairment that affects my sight, I have eye accommodation issues, that prevents text and images from properly converging when I try to focus my eyes, due to autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy. I frequently use screen readers (on Windows and Mac) such as Kurzweil 3000 and VoiceOver (on my iPhone).
[2014-12-29 09:31:24] <diabeticgonewild> I am aware of accessibility standards, and I can take responsibility for the entire implementation of an accessible platform, but I will need you guidance along the way. Your help in serving this important need is appreciated.
[2014-12-29 09:31:24] <diabeticgonewild> Sincerely,
[2014-12-29 09:31:24] <diabeticgonewild> Monica
[2014-12-29 09:31:29] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-12-29 09:32:51] <diabeticgonewild> tell me if it is OK with you
[2014-12-29 09:32:59] <diabeticgonewild> *please tell me
[2014-12-29 09:36:21] <diabeticgonewild> ok, I will send it
[2014-12-29 09:36:42] <diabeticgonewild> sorry
[2014-12-29 09:49:56] <diabeticgonewild> ok
[2014-12-29 09:54:27] <diabeticgonewild> I just hope they take the NightScout thing seriously.
[2014-12-29 09:54:47] <diabeticgonewild> I know, I made a mistake, and I am not going to do it again.
[2014-12-29 09:56:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, thank you
[2014-12-29 10:05:54] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: there was a really informative post by Jen on here http://www.tudiabetes.org/forum/topics/are-insulin-pumps-accessible
[2014-12-29 10:14:41] <diabeticgonewild> well, I don't mean to be inconsiderate, but what are your priorities?
[2014-12-29 10:15:44] <diabeticgonewild> alright, well there you go.
[2014-12-29 10:16:16] <diabeticgonewild> If it were me, my health would be my first priority, but I guess you have to do what you have to do. I can't judge either, you are in a really bad situation.
[2014-12-29 10:17:13] <diabeticgonewild> I know, that's why I said I wasn't going to judge.
[2014-12-29 10:17:22] <diabeticgonewild> but I should of sounded more considerate
[2014-12-29 10:18:08] <diabeticgonewild> That is very true. I unfortunately have to agree with you.
[2014-12-29 10:19:50] <diabeticgonewild> That is correct.
[2014-12-29 10:20:31] <diabeticgonewild> That's why you need to get services ASAP (like vocational rehabilitation)
[2014-12-29 10:20:40] <diabeticgonewild> but even I don't know your situation
[2014-12-29 10:20:58] <diabeticgonewild> do you think you are legally blind at this point of time?
[2014-12-29 10:21:09] <diabeticgonewild> because if you are, you can receive financial assistance
[2014-12-29 10:21:25] <diabeticgonewild> it's just really sad for me, to hear you suffer like this
[2014-12-29 10:22:00] <diabeticgonewild> I hope so
[2014-12-29 10:23:04] <diabeticgonewild> Look, this isn't time for stories, but I was tested for a disease that I should of never had, and it was blamed on diabetes. The only reason why I know it's not diabetes-related is because of Google and being tested for the antibodies. If I did not have a supportive family I would be screwed.
[2014-12-29 10:23:14] <diabeticgonewild> That is why I really feel terrible about your situation.
[2014-12-29 10:23:37] <diabeticgonewild> I will do my best to help you.
[2014-12-29 10:24:01] <diabeticgonewild> I will not judge though, and I wasn't trying to judge you in the first place, so I apologize.
[2014-12-29 10:24:27] <diabeticgonewild> Who knows. Have you read the nfb.org publication Voice of the Blind Diabetic?
[2014-12-29 10:25:17] <diabeticgonewild> OK, I won't bother you then with reading material
[2014-12-29 13:04:42] <diabeticgonewild> it's an icebox in my room
[2014-12-29 14:20:31] <diabeticgonewild> I am listening to my mom and grandma bitch back and forth at each other about my 90 year old grandmother's caretakers
[2014-12-29 14:20:36] <diabeticgonewild> it's driving me insane
[2014-12-29 14:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> yeah for sure
[2014-12-29 14:40:07] <diabeticgonewild> have you tried ingesting (it's neurotoxic--don't use lozenges or like nose sprays or anything) zing?
[2014-12-29 14:40:10] <diabeticgonewild> *zinc?
[2014-12-29 14:40:42] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.webmd.com/cold-and-flu/cold-guide/zinc-lozenges-cold-remedy
[2014-12-29 14:41:08] <diabeticgonewild> FYI Zinc nasal sprays are known to cause a loss of the sense of smell in animals, and there have been several reports of people having decreased sense of smell or completely losing their sense of smell from zinc nasal sprays.
[2014-12-29 14:41:16] <diabeticgonewild> that works, LOL
[2014-12-29 14:42:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's cool
[2014-12-29 14:50:33] <diabeticgonewild> mmmm enchiladas for lunch...(haven't ate today...it's microwave)
[2014-12-29 14:51:58] <diabeticgonewild> that's high for a type 2
[2014-12-29 14:52:32] <diabeticgonewild> that blows man
[2014-12-29 15:10:20] <diabeticgonewild> shoes LOL
[2014-12-29 15:20:48] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-12-29 15:23:33] <diabeticgonewild> ouch leg cramps...it sucks
[2014-12-29 15:33:26] <diabeticgonewild> awkward
[2014-12-29 17:37:19] <diabeticgonewild> dosman711: that's what MATLAB is for :-)
[2014-12-29 19:43:45] <diabeticgonewild> I am so angry. My new disease CIDP makes exhaustion seem like an understatement and my mom pretty much expected me to out to dinner with her, so I went. Then she decides she wants to go to Costco after dinner and she takes her sweet time dawdling around the store while I can't even hold thoughts in my head and my limbs are weak and shaky due to exhaustion. I
[2014-12-29 19:43:45] <diabeticgonewild> told her lets get the fuck out of there and she's like 1 more minute. It's completely unreasonable.
[2014-12-29 19:45:00] <diabeticgonewild> And I might be mean, but you have no idea how exhausted I was.
[2014-12-29 19:50:40] <diabeticgonewild> Apparently I am evil. I really did nothing wrong though as I feel like complete shit.
[2014-12-29 19:54:19] <diabeticgonewild> I guess. It's ridiculous. It's always like 1 minute with her. Her priorities ahead of my personal wellbeing
[2014-12-30 00:42:29] <diabeticgonewild> Nothing like feeling like absolute shit
[2014-12-30 01:26:51] <diabeticgonewild> I'm still weak and shakey from my excursion tonight...thanks mom for dragging me along and maxing me miserable.
[2014-12-30 01:51:34] <diabeticgonewild> Idk
[2014-12-30 01:56:41] <diabeticgonewild> Because they don't share the language with relatives?
[2014-12-30 02:20:09] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2014-12-30 02:29:27] <diabeticgonewild> Geez I want to kill myself. I really need help.
[2014-12-30 02:34:05] <diabeticgonewild> A little bit. Yeah. I was less shakey and stuff. I just hate this damn disease and I am not talking about diabetes.
[2014-12-30 02:36:43] <diabeticgonewild> I feel weak physically and I don't want to call my neurologist.
[2014-12-30 02:39:40] <diabeticgonewild> Like from the autoimmune disease that I have, CIDP
[2014-12-30 02:43:13] <diabeticgonewild> It sucks
[2014-12-30 02:46:09] <diabeticgonewild> I wish I didn't go out with my mom tonight. I would be feeling better if I didn't.
[2014-12-30 02:57:24] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways I think I am going to eat a little bit and take my medicine. This shit never ends.
[2014-12-30 03:08:07] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I definitely am getting weaker. I had more trouble getting up the stairs of my house. This sucks.
[2014-12-30 03:09:41] <diabeticgonewild> I fucking hate this disease
[2014-12-30 05:09:14] <diabeticgonewild> Still having muscle weakness. I hate this.
[2014-12-30 05:20:59] <diabeticgonewild> Good morning antoni
[2014-12-30 05:21:08] <diabeticgonewild> How are you?
[2014-12-30 05:39:15] <diabeticgonewild> Oh, that's cool
[2014-12-30 05:39:28] <diabeticgonewild> I was playing a guitar karaoke game
[2014-12-30 05:44:06] <diabeticgonewild>  The last song I did was deplorable
[2014-12-30 05:46:58] <diabeticgonewild> My ears are ringing...I know I am going to experience a flare up. I hate this
[2014-12-30 05:53:10] <diabeticgonewild> I hate feeling like crap all the time.
[2014-12-30 06:10:26] <diabeticgonewild> It's not the life I wanted. 💊
[2014-12-30 07:15:24] <diabeticgonewild> Geez the dogs are bothering me
[2014-12-30 08:37:13] <diabeticgonewild> I fucking hate my life. I am seriously trying to resist the urge to attempt suicide.
[2014-12-30 08:40:56] <diabeticgonewild> I can't get inpatient treatment either. I almost died from severe DKA the last time that happened.
[2014-12-30 08:42:21] <diabeticgonewild> I can never trust anyone like that again. I really hope I can find a reason to hang on.
[2014-12-30 08:43:31] <diabeticgonewild> That sounds good
[2014-12-30 08:51:35] <diabeticgonewild> I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. I hate being depressed and suicidal. I have no control over my life. If I didn't have all of these health problems I swear I would be OK.
[2014-12-30 11:37:11] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, it sounds like it sucks
[2014-12-30 15:13:34] <diabeticgonewild> man I have a headache
[2014-12-30 15:41:47] <diabeticgonewild> like how?
[2014-12-30 15:49:47] <diabeticgonewild> damn it diabetes
[2014-12-30 16:22:24] <diabeticgonewild> fucking leg cramps...fml
[2014-12-30 16:23:31] <diabeticgonewild> yeah man, it's the CIDP and I have been extremely depressed lately....like it's really bad because I have like access to barbiturates which are obviously really dangerous. I have to admit to being suicidal to my doctor like next monday
[2014-12-30 16:23:35] <diabeticgonewild> but I can't go inpatient
[2014-12-30 16:24:25] <diabeticgonewild> and I will lie if I have to to get out of it
[2014-12-30 16:24:26] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/2q9gp3/should_i_admit_to_my_psychiatrist_about_wanting/
[2014-12-30 16:25:47] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, I kind of screwed myself. I have a lot of issues and the mental health garbage doesn't help. I swear I wouldn't have these issues if I didn't have all of the medical problems.
[2014-12-30 16:25:51] <diabeticgonewild> thanks thehouseofspike
[2014-12-30 16:27:01] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's for sure
[2014-12-30 16:28:07] <diabeticgonewild> anyways, that garbage that happened to me, like I was in the ICU during July 4, 2012
[2014-12-30 16:29:01] <diabeticgonewild> not fun at all. I will never do that shit again and if it's forced onto me, I will give them a hell of a bad time. I know that's not fair to the people that have to deal with me, but that's too bad. What happened to me was pure evil.
[2014-12-30 16:29:47] <diabeticgonewild> but whatever...it's my problem
[2014-12-30 16:31:27] <diabeticgonewild> so what is everyone up to?
[2014-12-30 16:33:16] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-12-30 16:35:24] <diabeticgonewild> I just got a phone call from the CDC/University of Chicago asking about vaccinations (we got a notice in the mail a couple of weeks ago about it)...kind of weird
[2014-12-30 16:39:31] <diabeticgonewild> like insurance coverage?
[2014-12-30 16:40:15] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2014-12-30 16:43:48] <diabeticgonewild> I'm never supposed to get the flu vaccine, due to CIDP (the flu vaccine is infamously known to cause the acute counterpart of my disease--which I may have had but i was misdiagnosed with--known as Guillain-Barre Syndrome)
[2014-12-30 16:44:12] <diabeticgonewild> My neurologist told me to never get the flu vaccine, actually. All of my doctors are like, "well, ok"
[2014-12-30 16:46:18] <diabeticgonewild> if you are at risk for a demyelinating condition, it can be
[2014-12-30 16:52:23] <diabeticgonewild> there's some stuff called spray-on band aid. It's made in Europe
[2014-12-30 16:52:46] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.holland-at-home.com/en/hansaplast-band-aid-spray-1-canister-of-50-pcs.html
[2014-12-30 16:53:04] <diabeticgonewild> original site http://www.hansaplast.de/produkte/sprueh-pflaster
[2014-12-30 16:53:35] <diabeticgonewild> have you tried mastisol?
[2014-12-30 16:53:53] <diabeticgonewild> Have you tried ostomy adhesives?
[2014-12-30 16:58:48] <diabeticgonewild> I use a Dexcom. I don't know why you want skin tac, though. My mistake.
[2014-12-30 17:00:24] <diabeticgonewild> FWIW, I mistakenly assumed that you were like allergic to the Dexcom tape (I am allergic to all tapes, that's why).
[2014-12-30 17:02:12] <diabeticgonewild> OK, this is so messed up http://www.dw.de/north-korean-defector-details-human-experiments/a-18161851
[2014-12-30 17:14:43] <diabeticgonewild> I agree. Strongly. Like I heard that the going rate for smuggled copies of The Interview are $50 instead of the typical $5 for a typical westerm movie
[2014-12-30 17:16:40] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.businessinsider.com/north-korean-demand-for-the-interview-2014-12
[2014-12-30 17:20:19] <diabeticgonewild> I know
[2014-12-30 17:23:09] <diabeticgonewild> I totally just popped some Fiorinal from a headache. I should probably lie down and try to sleep.
[2014-12-30 17:23:16] <diabeticgonewild> *for
[2014-12-30 17:31:47] <diabeticgonewild> So sleepy already from it
[2014-12-30 17:40:11] <diabeticgonewild> True
[2014-12-30 17:41:50] <diabeticgonewild> True
[2014-12-30 17:43:59] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways I probably shouldn't be talking right now. I took a prescribed dose of Fiorinal and I am past the blackout point of it kicking in. I don't want to say anything extremely dumb. FWIW, I am pretty sure this headache was caused by orthostatic hypotension.
[2014-12-30 17:45:01] <diabeticgonewild> I am laying down in bed. I just need to put my phone down. I will ttyl. :)
[2014-12-30 20:50:13] <diabeticgonewild> Finally woke up.
[2014-12-30 21:08:25] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2014-12-30 21:09:45] <diabeticgonewild> There you go. :)
[2014-12-30 21:10:43] <diabeticgonewild> FWIW, bewest , the Dexcom sometimes hurts like hell when inserting it (like wanting to bang my head against the wall), and I know a semi-legit overseas pharmacy that carries EMLA. Like it causes anxiety for me.
[2014-12-30 21:10:47] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks worleygurl
[2014-12-30 21:11:29] <diabeticgonewild> Like the reason why I know about this overseas pharmacy is because I had to get a medicine that wasn't available in the US from them, due to gastroparesis. It's called Domperidone.
[2014-12-30 21:11:43] <diabeticgonewild> Idk worleygurl . I didn't ask. I also have an unusually high pain tolerance.
[2014-12-30 21:12:43] <diabeticgonewild> it's cool. No worries!
[2014-12-30 21:13:37] <diabeticgonewild> oh, that's why you can't do it yourself, LOL. I was curious too!
[2014-12-30 21:13:56] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2014-12-30 21:18:04] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2014-12-30 21:22:38] <diabeticgonewild> So this is the site where I get like domperidone from. I didn't realize EMLA was so expensive. Not worth it! http://www.inhousepharmacy.vu/p-155-emla.aspx
[2014-12-30 21:22:46] <diabeticgonewild> what?
[2014-12-30 21:22:52] <diabeticgonewild> are they going to replace it?
[2014-12-30 21:23:44] <diabeticgonewild> that's good.
[2014-12-30 21:25:27] <diabeticgonewild> cool guy :) !
[2014-12-30 21:26:19] <diabeticgonewild> oil?
[2014-12-30 21:26:41] <diabeticgonewild> FWIW, this is much cheaper, for the same size tube http://www.amazon.com/LMX-Topical-Anesthetic-Cream-relieves/dp/B001V9MLZQ/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1419992703&sr=8-3&keywords=lmx+cream
[2014-12-30 21:26:58] <diabeticgonewild> still not worth it
[2014-12-30 21:31:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I think I am going to order some medicine off of there, if I cannot convince my doctor to Rx me something  for neuropathic pain like towards the end of January
[2014-12-30 21:31:31] <diabeticgonewild> it's not controlled substances, so it will be fine
[2014-12-30 21:42:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's a contaminant that can interfere with the sensor signal/current.
[2014-12-30 21:42:39] <diabeticgonewild> That's awesome!
[2014-12-30 21:55:08] <diabeticgonewild> good night
[2014-12-30 21:59:16] <diabeticgonewild> still tired from my medicine I took for my headache
[2014-12-30 22:04:12] <diabeticgonewild> My grandma fell this evening. She had to be taken by ambulance to the hospital. She injured her shoulder/collarbone we think. She's 90 and lives in Seattle.
[2014-12-30 22:05:06] <diabeticgonewild> And my leg is cramping again, fml
[2014-12-30 22:17:01] <diabeticgonewild> She's been at the UW Medical Center for like awhile now and they have been examining her for like 25 minutes.
[2014-12-30 22:17:36] <diabeticgonewild> She was seen right away. I don't think she is going to get to go stay at home tonight. She probably is going to be admitted.
[2014-12-30 22:43:53] <diabeticgonewild> They think my grandma broke her collarbone, which isn't that bad of a bone to break
[2014-12-30 22:45:59] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2014-12-30 22:54:33] <diabeticgonewild> I didn't realize Dr. Bernstein's videoconference was tonight
[2014-12-30 22:54:37] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.instantteleseminar.com/?eventid=63214041
[2014-12-30 23:09:23] <diabeticgonewild> what sucks? bernstein (kind of...but I have to do something...I have 3 diseases that cause neuropathy and I have to protect myself as much as possible...they are reluctant to do stem cell transplant in the future because of my diabetes)
[2014-12-31 01:29:39] <diabeticgonewild> same here
[2014-12-31 01:30:00] <diabeticgonewild> I slept most of the afternoon and evening though
[2014-12-31 01:36:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, same. I took like medicine that made me sleepy due to having a headache.
[2014-12-31 01:36:20] <diabeticgonewild> My grandma didn't break her collarbone. She was lucky
[2014-12-31 01:45:38] <diabeticgonewild> Yep. She's going home. Whether we want her to or not.
