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:credits_core_team | |
= 0.1 | |
The core development team of The Witness | |
was comprised more or less as follows: | |
= 5.7 | |
Design and Generally Steering the Ship, | |
Jonathan Blow | |
= 10.0 | |
Programming: | |
Ignacio Castaño | |
Salvador Bel Murciano | |
Andrew Smith | |
= 17.1 | |
Modeling and Texturing: | |
Luis Antonio | |
Orsolya Spanyol | |
Eric A Anderson | |
: credits_additional | |
Additional contributions in modeling by | |
= 2.8 | |
Shannon Galvin | |
Alex Haworth | |
= 5.9 | |
Andrea Blasich | |
Eric Urquhart | |
= 9.0 | |
and David Hellman | |
= 11.0 | |
Additional contributions in programming by | |
= 14.0 | |
Casey Muratori | |
Andrew Hynek | |
and Nicholas Ray | |
: credits_audio | |
= 0.0 | |
Audio by Wabi Sabi Sound: | |
= 2.57 | |
Andrew Lackey | |
Beau Anthony Jimenez | |
= 6.5 | |
Geoff Garnett, Luca Fusi, | |
Eric Lorenz | |
= 10.5 | |
: credits_voicework_story | |
= 0.0 | |
Voice Performances by: | |
= 2.7 | |
Ashley Johnson, | |
Phil LaMarr, | |
= 6.0 | |
Terra Deva, and | |
Matthew Waterson. | |
= 9.4 | |
Voicework recorded at Warner Bros. Studios | |
= 12.7 | |
Project Manager: Emma Weston | |
Casting Director: Pierce O’Toole | |
Voice Over Director: Liam O’Brien | |
= 22.5 | |
Sound Engineers: | |
Alan Freedman, C.A.S. | |
R. Dutch Hill | |
= 28.9 | |
Dialogue Editor – Goeun Lee | |
= 32.2 | |
Director of Photography for the office shoot: | |
Caroline Harrison | |
= 36.5 | |
Early placeholder voicework by | |
Trisha Miller, Andrew Burlinson, and Daniel Van Thomas. | |
= 43.8 | |
Tom Bissell served as an early story consultant. | |
= 47.2 | |
The quote from Augustine of Hippo | |
was translated by Michael Nagler, | |
and can be found in Eknath Easwaran's book | |
“God Makes the Rivers to Flow”. | |
: credits_architecture | |
= 0.0 | |
Architecture: | |
FOURM Design Studio: | |
Deanna Van Buren, Rodrigo Lima | |
= 7.2 | |
Fletcher Studio: | |
David Fletcher, Nicolaus Wright, Beth Bokulich | |
: credits_thanks | |
Special thanks to | |
Jeff Roberts | |
and Daniel Maciel | |
: credits_testing | |
= 0.0 | |
In-House playtesting by: | |
= 2.7 | |
Francis Dooling | |
= 4.5 | |
Michael Calandra | |
= 6.1 | |
Timothy Steen | |
= 8.4 | |
Thanks to our friends who helped playtest: | |
= 11.7 | |
Daniel Benmergui, Marc ten Bosch, | |
= 15.7 | |
Vi Hart, Chris Hecker, | |
= 19.5 | |
Brian Moriarty, Chris Butcher, | |
= 23.7 | |
Erin Robinson, Jeff Roberts, | |
Won Chun | |
: credits_sony | |
= 0.2 | |
Special thanks to our friends at Sony, | |
= 3.0 | |
Nick Suttner, | |
Adam Boyes, | |
= 6.8 | |
Justin Massongill, | |
Alessandro Bovenzi | |
: feynman | |
= 0.5 | |
And so, | |
by a backhanded, upside-down argument, | |
= 5.0 | |
was predicted that there is in carbon | |
a level at 7.82 million volts; | |
= 10.2 | |
and then experiments in the laboratory with carbon | |
show indeed that there is. | |
= 14.8 | |
And therefore the existence in the world of all these other elements | |
is very closely related to the fact | |
that there is this particular level in carbon. | |
= 23.5 | |
But the position of this particular level in carbon seems to us, | |
after knowing the physical laws, | |
= 28.8 | |
to be a very complicated accident | |
of twelve complicated particles interacting. | |
= 33.3 | |
So I use to illustrate, by this example, | |
that an understanding of the physical laws | |
= 39.5 | |
doesn’t give an understanding in a sense of a — | |
understanding significance of the world in any way. | |
= 48.2 | |
The details of real experience are very far, often, | |
from the fundamental laws. | |
= 56.4 | |
There are, in a way of speaking in the world — | |
= 59.1 | |
We have a way of discussing the world, | |
which you could call a, | |
we discuss it at various hierarchies, or levels. | |
= 65.5 | |
Now I don’t mean to be very precise, | |
there’s a level, there’s another level, and another level, | |
= 70.0 | |
but I will indicate, by describing a set of ideas to you, | |
just one after the other, | |
what I mean by hierarchies of ideas. | |
= 81.0 | |
For example, at one end, we have the fundamental laws of physics. | |
= 85.5 | |
Then we invent other terms for concepts which are approximate, | |
who have, we believe, their ultimate explanation | |
in terms of the fundamental laws. | |
= 93.7 | |
For instance, ‘heat’. Heat is supposed to be the jiggling, | |
and it’s just a word for — a hot thing is just a word | |
for a mass of atoms which are jiggling. | |
= 101.9 | |
Thought out fundamentally, we should think of the atoms jiggling. | |
= 105.0 | |
But for a while, if we’re talking about heat, | |
we sometimes forget about the atoms jiggling — | |
= 109.7 | |
just like when we talk about the glacier | |
we don’t always think of the hexagonal ice | |
snowflakes which originally fell. | |
= 117.5 | |
Another example of the same thing is a salt crystal. | |
Looked at fundamentally, | |
it’s a lot of protons, neutrons, and electrons; | |
= 123.5 | |
but we have this concept ’salt crystal’, | |
which carries a whole pattern, already, | |
of fundamental interactions. | |
= 130.2 | |
Or an idea like pressure. | |
= 133.7 | |
Now if we go higher up from this, | |
in another level, we have properties of substances — | |
= 139.2 | |
like ’refractive index’, | |
how light is bent when it goes through something; | |
= 142.8 | |
or ’surface tension’, | |
the fact that the water tends to pull itself together, | |
= 146.8 | |
is described by a number. | |
= 148.4 | |
I remind you that we have to go through several laws down | |
to find out that it’s the pull of the atoms, and so on. | |
= 155.2 | |
But we still say it’s ’surface tension’, and don’t worry, | |
when we’re discussing surface tension, of the inner workings — | |
always — sometimes we do, sometimes we don’t. | |
= 161.8 | |
Go on — up — in the hierarchy. | |
= 164.9 | |
With the water we have the waves | |
and we have a thing like a storm, | |
we have a word ’storm’ which represents | |
an enormous mass of phenomena, | |
= 173.0 | |
or ’sunspot’ or ’star’, which is an accumulation of things. | |
And it’s not worthwhile always to think of it way back. | |
= 181.9 | |
In fact we can’t, because the higher up we go, | |
we have too many steps in between, | |
each one of which is a little weak, | |
and we haven’t thought them all through yet. | |
= 190.4 | |
As we go up in this hierarchy of complexity, | |
we get to things like frog, or nerve impulse, | |
= 199.1 | |
which, you see, is an enormously complicated thing | |
in the physical world, involving an organization of matter | |
in a very elaborate complexity. | |
= 208.3 | |
And then we go on, we come to things, words and concepts | |
like ’man’, and ’history’, or ’political expediency’, | |
and so forth, | |
= 219.9 | |
which is a series of concepts | |
that we use to understand things at an ever-higher level. | |
= 224.7 | |
And going on, we come to things like evil, and beauty, and hope... | |
= 232.0 | |
Now which end is nearer to the ultimate creator, or the ultimate? | |
So if I make a religious metaphor, which end is nearer to God? | |
= 244.8 | |
Beauty and hope, or the fundamental laws? | |
= 248.4 | |
I think that the right way, of course, is to say | |
the whole structural interconnections of the thing | |
is the thing that we have to look at, | |
= 257.8 | |
and that the sequence of hierar — | |
= 259.0 | |
that all the sciences and all the efforts, | |
not just the sciences but all the efforts of intellectual kinds, | |
= 265.1 | |
are to see the connections of the hierarchies, | |
to connect beauty to history, | |
to connect history to man’s psychology, | |
= 271.8 | |
man’s psychology to the working of the brain, | |
the brain to the neural impulse, | |
= 275.7 | |
the neural impulse to the chemistry, | |
and so forth, up and down, both ways. | |
= 279.8 | |
And today we cannot, | |
and there’s no use making believe we can, | |
draw carefully a line all the way | |
from one end of this thing to the other, | |
= 286.7 | |
in fact we’ve just begun to see | |
that there is this relative hierarchy. | |
= 293.0 | |
And so I don’t think either end is nearer to God’s. | |
= 295.8 | |
And that to stand at either end, | |
and to walk out off the end of the pier only, | |
hoping out in that direction is the complete understanding, | |
is a mistake. | |
= 305.3 | |
And to stand with evil and beauty and hope, | |
or to stand with the fundamental laws, | |
= 312.0 | |
hoping that way to get a deep understanding of the whole world, | |
with that aspect alone, is a mistake. | |
= 318.7 | |
And it is not sensible either, | |
for the ones who specialize at one end, | |
and the ones who specialize at the other end, | |
= 326.2 | |
to have such disregard for each other. | |
(They don’t actually, but the people say they do. Sorry.) | |
= 334.9 | |
But that actually, | |
the great mass of workers in between, | |
= 338.7 | |
connecting one step to another, | |
are improving all the time our understanding of the world, | |
= 343.4 | |
both from working at the ends and working in the middle. | |
= 347.0 | |
And in that way | |
we are gradually understanding this connection, | |
this tremendous world of interconnecting hierarchies. | |
= 356.4 | |
= 357.5 | |
If you expected science to give all the answers | |
to the wonderful questions about what we are, | |
= 361.5 | |
where we’re going, | |
what the meaning of the universe is and so on, | |
= 366.0 | |
then I think you could easily become disillusioned | |
and then look for some mystic answer to these problems. | |
= 371.5 | |
How a scientist can take a mystic answer I don’t know | |
because the whole spirit is to understand — | |
= 377.0 | |
well, never mind that. Anyhow, I don’t understand that, | |
but anyhow if you think of it, | |
= 383.0 | |
the way I think of what we’re doing is we’re exploring, | |
we’re trying to find out as much as we can about the world. | |
= 388.7 | |
People say to me, "Are you looking for the ultimate laws of physics?" | |
No, I’m not, I’m just looking to find out more about the world | |
= 396.0 | |
and if it turns out there is a simple ultimate law | |
that explains everything, | |
so be it, that would be very nice to discover. | |
= 401.8 | |
If it turns out it’s like an onion with millions of layers | |
and we’re just sick and tired of looking at the layers, | |
then that’s the way it is, | |
= 407.9 | |
but whatever way it comes out its nature is there | |
and she’s going to come out the way she is, | |
= 413.0 | |
and therefore when we go to investigate it we shouldn’t pre-decide | |
what it is we’re trying to do | |
except to find out more about it. | |
= 420.2 | |
If you said your problem is, | |
why do you find out more about it, | |
= 423.4 | |
if you thought you were trying to find out more about it | |
because you’re going to get an answer | |
to some deep philosophical question, | |
you may be wrong. | |
= 430.7 | |
It may be that you can’t get an answer to that particular question | |
by finding out more about the character of nature, | |
= 436.3 | |
but I don’t look at it — | |
= 438.8 | |
My interest in science is to simply find out about the world, | |
and the more I find out the better it is. | |
= 444.5 | |
I like to find out. | |
= 446.8 | |
