Let me start out by saying that I have zero intention of trying to convince you that my views are right and yours are wrong. Even if that were possible, I don't see how it could possibly be helpful or worthwhile for either of us. I've got no interest in that at all.
What I am interested in doing is answering your question, which relates to my comment that I have good reason for believing what I do. My belief can be summarised in one sentence: that Jesus is who he said he is. Following on from that, I find him the most worthy of admiration of any person I've ever heard about, and so naturally want to know him better, and learn to see the world the way he sees it.
As I said: I don't expect you to accept this as airtight proof that something in history definitely happened (what would