[2014-12-31 01:46:25] <diabeticgonewild> In the US yeah
[2014-12-31 11:08:59] <diabeticgonewild> At someone's house. It's part of my dysautonomia support group
[2014-12-31 11:09:24] <diabeticgonewild> IRCcloud crashed
[2014-12-31 11:10:42] <diabeticgonewild> Just chilling we people at their house. Usually when people refer to dysautonomia it's cardiac symptoms
[2014-12-31 11:10:52] <diabeticgonewild> Orthostatic intolerance
[2014-12-31 11:11:40] <diabeticgonewild> Mine was blamed on my diabetes but I actually have a rare autoimmune disease that caused it
[2014-12-31 11:12:55] <diabeticgonewild> That's cool glowsticks the video I mean
[2014-12-31 11:13:30] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah mine is very rare. It likely caused my diabetes. It's called autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2014-12-31 11:14:09] <diabeticgonewild> Like I started showing signs of it at age 5 when I was diagnosed with type 1
[2014-12-31 11:27:37] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah glowsticks I have chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2014-12-31 11:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> All of the autoimmune diseases I have cause neuropathy, both primary and secondary forms
[2014-12-31 11:30:14] <diabeticgonewild> They're both rare. Well one is very rare
[2014-12-31 11:30:39] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't be surprised if I had psoriasis
[2014-12-31 11:31:00] <diabeticgonewild> But that's the least of my problems
[2014-12-31 11:38:43] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks
[2014-12-31 11:39:14] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I use stuff like t-gel and my scalp still itches
[2014-12-31 11:45:41] <diabeticgonewild> I need to get ready for the party. I am lying down in bed...
[2014-12-31 11:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> Also my mom is having a New Years party. I should buy her some alcohol. Like maybe that new crown royal apple stuff or jack Daniels or something
[2014-12-31 11:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> I should probably hit the liquor store soon. But I don't drink. Like my neurologist said not to but when I do it, it causes neuropathic pain. I don't get neuropathic pain every day though. All it takes is a single drink for me to get it
[2014-12-31 12:41:56] <diabeticgonewild> Just bought my mom crown royal regal apple and il tramonto limoncello
[2014-12-31 12:42:08] <diabeticgonewild> The limoncello is sooooo good
[2014-12-31 12:44:06] <diabeticgonewild> Indeed
[2014-12-31 12:45:42] <diabeticgonewild> I hope she likes it. FWIW, I got Java Gum (caffeinated gum) it's really bad because it kicks in immediately. Even glucose is absorbed via mucous membranes so it's works
[2014-12-31 12:46:45] <diabeticgonewild> It's good too
[2014-12-31 12:47:52] <diabeticgonewild> But like I got fruity stuff because it's not as hard. Like mixing crown royal with fruity stuff like limoncello probably won't agree with the stomach
[2014-12-31 12:48:14] <diabeticgonewild> But I have good taste in general, especially with alcohol LOL
[2014-12-31 12:48:24] <diabeticgonewild> That's awesome, yeah
[2014-12-31 12:48:54] <diabeticgonewild> I didn't mean mix, I meant drinking it with non fruity stuff on New Years
[2014-12-31 12:49:13] <diabeticgonewild> I like crown. It's Canadian
[2014-12-31 12:49:23] <diabeticgonewild> That's awesome dosman711
[2014-12-31 12:50:12] <diabeticgonewild> My neurologist told me not to drink...at all. Also I get neuropathic pain when drinking
[2014-12-31 12:50:36] <diabeticgonewild> I don't get neuropathic pain often do it's obvious what caused it
[2014-12-31 12:51:07] <diabeticgonewild> Like the second leading cause of neuropathy is alcohol/frequent heavy drinking
[2014-12-31 12:51:54] <diabeticgonewild> It's really bad for your peripheral nerves, with motor, somatic, and autonomic
[2014-12-31 12:52:58] <diabeticgonewild> There is a cinnamon hot version of jack
[2014-12-31 12:54:09] <diabeticgonewild> I paid like 50 for both the limoncello and the crown royal regal apple...and crown is expensive too
[2014-12-31 12:56:38] <diabeticgonewild> Monica goes and orders Java Gum because she is officially a junkie.... http://www.amazon.com/Java-Gum-Caffeinated-Peppermint-Assortment/dp/B00BWSRFB6/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1420048476&sr=8-1&keywords=java+gum
[2014-12-31 12:56:44] <diabeticgonewild> does it go on his record?
[2014-12-31 12:56:53] <diabeticgonewild> like the 96 pack is cheaper
[2014-12-31 12:58:38] <diabeticgonewild> very true
[2014-12-31 12:58:42] <diabeticgonewild> because it would be prison
[2014-12-31 12:58:55] <diabeticgonewild> not jail, and he's lucky (whatever he did) that he's not going to jail
[2014-12-31 12:59:04] <diabeticgonewild> in the USA
[2014-12-31 13:02:07] <diabeticgonewild> actually, this is better gum... http://www.amazon.com/MILITARY-ENERGY-GUM-MEG-SPEARMINT/dp/B002U2IMBA/ref=sr_1_1?s=hpc&ie=UTF8&qid=1420048899&sr=1-1&keywords=military+energy+gum
[2014-12-31 13:02:40] <diabeticgonewild> I am officially a junkie. I have like 4 pieces in my mouth...fwiw, I like uppers, probably due to having autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy...thanks low blood pressure
[2014-12-31 13:04:23] <diabeticgonewild> OMG trident gum! We used to have Condorman at Camp Sweeney (diabetes camp!) visit every Monday after dinner. Condorman would fly via airplane over camp and drop us gum. It was like cigarettes for prisoners...but we were all diabetic
[2014-12-31 13:05:05] <diabeticgonewild> (We used to get Trident--like Cinnamon, Spearamint, Peppermint, and sometimes Bubblegum)
[2014-12-31 13:24:40] <diabeticgonewild> OMG camp sweeney was so awesome!
[2014-12-31 13:25:59] <diabeticgonewild> I went there for 10(!) summers
[2014-12-31 13:27:36] <diabeticgonewild> 3 weeks every summer! It was so much fun!
[2014-12-31 13:28:21] <diabeticgonewild> A classic...I know a bunch of people in the vid...but I usually went to first session. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6ObqiyL9CM
[2014-12-31 13:29:21] <diabeticgonewild> It was the last summer they didn't use a professional producer to make the session video. A counselor named becky williams produced that particular video, if my memory is correct.
[2014-12-31 13:40:17] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks worleygurl
[2014-12-31 13:42:40] <diabeticgonewild> Very impressive by Dexcom!...Yeah that is pretty crazy that it's coming late
[2014-12-31 13:42:56] <diabeticgonewild> It should...but tis the season for it to come really late, even up until 9 PM
[2014-12-31 14:05:06] <diabeticgonewild> LOL!
[2014-12-31 22:46:37] <diabeticgonewild> happy new year, worleygurl and all
[2014-12-31 22:53:50] <diabeticgonewild> OK, so after hours of searching, I finally found the right solution for a paranoid Nightscout parent...if anyone wants to hear it. I would be pissed if I was the kid though.
[2014-12-31 23:06:34] <diabeticgonewild> Original post
[2014-12-31 23:07:09] <diabeticgonewild> Does the nightscout system have a way to GPS our t1 kids? My son is a sophomore in high school currently. I have a couple years before he is off to college. I have heart palpitations just thinking of him away from my watchful eye and monitoring. Nightscout is keeping me somewhat sane. knowing I will be able to monitor while at college but to have a gps
[2014-12-31 23:07:09] <diabeticgonewild> tracking would give me piece of mind knowing I could find and help him in the event of a severe low or high and is alone or not responding. And can think of many scenarios currently where it may help save lives.
[2014-12-31 23:07:24] <diabeticgonewild> Actually, let me PM you
[2014-12-31 23:12:27] <diabeticgonewild> indeed
[2014-12-31 23:13:02] <diabeticgonewild> but idk, I used to work in geek squad, but it's all about finding a solution for them
[2015-01-01 00:33:12] <diabeticgonewild> they do
[2015-01-01 00:33:32] <diabeticgonewild> I'm glad I grew up with diabetes mostly in the 90s and the early to mid 00s
[2015-01-01 01:09:31] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it's new years here
[2015-01-01 01:24:23] <diabeticgonewild> I said I wasn't going to drink....but I did....I am a sucker for Limoncello
[2015-01-01 01:24:30] <diabeticgonewild> drinking gives me neuropathic pain
[2015-01-01 01:24:57] <diabeticgonewild> Also, my mom and her friends cheered after taking the Limoncello out of the fridge again (they were drunk) so I really became a sucker for it
[2015-01-01 01:29:17] <diabeticgonewild> OMG sounds good
[2015-01-01 01:37:03] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-01 01:39:16] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-01 01:40:10] <diabeticgonewild> really nice
[2015-01-01 01:43:08] <diabeticgonewild> LOL :D
[2015-01-01 02:50:54] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-01 05:27:58] <diabeticgonewild> My new love....caffeinated chewing gum
[2015-01-01 05:28:09] <diabeticgonewild> I can't get enough of it
[2015-01-01 06:46:13] <diabeticgonewild> I want more caffeine gum
[2015-01-01 07:10:21] <diabeticgonewild> Good morning antoni
[2015-01-01 07:16:47] <diabeticgonewild>  I don't know what my problem is. I just woke up and wasn't suicidal all day yesterday. Now I am FML
[2015-01-01 11:57:30] <diabeticgonewild> That's good. Happy New Years
[2015-01-01 12:11:34] <diabeticgonewild> I have a headache and I only drank a little bit last night. The limoncello was a hit with the New Years party last night.
[2015-01-01 12:13:06] <diabeticgonewild> Like my mom asked me to take the limoncello out of the freezer (again) last night and her and her friends started cheering. Obviously they were under the influence of alcohol.
[2015-01-01 12:47:56] <diabeticgonewild> No!!!! The liquor store is closed and I can't get caffeinated chewing gum now. I am so disappointed
[2015-01-01 14:00:34] <diabeticgonewild> Diabeticgonewild consumes Coffee, Powerade Zero and turkey pepperoni to get rid of her headache due to orthostatic hypotension from drinking last night
[2015-01-01 14:11:12] <diabeticgonewild> No. I was being a dumbass last night. I really have no business drinking at all due to non diabetes related problems
[2015-01-01 15:11:05] <diabeticgonewild> CGM adjustment period is 6-12 months. At Joslin they have you follow up regularly for 6 months with appointments upon starting the CGM to make sure you continue use of it
[2015-01-01 15:11:37] <diabeticgonewild> I was supposed to see my opthamologist in October, but I had an appointment with a neuro-opthamologist.
[2015-01-01 15:12:33] <diabeticgonewild> I have eye accommodation issues that don't affect my actual sight. Like images/text don't always converge/focus
[2015-01-01 15:15:35] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, worleygurl , can you possibly follow Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution?
[2015-01-01 15:39:16] <diabeticgonewild> IDK I am reluctant to blame diabetes complications on control in general. We don't go around blaming people for having cancer. I am biased though as I have autoimmune neuropathies that were blamed on my diabetes before they got properly diagnosed
[2015-01-01 15:53:30] <diabeticgonewild> That still sucks though. I had a lot of guilt for my "complications" and I had semi decent control.
[2015-01-01 15:54:23] <diabeticgonewild> 185
[2015-01-01 15:55:38] <diabeticgonewild> Correct on the dx age but from age 9 I was mixing my own injections and dosing myself
[2015-01-01 15:55:51] <diabeticgonewild> I am freakishly good at math too
[2015-01-01 15:56:56] <diabeticgonewild> I was diagnosed with "diabetes complications" at age 18, so there is a lot of validity to that argument too
[2015-01-01 15:58:59] <diabeticgonewild> I have always been unusually good at math, more than anything else. My math skills didn't really improve when I was diagnosed/care was turned over to me. Like applying math in my life is pretty much almost like common sense in my life, with respect to problem solving
[2015-01-01 16:00:38] <diabeticgonewild> It's weird the way my brain is wired. I am like a numbers deal'
[2015-01-01 16:00:48] <diabeticgonewild> *freak
[2015-01-01 16:06:49] <diabeticgonewild> Sounds awesome
[2015-01-01 16:09:24] <diabeticgonewild> That definitely sucks
[2015-01-01 16:21:44] <diabeticgonewild> No. I need to insert a new sensor, actually
[2015-01-01 22:50:22] <diabeticgonewild> I slept all afternoon and evening. It was glorious
[2015-01-02 05:05:49] <diabeticgonewild> Anyone up? I really regret drinking on New Years Eve
[2015-01-02 05:06:38] <diabeticgonewild> My nerves didn't like it at all. I could feel some weird sensations pretty much all day and now...
[2015-01-02 06:42:28] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah yay neuropathy for causing weird bodily sensations after drinking. Having numb or not working body parts (that sounds so wrong) sucks
[2015-01-02 06:55:55] <diabeticgonewild> I need to test and put in a sensor. :P
[2015-01-02 06:59:44] <diabeticgonewild> 165
[2015-01-02 07:10:19] <diabeticgonewild> Tired of being sick...I fucking hate it. I would rather be dead than as sick as I am.
[2015-01-02 07:15:15] <diabeticgonewild> Not well. Either way it's not working out for me
[2015-01-02 07:18:22] <diabeticgonewild> And I am getting a tension headache and I have been lying down. I hate this
[2015-01-02 07:21:39] <diabeticgonewild> Good morning worleygurl
[2015-01-02 07:23:42] <diabeticgonewild> How are you?
[2015-01-02 07:25:21] <diabeticgonewild> Crappy but nothing new I guess for me, with respect to that
[2015-01-02 07:42:50] <diabeticgonewild> That does suck
[2015-01-02 07:58:54] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: I found out that Dexcom Share is VoiceOver compatible, which is pretty unusual for a diabetes (regulated) device. See the last post http://nfbnet.org/pipermail/diabetes-talk_nfbnet.org/2014-December/007088.html
[2015-01-02 08:39:38] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: using the share app, you can easily calibrate the Dexcom. It's described in that link
[2015-01-02 08:40:25] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.irccloud.com/pastebin/e9Wbxh3z
[2015-01-02 08:41:01] <diabeticgonewild> who's Alex and what happened?
[2015-01-02 08:41:13] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO!
[2015-01-02 08:41:47] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: that pastebin link gives you the thing on how to callibrate the Dexcom without assistance
[2015-01-02 08:42:10] <diabeticgonewild> creepy, at least I think
[2015-01-02 08:42:47] <diabeticgonewild> you're welcome, worleygurl
[2015-01-02 08:44:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I believe it. It's cold outside
[2015-01-02 08:44:36] <diabeticgonewild> weather 77055
[2015-01-02 08:44:42] <diabeticgonewild> idk the command anymore
[2015-01-02 08:45:32] <diabeticgonewild> thank you worleygurl . It's like Seattle (where I am originally from) here today! :P
[2015-01-02 08:48:20] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-02 08:53:02] <diabeticgonewild> Nothing like getting yelled at by your mother for power outlets not working because the GGCI switches in the power outlets get reset from the outdoor Christmas lights
[2015-01-02 08:53:15] <diabeticgonewild> She's psycho I swear
[2015-01-02 08:55:25] <diabeticgonewild> She's the one who set up the Xmas lights too. WTF!? I'm an EE student so I know what fucked up the wiring in the house. Then she goes around blaming shit on me. Screw her.
[2015-01-02 08:59:11] <diabeticgonewild> *GFCI switches...like the ones that are in the bathrooms. They make like a ton of power outlets in the house not work due to them reseting because I live in a relatively old house with outdoor Christmas lights which use a ton of power
[2015-01-02 08:59:40] <diabeticgonewild> And my mom is still yelling at me. F@&$ her
[2015-01-02 09:02:58] <diabeticgonewild> And she tries to accuse me of not knowing how to reset a switch. Like wtf is her problem. She has no fucking clue what she is talking about
[2015-01-02 09:07:41] <diabeticgonewild> Like also she says she's the only one that does anything around here.
[2015-01-02 09:09:42] <diabeticgonewild> Well shit like I am disabled (on Medicare), 25, trying to go to school part time and move on with my life. I don't understand why she is so ungrateful. It's also not my fault that my twin brother who is smart and capable is lazy and fails out of college (he was dismissed and they still won't let him back in)
[2015-01-02 09:10:25] <diabeticgonewild> I helped her take down the Christmas tree yesterday and I went to the grocery store for her. It's not my fault.
[2015-01-02 09:14:45] <diabeticgonewild> Like idk the wiring in the house can't be up to code but frankly I am hiding out in my room. The last thing I want to do is talk to her...and I have laundry I need to do so I will probably have timo do so anyways.
[2015-01-02 09:15:38] <diabeticgonewild> Like in my bathroom there are no GFCI switches but who really cares. I am careful about that kind of stuff.
[2015-01-02 09:16:25] <diabeticgonewild> But who really cares about that stuff in general, unless it fails. I swear the last type of engineering I want to do is power engineering
[2015-01-02 10:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah at diabetes camp they always told me to use the top and side of my fingers
[2015-01-02 10:19:31] <diabeticgonewild> Virectectomy or whatever it's called can restore that workeygurl but it's no fun from what I've heard
[2015-01-02 10:19:57] <diabeticgonewild> *supposedly can restore that but I am not a doctor
[2015-01-02 13:18:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, you can get both mg/dL and mmol/L (locked) devices from Switzerland pharmacies, but it may be confiscated by US customs, due to "mislabelling", legally
[2015-01-02 13:19:16] <diabeticgonewild> same applies with German pharmacies online
[2015-01-02 13:19:48] <diabeticgonewild> O
[2015-01-02 13:20:43] <diabeticgonewild> nice!
[2015-01-02 13:21:44] <diabeticgonewild> no, it's just a good website  if you need to get something OTC from Europe
[2015-01-02 13:21:56] <diabeticgonewild> over the counter
[2015-01-02 13:23:06] <diabeticgonewild> mmol/L, unless you go to France for some reason
[2015-01-02 13:23:55] <diabeticgonewild> you're welcome
[2015-01-02 14:06:37] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-02 18:17:15] <diabeticgonewild> yay, first file of new project is published.... https://github.com/diabeticgonewild/ArtificialPancreas2014/blob/master/AP_Variables.cpp
[2015-01-02 18:18:02] <diabeticgonewild> it doesn't really do anything. I just have it so I can keep track of things as I go.
[2015-01-02 18:21:36] <diabeticgonewild> Geez it's pouring so hard outside.
[2015-01-02 18:22:31] <diabeticgonewild> nah
[2015-01-02 19:32:54] <diabeticgonewild> Gastroparesis does that
[2015-01-02 19:33:12] <diabeticgonewild> I have that. I have a gastric pacemaker.