There are very remarkable mysteries | |
about the fact that we’re able to do so many more things | |
than apparently animals can do, and other questions like that, | |
= 454.5 | |
but those are mysteries I want to investigate | |
without knowing the answer to them. | |
= 459.0 | |
And so altogether I can’t believe the special stories | |
that have been made up | |
about our relationship to the universe at large | |
= 467.0 | |
because — | |
= 469.9 | |
they seem to be — | |
= 473.5 | |
too simple, too connected to — | |
= 477.0 | |
Too local! Too provincial! | |
The earth, he came to the earth! | |
= 480.8 | |
One of the aspects of God came to the earth, mind you, | |
= 485.3 | |
and look at what’s out there. How can you — | |
It isn’t in proportion. | |
= 492.5 | |
Anyway, it’s no use arguing, I can’t argue it, | |
= 495.0 | |
I’m just trying to tell you why the scientific views that I have | |
do have some effect on my beliefs. And also another thing | |
= 504.8 | |
has to do with the question | |
of how you find out if something’s true, | |
= 509.5 | |
and if you have all these theories, | |
the different religions | |
have all different theories about the thing, | |
= 515.2 | |
then you begin to wonder. Once you start doubting, | |
just like you’re supposed to doubt, you ask me is the science true. | |
= 520.0 | |
We say no no, we don’t know what’s true, | |
we’re trying to find out, everything is possibly wrong. | |
= 523.7 | |
Start out understanding religion by saying | |
everything is possibly wrong; let us see. | |
= 527.9 | |
As soon as you do that, you start sliding down an edge | |
which is hard to recover from. | |
= 534.0 | |
And so with the scientific view, well, my father’s view, | |
that we should look to see what’s true | |
and what may not be true, | |
= 541.4 | |
once you start doubting, which I think to me | |
is a very fundamental part of my soul, | |
is to doubt and to ask, | |
= 550.3 | |
and when you doubt and ask it gets a little harder to believe. | |
= 555.5 | |
You see, one thing is, | |
I can live with doubt and uncertainty and not knowing. | |
I think it’s much more interesting to live not knowing | |
than to have answers which might be wrong. | |
= 570.2 | |
I have approximate answers and possible beliefs | |
and different degrees of certainty about different things, | |
= 575.0 | |
but I’m not absolutely sure of anything | |
and there are many things I don’t know anything about, | |
= 579.1 | |
such as whether it means anything to ask why we’re here, | |
and what the question might mean. | |
= 585.0 | |
I might think about it a little bit, | |
if I can’t figure it out, then I go to something else, | |
= 590.2 | |
but I don’t have to know an answer. | |
I don’t feel frightened by not knowing things, | |
= 596.5 | |
by being lost in the mysterious universe | |
without having any purpose, | |
= 600.8 | |
which is the way it really is so far as I can tell. | |
Possibly. | |
= 604.0 | |
It doesn’t frighten me. | |
= 606.0 | |
: burke | |
= 5.9 | |
Well, that’s no better a solution than any of the others, is it? | |
= 11.1 | |
So, in the end, have we learned anything | |
from this look at why the world turned out the way it did | |
= 19.4 | |
that’s of any use to us in our future? | |
Something, I think. | |
= 25.2 | |
That the key to why things change is the key to everything. | |
How easy is it for knowledge to spread? | |
= 35.4 | |
And that, in the past, the people who made change happen | |
were the people who had that knowledge, | |
whether they were craftsmen or kings. | |
= 45.8 | |
Today, the people who make things change, | |
the people who have that knowledge, | |
= 51.8 | |
are the scientists and the technologists | |
who are the true driving force of humanity. | |
= 56.8 | |
And before you say, | |
"What about the Beethovens and the Michelangeloes," | |
let me suggest something with which you may disagree violently: | |
= 65.7 | |
that at best the products of human emotion: | |
art — philosophy — politics — music — literature, | |
= 73.3 | |
are interpretations of the world, | |
= 76.7 | |
that tell you more about the guy who’s talking | |
than about the world he’s talking about. | |
= 81.0 | |
= 82.9 | |
Secondhand views of the world | |
made thirdhand by your interpretation of them. | |
= 90.0 | |
Things like that: | |
= 91.5 | |
As opposed to | |
= 92.3 | |
this: | |
= 93.5 | |
Know what it is? | |
= 95.0 | |
It’s a bunch of amino acids, | |
the stuff that goes to build up a — | |
= 99.3 | |
a worm, | |
or a geranium, | |
= 101.7 | |
= 102.2 | |
or you. | |
= 104.6 | |
This stuff’s easier to take, isn’t it? | |
= 106.7 | |
Understandable; got people in it. | |
= 110.4 | |
This, scientific knowledge, | |
is hard to take | |
= 114.3 | |
because it removes the reassuring crutches of opinion, ideology, | |
and leaves only what is demonstrably true about the world. | |
= 125.4 | |
And the reason why so many people | |
may be thinking about throwing away those crutches | |
= 130.7 | |
is because, thanks to science and technology, | |
they have begun to know that they don’t know so much | |
= 138.5 | |
and that if they’re to have | |
more say in what happens to their lives, | |
= 142.4 | |
more freedom to develop their abilities to the full, | |
= 145.6 | |
they have to be helped towards that knowledge | |
that they know exists and that they don’t possess. | |
= 151.8 | |
And by "helped towards that knowledge", I don’t mean | |
give everybody a computer and say "help yourself!" | |
= 157.6 | |
Where would you even start? | |
= 159.0 | |
No, I mean, | |
trying to find ways to translate the knowledge, | |
to teach us to ask the right questions. | |
= 167.9 | |
See, we’re on the edge of a revolution | |
in communications technology | |
that is going to make that more possible than ever before. | |
= 175.4 | |
Or, if that’s not done, | |
to cause an explosion of knowledge | |
= 180.8 | |
that will leave those of us who don’t have access to it | |
as powerless as if we were deaf, dumb and blind. | |
= 187.5 | |
And I don’t think most people want that. | |
= 190.0 | |
So what do we do about it? | |
I don’t know. | |
= 194.4 | |
But maybe a good start | |
would be to recognize, within yourself, | |
the ability to understand anything | |
= 200.6 | |
because that ability’s there, | |
as long as it’s explained clearly enough. | |
= 205.3 | |
And then go and ask for explanations. | |
= 209.4 | |
And if you’re thinking right now, "What do I ask for?" | |
= 213.3 | |
Ask yourself if there’s anything in your life | |
that you want changed. | |
= 219.65 | |
That’s where to start. | |
= 221.4 | |
: psalm46 | |
= 23.0 | |
How many of you here have personally witnessed | |
a total eclipse of the sun? | |
= 29.7 | |
To stand one day in the shadow of the moon | |
is one of my humble goals in life. | |
= 36.4 | |
The closest I ever came was over thirty years ago. | |
= 40.2 | |
On February 26, 1979, | |
a solar eclipse passed directly over the city of Portland. | |
= 48.2 | |
I bought my bus tickets and found a place to stay. | |
But in the end, I couldn’t get the time off work. | |
= 55.4 | |
Well, anyone who lives in Portland can tell you | |
that the chances of catching the sun in February | |
are pretty slim. | |
= 62.3 | |
And sure enough, the skies over the city that day | |
were completely overcast. I wouldn’t have seen a thing. | |
= 70.4 | |
That work I couldn’t get out of | |
was my first job out of college: | |
= 74.8 | |
A sales clerk at an old Radio Shack store | |
in beautiful downtown Worcester, Massachusetts. | |
= 82.6 | |
On my very first day behind the counter, | |
a delivery truck pulled up to the front of the store. | |
= 88.7 | |
They carried in a big carton, | |
upon which was printed the legend TRS-80. | |
= 95.8 | |
It was our floor sample | |
of the world’s first mass-market microcomputer. | |
= 102.3 | |
The TRS-80 Model I | |
had a Z80 processor clocked at 1.7 megahertz, | |
= 108.2 | |
4,096 bytes of memory, | |
and a 64-character black-and-white text display. | |
= 114.8 | |
The only storage was a cassette recorder. | |
All this could be yours for the low, low price of $599. | |
= 123.7 | |
This store I was working in had seen better days. | |
= 128.2 | |
At one time, it had been near the center | |
of a thriving commercial district. | |
= 133.1 | |
But like so many other New England cities, | |
the advent of shopping malls had, by the early ‘70s, | |
turned it into a ghost town. | |
= 142.3 | |
Worcester’s solution to this problem was decisive, | |
to say the least. | |
= 147.3 | |
The city’s elders apparently decided | |
that if they couldn’t beat them, they would join them. | |
= 152.8 | |
And so several square blocks at the heart of the city | |
were bulldozed into oblivion, | |
destroying dozens of family businesses, | |
= 161.2 | |
including the site of a pharmacy | |
once operated by my great-grandfather. | |
= 166.8 | |
In their place was erected | |
a vast three-level shopping complex, | |
with cinemas and a food court. | |
= 173.4 | |
When the dust settled, | |
only a few forlorn blocks of the old Worcester remained standing. | |
= 179.8 | |
My Radio Shack store was in one of those blocks. | |
= 185.6 | |
Then, to add insult to injury, | |
Radio Shack opened a brand-new location inside the shopping center, | |
less than 500 feet from my store. | |
= 195.9 | |
So now patrons has a choice between a clean, | |
well-lighted establishment with uniformed security | |
and acres of convenient parking, | |
= 204.3 | |
or a shadowy hole in a seedy old office building | |
next to an adult movie theater. | |
= 211.0 | |
Consequently, I had plenty of time to fool around | |
with the new computer. | |
= 219.4 | |
I taught myself BASIC programming. | |
Then I learned Z80 assembly. | |
Both, of course, so that I could write games. | |
= 225.7 | |
I also created self-running animated demos | |
which ran all night in the store window | |
for the edification of the winos who peed in our doorway. | |
= 235.6 | |
Strangely enough, the few customers we had | |
didn’t seem to be interested in our new computer, | |
even after the 16K memory upgrade. | |
= 244.1 | |
In fact, most of the people who set off the buzzer | |
on their way through the front door | |
weren’t there to buy anything at all. | |
= 250.9 | |
They were there to exploit a free promotion | |
which was the bane of Radio Shack employees for over forty years: | |
The Battery of the Month Club. | |
= 261.7 | |
The idea of this promotion was simple. | |
= 264.9 | |
Customers got a little red card | |
upon which was printed a square for each month. | |
= 270.2 | |
Twelve times a year, the lucky sales clerk | |
got to punch out a square and give the customer | |
one brand new triple-A, double-A, C, D or 9-volt battery. | |
= 281.5 | |
Of course, customers weren’t allowed to choose | |
just any grade of battery. | |
= 286.5 | |
At the time of my employment, | |
Radio Shack offered three different levels of battery excellence. | |
= 293.3 | |
First were the alkalines, powerful, long-lasting and expensive, | |
hanging behind the counter like prescription medication | |
in gold-embossed blister packs. | |
= 304.1 | |
These were most certainly not available | |
through the Battery of the Month Club. | |
= 309.3 | |
Next were the high-end lead batteries, | |
