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Hi Kage, I am really sorry to once again ignore your wishes but this will be the last time I promise. Also forgive that this message may seem a little disjointed, much of it was written a few days ago (one of those therapeutic exercises where you write the letter but don’t send the letter). Currently I’m both physically and emotionally drained, but first thing in the morning I’ll be restoring my phone to factory settings so wouldn’t be able to contact you even if I wanted to. The point of this message is to apologise in hope it will help me move past this, but know I’m not asking for, or deserving of, your forgiveness. Having been able to step back and review our interactions you were always honest with me and gave me more than enough warnings which I disregarded. I treated you as something I wanted and not as a person, giving very little though to how you feel or how my actions affected you, which really only makes me marginally better than the guy that assaulted you, and I would never expect you to forgive him. I’ve started to get some help (I imagine she’s going to tell me off when I tell her I sent this), I only wish I had done so before we met. This seems to be one of those right guy, wrong time situations. You came into my life somewhat randomly, and that actually gives me hope for the future, there will be other nice guys that will appear randomly, and hopefully at that time I will be in a better place and able to treat them in a way they deserve and not repeat the same mistakes. Please don’t let our interactions affect any future relationships you have, I promise most guys do not share my level of crazy, and you deserve to have fun and meet someone deserving of you. I still intend to get back into the furry community so it’s possible our paths may cross, I’ll keep my distance though, maybe offering up a friendly wave or something should our eyes meet. As I mentioned after tomorrow I will have no way of contacting you but you know where to find me if for some reason you find yourself wanting to (Don’t worry, I won’t be holding my breath). Take care of yourself and never change, you’re a pretty great guy just as you are. I’ll miss you, but hopefully sending this message will lessen that. Also, were you aware we were exchanging almost 400 messages a day? I think this is why the sudden drop to 0 has definitely left a bit of a void. Anyway… I digress, Goodbye Kage.