[2015-01-02 19:34:31] <diabeticgonewild> It keeps me from like vomiting everything. Like they were talking about a feeding tube if it didn't work but it did
[2015-01-02 19:36:12] <diabeticgonewild> Like I live with chronic nausea and vomiting but it's under control now
[2015-01-02 19:36:57] <diabeticgonewild> Me too
[2015-01-02 20:12:46] <diabeticgonewild> damn differential equations...can't escape it
[2015-01-02 20:13:43] <diabeticgonewild> uhhh...like artificial pancreas stuff
[2015-01-02 20:14:04] <diabeticgonewild> like it's same shit, different program...it's pretty much like this, with different calculations
[2015-01-02 20:14:26] <diabeticgonewild> https://github.com/diabeticgonewild/Artificial_Pancreas/blob/master/GlucoseInsulinModel.m
[2015-01-02 20:14:55] <diabeticgonewild> https://github.com/diabeticgonewild/Artificial_Pancreas/blob/master/GlucoseInsulinModelWrap.m
[2015-01-02 20:17:02] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, if you say so :D
[2015-01-02 20:18:09] <diabeticgonewild> definitely!
[2015-01-02 20:36:29] <diabeticgonewild> why? it messses with the dexcom
[2015-01-02 20:36:47] <diabeticgonewild> btw, we americans call it acetomeniphen (sp?)
[2015-01-02 20:37:50] <diabeticgonewild> nice
[2015-01-02 20:40:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2015-01-02 22:12:11] <diabeticgonewild> my infusion set randomly came disconnected...how annoying
[2015-01-02 22:13:17] <diabeticgonewild> yeah like the disconnect portion
[2015-01-02 22:20:34] <diabeticgonewild> That's more fixable but it still sucks Sargun
[2015-01-02 23:09:34] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, /i did.
[2015-01-02 23:10:20] <diabeticgonewild> its over with
[2015-01-03 00:15:55] <diabeticgonewild> I have Medicare (at age 25), American, and it sucks
[2015-01-03 00:16:54] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, I have private (non-government) insurance that picks up the rest, that I can keep past age 26, as long as I have Medicare
[2015-01-03 00:17:35] <diabeticgonewild> No foreign governement would take me as an expat, pretty much, even as an engineer for a company (sponsored)
[2015-01-03 00:18:43] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, like I have private health insurance, private prescription insurance, private dental insurance, and private optical insurance, that I can keep past the age of 26. It was my dad's retiree insurance.
[2015-01-03 00:19:14] <diabeticgonewild> but like the private health insurance and prescription insurance have a $4000 total deductible
[2015-01-03 00:19:37] <diabeticgonewild> neither. Private benefits from a pension plan from an energy company
[2015-01-03 00:20:40] <diabeticgonewild> BC is the most friendly, but I require care that requires medical treatment besides prescriptions and doctor's office visits. In order to be an expat in Canada, you basically have to prove that you won't be taking away care from a Canadian, which I highly doubt.
[2015-01-03 00:21:22] <diabeticgonewild> My immunomodulatory treatments are extremely expensive and require treatment in the hospital. I also have a port due to having poor IV access, and that requires maintanence.
[2015-01-03 00:21:31] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO FauxReal
[2015-01-03 00:22:25] <diabeticgonewild> Have you tried hash oil sublingually?
[2015-01-03 00:22:32] <diabeticgonewild> it fucks you up for like 15 minutes
[2015-01-03 00:22:44] <diabeticgonewild> also hash oil tincture in e-cigarettes
[2015-01-03 00:22:47] <diabeticgonewild> no coment on that
[2015-01-03 00:23:25] <diabeticgonewild> The last time I did it was in 8/2013, due to doing chemo
[2015-01-03 00:24:00] <diabeticgonewild> before that I stopped for a couple of years. But I was prescribed marinol pills which are synthetic THC which you can get with an Rx at any pharmacy in America
[2015-01-03 00:24:09] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, chemo sucks
[2015-01-03 00:24:47] <diabeticgonewild> no. I have 2 rare autoimmune diseases.
[2015-01-03 00:25:02] <diabeticgonewild> It was used as immunosuppression and it was completely unsuccessful
[2015-01-03 00:25:45] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it was used as immunosuppression for my rare autoimmune diseases and it was considered to be unsuccessful
[2015-01-03 00:26:33] <diabeticgonewild> like 1 lab in the United States that tests for my disease
[2015-01-03 00:27:08] <diabeticgonewild> the other disease only has one orphan drug as treatment, and it costs $8,000/month in the US, not including nursing fees
[2015-01-03 00:27:29] <diabeticgonewild> like the Mayo Clinic is the only one that tests for the very rare disease
[2015-01-03 00:29:03] <diabeticgonewild> --diabeticgonewild now wants caffeinated gum. She is geting very tired and she hates the feeling. Caffeinated gum has a special kick that coffee and caffeine tablets cannot touch
[2015-01-03 00:29:34] <diabeticgonewild> FauxReal, it's not my call. It's the only proven treatment for my more common rare disease. I don't really have a choice.
[2015-01-03 00:29:44] <diabeticgonewild> I am also on oral immunosuppression too
[2015-01-03 00:30:43] <diabeticgonewild> it's not pills.
[2015-01-03 00:31:09] <diabeticgonewild> It's called having diseases so rare that nobody invests targeted therapies for them.
[2015-01-03 00:31:56] <diabeticgonewild> The pills only cost like $300/month
[2015-01-03 00:32:40] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it affects my entire peripheral nervous system. I have 2 rare autoimmune neuropathies.
[2015-01-03 00:32:54] <diabeticgonewild> it causes progressive muscle weakness in particular
[2015-01-03 00:34:50] <diabeticgonewild> I don't have an Rx for stuff like that. I don't even get neuropathic pain every day
[2015-01-03 00:35:05] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2015-01-03 00:35:50] <diabeticgonewild> thats crazy FauxReal
[2015-01-03 00:38:00] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-03 00:39:09] <diabeticgonewild> haha
[2015-01-03 00:42:42] <diabeticgonewild> yep
[2015-01-03 00:44:56] <diabeticgonewild> can handle one on its own
[2015-01-03 00:45:17] <diabeticgonewild> but it is incompatible with the most recent Dexcom 505 upgrade, in terms of accuracy improvement
[2015-01-03 00:45:23] <diabeticgonewild> are you in Europe or the USA?
[2015-01-03 00:45:45] <diabeticgonewild> you are not using a pediatric version, correct
[2015-01-03 00:46:32] <diabeticgonewild> I can give you the link to download the 505 upgrade (9.3 % MARD on day 7), since it is not available in Europe. However, I don't know if it will let you upgrade, but I think it does
[2015-01-03 00:46:48] <diabeticgonewild> it's the most recent artificial pancreas updates
[2015-01-03 00:47:51] <diabeticgonewild> damnit! I don't have the link indexed anymore but it's on Reddit
[2015-01-03 00:58:19] <diabeticgonewild> I uploaded the Abbott Freestyle Navigator patch for CoPilot to CWD, when it was only available in Europe
[2015-01-03 00:58:44] <diabeticgonewild> I got it off of Abbott Germany's website, and I put a *direct* download link on CWD forums. Everyone thanked me :D
[2015-01-03 01:03:15] <diabeticgonewild> It took like a year to get it on the market after Europe in general did
[2015-01-03 01:05:04] <diabeticgonewild> wow
[2015-01-03 01:06:04] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, the sky looks glassier in the winter
[2015-01-03 01:07:39] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool
[2015-01-03 01:13:02] <diabeticgonewild> Does anyone know if a 712 pump will interface with bewest 's work?
[2015-01-03 01:13:54] <diabeticgonewild> it's a different frequency than the 522/722 pumps?
[2015-01-03 01:14:47] <diabeticgonewild> FauxReal: it's a different frequency than the 522/722 pumps?
[2015-01-03 01:14:51] <diabeticgonewild> kk
[2015-01-03 01:16:01] <diabeticgonewild> oh, LOL
[2015-01-03 01:27:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, they got screwed :D
[2015-01-03 01:47:21] <diabeticgonewild> I <3 Omnigraffle. I make cheat sheets for my engineering exams using that software.
[2015-01-03 07:01:51] <diabeticgonewild> I have camp crappy on my bed...aka the dogs because they are scared of the thunderstorm
[2015-01-03 07:05:35] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it is
[2015-01-03 07:06:24] <diabeticgonewild> Like we call them that becsuse that's what we call their boarding kennel
[2015-01-03 07:08:31] <diabeticgonewild> Time to go to camp crappy!
[2015-01-03 09:06:19] <diabeticgonewild> diabot: weather Houston,TX
[2015-01-03 09:06:37] <diabeticgonewild> Yuck!
[2015-01-03 09:07:11] <diabeticgonewild> Pantex?
[2015-01-03 09:10:29] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah that looks awesome! But I know a dude with type 1 and CIDP (an autoimmune disease that I have) that was caused by nuclear waste being dumped into a creek in a north at. Louis suburb
[2015-01-03 09:11:42] <diabeticgonewild> http://m.stltoday.com/lifestyles/health-med-fit/health/new-reports-of-cancers-near-coldwater-creek-in-north-county/article_ff009cbc-6e96-51f9-9782-5f3171f471f2.html?mobile_touch=true
[2015-01-03 09:12:13] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.coldwatercreekfacts.com
[2015-01-03 09:12:35] <diabeticgonewild> Declared an official waste site
[2015-01-03 09:13:22] <diabeticgonewild> It was used by Mallickdrodt in the 40s to manidacture the atomic bomb and they dumped waste into that creek
[2015-01-03 09:14:25] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.epa.gov/region7/cleanup/npl_files/st_louis_airport-coldwater_creek_aspect_survey_rpt_may2013.pdf
[2015-01-03 09:19:24] <diabeticgonewild> Why not?
[2015-01-03 09:19:37] <diabeticgonewild> He found out he doesn't have type 2!
[2015-01-03 09:21:34] <diabeticgonewild> That really sucks. That's a bad feeling to have. I have had that feeling for years at a time, but I was misdiagnosed with things and it was blamed on my diabetes. But it's not anyone's fault
[2015-01-03 09:23:37] <diabeticgonewild> LOL :D
[2015-01-03 20:11:33] <diabeticgonewild> Stuck in Houston traffic
[2015-01-03 20:12:37] <diabeticgonewild> In the process of driving back and forth from Dallas, which is what I spent all day doing
[2015-01-03 20:13:33] <diabeticgonewild> Got a brand new Medtronic 522 pump for a diy artificial pancreas
[2015-01-03 20:14:35] <diabeticgonewild> The traffic is soooo slow
[2015-01-03 20:15:26] <diabeticgonewild> Been driving literally for 10 hours now
[2015-01-03 20:17:01] <diabeticgonewild> bewest: I got a brand new 522 Medtronic pump, never used
[2015-01-03 20:17:49] <diabeticgonewild> Had to drive back and forth past Dallas to get it
[2015-01-03 20:17:59] <diabeticgonewild> $300
[2015-01-03 20:18:20] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah not cheap
[2015-01-03 20:18:34] <diabeticgonewild> But not bad either
[2015-01-03 20:19:08] <diabeticgonewild> GitHub.com/diabeticgonewild
[2015-01-03 20:19:16] <diabeticgonewild> See artificial pancreas
[2015-01-03 20:19:37] <diabeticgonewild> I'm working on an updated and relevant implementation
[2015-01-03 20:20:06] <diabeticgonewild> Keep in mind I'm driving but traffic is virtually at a standstill
[2015-01-03 20:21:09] <diabeticgonewild> There have been people working on that
[2015-01-03 20:22:42] <diabeticgonewild> The box with the pump was sealed and the lead screw didn't smell like insulin, also no scratches so that's a good sign
[2015-01-03 20:23:09] <diabeticgonewild> It also turns on and works so far
[2015-01-03 20:24:29] <diabeticgonewild> I had to pick it up
[2015-01-03 20:26:41] <diabeticgonewild> No just started it
[2015-01-03 20:29:11] <diabeticgonewild> Well I was trained in MATLAB
[2015-01-03 20:29:40] <diabeticgonewild> I have to do like numeric methods instead for C++
[2015-01-03 20:30:15] <diabeticgonewild> almost entirely
[2015-01-03 20:30:30] <diabeticgonewild> Idk
[2015-01-03 20:49:11] <diabeticgonewild> Just got home
[2015-01-03 20:49:57] <diabeticgonewild> Exhausted beyond belief but at least I was able to drive all day. That's unusual for me
[2015-01-03 20:50:07] <diabeticgonewild> worleygurl: that really sucks
[2015-01-03 20:54:35] <diabeticgonewild> Lmao
[2015-01-03 20:57:15] <diabeticgonewild> cluckj: I don't need to do diffeq in C++, technically. I need to solve for the solutions of the diffeqs using a specific (modified) secant method that will always converge to a solution
[2015-01-03 20:58:27] <diabeticgonewild> And it flags in the rare occasion that the solution is not accurate.
[2015-01-03 20:59:47] <diabeticgonewild> I know I need to use this book for cross referencing. http://www.nr.com but it is unreasonable on IP laws so you can't reuse any of their code for research purposes/give it to anyone (except if it's a binary)
[2015-01-03 21:01:00] <diabeticgonewild> I am trying to figure out if I can run a VM IDE in the cloud to remotely compute all of this as it requires iterative series and it will deplete a properly equipped phones battery quickly
[2015-01-03 21:01:28] <diabeticgonewild> I am also trying to find out if s binary can be installed in a VM IDE
[2015-01-03 21:04:02] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't know though. I guess binaries are executable forms of the source so I'll be good
[2015-01-03 21:04:36] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it is bs. Like all of the bad reviews on Amazon are due to IP laws that they set
[2015-01-03 21:05:29] <diabeticgonewild> I don't know a ton about binaries. I just deal with data structures more than anything with respect to programming
[2015-01-03 21:05:52] <diabeticgonewild> GNU math library I think is the alternative
[2015-01-03 21:06:46] <diabeticgonewild> GNU scientific library...jk
[2015-01-03 21:09:04] <diabeticgonewild> My shiny new pump for diabetes gone wild http://imgur.com/ucJrXQ2
[2015-01-03 21:10:27] <diabeticgonewild> This is the replacement basically for numerical recipes, but it is less solid http://www.gnu.org/software/gsl/
[2015-01-03 21:12:02] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah because it wasn't developed as thoroughly
[2015-01-03 21:12:34] <diabeticgonewild> But I don't want to turn over binaries
[2015-01-03 21:12:50] <diabeticgonewild> Being able to show the source would be advantageous
[2015-01-03 21:14:20] <diabeticgonewild> Like "take my word for it and just use it" just seems unreasonable
[2015-01-03 21:16:47] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah my family doesn't even know I went to Dallas today which is really fucked yo
[2015-01-03 21:16:53] <diabeticgonewild> Up
[2015-01-03 21:17:22] <diabeticgonewild> I lived in Dallas as a kid for like 4 years so it's not unfamiliar to me
[2015-01-03 21:18:01] <diabeticgonewild> I am not worried about parameter zing the code, just implementing it
[2015-01-03 21:18:39] <diabeticgonewild> Logistically that is a huge problem if you think about it
[2015-01-03 21:18:46] <diabeticgonewild> If he was that's terrible
[2015-01-03 21:32:19] <diabeticgonewild> Artificial pancreas models into an algorithm
[2015-01-03 21:32:52] <diabeticgonewild> I can give you the documents so you can spend days figuring out wtf is going on, no joke
[2015-01-03 21:35:11] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-03 23:47:12] <diabeticgonewild> Yay in bed finally
[2015-01-04 08:09:41] <diabeticgonewild> Are you Canadian lornetc
[2015-01-04 08:09:51] <diabeticgonewild> They do that in Canada
[2015-01-04 08:10:00] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-04 08:10:39] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah like in Texas we are allowed to throw our sharps in the trash. Its ridiculous
[2015-01-04 08:10:51] <diabeticgonewild> Hey Sargun
[2015-01-04 08:11:44] <diabeticgonewild> I lived in Seattle so I know how it's like on SF
[2015-01-04 08:11:57] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah there are TV commercials and stuff
[2015-01-04 08:13:41] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I never inject anymore mostly thanks to using a pump and CGM so I'm lucky
[2015-01-04 08:13:58] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah Vancouver has to be stricter than Seattle
[2015-01-04 08:14:27] <diabeticgonewild> Canada is a much safer country with respect to public safety and regulation
[2015-01-04 08:14:56] <diabeticgonewild> I don't think I will get off of my pump ever. It works too well
[2015-01-04 08:15:13] <diabeticgonewild> Sargun that sucks but that can be fixable
[2015-01-04 08:17:35] <diabeticgonewild> Sargun: that can take years to find out. Healthcare is really starting to become an information technology. My very rare disease that was blamed on my diabetes was diagnosed due to google searches. It couldn't have been found without google.
[2015-01-04 08:18:18] <diabeticgonewild> It was blamed on my diabetes for 4 years fwiw
[2015-01-04 08:19:37] <diabeticgonewild> Have you obtained a cholesterol meter?
[2015-01-04 08:20:02] <diabeticgonewild> Idk about the GP going away for really complex cases
[2015-01-04 08:21:26] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2015-01-04 08:25:13] <diabeticgonewild> I usually test with high HDL (flagged high) and low LDL (flagged low) with labs. My mom and grandma are the same way...good genes with respect to that
[2015-01-04 09:12:27] <diabeticgonewild> No surprise
[2015-01-04 09:17:01] <diabeticgonewild> Sorry I am dealing with my bitchy mother who has to care for my grandma for like the next week or so at least in Seattle
[2015-01-04 09:17:06] <diabeticgonewild> She leaves soon
[2015-01-04 09:17:53] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah she fell but didn't break anything
[2015-01-04 09:18:10] <diabeticgonewild> Statistics is kind of a sketchy subject
[2015-01-04 09:55:25] <diabeticgonewild> There you go
[2015-01-04 13:04:11] <diabeticgonewild> OMG Jimmy Dean pancakes on a stick with Whataburger honey butter is like crack!
[2015-01-04 13:04:23] <diabeticgonewild> I am such a fatty!
[2015-01-04 13:19:55] <diabeticgonewild> Time for a shower...
[2015-01-04 16:41:16] <diabeticgonewild> lips are getting chapped again...thanks autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2015-01-04 17:26:34] <diabeticgonewild> No I have a rare autoimmune disease...very rare actually...that caused my diabetes, we believe
[2015-01-04 17:27:10] <diabeticgonewild> Also, guess who's going on a SECRET adventure to ARIZONA!!!!!!
[2015-01-04 17:27:31] <diabeticgonewild> Autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy causes dry mucous membranes
[2015-01-05 03:55:33] <diabeticgonewild> I am on antibiotics yay
[2015-01-05 03:56:10] <diabeticgonewild> And I really want to go to the liquor store to get...caffeinated chewing gum. I am having cravings
[2015-01-05 04:32:15] <diabeticgonewild> Fuck yeah! Going to head to Phoenix tomorrow!
[2015-01-05 10:19:44] <diabeticgonewild> Going to drive to Phoenix today!!!!! Going to have a blast!