sturdy, dependable batteries, moderately priced, | |
and prominently displayed near the front of the store. | |
= 318.5 | |
These were also not available | |
through the Battery of the Month Club. | |
= 323.0 | |
Finally, at the bottom of the barrel, | |
were the standard lead batteries. | |
= 327.9 | |
These were literally piled in barrels, | |
cunningly located way at the back of the store, | |
in a dark corner near the TV antennas. | |
= 337.4 | |
Remember TV antennas? | |
= 341.0 | |
Customers who came in looking | |
for their free Battery of the Month | |
had to walk the entire length of the premises, | |
= 346.4 | |
past the CB radios and stereo headphones | |
and remote-controlled racing cars. | |
= 352.5 | |
Nothing would stop them. | |
= 355.4 | |
On the first day of every month, like clockwork, | |
those customers come in waving their little red cards. | |
= 362.5 | |
I would look up from my programming | |
and wave them to the back of the store. | |
= 367.0 | |
It didn’t matter that the batteries | |
were only worth twenty-nine cents. | |
= 371.0 | |
It didn’t matter that most of them | |
were already half dead. | |
= 374.3 | |
They came. They grabbed. | |
And, as far as I can remember, | |
not one of them ever paid for a damned thing. | |
= 383.2 | |
I was such a crappy salesman. I was young and foolish. | |
= 389.1 | |
I thought my education in game design | |
was happening at the keyboard. | |
= 394.4 | |
I almost missed the lesson coming through the front door. | |
= 400.0 | |
Fortunately, I wasn’t the only person | |
fooling around with games on micros. | |
= 405.3 | |
All over the country, people like me were experimenting. | |
= 409.7 | |
Scott Adams was coding what would soon become | |
the world’s first commercial adventure game. | |
= 415.3 | |
Remember adventure games? | |
= 418.6 | |
My future employer, Infocom, was being founded, | |
along with other legendary companies | |
like On-Line Systems, Sirius, Personal Software and SSI. | |
= 430.6 | |
Those were exciting times. | |
= 433.0 | |
Teenagers were making fortunes. | |
= 436.2 | |
Games were cheap and easy to build. | |
The slate was clean. | |
= 444.3 | |
But in 1979, the biggest news in gaming had nothing to do with computers. | |
= 452.5 | |
On the morning of the autumn equinox, September 20th, | |
a new children’s picture book appeared in the stores of Great Britain. | |
= 461.7 | |
This picture book was rather peculiar. | |
= 464.8 | |
It consisted of 15 meticulously detailed color paintings, | |
illustrating a slight, whimsical tale | |
about a rabbit delivering a jewel to the moon. | |
= 477.3 | |
On the back jacket of the book was a color photograph | |
of a real jewel shaped like a running rabbit, five inches long, | |
= 485.3 | |
fashioned of 18-karat gold, suspended with ornaments and bells, | |
together with a sun and moon of blue quartz. | |
= 494.8 | |
According to the blurb underneath, | |
this very jewel had been buried somewhere in England. | |
= 501.8 | |
Clues pointing to its location were concealed in the text | |
and in the pictures of the book. | |
= 509.0 | |
The treasure would belong to whoever found it first. | |
= 513.9 | |
The book was called Masquerade. | |
It was created by an eccentric little man with divergent eyes | |
and a talent for mischief named Kit Williams. | |
= 525.4 | |
Within days, the first printing was sold out. | |
And the Empire That Never Sleeps | |
found itself in the grip of Rabbit Fever. | |
= 535.2 | |
Excited readers attacked the paintings with rulers, | |
compasses and protractors. | |
= 540.4 | |
Magazine articles and TV specials dissected the clues, | |
floated theories, and followed with keen delight | |
the reckless exploits of the fanatics. | |
= 550.8 | |
One obscure park, unfortunately known by the nickname Rabbit Hill, | |
was so riddled with holes excavated by misguided treasure seekers | |
= 561.2 | |
that the authorities had to erect signs assuring the public | |
that no gold rabbits were to be found there. | |
= 568.8 | |
Some hunters ended up seeking psychological counseling for their obsession. | |
= 574.0 | |
The craze lept over the Atlantic Ocean and invaded | |
America, France, Italy and Germany. | |
= 581.7 | |
It sold over a million copies in a few months, | |
a record unrivalled by any children’s title | |
until the advent of Harry Potter. | |
= 590.9 | |
Over 150,000 copies were sold in foreign translations, | |
including 80,000 copies in Japanese, | |
despite the fact that the puzzle was only solvable in English. | |
= 604.0 | |
It didn’t matter that the Masquerade jewel | |
was only worth a few thousand dollars. | |
= 609.0 | |
Many seekers spent far more than that | |
in their months of exploration and travel. | |
= 614.7 | |
It was the thrill of the chase. | |
The possibility of being The One. | |
= 621.8 | |
Treasure hunts, secret messages and hidden things | |
seem to exert an irresistible appeal. | |
= 629.9 | |
They’re fun to look for, and to talk about. | |
= 632.8 | |
And this fact of human psychology | |
has been exploited in computer games since the earliest days. | |
= 640.8 | |
It finds expression in the hidden surprises we call Easter eggs. | |
= 648.4 | |
Atari’s Steven Wright is credited with coining this term | |
in the first issue of Electronic Games magazine. | |
= 658.4 | |
The first Easter egg in a commercial computer game | |
appeared in an early Atari 2600 cartridge | |
called, simply enough, Adventure. | |
= 667.6 | |
By a sequence of unlikely movements and obscure manipulations, | |
players could discover a secret room where the words | |
“Created by Warren Robinet” appeared in flashing letters. | |
= 680.5 | |
Over the decades, Easter eggs and their evil twin, cheat codes, | |
have become an industry within an industry. | |
= 688.2 | |
Entire magazines and Web sites are now devoted | |
to their carefully orchestrated discovery and dissemination. | |
= 696.0 | |
They’re part of our toolkit, our basic vocabulary, | |
the language of computer game design. | |
= 703.1 | |
Computer gamers may have been the first to refer | |
to hidden surprises as Easter eggs, | |
but we certainly weren’t the first to use them. | |
= 711.4 | |
Painters, composers and artists of every discipline | |
have been hiding stuff in their works for centuries. | |
= 719.0 | |
The recent advent of VCRs | |
and laserdisc players with freeze-frame capability | |
exposed decades of secret Disney erotica. | |
= 728.8 | |
Thomas Kinkade, the self-appointed “Painter of Light,” | |
amuses himself by hiding the letter N in his works. | |
= 736.8 | |
A number beside his signature indicates how many Ns | |
are hidden in each painting. | |
= 742.9 | |
Picasso, Dali, Raphael, Poussin and dozens of other painters | |
concealed all kinds of stuff in their paintings. | |
= 751.3 | |
A favorite trick was hiding portraits of themselves, | |
their families, friends and fellow artists in crowd scenes. | |
= 759.5 | |
El Greco loved dogs. But the Catholic Church forbid him | |
from including any in his sacred paintings. | |
= 766.7 | |
So he hid them, usually within the outlines of celestial clouds. | |
= 772.7 | |
Composer Dmitri Shostakovich chafed under the political censorship | |
imposed by the Soviet Ministry of Culture. | |
= 780.7 | |
His symphonies and chamber works are loaded with hidden signatures | |
and subversive subtexts which, had they been recognized, | |
would have sent him to Siberia. | |
= 791.9 | |
Mozart’s opera The Magic Flute is filled with musical allusions | |
to the rituals of the Freemasons, the ancient secret society | |
of which he and his mentor Haydn were members. | |
= 805.5 | |
But the most famous purveyor of Easter eggs is that champion | |
of the late Baroque, the ultimate musical nerd, Johann Sebastian Bach. | |
= 816.6 | |
Bach was a student of gematria, the art of assigning numeric values | |
to letters of the alphabet: A=1, B=2, C=3, et cetera. | |
= 829.1 | |
By comparing, sequencing or otherwise manipulating these numbers, | |
secret messages can be concealed. | |
= 836.8 | |
Bach took particular delight in the gematriacal numbers 14 and 41. | |
= 844.0 | |
14 is the sum of the initials of his last name: B=2, A=1, C=3 and H=8. | |
= 854.5 | |
41 is the sum of his expanded initials, J S BACH. | |
= 860.2 | |
These two numbers show up over and over again in Bach’s compositions. | |
= 866.4 | |
One of the better-known examples is his setting | |
of the chorale “Vor deinen Thron.” | |
= 871.6 | |
The first line of the melody contains exactly 14 notes, | |
and the entire melody from start to finish contains 41. | |
= 881.0 | |
Another of Bach’s favorite games was the puzzle canon. | |
= 885.4 | |
A canon is a melody that sounds good when you play it | |
on top of itself, a little bit out of sync. | |
= 891.8 | |
“Frère Jacques” and “Row, Row, Row Your Boat” | |
are familiar examples of simple, two-voice canons. | |
= 898.6 | |
But a canon can employ any number of voices. | |
= 902.4 | |
And you don’t have to play each voice the same way, either. | |
= 905.7 | |
You can change the octave, transpose the key, | |
invert the pitch, play it backwards, or any combination. | |
= 913.3 | |
Finding melodies that make good multi-voice canons | |
is a fussy and difficult art, of which Bach was an undisputed master. | |
= 923.5 | |
Now, in a puzzle canon, | |
the composer specifies the basic melody and the number of voices, | |
but not the relationship of the voices. | |
= 932.5 | |
The student has to figure out the position and key of each voice, | |
and whether to perform them inverted and/or backwards. | |
= 941.1 | |
Bach wrote quite a number of puzzle canons. | |
The most famous, BWV 1076, is part of a fascinating story. | |
= 950.8 | |
One of Bach’s students was a fellow by the name of Lorenz Mizler, | |
founder of The Society of Musical Science. | |
= 958.5 | |
This elite, invitation-only institution | |
devoted itself to the study of Pythagorean philosophy, | |
and the union of music and mathematics. | |
= 969.4 | |
Its distinguished membership reads like a Who’s Who of German composers, | |
including Handel, Telemann and eventually Mozart. | |
= 979.0 | |
Applicants for membership in the Society | |
were required to submit an oil portrait of themselves, | |
along with a specimen of original music. | |
= 988.4 | |
With nerdly efficiency, society member number 14 decided | |
to combine these admission requirements into a single work. | |
= 997.9 | |
He sat for a portrait with Elias Haussmann, | |
official artist at the court of Dresden. | |
= 1004.0 | |
This portrait, which now hangs in the gallery | |
of the Town Hall in Leipzig, | |
is the only indisputably authentic image of Bach in existence. | |
= 1016.7 | |
The Haussman portrait shows Bach dressed in a formal coat | |
with exactly 14 buttons. In his hand is a sheet of music paper | |
upon which is written a puzzle canon for six simultaneous voices. | |
= 1034.5 | |
In 1974, a manuscript was discovered which proved | |
that this canon was the thirteenth in a series of exactly 14 canons | |
based on the ground theme of the famous Goldberg Variations. | |
= 1049.5 | |
As if these musical gymnastics weren’t enough, | |
Bach liked to hide messages in his compositions | |
by assigning notes to the letters. | |
