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Dig Those Sunsets, Pony - Hanif Abdurraqib | |
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRZxQFhBSuw | |
so i'm on this plane. | |
but i don't really do heights, right, | |
like, freshman year in college, i damn near flunked out | |
first semester fucking with the top bunk in my dorm | |
i just laid there the whole time | |
in this blanket fort i made | |
i wrapped it in my mother's prayer beads | |
and my father's guilt | |
i called the thing childhood | |
and it was really hard to go outside | |
but i'm still on this plane, right, | |
so i'm like, thirty thousand feet in the air | |
with overutilized sweat glands and underutilized window seat | |
and this old woman next to me | |
she's seen too much, you know, you could feel it | |
she wears it like kevlar now | |
she's got eyes like the last ditch effort of a mason jarred firefly | |
headphones are coiled around her neck | |
kissing loudly | |
and i could tell she's listening to this nirvana song, right, | |
but i can only make out every three words or so | |
so it sounds like, like | |
hey, i've got a new, priceless, news. | |
this woman is sizing me up like a prize fighter, you know, | |
she leans in real close and she's all | |
"you nervous honey?" | |
and in my head i'm just like, no, i just like | |
testing the durability of my nails some days, right, | |
but before i can say anything | |
she takes her hand | |
and puts it on my chest | |
and it's wrapped in riot hoses, and poplar tree bark | |
and the fresh, violent sun of southern summers and she says | |
goddamn, boy... you got a firing squad in there tonight. | |
whole lot of guilty men at their disposal | |
yeah i've known people with hearts like these in my life | |
but i'm not really listening to her, you know, | |
i'm still trying to make out the nirvana song she's listening to | |
but i could still only hear like every three words | |
so now it sounds like, like | |
wait, i've got a new, heart-shaped, cancer | |
and this plane | |
is rattling us like ice cubes kissing the desert floor of a whisky glass | |
this woman doesn't even move, she just leans in closer and says | |
you know, you're too young to fear the rumble of metal and engine, | |
this is what your generation used to carve the bees | |
that will swallow us whole | |
your generation of metal, and engine | |
do you now fear the silver lining your own pockets | |
do you shake at the avalanche of adulthood | |
do you tremble at the idea of being swallowed alive in this monster | |
and i say... no. | |
no, i fear... the sky. | |
so, so the woman says, | |
what has the sky ever done to you that a lover has not? | |
have you not been recklessly carried | |
have you not given up control to trust something with wings | |
have you not found your heart held in the jaws of something stainless | |
high above a chorus of treetops, and city lights, and brilliant molecules of water | |
and then she says, | |
what is the sky? | |
and i say, ok... the sky is a big, blue, top bunk. | |
and she says - that ain't it. | |
child, what is the sky if not a lover arched around your body like | |
st. louis underneath a drum roll of fireworks | |
what is the sky if not a lover's arms | |
and i say | |
okay, so maybe i don't fear the sky | |
maybe i fear the alone my body will feel | |
when the sky decides to let me go. | |
and she takes her hand off my chest | |
holds it up against the window, pushes it real deep | |
and she says | |
look at this, look at this, child... | |
from up here, everything pure and white is magnificent and unbreakable and holy | |
from up here, we all have such amazing bones. |
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