[2015-01-05 10:43:23] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-05 11:57:05] <diabeticgonewild> Fuck it I'm not gonna drive to Phoenix...too risky
[2015-01-05 11:57:50] <diabeticgonewild> It's too ambitious
[2015-01-05 12:02:22] <diabeticgonewild> 16 hour drive for an adventure before school starts...not really worth it
[2015-01-05 12:03:00] <diabeticgonewild> Plus I will be sick starting on Jan 15-22...thanks immunomodulatory treatment
[2015-01-05 12:04:34] <diabeticgonewild> Plus I have school next week too...I just really wanted to go on a big adventure
[2015-01-05 20:14:33] <diabeticgonewild> so I went to the doctor today...and my blood pressure was like 172/105 with a pulse of 151
[2015-01-06 05:10:53] <diabeticgonewild> Good morning
[2015-01-06 05:14:09] <diabeticgonewild> I came across some really disturbing stuff related to my rare medical problems. I don't know if I should scream, cry, or do nothing.
[2015-01-06 05:15:05] <diabeticgonewild> Let me PM you
[2015-01-06 05:20:12] <diabeticgonewild> RKiTTYWhaleAlly: did you check your PMs?
[2015-01-06 05:22:17] <diabeticgonewild> Yep
[2015-01-06 05:22:48] <diabeticgonewild> 4:15 AM <diabeticgonewild> So there is somebody with autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, with virtually the same antibody levels as me
[2015-01-06 05:23:03] <diabeticgonewild> 4:16 AM <diabeticgonewild> Her disease likely caused a host of endocrinopathies
[2015-01-06 05:23:17] <diabeticgonewild> 4:17 AM <diabeticgonewild> In addition, my mom is 100% Croatian and no Yugoslavs intermarry between ethnicities and some of her/my family live on very remote islands in the Adriatic Sea.
[2015-01-06 05:23:33] <diabeticgonewild> 4:18 AM <diabeticgonewild> This person has a genetic muscular dystrophy, called limb girdle muscular distrophy, and her mutation is traced back to Croats
[2015-01-06 05:23:51] <diabeticgonewild> 4:19 AM <diabeticgonewild> Only 1/600 of the world's population is of Croatian descent
[2015-01-06 05:24:09] <diabeticgonewild> 4:19 AM <diabeticgonewild> It's really disturbing to me
[2015-01-06 05:24:55] <diabeticgonewild> Also all of the neurological diseases and endocrine problems we have are likely linked by the anti peripherin antibody
[2015-01-06 05:26:02] <diabeticgonewild> I am really scared
[2015-01-06 05:31:17] <diabeticgonewild> It's not going to matter. I am screwed.
[2015-01-06 05:31:52] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to a lab that doesn't require doctors orders to get a Creatinine Kinase test done this morning
[2015-01-06 05:35:01] <diabeticgonewild> I am so fucking scared
[2015-01-06 05:36:06] <diabeticgonewild> She's American too
[2015-01-06 05:47:14] <diabeticgonewild> Thanks antoni
[2015-01-06 05:47:43] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.anylabtestnow.com/mobile-test-details/?id=7667
[2015-01-06 06:10:37] <diabeticgonewild> IDK
[2015-01-06 06:19:15] <diabeticgonewild> I will be walking on eggshells until the test results are reported, even longer potentially
[2015-01-06 06:21:45] <diabeticgonewild> Man none of the labs open until 8:30
[2015-01-06 06:27:18] <diabeticgonewild> Found a lab that charges $47.49 for the test
[2015-01-06 06:28:36] <diabeticgonewild> Even better I found one that does it for $36.00
[2015-01-06 06:48:43] <diabeticgonewild> Got it for $29
[2015-01-06 09:55:47] <diabeticgonewild> Alright I am less weirded out than I was earlier this morning. So the person that has very similar medical problems to me including my very rare autoimmune neuropathy didn't even know that she was of Croatian descent when they tied the mutation to Croats.
[2015-01-06 09:57:14] <diabeticgonewild> I'm 50% Croatian. My mom is 100%. It's a mutation for muscular dystrophy that she has.
[2015-01-06 09:58:03] <diabeticgonewild> Only 1 out of 600 of the worlds population is of Croatian descent
[2015-01-06 10:12:45] <diabeticgonewild> Like 25% Irish, 12.5% Swedish, 12.5% Scottish
[2015-01-06 10:23:24] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah haha
[2015-01-06 11:01:24] <diabeticgonewild> I am still scared as hell
[2015-01-06 12:37:25] <diabeticgonewild> nah fuck that....another day in hell...I have a strong inclination I am screwed...actually I am going to get my blood drawn soon and I will be terrified of getting the result, waiting for the next 24 hours
[2015-01-06 12:59:12] <diabeticgonewild> going to get my blood drawn...hard stick and there's only one viable vein that can be accessed using a special technique...wish me luck that it turns out good...I will be walking on eggshells until then, and potentially after
[2015-01-06 13:20:35] <diabeticgonewild> At the lab during lunch hour...I'm going to be waiting forever
[2015-01-06 13:49:55] <diabeticgonewild> Just waiting forever at the lab...I shouldn't had come during lunch hour...30 people waiting
[2015-01-06 16:38:53] <diabeticgonewild> Got my blood drawn at LabCorp for $29 to see if I have abnormal levels of creatinine kinase in my blood. If not, I will be so relieved. Waiting is hard.
[2015-01-06 16:39:31] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.mayomedicallaboratories.com/test-catalog/Clinical+and+Interpretive/8336
[2015-01-06 16:41:45] <diabeticgonewild> No. Somebody with the same very rare neuropathy as me has a bunch of autoimmune endocrinopathies potentially linked to the anti-peripherin antibody. She has a genetic mutation for muscular dystrophy that adults get that only Croatian people get
[2015-01-06 16:42:01] <diabeticgonewild> My mom is 100% Croatian
[2015-01-06 16:43:01] <diabeticgonewild> My neuro suspects that all of my autoimmune diseases are linked via the anti-peripherin antibody.
[2015-01-06 16:43:07] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.google.com/patents/WO2011082416A2?cl=en&dq=anti+peripherin+antibody&hl=en&sa=X&ei=t1asVOaJF8aiNoH9gIgP&ved=0CB0Q6AEwAA
[2015-01-06 16:46:32] <diabeticgonewild> No the type of mutation is autosomal recessive
[2015-01-06 16:47:08] <diabeticgonewild> LGMD2A, 550delA mutation
[2015-01-06 16:47:20] <diabeticgonewild> Other people in Europe have it too
[2015-01-06 16:48:05] <diabeticgonewild> Sorry not only
[2015-01-06 16:49:15] <diabeticgonewild> Our results, combined with published haplotype studies suggest that 550delA originated in the Eastern Mediterranean from which it has probably spread widely across Europe
[2015-01-06 16:51:14] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah well we both have really rare shit that is strikingly similar, we both have Croatian ancestry, and she has a genetic disease
[2015-01-06 16:53:36] <diabeticgonewild> Really? No way?! like we have a very rare autoimmune neuropathy that there have only been case reports and cohorts of in the literature. We also have autoimmune endocrinopathies. Oh yeah, we both are of Croatian descent.
[2015-01-06 16:57:53] <diabeticgonewild> Theoretically that is possible. There was a link found to Addison's disease and CAPN3
[2015-01-06 17:00:02] <diabeticgonewild> I can't copy and paste this particular text on my iPhone as it doesn't let me. search addison's
[2015-01-06 17:00:05] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.medmerits.com/index.php/article/limb_girdle_muscular_dystrophies/P3
[2015-01-06 17:03:30] <diabeticgonewild> Seriously
[2015-01-06 17:04:06] <diabeticgonewild> I know somebody who has autoimmune diseases and LGMD2A.
[2015-01-06 17:05:04] <diabeticgonewild> Also my autonomic neuropathy was blamed on my diabetes for 4 years. I told them there was no fucking way that it was caused by my diabetes--and I told them I thought I had autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2015-01-06 17:05:30] <diabeticgonewild> They sent my fucking blood to the only commercial laboratory in the country that tests for that antibody
[2015-01-06 17:05:42] <diabeticgonewild> And guess what I fucking have it
[2015-01-06 17:06:01] <diabeticgonewild> And my doctors actually vouched for me
[2015-01-06 17:06:54] <diabeticgonewild> I was right and it was the most obscure shit ever to be tested for. I was tested for a disease I should have never had in the first place.
[2015-01-06 17:07:46] <diabeticgonewild> Don't question my judgment Seeker` .  I have proved more than a few doctors wrong multiple times over having multiple rare diseases.
[2015-01-06 17:08:38] <diabeticgonewild> Things I should have never had in the first place. Like 2 autoimmune neuropathies, among other things.
[2015-01-06 17:12:34] <diabeticgonewild> I think you should have some sympathy for me, instead of questioning my judgment Seeker` . My friends in real life are concerned and supportive of me.
[2015-01-06 17:12:44] <diabeticgonewild> What's up?
[2015-01-06 17:14:51] <diabeticgonewild> It's called taking responsibility for my health. It's not about worrying or not. It's about dealing with life and problems. You have the approach logically wrong
[2015-01-06 17:27:40] <diabeticgonewild> IDK maybe not doubting my judgment. FWIW I got a blood test today and I will go from there
[2015-01-06 18:06:01] <diabeticgonewild> ??? RKiTTYWhaleAlly
[2015-01-06 22:59:28] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks...i will rub it in your face
[2015-01-06 22:59:32] <diabeticgonewild> mmm....pizza
[2015-01-06 23:11:53] <diabeticgonewild> I am anxiously waiting for the results
[2015-01-06 23:15:59] <diabeticgonewild> 1-2 days
[2015-01-06 23:16:39] <diabeticgonewild> also I have always had slightly elevate ALT and AST (liver enzymes) even as a kid. My pediatrician even always wondered why I did. I still to this date have elevated AST and ALT
[2015-01-06 23:17:18] <diabeticgonewild> Serum tests for other muscle enzymes are significantly less helpful than the determination of the CK. Enzymes such as aspartate aminotransferase (AST, SGOT), alanine aminotransferase (ALT, SGPT), and lactate dehydrogenase (LDH) may be slightly elevated in myopathies.
[2015-01-06 23:17:32] <diabeticgonewild> Because AST, ALT, and LDH are often measured in screening chemistry panels, their elevation should prompt CK measurement to determine if the source is muscle or liver.
[2015-01-06 23:17:48] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/572269_4 ... watch me be right...unfortunately
[2015-01-06 23:19:41] <diabeticgonewild> 1994.... the autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy symptoms came around the same time and they think it caused my type 1
[2015-01-06 23:20:23] <diabeticgonewild> well I will find out soon
[2015-01-06 23:20:40] <diabeticgonewild> I doubt consistently on every lab like 1-2 points above the cutoffs
[2015-01-06 23:24:36] <diabeticgonewild> like 6s....
[2015-01-06 23:24:42] <diabeticgonewild> for the past 4-5 years
[2015-01-06 23:25:39] <diabeticgonewild> like 7s
[2015-01-06 23:26:32] <diabeticgonewild> I mean, you are really being invasive. You have no idea how complex the situation is that is going on. There are all of these unsolved factors things that are so complex in my personal situation that have to be linked together.
[2015-01-06 23:26:41] <diabeticgonewild> Honestly it would be over your head.
[2015-01-06 23:28:42] <diabeticgonewild> Like all of my autoimmune diseases, are currently at this point linked by this single antibody. The test is not commercially available yet. https://www.google.com/patents/WO2011082416A2?cl=en&dq=anti+peripherin+antibody&hl=en&sa=X&ei=yLWsVO-fPMqzggSF5YGAAw&ved=0CB0Q6AEwAA
[2015-01-06 23:28:59] <diabeticgonewild> It is in research laboratories. Enjoy reading it!
[2015-01-06 23:30:44] <diabeticgonewild> OK
[2015-01-06 23:30:59] <diabeticgonewild> Good night
[2015-01-06 23:34:27] <diabeticgonewild> it's like one of THREE articles!
[2015-01-06 23:34:30] <diabeticgonewild> published!
[2015-01-06 23:34:47] <diabeticgonewild> that's how rare it is!!!!! There is ONE research LAB doing work on it!
[2015-01-06 23:35:49] <diabeticgonewild> Be my guest to doubt my judgment. I know what I am talking about. If you don't want a patent to read (it's the best available and most comprehensive resource on the subject) then read this http://www.jneurosci.org/content/32/25/8501.full
[2015-01-06 23:37:42] <diabeticgonewild> This is the other one. I think it's ridiculous that you are questioning my judgment over diseases I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Most importantly diseases that you have never heard of. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2902873/
[2015-01-06 23:38:45] <diabeticgonewild> dude you weren't here earlier.
[2015-01-06 23:39:08] <diabeticgonewild> like around 4 PM. People were telling him to lay off.
[2015-01-06 23:41:30] <diabeticgonewild> It was 4 PM CST
[2015-01-06 23:55:04] <diabeticgonewild> Night
[2015-01-06 23:59:38] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-07 00:00:42] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-07 00:02:30] <diabeticgonewild> that's awesome!
[2015-01-07 00:05:47] <diabeticgonewild> yeah?
[2015-01-07 00:06:26] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-07 00:06:42] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not religious...some church probably would collapse on me if I went in.
[2015-01-07 00:06:51] <diabeticgonewild> I am spiritual though.
[2015-01-07 00:07:24] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, that's cool
[2015-01-07 00:08:25] <diabeticgonewild> it sure does!
[2015-01-07 00:11:37] <diabeticgonewild> LOL awesome!
[2015-01-07 00:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> cool!
[2015-01-07 00:15:49] <diabeticgonewild> hahaha this is awesome! :D
[2015-01-07 00:18:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2015-01-07 00:19:06] <diabeticgonewild> in Seattle there is rail called South Lake Union Transit
[2015-01-07 00:19:49] <diabeticgonewild> It was also an unpopular public transportation development. They renamed it, but it will always be the SLUT in my heart. I have never rode the SLUT. Only tourists do.
[2015-01-07 00:26:08] <diabeticgonewild> I just found out the national neuropathy association is closing its doors. That's sad
[2015-01-07 00:26:56] <diabeticgonewild> https://i.imgur.com/wDtDd8C.jpg
[2015-01-07 00:28:00] <diabeticgonewild> https://i.imgur.com/XID7DlY.jpg
[2015-01-07 00:29:06] <diabeticgonewild> Neuropathy.org members
[2015-01-07 00:30:01] <diabeticgonewild> Oh, the guy that's in charge of the local meetings where I live.
[2015-01-07 01:22:11] <diabeticgonewild> A dude I know got honorly discharged from the Marines due to T1D
[2015-01-07 01:22:12] <diabeticgonewild> The VA pays for his pump
[2015-01-07 01:51:17] <diabeticgonewild> One of my diabetic friend's husbands needs disability.
[2015-01-07 01:52:14] <diabeticgonewild> It's really sad. He almost died of congestive heart failure due to a Coxsackie virus attacking his lungs and heart and he wears a defibrillator (external). His recover is supposed to be months but who knows. He has nothing to lose.
[2015-01-07 02:47:11] <diabeticgonewild> idk
[2015-01-07 03:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> good morning
[2015-01-07 09:25:02] <diabeticgonewild> I never use prep but if it gets loose or it's summertime I cover it with kinesiology tape, which is an elastic cloth tape that sticks almost no matter how much you sweat.
[2015-01-07 09:32:12] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah...my lower right abdomen is off limits. I have a gastric pacemaker there.
[2015-01-07 10:10:14] <diabeticgonewild> My 90 year old grandma went to the ER for a second time in a week. They did a CT scan this time around and they found a fracture in both her collarbone and spine. They think it's going to be 6-8 weeks for recovery
[2015-01-07 10:11:03] <diabeticgonewild> She's admitted to the University of Washington. At least my mom is up there so she can take the burden off my aunt and uncle
[2015-01-07 10:14:15] <diabeticgonewild> 25
[2015-01-07 10:14:28] <diabeticgonewild> Thank you workeygurl
[2015-01-07 10:15:05] <diabeticgonewild> She got two doses of morphine and she is feeling better. My mom called the shots on taking her to the ER.
[2015-01-07 10:16:11] <diabeticgonewild> Correct and she used her call button on Dec 30 and my uncle went over there. She was in pain and she couldn't move around safely and there are 14 stairs to her house so they had to call 911
[2015-01-07 10:16:35] <diabeticgonewild> Yep. It sure does.
[2015-01-07 10:17:12] <diabeticgonewild> My family is pretty conservative about the getting pregnant thing. :P but my family is awesome LOL!
[2015-01-07 10:17:57] <diabeticgonewild> My bro and I were my parents first born. My mom had us at 34
[2015-01-07 10:18:59] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah she wants to live in that house but people are going to tell her the way it is. If she doesn't cooperate adult protective services with the state will get involved
[2015-01-07 10:19:17] <diabeticgonewild> That's too. Bad Seeker`
[2015-01-07 10:19:51] <diabeticgonewild> Indeed
[2015-01-07 10:21:39] <diabeticgonewild> Wow that's amazing worleygurl !
[2015-01-07 10:27:13] <diabeticgonewild> I hope so! She is a very independent and lively lady! She wants to live in her house, and we all want her to be happy. Thank you.
[2015-01-07 10:30:16] <diabeticgonewild> wow, you all have been lucky to meet them!
[2015-01-07 10:31:27] <diabeticgonewild> That's rough. My dad passed away suddenly the week of thanksgiving. That holiday will never be the same for me.
[2015-01-07 10:31:51] <diabeticgonewild> WTF
[2015-01-07 10:32:52] <diabeticgonewild> Seriously antoni ? You don't even know what he died of. His doctor made a bad call/judgment and he could be alive if he wasn't told he could exercise unrestricted the week before, after getting several tests done and not exercising for months before.
[2015-01-07 10:33:39] <diabeticgonewild> Do you seriously think that is not offensive? You just assumed that he had something that was totally out of control or obscure. He was a very healthy guy.
[2015-01-07 10:33:59] <diabeticgonewild> Oh, I thought he said "you"
[2015-01-07 10:34:04] <diabeticgonewild> sorry antoni
[2015-01-07 10:34:32] <diabeticgonewild> it's a sensitive subject and I already have my issues. I apologize
[2015-01-07 10:35:02] <diabeticgonewild> Ty. :-)
[2015-01-07 10:36:57] <diabeticgonewild> sounds awesome!
[2015-01-07 10:41:38] <diabeticgonewild> Time to clean...
[2015-01-07 13:33:03] <diabeticgonewild> Going to the ER but resting right now before I head to hell. A friend asked asked me how I was doing and I said this.
[2015-01-07 13:33:07] <diabeticgonewild> Terrible. Have had cold symptoms since December 23 and was prescribed antibiotics. Now I can't stop coughing and I get occasional chest pain. I also feel extremely weak right now but I am hoping its a blood sugar problem and I was having trouble breathing but it's only at times.