= 1059.0 | |
His initials B-A-C-H correspond to the pitch sequence | |
B-flat, A, C and B-natural in German letter notation. | |
= 1070.1 | |
This theme makes its most memorable appearance | |
in the last bars of his final composition, | |
The Art of Fugue, published soon after his death in 1750. | |
= 1081.8 | |
The word “fugue” comes from the Latin fuga, | |
which means flight (as in running away). | |
= 1089.0 | |
So the art of fugue is the art of flight, | |
the art of taking a theme and running with it. | |
= 1096.0 | |
Bach wrote hundreds of fugues, | |
but none as sublime as this sequence of 14. | |
= 1103.3 | |
In the last and most complicated fugue in the series, | |
the first and second sections develop normally. | |
= 1109.8 | |
This is followed by the B-A-C-H signature, | |
and then suddenly, without any warning or structural justification, | |
the fugue stops dead in its tracks. | |
= 1122.0 | |
One of the composer’s 20 children, | |
his son Carl Philipp Emanuel, | |
claimed that Bach died moments after those last few notes were written. | |
= 1132.0 | |
This story is probably apocryphal. | |
= 1135.6 | |
The Easter eggs in Bach’s music are a pleasant obscurity, | |
known chiefly to professors and students of Baroque music. | |
= 1144.4 | |
But in March of 2002, when this lecture was first delivered, | |
those Easter eggs were the talk of the entire classical music industry. | |
= 1154.6 | |
Sitting near the top of the classical music charts that month | |
was a compact disc on the ECM label called Morimur. | |
= 1162.7 | |
It is performed by the Hilliard choral ensemble | |
together with a talented but, until then, | |
little-known violinist, Christoph Poppen. | |
= 1171.9 | |
The music on Morimur is based on a gematriacal analysis | |
of Bach’s Partita in D Minor for solo violin. | |
= 1180.4 | |
This analysis, by German professor Helga Thoene, | |
assigns numeric values to the duration of notes, | |
the number of bars, and the German letter notation of the Partita. | |
= 1192.2 | |
In doing so, she claims to have discovered the complete text | |
of several liturgical ceremonies encoded in the notes. | |
= 1200.6 | |
The CD presents these hidden texts, | |
superimposed over the original music. | |
= 1206.8 | |
The result was strangely melancholy, | |
dark, haunting, and very, very popular. | |
= 1214.3 | |
Quite a few music critics attacked this disc. | |
= 1217.8 | |
They didn’t buy Professor Thoene’s analysis, | |
dismissing it as a combination of numerology and canny marketing. | |
= 1225.5 | |
Their caution was not without basis. | |
= 1228.8 | |
Numerology is a slippery slope | |
down which many a fine mind has slid to its doom. | |
= 1236.3 | |
Allow me to offer an amusing anecdote from my own experience. | |
= 1241.0 | |
Back in the early ‘90s, before the Internet took off, | |
one of the more popular online bulletin board systems | |
was a service called Prodigy. | |
= 1250.7 | |
I bought an account on Prodigy | |
so I could join a fraternal interest group, | |
and gossip with fellow members around the country. | |
= 1258.4 | |
One day, a stranger appeared on our bulletin board. | |
Right away, I knew we were in trouble. | |
= 1267.0 | |
This fellow, whose name was Gary, | |
began spouting all kinds of apocalyptic nonsense | |
about worldwide conspiracies, secret societies and devil worship. | |
= 1280.1 | |
At first we tried to be polite. | |
= 1282.4 | |
We questioned his sources, corrected his histories, | |
logically refuted his claims, and tried to behave in a civilized manner. | |
= 1291.3 | |
But instead of soothing him, our attention only made him worse. | |
= 1295.7 | |
His conspiratorial warnings became urgent, approaching hysteria. | |
He began to threaten people who disagreed with him. | |
To coin a phrase, Gary went All Upper Case. | |
= 1307.5 | |
But his most urgent warnings weren’t about the gays, | |
the Jews, the Rockefellers or the Illuminati. | |
= 1314.3 | |
According to Gary, the greatest enemy of mankind was Santa Claus. | |
= 1320.8 | |
Gary claimed to possess a secret numerical formula | |
that “proved” beyond a shadow of a doubt | |
that Santa Claus was an avatar of the Antichrist. | |
= 1332.1 | |
Intrigued, we pressed Gary to reveal his formula. | |
In doing so, we walked right into his trap. | |
We should have known he had a book to sell. | |
= 1343.4 | |
I fell for it. I sent him the fifteen bucks. | |
Less than a week later the book arrived. | |
= 1349.5 | |
Above an ominous photograph of the Washington monument | |
was emblazoned the title: 666: The Final Warning! | |
= 1359.5 | |
Inside this privately printed 494-page monster, | |
Gary reveals a simple gematriacal formula | |
which he claims was developed by the ancient Sumerians. | |
= 1372.2 | |
This formula assigns successive products of 6 | |
to each letter of the alphabet: A=6, B=12, C=18, etc. | |
= 1384.3 | |
Imagine my dismay when I applied this ancient formula | |
to the name “Santa Claus,” and obtained the blasphemous sum of 666, | |
the Biblical Number of the Beast! | |
= 1397.8 | |
I went on Prodigy and reported | |
to the stunned members of our interest group | |
that Gary was right, after all. | |
= 1405.3 | |
There could be no doubt that, | |
according to the unimpeachable wisdom of ancient Sumeria, | |
Santa Claus was the AntiChrist. | |
= 1414.0 | |
I then went on to point out several other names which, | |
when submitted to Gary’s formula, also produced the sum 666. | |
= 1422.6 | |
Names like “Saint James,” “New York” and “New Mexico.” | |
= 1428.8 | |
Soon the bulletin board was filled with discoveries | |
like “computer,” “Boston tea” and, most sinister of all, “sing karaoke.” | |
= 1440.5 | |
Gary left us alone after that. I got my $15 worth. | |
= 1445.8 | |
But Gary is hardly the first person | |
to connect secret codes to the Bible. | |
= 1451.7 | |
People have been looking for Easter eggs in the Bible | |
for hundreds of years. | |
= 1457.2 | |
The Hebrew mystical tradition of kabbalah | |
can be described as a gematriacal meditation on the Pentateuch, | |
the first five books of the Old Testament. | |
= 1467.7 | |
The advent of computers | |
has made the application of numerology to the Bible | |
fast and efficient. | |
= 1474.7 | |
The latest spate of Bible-searching | |
was instigated by a book published in 1998 by Michael Drosnin, | |
a former Wall Street Journal reporter. | |
= 1485.2 | |
His book, The Bible Code, applied a skip-cypher, | |
in which every nth character in a text is combined to form a message. | |
= 1497.2 | |
By applying his skip-cypher to the Hebrew text of the Old Testament, | |
Drosnin claimed to have discovered predictions of World War II, | |
the Holocaust, Hiroshima, | |
the assassination of Yitzhak Rabin and both Kennedys, | |
= 1511.6 | |
the moon landing, Watergate, the Oklahoma City bombing, | |
the election of Bill Clinton, the death of Princess Di | |
and the comet that collided with Jupiter. | |
= 1522.8 | |
He also found predictions of a giant earthquake in LA, | |
a meteor hitting the earth, and nuclear armageddon, | |
all scheduled to occur before the end of the last decade. | |
= 1534.6 | |
The Bible Code spent many weeks on the bestseller lists, | |
spawning several sequels and dozens of imitators. | |
= 1542.9 | |
The Bible has certainly attracted its share of crackpots. | |
= 1546.9 | |
But for the real hardcore egg hunters, | |
nothing can rival the ingenuity, the tenacious scholarship, | |
the stubborn zeal of those who seek the answer | |
to the ultimate literary puzzle. | |
= 1560.9 | |
A poisonous conundrum that has squandered fortunes, | |
destroyed careers, and driven healthy, | |
intelligent scholars to the brink of madness, and beyond. | |
= 1574.4 | |
Who wrote Shakespeare? | |
= 1578.6 | |
The essays and books devoted to the Shakespeare authorship problem | |
are sufficient to fill a large library. | |
= 1587.0 | |
Several such libraries actually exist. | |
= 1590.9 | |
Not even a day-long tutorial, much less an hour lecture, | |
can begin to do justice to this complex, | |
bizarre and dangerously tantalizing story. | |
= 1603.1 | |
Nevertheless, for the unacquainted, | |
I will attempt to summarize the issue in a few paragraphs. | |
= 1610.4 | |
The undisputed facts of Shakespeare’s life and career | |
could be scribbled on the back of a cocktail napkin. | |
= 1618.0 | |
We know for a fact that a man named William Shakespeare | |
was born in 1564 in or around the village of Stratford-upon-Avon. | |
= 1628.8 | |
We know that he had a wife and at least three children. | |
We know he bought property in Stratford, | |
= 1635.3 | |
was involved in several lawsuits with his neighbors, | |
and died there in 1616, aged 52. | |
= 1643.3 | |
We also know that during those same years, | |
a man with a last name similar to Shakespeare | |
worked as an actor on the London stage, | |
eventually becoming co-owner of some of the theaters there. | |
= 1656.3 | |
We also know that, about the same time, | |
a number of most excellent poems and plays | |
were published in London under the name Shakespeare. | |
= 1666.3 | |
We do not know for a fact | |
that the landowner in Stratford | |
and the actor in London with a similar last name | |
were one and the same man. | |
= 1675.9 | |
We do not know for a fact | |
that either man had anything to do | |
with the poems and the plays. | |
= 1682.5 | |
All we know is that those poems and plays have, | |
in the four hundred years since their composition, | |
come to be regarded as a pinnacle of Western culture. | |
= 1695.7 | |
The works attributed to Shakespeare | |
appear to have been written by a man or woman | |
who knew something about just about everything. | |
= 1704.5 | |
They’re filled with references to mythology and | |
classic literature, games and sports, war and weapons of war, | |
= 1712.4 | |
ships and sailing, the law and legal terminology, | |
court etiquette, statesmanship, horticulture, | |
= 1719.6 | |
music, astronomy, medicine, falconry and, of course, theater. | |
= 1726.0 | |
Therein lies the problem. | |
= 1728.9 | |
How could a farmer’s son of uncertain schooling | |
from a mostly illiterate country village, | |
= 1735.6 | |
a man of practically no account at all, | |
wield such encyclopedic learning | |
= 1741.7 | |
with so much eloquence and wit, | |
so much wisdom and human understanding? | |
= 1747.8 | |
For the first 150 years, | |
nobody questioned the traditional history of the Bard. | |
= 1754.5 | |
Then, in the late eighteenth century, Reverend James Wilmot, | |
a distinguished scholar who lived just a few miles north of Stratford, | |
decided to write a biography of the famous playwright. | |
= 1766.7 | |
Dr. Wilmot believed that a man as well-educated as Shakespeare | |
must have owned a fairly extensive library, | |
despite the fact that not a single book or manuscript is mentioned in his will. | |
= 1779.8 | |
Over the years, he speculated, | |
some of those books must have found their way into local collections. | |
= 1786.6 | |
And so the good Reverend Doctor scoured the British countryside, | |
taking inventory of literally every bookshelf within 50 miles of Stratford. | |
= 1797.7 | |
Not a single book from the library of William Shakespeare was discovered. | |
