#notestoself

2017-09-10

I think as I grow older, I come face to face with the meaning of many of the phrases which I've just used. One of them being finding myself. 

I've realized that if I take a step back from myself - more specifically, a step back from what I am trying to do - I can see what I do. Looking at that, I see that I am for sure not someone who can work along side people. I am not someone who enjoys building an organization or doing things in ways that things have been done in past. I am not someone who will not drop the ball on a conversation. This is not about whether my approach is good or bad, or efficient or not. But simply, what I do. Looking at it, I've to find out the path or carve out a path for myself which I can walk sustainably for the rest of my life to get to where I want to get.

So collaboration and organization building is out. I think I've always been a hacker, and I need to find a hack that will help the cause.

Also, anything which requires me to act in a time sensitive way is also not the best course of action for me.