[2015-01-07 13:33:07] <diabeticgonewild> I am on two forms of immunosuppression. I am debating on whether to get medical care (urgent care or ER) or not right now.
[2015-01-07 13:33:07] <diabeticgonewild> I was driving and I just came home. I am going to take some robotussin dm and some cough drops for now.
[2015-01-07 13:33:08] <diabeticgonewild> If I need medical care at this point of time it's probably going to be the ER at Methodist.
[2015-01-07 13:33:08] <diabeticgonewild> I am not going to mention the muscular dystrophy stuff. I can't and it's crazy. It's something I have to take up with my neurologist.
[2015-01-07 13:33:16] <diabeticgonewild> Sorry can't paste bin
[2015-01-07 13:33:57] <diabeticgonewild> Sorry I can't paste bin on my phone
[2015-01-07 13:37:23] <diabeticgonewild> Gonna start driving. I'm home alone and can't get a ride.
[2015-01-07 14:35:32] <diabeticgonewild> Had bad vital signs in the ER....about to get an EKG
[2015-01-07 15:24:26] <diabeticgonewild> Contacted my neurologist, primary care doctor, endocrinologist, and cardiologist who are all at this hospital.
[2015-01-07 15:24:26] <diabeticgonewild> So far I know I have supra ventricular tachycardia from the EKG.
[2015-01-07 15:24:26] <diabeticgonewild> It's going to be bad. All the heart monitor does is alarm.
[2015-01-07 18:25:01] <diabeticgonewild> Phone died. Have very low potassium levels at 2.7 mEq/L, probably due to gastrointestinal motility issues related to autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy. Going to be receiving IV antibiotics for my upper respiratory infection (chest x-Ray was likely bad). Obviously being admitted.
[2015-01-07 18:33:35] <diabeticgonewild> I am pissed. My brother said he was going to be here hours ago and he is not.
[2015-01-07 18:33:46] <diabeticgonewild> He has been off work for hours
[2015-01-07 18:56:03] <diabeticgonewild> He's on his way...whatever
[2015-01-07 18:56:16] <diabeticgonewild> He's my twin too which makes it worse
[2015-01-07 18:57:53] <diabeticgonewild> They determined it was probably sinus tachycardia
[2015-01-07 19:09:20] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah but I guarantee you it isn't accurate due to the hypokalemia. I googled it
[2015-01-07 19:10:28] <diabeticgonewild> Being admitted
[2015-01-07 19:10:35] <diabeticgonewild> High
[2015-01-07 19:11:53] <diabeticgonewild> Autoimmune autonomic ganglionpathy (orthostatic hypotension, severe gastroparesis, chronic diarrhea, urge incontinence) and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2015-01-07 19:12:14] <diabeticgonewild> Also I am basically on 2 forms of immunosuppression
[2015-01-07 19:14:14] <diabeticgonewild> Not yet. I really hope not
[2015-01-07 19:17:22] <diabeticgonewild> Hospital is completely full. Waiting for a bed.
[2015-01-07 20:27:09] <diabeticgonewild> I want to get out of the ER so I can chill a little bit more. Get some hospital food...yummy
[2015-01-07 20:28:33] <diabeticgonewild> Lamb is sooo good
[2015-01-07 20:31:54] <diabeticgonewild> Lamb is so tender. My bro is with me now and we plan on going to this really awesome Bosnian restaurant when I get out.
[2015-01-07 20:39:00] <diabeticgonewild> I want to eat. I want my brother to get chipotle from across the street
[2015-01-07 21:13:13] <diabeticgonewild> They said I could only have like diabetic diet...yuck
[2015-01-07 21:14:15] <diabeticgonewild> Nope
[2015-01-07 21:14:36] <diabeticgonewild> I wanted my bro to get me chipotle from across the street.
[2015-01-07 21:15:06] <diabeticgonewild> I can't take boluses without telling them because it drops potassium levels
[2015-01-07 21:36:24] <diabeticgonewild> Going to a room in like 10 min
[2015-01-07 21:37:36] <diabeticgonewild> After they write the report or whatever of what happened
[2015-01-07 21:38:03] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah fuck the ER. Not a chill place.
[2015-01-07 21:38:42] <diabeticgonewild> If you are admitted under the neurology service it's so fucking chill. Everything about it.
[2015-01-07 21:40:02] <diabeticgonewild> No it's quiet as hell. Like they can kind of fix shit and do damage control. They are also nice
[2015-01-07 21:40:33] <diabeticgonewild> Transportation is here. :-)
[2015-01-07 21:51:55] <diabeticgonewild> fuck fuck fuck fuck...got admitted under the cardiology service
[2015-01-07 21:56:36] <diabeticgonewild> Dude shut the fuck up
[2015-01-07 21:56:49] <diabeticgonewild> It is due to my autoimmune autonomic neuropathy
[2015-01-07 21:59:19] <diabeticgonewild> Because it's loud, intense, bad tests, super annoying, and not chill at all. Plus they can't fix my shit as well.
[2015-01-07 22:00:23] <diabeticgonewild> No, not really.
[2015-01-07 22:01:09] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah.
[2015-01-07 23:21:33] <diabeticgonewild> Man it's going to be a long night. They are sending me off to CT scan to check for blood clots.
[2015-01-08 05:55:19] <diabeticgonewild> Seriously going to kill myself when I get the fuck out of the hospital
[2015-01-08 06:26:43] <diabeticgonewild> On the cardiology service. For like severe hypokalemia and chest pain
[2015-01-08 06:27:03] <diabeticgonewild> Had depressed ST segment
[2015-01-08 09:12:38] <diabeticgonewild> I want to get the fuck out of this hospital.
[2015-01-08 09:13:21] <diabeticgonewild> No it fucking sucks
[2015-01-08 09:13:45] <diabeticgonewild> Being thete. You get tired of this shit
[2015-01-08 09:49:41] <diabeticgonewild> Getting a chest CT to check for blood clots...I fucking hate this
[2015-01-08 09:50:59] <diabeticgonewild> No I don't want to know. I would rather fucking die than deal with all of the shit involved
[2015-01-08 09:51:20] <diabeticgonewild> Like I understand mejjad
[2015-01-08 09:52:57] <diabeticgonewild> No
[2015-01-08 09:53:39] <diabeticgonewild> Lungs
[2015-01-08 09:57:16] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I want to sleep and rest at home
[2015-01-08 09:59:41] <diabeticgonewild> I had to go to the hospital yesterday afternoon
[2015-01-08 10:25:51] <diabeticgonewild> Still waiting for CT scan
[2015-01-08 10:27:37] <diabeticgonewild> Ordered chipotle and my sister is going to pick it up
[2015-01-08 10:28:58] <diabeticgonewild> Still haven't seen any of my doctors
[2015-01-08 10:37:44] <diabeticgonewild> Idk that's my doctors' call
[2015-01-08 10:41:45] <diabeticgonewild> About to get Ct scan
[2015-01-08 11:46:08] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-08 11:48:20] <diabeticgonewild> Sister is going to be here in 45 min
[2015-01-08 11:54:40] <diabeticgonewild> Probably had blood clots which hypokalemia puts me at risk for. Getting Lovenox shots soon. Still no diagnosis from the doctors yet.
[2015-01-08 12:01:58] <diabeticgonewild> Doctor and pharmacist just came. Starting Xarelto.
[2015-01-08 12:04:33] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2015-01-08 12:04:45] <diabeticgonewild> But neuro is more chill :P
[2015-01-08 12:04:57] <diabeticgonewild> I shouldn't be complaining though
[2015-01-08 12:07:12] <diabeticgonewild>  Neuro has to deal with that too
[2015-01-08 12:39:58] <diabeticgonewild> My neuro is like low carb all the way
[2015-01-08 18:35:30] <diabeticgonewild> They just started me on IV antibiotics.
[2015-01-09 09:40:02] <diabeticgonewild> Supposed to get out of the hospital either this afternoon or Saturday
[2015-01-09 09:54:47] <diabeticgonewild> They're letting me out!!!
[2015-01-09 10:57:56] <diabeticgonewild> Getting discharged eventually today
[2015-01-09 11:00:18] <diabeticgonewild> What pump do you have clarksonguy04
[2015-01-09 11:03:19] <diabeticgonewild> That's weird.
[2015-01-09 11:06:14] <diabeticgonewild> Animas is usually a solid pump
[2015-01-09 11:33:42] <diabeticgonewild> All of the endocrine service like my insulin pump...the tandem t:slim
[2015-01-09 11:42:09] <diabeticgonewild>  Yeah that splendid low carb site is really good
[2015-01-09 11:43:01] <diabeticgonewild> It has bake mixes and stuff and they have cookbooks that are sold on Amazon with really high ratings
[2015-01-09 12:32:34] <diabeticgonewild> I finally got a change of clothes from my brother. Still at the hospital.
[2015-01-09 12:34:20] <diabeticgonewild> Grandma is going to rehab today
[2015-01-09 12:37:36] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I had very low potassium levels and a blood clot in my lung
[2015-01-09 12:37:46] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-09 12:38:28] <diabeticgonewild> Nice
[2015-01-09 12:45:59] <diabeticgonewild> Pizza and diet coke for lunch...yay
[2015-01-09 12:48:20] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-09 12:53:50] <diabeticgonewild> I am glad I don't have to inject blood thinners. It's because I have private prescription insurance
[2015-01-09 12:54:05] <diabeticgonewild> Xarelto is what I am on
[2015-01-09 13:32:42] <diabeticgonewild> That's the way it should be cluckj
[2015-01-09 13:37:40] <diabeticgonewild> Weird
[2015-01-09 13:40:40] <diabeticgonewild> 30 mL = 1 ounce
[2015-01-09 13:42:48] <diabeticgonewild> 420 LOL
[2015-01-09 13:43:08] <diabeticgonewild> I am pretty sure I got drug tested in the hospital
[2015-01-09 13:44:00] <diabeticgonewild> They asked me if I ever domed cigarettes, did hard drugs or drank RIGHT BEFOrE collecting my urine
[2015-01-09 13:44:07] <diabeticgonewild> Like seconds before
[2015-01-09 13:44:31] <diabeticgonewild> I came in with heart problems and I am young.
[2015-01-09 13:45:16] <diabeticgonewild> No. I did have amphetamines in my system though
[2015-01-09 13:45:31] <diabeticgonewild> But I am prescribed them
[2015-01-09 13:45:58] <diabeticgonewild> I took them as prescribed too....but I know I got drug tested
[2015-01-09 13:47:03] <diabeticgonewild> Vyvanse ftw...but I am supposed to quit that for awhile. Have an appointment with my cardiologist on Feb 4
[2015-01-09 13:48:40] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks.
[2015-01-09 13:48:58] <diabeticgonewild> I have seen endocrine 4 times in the past 2 days
[2015-01-09 13:49:13] <diabeticgonewild> When they were doing rounds
[2015-01-09 15:19:25] <diabeticgonewild> Kind of ticked...supposed to see a hematologist and they might not even see me
[2015-01-09 17:56:31] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah my brother is an idiot
[2015-01-09 17:58:34] <diabeticgonewild> So like I couldn't take my bags into my car when I was driving home from the hospital because I because I burst out in blood, so he put them in his car. They also want me to see a hematologist too (not because of that$
[2015-01-09 17:59:06] <diabeticgonewild> My bro is now 50 miles away with all of my shit in his car
[2015-01-09 17:59:21] <diabeticgonewild> Including my prescription.
[2015-01-09 18:00:51] <diabeticgonewild> Excellent!
[2015-01-09 18:01:20] <diabeticgonewild> The splendid low carb people have a bunch of cookbooks on Amazon too
[2015-01-09 18:02:19] <diabeticgonewild> That's cool!
[2015-01-09 20:22:38] <diabeticgonewild> That's true Shirl . My friend with type 1 and severe gastroparesis has Medicaid
[2015-01-09 20:23:00] <diabeticgonewild> She's also pregnant. She's screwed
[2015-01-09 20:25:06] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks
[2015-01-09 20:26:29] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah they don't really cover controlled substances. I have Medicare but private prescription insurance. I can't elect to get part d or I lose all of my private insurance coverage.
[2015-01-09 20:27:39] <diabeticgonewild> They won't cover Fiorinal
[2015-01-09 20:28:57] <diabeticgonewild> Like when I was in the hospital yesterday...they were asking if I had private or government insurance. Because my medicine isn't covered by Medicare part d. It's Xarelto
[2015-01-09 20:31:19] <diabeticgonewild> Nah government is fucked up in general
[2015-01-09 20:34:35] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-09 21:09:21] <diabeticgonewild> Just took blood thinner...LOL worleygurl
[2015-01-10 10:29:13] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I want some junk food. I am too tired to go to the grocery store.
[2015-01-10 10:41:42] <diabeticgonewild> Good morning worleygurl !
[2015-01-10 10:41:55] <diabeticgonewild> Sorry I was on the phone
[2015-01-10 10:42:52] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-10 11:54:06] <diabeticgonewild> Waiting at CVS for another Xarelto prescription.
[2015-01-10 12:45:24] <diabeticgonewild> I bought a phone at retail, no contract, because my mom has us on an AT&T value plan
[2015-01-10 12:46:48] <diabeticgonewild> Awesome!!!!!
[2015-01-10 12:46:59] <diabeticgonewild> :D
[2015-01-10 13:11:30] <diabeticgonewild> There is going to be some good hockey on tonight
[2015-01-10 15:14:35] <diabeticgonewild> Schnauzer on my lap....
[2015-01-10 15:17:22] <diabeticgonewild> No good hockey on yet...unless I use a vpn to get a blacked out game
[2015-01-10 18:35:06] <diabeticgonewild> I just posted to a muscular dystrophy group on Facebook
[2015-01-10 18:35:56] <diabeticgonewild> I pretty much asked if I should be concerned and if any of them also had autoimmune diseases. Remember I have a really rare one
[2015-01-10 18:36:02] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks worleygurl
[2015-01-10 21:26:51] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I want to take a shower too
[2015-01-10 21:28:48] <diabeticgonewild> LOL why not?
[2015-01-10 21:28:50] <diabeticgonewild> Jk
[2015-01-10 21:29:03] <diabeticgonewild> It would be fun tho
[2015-01-10 21:29:24] <diabeticgonewild> Yep
[2015-01-10 21:31:03] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-10 21:31:35] <diabeticgonewild> Canucks vs. Flames game starts soon.
[2015-01-10 21:33:15] <diabeticgonewild> Let me check
[2015-01-10 21:33:44] <diabeticgonewild> 4-3 canes
[2015-01-10 21:34:05] <diabeticgonewild> Screw the Blues!!!! Haha
[2015-01-10 21:34:14] <diabeticgonewild> Go canes!
[2015-01-10 21:53:27] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it's hockey
[2015-01-10 21:58:15] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2015-01-11 08:35:09] <diabeticgonewild> Talk about Sunday....a catholic priest gave me Annointing of the Sick while I was in the hospital.
[2015-01-11 08:35:27] <diabeticgonewild> I'm not that religious anyways
[2015-01-11 09:07:49] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I'm pretty much atheist
[2015-01-11 09:08:06] <diabeticgonewild> But I decided to do it just in case
[2015-01-11 09:08:23] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-11 09:08:30] <diabeticgonewild> It's ok.
[2015-01-11 09:09:16] <diabeticgonewild> I can understand...my family is kind of religious but I am not. If the hospital asks about religion I say catholic cause my family is around
[2015-01-11 09:35:59] <diabeticgonewild> diabot: weather Houston, Texas
[2015-01-11 09:36:23] <diabeticgonewild> Dang
[2015-01-11 12:15:45] <diabeticgonewild> I shouldn't have chewed caffeinated chewing gum...it's making my heart problems worse
[2015-01-11 12:15:53] <diabeticgonewild> I know it isn't smart at all...but I did it
[2015-01-11 12:16:11] <diabeticgonewild> especially considering I just got out of the hospital for pulmonary embolism
[2015-01-11 12:17:45] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I am drinking fluids. I have some tachycardia and slight occasional chest pain. I made a mistake....
[2015-01-11 12:18:19] <diabeticgonewild> I had like 2 pieces of Java Gum, which is 120 mg of caffeine
[2015-01-11 12:19:41] <diabeticgonewild> but it's like absorbed via the mucous membranes so it's worse....but yeah I know I will be OK
[2015-01-11 12:20:27] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I guess...
[2015-01-11 12:21:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I am going to eat lunch.
[2015-01-11 12:23:00] <diabeticgonewild> I know but it got absorbed through the mucous membranes. It's caffeinated chewing gum
[2015-01-11 12:24:49] <diabeticgonewild> like caffeiated chewing gum kicks in so much faster...you have no idea...it has a real kick to it
[2015-01-11 12:36:41] <diabeticgonewild> Torani is good for sugar free syrups
[2015-01-11 12:36:46] <diabeticgonewild> Hey, I'm from Seattle
[2015-01-11 12:37:10] <diabeticgonewild> Also, Greenwell Farms has the best coffee ever
[2015-01-11 12:37:59] <diabeticgonewild> it's not worth it, considering how much each sensor costs :P
[2015-01-11 12:39:46] <diabeticgonewild> like if you lose a sensor, it's not worth it...even if Dexcom will replace it (they will if it is < 7 days old)
[2015-01-11 12:50:31] <diabeticgonewild> 93
[2015-01-11 12:51:09] <diabeticgonewild> Now I just need to get the Dexcom in
[2015-01-11 12:53:15] <diabeticgonewild> Tandem t:slim for me
[2015-01-11 12:53:42] <diabeticgonewild> When I was in the hospital the doctors were surprised by the pump.
[2015-01-11 12:54:19] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it's awesome crashtestgenius_ . I know a dude with a dent in the back of it and it's beaten up...no screen problems
[2015-01-11 14:16:32] <diabeticgonewild> I can't get mobile internet because my brother wasted it playing a worthless video game. We have a family plan and he used 11.2 GB...kind of annoyed
[2015-01-11 14:16:40] <diabeticgonewild> Student/disabled
[2015-01-11 14:17:28] <diabeticgonewild> Electrical engineering at Arizona State University Online
[2015-01-11 17:01:53] <diabeticgonewild> IDK if I hate diabetes, actually....call me a terrible person
[2015-01-11 17:02:13] <diabeticgonewild> I will say that diabetes is a constant threat to my wellbeing though
[2015-01-11 17:07:08] <diabeticgonewild> I was diagnosed at age 5
[2015-01-11 17:07:31] <diabeticgonewild> I am not a parent though so I wouldn't know how it feels like
[2015-01-11 17:08:04] <diabeticgonewild> I think it's terrible for a parent to be giving injections and not knowing about the future of THEIR child
[2015-01-11 17:10:04] <diabeticgonewild> I wouldn't recommend going into the what's worse convo crashtestgenius_
[2015-01-11 17:10:53] <diabeticgonewild> I can tell you about some rare diseases that I have, that have no FDA forms of treatment, and oh by the way, I just got out of the hospital for a blood clot in my lung...but back to the diabetes subject....