= 1803.3 | |
Neither were there found any letters to, from or about Shakespeare. | |
= 1808.9 | |
Furthermore, no references to the folklore, | |
local sayings or distinctive dialect of the Stratford area | |
could be found in any of Shakespeare’s writings. | |
= 1820.2 | |
After four years of painstaking research, | |
Dr. Wilmot concluded, to his own dismay, | |
= 1826.7 | |
that only one person contemporary with Shakespeare of Stratford | |
had ever demonstrated the wide-ranging education and expressive talent | |
needed to compose those poems and plays. | |
= 1840.8 | |
That man was the multilingual author, philosopher and statesman, | |
inventor of the Scientific Method, Chancellor to the Courts | |
of Queen Elizabeth and King James, Sir Francis Bacon. | |
= 1854.6 | |
Dr. Wilmot never dared to publish his theory. | |
But before he died he confided it to a friend, James Cowell, | |
who, in 1805, repeated it to a meeting of the Ipswich Philosophical Society. | |
= 1869.1 | |
The members of the society were suitably outraged, | |
and the scandalous matter was quickly forgotten. | |
= 1875.8 | |
Then in 1857, a lady from Stratford — Stratford, Connecticut — | |
published a book called The Philosophy of the Plays of Shakespeare Unfolded. | |
= 1887.2 | |
In this book, Miss Delia Bacon, no relation to Francis, | |
claimed that the works of Shakespeare were written | |
by a secret cabal of British nobility | |
= 1897.4 | |
including Sir Walter Raleigh and Sir Philip Sidney | |
as well as Sir Francis Bacon. | |
= 1903.3 | |
Delia Bacon’s book electrified the world of letters. | |
= 1907.7 | |
Battle lines were drawn | |
between the orthodox Stratfordians and the heretical Baconians. | |
= 1913.7 | |
Literary societies and scholarly journals were formed to debate the evidence. | |
= 1918.9 | |
Hundreds of pamphlets, newspaper articles and essays | |
were published defending each side, | |
and ridiculing the opposition with that self-aggrandizing viciousness | |
peculiar to tenured academics. | |
= 1932.5 | |
Armed with her explosive book, | |
Delia Bacon journeyed to Stratford-upon-Avon and, unbelievably, | |
obtained official permission to open Shakespeare’s grave. | |
= 1945.5 | |
However, when the moment came to actually lift the stone, | |
Delia’s self-doubt precipitated a catastrophic nervous breakdown. | |
= 1956.6 | |
She later died penniless in a madhouse. | |
= 1960.6 | |
Around 1888, things began to get a bit out of hand. | |
= 1965.3 | |
U.S. Congressman Ignatius Donnelly of Minnesota | |
became interested in the Shakespeare controversy. | |
= 1972.0 | |
One day, browsing through his facsimile copy of the First Folio of 1623, | |
he noted that the word “bacon” appeared on page 53 of the Histories | |
and also on page 53 of the Comedies. | |
= 1987.7 | |
He also noted that Sir Francis Bacon | |
had written extensively on the subject of cryptography. | |
= 1995.0 | |
Donnelly began counting line and page numbers, | |
adding and subtracting letters, | |
drawing lines over sentences, | |
circling words and crossing them out. | |
= 2005.3 | |
The result was a complex and virtually incomprehensible algorithm | |
which he claimed was invented by Bacon | |
to hide secret messages inside the First Folio. | |
= 2017.2 | |
The greatest Easter egg hunt in the history of Western civilization had begun. | |
= 2023.4 | |
Here are just a couple of the sillier highlights. | |
= 2027.1 | |
A doctor named Orville Owen of Detroit | |
constructed a bizarre research tool he called the Wheel of Fortune. | |
= 2035.9 | |
This wheel consisted of two giant wooden spools | |
wrapped with a strip of canvas two feet wide and a thousand feet long. | |
= 2045.4 | |
Onto this canvas he glued the separate pages of the complete works | |
of Bacon, Shakespeare, Marlowe, Greene, Peele and Spenser, | |
together with Burton’s Anatomy of Melancholy. | |
= 2059.8 | |
By cranking the spools back and forth, | |
Dr. Owen could quickly zip across the pages | |
in search of clues and cross-references. | |
= 2068.1 | |
Employing a large team of secretaries and stenographers, | |
Owen claimed to have uncovered | |
a complete alternative history of Elizabethan England, | |
= 2078.4 | |
as well as several entirely new Shakespeare plays and sonnets. | |
= 2083.5 | |
Listen to this hidden verse, | |
supposedly penned by the mighty Bard himself, | |
which inspired Dr. Owen to build his Wheel of Fortune. | |
= 2094.4 | |
Take your knife and cut all our books asunder | |
And set the leaves on a great firm wheel | |
= 2102.6 | |
Which rolls and rolls, and turning the fickle rolling wheel | |
Throw your eyes upon Fortune | |
= 2110.8 | |
That goddess blind, that stands upon a spherical stone | |
that, turning and inconstant, rolls | |
in restless variation. | |
= 2122.9 | |
After publishing five thick volumes of this rubbish, | |
Owen announced the discovery of an anagram indicating | |
that Bacon’s original manuscripts were buried | |
near Chepstow Castle on the river Wye. | |
= 2137.3 | |
Owen spent the next fifteen years and thousands of dollars | |
excavating the bed of the river with boat crews and high explosives. | |
= 2147.8 | |
He died before anything was found. | |
= 2150.95 | |
A fellow named Arensburg wrote an entire book | |
based on the analysis of the significance of a suspicious crack | |
in the tomb of Bacon’s mother. | |
= 2162.5 | |
A ray of sanity finally appeared in 1957. | |
= 2167.8 | |
To those familiar with the science of cryptology, | |
the name William Friedman needs little introduction. | |
= 2174.4 | |
During World War II, Colonel Friedman was the head | |
of the US Army’s cryptoanalytic bureau. | |
= 2180.2 | |
He is credited with cracking the Japanese Empire’s | |
most sensitive cipher. | |
= 2185.7 | |
After the war, the Colonel decided to apply his expertise to the study | |
of the Shakespeare ciphers. | |
= 2192.6 | |
He interviewed several of the experts in the field, | |
and prepared a detailed scientific analysis, | |
which he published under the title The Shakespeare Ciphers Examined. | |
= 2203.3 | |
His conclusion? In a word, bunk. | |
= 2207.3 | |
According to the standards of cryptologic science, | |
not one of the hidden messages purportedly discovered in Shakespeare’s works | |
was plausible. | |
= 2216.2 | |
The rules used to extract these messages from the texts were non-rigorous, | |
wildly subjective, and unrepeatable by anyone except the original decypherer. | |
= 2227.4 | |
The people involved were not being dishonest. | |
= 2230.8 | |
They were channeling their preconceptions. | |
= 2233.9 | |
They were trapped in a labyrinth of delusion, mining order from chaos, | |
“Angler[s] in a lake of darkness.” Lear III.6. | |
= 2246.7 | |
You would think that Friedman’s cold and ruthless exposure | |
would be enough to silence the heretics once and for all. | |
= 2254.9 | |
Not a chance. The books and TV specials and Web sites | |
and conferences and doctoral dissertations keep right on coming. | |
= 2265.7 | |
I should point out that the Shakespeare authorship issue | |
is not only the preoccupation of cranks and weirdos. | |
= 2272.9 | |
A substantial number of respected authors and Shakespeareans | |
have expressed serious doubts about the traditional origin of the plays. | |
= 2283.2 | |
The list includes Nathaniel Hawthorne, Ralph Waldo Emerson, | |
Walt Whitman, Henry James, Sam Clemens, Sigmund Freud, | |
Orson Welles and Sir John Gielgud. | |
= 2297.7 | |
Living skeptics include the artistic director of the New Globe Theater, | |
Mark Rylance; Michael York, Derek Jacobi, Kenneth Branagh, | |
= 2307.1 | |
and even that most revered and scholarly | |
of contemporary Shakespearean actors, Keanu Reeves. | |
= 2314.7 | |
The current leading candidate for the authorship is Edward de Vere, | |
the seventeenth Earl of Oxford, | |
= 2321.5 | |
a theory first proposed in 1920 by an English schoolmaster | |
with the unfortunate name J. Thomas Looney. | |
= 2331.6 | |
What is it about Bach, the Bible and the works of Shakespeare | |
that inspires this intense scrutiny? | |
= 2340.3 | |
Nobody’s looking for acrostics in Chaucer or Keats. | |
= 2344.8 | |
There are no hit CDs of the secret chorales of Wagner or Beethoven. | |
= 2351.2 | |
For the answer, we need to recognize the unique roles | |
which the Bible and Shakespeare have played | |
in the development of Western culture. | |
= 2361.0 | |
No other single work of literature | |
has influenced Modern English | |
more than the translation of the Holy Bible published in 1611 | |
under the auspices of King James I. | |
= 2374.4 | |
The King James Bible exemplifies the meaning of the word classic. | |
= 2380.7 | |
It has been called the noblest monument of English prose, | |
the very greatest achievement of the English language. | |
= 2389.5 | |
It has served as an inspiration for generations | |
of poets, dramatists, musicians, politicians and orators. | |
= 2398.9 | |
Countless people have learned to read by repeating the phrases in this, | |
the only book their family possessed. | |
= 2408.7 | |
Our constitutions and our laws have been profoundly shaped | |
by its cadences and imagery. | |
= 2417.3 | |
But even the glory of the King James Bible, | |
compiled by a committee of 46 editors over the course of a decade, | |
pales before the dazzling legacy of the Swan of Avon. | |
= 2431.8 | |
The lowest estimate of Shakespeare’s working vocabulary | |
is 15,000 words, more than three times that of the King James Bible, | |
and twice the size of his nearest competitor, John Milton. | |
= 2446.2 | |
His poems and plays were written without the aid of a dictionary | |
or a thesaurus. They didn’t exist yet. It was all in his head. | |
= 2456.9 | |
When Shakespeare had a thought for which Elizabethan English had no word, | |
he invented one. | |
= 2463.5 | |
The Oxford English Dictionary lists hundreds of everyday words and phrases | |
which made their first appearance in the pages of the Bard. | |
= 2473.9 | |
Addiction. Alligator. Assassination. Bedroom. Critic. Dawn. Design. | |
= 2483.2 | |
Dialogue. Employer. Film. Glow. Gloomy. Gossip. Hint. Hurry. | |
= 2492.8 | |
Investment. Lonely. Luggage. Manager. Switch. Torture. | |
= 2499.6 | |
Transcendence. Wormhole. Zany. | |
= 2504.7 | |
Hamlet alone contains nearly forty of these neologisms. | |
= 2510.2 | |
Who today would have this audacity, this giddy exuberance of invention? | |
= 2516.7 | |
Only one other English author even approaches Shakespeare’s facility | |
for coining new words: Sir Francis Bacon. | |
= 2527.7 | |
In the modern era, the record holder is Charles Dodgson, | |
better known as Lewis Carroll, who, interestingly, | |
also happens to be the second most quoted author in English, after Shakespeare. | |
= 2540.8 | |
Everyone has been profoundly molded | |
by the influences of the King James Bible and Shakespeare. | |
= 2548.8 | |
Like it or not, all of us peer at the world | |
through the lenses of these great works. | |
= 2556.4 | |
They are the primary source documents of modern English thought, | |
the style guides of our minds. | |
= 2565.8 | |
Contemplating these dazzling jewels of wisdom and eloquence | |
gives rise to an extraordinary feeling. | |
= 2574.4 | |
A potent, rare and precious emotion | |
