tsaber/gist:932d97a1accb3eda4432f10c4223aa1e

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Lettr to Blackgyver
I partly projected onto you. I do think you have some sadism and inferiority complex going on which is why you act on top. So here's my review and why I acted the way I did.
Doing that however berefts you of a objective judgement when it comes to yourself in relation to others. It is volatile and you open a shortcut up in which you just don't check what you think about yourself against reality but apply a high authority anyway and look if it works. So when you come here and you are intimidating to others as well they greet you. And that's your substitue for being accepted and loved for who you actually are.

People see through it all the time. Most of them. The only people that don't notice what you do as wrong grew up with someone like you. They don't know that's what you call psychopathy or narcissism. But they feel its effect on others. Their lives are not existent because of that.


But it's their ability to be hurt that is also the strength that makes them enjoy live. So everybody not as tough on everybody, like you, is to you automatically an enemy in ideology. You are not fit for succesful social life like this. You will just make people scared of you and then the community goes to shit little by little since fear is the opposite of any other emotion. Fear makes your reality the only true one.

Because you are as I scared of them. Yours were sadists too so you copied their behaviour underestimating how wrong it is sincethen you can say you had normal parents which is not the case. I bullied people in high school without realizing what i was doing  to show you im not above. There is no above. THat is the illusion they succesfully enmeshed in your core thinking structures. And thats the one thing which makes it impossible for you to feel save.


I have been part of communities that can't defend or identify factors which will destroy them eventually. I waited 29 years for one of them to get its ass up and do the work.
They used me as revenge for my arrogance to judge them for what they are.
I'm not letting anyone put me in a bad position when they are too far gone. I move on.

Whenever it is wrong to interact in an otherwise silent channel that means that someone has enough godcomplex to think he can be certain. Healthy people know implicitly that when they say im certain they don't mean it becausew they are aware that 1 person can never be -completely- certain of anything not even his own genitals. You could be ill, hallucinating, under effects of pressure and whatnot.

The full-blown narcissist however doesn't know he's telling people he's a full-blown narcissist when he enforces his opinion.


I felt lost in another community that doesn't realize its pathophysiological lack of day to day emotion. Yet you have those things in you in above average. And thereby you're not a safe person to me. I was   27
feeling like my world was about to get real shit real quick which was not dda related but I see that there's some misplaced male toxicity. Github is awful nad passive-aggressive and                                                28
some parts of the game really feel like they are made to make you lose hope or feel your sad reality reinforced as one aspect of a wrong live that everybody accepts so readily..                                                    29


Ive been beaten made to be ashamed of myself and then forced to live differently in a world where being not the same is dangerous. It sums up as a shit life. and I escaped. And it doesn't make sense to stay somewhere else now that seems so familiar. because familiar is bad.
where things are amiss and not ready for change. I don't do or do the things do as my    32
statement. You get to decide whether you care to be educated by someone that's partly lonely because of not being understood. I'm free of all pressure and taught myself all I need to                                               33
know about behavior to be confident in that I don't need to act differently. By now I've not read all that much but about 10 books about phylosophies, narcissism, therapy, capitalism, 1944 and stuff like that. But no reference could make you accept someone as your equal. That's just not possible due to the makeshift-abuse-kid-mentality that is the core of this. You did something to survive but now you are stuck in that so you seek environments that work exactly the same because you don't even fathom there's hope for you yet.

Your persona is why you aren't happy you however deny the anger about that and dump it through harshness in your function as a mod. To you it feels like the person deserved it but you go way to far from the getgo because of that lack of correct judgement. And that's behavior which is red flag to me. And it's like murder. Once you do it it's not that bad anymore. That's where I see you. You are already commiting atrocities. You just deny them to be real since you couldn't have the power to truly hurt someone.

	Lettr to Blackgyver
	I partly projected onto you. I do think you have some sadism and inferiority complex going on which is why you act on top. So here's my review and why I acted the way I did.
	Doing that however berefts you of a objective judgement when it comes to yourself in relation to others. It is volatile and you open a shortcut up in which you just don't check what you think about yourself against reality but apply a high authority anyway and look if it works. So when you come here and you are intimidating to others as well they greet you. And that's your substitue for being accepted and loved for who you actually are.

	People see through it all the time. Most of them. The only people that don't notice what you do as wrong grew up with someone like you. They don't know that's what you call psychopathy or narcissism. But they feel its effect on others. Their lives are not existent because of that.


	But it's their ability to be hurt that is also the strength that makes them enjoy live. So everybody not as tough on everybody, like you, is to you automatically an enemy in ideology. You are not fit for succesful social life like this. You will just make people scared of you and then the community goes to shit little by little since fear is the opposite of any other emotion. Fear makes your reality the only true one.

	Because you are as I scared of them. Yours were sadists too so you copied their behaviour underestimating how wrong it is sincethen you can say you had normal parents which is not the case. I bullied people in high school without realizing what i was doing to show you im not above. There is no above. THat is the illusion they succesfully enmeshed in your core thinking structures. And thats the one thing which makes it impossible for you to feel save.




	I have been part of communities that can't defend or identify factors which will destroy them eventually. I waited 29 years for one of them to get its ass up and do the work.
	They used me as revenge for my arrogance to judge them for what they are.
	I'm not letting anyone put me in a bad position when they are too far gone. I move on.

	Whenever it is wrong to interact in an otherwise silent channel that means that someone has enough godcomplex to think he can be certain. Healthy people know implicitly that when they say im certain they don't mean it becausew they are aware that 1 person can never be -completely- certain of anything not even his own genitals. You could be ill, hallucinating, under effects of pressure and whatnot.

	The full-blown narcissist however doesn't know he's telling people he's a full-blown narcissist when he enforces his opinion.



	I felt lost in another community that doesn't realize its pathophysiological lack of day to day emotion. Yet you have those things in you in above average. And thereby you're not a safe person to me. I was 27
	feeling like my world was about to get real shit real quick which was not dda related but I see that there's some misplaced male toxicity. Github is awful nad passive-aggressive and 28
	some parts of the game really feel like they are made to make you lose hope or feel your sad reality reinforced as one aspect of a wrong live that everybody accepts so readily.. 29


	Ive been beaten made to be ashamed of myself and then forced to live differently in a world where being not the same is dangerous. It sums up as a shit life. and I escaped. And it doesn't make sense to stay somewhere else now that seems so familiar. because familiar is bad.
	where things are amiss and not ready for change. I don't do or do the things do as my 32
	statement. You get to decide whether you care to be educated by someone that's partly lonely because of not being understood. I'm free of all pressure and taught myself all I need to 33
	know about behavior to be confident in that I don't need to act differently. By now I've not read all that much but about 10 books about phylosophies, narcissism, therapy, capitalism, 1944 and stuff like that. But no reference could make you accept someone as your equal. That's just not possible due to the makeshift-abuse-kid-mentality that is the core of this. You did something to survive but now you are stuck in that so you seek environments that work exactly the same because you don't even fathom there's hope for you yet.

	Your persona is why you aren't happy you however deny the anger about that and dump it through harshness in your function as a mod. To you it feels like the person deserved it but you go way to far from the getgo because of that lack of correct judgement. And that's behavior which is red flag to me. And it's like murder. Once you do it it's not that bad anymore. That's where I see you. You are already commiting atrocities. You just deny them to be real since you couldn't have the power to truly hurt someone.