[2015-01-11 17:11:59] <diabeticgonewild> OK
[2015-01-11 17:12:15] <diabeticgonewild> sorry, I really didn't mean to change the subject
[2015-01-11 17:12:26] <diabeticgonewild> I feel bad for freshface, believe me
[2015-01-11 17:12:32] <diabeticgonewild> My parents didn't know my future either
[2015-01-11 18:49:28] <diabeticgonewild> OMG Hockey Showdown in the iPhone App Store is sooo awesome!!
[2015-01-11 19:03:06] <diabeticgonewild>  Going to a Bosnian restaurant with my brother for dinner
[2015-01-11 19:32:03] <diabeticgonewild> Cafe pita+ it was featured on food network
[2015-01-11 19:33:39] <diabeticgonewild> Going to get Cevap (a type of sandwich)
[2015-01-11 19:43:48] <diabeticgonewild> Thank you!
[2015-01-11 20:20:05] <diabeticgonewild> _307_ not wearing a CGM
[2015-01-11 20:20:20] <diabeticgonewild> Probably should charge it and put it back on
[2015-01-11 20:22:41] <diabeticgonewild> IDK stress
[2015-01-11 20:22:50] <diabeticgonewild> I just got out of the hospital
[2015-01-11 20:24:39] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I'm fine. I got out on Friday. They found a blood clot in my lung and severely low potassium levels. I am on blood thinners now. Gonna charge my Dexcom
[2015-01-11 20:27:09] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks dosman711
[2015-01-11 20:28:32] <diabeticgonewild> Dude if you guys got an iPhone get Musi its like spotlfy but free. It retrieves songs from YouTube but audio only into a playlist.
[2015-01-11 20:29:18] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-11 20:33:44] <diabeticgonewild> CGM is charging
[2015-01-11 20:40:43] <diabeticgonewild> yeah right crashtestgenius_
[2015-01-11 20:40:49] <diabeticgonewild> it's called TurboTax
[2015-01-11 20:40:58] <diabeticgonewild> both of my parents were accountants
[2015-01-11 20:41:24] <diabeticgonewild> which is a good idea because it's stored online
[2015-01-11 20:41:44] <diabeticgonewild> if you don't make a lot of money, it's free for TurboTax
[2015-01-11 20:45:56] <diabeticgonewild> They have Grand Theft Auto on iPhone...wow I need to grow up
[2015-01-11 20:54:08] <diabeticgonewild> interesting..
[2015-01-11 20:54:20] <diabeticgonewild> Android is better for gaming tho
[2015-01-11 20:57:36] <diabeticgonewild> yeah I have a iPhone 6+ and an NVDIA Shield
[2015-01-11 20:57:59] <diabeticgonewild> I want to work for NVIDIA. You need like a 3.5 GPA in electrical engineering for them to even look at you
[2015-01-11 20:58:55] <diabeticgonewild> It really depends on how you look at it crashtestgenius_
[2015-01-11 20:59:36] <diabeticgonewild> I had to decline an electrical engineering internship with Intel for 6 months in Folsom, California. I had to decline it due to being in the process of being diagnosed with a rare autoimmune disease.
[2015-01-11 20:59:49] <diabeticgonewild> That was 3 years ago plus one week, almost exactly.
[2015-01-11 21:00:09] <diabeticgonewild> Folsom, CA is their research and development facility
[2015-01-11 21:00:55] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I would have received top-notch mentorship
[2015-01-11 21:02:44] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-11 21:03:13] <diabeticgonewild> I got an NVIDIA Shield for like $136 after the holidays. It was on sale at GameStop.
[2015-01-11 21:04:11] <diabeticgonewild> that looks good
[2015-01-11 21:04:18] <diabeticgonewild> I had Bosnian food for dinner
[2015-01-11 21:06:23] <diabeticgonewild> Like Yugoslavian food! :P
[2015-01-11 21:06:44] <diabeticgonewild> I'm half Croatian....it's the closest we have like where I live
[2015-01-11 21:23:08] <diabeticgonewild> H_Mc: this is what I had for dinner
[2015-01-11 21:23:12] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ćevapi
[2015-01-11 21:25:13] <diabeticgonewild> crashtestgenius_: I just use Moshi products for my iPhone Moshi.com
[2015-01-11 21:25:29] <diabeticgonewild> They are really solid products
[2015-01-11 21:27:17] <diabeticgonewild> Like this http://www.moshi.com/screen-protector-ivisor-glass-iphone-6-plus#black and this http://www.moshi.com/iglaze-armour-for-iphone-6-plus#gray
[2015-01-11 21:28:44] <diabeticgonewild> Well duh NVIDIA is at the forefront of all of that
[2015-01-11 21:37:06] <diabeticgonewild> Alright my life is now complete. I just got my glass screen protector on my iPhone and I can type a lot quicker and more accurately.
[2015-01-11 21:37:42] <diabeticgonewild> #FirstWorldProblems
[2015-01-11 21:38:34] <diabeticgonewild> LOL RKiTTYWhaleAlly
[2015-01-11 21:45:37] <diabeticgonewild> https://i.imgur.com/EUyG6Fg.jpg good old hockey
[2015-01-11 22:03:36] <diabeticgonewild> Maybe somebody should make a YouTube video of their special technique :P
[2015-01-11 22:04:24] <diabeticgonewild> obviously there are YouTube videos...but it's like an intricate process apparently
[2015-01-11 22:05:04] <diabeticgonewild> I know, it was directed at you bewest1
[2015-01-11 22:05:17] <diabeticgonewild> :P :) ;)
[2015-01-11 22:07:24] <diabeticgonewild> Haha! (no offense)
[2015-01-11 22:09:50] <diabeticgonewild> no offense but that dude is cool and stuff but his clothes are so early 2000s
[2015-01-11 22:10:40] <diabeticgonewild> It is a really good video. He's good at communicating
[2015-01-11 22:12:27] <diabeticgonewild> nooo! I am missing some good hockey!
[2015-01-11 22:16:12] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-11 22:17:45] <diabeticgonewild> Me thinks I am going to take a shower soon.
[2015-01-11 22:18:03] <diabeticgonewild> Then I am going to insert a sensor
[2015-01-11 22:28:08] <diabeticgonewild> Good night worleygurl
[2015-01-11 22:46:18] <diabeticgonewild> I need to do laundry too
[2015-01-11 22:54:03] <diabeticgonewild> Ouch getting chest pain...how fun
[2015-01-11 23:15:27] <diabeticgonewild> I need to insert a sensor...
[2015-01-11 23:17:40] <diabeticgonewild> That's not good
[2015-01-11 23:18:23] <diabeticgonewild> I am out of school (university) due to getting a blood clot in my lung...
[2015-01-11 23:19:15] <diabeticgonewild> A term off. I'm an online student at Arizona state university
[2015-01-11 23:19:27] <diabeticgonewild> 2 terms in a semester
[2015-01-11 23:20:28] <diabeticgonewild> My degree is 100% online in electrical engineering and its ABET accredited so I can work as an engineer in the US when I graduate
[2015-01-11 23:25:03] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2015-01-11 23:25:41] <diabeticgonewild> I was in a more traditional program but I got screwed
[2015-01-11 23:26:07] <diabeticgonewild> I had to transfer out due to potential discrimination issues
[2015-01-11 23:29:46] <diabeticgonewild> I have autoimmune autonomic neuropathy, basically
[2015-01-11 23:30:01] <diabeticgonewild> It is known as autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy
[2015-01-11 23:30:31] <diabeticgonewild> A lot of stuff happened that was potentially discriminatory but I will tell you the final straw
[2015-01-11 23:31:58] <diabeticgonewild> So like due to my severe autonomic neuropathy...I was forced to take medical withdrawal 4 times
[2015-01-11 23:32:46] <diabeticgonewild> Including one time where I asked for incompletes due to being in the hospital during finals
[2015-01-11 23:33:00] <diabeticgonewild> And instead my professors gave me Fs
[2015-01-11 23:33:11] <diabeticgonewild> And so like my final semester
[2015-01-11 23:33:15] <diabeticgonewild> They were like
[2015-01-11 23:33:24] <diabeticgonewild> In a meeting
[2015-01-11 23:34:24] <diabeticgonewild> And they were talking about me behind the scenes in the meeting and they mentioned how I took medical withdrawal 4 times and they decided that they were going to consider giving me Fs instead of Ws if I took medical withdrawal again
[2015-01-11 23:34:25] <diabeticgonewild> Or
[2015-01-11 23:34:52] <diabeticgonewild> Not let me repeat courses due to taking medical withdrawal (non academic reasons basically)
[2015-01-11 23:35:04] <diabeticgonewild> And that was the last straw
[2015-01-11 23:35:29] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah good luck...there's high burden of proof
[2015-01-11 23:35:46] <diabeticgonewild> I could still end up without a job degree or both so I left
[2015-01-11 23:36:13] <diabeticgonewild> They gave me a fat scholarship and even with that I wish I never went to that shithole school
[2015-01-11 23:38:24] <diabeticgonewild> I had a professor tell me if I couldn't show up to class then I should quit school
[2015-01-11 23:45:17] <diabeticgonewild> And in Texas
[2015-01-11 23:46:12] <diabeticgonewild> If you have so many hours that don't count towards your degree (such as from medical withdrawals) the school can charge you out of state tuition...I was at that point
[2015-01-11 23:47:02] <diabeticgonewild> Also when you go to disabilities the director was like the only school I have problems with is engineering. It's like gee thanks
[2015-01-11 23:48:24] <diabeticgonewild> No it's the laws and the academic environment that the tenured professors made for their students
[2015-01-11 23:49:47] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2015-01-11 23:50:15] <diabeticgonewild> Just remember you need to register for disabilities as it gives you an official protected status
[2015-01-11 23:50:48] <diabeticgonewild> You're welcome
[2015-01-11 23:52:04] <diabeticgonewild> Good night crashtestgenius_
[2015-01-11 23:52:08] <diabeticgonewild> 158
[2015-01-12 00:02:22] <diabeticgonewild> Chest pain....yay 💊
[2015-01-12 00:16:19] <diabeticgonewild> There is no way I am going to the hospital again 💉
[2015-01-12 10:34:57] <diabeticgonewild> Still haven't inserted a new sensor
[2015-01-12 10:35:25] <diabeticgonewild> I wonder how that kickstarter for the waterproof Dexcom case is going
[2015-01-12 10:36:48] <diabeticgonewild> Not well
[2015-01-12 10:37:05] <diabeticgonewild> I agree crashtestgenius_
[2015-01-12 10:37:46] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah probably
[2015-01-12 10:38:26] <diabeticgonewild> I want the Bragi Dash wireless headphones but it's too risky...they keep postponing and postponing the orders
[2015-01-12 10:39:29] <diabeticgonewild> Link?
[2015-01-12 10:40:41] <diabeticgonewild> I got a glass screen protector on my iPhone 6 Plus and it sucks...but it's better than the one that I had on before... I am looking at this one now http://www.connect2u.my/http:/wwwconnect2umy/product-1105670.html
[2015-01-12 10:41:37] <diabeticgonewild> The Bragi dash is completely in ear
[2015-01-12 10:41:52] <diabeticgonewild> I guess I am very materialistic
[2015-01-12 10:42:45] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah true
[2015-01-12 10:43:49] <diabeticgonewild> Have fun!
[2015-01-12 10:54:43] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.tandemdiabetes.com/News/2015/Tandem-Announces-FDA-Clearance-of-t-flex-Insulin-Pump/
[2015-01-12 10:55:06] <diabeticgonewild> 480 unit reservoir
[2015-01-12 10:55:42] <diabeticgonewild> Something like that...I wouldn't need it
[2015-01-12 10:56:20] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.tandemdiabetes.com/tflex/
[2015-01-12 11:08:22] <diabeticgonewild> 145
[2015-01-12 11:22:06] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I have to go to counseling today...I am not excited....she's gonna be like WTF after hearing that I have been in the hospital
[2015-01-12 11:23:24] <diabeticgonewild> I hate counseling...I think she feels sorry for me
[2015-01-12 11:24:06] <diabeticgonewild> And she calls me "inspirational" because I go to school and stuff because I am "disabled". I fucking hate it
[2015-01-12 11:26:06] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I am disabled...like 25 years old and on Medicare
[2015-01-12 11:26:38] <diabeticgonewild> And my psychologist calls me inspirational because I go to school online part time studying electrical engineering
[2015-01-12 11:26:46] <diabeticgonewild> So yeah fuck that
[2015-01-12 11:28:22] <diabeticgonewild> It pisses me off
[2015-01-12 11:29:50] <diabeticgonewild> No I should but it makes me extremely uncomfortable
[2015-01-12 11:31:43] <diabeticgonewild> Like and she has said things like i am "very disabled" too...it's like f you too
[2015-01-12 11:32:09] <diabeticgonewild> So yeah I hate going there but I don't have too much of a choice
[2015-01-12 11:34:43] <diabeticgonewild> It's easier to ignore it....I will just look bitter as she is patronizing me
[2015-01-12 11:36:42] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it got approved today
[2015-01-12 11:39:03] <diabeticgonewild> It's not as simple as it sounds. There is more to it than that. She won't change her ways. It's just awkward. I don't think highly of psychologists or counsellors anyways.
[2015-01-12 11:39:50] <diabeticgonewild> Like I had one tell me to lie to my work to get fewer hours so I wouldn't have to quit my job due to having low blood pressure problems.
[2015-01-12 11:41:02] <diabeticgonewild> Like she wanted me to tell my work that I was taking a class during the winter break so I could have less hours...which isn't fair to my coworkers
[2015-01-12 11:42:25] <diabeticgonewild> And I got rid of her. Plus she questioned all of my doctors and she had an MASTERS degree not an MD
[2015-01-12 11:42:51] <diabeticgonewild> Maybe but it won't change anything.
[2015-01-12 11:51:30] <diabeticgonewild> Schools started and I'm not taking any classes :P
[2015-01-12 11:52:24] <diabeticgonewild> And the iPhone screen protector that I want is out of stock...
[2015-01-12 11:52:57] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.connect2u.my/http:/wwwconnect2umy/product-1105670.html
[2015-01-12 11:55:23] <diabeticgonewild> Cool
[2015-01-12 11:55:57] <diabeticgonewild> crashtestgenius_: you know you are supposed to start your homework the day it's assigned
[2015-01-12 11:56:09] <diabeticgonewild> I know I'm uncool but I'm just saying
[2015-01-12 11:56:12] <diabeticgonewild> Kk
[2015-01-12 11:57:17] <diabeticgonewild> Oh that's cool
[2015-01-12 11:59:33] <diabeticgonewild> You're welcome.
[2015-01-12 12:47:36] <diabeticgonewild> just put a dexcom sensor in....and it really hurt
[2015-01-12 12:48:59] <diabeticgonewild> I put it near the belly button
[2015-01-12 12:49:10] <diabeticgonewild> Mine die pretty easily due to ???
[2015-01-12 12:53:09] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks
[2015-01-12 12:56:12] <diabeticgonewild> _201_ lunchtime
[2015-01-12 12:59:46] <diabeticgonewild> Yes, you get used to it
[2015-01-12 13:31:58] <diabeticgonewild> 8.09 IOB
[2015-01-12 13:32:35] <diabeticgonewild> I <3 my t:slim
[2015-01-12 13:44:46] <diabeticgonewild> TMI
[2015-01-12 13:48:42] <diabeticgonewild> Have to leave in an hour...for stupid psychologist appointment
[2015-01-12 14:15:30] <diabeticgonewild> diabot: weather Houston, TX
[2015-01-12 14:16:10] <diabeticgonewild> Nice worleygurl
[2015-01-12 14:16:25] <diabeticgonewild> Just got a telemarketer call...I'm annoyed
[2015-01-12 14:17:55] <diabeticgonewild> Did you update it to the 505 upgrade worleygurl ?
[2015-01-12 14:18:16] <diabeticgonewild> That's crappy
[2015-01-12 14:18:45] <diabeticgonewild> Probably
[2015-01-12 14:19:49] <diabeticgonewild> I'll take a pic of my pink dex
[2015-01-12 14:20:32] <diabeticgonewild> https://i.imgur.com/Fnsc2zU.jpg
[2015-01-12 14:20:41] <diabeticgonewild> Dex with schnauzer
[2015-01-12 14:21:20] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-12 14:24:41] <diabeticgonewild> Yay
[2015-01-12 14:33:28] <diabeticgonewild> _199_ IOB 5.85 u
[2015-01-12 14:35:02] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-12 14:37:51] <diabeticgonewild> I have to leave for my bullshit appointment in like 20 minutes
[2015-01-12 14:42:57] <diabeticgonewild> Then I have a hematologist appointment tomorrow.....fun
[2015-01-12 14:44:46] <diabeticgonewild> Fuck it...gonna leave and get out of here and drive around for a bit
[2015-01-12 14:45:01] <diabeticgonewild> Before this stupid appointment
[2015-01-12 15:15:13] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah it is
[2015-01-12 15:15:44] <diabeticgonewild> I'm an electrical engineering student...I have it easier
[2015-01-12 15:16:54] <diabeticgonewild> I believe it girlinfrance . It has to be really hard.
[2015-01-12 15:18:10] <diabeticgonewild> fwiw, I am waiting for my psychologist appt that begins in like 30 minutes. She patronizes me and calls me "inspirational" for going to school part time online in electrical engineering
[2015-01-12 15:18:47] <diabeticgonewild> She's going to be like wtf when she finds out I was in the hospital...
[2015-01-12 15:21:01] <diabeticgonewild> My phone won't connect to the Internet on safari... :(
[2015-01-12 15:21:10] <diabeticgonewild> Stupid iPhone
[2015-01-12 15:22:59] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I am not excited about this appointment
[2015-01-12 15:24:37] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2015-01-12 15:24:43] <diabeticgonewild> I'm on IRCcloud
[2015-01-12 15:30:56] <diabeticgonewild> Appointment time...let the fun begin...I hate this shit...cya in 45 min
[2015-01-12 15:31:31] <diabeticgonewild> Gastroparesis does that
[2015-01-12 15:32:07] <diabeticgonewild> Of course she is never on time...and yes I am being a bitch but still
[2015-01-12 15:33:34] <diabeticgonewild> Ttyl guys she's finally here
[2015-01-12 16:41:58] <diabeticgonewild> https://i.imgur.com/fncH43A.jpg
[2015-01-12 16:42:05] <diabeticgonewild> My brand new sensor
[2015-01-12 16:52:06] <diabeticgonewild> Sorry you know what I mean
[2015-01-12 17:03:14] <diabeticgonewild> still in ???, FML
[2015-01-12 19:56:33] <diabeticgonewild> Just talked to my neurologist
[2015-01-12 21:22:49] <diabeticgonewild> Shared with my neuro that somebody had some weird genetic disease that comes from a mutation originating from Croatia....and my mom is 100% Croatian
[2015-01-12 21:23:06] <diabeticgonewild> Talking about weird....