with the potential to completely upset your life. | |
= 2582.9 | |
An emotion powerful enough to make a man abandon his wife and children, | |
forfeit career and reputation, | |
lay down his possessions and follow his heart without questioning. | |
= 2596.7 | |
That sweet, sweet fusion of wonder and fear, | |
irresistible attraction and soul-numbing dread known as awe. | |
= 2610.8 | |
Awe is the Grail of artistic achievement. | |
No other human emotion possesses such raw transformative power, | |
and none is more difficult to evoke. | |
= 2625.9 | |
Few and far between are the works of man | |
that qualify as truly awesome. | |
= 2634.8 | |
It is awe that convinces a rabbi | |
to spend a lifetime decoding Yahweh from the Pentateuch. | |
= 2644.2 | |
Awe that sends millions of visitors each year | |
to the Pyramids of Giza, Guadalupe and Mecca. | |
= 2653.2 | |
It was awe that drove poor Delia Bacon to her doom. | |
= 2659.8 | |
Now, please don’t come away from this lecture thinking | |
that the key to awesome game design is the installation of Easter eggs! | |
= 2667.8 | |
Ordinary games, with their contrived Easter eggs and cheat codes, | |
are like the Battery of the Month club. | |
= 2675.0 | |
You have to trudge down to the back of the store | |
to get what you really came for. | |
= 2679.7 | |
If super power is what people really want, why not just give it to them? | |
= 2684.8 | |
Is our imagination so impoverished | |
that we have to resort to marketing gimmicks | |
to keep players interested in our games? | |
= 2692.9 | |
Awesome things don’t hold anything back. | |
= 2696.9 | |
Awesome things are rich and generous. | |
= 2701.2 | |
The treasure is right there. | |
= 2705.7 | |
One afternoon, I was sitting alone behind the counter | |
at that old Radio Shack store. | |
My boss had stepped out for some reason. | |
= 2715.5 | |
An elderly woman walked through the front door. | |
= 2719.4 | |
Like most of our customers, she was shabbily dressed. | |
Probably on a fixed income. | |
= 2726.1 | |
I assumed she was there for her free battery. | |
= 2729.4 | |
But instead, she placed a portable radio on the counter. | |
= 2734.7 | |
This radio came from the days when they boasted | |
about the number of transitors inside on the case. | |
= 2742.2 | |
It was completely wrapped in dirty white medical tape. | |
= 2747.4 | |
The woman looked at me, and asked, “Can you fix this?” | |
= 2751.9 | |
Slowly I unwrapped the medical tape, | |
peeling away the layers until the back cover of the radio fell off, | |
accompanied by a cloud of red dust. | |
= 2763.7 | |
The interior of the radio was half eaten away by battery leakage and corrosion. | |
= 2770.8 | |
I looked at the radio. I looked at the old woman. | |
I looked back at the radio. | |
= 2778.4 | |
I reached behind me, where the expensive alkaline batteries | |
were hanging like prescription medication, | |
and removed a gleaming nine-volt cell from its gold blister pack. | |
= 2790.2 | |
Then I pulled a brand-new transistor radio from a box, | |
installed the alkaline and helped the lady find her favorite station. | |
= 2799.6 | |
No money changed hands. She left the store without saying a word. | |
= 2806.9 | |
Awesome things are kind of like that. | |
= 2818.3 | |
Bach offered his students very specific insight into the source of awe. | |
= 2827.4 | |
In addition to B-A-C-H, two other sets of initials | |
are also associated with Bach’s music. | |
= 2836.0 | |
These initials are not hidden in the notes. | |
Instead, they’re scrawled right across the top of his manuscripts | |
for the whole world to see. | |
= 2847.5 | |
The initials are SDG and JJ. | |
= 2854.1 | |
SDG stands for the Latin phrase Soli Deo Gloria, “To the glory of God alone.” | |
= 2864.6 | |
JJ stands for Jesu Juva, “Help me, Jesus.” | |
= 2872.3 | |
Bach wrote all of his great masterpieces sub specie aeternitatis, | |
“under the aspect of eternity.” | |
= 2882.9 | |
He did not compose only to please his sponsors, | |
or to win the approval of an audience. | |
His work was his worship. | |
= 2894.8 | |
Bach once wrote, | |
“Music should have no other end and aim than the glory of God | |
and the recreation of the soul. | |
= 2905.0 | |
Where this is not kept in mind there is no true music, | |
but only an infernal clamour and ranting.” | |
= 2915.5 | |
The name of the power that moves you is not important. | |
= 2921.2 | |
What is important is that you are moved. | |
= 2926.6 | |
Awe is the foundation of religion. | |
= 2931.0 | |
No other motivation can free you from the limits of personal achievement. | |
= 2939.2 | |
Nothing else can teach you the Art of Flight. | |
= 2945.8 | |
Computer games are barely forty years old. | |
= 2950.9 | |
Only a few words in our basic vocabulary have been established. | |
= 2956.8 | |
A whole dictionary is waiting to be coined. | |
= 2961.8 | |
The slate is clean. | |
= 2965.75 | |
Someday soon, perhaps even in our lifetime, | |
a game design will appear | |
that will flash across our culture like lightning. | |
= 2977.9 | |
It will be easy to recognize. | |
= 2980.8 | |
It will be generous, giddy with exuberant inventiveness. | |
= 2985.7 | |
Scholars will pick it apart for decades, perhaps centuries. | |
= 2991.4 | |
It will be something wonderful. | |
= 2994.3 | |
Something terrifying. | |
= 2997.4 | |
Something awe-full. | |
= 3001.4 | |
A few years ago I was invited to speak at a conference in London. | |
= 3007.0 | |
My wife joined me, and we took a day off for some sightseeing. | |
= 3012.3 | |
We decided to visit England’s second-biggest tourist attraction, | |
Stratford-upon-Avon. | |
= 3020.1 | |
It was cold and rainy when our train arrived. | |
= 3023.9 | |
Luckily, most of the attractions are just a short walk from the station. | |
= 3029.3 | |
We visited Shakespeare’s birthplace, a charming old house | |
along the main street which attracts millions of pilgrims every year, | |
= 3038.5 | |
despite the complete lack of any evidence that Shakespeare was born there, | |
or even lived anywhere near it. | |
= 3046.4 | |
We went past the school where Shakespeare learned to read and write, | |
although no documents exist to prove his attendance. | |
= 3055.2 | |
We visited Anne Hathaway’s cottage, | |
the rustic country farm where his wife spent her childhood, | |
although no record shows anyone by that name ever having lived there. | |
= 3068.0 | |
Finally we came to the one location undeniably associated with Shakespeare: | |
Trinity Parish church, on the banks of the river Avon, | |
where a man by that name is buried. | |
= 3083.9 | |
This beautiful church is approached by a long walkway, | |
between rows of ancient gravestones, shaded by tall trees. | |
= 3094.0 | |
The entrance door is surprisingly tiny. | |
No cameras are allowed inside. | |
= 3100.8 | |
The interior is dark and quiet. | |
Despite the presence of busloads of tourists, | |
the atmosphere is hushed and respectful. | |
= 3111.4 | |
A few people are seated in the pews, deep in prayer. | |
= 3116.1 | |
An aisle leads up the center of the church. | |
= 3120.0 | |
The left side of the altar is brightly illuminated. | |
On the wall above is a famous bust of the Bard, | |
quill in hand, gazing serenely at the crowd of pilgrims. | |
= 3132.8 | |
On the floor beneath, surrounded by bouquets of flowers, | |
at the very spot where Delia Bacon lost her mind, | |
the gravestone of William Shakespeare bears this dire warning: | |
= 3147.8 | |
Good friend for Jesus’ sake forbear | |
To dig the dust enclosed here | |
Blest be the man who spares these stones | |
And curst be he that moves my bones. | |
= 3166.7 | |
Every year, three million pilgrims arrive from every nation on Earth | |
to approach this stone and consider the likeness of a man | |
whose body of work can only be described as awesome. | |
= 3185.5 | |
By contrast, the right side of the altar is dark and featureless. | |
= 3191.8 | |
Nobody of any consequence is buried there. | |
= 3195.4 | |
The only point of interest is a wooden case, of simple design, | |
carved of dark oak. | |
= 3203.6 | |
Inside the case, sealed beneath a thick sheet of glass, | |
lies a large open book. | |
= 3211.7 | |
A plaque on the case identifies this book | |
as a first edition of the King James Bible, | |
published in 1611, when Shakespeare was forty-six. | |
= 3224.3 | |
Not many pilgrims visit this side of the altar. | |
= 3228.0 | |
Most of those that do simply glance at the book, | |
read the plaque and move along. | |
= 3234.3 | |
A few, more observant, note that the Bible happens to be opened | |
to a page in the Old Testament: the Book of Psalms, chapter 46. | |
= 3246.5 | |
No explanation is given for this particular choice of pages. | |
= 3252.2 | |
For the initiated, none is necessary. | |
= 3256.7 | |
If you are of inquisitive bent, | |
if you are intrigued by English history and literature, | |
if you value your peace of mind, cover your ears, now. | |
= 3272.9 | |
In the year 1900, a scholar noticed something | |
about the King James translation of Psalm 46. | |
= 3283.5 | |
Something terrifying. Something wonderful. | |
= 3291.8 | |
The 46th word from the beginning of Psalm 46 is “shake.” | |
= 3299.8 | |
The 46th word from the end is “spear.” | |
= 3307.1 | |
There are only two possibilities here. | |
= 3311.0 | |
Either this is the finest coincidence ever recorded | |
in the history of world literature. | |
= 3319.2 | |
Or, it is not. | |
= 3322.0 | |
= 3324.0 | |
The Earth revolves around only one sun, and has only one moon. | |
= 3331.7 | |
The moon happens to be four hundred times smaller than the sun. | |
= 3337.3 | |
The sun happens to be four hundred times farther away. | |
= 3342.0 | |
And the apparent paths of the moon and sun in our sky | |
happen to intersect exactly twice every month. | |
= 3351.1 | |
Which means that every now and then, | |
at long yet precisely predictable intervals, | |
= 3357.9 | |
the lunar disc slips across the face of the sun | |
and just barely conceals it for a few wonderful, terrible minutes. | |
= 3368.8 | |
= 3369.9 | |
A fine coincidence, no? | |
= 3373.0 | |
= 3375.0 | |
In June of 1977, a little man with divergent eyes and a talent for mischief | |
ascended a hilltop in the British village of Ampthill. | |
= 3389.4 | |
At the summit of this hill is a tall, slender cross, | |
a memorial to Catherine of Aragorn, the first wife of Henry VIII. | |
= 3399.9 | |
The sun, high in the south, | |
cast the shadow of the cross upon the grassy hillside. | |
= 3407.8 | |
At exactly 12 noon, the man removed from his pocket a bar magnet. | |
He turned the magnet so its north pole was facing south, | |
and buried it under the shadow of the cross. | |
= 3425.0 | |
Two years later, a few hours before the publication of his first book, | |
the man returned to that hillside, this time in the dead of night. | |
= 3437.8 | |
He used a compass to locate the magnet he had buried. | |
= 3442.8 | |
In that same place, he dug a hole in the ground | |
and placed inside a ceramic container inscribed with the following words: | |
= 3455.0 | |
“I am the Keeper of the Jewel of MASQUERADE, | |
which lies waiting safe inside me | |
for You or Eternity.” | |
= 3470.0 | |
: rupert | |
= 36.8 | |
Know yourself as the open, empty, luminous presence of awareness. | |