[2015-01-12 21:25:08] <diabeticgonewild> That has a lot in common with me
[2015-01-12 22:08:04] <diabeticgonewild> I find out if i get to do intravenous immunoglobulin on Thursday or not.....tomorrow at the hematologist
[2015-01-13 09:09:06] <diabeticgonewild> I get to find out if I can do intravenous immunoglobulin on Thursday, today, because I am going to the hematologist
[2015-01-13 10:58:35] <diabeticgonewild> Going to find out if i can do intravenous immunoglobulin on Thursday...I am at the hematologist
[2015-01-13 11:26:59] <diabeticgonewild> They couldn't get any blood from me...
[2015-01-13 11:33:28] <diabeticgonewild> No I have no access.
[2015-01-13 11:33:34] <diabeticgonewild> I have a powerport
[2015-01-13 11:34:22] <diabeticgonewild> They are going to send me somewhere else where they can access my port, most likely
[2015-01-13 13:11:05] <diabeticgonewild> Waiting to get my blood drawn through my port at the neurology work up unit
[2015-01-13 13:11:49] <diabeticgonewild> It's up to my neurologist whether or not i get intravenous immunoglobulin on Thursday
[2015-01-13 13:12:24] <diabeticgonewild> No a powerport
[2015-01-13 13:12:36] <diabeticgonewild> It's a central line for IV access
[2015-01-13 13:13:23] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.bardaccess.com/port-powerport.php it's in my chest
[2015-01-13 13:18:35] <diabeticgonewild> That sucks worleygurl
[2015-01-13 16:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> James Avery has cool medical alert jewelry
[2015-01-13 16:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> But I wear the endevr band
[2015-01-13 16:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> It's a QT code bracelet http://www.endevr.com
[2015-01-13 16:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> They have sliders where you can put type 1 diabetes on the bracelet
[2015-01-13 16:46:52] <diabeticgonewild> I have this http://www.endevr.com/store/default.aspx
[2015-01-13 19:32:34] <diabeticgonewild> Had like 10 tubes of blood drawn today
[2015-01-13 19:37:43] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah due to having a blood clot in my lung. I had to go to the neurological work up unit to get it drawn from my port
[2015-01-13 19:38:46] <diabeticgonewild> It didn't hurt that badly....I don't have peripheral vein access. I have a central line in my chest that they can access for draws.
[2015-01-13 19:39:51] <diabeticgonewild> http://www.bardaccess.com/port-powerport.php that is what I have in my chest below my collarbone. It was surgically out there. It runs directly into my heart
[2015-01-13 19:41:52] <diabeticgonewild> I need it for immunomodulatory treatment. I have 2 rare autoimmune diseases. I also have no peripheral veins to access
[2015-01-13 19:42:00] <diabeticgonewild> Getting an IV in me is impossible
[2015-01-13 19:42:27] <diabeticgonewild> Same with blood draws. That's why I had to go to a special unit to get my blood drawn
[2015-01-13 19:46:56] <diabeticgonewild> What's so interesting about it?
[2015-01-13 19:48:48] <diabeticgonewild> Like they use this infrared device and ultrasound machines and they still can't get IV access
[2015-01-13 21:04:45] <diabeticgonewild> hey xacto
[2015-01-13 21:06:53] <diabeticgonewild> alright
[2015-01-13 21:06:58] <diabeticgonewild> how are you?
[2015-01-13 21:07:58] <diabeticgonewild> 200 units or 200 mg/dL?
[2015-01-13 21:08:41] <diabeticgonewild> that's both good and frustrating
[2015-01-13 21:08:59] <diabeticgonewild> I am sorry to hear that you are going through that though.
[2015-01-13 21:11:21] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, are you on metformin?
[2015-01-13 21:12:32] <diabeticgonewild> Have you tried alpha lipoic acid? (I know it sounds weird but it increases glucose uptake in the muscles....you can get it at a vitamin store)
[2015-01-13 21:13:51] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, search for glucose uptake and alpha lipoic acid, although I don't want to give you any false hope
[2015-01-13 21:14:00] <diabeticgonewild> It is also used in Germany for neuropathy
[2015-01-13 21:15:19] <diabeticgonewild> Google it first though.
[2015-01-13 21:15:44] <diabeticgonewild> https://www.google.com/search?q=%22glucose+uptake%22+AND+%22alpha+lipoic+acid%22&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
[2015-01-14 03:46:35] <diabeticgonewild> Canucks lost...which sucks
[2015-01-14 23:12:07] <diabeticgonewild> I hate soldering...I refuse to use lead solder
[2015-01-15 02:20:59] <diabeticgonewild> good morning
[2015-01-15 02:21:15] <diabeticgonewild> have to go to the hospital this morning....to get treatment which will make me sick
[2015-01-15 02:31:02] <diabeticgonewild> good morning
[2015-01-15 09:47:37] <diabeticgonewild> I am in the hospital getting immunomodulatory treatment today. I'm ready to be sick for the next few days.
[2015-01-15 10:41:59] <diabeticgonewild> I love my t:slim, even though I like animas a lot
[2015-01-15 10:43:45] <diabeticgonewild> Starting to get sleepy from the Benadryl premedication
[2015-01-15 11:20:18] <diabeticgonewild>  I am bad with soldering. My hands shake. I hate soldering. I'm am EE student.
[2015-01-15 11:20:25] <diabeticgonewild> DexDrip
[2015-01-15 11:20:38] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah obviously
[2015-01-15 11:20:48] <diabeticgonewild> The Medtronic CGM is inferior
[2015-01-15 11:21:17] <diabeticgonewild> I only use RoHS compliant solder though. I worry about chemical exposure
[2015-01-15 11:23:20] <diabeticgonewild> This is the solder I use. It's expensive and obviously lead solder is advantageous for binding but I refuse to use it. http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B00DKF13JY/ref=mp_s_a_1_7?qid=1421338896&sr=8-7&pi=AC_SX110_SY165_QL70
[2015-01-15 11:24:40] <diabeticgonewild> Nope
[2015-01-15 11:30:23] <diabeticgonewild> Seeker`: Amazon is incorrect http://www.henkelna.com/brands-1556.htm?nodeid=8797570957454
[2015-01-15 11:43:28] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I know. Anyways I really don't want to talk. I am getting treatment at the hospital.
[2015-01-15 16:51:15] <diabeticgonewild> just got out of the hospital for my treatment....at home
[2015-01-15 18:39:22] <diabeticgonewild> how annoying, IRCCloud went down
[2015-01-15 19:05:26] <diabeticgonewild> I hope I can successfully get an official artificial pancreas model working in MATLAB....
[2015-01-15 20:45:30] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-15 21:07:43] <diabeticgonewild> the pink is the perfect hue
[2015-01-15 21:17:44] <diabeticgonewild> MATLAB is taking forever to download...17% and has been downloading for 2 hours
[2015-01-15 21:22:18] <diabeticgonewild> OMG getting MATLAB compiler in my download!
[2015-01-15 21:40:28] <diabeticgonewild> <3 caffeinated chewing gum
[2015-01-15 21:40:55] <diabeticgonewild> same
[2015-01-15 21:47:48] <diabeticgonewild> That would be awesome
[2015-01-15 21:48:07] <diabeticgonewild> I need dexterity for my own implementation of the artificial pancreas...not really a DIYPS
[2015-01-15 21:48:52] <diabeticgonewild> This is my project from 2011. It works. Gfind, GlucoseInsulinModelWrap, and GlucoseInsulinModel are the most interesting functions https://github.com/diabeticgonewild/Artificial_Pancreas
[2015-01-15 21:49:30] <diabeticgonewild> I am going to redo it in MATLAB with all symbolic math and Simulink and toolkits in the cloud via Amazon EC2 and pull it to my Android phone
[2015-01-15 21:50:27] <diabeticgonewild> Also the MATLAB project can be converted to JAVA, particularly into a JAR file which can be deployed directly into Android, but it's a space hog
[2015-01-15 21:50:59] <diabeticgonewild> also there are a bunch of iterative calculations, using a bunch of battery power. But it works awesomely on airplanes.
[2015-01-15 21:51:44] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I have an iPhone 6 Plus
[2015-01-15 21:52:31] <diabeticgonewild> but when I implement the Artificial Pancreas algorithms on my own officially, I will need a hardcore Android phone(s) with phenomenal battery and processing power
[2015-01-15 21:53:12] <diabeticgonewild> I want to ditch the Pebble. Android Wear is more powerful.
[2015-01-15 21:53:46] <diabeticgonewild> Actually, I have to keep the Pebble because the Android Wear is a point of failure with the Artificial Pancreas. Same with the wixel
[2015-01-15 21:53:50] <diabeticgonewild> o
[2015-01-15 21:54:51] <diabeticgonewild> O
[2015-01-15 21:55:29] <diabeticgonewild> agreed
[2015-01-15 21:56:12] <diabeticgonewild> MATLAB plus Simulink and toolboxes is only at 26%....taking forever.... :(
[2015-01-16 00:40:04] <diabeticgonewild> Pretty wild. I was analyzing a journal article, Stochastic Virtual Population of Subjects With Type 1 Diabetes for the Assessment of Closed-Loop Glucose Controllers, in attempts to make sense out of it, in order to design another Artificial Pancreas model in MATLAB.
[2015-01-16 00:40:14] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, they mentioned "random walks" multiple times in the paper and I thought it had to do something with forcing the simulated people to go on walks as a test to see how going on a walk affects blood glucose readings metabolically.
[2015-01-16 00:40:29] <diabeticgonewild> It turns out that it's an actual mathematical process. How wild is that! I guess my mind takes me to wild places!
[2015-01-16 00:40:38] <diabeticgonewild> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Random_walk
[2015-01-16 00:46:14] <diabeticgonewild> thanks
[2015-01-17 00:15:09] <diabeticgonewild> nothing like getting neuropathic pain (shocks) in the crotch area
[2015-01-17 00:15:30] <diabeticgonewild> It's not diabetes-related. I have chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2015-01-17 00:20:12] <diabeticgonewild> I know, TMI
[2015-01-17 00:21:51] <diabeticgonewild> Haha. I wouldn't make it graphic but it is TMI.
[2015-01-17 00:26:16] <diabeticgonewild> LOL!
[2015-01-17 00:27:03] <diabeticgonewild> I am even getting neuropathic pain on the surface of my ears and near my lips, FML!
[2015-01-17 00:27:11] <diabeticgonewild> Obviously that isn't diabetic neuropathy!
[2015-01-21 20:22:49] <diabeticgonewild> Damnit didn't get shit done the past 2 days. Was working on #WeAreNotWaiting projects while I was feeling good
[2015-01-21 20:32:14] <diabeticgonewild> We are not waiting like you know Nightscout
[2015-01-21 20:32:34] <diabeticgonewild> Now I am getting sick again...
[2015-01-21 20:33:34] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah going to reprogram an updated model for the artificial pancreas again
[2015-01-21 20:34:22] <diabeticgonewild> GitHub.com/diabeticgonewild/Artificial_Pancreas that's my 2011 project
[2015-01-21 20:34:26] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah
[2015-01-21 20:35:01] <diabeticgonewild> I need to do it in like C++ this time around
[2015-01-21 20:36:06] <diabeticgonewild> Well in 2011 I just did it for fun. Plus those models are not updated
[2015-01-21 20:37:48] <diabeticgonewild> I was 21 when I did that project
[2015-01-21 20:42:04] <diabeticgonewild> That's what we engineering students use and love
[2015-01-21 20:43:07] <diabeticgonewild> Getting a proper numerical library in C++ is going to be a pain in the ass
[2015-01-21 20:43:17] <diabeticgonewild> That is also robust
[2015-01-21 20:45:27] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah but it involves numerical integration and numerical methods
[2015-01-21 20:45:51] <diabeticgonewild> And globally convergent root finding methods
[2015-01-21 20:47:07] <diabeticgonewild> Not reverse engineering.
[2015-01-21 20:47:18] <diabeticgonewild> Reimplemented models
[2015-01-21 20:50:18] <diabeticgonewild> Kind of...artificial pancreas mathematical models
[2015-01-21 20:55:36] <diabeticgonewild> Pancreas is stupid. Autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy which is believed to have caused my diabetes is stupid.
[2015-01-21 23:28:03] <diabeticgonewild> Damn feel like killing myself...nothing like feeling worthless
[2015-01-22 00:06:43] <diabeticgonewild> getting drunk...
[2015-01-22 00:15:39] <diabeticgonewild> still want to kill myself...and drunk...bad combination...plus alcohol does a number to peripheral nerves and I have 3 diseases that cause neuropathy....I am pretty sure that makes me a dumbass!
[2015-01-22 00:18:11] <diabeticgonewild> I also have a headache, fml....
[2015-01-22 09:41:03] <diabeticgonewild> my muscles are weak, FML
[2015-01-22 09:41:39] <diabeticgonewild> and puked, courtesy of gastroparesis, not caused by my diabetes.
[2015-01-22 09:48:37] <diabeticgonewild> still debating whether I should puke again or not...and potentially lose my blood thinner pill.
[2015-01-22 09:51:04] <diabeticgonewild> it is when you have severe gastroparesis. Like I just hang my head over a toilet and it comes out like a waterfall.
[2015-01-22 09:52:30] <diabeticgonewild> I can control it, to a certain degree.
[2015-01-22 09:53:29] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I would, except that I want my blood thinner to be absorbed :P
[2015-01-22 09:54:36] <diabeticgonewild> and I am getting that weird feeling that my blood sugar is about to go low....like that impending sense of doom.
[2015-01-22 09:55:03] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-22 12:52:43] <diabeticgonewild> so relieved....CVS/Caremark approved the pre-auth for my ADHD medicine...and I just took a dose. Now I get to be productive.
[2015-01-22 12:53:11] <diabeticgonewild> I picked it up like 15 minutes ago....yay
[2015-01-22 23:02:38] <diabeticgonewild> probably just fried my brain, courtesy of low BG for hours.
[2015-01-22 23:34:16] <diabeticgonewild> good night
[2015-01-22 23:34:24] <diabeticgonewild> _51_, FML
[2015-01-23 10:37:43] <diabeticgonewild> TMI, but totally had bowel incontinence, FML
[2015-01-23 10:39:41] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, fucking autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, ftw
[2015-01-23 10:40:13] <diabeticgonewild> it is
[2015-01-23 10:40:44] <diabeticgonewild> it's autoimmune autonomic neuropathy, that was initially blamed on my diabetes, until I tested positive for the ganglionic nicotinic acetylcholine receptor antibody.
[2015-01-23 11:27:25] <diabeticgonewild> dude criminals get caught
[2015-01-23 11:27:43] <diabeticgonewild> no offense glowsticks
[2015-01-23 11:30:01] <diabeticgonewild> I know that, but I am just saying that to avoid being mean.
[2015-01-23 11:30:33] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, but eventually criminals generally get caught.
[2015-01-23 11:30:42] <diabeticgonewild> At least he's not a felon in prison.
[2015-01-23 11:31:36] <diabeticgonewild> everyone has. But it's about minimizing risk.
[2015-01-25 01:06:09] <diabeticgonewild> OMG Hawaiian kava is amazing. I am so relaxed
[2015-01-25 01:07:31] <diabeticgonewild> A plant that you put in a drink...it's legal http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kava
[2015-01-25 01:11:44] <diabeticgonewild> yep. 100% legal
[2015-01-25 01:11:58] <diabeticgonewild> You don't want to get it from a health foods store. It's crappy from there.
[2015-01-25 01:12:11] <diabeticgonewild> This should get you started http://kavaforums.com/forum/
[2015-01-25 01:13:14] <diabeticgonewild> yeah. you're welcome
[2015-01-25 19:57:33] <diabeticgonewild> wow IRCCloud is messed up.
[2015-01-25 22:31:50] <diabeticgonewild> Dexcom is making a big announcement tomorrow at 8 AM PST. It's about a new receiver that transmits directly to the iPhone, supposedly.
[2015-01-25 22:32:49] <diabeticgonewild> Nope, which sucks. Apple is pretty solid though, as it is more "controlled".
[2015-01-25 22:33:10] <diabeticgonewild> I like Android, a lot, but at this point of time, I am OS agnostic.
[2015-01-25 22:34:54] <diabeticgonewild> You can. It's called DexDrip. Get your soldering iron out! (Just don't burn yourself :P )
[2015-01-25 22:36:20] <diabeticgonewild> Not really, as small as a pillbox.
[2015-01-25 22:36:51] <diabeticgonewild> You get rid of the receiver, too. But I am sure your parents wouldn't approve :P .
[2015-01-25 22:37:14] <diabeticgonewild> Photos of it are here. http://stephenblackwasalreadytaken.github.io/DexDrip/
[2015-01-25 22:38:22] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, except it's kind of more convenient.
[2015-01-25 22:38:49] <diabeticgonewild> I hate soldering, by the way, even though I am an electrical engineering student. I am bad with my hands, and I hate the idea of being around heavy metals like lead.
[2015-01-25 22:41:35] <diabeticgonewild> It doesn't really require much practice. Look at YouTube for reference. Basically, you put the wire in contact with whatever you want to solder, and then you put the flux on top of that and press the soldering iron against all of it.
[2015-01-25 22:41:59] <diabeticgonewild> There are some more obscure soldering techniques but you wouldn't need it for this project (DexDrip).
[2015-01-25 22:42:49] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLfXXRfRIzY
[2015-01-25 22:43:04] <diabeticgonewild> Just don't burn yourself, ouch!
[2015-01-25 22:44:04] <diabeticgonewild> Once you're 18 things change, so if they say no, you just have to wait a little bit longer (even if it seems like forever)
[2015-01-25 22:45:21] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, that's critical to your freedom. :P
[2015-01-25 22:46:56] <diabeticgonewild> I guess the "soldering technique" I recommended, is not recommended. But, I haven't soldered in years (fortunately).
[2015-01-25 22:47:14] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, that still isn't practical though, unless you live in a big city, in the middle of the city.
[2015-01-25 22:47:56] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, so it works.
[2015-01-25 22:49:06] <diabeticgonewild> That's right. Could get robbed a lot easier. Also could get a head injury even with a helmet on.
[2015-01-25 22:49:20] <diabeticgonewild> But of course, you need to wear a helmet, all the time.