= 51.5 | |
= 58.0 | |
Open because you say yes | |
unconditionally and indiscriminately | |
to all appearances of the mind, body, and world. | |
= 75.3 | |
Like empty space, you have no mechanism inherent within you | |
that can resist any appearance. | |
= 95.8 | |
We don’t have to make this the case; | |
it is already the case. | |
= 102.8 | |
= 105.7 | |
Empty because although you, I, this aware presence | |
is aware of thoughts, sensations, and perceptions | |
it is not made out of a thought, a sensation, or a perception. | |
= 136.5 | |
It is made out of pure knowing or awareness. | |
= 142.5 | |
= 151.5 | |
And luminous because just like the sun, relatively speaking, | |
that renders all objects seeable | |
= 170.5 | |
so you, I, this open empty presence | |
renders all experience knowable. | |
= 181.5 | |
= 186.6 | |
In fact we don’t really see objects, relatively speaking, | |
illumined by the sun; | |
we just see reflections or modulations of the sun’s light | |
appearing as a multiplicity and diversity of color. | |
= 208.3 | |
In the same way, we don’t really know | |
the objects of the mind, body, and the world; | |
we just know our knowing of them. | |
= 222.0 | |
= 223.3 | |
All we know, all that is known, is the knowing of experience, | |
and you are that knowing. | |
= 236.5 | |
= 242.4 | |
All that is ever known is a modulation of our own knowing presence, | |
modulating itself in the form of thinking, sensing and perceiving, | |
and seeming to become a mind, a body, and a world. | |
= 264.4 | |
But we never actually know a mind, a body, and a world | |
as they are normally conceived. | |
We just know our knowing of them. | |
= 275.3 | |
And this knowing, this substance of our experience, | |
the only substance of our experience, | |
is our self. In other words, we know ourself alone. | |
Awareness knows nothing other than itself. | |
= 296.2 | |
Be knowingly this open, empty, luminous presence of awareness. | |
= 306.8 | |
We don’t need to do anything special to make this happen. | |
Above all, we don’t have to manipulate the mind | |
in any way whatsoever | |
to be this presence of awareness. | |
= 323.0 | |
= 326.3 | |
This presence of awareness which is simply our self, what we refer to | |
when we say "I", is ever-present. | |
= 336.5 | |
= 345.9 | |
Just check this in your own experience. | |
= 348.9 | |
Nothing that I am saying this evening, | |
there is nothing that cannot be checked | |
in your own direct experience right now. | |
= 358.4 | |
I bring no special knowledge to this meeting. | |
I don’t have a store of knowledge | |
which I am disseminating. | |
= 368.2 | |
I’m just, within the limits of language, trying to describe | |
the current experience. | |
= 378.3 | |
Ask yourself, do I know anything other than now? | |
= 385.0 | |
= 392.3 | |
Try to experience the not-now. | |
Try first to experience the past. | |
= 404.5 | |
= 406.5 | |
It’s easy to experience a thought about the past. | |
But what about the actual past | |
to which this thought refers? | |
= 416.7 | |
Try to experience that. | |
= 420.0 | |
= 423.0 | |
Can you step into the past, | |
can you go one second into the past? | |
Or one second into the future? | |
= 430.9 | |
Thought can go there, | |
but what about you? | |
= 436.5 | |
= 443.3 | |
Really try to go there, to make sure that this is | |
not just an interesting philosophical conversation, | |
= 451.7 | |
but that it is actually your experience | |
that the past and the future are never experienced. | |
= 463.0 | |
= 468.0 | |
And if the past and the future are never actually experienced, | |
they are only thought about, and that thought | |
about the past and the future is always now, | |
= 480.3 | |
if this past and future are never experienced, | |
what does that say about time? | |
= 488.0 | |
= 491.3 | |
Time is a movement between a nonexistent past | |
towards a nonexistent future. | |
= 498.3 | |
It’s a theory. A necessary and valid theory, | |
but a theory that doesn’t refer to the reality of our experience. | |
= 509.3 | |
Nobody has ever or could ever experience time. | |
When I say "nobody" I mean yourself, awareness, | |
the only one that knows or is aware. | |
= 522.0 | |
= 537.7 | |
When I arrived off the plane from London | |
in Washington D.C. last weekend before coming here | |
= 550.5 | |
the friend who picked me up asked me how the flight was, | |
and she said, "How long did it take?" | |
= 560.2 | |
and I experienced thought being cranked up like an old motor, | |
a little resistant to get going. | |
= 575.0 | |
= 576.8 | |
And for a moment I could feel the cogs of thought almost moving, | |
trying to work out how much time the flight had taken. | |
= 590.0 | |
Because in my experience it had been now all the way. | |
= 596.0 | |
= 600.6 | |
I had never left London. | |
London had left me. | |
= 608.5 | |
I had never got onto an aeroplane. | |
A flow of sensations and perceptions that thought abstracts, | |
and calls a body in an aeroplane, | |
flowed through me. | |
= 624.8 | |
And I never arrived in Washington D.C. | |
Washington D.C. arrived in me. | |
= 631.3 | |
Or at least the cluster of perceptions | |
that thought calls Washington D.C. | |
arrived in me. | |
= 642.5 | |
In the same way | |
nobody ever walked into this room | |
and nobody is sitting on a chair | |
and nobody is listening to a talk. | |
= 654.3 | |
A colorful flow of sensations and perceptions appears in awareness, | |
but awareness never goes anywhere or does anything. | |
= 669.1 | |
It is always here and now. | |
= 671.0 | |
Not here a place and now a time. Here, this dimensionless, | |
now, this timeless presence of our own being. | |
= 682.5 | |
That is our experience whether we recognise it or not. | |
= 690.0 | |
= 699.0 | |
Now the mind may feel a little rebellious when it hears this. | |
It may say yes, yes, yes, that’s true, but there is an undeniable | |
continuity to my experience. | |
= 719.4 | |
And this undeniable continuity would seem to be evidence of time. | |
= 726.4 | |
= 732.1 | |
Where does this felt sense of continuity come from? | |
= 740.3 | |
All we know of the mind is the current thought or image. | |
And thoughts and images are intermittent. | |
= 751.3 | |
The body is known through sensation. | |
And all sensations are intermittent. | |
= 760.1 | |
All we know of the world is perception, | |
that is sights, sounds, tastes, textures, and smells; | |
= 768.2 | |
in fact nobody has ever experienced a world as such, | |
a world as it is normally conceived to be, | |
= 774.8 | |
we just know the current perception. | |
And all perception is intermittent. | |
= 784.4 | |
So if the so-called mind, body, are intermittent, | |
from where does this felt sense of continuity come from? | |
= 801.6 | |
It comes from the only thing, if we can call it a thing, | |
that is truly continuous, or in fact not continuous but | |
ever-present now in our experience, | |
and that is our own being, the presence of awareness. | |
= 820.2 | |
The presence of awareness is the only thing | |
that is known to be ever-present. | |
= 828.0 | |
Now the mind knows nothing of awareness | |
because the mind only knows apparent objects. | |
= 835.7 | |
So when the mind looks at experience to find | |
what it is that accounts for continuity, | |
= 844.6 | |
it cannot see awareness, | |
and so it manufactures a substance called "time" | |
to account for the continuity of experience. | |
= 856.4 | |
In other words, continuity in time is what eternity looks like | |
when viewed through the narrow slit of the mind. | |
= 868.0 | |
= 875.5 | |
Permanence in space | |
is what the infinite, unlimited nature of awareness looks like | |
when viewed through the narrow slit of the mind. | |
= 890.90 | |
Continuity and permanence are pale reflections | |
at the level of the mind | |
of the true eternal and infinite nature of awareness, | |
that is, of our self. | |
= 908.8 | |
= 930.6 | |
What else can we say about our self from our actual experience? | |
Which means right now, what can we know for certain about our self? | |
= 942.6 | |
Not what thought may tell us about our self, | |
but what we actually know, in this moment, | |
derived only from our experience of our self? | |
= 958.2 | |
Ask yourself, "Can I, this open, empty, knowing presence, | |
can I be agitated?" | |
= 972.2 | |
= 973.7 | |
Thought can be agitated. Sensations, or the body, can be agitated. | |
The world can be agitated. But what about you, the one that knows | |
the apparent mind, body and world? | |
= 992.7 | |
Can you, this open empty presence, be agitated? | |
= 998.5 | |
= 1005.2 | |
See, in your experience right now, that you are — | |
= 1012.7 | |
and this of course is just an image — | |
are like an open, empty space such as the space of this room. | |
= 1019.7 | |
Nothing that appears within this room | |
can agitate it. | |
= 1024.6 | |
We are all sitting peacefully now, but if we were to stand up | |
and start dancing, or fighting, | |
would the space of this room become agitated? | |
= 1036.7 | |
You are like that. | |
You, I, the presence of awareness, are undisturbable, imperturbable. | |
= 1049.0 | |
= 1050.5 | |
We don’t need to become imperturbable | |
and this undisturbability of ourself | |
is not dependant upon the condition of the mind. | |
= 1062.9 | |
Right now you, awareness, are utterly imperturbable, | |
and for this reason another name for our self is "peace". | |
= 1077.5 | |
Peace is not a quality that our self has, | |
it is what our self is. | |
= 1085.6 | |
Not peace of mind. Minds are more or less agitated. | |
= 1095.1 | |
This "peace that passeth understanding", that is not of the mind, | |
= 1103.3 | |
it doesn’t have to be sought, | |
it is not hiding the background of experience, | |
= 1109.8 | |
This very awareness that is seeing, hearing, knowing, | |
is pure peace itself shining in all experience, | |
however apparently agitated that experience may be. | |
= 1131.5 | |
= 1138.3 | |
Ask yourself, | |
"Can I, this presence of awareness, ever lack something?" | |
Thoughts can say that something is missing; feelings can say that | |
something is missing, but what about you? | |
= 1166.0 | |
= 1173.0 | |
Without referring to thought or feeling, | |
is there the slightest motive in you to avoid the now | |
and replace it with the not-now? | |
= 1185.0 | |
= 1189.7 | |
See that in yourself, this presence of awareness, | |
there is not the slightest impulse or possibility to avoid the now. | |
= 1203.0 | |
= 1204.3 | |
And what do we call this absolute absence | |
of resistance to the now? | |
= 1213.7 | |
The absolute absence of resisting what is and seeking what is not? | |
What is the common name we give to this? | |
= 1225.3 | |
= 1227.6 | |
It is called happiness. | |
= 1232.6 | |
We all know that when we are happy we are, by definition, | |
not resisting the now and seeking in the past or the future. | |
= 1244.7 | |
By "happiness", of course, I do not mean | |
a pleasant state of the mind or the body. | |
= 1252.7 | |
I mean this absolute impossibility of our self ever to resist or seek. | |
To resist what is and to seek what is not. | |
= 1270.7 | |
So happiness, like peace, is just another name for our self. | |
= 1278.4 | |