[2015-01-25 22:49:29] <diabeticgonewild> But sorry to sound like mommy and daddy.
[2015-01-25 22:49:46] <diabeticgonewild> I don't like bikes, but it's good exercise.
[2015-01-25 22:50:45] <diabeticgonewild> Dang. Sorry to hear that.
[2015-01-25 22:51:37] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, but it's still risky
[2015-01-25 22:52:14] <diabeticgonewild> nope
[2015-01-25 22:53:26] <diabeticgonewild> That's awesome though, other than the crash!
[2015-01-25 22:56:33] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-25 23:00:11] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, man you should focus on staying in school. I was truant all the time, and I am 25 and even though high school still repulses me, I know that I did the wrong thing. Kids belong in school even if they have a really bad illness like me (that was undiagnosed at the time and is not diabetes-related).
[2015-01-25 23:00:49] <diabeticgonewild> Like, unless you are really smart, you need to have good grades in HS, or the odds are against you for succeeding, even with "second chances" in places like community college.
[2015-01-25 23:01:26] <diabeticgonewild> I know I am being a douche bag, but my twin brother, who is actually really smart, he got checked out for learning disabilities, and he has mild ADHD...but we know he is really smart because he got tested
[2015-01-25 23:01:47] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, he failed out of university with only one course left before getting his undergraduate degree
[2015-01-25 23:02:04] <diabeticgonewild> And now he has to go back to community college, and work his ass off in a series of crappy jobs.
[2015-01-25 23:03:47] <diabeticgonewild> Don't be so hard on yourself. But I am just saying you don't want to do that. Try to stay in school. Get interested in your studies, especially in college, and you won't have to do that.
[2015-01-25 23:05:14] <diabeticgonewild> Take your grades seriously. I wasn't even ranked in the top half of my class in HS, and now I have a 3.9 GPA at Arizona State University, in electrical engineering. I also had to decline prominent internships in electrical engineering, such as with Intel, due to my health.
[2015-01-25 23:05:41] <diabeticgonewild> Take your grades as do or die, unless it brings unmanageable (by your own definition) anxiety to you.
[2015-01-25 23:06:25] <diabeticgonewild> But if you intend on working in a technical field, you need the math that you are exposed to in HS, or else you will really struggle....and I mean really struggle.
[2015-01-25 23:07:17] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, man, you gotta do what you gotta do. At least when the time comes, you will know when to take it seriously.
[2015-01-25 23:08:56] <diabeticgonewild> Well, I would have nightmares that I failed my calculus exam, after I took the exams, and then I would actually get the grade and it would come back as a 100.
[2015-01-25 23:09:10] <diabeticgonewild> In university.
[2015-01-25 23:11:12] <diabeticgonewild> Thanks! You will take it seriously if you are capable, and likely after working a series of crappy jobs (no offense). Those are good motivation for going to college and getting though it. Also paying your way through school changes things a lot.
[2015-01-25 23:13:22] <diabeticgonewild> It's OK. don't be so hard on yourself. You will find the way, man :)
[2015-01-25 23:14:12] <diabeticgonewild> You're welcome.
[2015-01-25 23:15:02] <diabeticgonewild> probably anxious. Try to relax.
[2015-01-25 23:16:08] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, just relax. No worries, and no pressure.
[2015-01-25 23:17:18] <diabeticgonewild> Life of Pi.
[2015-01-25 23:18:27] <diabeticgonewild> cool.
[2015-01-26 01:10:08] <diabeticgonewild> LOL, one of my dad's favorites (he passed away a couple of years ago, but that's alright).
[2015-01-26 01:10:28] <diabeticgonewild> The cinamatography is amazing
[2015-01-26 01:10:54] <diabeticgonewild> I'm glad you liked it!
[2015-01-26 01:49:41] <diabeticgonewild> You're welcome.
[2015-01-26 06:15:39] <diabeticgonewild> LOL!
[2015-01-26 06:16:06] <diabeticgonewild> I never calibrate my dexcom, except when starting a new sensor. I am so bad, but I think you win bewest
[2015-01-26 06:17:14] <diabeticgonewild> I made an algorithm for solving my programming project, just FYI
[2015-01-26 06:30:16] <diabeticgonewild> good morning Antoni
[2015-01-26 06:30:18] <diabeticgonewild> antoni
[2015-01-26 07:10:54] <diabeticgonewild> Doing alright. I have my ups and downs. I see my neurologist in like 5 hours. How are you?
[2015-01-26 07:21:18] <diabeticgonewild> hey good morning worleygurl
[2015-01-26 07:24:14] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah man, you are in the UK right? I'm from Seattle originally. I feel some of your pain.
[2015-01-26 07:35:25] <diabeticgonewild> :)
[2015-01-26 14:45:11] <diabeticgonewild> Had a positive ANA test...that's why I likely got a blood clot in my lung
[2015-01-26 14:45:30] <diabeticgonewild> Literally had a panic attack waiting for the results.
[2015-01-26 14:46:17] <diabeticgonewild> My neurologist is cool though
[2015-01-26 14:47:04] <diabeticgonewild> That's awesome
[2015-01-26 14:53:05] <diabeticgonewild> LMAO
[2015-01-26 14:55:12] <diabeticgonewild> Haha you are so awesome worleygurl
[2015-01-26 16:01:23] <diabeticgonewild> Gairyth , you have a rare neuro disease?? I have 2
[2015-01-26 16:01:29] <diabeticgonewild> autoimmune too
[2015-01-26 16:02:45] <diabeticgonewild> I have 2 autoimmune neuropathies
[2015-01-26 16:25:57] <diabeticgonewild> Multiclix is supposedly better than the Fastclix
[2015-01-26 16:28:59] <diabeticgonewild> ?
[2015-01-26 16:29:44] <diabeticgonewild> oh
[2015-01-26 16:30:11] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, I am using my 5 year old mac right now. The hard drive is bad and I am backing up stuff while I can.
[2015-01-26 16:30:25] <diabeticgonewild> That's pretty cool.
[2015-01-26 16:30:51] <diabeticgonewild> that's sweet!
[2015-01-26 16:31:08] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, I bet
[2015-01-26 16:31:38] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, that's definitely cool.
[2015-01-26 16:32:28] <diabeticgonewild> So they found out why I have a blood clot in my lung. I have a positive ANA antibody test and lupus anticoagulant antibodies (but it doesn't mean I actually have lupus...at all).
[2015-01-26 16:33:05] <diabeticgonewild> I went to my neurologist today. They may have to discontinue treatment of a certain type in the future.
[2015-01-26 16:33:14] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, I am still pretty stressed out about it.
[2015-01-26 16:33:32] <diabeticgonewild> I haven't done anything really today. Been really anxious.
[2015-01-26 16:51:22] <diabeticgonewild> yay get to be on a higher dose of immunosuppressants
[2015-01-26 16:53:26] <diabeticgonewild> yeah
[2015-01-26 16:54:37] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, it's ok. It just never ends. That's why I need to close the loop. They are not blaming it on my diabetes, but they kind of can. Plus, if I were ever to get a stem cell transplant, I need to be in optimal control. Anyways, thanks.
[2015-01-26 16:54:52] <diabeticgonewild> for everything. But you know I have to do what I have to do. And I have an agenda.
[2015-01-26 16:55:22] <diabeticgonewild> Like it's never ending, for me.
[2015-01-26 16:56:28] <diabeticgonewild> I have 2 rare autoimmune neuropathies, plus other medical issues. It's worrisome.
[2015-01-26 17:11:05] <diabeticgonewild> Damn got a textbook I needed through library research databases. For Kalman filtering....yay
[2015-01-26 17:15:18] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, I feel like crap. Some days, I wish I never existed.
[2015-01-26 17:16:27] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, I wouldn't minimize it. It's a bad place to be in, without a doubt.
[2015-01-26 17:20:03] <diabeticgonewild> I guess. It depends on how you look at it. I am tired of being miserable all of the time.
[2015-01-26 21:26:04] <diabeticgonewild> at least this new artificial pancreas programming project that I am doing takes my mind off of things.
[2015-01-27 15:11:39] <diabeticgonewild> I feel like having some kava.
[2015-01-27 17:01:06] <diabeticgonewild> Geez drinking Hawaiian kava is so relaxing
[2015-01-27 17:01:20] <diabeticgonewild> I am sinking into a mellow and euphoric state of mind
[2015-01-27 17:02:32] <diabeticgonewild> indeed it is. :-)
[2015-01-27 17:02:52] <diabeticgonewild> LOL ttyl
[2015-01-27 19:40:05] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-27 21:13:34] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, the deconvolution?
[2015-01-27 21:13:42] <diabeticgonewild> I gave stephen a paper
[2015-01-27 21:14:57] <diabeticgonewild> obviously
[2015-01-27 21:15:24] <diabeticgonewild> transmitters only transmit
[2015-01-27 21:15:30] <diabeticgonewild> they are not smart
[2015-01-27 21:15:37] <diabeticgonewild> tranceivers trasmit and receiver
[2015-01-27 21:15:46] <diabeticgonewild> receivers only receive signals
[2015-01-27 21:16:00] <diabeticgonewild> correct
[2015-01-27 21:16:07] <diabeticgonewild> as many devices that are in range
[2015-01-27 21:16:24] <diabeticgonewild> given no interference
[2015-01-27 21:16:34] <diabeticgonewild> EE student, remember?
[2015-01-27 21:17:21] <diabeticgonewild> that's going to be really hard bewest , no offense. My cousin is an EE who works on medical devices.
[2015-01-27 21:17:39] <diabeticgonewild> that's cool, and you were most likely the biggest influence on the rule changing
[2015-01-27 21:18:14] <diabeticgonewild> so that's something to really be proud of
[2015-01-27 21:18:31] <diabeticgonewild> I hope so.
[2015-01-27 21:18:40] <diabeticgonewild> petition?
[2015-01-27 21:19:09] <diabeticgonewild> oh, like turn over the data to another cloud
[2015-01-27 21:19:14] <diabeticgonewild> for like a database
[2015-01-27 21:24:29] <diabeticgonewild> Legal and shit
[2015-01-27 21:24:40] <diabeticgonewild> But for starters ideas are needed
[2015-01-27 21:24:47] <diabeticgonewild> We are not lawyers.
[2015-01-27 21:25:55] <diabeticgonewild> interesting
[2015-01-27 21:30:00] <diabeticgonewild> HIPAA only involves providers
[2015-01-27 21:31:59] <diabeticgonewild> Well their rules suck for importing medical devices. I spent like 60 hours trying to figure out if I could legally import a Freestyle Navigator II.
[2015-01-27 21:32:05] <diabeticgonewild> but that's besides the point.
[2015-01-27 21:32:14] <diabeticgonewild> nothing
[2015-01-27 21:34:21] <diabeticgonewild> the information? = YouTube
[2015-01-27 21:34:28] <diabeticgonewild> basic info, I mean
[2015-01-27 21:35:59] <diabeticgonewild> interesting
[2015-01-27 21:50:58] <diabeticgonewild> Get paid tonight.
[2015-01-27 21:53:19] <diabeticgonewild> yep. It's nice, for sure.
[2015-01-27 21:54:53] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, going to get another pump with the money
[2015-01-27 21:56:04] <diabeticgonewild> It's for a good cause :-)
[2015-01-27 21:56:47] <diabeticgonewild> no. A backup insulin pump.
[2015-01-27 21:57:57] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, no, not for charity, LOL
[2015-01-27 21:58:52] <diabeticgonewild> I did donate a bunch of supplies to a type 1 diabetic friend who is pregnant, who I grew up with as a child, who is poor
[2015-01-27 21:58:58] <diabeticgonewild> that sucks dosman711
[2015-01-27 21:59:21] <diabeticgonewild> o
[2015-01-27 21:59:28] <diabeticgonewild> interesting
[2015-01-27 22:00:35] <diabeticgonewild> Thanks. She uses the MM pump and CGM.
[2015-01-27 22:00:59] <diabeticgonewild> I used the Enlites for awhile too, and donated them to her. She got thousands of dollars in supplies.
[2015-01-27 22:01:06] <diabeticgonewild> Because I switched pumps
[2015-01-27 22:01:11] <diabeticgonewild> and CGMs
[2015-01-27 22:02:18] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, she has a messed up medical situation like me. She has a rare situation going on where she is unusually resistant to insulin and she has ended up in DKA over 50 times.
[2015-01-27 22:03:23] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, it really sucks and it's sad. It's all diabetes related. My rare medical situation is rare autoimmune diseases on top of diabetes, unlike hers.
[2015-01-27 22:07:41] <diabeticgonewild> Fuck you, Seeker' . I have rare shit upon rare shit, and they think I have other rare shit but the test is only available in a research lab.
[2015-01-27 22:08:44] <diabeticgonewild> for good reason. If I didn't people would think that my autoimmune NEUROPATHIES were diabetes-related
[2015-01-27 22:09:20] <diabeticgonewild> yep, autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2015-01-27 22:09:32] <diabeticgonewild> The AAG likely caused my diabetes autoimmunity
[2015-01-27 22:10:41] <diabeticgonewild> LOL
[2015-01-27 22:12:40] <diabeticgonewild> Seeker` fuck off. I hope you prefer your shit medium rare, and not extra rare like my problems are.
[2015-01-27 22:14:45] <diabeticgonewild> yeah, and I really don't care, because I am not even going to try to please you.
[2015-01-27 22:15:14] <diabeticgonewild> LOL, I don't have to
[2015-01-27 22:15:37] <diabeticgonewild> IDK I'm watching hockey
[2015-01-27 22:37:23] <diabeticgonewild> Not much of a football fan but superbowl is this weekend. Seahawks all the way! (I am from Seattle)
[2015-01-27 22:37:48] <diabeticgonewild> Google NBC sports streaming
[2015-01-27 22:55:51] <diabeticgonewild> LOL http://www.buzzfeed.com/tanyachen/exercise-caution-wearing-a-canada-shirt#.boGW59YNj
[2015-01-27 22:56:00] <diabeticgonewild> look at the photos
[2015-01-27 23:19:09] <diabeticgonewild> wow there is hardcore fighting Ducks vs. Canucks
[2015-01-29 21:40:29] <diabeticgonewild> Geez I have to call my GI doctor in the morning
[2015-01-29 21:43:34] <diabeticgonewild> TMI but chronic diarrhea is killing me....have to go #2 every time I go to the bathroom...no joke
[2015-01-29 21:43:54] <diabeticgonewild> Yay GI motility issues
[2015-01-29 23:15:37] <diabeticgonewild> yay chronic diarrhea. Go #2 every time I use the restroom. Get to email my GI doctor in the morning.
[2015-02-07 02:38:02] <diabeticgonewild> My doctor thinks I have lupus. My world is collapsing on me.
[2015-02-07 02:58:16] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah I want to die. Seriously
[2015-02-07 02:58:48] <diabeticgonewild> I tested positive for ANA and lupus anticoagulant antibodies
[2015-02-07 02:59:17] <diabeticgonewild> Would rather get life over with
[2015-02-07 02:59:33] <diabeticgonewild> But don't want my family to suffer
[2015-02-07 02:59:44] <diabeticgonewild> I tested positive for ANA and lupus anticoagulant antibodies
[2015-02-07 02:59:46] <diabeticgonewild> Would rather get life over with
[2015-02-07 02:59:49] <diabeticgonewild> But don't want my family to suffer
[2015-02-07 03:00:10] <diabeticgonewild> Sever problem. Sorry
[2015-02-07 03:00:46] <diabeticgonewild> I do have lethal means readily available to me. It would be so easy to do.
[2015-02-07 03:03:21] <diabeticgonewild> Actually I think I might do it
[2015-02-07 07:06:28] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah fuck lupus
[2015-02-07 07:29:16] <diabeticgonewild> Cardiologist thinks I have lupus
[2015-02-07 07:29:41] <diabeticgonewild> ANA and lupus anticoagulant antibodies positive and joint pain
[2015-02-07 07:30:15] <diabeticgonewild> I also have autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy
[2015-02-07 07:30:56] <diabeticgonewild> So basically for the record, so far, T1D and 2 rare autoimmune neuropathies, plus suspected lupus
[2015-02-07 08:20:26] <diabeticgonewild> My mom is mad at me for saying that I am screwed basically
[2015-02-07 08:21:20] <diabeticgonewild> Probably can't/won't get a stem cell transplant, will die from all of this shit etc
[2015-02-07 08:33:26] <diabeticgonewild> Yay yelling at my mom telling her I'm screwed...wow I am nice
[2015-02-07 16:55:19] <diabeticgonewild> wondering if I should leave a note if I do manage to kill myself
[2015-02-07 16:56:45] <diabeticgonewild> Cardiologist thinks I have lupus, in addition to T1D, autoimmune autonomic ganglionopathy, and chronic inflammatory demyelinating polyneuropathy diagnoses. I think it would be OK to kill myself.
[2015-02-07 16:57:53] <diabeticgonewild> I know I am going to die from this shit anyways. Why suffer anymore.
[2015-02-07 16:59:23] <diabeticgonewild> Agreed, actually.
[2015-02-07 17:00:49] <diabeticgonewild> Good idea.
[2015-02-07 17:02:17] <diabeticgonewild> I doubt it. I have totally fell in between the cracks.
[2015-02-07 17:03:11] <diabeticgonewild> yep.
[2015-02-07 17:03:50] <diabeticgonewild> Yep, and that is correct.
[2015-02-07 17:05:16] <diabeticgonewild> Yeah, thanks.
[2015-02-07 17:08:27] <diabeticgonewild> haha :-)
[2015-02-07 17:11:18] <diabeticgonewild> I have access to barbiturates.
[2015-02-07 17:12:04] <diabeticgonewild> yep.
[2015-02-07 17:13:59] <diabeticgonewild> true.
[2015-02-07 17:14:15] <diabeticgonewild> Anyways, I am going to get something to eat. Thank you.
[2015-02-07 21:57:11] <diabeticgonewild> so what happened to the big list of people on this IRC room
[2015-02-08 03:02:40] <diabeticgonewild> I seriously feel like killing myself. Life isn't worth it anymore.
[2015-02-08 22:52:54] <diabeticgonewild> my life isn't fucking worth it anymore. Going to kill myself soon. Got to make my decision when I am going to do it. I get chills and stuff due to my immune system gone wild and I probably do have lupus.
[2015-02-08 22:54:42] <diabeticgonewild> OK whatever. I don't really care. I just want life to be over with.
[2015-02-08 22:55:16] <diabeticgonewild> I don't even want to go to school anymore. That's how crappy I feel.
[2015-02-08 22:56:14] <diabeticgonewild> All of the work I have put into school and I don't even want to go anymore.
[2015-02-08 22:57:00] <diabeticgonewild> I am never going to get married, have kids, etc. etc. over the fucking diseases I have. And if I don't kill myself I will die an awful death.