It is not a quality that our self has; it is what our self is. | |
= 1286.0 | |
= 1291.7 | |
What else can we say for certain | |
based on this current experience about our self? | |
= 1303.0 | |
= 1311.9 | |
When I was driving here, or being driven here, | |
the day before yesterday, from the airport in San Francisco, | |
= 1322.9 | |
I was looking in the wing mirror of the passenger’s seat, | |
and I noticed the words inscribed at the bottom of the wing mirror, | |
= 1340.5 | |
and they said: | |
"OBJECTS IN THE MIRROR ARE CLOSER THAN YOU THINK." | |
= 1347.5 | |
A statement of pure nonduality. | |
= 1352.0 | |
= 1358.0 | |
Objects that appear in the mirror of consciousness | |
are closer than we think. | |
= 1367.5 | |
How close to a mirror are the objects that appear in it? | |
= 1373.5 | |
= 1378.7 | |
Are there in fact two things, | |
one, the objects that appear in the mirror, | |
and two, the mirror? | |
= 1388.8 | |
Or is it all just mirror? | |
= 1395.0 | |
= 1399.7 | |
All we know of the apparent mind | |
is the experience of thinking, | |
and thinking is just a modulation of your self, | |
a modulation of knowing or awareness. | |
= 1412.4 | |
All we know of the apparent body | |
is the experience of sensing, | |
and sensing is a modulation of your self, awareness. | |
= 1424.4 | |
All we know of the apparent world | |
is the experience of seeing, hearing, touching, tasting, and smelling. | |
These are all modulations of knowing, | |
modulations of our self. | |
= 1441.5 | |
In other words, | |
we never truly know a mind, or a body, or a world. | |
These labels are just abstractions that thought superimposes | |
on the intimacy of our experience. | |
= 1456.1 | |
From the point of view of experience, | |
which is the only real point of view, | |
experience is much closer, much more intimate. | |
= 1466.8 | |
So close as to not admit the possibility of two things, | |
one, myself, awareness, | |
and two, the object that I know. | |
= 1483.4 | |
Even that is an abstraction. | |
It may be a useful stepping-stone, a halfway understanding | |
= 1492.8 | |
to conceive of thoughts, sensations, and perceptions | |
arising in awareness, but nothing arises in awareness. | |
= 1502.8 | |
The only substance of all experience, the only substance | |
of thinking, sensing, and perceiving, is already awareness. | |
= 1514.0 | |
= 1518.3 | |
What do we call this absolute absence of two things? | |
= 1527.4 | |
A subject that knows and an object that is known? | |
= 1534.0 | |
= 1538.4 | |
Take now the experience of hearing. | |
Go to the sound of the air conditioning. | |
= 1546.5 | |
Forget about the labels "sound" and "air conditioning". | |
Our only knowledge of the apparent air conditioning | |
is the experience of hearing. | |
= 1556.8 | |
How close does hearing take place to you? | |
Five meters away? Ten meters away? | |
= 1568.4 | |
Refer only to your experience, | |
not to what thought tells you about sound. | |
Where is hearing? | |
= 1577.0 | |
= 1578.2 | |
Is it close? Intimate? | |
= 1584.7 | |
And in the experience of hearing, | |
can you find two parts, | |
one part that hears, | |
and another part that is heard? | |
= 1596.4 | |
Or is it just one seamless, intimate substance called my self? | |
= 1603.0 | |
= 1610.8 | |
And what about this room? | |
Thought says I, the inside self in here, | |
sees the room, the outside world, out there. | |
= 1624.4 | |
But what does experience say? | |
All we know of the apparent room is the experience of seeing. | |
= 1634.6 | |
Remove seeing and the room vanishes. | |
In other words, we don’t know a room. | |
We just know the experience of seeing. | |
= 1649.5 | |
Does seeing take place five, ten, fifteen meters away from your self? | |
Or is seeing utterly intimate? | |
= 1662.5 | |
= 1664.8 | |
And can you find two parts to the experience of seeing, | |
one part that sees, and another part that is seen? | |
= 1675.5 | |
Or is it just one seamless, intimate substance? | |
= 1681.2 | |
= 1688.1 | |
And what is the name, the common name we give to the absolute | |
intimacy of all experience? It is called love. | |
= 1704.4 | |
Love is the most familiar experience that we all know, | |
the collapse or dissolution of the sense of a self in here | |
and an object, other, or world out there. | |
= 1724.8 | |
The collapse of this sense of separateness, distance, otherness, | |
not-me-ness, is what we call love. | |
= 1738.0 | |
= 1742.2 | |
Love is just another name for nonduality. | |
= 1746.9 | |
If we call it nonduality, there’s just a few thousand of us in the world | |
that are interested in it. | |
= 1757.8 | |
But if we call it love, or peace, or happiness, | |
then all seven billion of us are interested in it. | |
= 1768.0 | |
= 1772.4 | |
So why is it, if love, peace, happiness are the natural condition | |
of all experience, the substance out of which all experience is made, | |
how is it that it seems not to be experienced? | |
= 1793.5 | |
= 1797.3 | |
It is because of a single thought that rises in awareness, | |
made only of awareness, | |
= 1805.7 | |
which imagines that awareness shares the limits | |
of the thoughts, feelings, and sensations that appear within it. | |
= 1819.8 | |
It is like imagining that a mirror shares the limits | |
of the objects that appear in it. | |
= 1827.3 | |
With that thought alone, | |
the ever-present, unlimited awareness, which is what we are, | |
seems, seems, to aquire or take on the apparent limits | |
of the body and the mind, | |
= 1849.5 | |
just as the screen seems to take on the limits of an image | |
when a film begins. | |
= 1860.7 | |
As a result of this imaginary collapse or contraction of our self, | |
unlimited, eternal awareness, into a body and a mind, | |
these qualities of love, peace and happiness are seemingly veiled, | |
= 1884.7 | |
and it is for this reason that the self, | |
the separate self that thought imagines us to be, | |
= 1893.7 | |
is always by definition on a search | |
in the imaginary outside world | |
for the apparently lost love, peace, and happiness. | |
= 1910.0 | |
= 1911.8 | |
However, this imaginary inside self cannot, by definition, | |
find the love that it seeks because its very presence, | |
its apparent presence, is the veiling of that love. | |
= 1936.3 | |
All the separate self seeks is love; in fact, the separate self | |
is not an entity that searches, it is the activity | |
of resisting the now and seeking the not-now. | |
= 1951.7 | |
All this seeking ever wants is love, | |
but love is the dissolution of this seeking, | |
the dissolution of this imaginary self. | |
= 1966.5 | |
In other words, the separate self that seeks love | |
is like a moth that seeks a flame. | |
= 1977.2 | |
The flame is all the moth wants, | |
but it is the only thing it cannot have, | |
= 1985.4 | |
because as the moth touches the flame, it dies. | |
That is its way of knowing the flame. | |
= 1996.0 | |
= 1999.4 | |
It becomes the flame as it touches it. | |
That is the separate self’s way of finding love, | |
by dying in it. | |
= 2011.9 | |
The death or dissolution of the separate self | |
is the experience of love. | |
= 2023.0 | |
= 2044.9 | |
So, simply be knowingly | |
this open, empty, luminous presence of awareness | |
whose nature, whose inherent nature, is love, peace, and happiness. | |
= 2066.4 | |
Not a love, peace, and happiness | |
that is in the background of experience, | |
that has to be sought, | |
= 2075.6 | |
but that is shining in full view at the heart of all experience. | |
In fact experience is made out of | |
this substance called peace or happiness. | |
= 2094.5 | |
: gangaji | |
= 2.6 | |
So it’s absolutely simple | |
what I have to say to you. | |
= 10.6 | |
It’s what my teacher said to me. | |
And I’m still deeply discovering the reverberation of that. | |
= 21.9 | |
And it’s simply, "Stop looking for what you want." | |
= 29.8 | |
Not cynically stop looking for what you want, | |
because there’s a way of stopping looking for what you want | |
in resignation and cynicism and closing down. | |
= 43.0 | |
But innocently, openly, stop looking for what you want, | |
in this moment, not tomorrow when you have it; | |
= 53.4 | |
but in this moment, to take one moment, | |
= 57.6 | |
whatever it is you want, however mundane or profound, | |
and just stop looking for it. | |
= 67.6 | |
= 68.7 | |
And you will find more than what you could ever want. | |
Because more than what can be wanted is already who you are. | |
= 82.3 | |
= 84.9 | |
Too simple to be grasped, | |
but absolutely, completely realizable. | |
= 94.5 | |
= 95.8 | |
If, and it is a huge ’if’ of course, | |
you are willing to give up your hope | |
= 103.1 | |
that what you want will be found | |
in the next thought, or the next activity, or the next day, | |
= 112.8 | |
or the next man, or the next woman, | |
or the next teaching, or the next experience. | |
So that’s huge. That’s the challenge. | |
= 125.4 | |
= 127.3 | |
And I’ve blessedly travelled to Australia to challenge you | |
in that direction. That directionless direction. | |
= 143.6 | |
= 146.8 | |
It’s so simple that it has to be said over and over | |
because it just slips right by the mind | |
= 153.5 | |
and if it’s said over and over and in enough ways | |
and then not said ... | |
= 161.0 | |
it can just be revealed. | |
Not as something new, but as something absolutely fresh. | |
Not new but fresh. | |
= 177.5 | |
= 179.7 | |
Who you are is not new, | |
but it is always fresh. | |
= 187.1 | |
= 189.5 | |
Who you think you are is old and dead. | |
We just keep trying to think, think it a little better, | |
squeeze some life. | |
= 206.0 | |
= 212.9 | |
Is that clear? | |
= 215.0 | |
= 216.8 | |
It is? | |
Because that’s really the basis of what I have to say. | |
= 222.5 | |
= 225.3 | |
It’s not a teaching. | |
It’s not a belief system. | |
= 233.5 | |
It’s not a way to live your life. | |
It’s not a ’should stop’. | |
= 244.5 | |
It’s not an "if you stop, you will | |
be rich and famous and universally loved | |
and never have a sad moment." | |
= 254.8 | |
None of that, I promise. | |
= 258.4 | |
= 260.6 | |
If you’re willing to investigate for yourself | |
without believing it, or learning it, | |
or hoping to get something from it, | |
= 269.3 | |
just a pure investigation | |
out of the natural curiosity of the human mind, | |
= 276.7 | |
just to investigate for yourself, | |
"What is here when I stop trying to get anything?" | |
= 286.5 | |
"And how much of that is here? | |
And where does that begin and where does that end?" | |
= 298.6 | |
= 299.5 | |
And then the question, "Am I willing to trust that?" | |
Then the challenges get very big. | |
= 309.3 | |
But we’ll get to that later. | |
= 312.0 | |
= 316.5 | |
Any questions about what I just said? | |
Want me to say it again? | |
= 325.9 | |
= 326.8 | |
You already are everything you want, | |
only maybe not in the way you imagine what you want. | |
= 336.6 | |
And it’s that imagination itself | |
that keeps you from discovering that you already are | |
everything you want. | |
= 344.5 | |
So if you just take this evening as an experiment | |
to give up any imagination, any image of what you need | |
to be totally fulfilled — | |
= 360.5 | |
just give it up! | |
It’s just an image, just a thought. | |
= 364.0 |